#only bc i was having like brain lag

[smalltimidbean]

I finally finished Bugsnax

[savageboar]

alright hot take: people are way too outraged about the rdr1 port. like yeah $50 isn't Great but good god i don't see y'all demanding ppl boycott skyrim anniversary edition on switch which is like 80 dollars now if you buy skyrim on switch it was 60 dollars and to upgrade to anniversary edition it's another 20. where's the half hour DON'T BUY THIS GAME rants for that.

[bentosandbox]

Ambience Synesthesia tutorial blog

rambled this out because I didn't have inflight wifi otw home and the turbulence was too crazy to draw

Buying the ticket

erm so they only dropped the tickets like slightly less than a month before lol kinda insane

The concert tickets were sold on Damai so you need a CN number or know/pay someone with one who'd buy it for you which is what I did by recommendation (A tier 1280 + 400 'service fee' [apparently it would have been cheaper if they only helped you half way or something but i wasnt gonna risk running into a payment hiccup so]) Iirc they sold it in two batches but I don't remember the ratio split between first and second wave…

I got a ticket for 5/5's afternoon show (so the second last performance), I DID meet an oomf who said they managed to snag a ticket for themselves on their own (without a Professional Ticket Snatcher) so its not too impossible to attain on your own I think??? (I didn't get a CN number until like 2 days before I flew back home soo)

Professional Ticket what?? Uhhh apparently there's a whole industry/scene for this you look for listings on xianyu/taobao etc for people to buy on your behalf, you have to give them your real name and identification number (so for foreigners it'd be your passport number) for verification purposes during entry so yknow yea

getting there

You could cab directly to the venue but my friend signed us up for the free shuttle bus (they had freebies last year but not this time) and before we boarded they gave us like free water and bread (apparently free raincoats too on rainy days) which was nice of them but also insane because. the venue doesn't allow you to bring food/drinks in so a lot of people were leaving A LOT of unopened bottles near the gate and I saw a venue staff just throwing them all into the bin (HOPEFULLY JUST TO CARRY THEM AWAY IN ONE GO AND NOT FOR STRAIGHT DISPOSAL….) They drop you off near the venue but you don't go in directly, there's a 'Doctor break room' where most people are seated waiting to be ushered in batches into the venue, but also a lot of people standing around on one side of the room swapping/offering merch

merch swap

ive been told this is a very concert culture thing but i feel like its kind of different because a lot of these are so high quality ike…you could sell them at Artist Alleys but here they are just distributing for free if you have a E2 60 blorbo lmao or whatever (there seems to be a tiny…? minority that prints official art but most of them seem to be handdrawn/made)

i was too unprepared for this lol i did exchange some of my old stickers (missed out on a collapsal plastic fan bc my brain lagged when the guy asked me and i went to my auto 'sorry i dont have any merch' response' :( regretted this bc the room got a little hot from the amount of people in there and i was wearing like 3 layers with that fan on my mind)

from people watching a lot of trades are arranged beforehand on weibo/other sites unless you're willing to yell WHO WANTS TO TRADEEE/anyone wants freebies (a lot of people were also wearing 'Feel Free to Swap Merch/Ask for Freebies' tags) which i was definitely not brave enough to do lol… met up with an oomf i got to know from last dec when i attended an arknights only and they gave me some birbs and charms (bottom of post), there was someone who got a free LGD zine and charm from me bc i posted on wb that id give a free copy to anyone with a Mod 3 swire/swummer LMFAO

I had 2 more people to meet but, uhhh so I bought an esim for mobile data and it would intermittently lose signal here and there which was a little annoying when getting coffee but it just died entirely when i reached the venue and it was kind of Dire because i was waiting for one more friend who was coming over from the fes and i couldn't contact them lmao. told the friend i came with to go in first because I thought if my food got confiscated at least my oomf could see it beforehand LOL

waited outside in a light drizzle for an hour trying to trouble shoot my data to no avail and ended up borrowing a staff's wifi hotspot to get my entry qr code (I actually bought a second data roaming plan on my local sim but i quite stupidly did not check the country coverage and only learned later that night that 'Asia' doesn't cover China kuxiao) she was so nice i was (bow emoji) so sorry to trouble you im a stupid gaijin and she was like no its ok enjoy shanghai!! pien

spent a good 30min next to this board praying for data to no avail

the show

erm anyway because of that clownery above i more or less missed the first piece (the one w the goated hoho) but at least i wasnt the guy next to me who went for a bathroom break right before starset came up

The live singing this year was definitely an improvement I think… I can't really remember the setlist off the top of my head but I'm sure someone else has already listed it out, there were a couple of new pieces that weren't related to the concert groups like a Babel/Kazdel?? one sung in Latin, a Victoria…? one (in victorian ofc) also an Amiya (? just remembering by the visuals they used lol) one in Japanese

ohh yeah so almost every track would start with like a faction logo transitioning in from 3d to 2d which was cool but also amusing because it was honestly bringing quite the 'I will Make Your Company Logo Into 3D Fiverr' vibes

Since I missed the first piece idk if any of The Dreamer(s) got 3D models but The Pilgrim(s why are they all singular) had Kaltsit playing on that piano (there was also a replica of that piano on stage the white one complete with 'Arknights' text on it lmao) and Siege being cool running around in 3D (and ofc Eureka during her denpa number) it was very cool but man... its a pity the other characters in the group just get their live2d png during the beginning and effectively get sidelined lool compared to say Phenomenal Agents idk if i like this tradeoff but that eureka bit was so good sheesh #NOVAFIVE⭐ULTRALIVESWEEP

The other stuff was really great too looking at you Lone Trail medley…!!!!! I might be wrong but I... assume... you're encouraged to karaoke bc they always show the lyrics on screen… I couldn't even hear myself anyway but it was very fun singing songs you can't get on joysound/etc with a whole crowd going at it too (even if most of them would only sing 1-2 lines of the chorus)

Mary Clare did Radiant (they had the lyrics scrolling on the sides very cool) and iirc the Throne group's song...? Radiant was so fun live

Starset did Monster > Telescope and when the latter ended they were like Bye! and we(?) started yelling ENCORE--awkwardly because idk how they do it here (I was half expecting it to be JP style 'an-call-roo' but a bunch of us just yelled en-core en-core here and there until they returned to perform Infected) speaking of yelling.. between every piece when they had to switch sets people would just yell memes or skill names (like Dage's) to pass the time or sth i barely caught half of whatever they were memeing about

did i forget to mention anything else uhhh originium rock turntable for Guide Ahead's boss theme/Dossoles Lobby and they had IS4 medley live throat singing very cool also the dancers they got for silbenherze's boss theme good stuff...

iirc after starset was like a behind the scenes video of how HG prepared for AS and a recorded lowlight video saying some stuff that i forgot LOL just some thank you message basically. 9.5/10 bc no missy/shu EP live

i just realised i forgot to display all the merch from the A tier ticket but w/e. light stick photo ft. merch swaps/gifts from friends and strangers 🥹 (the iffy lenticular card was literally dropped into my bag by an iffy coser (wearing the LT outfit..?!) while waiting for the cab LMAO)

[f1amboyant]

The rookie x tp au has me frothing at the mouth, they are so endearing to me, they give me so much joy and brain worms; Carcar has such variety of scenarios and dynamics, like, give me all the angst, all the fluff, all the spiciness!

