#old hubba kinda scared

[feshippingpolls]

Xenologue M!Alear x Nel!! I love em so much and they deserve to be happy!

FE: Should they kiss?

Xenologue Alear x Nel

[specialagentfluffstein]

All those asks that you havent answered yet

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? More cereal. I’m lactose intolerant so I try to use just enough milk that I’m not eating dry cereal. Dry cereal is a different snack.��

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? No. 

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? Whatever is close. Usually random coupons. 

4: how do you take your coffee/tea? Coffee with creamer, tea on its own. Unless it’s chai. I like chai with oat milk or vanilla creamer.

5: are you self-conscious of your smile? I used to be, but now I love smiling for the camera, at strangers, pretty much all the time. But I also spent a lot of time practicing and figuring out how to smile without looking weird when I was 9 and super self conscious. 

6: do you keep plants? Yes! I have a plant that might be a Kalanchoe that I’ve managed to keep alive for a few years, despite always forgetting to water it and 3 butt succulents (living stones). 

7: do you name your plants? Nope. Although I do refer to the butts as “The Butts”.

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? I write, mostly. 

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? Yes. I tend to sing song if I’m talking to myself.

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? Side.

12: what’s your favorite planet? Jupiter! Even though that’s where boys go to get more stupider. 

13: what’s something that made you smile today? I found some pictures of my mom in college and we look really similar. 

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? Lots of color. Lots of tchotckes and disney stuff. Jackson Pollock’s Circumcision above the couch.

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! Jupiter is the fastest spinning planet in our solar system. 

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish? Is it pasta? It’s my favorite. Unless it has capers. 

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? Pink!

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up. So one time my BF and I went on a road trip up the oregon coast and then to Seattle. He was getting tired on our Seattle leg of the journey so we swapped and I drove for a while. I drive a ford and he drives a subaru. We were in the subaru, and I went to put it in drive, but instead turned the windshield wipers on full blast. Out of habit, I pulled down on it, since that’s where the gear shift is in my truck. His is not. I have yet to live it down.

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? I do! I have a planner for dates and scheduling stuff, a Bullet Journal that I keep my mood tracker and habit tracker and various lists in, a gratitude log, and my ‘write about your day and your feelings’ journal. I just filled my last one, and now I get to start a new one!

20: what’s your favorite eye color? Blue.

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. I have a 5.11 backpack that I used in college, and then used to travel, and now I’m currently using it as my roller derby bag. It’s super versatile. And I can put patches and pins on it.

22: are you a morning person? Yes. Or at least I pretend to be.

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? Knit and watch TV.

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? My counselor. 

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into? An old abandoned mansion. I was on a ride along and the cop I was with wanted to check for “juvenile delinquents.”

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit? My pink double tongue low top converse.

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor? I feel like there was a strawberry watermelon hubba bubba flavor I loved as a kid, but maybe I imagined it. 

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? Pspsps’s at literally every cat they see.

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? Yes. 

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. I love socks. I’ve knitted myself four pairs, and I love wearing disney socks and I just love socks. 

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. My friends and I are boring old people and we are asleep at 3 am. 

33: what’s your fave pastry? Uhhh.. At this point in my life anything gluten free that doesn’t taste like cardboard. 

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? A stuffed rabbit. Their name is ‘ruggy bunny’. It’s made from chenille. I still have them and as a full fledged adult sleep with them (and all my other squishy friends). 

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? So. Fucking. Much. I love Sakura Jelly Roll pens and washi tape and stickers and felt tip pens and ink joy pens and I love the crayola Take Note line and anything from The Happy Planner. I love it all so much. 

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now? Deee-Lite or The The

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? I like keeping it clean. I used to say my room always needed to be Teen Vogue ready, back when Teen Vogue would have pics of some famous girl in her bedroom on the last page. 

38: tell us about your pet peeves! Other drivers. 

39: what color do you wear the most? I usually wear quite a few different colors, especially in the summer.

