#oksanaastankillme

[boxedblondes]

19 & 25 for the ke asks.

19. Sum up how you feel about S3 in three words.

delicious slow burn

25. What big question do you still need answered from S3?

ig like, how is everyone connected? is carolyn part of the twelve? was paul really part of the twelve? was dasha? how high up is hélène? what was their goal in “promoting” villanelle? that kinda stuff.

thanks for the ask! 💕 

[tallulahshark]

4, 5 , 16, 20

4. Eve x Kenny or Eve x Bill?

eve x bill because i love old men

5. What was Villanelle’s most clever kill?

the dominatrix kill!! the nurse sexy bdsm kill!! fuck it choke his nuts out

16. What’s your favorite episode of Killing Eve?

i have a thing about bathrooms, easy. love it so much. or i dont want to be free

20. If you could change one thing about Killing Eve, what would it be?

definitely the fan base. or make villaniko canon.

[eve-polastri-is-bi]

Rules: List 10 of your favorite female characters from 10 different fandoms and tag 10 people.

I was tagged by @oksanaastankillme thank you love 💕

1. Eve Polastri - Killing Eve

2. Rosa Diaz - Brooklyn 99

3. Tahani Al Jamil - The Good Place

4. Rue Benett - Euphoria

5. Wendy Carr - Mindhunter

6. Penelope Alvarez - ODAAT

7. Delphine Cormier - Orphan Black

8. Michelle Mallon - Derry Girls

9. Fleabag - Fleabag

10. Nadia Vulvokov - Russian Doll

I’m tagging @villanevest , @darkrosemind , @jake-and-ames, @amydoubletuck and whoever wants to do this because my brain doesn’t work because it’s 6 am and I’m still awake

[chillinglikeavillanelle]

Eve and Villanelle find out what they have in common, and bring an island to ruins in the process.

A Pirate AU

[sailortwift]

4, 17, 62 (my favorite question), 96

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

Oh shit, this is hard…I seem to recall them telling my parents I talked too much in class. And my work was often messy. And I liked to read a lot.

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

These:

62. seven characters you relate to?

THIS WAS SUPER HARD JUST FYI.

1. Harry Potter. I can sometimes be arrogant, moody, and dramatic, but underneath it all I’m just really fuckin stressed out haha

2. Hermione Granger. I’m a bossy know-it-all.

3. Santana Lopez (Glee). I mean, duh. I was also in the closet in high school, I had a crush on a girl named Brittany (seriously)

4. Villanelle. I’m very easily bored. Kinda hyperactive. I do unhealthy things to try to feel less bored. I’m working on it. Also I don’t really have a filter.

5. Eve Polastri. She has sort of morbid curiosities I can relate to. She’s kind of impulsive.

6. Jim Halpert (The Office). He makes mistakes but he’s trying to be a good person. He’s also really hard on himself.

7. Michael Scott (The Office). Not the part about him being an asshole all the time because I don’t think I’m that mean. But just how he kind of has the mind of a child, he sees things he shouldn’t touch and immediately wants to touch them, things like that.

96. desktop background?

We are all fandom trash here lol

[theclosetiswonderland]

When was the last time you screamed at the top of your lungs?

I’m not sure when was it, but I know I muffled it with a pillow… Probably because I was going through something. I often feel like screaming at the top of my lungs though, it’s kinda therapeutic.

[serothotin]

London

london: what is your dream job?

A research psychologist specifically in social psychology ^_^

Thanks again!!

Please send me more!

[fionashaws]

Fudge

fudge: describe your personality in 3 words.

introverted, loyal, tired ??

[uservillanelle]

Gif Request Meme: @oksanaastankillme asked: Killing Eve + favorite location

↳ Eve’s kitchen

[morerevenge]

I was tagged by  @tokyowitchx ty <3 

Posting the last four albums i listened, you can make yours here

I am going to tag @jimalim @oksanaastankillme @onceuponacaskett @w0nkkkk  @space-sheep08 @sorryxbabyx

[imageoftumult]

oksanaastankillme = sentinelsoulmates

[inactiveagentpolarbear]

tagged by @beckaaay​ thanks babes!!