But imagine, Oscar is still weird out about the whole Carlos situation, separating the TP from the vixen that has taking over his life is kinda difficult, you know; but now they are just back from a race overseas and they arrived late to Monaco and Oscar's house is still a work in progress so it is only natural he follows Carlos to his house and his very nice, very comfy bed. Oscar wakes up first, jet lag, and can admire Carlos sleeping for a while before getting his phone to check social media for a while before Carlos wakes up and he can beg for pancakes but he can't help but giggle after he sees the internet having a field day bc Toto has again make it seem like George slept at his house and everyone is coming with the rumors again and Oscar knows that it is not like that but can't help to wonder what would the reaction be if they could see his position right now 🫢🫢 (he totally wakes Carlos up who gets his vengeance roughing Oscar up AND THEN makes him pancakes)

Sorry if it is not greatly written, english is not my first language

Believe me anon, this tp x driver carcar au really makes me insane too!! 😵‍💫

Oooooh I love this idea!! Of course, Carlos would offer Oscar to come back to his house 🤭 And maybe Carlos offers to sleep on the couch, because he is a gentleman and he knows their situation is a bit unusual, and is a bit tentative for now. But then Oscar gets to witness Carlos in a comfy sweater and sweat pants, being all comfy in his home and that's his undoing. He thought his TP was hot with his sinfully tight white shirts. It's even worse in comfortable clothes. It does something in his heart (and in his crotch). He pounces on Carlos and they fall into Carlos' bed and Carlos shrugs like, okay sure, we can sleep together then 🤭

And in the morning, Oscar truly does admire Carlos' face as he sleeps, he is so so beautiful. Oscar doesn't know what he did to deserve that 🥹 And then Carlos snores loudly and the spell is broken 🤣 Oscar laughs, it wakes Carlos up, Carlos gets his sweet sweet vengeance. And when they're finally done, Carlos makes his famous fluffy pancakes (Oscar falls even more in love with him).

Aaaaaaaah this au truly makes me insane, they are so sweet together. I need more, please send all the asks 🥹

[reverieaa]

the concept of 3D/4D has messed with my brain for a while bc i'll have my df in the 4D and then wait for it to appear in the 3D. for obvious reasons, this has gotten me nowhere. how can i stop seperating the 3D and the 4D and really know that i have my df? thanks so much!

By actually realizing that there is only one, which is imagination. I completely understand where you're coming from because when I got into loa, the concept of there being 2 separate realities I was part of made me feel even more anxious and in desire. You can practice letting go of this concept by realizing there is only you as everything is just consciousness, this makes the concept of lack, time-lag, and something being separate from you, an illusion. When I feel like this, I think: well, if I'm not human but consciousness, why do i need to the senses or the outer reality as validation of something being real? That is the work of a human mind, and I am more than a human mind.

[papichulo-com]

Now that I'm 18, looking at The Outsiders characters, specifically Pony, Johnny, Soda, Steve, and Dally, I am just now realizing how young they really were. Especially Pony and Johnny. They really were so young having to go through so many things.

And the fact that Two-Bit and I are the same age always makes me a lag a little in my brain. WHAT?! I'M THAT OLD NOW?? IF HE WERE REAL WE'D ACTUALLY BE HOMIES?? Kinda also makes me cut him and little slack bc this ain't easy y'all. I still can't drive, I don't work yet either like him. Life really gets in the way of your starting that typa stuff sometimes. (But...we all know Two-Bit is mostly just a lazy bum in that area so yeah 💀)

And Darry.

Oh

Poor, sweet 'ol Darry.

Bro was only 20.

I'm gonna be 20 in 2 years.

Really puts into perspective how young he really was and what situation he really had in his hands.

And imagine, I've love The Outsiders since i was 12...IT’S BEEN 6 YEARS?!?!

Ugh, don't grow up y'all. This sucks :(

[pianocat939]

Helloo! May i get a Yan rise turtle blurb with a s/o that literally switch their whole personality when they kidnapped them ,s/o was once kind and bubbly full of life before they kidnapped them and now they became cold-hearted and won't hesitate to hurt the turtle for any chance of escape,the reason they behave this way is bcs they have the same situation in the past with a once loved one but more cruel,the s/o have scar's bcs of his past and now they became more tougher bcs of this(sorry if this ask is too long if ur not comfortable responding to this u can ignore)

Hm, I tried to fit it in but this is quite a lot to unpack.

Tw: kidnapping, brief mention of manipulation, tranquillizing + restraining, murder

Roman Numeral Twink:

He’s so hurt that you try to hurt him after kidnapping you. Sure, you don’t live where you are anymore, and you can only leave with him by your side. But do you really need to attack him? Seeing the scars irks him a lot, because it’s an unfamiliar reminder that someone hurt you, cruelly.

Lagging Brain Function:

I think he would know your past experience before kidnapping you, as he is the least likely to kidnap in the first place. If you are to attack him, he’s not phased, because he knows you’re struggling: which makes you more prone to his manipulation. He’ll kill your past kidnapper tho, under no circumstances.

Dictatorship of Turkeys:

He is definitely careful when he kidnaps. He knows every detail of your history/life so all malicious reactions aren’t a surprise to him. Every time you attack, he’ll either tranquilize or restrain you until you calm down; in other words, he’s trying to discourage your behaviour. Which may or may not work depending on who you are.

Macaque Said Cacaw:

He’s similar to Donnie. He doesn’t hesitate to kill the person who kidnapped you before. If you attack him he’ll just dodge until you wear yourself out (bro’s so fucking speedy). Once you are tired out, he gives you snuggles and comfort even if you try to get out of his grasp.