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you? My uncle (who’s not my uncle, just a close family friend) bought me a diamond necklace when I was 10, because he said my first diamond shouldn’t be from a boy, so that way it would just be another piece of jewelry, and not my ‘first diamond.’ In hindsight, that was kind of a cool thing to do, because now I don’t feel like I have to keep or get rid of jewelry just because of who I associate it with. If it’s a nice piece, it’s a nice piece. It’s not my first diamond. 

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving? Outlander. It’s so well researched, and it’s got political intrigue and smut but I never felt like I was being talked down to or treated like a dumb reader. 

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! I do! It’s a local place and it’s got old squashy couches and different tables and big windows. One location looks out over the marina here. 

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? My boyfriend.

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? Not any time within recent memory. 

45: do you trust your instincts a lot? Yes. They’re usually right. 

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. How does NASA throw a party? They Planet!

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? Cashews. 

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? Yes. Getting left behind in the grocery store. 

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? I love buying records, I’ve slowed down on CDs in favor of vinyl. I bought Johnny Jewel’s Themes for Television. 

50: what’s an odd thing you collect? Taxidermy and furs. 

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? Joe Jacksons “Is She Really Going Out With Him?” 

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? Anything Baby Yoda. 

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? I’ve seen RHPS, and been to a midnight showing. I love it. I’ve also seen Beetlejuice, it’s not my fave, but it’s fun. 

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? My boyfriend when we discovered our favorite pho place closed. 

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point? Everything I do is a dramatic thing to prove a point. 

56: what are some things you find endearing in people? Laughs! I love peoples laughs. 

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? So good. I’ve been drinking, and I sang it quietly to myself with all the voices. 

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? Why? I struggle with this classification of women and the exploitation of the rampant alcoholism among women who are likely suffering from depression in addition to alcoholism. 

59: what’s your favorite myth? That David Bowie had two different colored eyes. And cryptid stuff. 

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? I like poetry from the 20th century, and I love slam Poetry. My all time favorite poem is William Carlos Williams’ “This is Just To Say”

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received? Both of these can be answered with “Bath and Body Works Body Wash”

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? Sometimes! I love orange juice. 

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? I want to be, when I have the space. My records are in alphabetical order. 

64: what color is the sky where you are right now? Dark Blue

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with? My two besties who are kicking ass and living their best life in South Korea. 

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? Massive and full of really bright flowers. Sunflowers and carnations and gerber daisies and just so much color. 

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? They make me feel like cuddling by a fire.

68: what’s winter like where you live? Fucking. Miserable. 

69: what are your favorite board games? Monopoly! I also like card games. 

70: have you ever used a ouija board? Nope. I ain’t fucking around with that shit. 

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea? Chai, green, and Thai. 

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it? Yes.

73: what are some of your worst habits? Popping any joint I possibly can and peeling my nail polish (which is why I will never get gels).

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. They are very tall and do the best John Mulaney impression. 

75: tell us about your pets! I don’t have any. :(  But I want three corgis named Navy Bean, Gerladine, and Jolene. And a pitbull named Korg. 

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t? Probably going through my clothes so I can find my Star Wars shirt for Monday. 

77: pink or yellow lemonade? Pink. I don’t really like lemonade, but I love the pink lemonade lip smackers chapstick I have. 

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? Very firmly in the hateclub. 

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? My mom made me an advent calendar one year with little makeup things and trinkets wrapped individually and hung from the ceiling. It was so fun.

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? Sleeping Beauty Castle Pink! One wall has glitter! Yes I did! I love pink and it looks nice with all my bright furniture. 

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. The spine of my copy of The Hatchet. 

82: are/were you good in school? Yes. I was built for the American School System and now that I can’t prove my worth with papers and multiple choice tests I’m kinda struggling. 

83: what’s some of your favorite album art? I love the cover of The Velvet Underground and Nico that Andy Warhol did and the cover of Led Zeppelin III with the rotating art. 

