#okay so this is how I imagine the whole date-scenario thing
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formulafics Ā· 9 months ago
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ā€ MAKE IT REAL | OP81
Scenario: basically ā€˜the winner takes allā€™, but oscar editionā€¦or, the one where despite yn being the closest to oscar, no one suspects the two to be dating. that is, until a video of the pair at a valley concert comes out. (inspired by the song ā€˜Cureā€™ by Valley (bless @renarots for this one))
Pairing: oscar piastri x fem!reader
A/N: squadron, it is an oscar day. it took me entirely too long to get to this request, but iā€™ve finally made it. i hope you guys like this fic as much as i liked making it šŸ«¶šŸ»
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ynln happy halloween šŸŽƒšŸ˜š
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landonorris why is oscar standing like that
ā¤· ynln heā€™s just a boy leave him alone
papayabull MY BABIES THEYRE SO CUTE
dreamyalbon this friendship is everything to me
ā¤· formulaferrari not a single thing about yn and oscars relationship is giving ā€œfriendsā€ but okay
ā¤· dreamyalbon thereā€™s no way theyā€™re anything more than friends though šŸ˜­
rizzciardo the way ynā€™s whole feed is becoming oscar is so funny
formulaverstappen whoā€™s gonna tell them that daphne and fred had a romantic relationship
ā¤· ln4nation to be fair, itā€™s pretty common for friends to go as romantic duos, platonically.
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ynln the best mornings ā˜€ļø (also i made oscar the bracelet heā€™s wearing in the third slide i feel so proud of myself)
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oscarpiastri ā¤ļø
riabish second slide šŸ„¹
ā¤· norrisnation ria and ynā€™s friendship is my favorite thing ever
dreamyalbon yn making oscar a bracelet is so cute </3
formulaferrari another day, another oscar post from yn. i love it here
landosbeachball THE ONLY BESTIES EVER šŸ«¶šŸ» the slide of them holding hands omg
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f1wagsdaily do you think yn ln is dating anyone on the grid? if so, who? šŸ‘€
(left to right) yn and lando, yn and daniel, yn and charles
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norrisnation im so convinced that if itā€™s anyone itā€™s danny ric šŸ˜­ how do you go to music festivals and football games together so often and NOT date
ā¤· charlesrrari yes but also they donā€™t hang out NEARLY as much anymore? also to be fair, ynā€™s closest friend - oscar aside - is lando, so itā€™s kind of natural that she would be in the mclaren garage more, so it just SEEMS like itā€™s daniel? idk im not convinced that itā€™s him
formula44 idk i feel like lando is the only one that makes sense
ā¤· papayabull what about oscar?
ā¤· formula44 idk i just canā€™t see them together
xf1x oscar piastri (solely based on how much theyā€™re togwther)
ā¤· papayanorris lore drop: yn rejected oscar in f3 because he was too busy so id imagine itā€™s the same now šŸ¤·šŸ»ā€ā™€ļø
ā¤· xf1x to me that makes it seem more likely since that means they were obviously interested in each other?
ā¤· papayanorris good point but maybe theyve moved on? šŸ‘€
ā¤· pastrypiastri okay but imagine dating oscar and heā€™s THAT close with another girl, and same with yn being that close with another guy? idk this thread might have put me on the ynoscar agenda šŸ¤­
shumirrari wild guess: jenson button (if you know you know)
ā¤· chilisainz what am i missing?
ā¤· shumirrari basically lando and jenson button are sort of friends so lando introduced yn to jenson at a race, and lando took pictures of them together. iā€™m pretty sure yn posted them a while back? idk but it was just a silly guess (her and jenson would be cute though, but i highly doubt itā€™s them LMAO)
formulaferrari i am TIRED why does no one have faith in the oscyn agenda
ā¤· formulaferrari also does no one notice that oscar always is kind of shy around yn or am i actually delusional on this one
ā¤· charlesrrari wait lowkey youā€™re onto something rn šŸ‘€
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grandprixsandgossip Oscar Piastri and Yn Ln, a known friend of many drivers on the grid, seen kissing outside of a concert arena last night.
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norrisnation girl thereā€™s three pixels on my screen that could be anyone
papayabull oscar jack piastri what are you DOING
piastrisgirl never, and i mean NEVER, did i expect that out of all the f1 drivers, oscar would be the one where we find out about his girlfriend like this
ln4world this cannot be real
formulaferrari SCREAMING IM INSANE THIS IS EVERHTINH TO ME
stardustf1 okay but wasnā€™t oscar wearing a hoodie in the other picture that the one guy posted?
ā¤· rizzciardo yes, but iā€™m assuming oscar took the hoodie off and gave it to yn, because not only can you see her wearing a hoodie in this picture (even though itā€™s blurry, it looks like the same one oscar was wearing), AND ria posted a story of her and yn goofing off after the concert where yn was wearing a black hoodie so šŸ‘€
chilisainz were not gonna mention yn in the likes?
ā¤· norrisnation sheā€™s having her pierre moment šŸ¤·šŸ»ā€ā™€ļø
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šŸŽ¶ Cure - Valley
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ynln concerts are my heaven, but theyā€™re paradise when iā€™m with him šŸ«¶šŸ» @/oscarpiastri is my concert buddy for life whether he wants it or not
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landonorris but are you dating or?
ā¤· ynln iā€™m gonna need you to be so fr rn lando
oscarpiastri fortunately for us, iā€™m more than happy to be your concert buddy. ā¤ļø
ā¤· ynln music to my ears šŸ˜š
riabish literally the cutest couple i know *liked by ynln*
princepiastri THE CAPTION, OSCARS COMMENT, THE PICTURES?? THIS IS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE
formula44 yn im sorry for not believing in you and oscar
dreamyalbon AND WHOS GOING TO MENTION THE SONG??
ā¤· yukit22enthusiast AS A VALLEY LOVER I AM RIGJT THERE WITH YOU
formulaferrari THE FACT THAT THESE SRE ALL DIFFERENT CONCERTS OH MYGOD
formulaferrari i can finally call them my parents and not get flamed
papayabull and so whatever you do donā€™t listen to the song because iā€™m so upset
ā¤· stardustf1 someone harassed(/j) the guy who took the picture of them at the concert into telling them what song was playing when he took that picture and it was cure šŸ« šŸ’”
ā¤· papayabull NOOOOO itā€™s officially their song, i donā€™t make the rules
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roosterforme Ā· 6 months ago
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Yours Truly, Bradley Bradshaw Part 9 | Rooster x Reader
Summary: Bradley never felt like this before in his life. As soon as he spent a few minutes in your presence, he needed to keepĀ coming back for more. Your touch and your voice were already making this homecoming something he was hoping to repeat, and he decided to keep pressing his luck.
