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Hello I put way more effort than I needed to into this, but have it anyway :P
Boniface meets Bonifire, what will they do :P
A version of this page without text because technically this was the first page I drew and put all my effort into that one first lmao-
#bonnie#bonnie isat#bonifire#in stars and time#isat#fanart#isat spoilers#isat act 6 spoilers#my loopified bonnie (who is creatively named bonifire) is herently a lot of effort to draw#so the fact that i went out of my way to 1) paint the favour tree again like my loop image that one time#2) make it a fucking 2 page comic#and 3) paint the path TO the favour tree as well#can you imagine how my knuckles feel right now?#also high fidelity bonnie finally (or their face at least the poker game they were viewed from behind)#i like to think that bonifire doesn't actively hide the fact they were bonnie once but they also won't say it outright#unlike the others who would make a name to try and hide the fact that it's hopeless to get out of the loops to their respective looper#bonifire who is still a pre-teen who still had no idea how to feel about their name just lets bonnie pick name and pronouns for them#read; bonnie called them a bonfire and bonifire's immediate thought was to make it a pun#siffrin would be proud (that is if he was still around and bonnie's version of him knew them)#bonnie takes a little while to actually understand that bonifire is them but they've gotta get their head around looping first#it's less doing detective work to figure out a secret and more so finally learning what things mean and seeing retroactively the obviousnes
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wanted to say I appreciate your nuanced takes on MW and especially Curly. i don't get the claim that the fandom is full of Curly apologists when majority (esp yt and tiktok) say he's worse than Jimmy. Yes there's commentary about bro culture defending people, he def messed up in trying to placate Jimmy (tbh "we'll fix this" sounded more like trying to keep someone prone to outbursts like Jim calm and not hurt Anya/himself) but I don't think he did nothing to help Anya, since she continued to confide in him and he had less than a week to resolve it before the crash (I also don't get everyone saying he knew for ages when it seems like Anya told him that same week). I get Jimmy's a pos but saying stuff like Curly should've known he'd crash the ship or that Jim had a criminal record he ignored, reducing them to obviously horrible villain and willfully ignorant sidekick feels like a disservice to the game. If your best friend turned out to be horrible, what would you do in a confined space in the span of a few days to respond? I'd say some of the horror comes from trying to do good but ultimately failing, Curly's state after the crash is meant to be tragic horror not revenge/punishment
Thank you and this is what I want to get across.
A lot of information we have to supplement when it comes to how long things have been happening on this current ship. I think people try to add on to the horror and negligence by making things more obvious so it can feel like it was easier to avoid when, true to life, its not. Jimmy clearly didn't deserve or appreciate what Curly did for him in getting him the job, but do you think if Jimmy was that big of a menace on Earth he would've given him a position where he could have that level of power over people's lives? There's something in the fact he specifically chose to pick a position so close to himself where he could watch Jimmy.
I hate the bro code argument because that is a whole can of worms people really don't get. That sort of mentality is born from the general respect and preference of male matter over female ones. Curly is clearly not that guy, he is absent minded about the issue and inadvertently dismissive but he clearly believes Anya, he just can't understand what she's going through. It's an onslaught of information that no one really reacts right to. Additonally, the entire discussion of her assualt plays to heavy into the idea that there is fault outside of the perpertratior when it comes to SA. It's too close if she only did this or if Curly had protected her better but the fact of the matter is Jimmy did what he did. He did it before any of the conversations with Anya about it and it's why her behavior seemed to change so drastically in those last two days.
He has other conflicting thought and while his role as a Captain should've taken over, people act like it's not a very human thing to have such a toxic presence cloud your judgement. It is never easy to separate friend from coworker once that connection is formed, you want to help them, especially if they were friend first and for a long while like in this case. It's not right, but people act like it would be easy when the game clearly points out that no choice is easy to make, especially when you have to make it for more than one person. You have the weigh the consequences, look at all the options and make a plan. People can headcanon and decide how long things where happening, but if we look at what we were presented through the characters eyes, the only person given time to do that was Jimmy.
He waited two months after the crash to appoint himself Captain. Every time a problem was brought up he immediately took action and refused to sit on it and find a better solution. I think it's important to look at the warped way Jimmy takes initiative where Curly didn't as it works as a good contrast of why you don't just run in to "fix" things. The quickest and easiest option may not be the safest or most beneficial. I think some thoughts on the game suffer from the black and white thinking the game doesn't operate on along with us being voyeurs. We see what exactly led to what but the characters don't. They don't have the hindsight and foresight we do and even ours is scrambled by the non-linear story telling.
Like it's hard to talk abuou those grey zones without sounding like an apologist because you're explaining why taking responsibility isn't easy. It's not and it's weird to act like it would be in a scenerio that led up to the events of the game knowing what we know. We see all these characters in such isolated moments with various things before, in between, after and even during we aren't privy too. The idea that Jimmy is worse than Curly heavily banks on the words Jimmy was saying to Jimmy before he crashed the ship. That whatever happened on the ship was his responsibility to bare, which is true due to his position. But, are they not still not responsible for taking the actions Curly then must bare?
Like i feel like people think that these are situation that become easier with age or when you are in a postion of authority and they aren't. You don't lose your biases or gain some sudden knowledge that makes it easier. It just becomes more tiring as you keep dealing with it. I would be first in line to say Curly fucked up and should've done more but the idea he knew how bad it could get or he really saw the worst in the people around him and ignored it pretty much ignores a huge aspect of his character and the game.
