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myhoneststudyblr · 5 years ago

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something crazy just happened...

i started this blog a year and a half ago and i honestly never imagined i would reach 100 followers let alone 15k!!! so i want to thank you ALL for being so lovely, welcoming and supportive - whenever i come on to tumblr, the studyblr community never fails to make me smile

this studyblr has been such an important journey for me and since i’ve made it i’ve grown as a person and as a student. it has taught me so much, from good study habits and self-care tips, to even some things about who i am as a person!

since i’ve created this blog and particularly in the past few months I've had the honour to meet and get to know some truly incredible people and i want to tag some people who i love and im so thankful to for being so kind:

(you should all go follow their blogs if you haven’t already)

(btw it is probably gonna be quite long cause i have so much to say about these incredible people!!! sorry but im not really sorry XD)

@redlitmusbluelitmus MIA!!! i have already told you so many times how glad i am that you are my friend but i am going to do it again right here cause i can!! you are quite possibly the nicest, funniest and supportive people i have ever had the pleasure to meet. we haven't known each other for that long but in that time you quickly became an amazing friend and we have always just *got* each other!!! 💕💕💕

@study-van yasemin - our first conversation was pretty much a car crash and every one since has made me laugh and look like a proper idiot cause im usually just staring at my phone! i’ve followed your blog for so long and i’m so proud of all the amazing things you are doing and i’m so glad to have you as a friend after so stalking your blog for so long 💕

@museeofmoon zainab!!! we’ve known each other only for a short time now but our friendship was pretty much immediate!!! our conversations are filled with emojis, emoticons, capitals letters and XDs and i wouldn’t have it any other way!!!!! your posts are works of art and i will forever stan them <3

@headgirlstudy Ellie - discovering your blog was one of the best things to come out of my 2020 quarantine challenge cause you have this incredible style and simple beauty to your posts that i just can’t get enough of! i’ve loved having our fangirl conversations about taylor swift and all her incredible songs! you probably don’t know this but one of those conversations took place when i was feeling very low but discussing all the songs with you lifted me up so much so thank you xxx

@jeonchemstudy DAPHNE!!! if i ever create a bujo, i want it to look like yours because honestly, i don't understand how you managed to create such beauty!! we are interested in such similar things and it’s been so cool to find a fellow Gallagher girl lover (i was so shook when i found out you loved the books cause i usually feel very alone in my loved of them XD) and someone who is obsessed with last week tonight as me!!! x

@bulletnotestudies sabrina... you are just incredible and such a joyful person!!! i will always remember you messaging me when i posted that i was stressed about an exxay exam and your message was the last thing i saw before doing it and honestly if gave me such a boost! you’re positivity and supportiveness blows me away and i want many many more conversations with you xxx

@lattesandlearning laura - you were one of the most dedicated posters throughout the quarantine challenge and i loved seeing each and every one of your posts! i’m so glad to be following your journey and seeing what you’ve accomplished even in the short amount of time that I've known you <3

@upside-down-uni mo!!! another incredibly dedicated poster in the quarantine challenge and one that i always specifically looked out for! you and your blog have truly opened my eyes to other experiences and educated me more than you know just from your responses and posts! i always see that you like my posts and even on my dumb little text posts you often reply and it always makes me smile! i’m so glad that you’ve created this officially studyblr and thankful to you for making the community even more colourful 🌈

@coffeeandpies pat, i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again but you are the basically the third person that i followed in the studyblr community and to think that we’ve actually had conversations and we are friends and mutuals is downright crazy to me because you are imo just one of those iconic blogs!!! you are a beautiful person inside and out and your text posts are hilarious and tell the best stories. thank you so much for being so lovely <3

@coralstudiies you were the first person ever to really message me on tumblr and i remember being so shook because i think your blog is just mind blowingingly incredible! every picture of your notes looks like a work of art and i don’t know how you manage to make them look so perfect!!!