Warnings: Fluff, angst, language, Bradley getting handsy
Length: 4100 words
Pairing: Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw x Female teacher!Reader
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Bradley promised he would pick you up in anĀ hour. That gave you essentially no time to get yourself ready to go out. At least you didn't have those typical first date jitters, because you and he had already taken the time to slowly get to know each other over the past few months. All of the emails from him that you'd archived into their own folder in your inbox felt precious now that he was home. Now that he surprised you at work. Knowing what he felt like and seeing the way he moved in person seemed to be the only missing pieces, and now everything fit perfectly in your mind when it came to Bradley Bradshaw.Ā 
While you weren't nervous about getting to know someone new, you were a little antsy about trying to make yourself look as nice as you could in anĀ hour. After you'dĀ workedĀ all day. For your first date with a man youĀ alreadyĀ couldn't get enough of. He reminded you that he wanted to take you to the beach, as if you could forget the splendidĀ details he'd divulgedĀ over the phone a month ago.
He told you he was going to wear jeans, nothing fancy, but when you looked in your closet, everything seemed tragically terrible. You could practically feel time ticking away as you yanked a simple sundress from its hanger and pulled it on over your cute underwear set. Not that he was going to seeĀ thatĀ tonight, but it made you feel good regardless. It also made your skin feel flushed as you thought about the photo you'd sent him where you'd gone topless under your bedding, and you squeaked when you heard knocking on your door.Ā 
When you pulled it open, he was there, like a dream. Earlier in your classroom, when he interacted with your students, it felt like you had imagined the whole thing. But nothing felt as real as the warmth in his voice when he softly said, "Hey, Gorgeous," as he filled your doorway with his broad shoulders.
"Hi, Handsome," you replied, even as he leaned in closer until your lips were met with a kiss as sweet as the ones he treated you to earlier. He seemed to be taking your desire to be kissed as soon as he saw you to heart. Either that or he just couldn't help himself, and you were more than okay with either scenario.Ā 
Your fingers ghosted along the buttons of the loud tropical print shirt he was wearing. The fabric was soft as he deepened the kiss enough to let you feel his rough mustache against your skin before pulling away. All of the teasing kisses from a few hours ago made you want to pull him inside toward your couch, but he was already reaching for your hand.
He looked a little tired, and once again you got butterflies knowing he wanted to spend his first evening home from a very long deployment with you. As he smiled and wrapped his big hand around yours, he asked, "You ready for me to show you why deleting that dating app was the best decision you'll make all year?"
Your lips parted in soft surprise at his confidence and his little smirk. Granted, so far, he had no reason to behave otherwise. You let him guide you outside, and you locked your door as you said, "I thought getting my students to send mail to a deployed Naval aviator was my best decision?"
He hummed softly. "Seems as though you can do no wrong."
It was like floating on a cloud, having his attention and gaze fixed on you. How in the world this man wasn't already locked down was mystifying. As his rough thumb trailed back and forth across your knuckles, the butterflies started up again in a big way. It was actually happening. The first date that you'd been daydreaming about on repeat was here. He was following through with it, and now you were expected to act normal.
When he unlocked the door and helped you climb up into his insanely cool truck, he said, "It looks like you can't stop smiling, which is great, because it's a beautiful smile."
You laughed softly and covered your eyes before groaning softly. "I'm just still kind of in shock." You peeked at him from between your fingers. "When I woke up this morning, I was convinced something terrible had happened to you... or that you ghosted me."
Bradley looked truly concerned as he coaxed your hands away from your face and said, "Baby, you thought IĀ ghostedĀ you?"
You gave him a little shrug and said, "The thought crossed my mind. I know you said sometimes they shut off communication from the aircraft carrier when-"
He silenced you with his lips on yours, cupping your cheek with his big hand before breaking away to say, "I've been thinking about you since I unfolded the first letter you sent. And I've been thinking about today since you gave me your personal email address. I'm not going anywhere, and I'm definitely not going to ghost you, Gorgeous." Just as you felt embarrassed for having admitted that much to him, he kissed you again and said, "I want to get you Thai food and take you to the beach. It only took me thirty-seven minutes to get here in traffic, and it should be even shorter now. Since we're going to be doing this drive with frequency, I want to learn the best times for it."
You made a soft sound as his thumb continued to stroke your cheek, and you nodded as you said, "Let's do it."
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Bradley laced his fingers with yours as he drove down along the coast back to Coronado. The time it took to get to your place was really no big deal to him, but he didn't want it to seem insurmountable to you. Traffic in San Diego could be a nightmare at times, especially in the evening, and he didn't want you to think he wasn't more than willing to do this. Especially after you thought he may have ghosted you. And especially since he was planning on asking you to be his girlfriend.Ā 
You and your students got him through his deployment in a way nothing else ever quite had before. Your letters and emails were informative, funny and thoughtful, and you had this addictively subtle way of always letting him know he was on your mind. After months with Vanessa, all he got was a bad attitude, a partner who clearly wasn't invested, and an email about a water bottle.Ā 
You were singing along to a song he happened to love when he chuckled to himself as he changed lanes. "What's so funny?" you asked, giving his hand a little squeeze. "My singing voice isn'tĀ thatĀ bad."
"Your singing voice isn't even slightly bad," he replied easily, glancing at your face in profile as you smiled. "I was just thinking about my ex-girlfriend."
"Oh," you said as your smile vanished, and your hold on his hand loosened.Ā 
"Shit," he grunted. "Not likeĀ that," he promised, tugging on you gently while trying to focus on the road. "You and I had exchanged more emails halfway through my deployment than Vanessa and I did in seven months. And I'm hoping you'll keep emailing with me on occasion, even though we can text and talk on the phone right now, too. I associate my inbox with you now."
"Vanessa?" you asked, avoiding the rest of his statement. "Isn't that the name of Jayden's dog?"
Bradley nodded. "It sure is," he replied with a laugh. "One of the reasons I always liked his notes the best."
You were looking out your window now as the pretty coastline started to give way to a view of North Island across the bay. "I'll keep emailing you. How could I not? Texts and phone calls would be a bonus."