#i do believe Anya was a victum to Jimmy more than once before the crash but the game plays wit the sort of fear of waiting and stagnation#i believe the reason she decided to tell him was becasuse she finally broke down and tested to see if she was pregnant after one too many#signs and its why she went to hide the gun because she knew now that there was proof of what Jimmy did and was he would do anything to#cover it up and while she also didn't want the baby there was no sure fire way to safely induce a miscarriage or abortion cause shes smart#enough to know that hence her reading the illusion of choice and taking measures to protect herself#but in the hypothetical it was a one time occurence I think Jimmy would act like one single mistake shouldn't define him and Anya thinks#that if she did something sooner or said something sooner than she or Curly could've stopped all of it but that the hard thing taking actio#its so hard to be preventative to a person like they also have the autonomy to do things and no one on the ship is okay with actively takin#that away outside of Jimmy that its just a delicate issue and people act like it was a conscious choice not to help when he just helped#wrong he did wrong by not immediately punishing Jimmy but at the same time did he even fully get it yet? Jimmy immediately got into his hea#after like the sound design right before he confront him is telling like every track sort of gives you the feeling of the characters where#we cant see their thoughts because again the only two characters pov we get are Jimmy's and Curly's and even then we only get Curly's thru#the responsibilites he has to take like he is always tasked with something because thats his role but we rarely see him do something off hi#own volition cause hes a metaphorical cog in many of the machines the games comments on but he's not actively pulling a switch#also i think people latch on to the we can both be heros things too much when analyzing Curly because Curly very much is not happy being th#leader and current “hero” of the Tulpar he just wants out in a way that doesn't hurt and while he is still responsible for not doing more#the idea he could've easily nipped this in the butt acts like Jimmy was not a beast of his own and that he made Jimmy into the person he wa#vs the fact that Jimmy is a person on his own right that makes these choices others are forced to take responsibility for when he simply c#couldve not done evil shit like at the end of the day Curly is not perfect but not nearly or remotely as bad as Jimmy because for that hed#have to not care hed have to not have tried hed have to not try to take responsibility and he did just not in the right way but thats#subjective to the person and you can only realize you did fuck up after the results are before you and its tragic like this game is a#a tragedy no matter how you try and spin it. There's lessosn to be learnt but at the end of the day it telling the worst moments of peoples#lives and the certain inevitabilities that come with it#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#nurse anya#anya mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing
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He looks so different with glasses 😂 did not recognize him at first
terribly funny how much more generic he can get with a thick frame of raybans like ive always believed the whole glasses as a disguise would never work irl but i got punked so hard that when i first saw him in glasses i was like "oh another man" glossed over him then felt the same sensation as when i forget to buy milk at the store, swiped back, scrutinised this for far longer than im comfortable admitting publicly and went "oh my god THATS MY MAN GIRL WHAT ARE YOU DOING"
#ask#i went “maffhew where the hell have you been loca”#she is but a beautiful female protagonist “shackled” by a thick pair of glasses#to me she is even more beautiful with the glasses#but also just another man#ive specifically seen this type of man in so many fucking places...#the fruity english teacher that also teaches the creative writing course because he genuinely enjoys spoken word#the one where you walk into his class see the open class layout... look up at him... look at his fit and go#huh... itd be rude to ask if he has a husband but... you know...#the class where you can tell hes in because you can smell his maple syrup candle from the courtyard#despite there being a whole gym between you and the building hes in because his door is always open and anytime the building door opens#you smell a whole wiff of autumn... it is in fact summer... and always summer where you are...#he doesnt talk about his lovelife at all doesnt even mention anything about it#but everyones curious but hes cool and you dont want to make him uncomfortable so you dont ask but you know you know?#its why you squeal in glee when he shows up to open mic night at the blackbox in the 300 building with his husband in tow because once again#he adores spoken word and gave extra credit to anyone who preformed and he wants to support his students#and hes just so smiley and giggly all night because he finally gets to be with his secret husband and its so perfect and theyre so perfect#and he also your dad because you have daddy issues and having a male figure in your life whos queer and supports you is so important-#you know what!! i think we know a little too much about each other i will stop now!!!! you get the idea!!!!!
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Super appreciate people like thinking of me and Iike hoping I feel better and stuff. Thank you lots.
But like I’m fine. I know I was complaining and venting, and all that stands. But I’m okay. I have a handful of less than ideal relationships in my life that are def stressful. I’m stressed today because of it. But it’s also something I’m really used to and it’s not something at the center of my life usually. Prolly shouldn’t be something I’m as used to. But eh, it is what it is.
#does a little bit remind of how when I was talking to my therapist one day and describing how I felt w something#and she’s like that sounds like being miserable#and I was like what?? like that is far too normal for miserable#my idea of miserable was def a lot worse#I like went and looked up miserable after bc I was so confused#I don’t think that did anything tho lol#tho like I guess to be fair def have gaslight myself in the best to think things weren’t as bad as they were lol#but like it’s 3 or 4 really stressful relationships and having a hard time w befriending women#like who doesn’t have a hard time making friends these days lol#def feeling more physically bad then emotionally bad#tho like maybe after the call I’ll feel like oh no I’m bad mean person again#but like that does tend to pass once I’m interacting w people who make me feel better#personal
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#hi hi hii !! :3#‘m back again !! fever finally went away after four days of suffering <3#‘m in a writing slump right now so i won't be posting any fic related stuff for a while .. so sorry ! (。ノω\。)#also !!! i might be more offline than usual bcus ‘m starting to lose the happiness i had when i first started here on tumblr#(so dramatic i know)#buttt !! i will definitely be online every saturday bcus of the bllk episodes >_<#i'll also try to pop in and say hello once in a while <3#will try to write some stuff while ‘m offline so i won't comeback empty handed ! :3#love posting like i have a million followers#okay that's all love you guys#AND THANK YOU FOR 400+ FOLLOWERS BTW LIKE HOLY MOLY THAT'S ACTUALLY CRAZY !!!!#for that one anon who sent me a rinnie request pls wait for me i love ur idea and i'll try to write it so pls pls pls wait for me :'3#okay that's actually everything#:33333#🐰 : miro talks
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its 2024 and people still dont get sugurus character at all
#everytime someone on tiktok says he hates jujutsu high or like gojo and shoko my eye twitches#literally his entire goal is for the sake of sorcerers.. his cruelty lies in how he subscribes to the idea of collective punishment#but that aside so say hes some conniving dictator for no reason is so crazy like my brother in islam the reason why he went down this path#was bc of how much he wanted to find meaning and a set of principles that will make life meaningful for him#it was a bad ideology for sure. but to negate the logic behind it is doing sugurus character such a disservice lol#bc idk to me hes a villain u rly feel for. and if u pretend like he has no love for his once peers that just kind of diminishes#the weight of his defection and then later on his crimes#anyway sorry for the yap session i had to defend my princess#one last tangent: these same ppl dont understand miminana at all either#then again we r talking abt the ppl who think miminana worked w kenjaku(??) when its literally canon the reason they died was cuz they#went to sukuna for help just so kenjaku could be eliminated#anyway whatever whatever
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My translyrics for Salamander, written out under the cut :D
This one was much more difficult than the last, but I'm still very satisfied with it! 😤 I'm both sad that my version lost a lot of the fun soundplay of the original, and also waaay more impressed with the lyrics and vocals after digging it like this! I tried to keep it balanced between the original and Fuuta's version, though maybe it ended up leaning more toward the cover, idk. Leaving my specific notes in the tags 👍
Salamander~ Hot's nice, don't you agree? This pa- passion's fine, see?
