#one day I'll bring this concept into fruition

[a-star-that-burns-brightly]

gonna vague post about my ocgram concept... my favorite thing about the whole voting system I've thought of is that the moral dilemma of it doesn't come from "oh but was what this person did REALLY that bad?" or "okay it was that bad, but can we forgive it?" because news flash all of these fuckers have done indefensibly awful shit. The moral dilemma comes from the question of "does this person deserve a chance at redemption and reintegration into society, even though they've done these awful things", and considering what I am planning on having these people do, I think it'll make for some really interesting conversations :3

[franthonyofficial]

"Boom. Done. blossomed out of my desire to start a band with Keith Goodwin and Tim Arnold after the disbanding of Good Old War. We started trading ideas back-and-forth and writing some songs together. I didn't want to make another record that felt lonely and sad - I wanted my friends with me along the way. Bringing in Keith and Tim during the early stages of songwriting elevated these ideas and gave them dimensions that were missing in the music I had been making by myself.

The name Boom. Done. came out of a conversation I had with Keith about the kid's album, Let's Start a Band, we worked on together. We'd be discussing deadlines, and I'd be on the phone trying to figure out how to manage time between projects. I thought about a weird thing I was saying all the time, "Boom. Done." Saying the phrase would somehow affect whether the idea or concept would actually develop and come to fruition. It was almost a function of my attention-deficit and bipolar mixed together.

For me, one of the biggest challenges was deciding if I should include my name on this album. I felt that doing so might hurt the project and pigeonhole me. I had to kill off that name so I could start over and make music that wouldn't be burdened with the baggage of drug addiction, mental illness, and all the lying and deceit that came with it. After a call with Keith and someone from an artist management/record company explaining my rationale, we agreed removing. my name gave me a better chance at starting over with something fresh. These conversations were difficult, and brought on feelings of despair, self-loathing, and a sense of failure.

For a very long time I used unnatural and synthetic drugs to try and heal something in me that could have been healed through connection, humility, and service. I started looking at what I was doing as a service to others, as something that could hold a greater purpose. This took the pressure off me, and I started to remember the kid who would've been happy selling a single cassette tape at a local show - the kid who died of excitement when they got an email from someone saying they liked the music. The process of building and creating music has always been like a drug for me.

It took time and work, but I realized that if I wanted to feel joy, I had to focus on bringing joy to others. This shift in perspective altered the trajectory of the project and my life path. It was then that I started asking myself what the hell I was doing and why this meant so much to me. These songs? This album? I came face-to-face with who I really was and the things about myself I needed to nurture and let go of. I slowly started to learn meditation and how it can nurture the creative process. Being vulnerable and open with people, as well as being of service to others, was the key to healing a great deal of my turmoil. We decided to say, "Fuck it. We are going to make an Anthony Green record." Except this record would be different and we would approach it by working together to make one collective piece of art.

While making Boom. Done. there was a point where I relapsed. I thought about the irony that this could be my last record and that it would be titled Boom. Done. Maybe it was some kind of subconscious cry for help. During the winter of 2021, Keith and I flew to Palm Springs, California and rented a house in the desert to record the vocals. We escaped the East Coast winter and changed the scenery to stir up some new inspiration. During the final days of tracking I received a phone call from home that a family member passed away from a drug overdose. I did not handle this news properly, and I quickly relapsed myself. My relationship with this person had been very difficult. The process of grieving my loss along with everyone else was so painful and confusing. I still feel the spirit of this person in my life, and I feel that they have intervened in ways that have helped me immensely along my own journey.

It's possible I'll say this with every album I ever make, but this album truly changed my life and my mindset. It was a rebirth for me. A rediscovery of a part of my imagination I had tucked away out of fear and insecurity. I felt a reignited sense of wonder that can only happen when you nurture your inner child and give yourself space to accept and embrace all that you are in both shadow and light. In a lot of ways, I see this as my first solo album and everything leading up to as an experiment. When I was making this record, I wanted to create the feeling I get listening to Van Morrison or big band music, or even reggae and dub. The goal was to create the feeling of a party where you wouldn't be lonely.

I want to thank Thomas Kelly, along with all my family and friends, who helped me and stuck by me through my toughest times. I can never thank you all enough for your love, compassion, and understanding. I will spend the rest of my life trying to give back what was so freely and lovingly given to me. I know I was sent here to sing and make music, and to also be a father, a friend, and a partner. I'm lucky to have the people in my life that always make me want to be better, those who challenge me to love stronger. I hope everybody reading this can experience what it's like to do the thing you're meant to do on this earth with a heart filled with love and kindness, because there's no greater feeling.

If you're struggling with depression or anxiety, find ways of expressing yourself creatively - sing, dance, write poetry or stories, paint, sculpt - the list is endless. Creation devours your pain and suffering and gives it meaning. It shines and sharpens it into a weapon of mass creation. Through music, we are given the opportunity for immeasurable connection with others. Thank you for taking the time to make this music part of your life. Love and kindness to you all. Don't forget your magic.