(Typed this up on my phone so grammar + spelling might be off)

[queenofapeacefuldawn]

that took long bc i had to collect everything and then my dad asked me to come downstairs and help him find his glasses 🤡

~*~*~*~

The boy caught Mini staring, and he did that cute thing where his mouth went up and his teeth showed. At that moment, Mini could've sworn someone had hit the "pause" button on the world. She saw that adorable gleam in his eyes, the way his pearly white teeth glinted in the sunlight, and his silky hair as it fell over the side of his face, ever so slightly covering his brown eyes. Mini's brain processed his smile at a slow pace as she gawked at him, her heart fluttering slightly.

Then he winked at her.

He winked.

At her.

And then maybe someone had hit the "play" button on the world again, because Mini's body had decided that that was the perfect opportunity to bump into a pole.

~*~*~*~

Mini tried to mask her faint smile with fake anger as soon as she heard the shuffling of clumsy feet behind her.

“Um, Mini? Can we, uh, talk?”

“We don’t need to talk.”

“But–”

“Leave, Rudy.” She didn't need to turn around to know that Rudy was probably about to babble about something behind her.

“That’s exactly what Aru told me to do, so I came here! Where else am I supposed to go now that you’re telling me to leave too? You know, I always thought you were the only one of the Potatoes who liked me, even if it was just a bit. They all think I'm just a, y'know, and it's annoying! If you’re going to be on my side, then who is?”

Mini made a small noise with her throat, a mixture of annoyance, confusion, and pity.

~*~*~*~

She knew the final war had taken a great toll on Aru. She was exhausted, and so was her mother. They would rarely come out of the museum, and Mini felt nothing but pity and sorrow for the two.

Though the burden she carried wasn’t as bad as theirs, she had never felt worse. Constant headaches and dark thoughts filled her mind. School work was piling up. And on top of everything, she had to talk to… Rudy.

She wondered how he was, back in Naga-Loka. Was he happy? Maybe being spoiled with gems and riches, like a normal naga prince? Did he have… A girlfriend?

Mini pushed her questions aside.

Math first, Rudy issues later, she told herself.

~*~*~*~

She got on her tippy-toes and looked through the peep-hole.

Rudy.

Her heart seemed to beat ten times faster, and her palms became slightly sweaty as her hand wrapped itself around the doorknob. She pulled the door open–revealing Rudy–and squinted, as he was dressed in his usual blinding white clothes.

All of a sudden her brain seemed to process things at a lag, though–one second, she and Rudy were a couple feet away from one another, and the next, Rudy seemed to have wrapped his arms tightly around her in a bear hug, preventing any oxygen from entering her body.

~*~*~*~

Rudy tapped his pencil against the table, legs swinging forwards and backwards under the desk. He took a breath in, as if he were about to reveal one of his darkest secrets.

“So, Mini…”

Mini gulped. “Yes?”

“I don’t know how to say this, but, you’re really smart and all, so…”

Her breath sped up a bit. “Go ahead.”

“Will you…Um… Tutor me?”

Mini froze as disappointed coiled up inside of her. The way Rudy had been speaking, Mini had assumed that he’d meant… Something else.

She barely processed the sorrow evident on Rudy’s face.

“You know, I would ask Aiden, but he would probably be annoyed, and I really need you to tutor me since I might join human school and all that, I need to know the basics of things work and stuff–” 

“Oh! Yeah, sure. I… I guess.”

~*~*~*~

Rule number three, make the first move, because Rudy is an idiot, Mini reminded herself of Aru’s words.

And then she leaned in without even a moment of hesitation.

I AM CHEWING ON GLASS AJDJSJFJDHHDHXHSHSD

RIPPING UP MY CARPET AJDUSHDJSJDHDBDBVDBSHSNEKSKEJEN

[loverofallthingssmart]

PLEASE UNLEASH your hadestown demons!!!!!

unleash my hadestown demons is right this is a BEAST thank you very much ive satisfied the brain worms by dumping all my thoughts under the cut

first off. the beauty of live theatre allows for so much nuance and beauty to demonstrated so i cant even begin to cover all the things that could make me insane its so wonderful i love live theatre everyone should watch at least one live theatre production i believe it will solve at least one problem they have

the tragedy of it all!! its a sad song but we sing it anyway, in hopes that we hope that orpheus doesn't turn. but he will. bc he loves eurydice so much so he went down to the underworld to save her.

guys. the repeated, cyclical nature of everything. its an old tale from way back when and its a sad song but they sing it anyway. the point of hadestown is the HOPE of it all wait theres an article (https://www.standard.co.uk/culture/theatre/anais-mitchell-hadestown-west-end-broadway-b1134613.html) regarding mitchell's thoughts on orpheus that make me insane im gonna paste a quote here:

"If Hadestown has a moral, she says, then it’s “you have to try, you have to have hope, not because success is a given – it’s not. Orpheus fails. We heroicise” – here she breaks off to apologise that jet lag has led to her making up words – “we heroicise Orpheus not because he succeeds but because he tries, and that endeavour alone is worthwhile. How to live, and not merely survive, is to believe things could change.” ARE U KIDDING ME OURGHH

which brings me to the topics of like. climate change and capitalism that the play discusses its so good. the fact that there's no spring or fall, only summers and winter because of persephone's absences, how "is it true" is just a song abt labor protests red carnations are a symbol of love and passion yes, but in germany theyre a symbol of the working class protest. its SO important hades has just created an industrial revolution, has built a wall, has workers work forever, "why we build the wall" is soooo incredible "hey little songbird" "chant" all the songs that take place IN hadestown itself are sooo gritty so despondent in a way its insane.

theres another article that discusses sm of it AND discusses like portrayals of persephone that i REALLY like. im gonna paste it here PLEASE read it it has so much good stuff from a classics person regarding it and OURGH too good

orpheus's "to the world we dream about" but then also "the one we live in now" like oh.okay. im NORMAL….

if u noted every single lalala in hadestown it would be 6 min long. the leitmotif oh i am so normal actually.

okay im not rlly a music person i call myself music adjacent bc my two closest friends r music ppl LMAOJDHJS but like. the first time u hear eurydice say "i do" i.e what you say to seal a marriage is after she tells orpheus she signed the papers. she does not say "i do" in the entireity of wedding song, where they talk abt their nuptials. she says "i do" in informing orpheus she cant come up with him. that she chose this life (or death i guess) of her own doing. isnt that vile….

in wedding song she goes "is he always like this" and hermes responds but then in "a gathering storm" she asks the same question to no response.. idk what's there but something is there.

hermes being the narrator thats involved in the play is SOOOO delicious for my brain, the way he switches between a character involved in orpheus and eurydice getting together, invested in their relationship to a all-knowing narrator who knows the end bc he sees this every time.

there's this sense that only orpheus and eurydice do not know they r in a repeated play. which heightens their love at first sight, the "i feel like i know u but ive just met you" OHHHHH my god.

the original nytw script having orpheus say "ur early. i missed u." directly paralleling hades and persephone but in a different context because OHHHHMYGOD and not even that but the fact that mitchell took it out bc she believed it engaged the brain when the moment should only directly engage the heart. so she had the lovers say each other's name. one last time. im soooo normal

also this is bc one time i was thinking abt hadestown and mitski's remember my name played so . just that song in the context of hadestown is SOOOO bc like. like. how eurydice couldn't rmbr herself when she became a worker but orpheus went down to save her and she remembered.

when he turns back and says.