"But" isn't what I wanna hear, so say "more" loud and clear.
It's heating up all through my mind when I'm with you.
I want a taste, but all this spice may prove more than I can take, (eh?)
Something's on your mind. So spit it out and tell me, don't waste my time, kay?
I'm hooked on this, pass me a dish.
The way I'm starving here without you -- it's a crime
A spicy treat, put on repeat,
Can I get seconds with the same heat? One more time!
Salamander~ Hot's nice, don't you agree? This pa- passion's fine, see?
"But" isn't what I wanna hear, so say "more" loud and clear.
It's heating up all through my mind when I'm with you.
I can't stop anything, although I wouldn't want to stop, oh no --
Take a breath, it's best to cool down or you earn yourself a burn.
I want a bite, I can't help giving in to this new appetite.
Again, again, I want to be on fire when I get to the end.
We live too fast, we burn to ash,
I never handled spices well and it's a crime.
A spicy treat, put on repeat,
Can I get seconds with the same heat? One more time!
I want to burn bright red
I want to burn bright red
Salamander~ Hot's nice, don't you agree? This pa- passion's fine, see?
"But" isn't what I wanna hear, so say "more" loud and clear.
Tell me I'm not alone in my mind!
Salamander~ Look what's happened to me. This pa- passion's crazy
Tell me I'm not delirious, I'm being serious.
It's heating up all through my mind when I'm with you.
I can't stop anything, although I wouldn't want to stop, oh no --
Take a breath, it's best to cool down or you earn yourself a burn.
I want to leave I want to go, but I can never stop, oh no --
Take a breath, it's best to cool down or you earn yourself a burn.
#milgram#fuuta kajiyama#deco*27#this time i can confidently say this is my fav milgram song lmao#literally the hardest line of the whole song was the very first one#still not 100% satisfied but compared to my dozens of draft lines its pretty good#i really wanted the 'po's to be within a word like the original and went digging through so many words with the sound in the middle LMAO#i wanted something focused more on heat/spice but alas it had to be passion -_-#there was very little space to get across the idea of 'its not a big deal right?' so i hope 'fine' conveys what i want it to hmm...#forever missing the sound of 'ripiccha itai/ piriccha itai' but the treat/repeat lines still worked out well!#so mad english doesnt have a nice onomatopoeia like 'fuu' :(#i needed to keep the long u to finish of the first stanza the long o in a few lines -- i absolutely love how arthur lounsbery sings those#my ace ass appreciates his commitment to singing such a steamy song so harsh and turning the seductive whispers into angry grumbling 😂#me too man#the struggle of trying to write fun food lines and going 'oh NO that sounds even dirtier now' 😭😭😭#i actually did record myself singing and i knew it was gonna be bad but it was Really Awful adsfdsfd so sorry#just take my word for it!!! it all works perfectly!!!#(once again if anyone wants to cover it hmu hehe :3)#oops spelled delirious wrong in my chart shhhhhh#lyrics
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Sorry but am I the only one that thought that episode…sucked? Like it was straight up bad. Horrible pacing, no wrap up of all the random characters and plot lines they’ve thrown around all season (the tuskegee airmen, Westgates spying, literally all the guys beside like the main 4). (Seriously it makes me so mad that the three redtails got all of 5 seconds of screen time, almost no lines. Literally what was the point of introducing them other than to pretend the show was iNcLuSiVe) Even at the end of BoB and the Pacific you get a much better idea of what happened to all the remaining guys. In this they’re like what happened to DeMarco or Hambone or Brady or (insert character here) we don’t know! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ The concentration camp scene felt shoehorned in compared to how it was done in BoB. Unless that actually happened to Rosie (which i haven’t heard anything about) but it was just like.. ok? It all felt so rushed and emotionless to me. Maybe I’ve just fallen out of love with MoTA but it’s been downhill for me since episode 6 or so.
i already made a little (read: long) post-finale write-up here, where i talk about the use of the tuskegee airmen, l'sandra, and overall editing/pacing issues i felt the show had. but i don't agree with the notion that adding the redtails was in any way insincere or trying to halfass being "iNcLuSiVe", i just think they suffer from this show's obvious time constraints. and to summarize what i wrote in my linked post, there's a limit to what white writers/directors/producers can do when creating a story about black people. there are some stories i'd feel uncomfortable with them telling on their own, truth be told. dee rees wasn't the sole nonwhite director, but she Was the only black one. i think she did her job well given the limitations and i appreciate that they let her direct those episodes, rather than leaving it up to a team of white people trying their best to tell a black story.