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? Yeah! I want a lightning bolt (a la Bowie or The Killers) on my ankle and my sister and I want to get some matching ones of Chuckie Chickenhawk (my grandfather’s event mascot)

85: do you read comics? what are your faves? I do, although not as much as I used to. I love Nightwing. 

86: do you like concept albums? which ones? Yeah! I love Marty Robbins’ Gunfighter Ballads, and of course David Bowie’s Ziggy Stardust. 

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? Everything except minimalism, and even then I like that a little bit. But I love abstract and pop art. But really I just love art. I love going to museums when I travel. 

89: are you close to your parents? My mom hell yeah!

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities. I love Seattle. I love the art and how much there is of it! I also have a soft spot for Meeker CO, weird republican little town that it is. 

91: where do you plan on traveling this year? Ahahahahahahahaha. Ha. *soft crying*

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? Depends on the pasta dish. 

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most? Well when I don’t have horrible too long quarantine hair, and it’s at shoulder length, I like wearing it down or half up. Lately it’s been in a ponytail or a bun. 

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? My neighbor turned 30.

95: what are your plans for this weekend? Gonna go roller skate at the outdoor roller hockey rink on Saturday and then go do some shooting on blm land on Sunday. 

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? I am a horrible procrastinator. 

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? ESTJ, Virgo, Slytherin or Gryffindor. On my first pottermore account I got Gryffindor, and then I could figure out my password so I made another one and got Slytherin. 

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? I went hiking two weekends ago and it was awesome!

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. The Killers’ Battleborn, The The’s This Is The Day, Deee- Lite’s Groove Is In The Heart, Panic! At The Disco’s That Green Gentleman, The Avett Brothers’ Head Full Of Doubt/Road Full Of Promise (actually, anything by the Avett Bros resonates with my soul.)

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? Why? Five years in the future. Because hopefully I’d be in a more stable place in my life. 

Thanks for Asking!

[chelsorz07]

does everybody hate my walks down memory lane yet?

This one’s actually a year older than the others. 2009 vs 2017

BASIC INFORMATION Name: chelsea. I mean my last name has changed but my first name hasn’t. Birthday: july 26. -- 274 days till i'm 21!! I guess 274 days till I’m 29? Shoe Size: eight. Nine. My feet got fat along with the rest of me. Hair Colour: dark reddish brown. Several different shades of reddish brown. Plus some grey. Eye Colour: hazel. More like green on the outside, brown on the inside. Hazel would be its own separate color. Relationship Status: taken. Married. Zodiac: leo. Still. School: none. Been done with that shit for a decade now. __________________________________________________ FAVOURITES Colour: green. Green, plaid, black, grey. Male Celebrity: mike lobel. Jensen Ackles. Female Celebrity: sophia bush. Danneel Ackles. Shoes: chucks & flip flops. My grey BareTraps booties. Brand: starting to realllly love old navy. especially when i can get pants, 2 shirts, and a jacket all for 36 bucks lol That’s really broad. Like brand of clothes? I don’t have one. Brand of makeup? Tarte. Brand of shoes? Nike. Brand of food? Great Value idk lol Book: second helpings. The dictionary. JK it’s still and will always be Second Helpings.  Sport: football. Football. TV Show: one tree hill. Supernatural. Gum: bubblicious hubba bubba max blue raspberry. I don’t like gum anymore. Hair Colour on Opposite Sex: brown or black. Brown. __________________________________________________ NAME SOMETHING THAT STARTS WITH A: aftershave...no idea why that popped in my head haha Absolut vodka. B: bubbles. Barnacles. C: chicken. Cheerleading. D: dark. Dartboard. E: entertainment. Elliptical. F: fooooood. Frontierland (spn). G: great. Gyration. J: jizz lol Jell-o. K: knife. that was jo's answer but i can't think of anything else. Kiss. L: latino - where the hell are these words coming from lol Laser. M: mother. Megaphone. N: nicotine. Narcolepsy. O: otter. Outback Steakhouse because I just ate there the other day. P: poker. Petticoat. Wow. Q: quailman!  Quaker Boy. Man I miss that job.