@problematicprocrastinator beth, you are a pillar of positivity in this community and your supportiveness and openness is at a level that i aspire to! your morning messages are usually the first thing i see (at least when i still was going to school on the bus every morning before all of the corona stuff) and it always gave me a little boost for the day! you are an incredible writer and your dedication to supporting everyone in this community is amazing <3 (also your blog name is probably the best one i’ve ever seen and i’m so jealous ngl)

i could wax lyrical about every studyblr i know but this post is getting really long so here are more of my favourites (just know that if you are in this list i have a little monologue about how amazing you are in my head and i appreciate you so much 💕💕💕)

@chazza-studies-alevels @stuhde @captainofstudies @sosiaalitieteet @elleandhermione @mid-afternoon-tea @athenastudying @learning-to-think @serendistudy @philology-studies @rivkahstudies @emili-a-a @nabasynth @divinity-study @cals-desk @abbieestudia @studywithprincess @studybuddiesareoverrated @casual-minimalist @stu-dna @coffe-in-cup @adelinestudiess @intellectys @eintsein @einstetic

there are so so many more that could be added to this list and i’m sure i’ve forgotten people!! basically i ADORE every single person in this community and i’ve loved getting to know all of you and i hope i’ll be able to meet more people in the next few years 💕💕💕

Now here’s the blograte celebration!!!

I did a blogrates for 10k followers but i enjoyed it so much and it was a while ago now that i want to do it again with all you amazing people!!!

Rules

Must be following me although new followers are welcome too!

Must be a studyblr or at least mostly (cause I want to find some more studyblrs to follow)

Reblog this post

Send me an ask : in the ask begin with your favourite emoji so I know it is a blog rate then tell me a funny story!

Please don’t send anons - if your studyblr is a side blog just tell me this in the ask

Please let me know what you tag your original content with (specifically if it is not in your bio)

Please be kind and patient! i am very busy this summer with lots of work as well as running my Summer Studying Challenge so it may take me a little while to do it but hopefully, i’ll get it done as fast as possible

I will be doing these blogrates until Wednesday 22nd July

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i will be tagging my blograte posts with #myhoneststudyblr15k if you wanna blacklist them so your dash doesn’t get filled up!!

Thank you everyone!! <3

#i am simply astounded at all the love i've received and i am so thankful to you all!!!#myhoneststudyblr15k #me #sophie speaks #blogrates #studyblr #mine #follower milestone #long post

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procrastilate · 6 years ago

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hello again. here’s a bonus picture i took the other day while trying to take photos for my last post.

@silverstudyspo your wish is my command :)

i wanted to use this post as an oppourtunity to talk about some stuff. it’s all a bit boring and kinda sad so i’ve put it under a ‘read more’ thing.

yo, ‘read more’ people. hope you’re having a good day.

i’m gonna talk a bit about where i’ve been and what’s going on so if you don’t want to listen to me talk about sad stuff, that’s cool and i get it. there’s a bit about the future of procrastilate. i’m not sure where that is yet but tl;dr i don’t know.

a lot of things have happened in the last year, a lot of which i’m not sure anyone could have predicted. i won’t be talking about the large majority of it because i’m not comfortable doing so and i hope you can respect that. it’s also kind of a bummer and you don’t deserve that.

i can categorically say that 2018 was shit. it would be very easy for me to look at everything that happened and be resentful at the world over it. i am, but i recognise now that 2018 was a year i learned so much about myself. i have not had the time nor opportunity to accept said things, but i acknowledge some of it and i think that’s a start.

the studyblr community has done so much for me. you have all done so much for me and i’m not sure i say that enough.

some stuff happened and i stopped going to college a few months before my exams last year. people weren’t expecting me to sit them at all, let alone improve my grades.

but guess what? i did. i sat (most of) my exams and i improved 2 of my grades by a letter and, even though it wasn’t reflective of my potential and they still weren’t impressive, it was a fucking miracle. or maybe it wasn’t.

i didn't study while i was unwell, and i was convinced that that time meant there was no chance of being able to sit my exams. i had spent months not learning or studying or revising and when i was able to study again, i only had a few months left to catch up. it was not realistic or feasible for me to catch up on what i missed but, dammit, i tried. i couldn’t face college but i sat at home and i tried every single day to just do anything that might help me be more prepared.

i couldn’t have done that without you and this community. that might be lame, but it was the motivation i needed. procrastilate gave me purpose when lily didn’t have any. if i didn’t study, how could i be a part of the community? so i studied. it’s dumb, i know, but it’s exactly what i needed and it’s exactly why i left college with 3 a-levels and a place at university.

i am so fucking grateful for that. i know that it was me who did the studying or whatever but YOU are the reason i did the studying. i was so uncertain of my future and i had spent so long believing that i wouldn't have one. i didn’t have a reason for myself to study or to sit my exams. being a part of this community was enough. it held that for me.