the worst i can say about the finale is that it didn't feel like That strong of finale, tho i wouldn't go as far to say it "sucked" or call it "straight up bad". i liked it plenty, it's just the weakest of the hbo war finales imo.
as for the concentration camp scene, artistic license was taken with both shows. unlike what's seen in the BoB, easy company wasn't the first to arrive at kaufering, and there's 0 mention of the all-japanese american 552nd who helped them liberate it). similarly, rosie rosenthal did assist in liberating those camps, though it would've been after the events shown this episode. idk if he saw one in that up-close way seen in this episode, but he could've (i should research this when i have time). plus, it would've felt weird Not having him acknowledge them at all. "shoe-horned" is an odd term to use here imo, as both scenes more-or-less center a jewish character (BoB's liebgott and MotA's rosie). the former show has survivors the characters can help, the latter shows no one left to help. the former has all of easy company there, the latter has rosie there all alone. rosie's scene felt deeply personal in that way. at the end of the day, both scenes are communicating different things. that doesn't make one better than the other when they aren't trying to be identical. (disclaimer, i'm not jewish, so i'd be interesting hearing from the perspective of someone who wrt whether or not they felt it was "shoe-horned")
i can understand if you've disliked the show post-episode 6 (and episode 6 was a very strong episode i'm ngl). eps 7 and 8 were weaker in many ways, even to me, so i get it. everyone's entitled to their own opinion (i'd be a hypocrite saying otherwise). just understand that this blog is run by someone who overall enjoys this show despite its flaws! basically, i encourage you to take this energy and make your own posts.
#masters of the air#hbo war#e9#asks#long post#masters of the air spoilers#mota spoilers#all the hbo war finales are different. i don't think MotA's is as strong but like#my fav hbo war show is still BoB and even Then i don't think it has a better finale than TP. and i dislike a lot of TP! like A Lot!#and Even Then we don't get a good idea about what happens to a lot of the minor-er characters in TP once they leave#anyone who isn't sledge or leckie (rip basilone) is hand-waved-'they went home'-away#not every show needs a sandlot ending w/ a voiceover going:#'[NAME] got really into the [INSERT DECADE] and no one ever saw him again' like they did to webster (rip webster)#and again! i'm mixed about the redtails. but i can Very Clearly See this show getting released without including them#which wouldve left many people (justifiably!) upset that they weren't shown when they were Literally there in the same pow camp#i'll give the hbo war team a lot of shit about a lot of things (despite the enduringly positive energy i try to keep up here)#but i Have to give MotA props for Trying. i don't see faux inclusion i just see it as not quite hitting the mark but an attempt was made#and i think that's worth Something given neither BoB or TP bothered trying#(like i think there was a missed opportunity in TP not mentioning what's happening to japanese americans on the home front)#this got away from me (i'm also opinionated) but while i can agree with you about how the show feels rushed#i do take issue with the idea that they were pretending to be inclusive. i'll blame money time and covid19 before i blame bad intention#maybe that's controversial here but it Is my blog. so.
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I've been working on a lot of new pieces and making them into merch, but before I start posting all of them you can go check out in the shops (linktr.ee/mezzy) Valentine's Bundle - merch that celebrates love (.... I mean klance, but I added Cuddlers as well, because I bet that if everyone had a Cuddler, world would be a better place).
There is a discount code fo 14% off of the Valentine's bundle - 7 codes for each shop (Bigcartel and Payhip) so use LO7E at the check out for a discount!
Happy Valentine's everyone thank you so much for sharing this with me and see you with the next post 💕💖💖
#i feel like crawled undeneath work for past weeks#i am so happy with all the choices ive went with#and the work ive put into them#im considering klamce might be dying out but im going to go down with this shit maybe literally#this is all I wanted to do before anything else lol no you know tbh there is a bookmark design#i was really tempted to add but it's from Cursed Love story and I said no AU shit before you finish shit#me sniffing pages of AUs i shouldnt be writing because they are not a priority: ure my personal brand of heroine bella#but yes! anyway i had more plans not only bookmark but memo pads other bracelets (more complicated) and earings (that one was my gf's idea)#but i decided to be sane (moderately)#i also bought new boxes for shipping and planned new freebies i am exited! im also exited to be done with planning and start sketching#i want to congratulate myself because ive been going off on how much pieces i start but never finish bc i had character development on that#i also eant to look myself in the eyes and ask are you happy now??????#youll never be happy#next monster to tackle are PDFs#once i sleep it all off though#once again have wonderful day everyone!!!
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Recent things.. mostly just writing screenshots lol
#There's a water problem in the apartment so thats been taking most of my attention lol.. the way maintenance happens here is just#this big long vague wait with no clear communication. You just send in a request to the apartment building and then you might hear from the#any weekday from 8am - 4pm any time after that. Sometimes it's quick but sometimes its like days before you hear anything. So then#you just have to be operating under the assumption that at any time during working hours you might get a call or a knock at the door#Like if you were expecting company at any time for a week straight ghjhj.. ANYWAY.. I've been working on making a little discord#server thing for the game maybe for playtesters to communicate in initially i guess but then also after it's out or... something like that.#no idea how all of that works. but you hear about people doing it. or something... Still not entirely sold on the idea since I'm not really#a big user of discord format speaking (like little chats and stuff) but.. again idk.. seems like.. common.. for things...(< socially odd#hermit fumbling through trying to imitate what '''normal''' people do/enjoy/desire lol..). Since I think my biggest issue is I am very bad#at socializing and thus marketing since a lot of that is social. The type to just google ''what do people do about games once they've#made them'' and just go after whatever the top 10 things apparently are hjbjhbjh... But like I said. still unsure it will be utilized. it#all feels very awkward to me. then again most things do. But that's what the ''overall progress'' screenshot is from. the little channel#where I've been posting updates to myself lol. Also ''coding'' in that being used very lightly consdering it's ren'py and I'm only using#the very bare bones most basic functionality of it lol. Extremely intense highly daunting master level coding such as ''if x then y''. gbjh#slacked on writing a lot due to the evil maintenance and such things... and just general... appointments... events... aughhhhhh#I think it's Goose Time here or something because nearly every day I hear big V shaped rows of geese flying by like multiple#times a day and they're so pretty and neat to watch. They've really inspired me somehow. Today it was rainy and gray skied and high winds#and cold (some of my favorite most beautiful weather) and I went out to check the mail and like 6 or 7 rows of geese fluttered#by in the air. I felt like that meme image of that guy that looks kind of weird (william dafoe??) and its like black and white and#he's looking up at something almost teary eyed wide eyed in awe.. The goose... those are my goose.. the universe sent those gooses just#for me and the high speed winds blowing my coat open and chilling my face... a tender platonic kiss from the world is often delivered#by way of chilly weather and bird formations.. peace and love on planet earth truly..#OH and of course.. boy with boy!!!! shout out to those little mcdonalds toy animal plushies from like 2006 or something. I found the#gray cat one and was like.. hrmm.. I have one of those as well (a real life gray cat). surely they're friends now.