"I told you, you're going to get sick of me soon, Gorgeous. That's how many of my texts and phone calls you're about to be on the receiving end of." Bradley kissed your fingers as he turned to cross the bridge that led to Coronado, and he murmured, "Start thinking about what you want to eat for dinner. We're almost there."
He would erase all doubts about him from your mind. Your hand already felt like it belonged in his as you and he walked into the takeout restaurant while you listed off some of your Thai favorites. The two of you seemed to translate well from interacting through screens to physically being together, and the fact that he already wanted to put a label on this was a bit surprising to him. But there was still a lot he wanted to ask you about and tell you first, which was proving difficult when you looked up at him with bright eyes as a beautiful smile. He practically blurted out the worldĀ girlfriendĀ as you told him you couldn't decide what you wanted to eat.
"What are you getting?" you asked. "I'm torn between Pad Thai, Yellow Curry and Tom Yum Goong."
"Let's get all three," he replied before kissing you.Ā 
When he pulled away, your eyes were still closed as you asked, "All three? I can only finish one."
"Yeah, we canĀ share them," he whispered, kissing you softly again. "My appetite is huge." When the person who was working at the counter had to clear their throat to keep Bradley from pulling you closer to his body like he had earlier in your classroom, he begrudgingly ordered not three, but four entrees while you laughed.Ā 
"You weren't kidding," you mused as he paid for dinner.
"Listen," he told you as he put his credit card away. "There are three things I'm never going to joke about. Food is the first one. My mom always made me clean my plate, and I never outgrew that. If I'm willing to eat two servings of dinner from an aircraft carrier mess hall, then I'm probably going to eat at least that much if it's food that actually tastes good. And second, if I say there's a spider and that I need you to come quick, there isĀ absolutelyĀ a spider that I need you to take care of for me." You laughed and bit your lip as he said, "And third, I'm never going to joke about how attracted I am to everything about you."
Bradley tried his best not to cause a scene in the small restaurant, but when you ran your fingers along the scars on his face and up into his hair, his hands found their way to your hips, and your body was snug against his. He didn't say another word, and you didn't either. Neither of you moved any closer for a kiss. You just brushed your fingers gently through his hair, occasionally tugging a little bit, and he thought he could lose his mind this way. With you smiling softly at him, silently and unknowingly showing him that your touch was uniquely something he'd been craving for so long.
"I'll take care of the spiders for you. Don't worry," you told him as you grinned.
"Baby, that's like dirty talk," he replied, his words making him think of that one photo you sent to him of you in bed. You dipped your head, trying to hide from him as you laughed, and he leaned in to kiss your jaw just as his name was called. "You ready for dinner?" he mumbled, knowing he was about five minutes away from his stomach growling loudly even though standing here with you was one of the nicest feelings in his recent memory.
"Let's get you fed," you told him, patting his firm stomach and accidentally snagging one of his belt loops with your finger. He had to bite the inside of his cheek against the growing need he felt for you as you reached out to grab the bag of food, and he followed you back out to his Bronco like a lost puppy.
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After some debate about where you wanted to sit since the wind was starting to pick up, you chose a blanket on the sand over the back of his Bronco. You honestly weren't sure Bradley could even fit back there comfortably with you. He was so tall and broad, and his legs were so long, you'd practically have to be on top of him so he'd have room. Your mind wandered to the idea of him spilling off of his couch while you snuggled with him, and you could feel the warmth rising in your face as he helped you down onto the sandy asphalt of the parking lot.
With your hand in his, Bradley led you around to the back door where he pulled out a picnic blanket and a cooler. The wind picked up and you shivered a bit, wondering if he would let you curl up against his warm chest and his tropical shirt.Ā 
"I brought this just in case," he told you, turning to reach back inside and grab a well worn, gray sweatshirt that said TOP GUN across the front. He held it up, and you nodded, and then Bradley pulled it over your head for you, his fingers skimming down your sides as you pushed your arms through the sleeves.
"Thanks," you murmured as the oversized garment kind of swallowed you up. It was so soft over your sundress, you couldn't imagine ever wanting to take it off. And the look Bradley was giving you as you stood before him in it warmed you up as much as the shirt itself.
"I like the way that looks," he said, voice a little raspy as the wind pushed at his wavy hair.
"Bradley."
He shook his head, brown eyes fixed on you. "And I like the way that sounds."
You didn't need to eat anything. You could be sustained on making out in the backseat. You thought about telling him as much when he groaned softly, handed you the beach blanket and picked up everything else. "If we don't get settled, we'll miss the sunset, and the food will be cold."
He pressed one hot and heavy kiss to your lips before nudging the door shut with his hip, and you scampered after his long-legged gait to catch up with him. When he asked you to pick a spot for the blanket, you spread it out near some tall dune grass, away from some of the other couples who seemed to have been lured out by the promise of a pretty sunset. And just as you predicted, Bradley sprawled himself out and took up most of the space, leaving you sitting right at his side.
You helped him open up the containers of food and the disposable utensils, and then you watched him reach into the cooler and hold up a bottle of Prosecco and a bottle of a local craft beer. You pointed to the Prosecco, and he opened it for you as you said, "I know you told me you don't have much family, but you mentioned your mom? And how sheĀ always made you clean your plate?" You couldn't help but be curious, especially since you'd already told him a bit about your own family through email.
"Yeah," he replied evenly as you took a sip of Prosecco right from the bottle when he didn't hand you a cup. It was sweet and cold, but you almost choked on it when he said, "She died years ago. So did my old man. He was in the Navy, too."
"Bradley," you gasped, sloshing some of the wine onto your fingers as you tried not to drop the bottle. "I'm so sorry." He just shrugged and waved you off, but you ended up with your arms around his neck and the cold bottle pressed to his back as you whispered, "Is that why you didn't really have anyone writing to you other than me and my class?"
His big hand found your lower back through the sweatshirt. "Baby, the only other person who ever writes to me is my best friend, and even that is pretty sporadic."
You pulled away a little bit to meet his eyes as you asked, "What about Vanessa? The human, not the dog."
Bradley laughed and said, "The dog would make a better pen pal than the human. Probably be nicer to me, too."
You were completely taken aback. "What's that supposed to mean?"
He kissed your cheek before getting you settled at his side again, and you watched him scoop some noodles onto his fork. "Means she's not like you. And I'm going to try my best to prove that I'm not like your ex boyfriend who didn't like it when you talked about your job. Shouldn't be hard since I already think your kids are so cool, and I probably read at about a fourth grade level."