"it's you" "it's me"

^ are you fucking kidding me. the sort of disbelief the happiness the love the incoming grief im inconsolable.

when orpheus turns back, eurydice says his name w so much joy SO MUCH JOY she is not upset at him. "what was there to complain of, except that she'd been loved?" <- quote from metamorphoses

like yes we wish orpheus doesnt turn around but at the end of the day, orpheus is still the trusting guy he was in the beginning. EURYDICE on the other hand KNOWS how cruel the world is and chooses to trust orpheus anyway. but. "it's a tragedy" and doubt creeps in. part of the tragedy lies in the fact that eurydice, "all ive ever known is to hold my own" eurydice runs after him w open arms, chooses to trust him, chooses to follow the trial, and he still turns around. BECAUSE he loves her ohhhmygod im so normal

obligatory mention to the fact that orpheus could never finish the song he was working on because it was a duet. like okay lol. im fine im normal hahahahaha are u fucking kidding me.

hades and orpheus are mirrors, there r two relationships in the musical obviously and it is clear theyre mirrors of each other even w/o the original script line but like.

hades gives orpheus the test that he himself goes through every spring. hades is the villain of the story yes but he is not evil. he gives orpheus the same trial, sees that if orpheus can judge him for losing faith in his wife through the course of their relationship, let's put his romantic nature to the test. let's see if he can feel the absence of his love and keep going. and he cant. bc orpheus has never had to learn how to fend for himself. so when u take away his support system, when u take anyone's support system, how is he, how r we supposed to succeed?

just. the song "how long" encapsulates hades and persephone's relationship SO WELL. "the girl means nothing to me." "i know. but she means EVERYTHING to him" the fact that this is the first time we persephone REFUSE a drink bc shes had enough oh were SOMBER somber the way the whole song just parallels itself and every verse GOD.

the love was there. the hope was there. its a sad song. its a love song.

every single time before they leave. every time they're on stage, eurydice is in front of orpheus. he trusts that she is before him and she never doubts that he is there. it is when their positions change, him in front and her behind that he bends. it is then that doubt comes in.

those r just the like the thoughst of the music and themes itself we can talk abt the ppl and the live play now:

so first. can we talk abt this we need to talk abt for reeve carney's last show the original orpheus his last show he didnt turn back. he and eurydice lived they passed the trial. sorry that makes me so insane bc like. imagine u play orpheus. doomed to a lifetime of looking back at ur lover and your final show, u finally get to stay. oh im very normal i just love the nuances of live theatre!!! what a send off!!!!

THEN we can talk abt how eva and solea play PERFECT eurydices, full of grit and used to the cruel nature of the world. and how lola tung i feel is a DECENT singer but shes not a eurydice shes so light and soft but idk. who am i to say.

also the soundtrack is just SO incredible so is the set design there's not a single ounce of stage space that is wasted like there are so many nuances like i cant even talk abt all that there is my FAVORITE musical for SOOO many reasons ough.

yeah i think that's it. this took me MULTIPLE hours and i feel drained abt talking abt all this. WOW i love hadestown not normal amounts. i can't die before i see this live its one of my goals i just need to see it live on broadway.

[luxsea]

so i finally beat bg3 for the first time last night :))

also hap halloweenie :]

(not all but some) thoughts dump

im honestly so glad i got spoiled for karlachs ending back at the start of act 2 so i had time to go thru the stages of grief, make sad playlists, etc bc my tav/karlach really hit me like a truck. i knew i was going to romance her before i even got the game bc she literally is the reason i started playing to begin with but doing her route feels very right for a first playthrough bc imo despite how devastating and lacking her story can be it sure does shine when its good. her introspective moments you can only get if you romance her are everything to me. knowing she cant be saved in the end lead me to choose more accepting dialogue options which lead to infinitely more satisfying and at times inspiring scenes than if i pushed the "what if"

as for the very end, in a way karlachs dying scene and/or going to avernus scene is a lot more than what most characters get even if theyre youre romanced character... despite her ending being shafted to begin with?? which is ridiculous. (correct me if im wrong. most of them had nothing to say and what ive seen uploaded ie shadowhearts romanced ending is so meh) lae'zels orpheus ending did make me tear up, everyone else was just kinda standing there wearing ridiculous armor bc i forgot.......

despite everything im really happy with karlachs scenes? and idk if thats just bc they were the romanced versions and bc i didnt have my hopes up for her (if i hadnt been spoiled i wouldve been LIVID) but it rlly was one of the most touching moments for me. the "how'd i do?" "you were spectacular in every way" "for you. and for the city, and for myself, and blah blah. but most of all for you" caressing tavs face and her repeating back to herself that she was spectacular like shes at peace just by those words alone. "it's the one thing i can't beat, isn't it? same below as above. i love. you." and the blue flames of all her love for them searing hot white and killing her engine faster?!? ough "you more than anything. i saw- ...goodbye, sun. goodbye, sea. goodbye" I FEEL SICK I FEEL UNWELL. i should be crying but my heart just aches she's just everything to me okay!!

and the avernus scene is better than i thought it would be, the music is so sweet and badass, sharing cigars!!, lots of gay fuel for my fire, the feeling that its just the start of a new journey and not the end, charging together into the hells its so mwah mwah as long as you ignore the trauma and the fact that we couldve solved this any other way!! (do wish wyll wasnt treated like an awkward third wheel if the three of you go considering he's the one who advocates for her and going to avernus is part of his ending too. but ofc im also going she's my wife and the interaction is rlly touching)

as far as the rest of the game the emperors writing was so flimsy and uh they did a really good job making it feel like your choices didnt matter much in the end considering the praise its gotten and how the game was marketed. rip it needs some serious work but i didnt hate it. karlach brain worms take a lot of credit

my highest praises overall are that ive never felt this attached to a player character that i've made before and ive never seen a more memorable cast of npcs. there's too many stand out moments to count that it makes the insane amount of lag and bugs i had worth powering thru