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Saejima and his prison crew still meeting up sometimes to have dinner and beers and maybe a tabletop role play is a head canon that I simply think is very cute.
#rggo sending him back bc he wanted to properly thank okudera and check in on him was the best thing ever to me#bc i already had thr idea in my head that of all the lads he is actually the one most likely to keep relationships up to some degree#which is sweet when you think about him not seeing anyone for 25 years and then think about what happened with Yasuko#So I was like yeah he and Kido def get beers once in a while and catch up#once all the boys are out im certain same shit for them too#its just a nice idea to me#also him and himura are still just funny to me#he could have been so much more reluctant about their weird sapporo roleplay visit thing#but he just went along with it 😂#oshima and baba just sitting there like 😐😐 this shit again#it would make no sense to send majima back to hokkaido when he was arrested at the start of 6#but i hope they did and he an the old boys at least got to chill together ☠️#saejima not majima eo yai yai so many jimas so little time#thank fuck daigo gets called daigo and not dojima id be fuckin him up too
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If Ulysses has a million haters, then I'm one of them. If Ulysses has one hater, then I'm THAT ONE. If Ulysses has no haters, that means I'm dead. If the world is with Ulysses than I’m against the world.
#this is slightly joking but like also not but also like am mixed on Ulysses on many factors#infuriating because i sympathize with his pain but it’s like#he is a well written and fundamentally flawed character whose hypocrisy I found doubly in#black characters I can tell were designed by white people with a semblance of an understanding of activism and bipoc oppression#but not enough for the character to not feel like hand holding for the majority white audience#plus personal grips with the whole twisted hairs thing and reference to slave braiding patterns#Ulysses irks me as a black person on a weird personal level and I can go into debt on why him being black is a big detractor for him to me#like he continues this cycle of distancing himself from his roots before remembering over and over again through his actions#he leave so much in his wake that the courier ends up correcting or helping like in honest hearts and old world blues because he’s self#righteous in a subtle way even to himself that he believes he stand out of his one man rule when he does not play an active hand#saw a post talk about how you choose to continue moving through his story and can leave at any moment and this it is partially your fault#but what of the oath that is set before you and is forced to take that he set up#I do not have to walk it but when I do the steps are not my own but those taken for me#you have to go out of your way to change it which is not something he expects because he’s playing by a story he’s been perpetuating in his#head about you two and the effect one man has when he’s continually been that one man more so than you as many of his actions directly lead#to the one you go through also the irony in the flag he continues to bear being the real reason he has no home#like he reps it when the package is likely enclave and thus use the same symbol#also still can’t get over how anyone could have delivered the package and he tries so hard to act like it was the couriers destiny or fate#when this was the one case of chance and that once man was likely a enclave engineer and how it’s really is never one man#it the process and he’s so annoying about it like he’s a cool character but if you don’t believe in his philosophy or already went through#these ideas cause they are very common talking points in poc especially BIPOC spaces he’s just old hashings and stunted#fallout#fallout new vegas#Ulysses you upset me but I’m like I feel you could be better if you weren’t so incessant#I don’t think I ever want to make a serious post stating this about him just because I’d start yapping and it’d never get finished#ulysses fnv#fnv ulysses#lonesome road
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I keep imagining Lummis and Petunia in different outfits but never Flower, they always stay in their black pants and white shirt getup unless for special occasions, and I think the funniest possible explanation to this is if they have like 20 pairs of identical pants and shirts
Which makes sense if they're the Pure Vessel. Just throw something comfortable and practical but still okay-looking by noble standards on them when not on duty and sew a shitton of these bad boys for them, it's not like they have an opinion or preference or even need to be fashionable. Basic stuff will do.
The side effect of this is the fact post-reveal they still wear the same goddamn thing 7 days a week
And also they're autistic/neurodivegent in general. Having a duplicate or two (or 20) of their favourite comfy outfit is handy, and finding new clothes that don't have Bad Texture or annoying tags is a chore and a half.