R: reese's cup. Rage. S: shit. Salmon. T: titties? Tupperware. U: underwear. Uganda. V: van. Ventriloquist. W: walker. Wakeboard. X: xylophone - and no you spelled it right lol X-ray. Y: yorkie. Yosemite. Z: zane (hot guy on H2o). Zillow. I’m in the market for a house. __________________________________________________ LOVE Have a Crush: you could say that. Many, on celebrities. Do they like you back: yep. They don’t even know me. Or are you in a Relationship Now: yeah. Married. If Someone Likes You: doesn't matter. It’s whatevs. __________________________________________________ 5.. 5 FAVOURITE MOVIES 1. bring it on. 2. grind. 3. halloween. 4. dirty dancing. 5. degrassi goes hollywood. not so much for the movie, but for the fact that manny & jay got back together. Mean Girls, Bring it On, Grind, Halloween, and Pocahontas. 5 FAVOURITE CELEBRITIES 1. keith urban. 2. mike lobel. 3. sophia bush. 4. hilarie burton. 5. and yes, james lafferty. Jensen Ackles, Misha Collins, Jared Padalecki, Randy Owen, and Johnny Rzeznik. 5 THINGS YOU FIND IN YOUR ROOM 1. pandas - everywhere. 2. bed. 3. guitars. 4. tv. 5. clothes all over the floor. Mini fridge, bookshelves, record player, still clothes all over the floor, and Dave because he’s sleeping right now. Or he’s trying to. 5 THINGS YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT 1. friends. 2. music. 3. chicken. 4. my phone. 5. beer. Money, Netflix, family/friends, Rockstar, and music. And cigarettes. 5 BEST ARTISTS/BANDS 1. goo goo dolls. 2. poison. 3. keith urban. 4. the spill canvas. 5. firehouse. Goo Goo Dolls, Alabama, Matchbox Twenty, All Time Low, and Sara Bareilles. 5 BEST BRANDS/STORES 1. old navy. 2. arizona/penney's. 3. avon. 4. spencer's. 5. thsirthell. Amazon, ULTA, Hot Topic, Sheetz, and Joann Fabrics just because I get a discount and they have all my Halloween decorations. __________________________________________________ QUESTIONS 1. Have an obsession? a few. Many. 2. Where do you plan to go this summer? road trip down south with mah bee eff eff. Well the Foo Fighters are gonna be in Cleveland July 25, which is the day before my birthday. So I wanna go to that. Also you can do tours of Waverly Hills Sanatorium in Louisville. 3. What Month is it? octoberrr. Obviously since I took this quiz eight years ago today, it’s also now October. 4. Anything big coming up? not really. Hopefully buying a house and moving home soon. 5. Why are you doing this? need something else to do while i watch gymnastics & wait for it to be 4 so i can watch the bills beat carolina. The sound on my tv keeps cutting out and it’s really aggravating so I got on my laptop to catch up on youtube videos but I got sidetracked doing this. 6. Like your parents? no. My dad yes. My mom...ehh, things are slowly improving. 7. Do you sleep with a teddy bear? heffalump. Nope.  8. Do you eat when you're nervous? i eat all the time. I didn’t even read my previous answer and “I eat all the time” popped into my head as soon as I saw the question. 