BUT IM FINALLY FREE I CAN FINALLY REPLAY AND DO IT ALL AGAIN BUT BETTER

[sugar-omi]

honestly all that was sooo what i needed to hear rn bc a girls been STRESSED so thank you <3 😭

i'm gonna major in biotechnology! i went to a votech and that was my trade there and i loved it so i wanna continue studying it. not totally sure what job i want yet so i don't know how much schooling i'll do but yeah! :D

BIOTECH??? THAT SOUNDS SO COOL N SO COMPLICATED please i literally had to google that shit bc idk what it entails but this is some big brain shit, n all i gotta say is good luck n i am cheering you ON!!🎉🫶🫶

although i think you got this in the bag already. anyone with the balls to do something so advanced. is a very smart n strong person. from what im reading on google this is some really cool shit, no matter what direction you go with it. n you have your work cut out for you, but i know you got this!!

so don't doubt yourself!! you got this!!! your brain is huge n you are powerful!!!!

n of course!!! i figured saying something like that would help with anyones anxiety, because really, its the pressure (even if they're not actually pressuring you) and the overwhelm of questions and expectations that make the future so stressfullll

*ramble utc because i... cannot help yapping i guess LOL and while i'd usually be embarrassed and delete my ramble n word vomit, but i figure someone else readding this may appreciate the relatability of what i have to say about my fams reaction to my plan after hs, and find some comfort in my word, if thats not to presumptuous

because i decided to take a gap year (it's been a year since i graduated, for reference), and everyone freaked out. my mom n uncles first reaction was "yeah well, you won't go if you do..." before they came around n agreed with my reasoning. and my dad was all "if i had it my way, you'd go full time--" (mind u, he likes to brag that he worked n went to school full time AND partied.... he did not finish college LMAO) and when i graduated, said to me a MONTH. AFTER MY GRADUATION. "if you're not going to college any time soon, go into the air force."

and when my extended family would ask my plans, and i only had a short "i'm just gonna take a break right now, figure some things out, work... and by then i'll have come to a decision." because i was tossing around the thought of art school, and then i thought abt getting an english degree to be either a teacher or go into writing/editing, journaling or whatever... but was also tossing around the thought of psychology and even real estate. my ideas for my future were absolutely jumbled, and i was torn between what would make money, what i loved, and what i was interested in that i thought could be a career.

it's tough. especially depending on your financial situation yknow, so your thought process always leads towards something profitable but also wanting to do something you enjoy, maybe even love, but not wanting to burn out and tarnish your beloved hobby/hobbies.

like while i did have people who supported me upfront, and never doubted my plan, it's the small things too yknow. because for months my dad's words haunted me, i felt like i wasn't doing enough. or when i met family, and they asked how it was going, or what i was doing now, i felt disappointed that my answer was always "i haven't been doing anything. just been sleeping, drawing, writing..." or eventually that and "practiced driving.. n that's about it."

or when i'd talk to close family members, and i admitted i was going through a hard time, my mental state finally falling on me now that i didn't have to be strong n power through school. i even got sick a couple times, because my body was finally feeling the stress. even now, i feel a mental lag, a fog. but i feel clearer, a bit.

but yknow, the looks and the "you said that last time" or "i think you're lying" is tough.

but at the end of the day, if not working for the summer, or not going to college for a semester, or 2, or 3, or a whole year. or if going part time, or whatever you're doing... and it benefits you, and it benefits your mental health. then do it, don't listen too much, don't feel too guilty.

because if you need it, just like i needed the time to rejuvenate, then don't listen to anyone else. don't force yourself to do anything. because if you have the ability to take a break now, do it. you're not doing this because you're lazy, or selfish, or unambitious. or anything like that. you're taking that break, you're taking this break right now, for future you.

because if you don't take it now, when will you take it? and when you do take a break... will it be at the cost of your health? will it be at the cost of something greater? when the break comes, will it come when you're being handed the gold medal you've been fighting for.. and then it slips out of your hand just like that.

anyway.. do whats best for you. what you need. don't worry about figuring things out too fast either, because in fact, i've been plotting this moment of my life for about 10 years, genuinely, and i still had to revise it. still had to come to a conclusion because even with all that plotting, it doesn't plan for the hard times. or the 'you' you are right now. you will be someone else next week. and you will be someone entirely different 2 months from now.

take your time. because if you jump into something, and are unsatisfied, or "waste" time doing something other than what you "should be doing", the time still passes.

if you "waste time" anyway, waste it on yourself. not others expectations. or wishes. or their dreams.

and once enough time passes as well, no matter what you do by then. the questions do stop coming. the weight of the future, once you get there, is suddenly not so... big. intimidating.

you do not need a grandiose plan. if you are content with the future in your mind, that is enough. because at the end of your life, who will sit in that chair and ponder the life you lived, and weight it's satisfaction, if not you?

[togamicrying]

Homecoming

hi i wrote this instead of working on my final paper like a grown up. silly little fluff piece about the thh survivors meeting up to celebrate the completion of the hope’s peak reconstruction. naegi-centric bc he makes for the easiest pov haha.

this is soooo self indulgent LMFAO

roughly 2k words of schmaltz, possible part two featuring drunk shenanigans to follow but i make no promises. i’m going to have to write my paper sometime, lol

Almost seven years to the day the six survivors of the Hope’s Peak Academy mutual killing game escaped, they found themselves once again standing before the school’s massive entrance gate. Seven long years of painstakingly rebuilding the ruined world, of surviving against staggering odds, of keeping their hope in the future alive. Now, surrounded by the future they had strived for, everyone seemed to be at a profound loss for words.

Kirigiri was the first one to break the silence.

“Well, we can’t just stand around out here forever,” she chided, a sly smile ghosting across her lips as she spoke.

At her words, Naegi was suddenly struck with a profound sense of deja-vu. She had said something like that then, too, hadn’t she? He let out a breath he hadn’t realized he had been holding, immensely grateful -- as always -- for her ability to keep them moving. 

“She’s right,” came a cool voice from his other side. “Let’s get a move on, headmaster.” Togami punctuated the remark with the slightest nudge to Naegi’s side, and he suddenly felt bashful.