#thylacines can talk#faaf au#lummis and petunia (and their other friends) didnt question it much. they did think its a little weird at first but they didnt see them#every day anyway and just figured oh this guy must be neurodivergent#the idea that their mother played dressup with them and they have a shitton of outfits from that stoll presists. post-reveal they return to#their room one day and theyre all there on their bed and desk. they're not sure if its a gift from their mother or if she just wanted to#get rid of anything that reminded her of them. but they'll take it.#however theyre all mostly very fancy outfits so the couple that dont have Bad Texture they save for special occassions and official events.#they have a couple outfits made by Hornet and Herrah but again these are usually saved for special occassions. they don't want to get them#dirty while fucking around with their boyfriends and friends. and Ghost. they do have a few casual outfits from them but they still mostly#wear their good ol' white shirt and black pants combo. Hornet is tempted to replicate their style perfectly but in different colours#because Holy Shit Dude wear something different than black and white for once#now that i think about it i did give them The Exact Same Shirt But Purple for an alternate ref so you know what? canon#it was bc I was doing an art trade with 3 other friends and they all picked purple bitches so i went oh I need to fit in
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It always gets me how Justice did not change at all, like, he is not corrupted at all. It makes everything more tragic than it already is. The only thing that changed was his perception, which of course, naturally came due to the change of hosts. I'm mostly taking Awakening Justice into account and how he acts because that is where we can carefully observe him by himself, without Anders' influence on the matter. And his influence is everything on the point I am trying to make.
When we first meet Justice, he is fulfilling his nature of bringing justice to the people he thinks that need it. He is very outspoken about it, and is already ready to take action with or without Warden's help. For a supposedly peaceful spirit that Anders claims to have ruined with his anger, Justice is acting pretty angry here himself (This is not the only time either). This is one of the first things I want to point out that did not change much about the spirit. Justice was always fierce about his cause. However, what stands out to me in these scenes is when the witch calls him out on his idea of justice.
Justice, is that what you are calling it? What of their punishment, burning my house to the ground and with me in it?
Well, in this case, the witch is a demon and mocking Justice for funsies. But what she says actually gives a bit more insight about what kind of a spirit Justice is. The actions do not speak louder than intent to him, as long as it is within the lines he set for himself. In a way, he was always okay with a few… casualties in the name of justice. Even though it is as simple as burning down a house this time. Isn't violence for violence vengeance after all?
While we are on the topic of vengeance, let's not forget the way he is eager on avenging Kristoff, vowing to kill every darkspawn for his cause (I mean the way he literally calls it avenging is enough debate for some people but I want to continue). So how come wanting to take revenge on the offenders that wronged not only his host but many other people, is any different? How did this route did not take him to the road of vengeance but attacking the templars, who are also offenders that wronged his host and other people, is corrupting him?
The answer is of course, that it is not, it did not. There is no difference between those two for Justice, there is no difference between vengeance and justice. Punishing the ones who deserve it is all there is. There is no gray area for spirits the way there is in the mortal world, and we see this clearly in the way he judges Velanna and Nathaniel for their crimes. Despite what I said about him seeing intent before action, now he cannot see beyond their wrongs. This simply shows that if the intent is as clear as violence for violence, he understands. But he does not understand the gray area of Velanna mistaking the innocents as guilty, or Nathaniel taking back what used to be already his.
There might be none for Justice, but there is a difference between darkspawn and templars for mortals. For one, darkspawn are generally mindless, and has no moral compass for us to judge. Whereas templars are just people with different ideals about life, to put it kindly at least. (Which is worse, being a mindless cruel monster, or having the mind and morals to choose to be something else but going for being one anyway? Lol another discussion for another time). Templars are the gray area that Justice lacks the understanding of. When he vows to kill every templar like he did with the darkspawn, he does not suddenly turn into a demon, he is simply punishing the ones that were doing wrong, as he does.
From here we can say that spirits' judgments and mortal's don't exactly match up. Though, there is one idea that seems to match better than others, and that is corruption. As far as we learn from Justice, spirits do not know about corruption any better than we do. Spirit do bad, spirit go bad, right? So, when Justice starts to feel things that are associated with demons, such as envy, he starts to fear corruption. He says he does not want to learn how a demon feels, but he also states that he does see the wishful thinking of a demon wanting to cross the Veil for this world. He is conflicted at best about the whole thing. Still, he does not consider himself corrupted regardless. I think that the reason behind that is simply the fact that generally, the Warden can ease his worries when Justice confides in them. And that is another thing that says a bit about him. He seems to accept the lack of understanding he has in the world, and chooses to listen to someone who does. Though, not just a random anybody, someone he deemed just.
So, let's see. A fade spirit with identity issues and an anxious spirit healer walks into a bar…
When they merged and Justice accepted Anders' cause for himself, and when they went all crazy on the Templars, Anders was scared. He feared the worst immediately because he is taught the worst about possession. He knew that Justice was angry because of him and his ideals about mages. So he blamed himself, called it a corruption he caused. And as I mentioned, Justice is accepting of the fact that he has a lack of understanding of some things. Plus, he was already scared of corruption. So, when Anders, who is an educated mage about possessions and corruption claims that he is slowly corrupting the spirit, they held onto it.
Everyone in their life from this point on, do nothing but egg them on about it, on top of it all. They might not corrupt each other, but everyone else does by pushing them the idea that they are now an abomination. Anders starts to fear the nonexistent corruption more, and Justice is confusing the inability to just wipe all the bad out with sloth. We are talking about a being who comes from the Fade, which can be bent at will and a place of immediate action. This works well in Awakening because we are already fighting darkspawn nonstop, and we are in the middle of a war. But in Kirkwall? Everything requires planning and suspended ideals. Templars bring injustice everywhere they go, yet there is not much they can do. After many years of being held back, it is no wonder Justice is surfacing more and more, itching to fulfill his purpose. Because he was always outspoken, angry at the injustice in the world and eager to bring justice. He did not change, but Anders' morals and his' just did not align the way they thought it would. They forgot that in Justice, there was always a part that was vengeance.
At the end, Justice was one of the most stable parts of Anders' story. He couldn't count his vow in Awakening complete without reaching the root of the problem, which was the broodmother. And he could not do so in Kirkwall without getting rid of the Chantry. Because chantry is the root of the Templars, and being a bystander while you can help solve everything easily is unjust all the same.
Anders and Justice had the same cause, different morality and they were just confused because they didn't know any better.
