#once i have more of the twt thread i’ll post it here too

[jaegonsmoon]

other?? suggestions are welcomed!!

[thebroccolination]

missing your live reaction thread of Between Us on twt...

Thank you, Anon, sincerely. That really means a lot to me.

So, I erased Twitter off my phone a few days ago. I haven’t opened it on my computer since Thursday, I think? I don’t know when I’ll open it again. I think I need time away from it.

Nothing in particular happened. I’ve just been really unmotivated and discouraged by fic engagement in the last six months or so, and I never used to value that kind of thing, so I wondered if the amount of time I was spending on Twitter could be related. Sure enough, since I stopped opening the app, the urge to “compete” and the obsession with numbers and kudos and comments has been diminishing rapidly. I think I was spending too much time on Twitter and depending on it for serotonin boosts instead of dealing with general life stress in a more constructive way.

I felt really guilty about not continuing my live reaction thread. I’m doing it for myself as well as to connect with the fandom, to have a memory of this first experience, but having just sat on the sofa and watched it on TV without pausing to take screenshots on my computer was really, really nice. I’ve needed to take a step back, and I think Twitter’s fast-paced system has been consuming too much of how I measure my self-worth.

Writing WinTeam fic has been the greatest joy of the past nearly three years, and over the past month, I’ve started and discarded about ten fics because “what if they don’t get the same or higher amount of kudos as the last”. I can’t think like that or the joy of it will die, and I don’t want to think of this as a competition. Twitter’s algorithm-based system just…makes me feel competitive, and that bled over into AO3, too.

I wasn’t sure if I should say anything, and I don’t like making “I’m leaving/taking a break/hiatus” posts. I wasn’t planning on doing it. I just woke up and thought, “Maybe I should see if I feel differently if I don’t open it all day,” and then it continued until today, and I don’t really want to open it at the moment.

I’m honestly a lot happier here for the time being. I like the longer posts, I like talking about WinTeam, and I like not feeling the need to chase likes and retweets. I just want to vibe and have organic ideas come to me for WinTeam fics and to write them and share them without worrying about how many people will leave kudos or comments. I don’t know if Twitter was the culprit for all of that, but I do feel a lot calmer and more like myself right now than I have in a long time.

When I rewatch episode five next, I’ll make a li’l document of my reactions and upload them whenever I open Twitter next.

Once I feel less anxious and, like, scattered? then I’ll probably open it again.

Thank you again, Anon. This was definitely more than you were expecting, I’m sure. It makes me smile that someone missed the thread. :’)

[minshinxx]

//tw abuse, manipulation

Big huge /roleplay !!!

(Sorry for any grammatical issues and dumb formatting errors. There’s a reason I’m an artist and not a theorist. It’s because I can’t write a good essay or armument to save my life, so bear with me please! This might be a little sloppily written.)

Ok, first off. The abuse and manipulation c!Dream put c!Tommy under is inexcusable and I will in no way invalidate c!Tommy’s mental state after what happened to him. Those streams made me so uncomfortable and upset I ended up skipping a few. C!Tommy’s already shown and will continue to show how c!Dream made him feel helpless and dependable on him and what impact the manipulation had on him. I’m very sorry if I made anyone think that or feel upset! Abuse is a very serious thing and c!Dream definitely cannot be excused for his actions!

I do not excuse anything he did just because I feel like it! I take responsibility for not clearing that up directly, sorry :/

I 100% agree that Dream not showing his pov is probably one of the best decisions made in the whole series! It definitely made me unbelievably curious about his character and motivation and I’m always on the edge of my seat when he makes an appearance on anyone’s stream.

A lot of the following is based off Punz’s last dream smp stream because that is one of the few times we actually get some insight on c!Dream and his motives and character. Also I’m taking a few things from a twt thread by @/dr3amt3am3. I wanna credit her, because it’s a very interesting thread. I am not speaking for her though! I guess this is just my interpretation of her theory.

C!Dream has been from the beginning on all about having a unified server and as he said in the conversation with c!Punz, he thought of them all as a family. Then came around people who destroyed that ideology by splitting from the group and making their own countries and stuff. I think c!Dream does think of everyone on the server as his family and you want the people close to you to get along, right? I think that was always his intentions. But instead of that happening- L’Manburg happened. And then Manburg. And then the Badlands. And then Mexican L’Manburg. I’m not even sure he knows about Dry Waters yet? His plans backfired and the server split up in more and more pieces. I think at this point c!Dream is very desperate because he lost the one thing he always needed. Control. Control over the server and it’s inhabitants. Also I’m not sure, so please correct me if I’m wrong, but I think c!Dream’s way of operating changed after his deal with c!Schlatt? I don’t want to blame all his wrongdoings on something that has no standing at this point in the story, of course, but I’m way too curious about that book c!Schlatt gave him to not at least mention it.