9. Own a dress? surprisingly...i have like four or five...yeah, that's a lot for me lol I have a couple but I can’t wear them because of my skin. 10. Are you a fast typer? quite. 80-90 wpm. 11. Do you wanna have kids? no. Yes. 12. Who do you usually have Christmas dinner with? my parents, my sisters, mark, austen, maranda (now that she's here haha), cindy, and emily. and diane & the kids show up at some point during the day. My family but I won’t be home for Christmas this year. 13. Who do you celebrate New Years with? i haven't really celebrated it at all lately...but this year the crew's getting smashed for sure. I don’t celebrate it. 14. Where do you live? here. Ohio. Unfortunately. 15. Have you made a cootie catcher in your younger years? oh god, so many. Yeah a lot. 16. Plans this weekend? it's over. bowling, shopping, out with people, dinner, out again. Well this past weekend we went to Canton on Friday, I worked Saturday and then we got groceries, and we went home Sunday and came back here Monday. Next weekend I have no plans except work. 17. To your left is: wall, window, fan, cabinet, cd tower, atari stuff. Table, Dish remote, lamp, bottle of water, picture of my sister, some random mail, two candles, and Dave’s wallet/keys/deodorant/Axe spray. 18. To your right is: wall, fridge, pandas, guitars, amp, cabinet. My phone, Vizio remote, sound bar remote, another table with a bunch of crap on it, and the couch. 19. In your pocket is: nothing. Cigarettes, lighter, my debit card, and a Sheetz receipt.  20. Nervous about anything? kinda. Not really. 21. Scared of the Dark? nope. Negative. 22. Have any phobias? several. Driving, bridges, weather, specifically tornadoes even though I’ve never seen one, bees, being in public, the possibility of finding out that I can’t have kids, riding in a car with Dave, planes...I’m sure there are more but I can’t think of them all right now. 23.Your Opinion on Turtles? indifferent. Same. 24. Whats a Store near your house? save a lot, tops, arby's, family dollar, dollar general, the liquor store, CVS, the music store, goodwill, country fair, and all the places on main st. The closest one is a hair salon but idk if that counts as a “store”...probably one of the restaurants on 3rd st or Dollar General. 25. What did you do last march break? nothing? I don’t have March break. 26. Like Gum? only one kind. No. 27. Age you’d like to be? 274 days older than i am. Don’t care. 28. Place you would rather be? i'm good. Bradford. 29. Were you ever obsessed with High School Musical? haha yeah, i was for a while. You betcha. I still love it. Not the third one though. 30. Movie You Would like to see? paranormal activity. For the record, Paranormal Activity was shitty AF. I want to see Thank You For Your Service __________________________________________________ THE END Happy you're done? kinda. I have to poop so yeah I guess. What are you gonna do now? watch tv, watch football, then eat dinner. Poop, smoke a cigarette, and watch youtube videos.