Warmest regards,

Anthony Green "

[darkestrellar]

so the two verses where svern is affected by the shadow crystal or an equivalent are his main verse and his fandomless verse

right now, there's not much difference between them, although Ideally it would be much more prominent in the main verse than it is currently, as that's where it's supposed to be Most Important (I just haven't gotten to the point where I can bring this to fruition yet)

I have lore for the main verse shadow crystal comfortably sorted, but integrating this properly into rp and more notably, a functional story role (since I want to one day revive the original old concept of svern having his own little "neo team", that's literally why the blog url is the way it is, but I put it in limbo a long time ago because I genuinely didn't know how I should put it into action in a useful way)

...is something that will take yet more time and thought. thus, main verse svern is currently stuck in an intermediate stage, purely out of necessity, because I don't know how to advance past it yet.

but the end goal is to maintain that first idea where he carries 100% his fixation on the shadow crystal, to whichever end it leads him to: ultimately he will not be able to escape it, because there's no reason for him to. he only faces the full consequence after it becomes irreversible (when he's probably died and is forced to hang around indefinitely after that and he realises this isn't fun anymore)

As for the fandomless version, I'm still working out the lore n stuff which hinders things a little in terms of like... exactly how far I can go into specific details, but it's close enough to what I already decided that I can just fudge through until I work out the rest.

here svern is also in an intermediate stage, or arguably at a little of an earlier stage than the main verse, actually. this svern is flexible and NOT automatically tied to a bad end although it will still be very very easy for him to go down that road without intervention or should something happen to make things Worse.

the shadow influence in fandomless verse is more like in incubation stage. it's still firmly there don't get me wrong but it's more in the background at the moment (at the moment). it also depends on what muses he interacts with, exactly how it will or won't manifest

this post is getting long but I want to write a few more things so I'll attempt to make a loose part 2

[siennasstore]

Day 1 Intro And Very Short Term Plan

Day 1 (January 23, 2024)

To be honest I don't know if anyone will read this but I've decided to start this lil blog to document my journey or trying to start my own business. Maybe (hopefully) one day I'll look back on this from my big top floor office and smile at how far I've come. 

For a short intro- my name is Sienna Rosales, I'm a junior in high school and am enrolled in my city's vocational school for esthetics, my birthday is January 13, I  hope to go to college and get my cosmetic science degree and one day become a practicing medical doctor of Dermatology. 

Back to the business tho. I would like to create an "all things beauty" type store. More than likely starting with makeup and skincare and then later branching out into hair, teeth, glasses, fashion, ect. Really just anything you can think of when it comes to appearance. I don't mean to sound vain but seeing how someone's mood can change when they think they look good is really why I want to do this. I want everyone to be able to use/ find a product that works for them in my store no matter their background or anything. I also think it would be cool to have a brick and motor shop one day that doubles as a safe space- and a cafe. 

My parent's are supportive (tho it seems one more so than the other tho that's neither here nor there because they love me and I love them) and my older brother agreed to talk to a friend of his who he models for that runs their own business, I will be sure to nag him about that. I have lots of concept ideas on my tablet: I suppose I may have got tired of just concepting and keeping them to myself and hence we ended up here. I have some money saved up from when I was able to work although I suspect it is not enough. 

I have no clue where to start. At the moment I am signing up for free versions of website builders (Wordpress, Wix, Shopify, and Squarespace) to try and catch the vibes of them. Either later tonight when I am undoubtably up even tho I should be sleeping-shh don't tell my momma- I will start looking up how to start a business, what you need to start a cosmetic business, ect ect. I will try to update tomorrow/ whenever I work on this new big project of mine. I feel like this is something to big for me to do (especially mostly on my own) but the thought of having this come to fruition brings an excitement to my heart that I have truthfully not felt in years. If someone is reading this I would really appreciate any advice you can give. Maybe one day I'll even post some of my concept drawings here. 

-Thanks, Sienna R.  

(there's also a google blog version of this also under Sienna's Store)

❤️

[stars-self-ships]

A couple of days ago, I came cross this cute animated short on Youtube by chance, and the first eight or so seconds of the video left me with but one thought:

"MAN. I want to be a pretty princess!"

To be honest, imagining myself as an esteemed princess isn't something that's ever come to mind since I started identifying as a girl, though this one video alone has caused my mind to run rampant with thoughts of being cordially escorted out of a carriage, wearing a beautiful dress and a lovely tiara, the whole nine yards!

Naturally, I've put some thought into designing myself— particularly my fursona— into the prettiest princess in all the land, and it was after I began thinking about what I would look like that I had the single greatest idea...

... what if I brought back the fearless dragon OC F/O I designed just about a year ago as her love interest? 👀

And just like that, now I'm developing an entire OC universe just for this one concept alone, seeing as it's the perfect excuse to finally bring said dragon OC F/O to fruition as well as potentially outlining even more fantasy OC F/Os!! 💞

I'll definitely be posting about it more in the future when I have more for it, but I just wanted to get this out there to announce that I will in fact be turning the above OC F/O concept into a fully-fledged character!