"Bradley," you balked as you laughed thatĀ he remembered what you told him about yourĀ ex, but he was already holding the food out to you.
"Try this and tell me what you think." You took the fork from his hand, tasted the dinner and moaned in appreciation. "It's pretty great, right?"
"Oh my goodness," you told him, digging the fork into the container for more. "It's even better than the place by my school."
You tried the curry next as the sun just about hit the horizon, and Bradley casually said, "We can do this all the time. Or I can surprise you with dinner after work."
"It's not a surprise if you tell me that," you told him before taking another sip of the wine.
"You don't like surprises," he said with a smile, and you realized for the second time tonight that he probably remembered everything you ever told him. The butterflies were back in full force as you and he chatted while you shared the meal. It wasn't like a first date at all. It was like some highly romantic reunion where he kissed you with a bit more frequency as the food containers ended up empty and the sky turned purple.
He was so warm as you snuggled up against hisĀ chest with your head on his shoulder. As the first few stars appeared in the clear sky, his big hand came to rest on your thigh, his fingers dipping inside the hem of your dress as the breeze made you cuddle even closer to him. "Was your last mission dangerous?" you asked, remembering how apprehensive he looked and sounded over the FaceTime call.
When he didn't respond right away, you thought perhaps he didn't hear you, but he squeezed your thigh and cleared his throat. "All of them are, Gorgeous."
Your heart clenched. You had him here with you after months of wishing and dreaming. You didn't want to seem pushy by asking, but you couldn't help yourself. "I never thought about what it would be like to... be with someone who deploys for work. Not until we started talking. But now I think about it a lot." His soft grunt next to your ear had you quickly asking, "Is that what it would be like? Always worrying if you're okay? Always wondering if you miss me as much as I miss you?"
He took your breath away as he kissed you, parting your lips with his and tasting your tongue. His lips were sweet from the wine, and his nose bumped yours as his big hand slid around to the back of your thigh. All you could do was hold onto him as he treated you to kiss after toe-curling kiss. You shamelessly moaned his name when he finally let you take a breath, but then he was right back on you. Your fingernails scraped softly along his faded scars before digging into his hair, and he broke the kiss and held you to him.
"You would never have to worry about the last bit. I would make sure of that. But yeah, Baby, the rest of it would kind of suck."
The only thing you could say was, "Bradley," as his eyes searched your face in the darkening evening light.
"I would have been miserable," he whispered. "If you never sent that first package, I would have had nothing to look forward to each day and nothing I was excited to come back to San Diego for." His voice was impossibly deep and alluring as he said, "I thought about that a lot. What if you never sent it? Or what if someone else got it instead of me? What if I didn't somehow manage to earn your attention? I don't like thinking about that. And I don't like the idea of you worrying about me even though, at the same time, it feels really fucking good knowing that you would."
You were melting. You were going to turn into a puddle for this man. This lonely man who had an ex who hadn'tĀ been nice to him and never emailed him enough. This man who cleared his calendar today toĀ bring you flowers and visit your kids as soon as he got off of the aircraft carrier. You wanted to say so much as you pushed gently on his shoulders, and Bradley slowly leaned back until he was laying flat with you on top of him.
"Gorgeous," he crooned in the moonlight with the sound of the ocean behind you and his big hands on your thighs.Ā 
You pushed his hair back from his forehead and whispered, "You just got backĀ today, and you gave all of your time to me."
His cheek was warm and rough with some stubble as your lips found his scars. You kissed them just like you told him you wanted to as he said, "It was just me being selfish. I wanted to be around you so badly. I'm already dying for more. Please go out with me again tomorrow?"
It took you all of a split second to agree. And maybe you were being selfish too, but you weren't prepared for the way your heart was racing in time with the butterflies. And how warm his big hands were as they inched up your legs while you tasted his tongue. And how much you knew you were going to want him to stay when it was time to say goodnight.
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Your hands were all over his face and shoulders and in his hair, and Bradley was nothing short of delighted by this. Your lips drifted from his mouth down to his chin, and he had to try very hard to focus as they grazed his Adam's apple. He had your apartment keys in his hand, with which he was also squeezing your hip though his sweatshirt. It felt serendipitous that he was the one who got your letters, especially since he went from halfway in love with you to most of the way there after one day in your presence.
"Baby, you need to go inside," he warned, but something in his tone of voice just had you clinging tighter to him. "I need you to go inside."
You broke free from where your lips ended up on the side of his neck, and you whined. "I know, Bradley."
"God," he rasped, releasing you completely and taking a step back. "Say it one more time."
You unlocked your door, turned to look at him over your shoulder, and your kiss-swollen lips curled into one of those simply gorgeous smiles that earned you your nickname. "Bradley."
It sounded so fucking good. "I'll see you tomorrow," he whispered. "Lock the door behind you."
You did as you were told with one more little smile just for him, and then he was left standing there alone, trying to catch his breath while he got his phone out and worked on taking date number two from daydream to reality.
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Why is he like this? They are going to get even more handsy on their second date, and I can't handle it. And he can't even go more than a day without seeing her? He needs to be locked away. Thanks for reading! And thanks @beyondthesefourwalls
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improbable-outset Ā· 4 months ago
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I recently became an auntie/uncle! (yay!) My little nibling was overdue by a week and the funny thing is, as a way to induce labor, sib and their lovely s/o tried the whole sexy times to get baby moving. And it worked! So how about Miguel and their s/o in that same scenario and Miguel convinces his loving wife to try it out seeing as their kid is a few days overdue? Bonus if it works! That man def be looking at his heavily pregnant wife with hungry eyes lol!
Pregnant!Reader smut šŸ˜šŸ˜ yes please! (Also congrats on your new addition to the family anon, and sorry this took so long)
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Miguel Oā€™Hara x Fem!Reader
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š“š– ššš§š š‚š–: Wife!Reader, gross talks of placenta lmao, SMUT, Pregnancy sex, spooning position, virginal fingering, unprotected sex, brief mentions of the labour phase, breastfeeding and lots and lots of fluff.
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š’š®š¦š¦ššš«š²: It has been a week past your baby girlā€™s due date, and Miguel thinks itā€™s the perfect time to explore some natural methods to induce labour.
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Miguel watched you anxiously as you tried to walk hand in hand down the street with him. One of your hands rested on your baby bump, while the other clung to his.
