#on the other hand if ppl hadnt been asking question actually forcing me to use my brain it wouldnt have been a full story or anywhere as

[sualne]

Please I don't think I will ever be able to express how happy your crocofamily au and art make me thank u so much for carrying crocodad as a concept like this you are my savior

oughwouuu _(:з)∠)_ and i'll never be able to express how happy i am yall love it!!

[seargantblue]

oh im so happy for u! really glad ur so happy :) hope u dont mind but i kinda wanna know how it all started between u guys and what ur friends think of it (since i guess they knew abt ur 'sexual confusion') and my last question whats the ideal couple in ur opinion? (again im very bored and i dont really have a love life whatsoever and im also very confused thats why im so interested in how u figured it all out i wish i could talk 2 u off anon but im so shy)

aaah u r so nice anon let me love u !! Im still very surprised myself that all this turned out the way it did tbh and I have no idea how I ‘did it’ it just happened. and maybe thats the magic behind all this feeling and love shit: it just happens and u dont rly have a say in all this. this is cheesy and overused, but I dont think u can force love and its still mysterious to me how some ppl just go in a bar and find somebody to talk to and then get together with that person. how do u do that ??? again under a cut bc its quite a long story but im gonna keep it short(yeah…) and thx again for having interest in my life haha! I hope that maybe it helps you or anybody out there who is confused as well!

I know him bc hes a good friend and old classmate of my best friend and she brought them to parties so thats how we met (bc I didnt knew him that well during school time) Its actually not rly that nice of a story bc we did start talking bc two of our friends had a huge fight and we wanted to help/needed someone to talk to, so that was the first time i rly talked to him (we were drunk and holding hands while sharing a wine bottle on the way to a club ((note: I love holding hands when a lill tipsy so that wastn rly anything ‘‘romantic’‘))and from that moment on we started to talk more (mostly via chat) but also when we met at parties, but it still took some time until we met sober for the first time (i actually didnt knew he could talk so much!! i thought hes more of a silent person, a lil bit grumpy even) but we had a nice conversation about italy and art over a few beers (but not rly drunk) and I think I even slept at his place ??? and thats also something we did quite often at the beginning: sleep at each others place bc we both rly like to cuddle. sometimes when rly drunk we would kiss but mostly just cuddle and make up excuses to sleep at each others place

and well that went on a while - going out together, cuddling, sometimes making out - we also started to hang out sober which was !!!! very nice. I didnt realize I had such strong feelings for him back then, bc I was confused and had the usual trouble of not being able to differentiate between “friend feelings” or “love feelings”. Also I never really had my usual crush-feelings for him which confused me more (but in the end made me realize that its way more than a crush). and well I continue to spend a lot of time with him and then did the usual stupid thing I tend to do: i only concentrated on him. And kinda forget my friends on the way which made them get angry at me and then I got angry at them bc I thought they should just be happy that we get along so good and I fucked up bad and said some incredible stupid things to my friends, which I regret very much now. And he also had some drama/troubles going on with friends of his/life so we bonded over that again yeah… not that romantic and it nearly destroyed the friendship to my best friends which made me regret my relationship with him for a while. bc I thought if I hadnt started talking to him, maybe all that shit wouldnt have happened ??? and that made me feel bad bc I didnt want to wish him away u know ?? and thats probably the moment where I realized that I was in for some deep feeling shit and NOPE it wasnt just a ‘friend crush’ lel. I actually tried to ignore this feeling for quite a while bc I didnt want to deal with all that shit, but u cant do that bc feelings are mean and will get u in the end. Well ANYWAY. thats how we met and after a while we started making out sober too (actually the first person I ever kissed while not being very drunk) and all that shit. Over the summer I actually felt terrible bc I didnt want this ‘we r not together but we behave like we r’ situation, but I also couldnt end this whole thing bc yeah- feelings and stuff soooo yeah, I already told the rest in ur other ask (: I think my friends didnt really like all that shit at first bc I put him above them and bc Im an idiot I didnt tell them anything that happened between me and him. some of them asked if we have sex or not and what he thinks abt me not wanting sex, so I told them what I told u in the other ask: not now, maybe some day, idc ;) They r rly supportive btw!! I was a mental wreck when this whole asexual thing started and they helped a lot.aaaah this got really long im so sorry, but this whole thing between us started around april (??) last year so its been quite some stuff going on (but it does sound more dramatic and exciting than it actually was looola perfect couple for me are two (or more if they can make it work tbh) ppl who support each other in all situations. who dont glorify the other person, know their flaws and love them still. I only know I love him bc when he does something stupid or gross or really weird I usually sit there and think “fuck I love this idiot” so yeaaah… kids, thats how u know u love someone: when they can fart on command and u find it funny instead of gross. and well an ideal partner just has to make u feel like u r a wonderful person and u deserve love and u deserve happiness and they try to make u happy and support u!! and they see potential and beautiful things in u, even if u cant see them urself and when they look at u, u still get butterflies in ur stomach. I sometimes still feel like throwing up when Im with him bc its just too much for my lil heart. if u can imagine waking up to them everyday and want to spend nearly every second with them and hate urself for being a cheesy romantic idiot: then u probably found a person u should try and keep as long as possibleTL;DRwe met over a mutual friend, the usual ‘dancing around each other and sometimes making out drunk’ happened, I cant remember when I fell in love but maybe it was from the beginning ???, nothing was planned we just coincidentally crashed in each others lifes and decided to stay,he makes me more happy (and sad) than anything/anyone before