#going through awakening again made me so annoyinnnng i cant stop thinking about justice#listen i have so much more to say#justice didnt become a corrupted spirit when he went on a vengeance run on the darkspawn#and he didnt become a demon when he went on another vengeance run on templars#but once people were included they became confused#and this kinda goes to show that spirits' morality is all about their awareness of a wrong-doing imo#spirits' idea of doing something “bad” could mean something totally different like they need to be held a different judgment on the matter#demons could be just confused beings with too much feelings they couldn't understand so they became them#if they embody their name as much as spirits do there is nothing they can do about it#they cannot simply be bad because the emotion is not the bad part about such things they are the natural part#the bad part of negative emotions are the fact that they cause actions that we mortals would count as bad#at one point what of the nightmare demon eating away the fears we would be glad to be rid of is so bad?#and justice going as far as a boom for his virtue isnt something we could judge him bad for its just his nature#y'know? does that make sense?#they were right to blow shit up tho lol#im sleep deprived#i wrote this for myself but u can also have it lol#justice#anders#justice positive#anders positive#dragon age#dragon age awakening#me own
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So I don’t condone the usage of ai in regards to art or writing, since it takes away the soul and the whole purpose of creating the piece of work. However, I saw a couple videos of Novel AI creating some unhinged shit, so I got curious. This is almost certainly gonna be the only time I ever use this program, and it’s literally for curiosity sake.
Anything in brackets is what I have pasted in (coming from bits and pieces of my oneshots)
[Kremy can’t pinpoint the exact moment his feelings for Gideon turned romantic, nor could he pinpoint the moment his crush burned into love. What he could pinpoint, however, was when Kremy himself acknowledged that he loved the genasi.]
It had been a week or two since the gang had taken care of the problem with the dragon, and Gideon had insisted on accompanying him and his family on their trip to the nearby market. Kremy wasn't entirely sure why he had insisted on coming, but he couldn't say he minded. In fact, he was enjoying it a lot. He had gotten to spend the day with his friend, and now he was watching him interact with his family, and it was...adorable, really.
Gideon was the perfect example of a gentleman, always holding doors and helping the ladies cross the street. Kremy found it endearing and heartwarming. He didn't know what was up with the genasi, but it was nice to see him acting so polite and friendly towards his family. His mother adored him.
"He's such a nice boy," she said. "He'd make a fine suitor."
"Ma," Kremy laughed. "That's not what he's here for."
"I know," she said. "Just letting you know, you could do worse."
Kremy just chuckled, shaking his head and leading her to another shop. They had been at the market for hours now, and the sun was beginning to set. Gideon was in a deep conversation with his sister about a book they were both reading, while Kremy and his mother perused the selection of clothing.
"Are you going to buy something?" his mother asked.
"I don't know," Kremy replied. "It's getting late, and I don't have that much gold."
"Hmm," his mother mused.
[Kremy shouldn’t have felt jealous. He was the one who put the whole plan in motion, after all.] The one who suggested bringing Gideon along. But here he was, staring at the two of them, his sister and Gideon, the pair talking excitedly about their book. And it just felt wrong.
His sister was always the more reserved and intellectual of his siblings. She didn't get on with others that well, and didn't have many friends. She and Gideon, it seemed, got along well. Too well.
His mother had to nudge him a few times to get him moving again.
"Come on, Kre," she said. "We should probably head home. It's getting late, and your father and brother will want supper soon."
"Yeah," Kremy replied.
She was right. It was time to go home.
But he still couldn't shake the feeling of jealousy and sadness that was gnawing at his gut.
When they returned to the house, his sister and Gideon continued talking. Kremy couldn't bring himself to join them, so instead, he helped his mother with supper.
"What's wrong, Kre?" his mother asked.
"I-I'm not sure," he said.
"Something's bothering you," she stated.
"I'm not sure what," he replied.
"It's about your sister and Gideon, isn't it?"
"What?"
"You're jealous."
"Why would I be jealous? He's just a friend."
"No, you're jealous. I know that look. I wore it when my sister was talking to your father before we got married. And when she was flirting with him, and he was flirting back."
"She...what?"
"Your father never acted on it. I knew that. She did, too. But she had to try."
"Oh."
"Kremy, if you love him, tell him. If he loves you back, great. If not, well, you'll have your answer."
"Ma, he doesn't love me."
“How do you know?"
"I...don't. But why would he love me? I'm just an old half-elf with no future."
"Nonsense. You're young, and smart, and handsome, and kind. And he doesn't have to love you right away. Love takes time, and patience. But you'll never know unless you tell him."
Kremy was silent for a long moment, contemplating his mother's words.
"I'll...think about it," he said.
"Good," she smiled, kissing his cheek.
After dinner, Kremy and Gideon retired to his room, the genasi immediately sprawling on his bed and sighing contentedly.
"Man, I'm beat," he groaned.
[The way the light hit Gideon made him look so ethereally beautiful, more so than he already was.] Kremy could have stared at him forever, but he couldn't. That wasn't how the world worked.
"How come you were so quiet at supper?" Gideon asked.
"Was I?" Kremy asked, feigning innocence.
"Yeah," Gideon replied. "And you're quiet now. What's up?"
"I..."
What was he supposed to say? That he was jealous of his sister? That he was afraid Gideon would leave him for her? That he loved him?
"I'm sorry," he finally said. "I've just had a lot on my mind."
"Is there anything I can do to help?"
"I...I don't think so."
"Okay."
They were silent for a moment. Kremy sat at his desk, fidgeting with his quill, unsure of what to say.
"Hey," Gideon spoke up. "What was that story your mother told us about the dragon?"
"The one about the farmer?"
"Yeah, that one."
"Oh, well, the farmer had a daughter," Kremy began.
"Yeah, she was the one who went to the dragon," Gideon added.
"Yes. She had gone to the dragon because her family was starving. She had heard that dragons were very rich, and that they might be able to help. So, she went to the dragon, and begged for its help."