I wish I could just easily blame Dreamons or possession by a certain ghost, I’m not gonna lie, but that would invalidate literally EVERYTHING that happened story and plot wise. I did want to mention that as well though because this fandom does tend to ship off all the blame on possession, me included :’D

I think c!Dream took a huge step in the wrong direction after the Pogtopia/Manburg war.

My theory is actually that he thinks he HAS to commit to being a villain, as it is the only way to make everyone be unified. That’s why he’s sure he’s gonna be hated by everyone after whatever he’s done. He’s destined to be their ultimate villain and they bond and stay together after it. This sounds farfetched, I agree but this is what my brain latched onto after the information c!Dream dropped on us!

Something even a little more fucked up I’ve read by before was what if c!Dream just ends up putting everyone in the prison to rule over them as one nation? That sounds even more unrealistic but I did want to mention it.

Of couse this depends on whether or not c!Dream actually spoke the truth while talking to Punz. If it turns out he just manipulated Punz too by telling him that my theory is made null and my hope in c!Dream as well.

And yes, you’re right that Dream is well on his way of making c!Dream an inexcusable villain. There���s no doubt. None of my theories are based on c!Dream being a good person. Maybe he had good intentions once (???) but at this point he’s too far gone.

Don’t take this too seriously though, it’s all just some thories I have. I can definitely be swayed on my opinions if anyone thinks I’m 100% in the wrong here and should see it another way!! Please just don’t come and hate me, I get upset very easily :(

I don’t even know if any of this makes sense tbh I think I’ll just go back to drawing after this :’) Writing analysis and theories is really not my thing-

I do have to apologize for not clearing up that I do not excuse any actions of c!Dream though. When I made those posts before, I woke up after sleeping for two hours. I am sleep-deprived 24/7 but today was really bad and I didn’t really think before posting so there came up some weird things that I’m not very proud of, I’m really sorry. This does not excuse my dumb takes but I did want to explain it!

I hope I could at least relay some of my thoughts and I’ll take a break from tumblr today because this took like all my brain capacity available ngl

Have fun discussing my dumb thoughts though!

[mxnark]

plot call!

hi everyone! it’s me, your favorite mun who shares a name with a soap brand, dawn!!! this post is SUPER overdue, especially with the fact that i joined literally four months ago!!! but it’s better late than never! i was able to finally think of some plot ideas for mina (and yeonjun, which you can look at over here if you wish to interact with him)!!! i’m gonna list the few plots i thought up of under below. if any of them catch your eye, please lmk in the ims! if you prefer messaging me on twitter or discord but don’t have me on there, just ask! otherwise, feel free to mssg me on there bc i’ll prob reply to you faster there!!

ALSO little character update, but i have made a sideblog for mina’s spam/finsta (fake insta)! if your muse is a sorta close friend of mina’s, you’ll most likely have access to that account! so if you want to see her shenanigans, check out @notokmina​! (if you look at her blog on desktop, i’ll love u 5ever!). besides that, most of her sns posts like her main ig/rinsta, youtube, main/local twt, AND stan twt will be posted here!!

MISCELLANEOUS! 

‘01 FRIENDS!!! PLEASE mina loves the relationships she has rn but most of them are older than her!! she wants friends who are around her age!!! so if you’re ‘01, pls be her friend!!! esp if ur a girl !!! (if you’re ‘00 or ‘02, we can work out with that too!! BUT PLEASE ‘01z.... BE HER FRIEND...) 

local gg + convex stans!!! hello!!! pls gush about ur idol groups to her once u spot her clear phonecase w her mona and/or (random convex member) photocards!! 

mina works at an h&m in a mall and is looking for more mall friends!! give her the chance to recreate her 6teen dreams and have her own mall gang!!! or at least... someone who can give her discounts even though she doesn’t work with you. 

any plot regarding the movie theatre that’s NOT while watching a film! maybe one of you has difficulty with the ticket machine or you spilled pop corn all over the floor!!! OOF 

youtuber friends!! she’s not looking for a youtuber gang of friends (bc she doesn’t want drama affecting her channel HAHA), but she could get some new connections and faces on her channel. she wants to expand her horizons!!

if u don’t have a specific public school down for ur muse, let’s assume mina went to ur school and ur scared of her bc she’s got this not-so-good reputation of being a mean girl!!! oop

since she’s 18 and freshly out of high school, she’s learning how to drive and u unfortunately ... get a taste of it and you’re not too happy about it!

intervention about her caffeine addiction 

anything anime related. esp if it’s bnha or demon slayer related!!! sailor moon, too, but she’s trying to get into current animes!!!

mina is trying to get into more movies because she wants to understand / fit in with her film twt oomfs!!! so recommend her movies! esp horror or coming-of-age!!! 

OPEN EVENTS

#RKCHARITY - let’s get mina to do some good!!! if it’s a past thread, it’ll look good on her transcript for her to do community service!!! otherwise, let’s help the world a bit!

#RKDANCEOFF - mina’s big on idol dances, so whether it’s a random dance play or challenge video, u def have mina’s attention in doing it!! girlie’s competitive!!!