It was a quiet night as you both made your way back home, but even in an absence of a crowd, Miguel still felt an extra precaution over you.
He leaned over and nuzzled his face against your shoulder. ā€œYou okay?ā€
ā€œYeahā€¦Iā€™m good,ā€ you replied, struggling to sound convincing. Miguel knew you were concealing your stiffness. With the baby fully developed, you were ready to give birth at any given moment.
It had been a week past your due date, and you hadnā€™t felt any contractions. Miguel had adviced you to stay home to avoid any potential issues or emergencies while out.
But you were growing tired of being indoors all day and, after pleading with him, had finally secured a dinner date at one of your go-to restaurants.
The city was more beautiful at night, with the spectacle of lights and holograms illuminating the cityscape. Fortunately, it was within walking distance from your house, so you didnā€™t have to travel far.
Still, you found it difficult to manoeuvre around, struggling with your new, cumbersome, body. His eyes darted between you and the path ahead.
ā€œAre you sure?ā€ He asked, his voice showing his skepticism as he noticed the slight tremor in your steps.
ā€œMhmm,ā€ you were starting to sound breathless now.
He noticed how you were stuggling to keep up with his pace, even while holding hands. He slowed down to match your steps.
ā€œYouā€™re having trouble again,ā€ Miguel said with a hint of concern. ā€œWhy didnā€™t you tell me to slow down earlier?ā€
You huffed. ā€œIā€™m just a little disappointed that I couldnā€™t have the sushi,ā€
Miguel gave a small smile. He knew how much you had been craving the sushi from the restaurant and felt bad that you couldnā€™t have it.
He tried to sooth your disappointment. ā€œLo sĆ©, amor,ā€ he said. ā€œBut we have to think about the baby. Your health comes first,ā€
He gently pulled you closer, wrapping an arm around you and supporting your back as you continued to walk. ā€œI know itā€™s hard, but it wonā€™t be long now. Just a few more weeks and youā€™ll be able to eat all the sushi you want,ā€
ā€œYeahā€¦this baby really doesnā€™t want to come out,ā€ you sighed, glancing down at the bump. Miguelā€™s eyes followed, imagining your daughter inside.
He can already sense that she would inherit his stubbornness if she didnā€™t want to leave the comfort of the womb for the outside worldā€” he smiled at the thought.
ā€œI know. But sheā€™ll come out when sheā€™s ready. And sheā€™ll be worth the wait, I promise,ā€ Miguel felt the tension from your shoulders ease up at the thought. Thinking about holding your baby for the first time still felt surreal, even while you were fully developed.
ā€œYou know, I was kinda hoping I would start contracting back in the restaurant,ā€ you mused.
ā€œYouā€™re that eager for the baby to come out, huh?ā€
ā€œUh huh, I think itā€™d be a pretty memorable experience,ā€
ā€œIt definitely will be memorable,ā€ he imagined what it would be like if you suddenly writhe in pain the moment you get into labour while dining together. It didnā€™t seem like a pleasant scenario, however. ā€œBut I donā€™t think the other patrons would appreciate a surprise birth in the middle of dinner,ā€
ā€œRight, of course,ā€ you said. ā€œBut the food was still good though,ā€
ā€œYeah, it was.ā€ He continued to walk by your side. ā€œBut I bet that sushi wouldā€™ve been tastier,ā€ he added with a tease.
You rolled your eyes and pouted. ā€œUrgh, donā€™t remind me,ā€
ā€œHeh, Iā€™m sorry amor,ā€ he chuckled, his instinct quickly went on high alert again, focusing on your well-being.
His fingers traced circles on your back, a comforting reminder of his presence and support. He wanted to make sure he was there for you.
ā€œIā€™ve heard women eat their own placenta,ā€ you commented casually, breaking the comfortable silence.
Miguel couldnā€™t help but wrinkle his nose in disgust. He didnā€™t understand why you would bring it up, especially after a nice dinner. Knowing how easily queasy you could get, especially during your pregnancy, he was taken aback by your comment.
ā€œOkay, that is gross,ā€ he responded ā€œI donā€™t want to think about eating your own placenta. Besides, there is no way thatā€™s healthy, right?ā€
He knew youā€™d never entertain such an idea , especially if itā€™s people doing things online. He shook his head, trying to banish the unpleasant image.
ā€œI donā€™t know, youā€™re the scientist here,ā€ you said with a shrug
He couldnā€™t help but chuckle at that. He loved it when you would always remind him of his science background, something that he took pride in.
ā€œWell, from a science perspective, I can tell you thereā€™s no real evidence that eating your own placenta has any benefits.ā€ He glanced at you before looking forward again. ā€œI can imagine it being little too gritty and chewy like granola,ā€
ā€œEww I donā€™t think I can have granola the same nowā€¦ā€ You scrunch your own face in disgust, mirroring Miguel's earlier reaction.
ā€œOh come on, mi vida. Donā€™t let the idea of eating a placenta ruin granola for you. There are plenty of other healthy food options likeā€¦uhm kale?ā€
ā€œKale?ā€
He couldnā€™t stop the grin from forming on his lips, clearly enjoying prodding you. ā€œYeah you know, the leafy stuff that tastes like grass.ā€
ā€œGrass is appetising to you?ā€
He was clearly just milking it now out of spite and further teasing the conversation. ā€œYou donā€™t like the taste of grass? It boosts your immune system and gives you a healthy gut biome. You should definitely try it sometime,ā€
ā€œOh ok, cow.ā€
ā€œCow? Is that what you're gonna call me from now on?ā€
ā€œMooooo,ā€ you mimicked, leaning into the joke.
ā€œOkay okay I get it. I guess Iā€™m a cow who likes eating grass and kale. You win this one, amor,ā€ Miguel conceded.
Though he felt a swell of admiration towards you at that moment. Despite the discomfort you mustā€™ve been feeling right now, you still managed to bring light into the situation.
You were definitely ready to be a mother and he couldnā€™t wait to see the more maternal nature from you.
Though in the back of his mind, he couldnā€™t help but wonder if youā€™re doing it to distract yourself or, worse, distract him from your unease.
He really hoped it was just the former; at least that would be more reasonable. He knew how stubborn you could be when it came to your well-being, and now wasnā€™t the best time for that, given your vulnerable state.
Memories of the last time you pushed yourself too hard, refusing to talk to him about your stress until you reached burnout, were still fresh in his mind.