[jhoe]

not a day goes by where i dont think about hoseok ? it's weird bc i think of him everyday? i think of his full round cheeks like fat peaches and the soft delicate slope of his nose and how it curves up a little at the tip and how it would be the most perfect place to plant my lips after a long day. i think about his full lips like perfect pink wads of hubba bubba dhhdjd like theyre so beautiful and pouty and plump gosh and the perfectly placed mole right on the line of his lip where it turns more brown than pink and the dip of his philtrum and how beautifully it blends back out into the rosy pink of his lip and i still think about the little mole above his left eyebrow even though he got it removed and i think about brushing his hair to the side and cradling his head and kissing where that precious little mole used to be and i think about the strong outline of his body and how i want to trace every detail and winding curve and familiarize myself with all his little nooks and crannies and i know that sound stupid but god i think about this boy every waking moment of my life and you would think that after four years of it i would become numb to the thought but everyday i swear i find something new to love and i think of him and i can feel my heart unfurling in my chest and world defrosts a little and everything feels like it's going to be okay. and i am just so unbelievably enamored and unable to wrap my mind around everything that he is! he's beautiful but god oh my god he's passionate and patient and giving and thoughtful and optimistic and funny he has such a sense of humor and he's so much more intelligent than we give him credit for and like fuck it im goin in ! passion! hes so full to the brim with passion he's completely overflowing with love for his craft and you can see it in everything he does, he's a perfectionist. in the way he dances, he moves like he's not just memorized the moves and is performing them, he moves like he knows each move personally like he has studied how each one feels from his fingertips to his toes, he moves like he's communicating like he's talking with his body and like he is completely immersed in some other world that we can't even comprehend and when he talks you can tell and when he raps something about it is so raw and uncut and how he's been able to develop his own rap style when he didn't even plan to be a rapper speaks volumes for his dedication and passion and god its so attractive??????? and patient hes so gentle and calm when he teaches the others and when they're not quite getting it he slows down his little "ba baba ba baba"'s and breaks down the steps and like that one video of him leading dance practice and he looks so focused and when everyones not getting it he gets everyone together and they talk about it before trying again and hes just such a good teacher and watching him in his element like that is so magical and you just feel honored to be able to look at him and witness his self growth while bettering others and goshfhebrsg fuck its so calming it makes me feel like my brain and heart and soul are just floating in the damb clouds ! and hes giving hes always giving giving giving hes always giving us content and giving praise to the members and giving gifts and giving thanks and he gives so damb much and im scared that he would give his heart right out of his chest if he didn't need it so bad ! hes just always thinking of armys and his members and the little smile he gets when he mentions either just makes me want to give him everything right back like fuck the man is so fucking humble and when he talks to us hes always always promising that he'll work harder and perform better and keep putting out content and always thinking long and hard about what he says before he says it hsgdhsjs thts also a super endearing habit of his like when hes super relaxed and just doing a video or a live and hes not around anyone else, his voice drops a little and he kinda relaxes and rests his chin on his hand and talks real slow and giggles gently and makes lots of "hmmm" and "ahhhh" and "mmmm" noises as he thinks and god fuckfin i could really just listen to him talk forever like call me dramatic but i can physically feel every cell and bone in my body settle kind of like an old house and i feel a little like melty jello but in a good way because im wrapped in wool blankets but not the scratchy kind and i'm safe and nothing can hurt me because he's there and he's talking about dancing and his latest project and his mom and sister and mickey and it's so.. safe??? and the boy is optimistic despite everything and not in the sense that hes one big giant ray of blinding sunshine but because he's able to be that throughout everything?? if that makes sense?? even the members have said "hes not actually like that off camera" but because of the brand he's adopted, he continues to be. he continues to be that loud, carefree friend for us and for his members even when i'm sure he's stressed and sad and tired and god do you know how strong you have to be to do that like i can hardly even smile at customers at work when im sleepy but he gets up and does it and bares himself to the world with a smile on his face and i worry about him sometimes because i dont want him to think we would love him any less if he ever stopped but the strength he possesses to do so is indescribably admirable and i want him to know its okay and we love him and fuck i wouldn't ever trade him for the world he is perfect and bright on his own as he is and this probably isn't making sense and ur probably like when is this bitch gonna shut up but the answer is never ! i love him ! i love him and respect and admire and support him because of everything he is and isn't and if my heart was even able to fathom the soft little pit of love that has grown inside of me i'm pretty sure i would just die ! like my heart strings are tied around his perfect delicate fingers and he reached for the cereal this morning and nearly yanked my heart out and he doesn't even know it ! like god i am head over heels over head over heel over head over heels x100 over and over and i know that i will never love a man like this in this lifetime or any other one ever again ! anyway.. i fucks w hoseok heavy

[cuthie]

Lautner: Stirring The Cauldron

  The question was asked: Where will you be when the fourth war comes to an end?

     Tell you where I’ll be. Alone, back in a retaken Darkshore or Gilneas one. No one giving me stink eye, no one looking to take offense at any slightest insult they perceive, whether it was intentional or happenstance. No more frowning faces teaming up against me, scolding me like I’m some punk kid who needs discipline. No more Laz giving me whiplash with his opening up when we’re alone and growling when we’re in public eye. No more fuckin Marco asking if my balls had dropped while he fondles his lynx. No more oversized elves with their weird negligent rituals, no more half demons.. Well, that guy hadn’t turned out too bad, had he? I guess the druidess is okay too. Whatever. That whole thing was probably Laz’s fault too.     No more witches. Cept Margo, she’s cool. How had I not picked up on that before?     Oh yeah, cause Laszlo is a turd and ugh.