it was decided that i would defer my uni place for a year. i wasn’t ready or well enough and i needed to spend time in my own county, under the same nhs trust, trying to get better and learning how to exist.

i didn’t learn how to exist, but things got a bit better. something pretty significant about me was confirmed and it explained so much about the way i experience the world. i had a hard time accepting it, and things got worse without me really realising.

i felt more okay than i had done in so long and i was so glad that i wouldn't be spending the year the same way i’d started it. i couldn't understand why people were concerned or what they were talking about and i got the rational and irrational muddled again, but i couldn’t believe that because i felt fine.

suddenly, i’m having to accept something else. i hadn’t had a chance to accept the other thing and now i’m expected to fight something that i have no reason to fight.

i did what i was told because it’s what i do and then i got overwhelmed and i dropped out because, apparently, that’s what i do too.

and so that’s where we’re at. i am still seeing the people i need to see and i am still doing what they tell me and i am okay. i am doing okay and i am managing on my own.

i am trying to do things that gave me purpose before, hence why i’m back. i’m trying to do things to distract myself from everything that’s happening and maybe it’s avoidance but maybe it’s also because i love doing this.

i love that procrastilate exists and i love what is has done for me both personally and academically. procrastilate meant the creation of the study nuts, and getting to know some of the most wonderful people on this planet. i am so glad to have brought those people together and i want to give a massive shout out to everyone because you folks are awesome and i love you so much.

being a student in this community is the closest thing i’ve had to fitting in anywhere. school and college sucked, but having this place online for people as passionate as i was about learning was great. i didn’t have to struggle to interact physically, because it was digital. i didn’t feel all the anxiety associated with that. i didn’t need to relate to everything and everyone because we had studying in common. i didn’t have to know how everything and everyone works because i didn’t have to say anything. i could just *exist* and i was allowed to and it was okay for me to do that. i wasn’t expected to understand and it was great because i don’t.

i am not a student anymore, and i’m realising that procrastilate and the studyblr community can’t be what they used to be or what i want them to be. i can’t post about studying or learning or even things unrelated like how to live independently or how to cook. without studying, i fear i have nothing left to give this community. it’s not fair on you for me to try and force that. it’s not helpful for any of us.

i don’t want to let go of all the good it has done. i don’t want to let go of all the people i have met and all of the posts i’ve seen and made. i know that, technically speaking, i’m allowed to stay and to observe and to *exist* but i’m not sure i can. i don’t feel what i did about this blog. it doesn’t give me or you what it used to.

i still have a deferred uni place, but that is so uncertain again because of everything going on. i don’t know if this blog will ever be what it was and i don’t want to keep forcing it to be what it can’t be. procrastilate doesn’t give me a sense of purpose at the moment, and i keep trying to force that and it’s not working and i don’t know what to do with that.

i don’t know what to do, but i’m realising that it might be time to say goodbye. i want to keep trying, but i’m not sure how sustainable that is. i can keep trying forever, but i don’t know if i should. i don’t know if it’s the right thing to do.

i love love love love this community and i want so much to feel as good about it as i did before. i don’t know if i’m not feeling it because of how things are or because of not being a student. i don’t know how to feel it again or if i will.

i don’t know whether i’ll be going to uni. i don't know anything.

i want so desperately to learn but i don’t know how i can do that right now. learning is such a fucking amaziong thing and i want that but i don’t know how to do that without any from of direction. i don’t have goals that i can learn things about. i don’t know.

if you’re still reading this i’m sorry lol. i know this is all very negative so i’m sorry. there’s a picture of my cat somewhere around here, so hopefully that helps.

i mean, to summarise: i dOnT kNoW wHaT iM DoInG oR How To ExIsT In ThIs ComMunItY AnYmOrE and that’s scary because it the only place i knew how to exist in

i love you all so much. that’s what’s going on. not sure where i go from here. i’m thinking i’ll re-evaluate at the end of this month. maybe turning 20 will give me something to offer to the world. if not, i’ll keep floating along in my little comfort zone.

i love you all so so so much. keep grinding and kicking ass. you got this. stay safe x

bye for now,

lily

#announcement #mine #i'm sorry for this post lol #it is a mess #pls ignore it #i'm not gonna tag this with studyblr tags bc i only really want my follwers to see it #i love you all thank you #stay safe friends #cat

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