ā€œNext thing you know, youā€™re gonna say you smoke grass too,ā€ And there was more of that smartass mouth of yours.
He set the earlier concerns aside and focused on coming up with a response to match your sarcasm. ā€œWell I wouldnā€™t rule it out, maybe Iā€™ll try some kale-wrapped placenta. Who knows?ā€
ā€œEww okay stop,ā€ you wrinkled your nose in mock horror.
ā€œHeh, you started it with the placenta talk, amor.ā€
ā€œYes, and you somehow made it worse,ā€ you resorted, shaking your head. You both moved on from the placenta talk, shifting to a more pleasant topic the rest of the way home.
~
Miguel felt a wave of relief wash over him as he stepped foot into the house. The familiar surroundings offered a sense of security that eased his mind; knowing you were safe within these walls and away from any disturbance or danger from outside.
He watched as you padded over to the living room, your gait slowed by the weight of your baby bump. You sank onto the couch with a sigh. Despite the safety of indoors, Miguelā€™s protective instincts kept him alert with his eyes following your every move.
Ever since your due date had passed, Miguel had been anticipating the moment you would feel your first contraction.
Your hospital bag had been so packed for days, sitting in the corner of the room like a silent sentinel. It was filled with extra clothes, thick pads and everything else you might need. He was determined to be prepared for any eventuality.
But it seemed as though time stretched to a crawl as the days dragged on past your due date. Despite his effort to remain patient, he couldnā€™t help but feel a little restless yet excited for the babyā€™s arrival.
He settled onto the couch beside you and held the baby bump, feeling the gentle movements of your daughter inside. He wondered how you were feeling physically, sensing that must be feeling a mix of discomfort and anticipation.
Part of him wished for the labour to start soon, not just to end your pain but to finally see you hold your baby for the first time. He knew that moment would be etched in his memory forever.
He wanted nothing more than to come back into the apartment finally being a family of three. His eyes fell on you again; you looked worn out but you still looked stunning.
He had heard about the pregnancy glow but never truly believed it until he saw you. Your beauty seemed to shine even brighter through the fatigue and the physical toll of motherhood.
He felt you shift slightly, seeking a more comfortable position. ā€œHow are you feeling, amor? Do you need anything?ā€ He asked softly.
You shook your head, offering a tired smile. ā€œNo, Iā€™m okay. Just a little achy,ā€
ā€œI can imagineā€¦ā€ he replied.
No, I donā€™t think I could even remotely imagine.
He could sense your aches, even if you were trying to downplay it. ā€œHow about we call it a night and get ready for bed? I can bring you some tea to help you relax,ā€
ā€œThat would be nice, actually. Thank you.ā€ You said. Miguel stood to his feet and extended his hand to you. Once you grabbed it, he gently helped you to get to your feet too.
You headed over to the bedroom, the house hushed to a comfortable silence, while Miguel moved to the kitchen to prepare a cup of chamomile tea.
As the water heated on the stove, his mind drifted to the idea of different ways to induce labour. He had heard about more natural methods that could help get the baby moving.
But he was unsure how you would feel about the subject. The last thing he wanted was to make you uncomfortable and get you to do something that you were not too sure with.
Natural inducing was a delicate topic and he didnā€™t know how he was going to bring it up. Yet, with the increasing tension you mustā€™ve been experiencing, he felt an urgency to find a solution. The sooner the better, right?
Once the tea was prepared he headed to the bedroom too and found you already nestled under the covers. He handed you the cup and settled beside you on the bed. ā€œHere you go, sip it slowly.ā€
ā€œThank you, Miguel.ā€ you said, taking the cup with a grateful smile.
Miguel took a moment to appreciate the sight of you. In your cozy pajamas, with your baby bump showing and your expression relaxed, you looked more radiant than ever.
He shook off his awe and focused on the topic that had been on his mind. The timing felt right but he decided to wait until you finished your tea before he spoke.
Once youā€™ve drained the cup, he took a deep breath. ā€œI was thinkingā€¦I know weā€™re both anxious about when the baby will come. I think I might know something that could help induce labour.ā€
You placed the cup on the nightstand before turning to him. ā€œYou do?ā€
He leaned a little closer so he could study your face. ā€œYeah, it involves someā€¦physical activities,ā€
Immediately you twisted your face, recalling a past memory. ā€œOh, please donā€™t make me use that exercise ball again,ā€
ā€œNo, not the exercise ball,ā€ he chuckled before he retained his gentle tone.ā€œThere are some excerises, but we donā€™t need to do that now. I was thinking of something more intimate.ā€
Your eyebrows arched in understanding.ā€œIā€™ve heard of that too, I guess it wouldnā€™t hurt to try, right?ā€
Relief and excitement swirled in Miguelā€™s heart at your openness. Though he didnā€™t want to put everything on you now. ā€œOnly if youā€™re comfortable. I know you're tired right now so we donā€™t need to do it tonight,ā€
You chewed on your lower lip, suppressing your grin from growing wide.ā€œOh well, I might have a little spare energy for this.ā€
ā€œOh? Too impatient for the baby to come out?ā€
ā€œThat andā€¦youā€™re looking pretty irresistible right now,ā€ he saw a flicker of something familiar in your eyes as you said that and it was too tempting not to give him.
He leaned in, capturing your lips with his in a deep kiss. He felt you respond back eagerly, your lips parted slightly as his tongue traced the contours of your mouth, silently asking for entry.
You opened up to him and he took that opportunity to map out your tongue to taste more of you. After pulling his lips away, he soaked in the sight of you and how flushed your lips were right now.
His voice dropped to a more soothing tone as he spoke. ā€œLet me do the work, okay? You just lay back for me.ā€
He carefully stripped off your pants, with your undies remaining, before he removed his own. He gently guided you to lie on your side before he climbed onto the bed behind you. His chest was pressed against your back now and he wrapped an arm around you and caressed your bump.
ā€œComfortable?ā€ He asked in a whisper.
ā€œYeah, are you?ā€
ā€œVery.ā€ he pressed up closer to you, molding his body against yours.
One of his hands reached lower to trace the edge of your undies between your thighs. He felt your twitch slightly at the touch and he couldnā€™t help the grin against your neck.
He reached lower until he felt the damp patch of the fabric and gently rubbed in a circular motion over your clothed folds and the clit.
ā€œMigā€”ā€ you gasped, writhing under his touch. You were more sensitive now with your hormones flaring.