Headmaster. Though they had all helped out in the reconstruction effort, it was no secret that the project had been his baby, and none of them -- save himself and Kirigiri -- had yet to see the final culmination of their efforts. He felt a new current of nervous energy run through him at the thought of playing host. He allowed himself one deep breath in and out before --

“Alright, alright. Let’s go, then,” he laughed, unlocking the gate and stepping aside to let the others through.

Asahina pumped her fist as she jogged through the gate, seven years of hard work having only dampened her spirits slightly. She whooped loudly from several feet ahead of them before calling out, “Come on, slowpokes! I’m so ready to see what finishing touches Naegi-kun and Kirigiri-chan added since we were last here!”

Fukawa trailed behind her, a confidence to her gait that had been entirely absent during their escape. Her poor attitude, however, had remained largely intact -- “Not all of us are more muscle than brain, you know! It wouldn’t kill you to walk like the rest of us!” Nevertheless, her step hastened as she stalked after Asahina.

Hagakure loped through the gate next, entirely unconcerned with even attempting to keep pace with them, a brown paper bag held precariously under one arm.

Togami and Kirigiri lagged behind, opting to remain at the entrance with Naegi.

“Makoto, are you ready?” Kirigiri’s voice was gentle, but her eyes held a certain impatience. It occurred to Naegi that she was likely feeling a bit strange about everything as well, and a twinge of guilt ran through him at the thought.

“Yeah, I’m ready, sorry,” he said sheepishly, making no move to step through the gate despite himself. “It just... feels a bit strange, you know? I can’t believe we’re all back here again.”

Togami rolled his eyes, though Naegi failed to detect any venom in the act. If he didn’t know better, he’d almost say he looked fond.

“We’ve invested quite a bit of energy into this project. It’s foolish for you to be hesitating now that we’re at the finish line.”

There was no real bite to his voice, though Naegi pouted for the sake of ceremony anyways, before allowing a soft laugh to bubble through.

One last deep breath in and out, and he stepped through the gate, Kirigiri and Togami falling into step beside him.

As they approached the sturdy wooden doors of the school’s entrance, Hagakure waved his one free arm, flagging them down.

“Yo, Naegi-chi! You’ve gotta unlock the door too, dude!”

Naegi flushed, sprinting ahead to meet them while shouting a hurried apology. He registered a faint chuckle from behind him, though whether it came from Togami or Kirigiri, he wasn’t sure.

As he fit the key in the lock, Asahina spoke up from beside him.

“Hey, you know what? Last time we were all here -- like, that last time -- Naegi-kun called it a graduation. Does that make this, like, a homecoming?”

Togami snorted. “I can think of about a thousand places I’d sooner call home.”

“Whatever! I thought I sounded pretty cool -- it’s like, we’ve come full-circle, y’know?”

Though he remained unshaken at Asahina’s bristling tone, Togami’s disposition seemed to soften imperceptibly. “I suppose it’s apt, in a strictly metaphorical sense.”

Naegi laughed as he heard the click of the lock catch, pushing the door open.

“Homecoming.” His voice was almost a whisper as he spoke. “Yeah, I think that feels right, Asahina-san.”

He felt the gentle pressure of Kirigiri’s hand on his shoulder and smiled, before leading the group through the threshold.

»»———-　　———-«« 

Once they had settled around the largest table available in the dining hall, Hagakure eagerly rummaged through the paper bag before retrieving a deep blue bottle, the glass frosted over beneath an expensive-looking label. Placing it on the table with a sort of manic pride, he turned to Naegi.

“Alright! Togami-chi shelled out for the good stuff, so it’d be a waste not to drink it properly! Naegi-chi, you wanna help me grab some glasses?”

Naegi laughed, rising to accompany him. “Sure, but it’s not like we stock any o-choko for it -- we are a school, you know.”

Hagakure shrugged, “that’s fine -- we’ll make do with some good old fashioned shot glasses!”

The four remaining at the table exchanged a series of looks ranging from bemused to exhausted as Naegi followed Hagakure to the kitchen. Asahina sighed.

“Seasons change, but you can always count on that guy to be thick-headed, huh?”

Fukawa snickered, before breaking out into a wide grin.

“Wait, did that oaf say that you paid for that sake?”

Togami faltered under her accusatory tone for just a moment before gathering himself. “Among other things. He seemed to be under the impression that one bottle would be insufficient for his purposes.” He punctuated the remark with a kick to the bag, allowing them all to hear the sound of clinking glass at the motion.

Realization dawned on Asahina’s face, and she burst into peals of laughter, drowning out Fukawa’s snide giggling.

"You guys went shopping together?"

A barely-there snort from Kirigiri, sat beside him, was enough to refracture his composure. Togami grimaced.

“It’s not as if it was my idea. When I heard him telling Naegi about how he was planning on picking up some ‘brewskies’ --” the word was spat out, dripping with disdain “-- I had to intervene.”

Unfazed, Asahina snorted. “So it totally was your idea to go shopping together!” Nearly in tears, she leaned against Fukawa for support. 

“It was my idea to save us all from having to choke down whatever swill he picked out,” Togami huffed, crossing his arms and looking uncharacteristically childish. “You’re welcome, by the way.”

Another snort from beside him. “How noble,” Kirigiri drawled. 

Whatever response Togami had planned for her was cut off by the sudden -- very noisy -- reentrance of Naegi and Hagakure from the kitchen. Hagakure, precariously balancing four juice glasses between the fingers of one hand, a pack of soda gripped in the other, called out to them.

“Naegi-chi stocked up on chaser too! Dunno how well sake and soda will go down, but it’s better than nothing, yeah?”

Naegi, for his part, trailed behind him with the remaining two glasses in hand. “Those were for the students,” he sighed with all the exhaustion of a man who had clearly spent the better part of the past two minutes arguing that point.

“I’ll make a note to restock before the semester starts.” Kirigiri’s voice was even as ever, though Naegi noticed the mirth behind her eyes. “If I’m being honest, I expected something like this would happen when you suggested we all meet here. Frankly, if we only wind up being down one pack of soda, I’d say we’re in a good position.”

“See dude? Kirigiri-chi says it’s no big deal too!” Hagakure set the glasses down at his place on the table before sliding one out to each of them in turn. Naegi issued a silent prayer of thanks for Kirigiri’s reflexes as she just barely stopped hers from falling off the edge.

He handed one of the glasses in his hand off to Hagakure before sliding down between Kirigiri and Togami, nervously fiddling with the rim of his own cup.

