#one of these days I'll manage to get a J2M

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My two birthday photos from May 18! I love them both so much (and this is hands down my favorite solo Misha op to date!!!)

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As some of you know I am one of the leaders on Supernatural Amino and the past weekend when we got the news we just couldn't get to make the usual weekend challenge. Here's what I wrote and partly how I reacted , I feel like the last things I wrote were like open letters towards y'all and I just hope that some words and to see the support and love in this family helps a little 

No weekend challenge this time. Here's why:

Hello y'all, this is Sam,

As some of you have noticed, this weekend we got no weekend challenge.

The truth is that the news hit us all so much we couldn't think of anything better than just letting people deal with it how they can, and we had to deal with that as well. Personally I still have not absorbed nor elaborated the informations about the end of the series next year, it's still far and we have a lot to enjoy and will have those moment forever, but still it hit me right in the guts. 

Supernatural means so much more than just a show, it's not just a way to spend time and entertain ourselves, it's not something that will pass, I know most of us know what I'm talking about and what the so family means, we will always care about the story, the cast and crew, the people, the other fellow fans. We do Because we are not just a fandom, we are a family. 

I see that some people tell others don't cry because it's over, smile and be happy because it happened. But I don't quite totally agree with that, I say both, I smile it happened (and it's still happening) and I am sad it's over (not yet!). All of it and even more because if there's something we learn from supernatural is that it's okay to be sad, it's okay to be angry, or numb, it's okay to have happiness and sadness and confusion because it's part of life and it's part of us, every emotion, everything we feel completes us, and above all. Over ? It will never really be over. This? This is real and will stay after the show stops airing new episodes, new stories, we have developed our owns too.

Some need to grief this huge mountain that just seems to have been fallen from the clear sky, unexpected somehow because as the show keeps kicking stronger every year and the fandom is of the most loyal I know, we didn't see that coming any time soon. 

 It happened,

and we all deal with it how we can,

  because it’s okay to feel how you feel, it’s okay to feel, period.

It helps to cry, scream, or simply talk,

It helps to paint, sketch, draw something

Write down thoughts or write fanfictions, imagines, shorts

It helps to make edits and photo manips, to play with colors and lights

It helps to roleplay and keep the flame alive

It helps to have someone reminding us to drink and sleep and eat, like the Winchesters too need to be reminded sometimes.

What I wanna say is, take your time, because it takes time, and it hurts like hell, it does, because it's real, because it reveals how true it all is and how deep it gets us, which is both getting us emotional and incredibly proud of being part of something this huge, worldwide connecting people and saving lives since 2005.

It is not the end, as the quote goes "nothing really ends, does it?" And it couldn't be more true.

What after the show ends? What do we do?

Basically, calling all fans!

Besides there's still plenty of time before supernatural closes, we do what we do best, we stand together, we keep doing what we've been doing, we keep create, support and share with the world everything we have learned and we will look forward to what else new we can discover and learn, one never stop learning, one never stop getting surprised by life, every single day is different and new even when it seems like the same, even when it seems too hard, we go through, even when we go down we fix the day and we keep fighting, because that's what we do. Our values, our hopes and wishes, won't ever get wiped out, by the way... As for glitter, good luck getting rid of us! 

So, I say we can do a few things:

1. We grief, take time off the media

2. We create something,

Draw, write, share what supernatural means to you, be part of the current fan-projects, because we all make this possible together with the heroes we look up to.

- Tweet your support and love, write a letter, tell us something about yourself, the THEM something about yourself and as it is painful for us it hurts more them than us, it is painful for everyone so lets give them the best thank you we can but not as ending, not as goodbye, but to celebrate every day the friendships, the family, the examples we carry on in life, To share that strength that is in our heart making us all fight harder for each other. We are not alone, they are not either, we will never be.

Either way, don't forget to drink, breathe, eat and sleep, I forgot most of this myself, and I keep reminding it trying to get it together.

So, just FYI, I submitted a wiki (on supernatural amino) that I did a while ago to keep all the fan projects together, you can  pin it and submit with this along to share and keep track of ideas and opportunities to partecipate and help bring these actions to reality

Fandom's Creations http://aminoapps.com/p/hyxnif

And here's a public chatroom for the projects, to discuss about things, ask questions if in doubt and none less be there to support one another 

> Say something nice and I'll write it down http://aminoapps.com/p/svh90q

Here are some projects I'm aware of: 

(if you know of projects going on please let me know, I’d love if we all manage to share anc connect!)

1. Fanbook/Album project

Fanbook project http://aminoapps.com/p/jul1yf organized by myself for the jibcon this may, I’ll be traveling to Rome in may 13 2019 carrying with me all the messages I can collect

reminder http://aminoapps.com/p/ojg11k for J2MA (Jared, Jensen, Misha and Alex) and all the rest of the cast and crew of supernatural (everyone involved) separately or in group

2. Scrapbooks, 4x j2ma http://aminoapps.com/p/2022dl A scrapbook for each of them separately, one for Jared, one for Misha, one for Jensen and one for Alex, this is not organized by me but by Ashlynn, an user on Supernatural Amino, the books will be sent.

3. Jason Manns/Louden Swain project http://aminoapps.com/p/4gp65n organized by a dear friend of mine @toastiel it’s on Tumblr too

4. Video project http://aminoapps.com/p/bqh707 organized by yet another member of the spn amino

I suggest that if you want to give a letter specifically to one of J2M (Jared Jensen and Misha) you can submit it to the scrapbooks, and yes you can send it for the fanbook/album too, which is something towards them and the rest of the cast, it can be a message not for one of them but all 3 together in one letter, you can also partecipate in both. I will.

Please consider to put some energy, to do something nice evening simple into the project for the Louden Swain as well as the others, as they are a strong part of this family and conventions.

Remember, this is not a challenge, this is not a goodbye, it's more like an event "event" like, today we write something about ourselves and what supernatural means for us and those around us, It's a "hey the news shocked me too" look around, look at everyone else, we are in this together, it's not the end, so lets remind ourselves how strong and real this is and how alive we are, lets share some of the best things that touched us through these years and kept us together, because I have the feeling supernatural, this, this is something that probably will endure forever.

This place... it's hard right now, everywhere I see people hurt, but it's my home, it's our home, we just need a little time

It will be fine, just carry on and keep fighting because you're not alone, and you are enough, so am I.

Let's be creative and put some color in the day

Of course you'll have time to make stuff, lets see what we can do

If have doubts please ask questions about it

If you need support and to talk please take a look at the AKF initiative and join one of the AKF support chats (AKF Initiative on Supernatural Amino)