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guhhhhhhhhhhh · 11 months ago

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Friend breakups suck but they suck so much more when you've already made amends with the fact you're not going to be friends and the other person keeps demanding apology after apology to "put their mind at ease".

If apology 1 wasn't good enough I don't think apology 2 is going to make you feel much better and by apology 3 when you're telling me what to say back to you it really just makes me start to resent you when all I wanted was for this to just be a simple parting of ways

#emotionally exhausting smh #on top of all the many many other things emotionall exhausting me right now #I do not have the wherewithal to deal with this.#there are 4 other people involved and she is twisting all of our words against us #but no lie the argument that started the friend breakup happened in MAY!!! may of 2023 and here we are in January '24 and she still w #wont let it go #personal shite #I do not have time for people who get mad at me for saying things I didn't say. and blame me and call me shitty because I didn't say #stuff that I actually did in fact say but she just didn't listen!!#I'm so bitter #and want to go off on her #but at the same time this was a close friend of five years. like slept at our house. helped her through troubling emotional moments.#mailed her gifts and she mailed me gifts in return like honest heartfelt friendship. and she's just turned and gotten so nasty and #for what? a situation where she failed to see the nuance and we tried to explain it to her and she refused to listen? Jesus Christ????!#so because of our past I feel like I have to try and make her understand where Im coming from here. and try to get her to see reason.#but she's acting pretty Fucking delusional and im sort of tired of having these big emotional conversations #where I have to be the better man and put my emotions and feelings aside to rational explain the situation to her #AND for her to text me at 4 am about it so this is the first thing I see when I wake up is making me a little Mad to say the least #like i went to bed feeling shitty about the world after spending basically the whole day depressed laying in one spot spiraling #and woke up hoping to start ~fresh~ only to see THIS are you SHIDDING me #gawd I'm tired

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