1. Are you staying home from work/school? of course!

2. If you’re staying at home, who’s there with you? I’m spending my time going between my parent’s house and my apartment. I have to have breaks from my family ya know hahah

3. Do you have pets to keep you company? Yes!!! I have my pupper Finn!

4. What do you miss the most? I miss going to the store and my cousin’s house

5. When was the last time you left your home? I left a few days ago, but that was just to drive back to my apartment for a few days

6. What was the last thing you bought? two notebooks off redbubble cause i have an addiction lol

7. Is quarantine driving you insane or are you finally relaxed? Both honestly 

8. Are you a homebody? yes! so it’s not as hard for me, i just get lonely sometimes 

9. What are movies you have watched recently? I recently watched Jumanji, Thoroughbreds and Ready Player One 

10. An event that you were looking forward to that got cancelled? i was looking forward to hanging out with my best friend when she got back from her honeymoon

11. What’s the worst thing you’ve had to cancel? seeing my best friend 

12. What’s the best thing you’ve had to cancel? going to class haha

13. Do you have any new hobbies? nope haha 

14. What are you out of? Pizza and alcohol and it’s driving me nuts 

15. What music are you listening to? 1. 90 Days - P!nk  2. Cry to Me - Solomon Burke  3. Never Enough - Greatest Showman  4. - Sweet but Psycho - Ava Max  5. Youngblood - 5 Seconds of Summer 

16. What shows are you watching? killing eve (season 3), Crime docs, and Peaky Blinders 

17. What are you reading? none.... thought i have a massive stacks of books i wanna read. Oops 

18. What are you doing for self care? Still talking with my therapist, writing a lot, skin care, and watching shows i’ve been wanting to

19. Are you exercising? ..... No comment

20. How’s your toilet paper supply? It’s fine lol

21. Have you made any changes to your hair during quarantine? not yet haha

tagging @kassies​ @oksanaastankillme​ @barbarabarbrababadook​ @enochsbestie​ @saltistoosalty​ @anenemona​

[chillinglikeavillanelle]

All the questions about widow. Except the ones where the answer is obvious, you can skip over those, i guess. 🙃

This is long so under a cut :) 

Also spoilers if anyone cares, including for the chapters posted today (9 and 10).

1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?

It was actually Jodie Comer’s comment about not wanting to play an assassin because of the leather and high heels, which got me thinking about the MCU and how they could have done more with their Russian Assassin and they didn’t. So I just decided to mash the two together. I don’t think I’ve made as much use of the MCU as I could have, and I don’t think they’re super relevant, but you can see earlier that I tried to lean into that more (I did think it would be funny to make Raymond the Winter Soldier, but I thought it would probably only be funny to me.)

I wanted to explore a more ‘sympathetic’ version of Villanelle for Eve, in saying she was made this way (although I guess it could turn out that way on the show depending what we learn about her family next season), but I haven’t ended up playing with that idea much as her and Eve aren’t having heart-to-hearts, and I don’t want to woobify V. 

It’s mainly from Eve’s POV and I feel like Villanelle’s POV would ruin a bit of the mystery, so I’ve used her quite sparingly. 

2: What scene did you first put down?

Um it was actually Bill dying! (Sorry!). The whole thing was very different though - Bill came to collect Eve from the hotel and Villanelle busted in and threw him off the balcony lol. Poor Bill :( 

3: What’s your favorite line of narration?

Hmm.

“Evedoes feel a little kidnapped, now, as much as you can when eating chips, atwinge of fear at being unable to contact anyone else. Kidnapped-adjacent, shethinks, if that’s a thing. It annoys her.”

“It’salmost intimate, the way neither of them is put together, neither of them attheir best.”

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

‘Are you going to say goodbye?’ Carolyn says. ‘Terribly rudeto just hang up.’

‘So, the truth is that Eve Polastri doesn’tlie, other people just don’t act how they should?’ - Villanelle.

5: What part was hardest to write?

The space between Eve learning she needed to leave and the ‘Lazy Susan’ incident (which is now my favourite chapter ending). 

The motivation for seeing Faith again, and the way V reacted, were really hard to fit in organically, especially as I knew they’d meet next chapter and I wanted to keep writing that. Originally, V was much more reactive to the news, and I had the bit where she rips out the woman’s heart at the end (drama queen that she is). 

But then I realised I’d given myself a gift with Eve’s fake name, and even if the chapter was no fun to write, I really wanted to nail that reveal. 

6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?

It’s multi-chapter and long, and the central idea (Eve feeling more sympathy for Villanelle because she’s been ‘made’ and had an obviously hard childhood) has not really materialised at all. Normally I have a really concrete idea of what I want to explore and achieve, whereas this has evolved so much. 

It’s also much more plot/action oriented than my other fics, which are a bit more introspective (although ymmv on Thirty-Five). It makes it fun to write, as instead of doing too much navel-gazing I can write a bit of humour, a bit of drama, a bit of action and not get weighed down by the feels so much. 

It’s also the first fic I put up, and the one I keep coming back to!

7: Where did the title come from?

Tbh I was originally tinkering with the idea of making it a fake-out and having Niko die (so Eve was the Widow) but that’s probably not going to happen. I don’t like killing him when it’s more satisfying for Eve to just leave him. Or like, never go home to him again. 

8: Did any real people or events inspire any part of it?