He groaned softly at the sound of you saying his name like that, so needy and desperate for him. ā€œYouā€™re so wet for me, amor.ā€ He murmured.
You could only moan lowly in response as he dug his fingers through the panties to feel more of your wetness. Your panties cling to your core from your wetness as he lowered the fabric to expose the delicate area.
The undies were only pulled down up to your upper thighs but it was enough room for him to delve his fingers into your cunt, drawing in and out at a shallow pace.
You were so responsive and your pregnant bump made you look even more enticing right now. He added a second finger, increasing his pace ever so slightly while using the right amount of pressure to drive you wild.
He heard you gasp, loving how easily he could make you moan and forget about everything other than him. ā€œYouā€™re so beautiful like this,ā€ he moaned against your ear.
You flushed again this chest, squirming until you rubbed against his groin and over his hard on. His breath caught against his throat, suddenly feeling his urges getting stronger. He wanted to be buried deep inside you right now but he didnā€™t want to rush things just yet.
ā€œYouā€™re making it hard for me to hold back,ā€ his voice was strained as he breathed.
ā€œMiguel, pleaseā€”ā€ you whined, rubbing your thigh desperately for some friction against the bundle of nerves.
Miguelā€™s control was hanging by a thread by now as he heard your plea. He slowly withdrew his fingers from you and shifted his body. He quickly lapped up your wetness from his digits before he started grinding his hard on against the rear.
His hands slip up your stomach again. He was infatuated by your bump and he couldnā€™t get enough of you.
ā€œAre you sure youā€™re ready for me?ā€ He breathed against your ear. He was aware of how more sensitive you were now and he wanted to make sure he prepped.
ā€œYesā€¦please, I need you Miguel.ā€ You begged further. The desperation in your voice pushed him to his breaking point.
He pulled away momentarily to lower his boxers and freed his aching cock. He stroked it a few times before he located your core between your thighs.
Once he found the jackpot, he slowly pushed himself inside. Immediately he was overwhelmed by you and your walls squeezing around him. You clenched onto the bed sheets beside you as he pushed further.
Once he had bottomed out, he felt his eagerness heighten and there was a hopefulness that this might be the chance to finally bring about the beginning of your labour, leading to the birth of your baby.
But at the same time, he couldnā€™t ignore the lingering nervousness on whatā€™s to come and the significant changes that would happen.
But for tonight, he didnā€™t allow himself to focus on thatā€” instead he wanted to bring you the bliss that you needed now before those hours of labour.
He let out a low groan into your neck before he started to drag himself out and slipped back in again, all while watching your face with a close eye.
He wanted to be able to pick up on your reaction through your micro facial expressions, even if he did only have a vantage view of your face from his position. Your mouth was parted open with the sound of your whine slipping from your lips.
His pace started off slow and steady so you both could get in the swing of thingsā€” and so he could adjust to the position. He had never made love to you like this so this was all new to him, especially with your new body.
He felt you tighten around him as he thrusted in and out of you, milking more moans and sweet sounds out of you. He kept his hands around your stomach, feeling the activity of the baby inside as he slowly increased his pace.
Your moans were becoming more frantic and high pitched from the mounted pleasure and how sensitive you were now. He could sense the familiar trance of your climax from the sounds you were making and how breathingless you were right now.
He moved his hand from your stomach to reach for your hand and threaded his fingers through yours. His lips remained near your ear and he kept his voice hushed. ā€œThatā€™s it, amor. Let yourself go.ā€
He heard you cry out his name in pure ecstasy as you reached your peak, sending a shiver down his spine. He continued to move inside you, helping you ride out your orgasm. His thrusts became more sporadic and jerky now as he felt his own peak crawl up to him.
With one finally thrust, he reached his own orgasm, coming hard inside of you and filling you with his release. He moaned your name, like it was painted on his tongue, as his body shuddered against yours.
He slowly pulled out from you and felt the withdrawal. Your bodies were still clung onto each other as both of you came down from your high. Miguel shuffled away to give you some room to breathe, with the sweat cooling his skin.
You turned your body over so you were facing him again before you wrapped yourself around him. ā€œDo you think it worked?ā€ You asked.
Miguel pulled you as close as you bump will allow. ā€œWell, I donā€™t know for certain, but it was definitely worth a try. And even if it doesn't, we can keep trying.ā€
The thought did excite him, but he really hoped that it would work the first time. He couldnā€™t wait any longer.
Miguelā€™s hand continued to trace gentle patterns on your skin. A sense of satisfaction washed over him, and it blended seamlessly with the lingering pleasure of your intimacy.
ā€œYou know, after everything Iā€™ve lost, I never thought Iā€™d ever find happiness. I never thought Iā€™d ever find someone who makes me feel alive again, someone to start a family with.ā€ He sighed, tracing his fingers over the back of your neck affectionately. ā€œYetā€¦here I am, married to the most incredible woman,ā€
ā€œWell, I never thought Iā€™d be married to Spiderman,ā€ you replied with a cheeky grin.
Of course you would bring that up.
ā€œOh God, please donā€™t refer to me as that, not while Iā€™m off the clock anyways,ā€ he said, though internally your words felt like a warm embrace, filling him with a sense of fulfillment. ā€œIā€™m not some special entity or idol, just a man who loves his wife,ā€ he added.
ā€œAnd a man who keeps the Multiverse intact,ā€ you reminded him. He wasnā€™t always fond of his role as the leader of the Society, but the way you said it made it sound almost noble.
ā€œUrgh, donā€™t remind me, you make it sound like Iā€™m some sort of superhero. Canā€™t you just call me your husband for tonight,ā€ there was a hint of vulnerability in his voice that he couldnā€™t hide, even if he was joking.
You looked up at him, your expression softened with affection, ā€œYou are, and youā€™re my hero too,ā€
Miguel felt his heart quicken seeing the way you looked at him. It wasnā€™t every day that he received the recognition that he deserved; but even when he did receive some praises here and there, it would never give the deep sense of gratification that he felt when hearing it from you.
You always knew how to make him feel not only noticed but appreciated too. It was almost surreal having someone like you to wake up to everyday. ā€œYouā€™re really giving me a big head you know that, but itā€™s nice to hear you say it,ā€
ā€œYeahā€¦and youā€™ll be this little oneā€™s hero too,ā€ your gaze fell to your bump.
Miguel couldnā€™t stop himself from gently caressing your stomach, feeling the kicks from your daughter.
Any moment now.