“I know,” he sighed. “I guess it’s just kind of nerve-wracking being this close to reopening. I keep waiting for something to go horribly wrong,” he laughed, though any humor that might have been in it was strained.

“I don’t know if I’d call a missing pack of soda ‘horribly wrong,’ Naegi-kun,” Asahina chimed in gently. “Everything’s gonna be totally fine, okay? You’ve got this!” She threw a thumbs-up his way as she spoke, earning a scoff from Fukawa.

“All of you are so dense,” she grumbled, looking around the table in exasperation. “It’s not about the soda, it’s about what the soda r-represents! It’s a symbol -- t-the first domino in a chain reaction,” her voice began catching as she ramped up.

Naegi’s fidgeting worsened subtly, and Togami glowered. “You’re not helping,” he snapped.

“And y-you are?” Fukawa tugged on the end of the one long braid she had slung over her shoulder. “All of you are so insensitive!”

Kirigiri cleared her throat sharply. “None of you are helping right now,” she said plainly, before turning to Naegi who, indeed, didn’t look any better for all of their comments.

“It’s... normal to feel apprehensive right now,” she started, an edge of discomfort in her voice as she struggled to sound soothing rather than curt. “We’ve all been through more than enough to warrant that.”

“Yeah, man. The tragedy was like... a total bummer. Hard to move past something like that,” Hagakure’s voice carried an uncharacteristic heaviness to it as he spoke. “But Asahina-chi’s right, you’ve totally got this! Ultimate Hope it up, dude!”

Naegi stilled, finger frozen in place on the rim of his glass. The others gaped at him, aghast.

All of them jumped in surprise when Naegi suddenly tipped his head back and let out a full body-shaking stream of laughter before slamming forward to lean on the table.

“The tragedy --” he gasped out between laughs “-- was --” another gasp of air “-- a total bummer?” He looked over at Hagakure’s unnerved expression, clearly having not received the reaction he anticipated from his words of comfort.

Asahina was the first to recover from the outburst. “Geez, you broke Naegi-kun,” she snickered, elbowing an increasingly distressed Hagakure, “way to go!”

Naegi’s gaze flicked over to her, shooting her a shaky grin as he struggled to compose himself.

“What! I totally didn’t mean to do that -- I was trying to be like, comforting and stuff!”

Naegi laughed again, tension slowly draining from his posture. “Don’t worry,” he snickered, “weirdly, I think that actually worked -- thank you, really.”

Hagakure sagged with relief. Togami rolled his eyes for what must have been the thousandth time that day, though he, likewise, seemed noticeably less tense than a few moments before.

“’Total bummer,’” he scoffed. “Honestly, read one book.”

Fukawa smirked, “I’d recommend S-see Spot Run as a good starting point.”

“Hey!” Hagakure cried out, indignant, “I read! And not just the easy stuff either -- I could totally school you all on panpsychic theory!”

Sensing a squabble, Naegi intervened before anyone could speak further on Hagakure’s literacy skills.

“We came here to celebrate, didn’t we?” He reached across the table for the bottle, forgotten up to this point. “Togami-kun, you paid, so I think you should do the honors.”

He extended the bottle towards him, smiling, but Togami simply shook his head.

“Be that as it may, I think it would be more appropriate for you to take on that role -- we wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for you, after all.”

He paused for a moment, flushing slightly at the sincerity of his own words. “It’s servant’s work anyways,” he continued, pushing the bottle towards Naegi with increased force, “you’re much more suited to the task than I am, certainly.”

Asahina booed from across the table, but Naegi just rolled his eyes good-naturedly.

“If you insist,” he teased, uncapping the bottle and pouring a small amount in each glass. When he was finished, he tipped his own glass in the air ever so slightly.

“I’ve never been great at speeches -- you guys all know that by now,” he began, a sheepish grin curling across his face. “But I just want you all to know how much I appreciate having you here with me,” his eyes began to cloud with tears, and he blinked harshly to clear them.

“Told you he was going to cry,” Fukawa whispered to Asahina who, misty-eyed herself, simply smacked her on the arm.

Naegi just smiled wider. “I really, really have no idea how I would have made it through any of this without you guys. I just want all of you to know that.” He shifted nervously on his feet, “so, uh, thanks.” He sat back down with a slightly nervous laugh.

“Oh! Right!” he said, suddenly snapping-to and re-lifting his cup.

“To our homecoming!”

To his absolute joy, despite their varying levels of enthusiasm, every one of them said it back.

[oncecharmed]

get to know the author!

name : Tink pronouns : she/they preference of communication : discord bc tumblr im's lag too much but i'll work to my partners preference most active muse : @sacredslaycd is probably my most active but Bryn ( @oblitum ) and Nadia (on @echoburnt) often have periods of taking over my brain and holding it hostage. experience / how many years : I started writing via pages on fb in 2012 so. . . 11 years? Wow that makes me feel old best experience : I've met several of my best friends through rp. I flew out to canada for one of them and we had the best time. Then there's my other friend who i'm also super close to. Those two are like sisters to me. Also though meeting @cruelprincae / Chrissie and creating Jo and Hope together. We've had some of the best times and I adore her. rp pet peeves : Not reblogging from source, gatekeeping, uh. . . the ableism. I have more but it's your lucky day bc my brain has blanked. fluff, angst, or smut : I'm an angst whore! Love fluff too but not a big smut fan at all. Will only do it with people i'm super comfy with. plots or memes : I love memes as much as the next person but I rly rly love plots and established sl's. It's so much easier to reply to memes when I have ideas! long or short replies : It used to be long, seriously, I used to write essay's for replies lmao. Nowadays it tends to be somewhere between the two though! I can still do long if we have an established plot, otherwise it'll probs be short bc that's how my brain works. time to write : I seem to end up writing during afternoon's/evenings. are you like your muses : Nah. Maybe the odd trait but not overly. Prue is a pretty 'nice' muse but Hope for example can be a real bitch and I am not! I am very very friendly unless you give me a reason not to be. (I.e. I won't take any shit)

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[space-ninja-fashion-show]

has higgins' snake ever gone on an adventure by herself (read: got lost in the orbiter/dormizone/peregrinus)

This sent me down Such a brain essay about how Higgins' snakes work holy shit

Actually I'm just gonna singular it now bc it's easier. One snake. Re.