Only the fact that I couldn’t eat Skittles for a few years as a kid because I got food poisoning after eating them. Also the ‘You can’t steal a car’ line made me think of the anti-piracy spoof from the IT crowd, but I didn’t think Villanelle would know it so I couldn’t get her to say ‘You wouldn’t shoot a policeman’ :(

9: Were there any alternate versions of this fic?

Yeah, as I mentioned, it was quite different when I wrote some of the main scenes eg Bill dying, Raymond’s death (Villanelle originally helped a lot more), Eve and V were meant to have kissed by now (as Faith and Eve)… there’s a lot of darlings I killed in this fic. 

10: Why did you choose this pairing for this particular story?

I love them. 

11: What do you like best about this fic?

I like that it allows me to write (or attempt to write!) the humour and the drama of the show from a bit of a different angle. I love all of Eve and Villanelle’s interactions, and so getting to write a lot of them together is great, in the same way that Thirty-Five was fun to write. 

(I also like that you like it so much!)

12: What do you like least about this fic?

I think it starts too slow. In the context of the broader fic, I think it works, but I feel like I could have had a punchier start.

13: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn’t listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading?

I listen to everything and anything while writing, and instrumental music (generally the Battlestar Galactica soundtrack) when I’m editing. But Florence + the Machine, Stromae, The Jezabels and Amanda Palmer have been on a rotating playlist.

Florence and The Jezabels make me feel calm, sometimes a little sad, which helps when you’re looking for a bit of depth. Stromae is a bit more upbeat with a twinge of anger, which is good for the action-y scenes or the ‘funny’ scenes, and Amanda Palmer marries black humour and anger together so well that I enjoy listening to her when I have a snappy scene to nail. 

I don’t think there’s a real soundtrack for this fic - just something with a good drum beat from Chapter 5 on though. 

14: Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?

Not really? I just want readers to enjoy it, I don’t mind if it’s not educational. Oh wait. There is a petrol station chain in France called Total Petrol. 

15: What did you learn from writing this fic?

Phew, so much. I’m really learning how to kill my darlings. It’s really challenged me in regards to making sure the journey is organic - I can tend to focus too much on where I want the characters to be, but it’s not satisfying if they get there without any kind of realism/struggle. So for example changing Raymond’s death was hard, but it just didn’t work with the 25000 words before it so it had to go. 

I think I’m also learning where my strengths lie. I generally have a sparse way of writing where the imagery is there to set a tone or share an idea - which you can’t really do with an action story. So I think in the early chapters I struggled a bit to give enough information about surroundings without making it an info dump (like who really cares about the layout of a room?). Now that they’re together and I can let the dialogue lead the story it’s a bit easier to work out what people need to know and what they don’t. 

[sailortwift]

I'm going again. Apple.

apple: what is your favourite type of food?

OMG this is hard. I love food. I’m gonna go with..sushi

[theclosetiswonderland]

Tagged by @morerevenge 

1. Are you staying home from work/school?

Yes

2. If you’re staying at home, who’s there with you?

My aunt

3. Do you have pets to keep you company?

Yeah, my cats :)

4. What do you miss the most?

I miss college, I miss going to the movies and I miss being close to my friends

5. When was the last time you left your home?

Yesterday, I went out to buy some snacks

6. What was the last thing you bought?

Snacks

7. Is quarantine driving you insane or are you finally relaxed?

It’s kind of driving me insane... not because I have to stay at home, but because I don’t have a job anymore and I have bills to pay so T.T

8. Are you a homebody?

Yes

9. What movies you have watched recently?

The Farewell, Little Women and The Invisible Man

10. An event that you were looking forward to that got cancelled?

The New Mutants premiere and a couple of concerts I was planing to go

11. What’s the worst thing you’ve had to cancel?

I was gonna visit my bff last month, he lives in another city

12. What’s the best thing you’ve had to cancel?

None

13. Do you have any new hobbies?

Playing games, reading books and watching TV shows (not new hobbies, but now I have more time for them)

14. What are you out of?

Money lol

15. What music are you listening to?

A lot of Dua Lipa, Hayley Williams and Lorde

16. What shows are you watching?

Killing Eve, Better Things, Little Fires Everywhere, Westworld, Good Girls, B99, One Day at a Time and Grey’s Anatomy

17. What are you reading?

The Chalk Man

18. What are you doing for self care?

Lots of water and meditation

19. Are you exercising?

I’ve been doing some really uncoordinated dancing

20. How’s your toilet paper supply?

It’s all good

21. Have you made any changes to your hair during quarantine?

Let’s just say my hair is not in a very good place right now

@zutaralesbian @weirdactress @oksanaastankillme @lulnuts

[serothotin]

Crocs

crocs: describe your style in 3 words.

Comfortable, grungy, urban

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