#okay that is enough from me bye sjkhddsfdj

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god fuck 🙃

i am very sorry about not being here still/again, but my body has been doing some concerning things, really fast lately.

it's been so bad lately my spouse has been even handling the dishes and several meals a week on top of their job and everything else that we need. i just can't? stand and sit lately. thankfully i am married to a great person and they are doing their best at taking care of me, like?? the other night i had a crazy craving for orangeade and the local 50's style diner we get it from was closed although google said otherwise... well! they went and got oranges, lemons and a by-hand-juicer and came home and made orangeade and Y'ALL- i could have fuckin cried and i did a little in the living room when i was alone like ksjdhhfgsfh i don't deserve them, they are so good to me.

but okay despite not being able to actually function for very long outside of my bed the past month or so: i do FINALLY have a doctors appointment for the first time in seven years since being diagnosed/uninsured SO kajskjasd- soon good things will start happening again, and!! i can and will be here more often once i have a concrete way/plan to manage my pain and all the everything else. it's going to be a lot of specialist visits and me having panic attacks and ptsd issues, but it will, overall be worth it so skdjksdjfd i am excited to finally begin treatment again.

also when i get back to full activity and can function more i do have a far cry 5 themed giveaway planned and there's a certain musicbox, character specific candle and necklace up for grabs! until then, though: thank you for your patience, especially those of you that are rp partners waiting on responses/interactions- i know it has been a Time™ since i have been regularly active and WOW i am so sorry!!

but, anyways time for me to shut up and remind you that it says right here- doesn't it secretariat? that:

you are all incredibly invaluable, wonderful persons and i love you grossly!