    No more tryin to make amends through shifts in behavior that nobody picked up on anyways. No more tryin’ to earn respect and fight on behalf of my allies while they catcall me and make me feel like shite mid-fight. No more having to drag my feet away from competitors who genuinely like me, and having to return to a group that looks the other way when I approach. No more biased leadership ready to shift the blame on their favorite scapegoat. No more stick up her ass Haesel sayin’ we’re square, then goin out of her way to piss me off or finding a way to belittle me to others without having to even speak my name.     Me. Wilderness. Books. Lots of books. I’ve done such little reading since joining these assholes. Like, the dumb training with those Sentinels. Okay, so the Sentinels are actually really cool, but fuck me sideways if some of them aren’t the most condescending of people. No more swords and armor and magic hex pouches. No more blame. Just me, reading a thousand books of a thousand different worlds and characters, the best of which are just blank enough for me to become them internally.     At least Kierro’s cool. He could have named me. He didn’t. Everyone knew who he was talking about. Mid-speech I got a dozen sets of eyes directed right at me. A subtle threat suggesting I be removed for my own safety.     If that happened, I’d consider my debt repaid. Boom, done, over, easy. I wouldn’t be alive if it wasn’t for them, so I figured the nicest thing I could do would be to join up. I’m not a babe lost in the woods. I’m not useless, no matter how Haesel tries to devalue my worth. I’m a Gilnean. We’re good at bloody everything. Moreso, I’m a Worgen, I’m a wolf, I’m a beast, that monster that Lassie fears. Leaping up fifteen or twenty feet into branches, swift as an arrow, capable of ripping a man in half with just my claws. Or teeth, as that blood elf had learned. Any witches wanna fling curses at me, I’ll find out what they taste like. Probably foul as fel like their little whatever-the-fuck those creatures were I bit into.     Sticks and mud and festering meat. I’m pretty sure nobody saw me vomit afterwards. They jump on even the slightest weakness here, and that’s all I need is someone asking if Laut’s ‘tum tum’ is okay.     Myth had said what I was thinkin, maybe what more than a few of us were thinking. He asked, ‘What would the Sentinels do, Haesel?’ What would they do if she abandoned her duty to them, left her post and went home because she wasn’t in charge and things weren’t going to her liking?     Haesel had feigned confusion. ‘Whatever do you mean?’     I tried liking her, but no matter what I do she just kinda flips me the bird. No, she’s not vulgar like that, but her own method is much more grating.     So I finished Myth’s question for him. ‘You abandoning your post.’ It was the first thing I had said in a good hour. I had taken in Kierro’s wolf, I was just as injured as the next bloke, but I deserved to be. So I stood in line, waiting in silence. Then Fey blew up. Haesel was abandoning us under the pretense that we’re too dangerous. No, not us, me. Was that supposed to be an ultimatum? Or an excuse because she was scared? Whatever. Fey’s the one who blew up, stomping her feet and telling me to ‘Shut the fuck up’.     It wasn’t the first time she had taken a side against me, won’t be the last.     I keep going back to that Kierro speech. I’ve got all my shite packed, and I’m trying to offer smiles to everyone. Hey, hi, hello. It’s exhausting being social and I’m terrible at it. Kierro’s got my back though. He didn’t say my name. I think he’s sincere when he calls us a family. That’s something I haven’t experienced for seven years now. I was just a kid before shite went all sixes and sevens. Now this big goofy night elf with his wild kinda hot hair is holding his hand out to me. And I owe him, I owe all of them. It’s the only reason I’m still here, close as I was to just uprooting after Fey’s outburst.     I don’t have to like everyone, none of them have to like me, but we need to be able to work together. I need to suck it up when certain individuals strip me down verbally, let me know how useless I am.     Of course, I did fuck up. This all started long before that. This was the first time in their company I -actually- messed things up. Everything else has been such peculiar happenstance that it’s just too difficult to explain away, moreso when I consider how awful I am at explaining things anyways. I just talk in circles trying to find the words that match descriptively and can be understood by everyone. I read faces wrong, see confusion, and retrace my conversation. Blah.     Why did I write that dumbass note?     Ugh. We were scouting. Bae was there. Good lookin, handsome as fel Baelryn. He stuck up for me when we were strangers. He helped me take the win against Laz and Margo. That was amazing. Things weren’t as tense in Boralus as they were here in the haunted woods of Drustvar. 