She is a lil subset of Higgins' consciousness. Capable of individual thoughts/actions but still always drawing from the greater pool of Higgins' personality/goals/etc. Her cognitive ability when hanging off of Higgins' arm is around that of a shockingly smart bird like a parrot or a raven, with the occasional ability to sass Higgins about something

Higgins can technically forcefully take control of her by overriding the lil chunk of his consciousness she uses, but rarely ever chooses to do so. It's mainly when Higgins' idea of Dealing With An Enemy is an actual plan and Re's is "bite >:)"

I was rolling with Re being unable to detach from Higgins for the longest time (ignoring the idle animation where the snakes are crawling all over the place in a very un-snake-like fashion. Now I'm saying they have magnets or something to be able to stick to Higgins properly in general) but this made me change my mind bc Fun. So she Can just up and leave tho only ever chooses to do so during cosy downtimes

The thing is, the further away she gets, the worse the reception/lag between her and the rest of Higgins' consciousness gets too. This is why despite Higgins being able to remotely sense things through her, she's not a good reconnaissance tool. The further away she gets, the simpler her thoughts and behaviour becomes bc she's able to fall back on Higgins less and less, until she is behaving entirely like a normal snake. Not much further out and she curls up and goes in hibernation, having lost signal completely

(Higgins can theoretically find her at infinite range and get her back but he'd prefer not to experiment with that)

Higgins didn't decide on her pronouns btw she picked those herself. Once Higgins finds out that he's trans there emerges a joke about Re being purposefully contrary. She agrees, in one of her special moments of sass, saying she's cooler than to share pronouns with him

She is generally content to hang out around/on Higgins during downtime or sometimes on North's shoulders (as i said she draws her simple personality from Higgins and one of the most important traits she thus aquires is "love North"), but there was also at least one Helminth visit where she was left with North. The Helminth automatically puts frames in hibernation when working with them which means Re was asleep too despite being outside the room, but still, emotional support noodle. The Helminth was v unhappy about this tho, about Higgins coming to visit it "incomplete." It's willing to agree to disagree on fixing Higgins' scars but if he shows up snakeless again there will be Words

Holy fuck this got long

Anyway she has never gotten Truly Lost bc she is kinda Unable To due to having a constant connection to Higgins, but she did get accidentally sent down to the Crysalith via elevator once while Higgins was Not in said elevator so he just got hit with a whole lot of Snake Confusion the moment the doors opened and had to go retrieve her

She does slither around on her own in the Peregrinus sometimes tho when travelling between missions and occasionally jumpscares the crew this way. It's also quite a sight to witness Local Red Veil Edgelord Ched going "pspspsps" at Re poking out of a vent way above where he can reach bc he wants to make friends with the weird snake but also has some grave misunderstandings about just how connected to Higgins she is

(Higgins plays back that memory for North later and they both lose it)

[autumngracy]

My typical night is unfortunately just reading until the brain fry sets in

"Preferred" method?? Bruh I got that adhd sleep lag/hypersensitivity bs; it takes me 1-2 hours to fall asleep unless I worked myself into genuine exhaustion from physical labor.

Best "preferred method" I got is like ... listening to some kinda instrumental music until I fall asleep, but I can't really do that bc the music needs to be on a loop (song change is too jarring), and then I end up falling asleep with headphones/earbuds on, causing me to hear the music in my sleep and therefore be in fucked up sleep state where I'm sort of dreaming but I also have an accurate sense of the irl passage of time, leading me to not feel as rested as normal and not really be sure if I was even actually sleeping; PLUS doing this means I can only sleep in like single position, which really isn't how my restless pos chiropractic nightmare of a body likes to work, AND it means I also can't wear the earplugs I actually need to wear to keep from being woken up by the abundance of loud noises I'm hypersensitive to ... so I can't even really do it ...

(Also oh my god the earplugs. The earplugs suck so bad. I have such tiny narrow ear canals and literally every pair I've ever tried ends up being so uncomfortable. My ears are rubbed raw 24/7 and sometimes literally start bleeding but there are so many sources of noise in my house and I'm so sensitive that I cannot choose to go without them even if they're causing me so much pain my adrenaline starts spiking. It's fucking horrible.)

Drinking comforting beverages before bed is really nice, until you're juuust about to finally drift off to sleep, and then you suddenly realize you need to pee.

Melatonin doesn't really seem to ... work on the sleep problems I have tbh, and I can't take weed bc depression/anxiety issues can get way worse on it, and it can also trigger other possible latent mental illnesses.

I envy people that can fall asleep at will so so so so much; like my dad literally falls asleep within minutes and can't be woken up unless you actually start yelling at him. It's like a goddamn superpower. Do you know what I would give to be able to regularly fall asleep in under thirty minutes???

No matter what I do I'm probably only averaging about 5 hours of sleep a night, and that's factoring in the weekend days I sleep in a bunch to makeup for sleep deficit ...

[undertheopensky]

Skyward Sword!

Delayed bc brain decided to hyperfixate on Majora’s Mask for two weeks (???) but I am Going to play this (and enjoy the fuck out of it)

I’m a lot more pleased with the motion controls than I expected to be! My first experience with motion controls was the Kinect, and between the space requirements, the unresponsiveness, and the COMPLETELY arbitrary way movements were linked to actions, I hated it.

In SS at least, the movements are very intuitive. Not only does Link swing his sword in the same arc you swing the wiimote, if you swipe back with intent he does a backswing! You have NO IDEA how excited I was to discover that. It’s also very fluid, with minimal lag between the motion and the action and also between actions. Swinging the wiimote to swing on a rope and flicking it to toss things are both excellent - I’m struggling a little with the ‘balancing on a rope’ system, but that’s not because it’s unintuitive, it’s because my hands aren’t steady.

I’m not great at getting the exact angle of a strike right yet - horizontal slashes are the bane of my existence rn! - but that can probably be attributed to the fact that I can’t sit upright for more than about twenty minutes at a time at the moment and this is not really a game that lends itself to slouching. When I first tried it and was able to do so either standing or at least sitting up straight, it seemed to work well.

I definitely appreciate being able to recalibrate the ‘centre’ point so easily - I’m constantly moving slightly, shifting weight and folding or unfolding limbs, and it’s great that I can quickly and easily recalibrate when the shift is enough to throw off my ‘straight line’.

Pointing the controller to select things is… well. I don’t know why, but it works fine for things like aiming with the slingshot - and I really struggle with things like menu selection. Im constantly overshooting or trying to click on an option and having the movement of my hand from the button press move the cursor off the option. Maybe I’ll adjust once I get my eye in a bit more.

I’m tired now. Need to lie down for a while.