#RKMAKEOVER - she thinks she’s pretty good w fashion and makeup, so come to mina if you want to look good!! alternatively, let’s say you’ve gotten on her bad side because of you testing her short temper... will mina hold back on making u look like a clown? 

#RKCOLLAB - in which you and mina are beyonce and lady gaga... except mina’s lady gaga bc as much as i love gaga... come on... beyonce’s obviously taking the show!!! and mina’s mediocre w singing so! 

[standfortheangels]

@a-simple-rper sent some questions from a 'mun and muses' question list post thing a few days ago. But Tumblr is doing its regular thing and won't let me answer them. SO, with any luck I'll be able to make this work instead.

((Edit- Yes! thank god. Fifth time is the charm apparently))

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Orange - Do you see any similarities between you and your muse(s)?

Yeah, I can see a few ^^ Chester's nervousness, hesitation, and worry about how other people view him, are all things that used to be part of my own personality too. Thankfully, anxiety meds have actually done me the world of good. I very rarely feel anxious over nothing, I've realised and accepted that little mistakes and miscommunications aren't a big deal, and I don't feel that panic if someone criticizes me.

But, living the opposite way for most of my life is obviously something I can't forget, so I can still really relate to Chester's mindset. I also feel like now I've felt this more balanced and grounded state, I'm in a better position to write and connect with Chester in his future, once he's grown and gathered his confidence bit by bit~

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Black  - Do you think you and your muse(s) would be friends in real life?

Hmm..... With Raph, there's no way I'd be able to break through his defenses, and I think on the whole I'd be too.... Mild? For him to really connect with? And it's probably similar with Chester tbh. He's so busy and so unsure that without something strong to latch onto, he wouldn't put his energy into befriending someone. Basically to become his friend, you need to be interacting with him often, and he'd need to see something about you that he can understand and empathise with from the start.

Mike I'd say I really could be friends with, buuuut I doubt I'd have the energy to keep up with him x'D He'd probably be quite draining for me to spend time with, but I think he'd check up on me in-between our meetings with texts and send me happy/funny things a lot~ I think he'd be a very good friend to me, and I would really want to match that for him too.

And Mia? .... She's 14, so, probably not. X)

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Red - Do you have a dream AU you haven’t written in yet?

Oh, dude, I have so many. I have an x-men verse for a couple of them, I love the idea of pairing them with royalty, like Raph as a knight who has turned down kings and queens before, looking for someone worth laying down his life for. I love any kind of school AU, especially for Mike, and a few more little snippets here and there.

And can you believe in all the years I've been here, I can't remember writing a Hogwarts au?? I have all the muses in my head, down to the fine print, and yet, I haven't done anything with them.

¯\_( ^▽^")_/¯

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Brown - What is a headcannon you are particularly proud of?

I don't know about proud of, but probably my favourite headcanon is definitely Chester's elfy ears.

I had it set for a long time that he'd had his ears cut off by his father. It was meant to be because he would hear voices. The people around him took it as a bad omen, and thought cutting off his ears would stop the 'spirits' from speaking to him. But I was never entirely convinced about that whole thing.

Then, I decided his ears were naturally pointy, and it fixed *everything*. The idea being that the goddess originally created people with these long ears, and over time, they were lost. Chester's people were already cut off from the rest of the world, maintaining the ancient ways and not wanting society to taint them and lead them towards that life.

Add in the ears, and suddenly they're a status symbol. A sign that this community actually is closer to the Goddess' ideal. And, the longer the ears, the better. The goddess will be impressed by you, and so will everyone else. So for Chester, it makes more sense. His ears were very long and slender, but his father deemed him 'unworthy' of the status they represented, and took them from him.

It fits in so well with the story I already had, it fixes an iffy plot point, and it makes the world fuller and a little more interesting. (Plus, I have tons of excuses now to draw Chester with elf ears, which is awesome X) )

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Yellow - What is the best motivation for you to write your muse(s)?

This one is harder to answer right now; I rarely have the energy and focus to write, and in a way I feel like I've forgotten how to. My roleplays are in a total mess and I don't even know how to get things organised or where to start, which makes it difficult to break back into it.

But, they're still there. When something sparks inspiration, I know my muses are around, and I can imagine stuff for them in character. So then that motivates me. Also, reading threads. I've found that when I have the energy, reading through a thread from a ways back leaves me with ideas in my mind for how to reply. But often I then don't have enough energy left to write it, so it stays as a daydream. TwT

But mostly... I think it's people. I remember how great it is to plot with friends and squeal over ideas we would send back and forth~ I still love the relationships my muses have formed with others. And when I get a reply done (rare, but it does happen~) I get all excited for my partner to see it! I wait with a grin on my face for a message or a reply or a like, some sign that they've seen the post, so we can be excited together~ excited to see how their muse will respond and how the plot will go from there, excited to be writing again. It's a brilliant experience, and it really makes me feel good when I know I've achieved it. ^^