    So we’re looking at effigies. Old ones. If there was any magic in them, it probably expired a hundred years ago. Of course, I don’t know anything about them outside of what was explained to us back in Whateverguard Soundstorm. I really need to memorize at least the names of these locales. So Bael shoots one, Lex.. Was that her name? Lexi, yeah, pretty sure. She picks some up, inspects them. Every gust of wind, every twig snapping and every hoot of an owl was ominous to them and everyone else in the woods.     People who are actually good fighters. We were in a war against the Undead and their Horde monster companions. Some of these people have been in war after war, standing toe to toe with space Orcs from another dimension as well as the foulest of demons in existence. Comparatively, these old hags were fleas, right? Nuisance, pests.     But they were scared, they were cautious. It made me uneasy. And Bae was there with me, and everyone was just too worrisome.  So I smirk and make a joke out of it. That’s something I tend to do when I’m nervous anyways, make bad jokes that only I get. I took out a bit of parchment, got my ink and quill all setup. I like the smell of ink on paper, it makes me think I could someday be a writer like my father was.     And then I wrote the first thing that came to mind. ‘Dear Coven of Whatever’. I don’t remember the rest. I wanted them to know we had them where we wanted and we weren’t scared. Which wasn’t true at all. Logically, they weren’t going to happen across my note in the middle of the fuckin woods in the middle of the night even. Right? The random happenstance chance of that was just.. Incalculable. I put a small note on a tree, I feel better, I look good, strong, intimidating, hot maybe? Heh, yeah. I mean, I’d do me.     Lex caught me, read the note. Told me not to be doing stuff like that, so I just gave her that confident smirk. I wasn’t flat out beating my chest, but I did give Bael that eyebrow thing I’ve been workin on in the mirror. The ‘hubba hubba, yeah I’m fly, baby I know’ look. Is there even anything there, or is this Laz all over again?     Then shite went down. I fell asleep reading about the starless nights of Roland and Steven, could-be lovers of Westfall. Gah I wish the author would just settle that. I mean, come on, they’re clearly made for one another. And Gil? Wow, yeah, fuck Gil. Rich ass bastard, Steven wouldn’t even be with him if it wasn’t for his money and the debt owed. Ugh.     Voices rang out, reading my letter word for word. In my opinion, there was as much a chance of Sylvanas Windrunner finding that letter as there was these old codgers.     It was all a rush. The undead, the banging, the storm, the calls, the little army of hellions that tasted like illidari farts.     We won. That’s what we came here for, right? To fight them, to beat them, to protect those that would be harmed otherwise. If their focus is on us, it’s not on the townsfolk. That’s a good thing, but regardless, that was never my intent.     I wanted to put a positive spin on it. I didn’t wanna gripe or bicker, that was the old pre-Ancient ritual Lautner. This was the new and improved me, the one who’s eager to help and says ‘yes ma’am’ and ‘no thank you’.     They didn’t give two shits. They were pissed and they let me know, repeatedly. Some more than others.       So what now? I guess I’ll just shut up. That’s what Fey told me to do, yeah? Fuck her. Maybe I should just intentionally say nothin’ when I’m around her. Then again, that’s exactly what she wants. She wouldn’t see passive aggressiveness, she’d just see it as her winning.     Winning what? Why is it always so important that I ‘win’ things that aren’t competitions?     Ugh. Whatever. This is so stupid dramatic, like a bad young adult novel. ‘But my feelings’. Yeah, fuck feelings. I need to suck this shit up and just kill some witches. I’ll eventually get to go back to being alone when we win. Or I’ll go to where that fire would have taken me.     Either way, it’s best to just continue this dumbass path of trying to get along with assholes. Just smile and nod and take my lickings. Who knows, maybe they’ll come around.

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