#one day im feeling veeeeery far from him

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saw him showing the same “magic tricks” with playing cards to an another girl. with the whole chatters and laughters stuff. i felt my whole heart shatter at that moment. and when he noticed i was in fact there and watching, he kept looking at me to see my reaction, instead of looking and talking to the girl he was doing it for,unlike when he didn’t know i was there. but i didn’t want him to read me so i just smiled ever so softly, gave him no appearent reaction and kept our small talk normal. just hate it when im reminded of not being his fave or special student,even when i thought so.

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What is your full name? Zoe Celine Trudeaux Who are/were yourparents?  Angelique Corinne and August Michael Trudeaux. My father is a pastor and my mother is a stay-at-home wife. She used to dabble into divination but after meeting my father she hasn't touched much of it. Do you have anysiblings?  Nope, just me. Well, that's not entirely true. Im technically the youngest of five, but I'm the only one alive. Where do you live now,and with whom?  I live with my parents still while I save up for my own place. What is your occupation? I work for a fashion magazine as an intern. Write a full physicaldescription of yourself.  You might want to consider factors such as:height, weight, race, hair and eye color, style of dress, and any tattoos,scars, or distinguishing marks. 5' tall, long dark hair, olive skin, brown eyes, im of a mixed race, I tend to dress rather girly, i dont havr any tattoos and the only scar i have is one on my foot where I stepped on glass as a child. Are you right- orleft-handed? Right handed What do you have in yourpockets? I don't have pockets right now, but usually i just carry around my phone, wallet, keys, and ID badge for work. If anything, you might find a bus ticket. How would you describeyour childhood in general? Chaotic yet stable? We moved a lot for my fathers ministry, so I didn't grow up with many friends. I was a quiet child, but sheltered also. What is your earliestmemory? Eating at a church picnic, and getting into trouble for playing in the creek. How much schooling haveyou had? Ivr had a full schooling. Went to college for design. Did you enjoy school? Some of it. I've always liked to learn new things, and I earned good grades. I just think I would have had a better experience if I had people around my own age. Where did you learn mostof your skills and other abilities? My schooling I guess. While growing up, how didyou get along with the other members of your family? My father has always been very strict. There are set things that I was meant to do and i was going to do them whether i liked it or not. We still clash, but he's still my dad. My mom shelters me still, and she always has. I can't blame her though, she's lost so much. As a child, what did youwant to be when you grew up? I wanted to be a princess, probably up until the fourth grade. As a child, what were yourfavorite activities? Playing pretend, running around outside, dressing up, exploring every drawer,box,and closet in the house. As a child, were youpopular?  Who were your friends, and what were they like? Definately not! I was perpetually the new girl. After you hit middle school it stops being cool and starts being weird. When and with whom wasyour first kiss? My first kiss was at bible camp with a boy named Johnny Hanson and it was by far the worst kissing experience I have had to date. It was a terrible slobbery mess and he insisted on putting his entire tongue in my mouth. Are you a virgin? If not, when and with whom did you lose your virginit? I am not. I have been to my fair share of church camps, and let me tell you, it is not any different from regular camp. I was maybe a junior in highschool and the guy I was dating at the time was convinced we were going to get married some day so why the hell not. I dumped him after camp and I havent seen him since. Do you have a criminalrecord of any kind? Nope Are you basicallyoptimistic or pessimistic? I'm of the "it could always be worse" variety. What are your religiousviews? Ugh. I grew up in the church, and I've had it shoved down my throat for my whole life. I dont personally identify as religious but just to keep my family happy I still go to sermons on sundays. What are your views on sex? Its okay, i guess. Maybe I just havent met the right person or whatever, but its not as great as its hyped up to be. Do you believe in theexistence of soul mates and/or true love? Of course. Do you have a spouse orsignificant other?  Presently I have a boyfriend. How close are you to yourfamily? Pretty close. Don't grt me wrong, I lovr my folks. Have you started your ownfamily?  If so, describe them.  If not, do you want to?  Why orwhy not? I havent. My mom found out that J and I were having sex and got me on birth control. Don't tell my dad any of this though. Who would you turn to ifyou were in desperate need of help? My mom, definitely. Do you tend to argue withpeople, or avoid conflict? I hate conflict. If necessary i will stand my ground, but I've never hit anyone. Do you care what othersthink of you? Not really? What is/are your favoritehobbies and pastimes? I love to sew. What is your favoritecolor? Purple probably What, if anything, do youlike to read? I read when I have the time. Anything I can get my hands on. Do you smoke, drink, oruse drugs?  If so, why?  Do you want to quit? Not really. I drink if J and I are going out with his friends. How do you deal withstress? Not very well. I break out, shut down, throw myself into work. Are you spontaneous, ordo you always need to have a plan? I need a plan. Describe the routine of anormal day for you.  How do you feel when this routine is disrupted? Wake up, brush teeth and hair, shower if i didn't the night before, dress, eat breakfast, go to work, eat lunch with J on Wednesdays, get off and come home, maybe go out, eat dinner, go to bed. Im kind of a boring person. Are you generallyorganized or messy? Veeeeery organized Do you like yourself? I think so? If you could choose, howwould you want to die? Hmmm. Probably in the arms of someone I love. Like at the end of a cheesy romance novel. Or peacefully in my sleep.