"What did the dragon do?"
"The dragon agreed to help. He gave the girl and her family a year's worth of food, and then told them to never return. He was a powerful dragon, and could not be killed, but he was not cruel."
"But what did the dragon do?"
"I was getting to that," Kremy chuckled.
"Sorry."
"It's alright. Now, the girl took the food back to her family, and they were grateful. They had plenty to eat for the rest of the year, and could focus on their work.
"But then, the girl heard that a powerful wizard was traveling through the area. She thought, 'if a dragon could help, a wizard would surely be able to.' So, she left her family behind, and set out to find the wizard."
"Did she find him?"
"She did. He was a kind man, and he agreed to help the girl. He was a very powerful wizard, and had lived a long time. He knew many things.
"So, the wizard set out with the girl, and together, they found the dragon's lair. The girl begged the dragon to spare her family, but the dragon was not so merciful. He told the girl that he would not help her unless she could defeat him in battle."
"Could she?"
"She tried. She was a brave girl, and a good fighter, but she was no match for the dragon. The wizard had seen this coming, and had a plan.
"He cast a spell, and turned the girl into a giant stone statue. The dragon could not harm her, and the wizard carried her back to her family.
"The family was shocked and surprised, but they were also grateful. They thanked the wizard, and the wizard promised to visit the family once a year to check on them."
"Wow," Gideon breathed. "That's quite a story."
"Yeah," Kremy murmured.
"Do you think the girl was happy?" Gideon asked.
"Huh?"
"In the story, was the girl happy?"
"I think she was. She got to save her family, and she didn't have to worry about them ever again."
"That's good," Gideon sighed.
There was silence for a long moment.
"Kremy, are you okay?"
"Y-Yeah," he replied, looking over at the genasi.
"Are you sure? You've been acting strange all day. Did something happen?"
"N-No," Kremy stuttered.
Gideon frowned, getting up from the bed and crossing the room. He sat down next to the half-elf, his brow furrowed with concern.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"I'm fine," Kremy mumbled.
"You're not. Something's bothering you, I can tell."
"No, I'm fine."
"Kremy, please. Talk to me."
"Gid..."
"Please."
"It's nothing."
"Kremy."
"Okay, fine. You're going to think it's stupid."
"I doubt that."
"I...I'm jealous."
"Jealous? Of who?"
"You and my sister."
"What? Why would you be jealous of us?"
"Because," Kremy sighed, running a hand through his hair. "I-I love you, Gid. And I know you don't feel the same way, but I just can't stop thinking about you, and I can't stand the idea of losing you."
"Losing me? To your sister?"
"I-I'm not making any sense, am I?"
"Not really."
"I'm sorry. I-I shouldn't have said anything."
"No, it's okay. I'm glad you told me."
"You are?"
"Of course. Kre, I...I love you, too."
"Y-You do?"
"Yeah. For a while, actually."
"Really?"
"Mhm."
"But I'm just a boring, old half-elf. You could have anyone you wanted."
"Yeah, I could," Gideon replied. "But I want you."
#that’s where I cut it off bc I realized this post got really long lol#this is technically the third attempt at this#bc I was trying to figure out which lines I wanted to use#but the first attempt was pretty good#wish I went with that one#second one…not so much?#it made Kremy an ogre and deleted Gid from the thing#tho it didn’t go past 2 clicks so idk#no I do not condone the use of ai for actual writing or art#i actually got this idea from someone on Wattpad from like a year ago#who took bits of their fics and made the ai fill in the missing pieces#and it ended up significantly more unhinged than mine did#and as interesting as this was#I doubt I’ll do this again (unless I have lines from my fics that I feel like can make a wildly unhinged story)#legends of avantris#once upon a witchlight#ouaw
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discovery of the day
#im sorry i do Not see what everyone sees in this movie. although from the years of browsing the internet ive began to realize#that i actually dont know if people actually like the movie or not#why is everything so rushed#their romance felt like nothing to me because i dont KNOW what they see in eachother#listen you dont have to tell me straight up into the camera why they love eachother#but the aggressive kissing and cut sex scenes arent telling me much#i get that it came out in 2005 but cutting mostly every gay sex scene? even the kissing for the most part?#but oh we NEED to see this happy husband and wife doing it. yes im bitter#a german movie by the name of summer storm came out the year before this one and actually shows something that feels like actual passion#i sound like i need to see people doing it in these movies all the time I promise thats not it#but even the kissing? the thing i Actually like the most? the thing that makes me feel things? felt like nothing at all#and oh i forgot that this is a tragic gay movie where one of them dies. Oh yeah. forgot.#mentioning summer storm again: it actually has a relatively happy ending. feels good that i dont need to be reminded of how gay people are#doomed 24/7.#the romance started good. with jack telling the guy whos name i already forgot to get his ass in the tent already.#the Pulling his arm over my body thing. it was going great#THEN IT WENT SO FAST! WHY WAS HE SUDDENLY SO INTO IT! WHY WERE THEY BOTH SUDDENLY DOING IT#im sorry i expected a slighter slow burn than this!!! calm down cowboys i have no idea why you two like eachother all of the sudden!#i seriously thought they would show these little moments of tension#and it just growing bigger and bigger#until they couldnt take it anymore#that would explain the aggressiveness of it! why they were so desperate! but it literally just HAPPENED!!!!!!!!!#im sorry i. I expected more of this movie that i hear so much about.#the most it made me feel was at that moment that turned into a meme where i thought “Hop on fortnite”#chuckled. that was it. did i cry? did my heart race at any moment? was i worried about what was gonna happen? not Once#im so. Disappointed.#after this i wanted to watch summer storm but netflix removed it. Its a german only movie no one knows from 2004. where the hell am i gonna#🏴☠️ that#AAAGHHHH!!!!!!!#not being able to watch summer storm made me cry more than this movie did What the hell
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