Miguel kissed your forehead. ā€œLetā€™s get some rest, tomorrow is another big day,ā€ You were both lulled to sleep with your synced heartbeats.
~
The following morning, Miguel felt you gently shaking him awake. Blinking against the morning light, he focused on your excited expression. He was still defrosting from his slumber so he didnā€™t pick up on what you said until he heard the word contraction.
Immediately he felt his heart rate spike and he bolted upright. ā€œAre you sure? When did you feel it?ā€
You beamed at him. ā€œJust a few minutes ago. I tried to wake you but you were in a deep sleep. Should we get ready to go to the hospital?ā€
Miguel didnā€™t need to be asked twice before he was out of bed and freshening up in the bathroom. The entire morning, he was on high alert, making sure everything was in place, carrying the hospital bag to the car and making sure you were feeling okay, reminding you to focus on your breathing.
As you both stepped out of the front door, he halted as his mind started racing. He looked back at the house and realised the next time he walked through these doors and back inside, you would be a family of three.
This was something youā€™ve both been dreaming for a long time and having to experience it in real time still didnā€™t sink in yet. He stepped further out the house and locked the doors before he climbed into the car, taking his place behind the wheel.
Several hours of ice chips later, the first cry of your baby girl tore through the room. At that moment, time seemed to stand still. Everything and everyone else faded into the background and all Miguel could focus on was you and the baby.
When it was his turn to hold her, Miguel couldnā€™t form a single word until he saw her big eyes open for the first time, looking up at him. She probably recognised his voice as he offered soft words of comfort.
ā€œMi pequeƱa princesa,ā€
He felt a fierce sense of protectiveness over the baby. He wanted to hold her close, to keep her safe, but he was also aware of her fragility. So he found a careful balance, making sure she felt his warmth in his arms.
When it was time for your babyā€™s first feeding, Miguel watched you as you nursed your daughter for the first time. The nurse helped with the latching and the positioning so you would be more comfortable.
You brought the baby closer to your body, aligning her head with your nipple. You got the hang of it pretty quickly and soon, she got a good latch, with her tiny lips flared out.
Miguel watched in awe as she started to suck and draw out the milk. ā€œSheā€™s feeding, amor. Youā€™re a natural at this,ā€
Once the babyā€™s feeding was done, you slowly guided her off your nipple and held her against your chest.
ā€œMiguel, I did it!ā€ You exclaimed, the excitement shining in your eyes.
ā€œĀ”Por supuesto que lo hiciste! You did an amazing job.ā€ He pulled you close and kissed the crown of your head.
ā€œI couldnā€™t have gotten this far without you.ā€ You confessed.
ā€œThat's not true. You're the one who gave birth to our little girl, and you're the one who is nursing her, giving her the best possible start in life. You're the strong, amazing, beautiful mother of our child. I'm just here to support you every step of the way.ā€ Miguel quickly wiped the mist in his eyes, overcome with emotion.
ā€œTrue, but I would be a mess without you,ā€
ā€œAnd I would be lost without you. You may be the one bringing our baby into the world and feeding her, but Iā€™m right here besides you,ā€ he said, voice steady and reassuring. ā€œIā€™ll do everything I can to make this journey easy for you,ā€
And he sealed his promise with a kiss on your forehead.
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never again | cs55
pairing: carlos sainz x norris!reader
scenario: dealing with the aftermath of your break up you come to the conclusion that some things just aren't meant to be
warning(s): fluff (we love big bro lando), a whole lot of angst, age gap (reader is 20, carlos is 30)
a/n: okay so I was asked to do a part 2 of this drabble by @ernegren. the public asked, i delivered
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The white noise inside your head was enough to muffle the world around you, sounding like you were submerged under water. There was something on the TV but what it was you couldn't be sure of, only the fact that is something Lando had chosen. The coffee in your hands had gone cold by now as the only thing in your mind was the last time you saw Carlos on loop.
You felt like an idiot really. Part of you had known that things with Carlos were too good to be true. He had been attentive, caring, always leading his ear when you needed to have a rant about something that had annoyed you to no end. For once you believed you had something pure and beautiful with him, however, everything the two of you had built had begun to fracture and crumble when Lando had told the very things that caused your doubt to spring to the surface.
You didn't know where he had heard it, and, to be fair, you didn't care. Just that one sentence had invaded your thoughts for a week since then. I heard Carlos was in a bet, he had said, rumour is that it involved dating you.
Your heart broke at that moment. It still does when you think about it, but you didn't want to believe him. You brushed your brother to the side and chose the man suspected to only be with you for six months because of a bet. Oh, how stupid you felt now, legs tucked underneath you on his couch with a mug of cold coffee in your hands. You had grovelled and apologised profusely for not believing him, but Lando just ignored your consistent string of apologies and brought you into his apartment.
Lando glanced over at you as the credits rolled. He sighed as he saw the far-off look in your eye, biting the inside of your cheek as your fingers tightened around the mug. ā€œYou gonna drink that?ā€
ā€œHuh?ā€ You blinked before finding Lando's concerned gaze on you. You hated that look. He always gave you the same look whenever something didn't plan out as you had hoped.
ā€œI said ā€˜you gonna drink that'?ā€ Lando leant forward to grab his own coffee mug from the table. ā€œI'd imagine it's stone cold by now.ā€
You sat back against the cushions, taking a sip of your coffee as you did before grimacing at the coldness. Lando shook his head before taking the mug from your hands and disappearing into the kitchen. You tipped your head back against and stared up at the ceiling while listening to Lando move about the kitchen with ease. But even focusing on something as simple as breathing couldn't erase the emotional pain.
It was three days after Lando had told you about the alleged bet that the insecurities began to run rampant. The second guessing, the fear of not being enough. You had confronted Carlos about the allegation the day before you walked out, but he had insisted it was just people stirring the pot and trying to cause drama. You should've left then, should've walked out days before and never looked back, but you didn't. Instead, you chose to stick around and now with a confession from the man you loved, you were struggling.
Your phone buzzed on the coffee table, drawing your attention back to the present. You had your suspicions who it was from, but you couldn't bring yourself to find out if you were right. Another buzz, another text. Why couldn't he just take a hint already?
ā€œIs that him?ā€ Lando returned with two steaming mugs of coffee and placed them on the coffee table. ā€œI swear to God-ā€
ā€œLando, just leave it,ā€ you sighed as you shifted your position to get more comfortable. ā€œNothing you do or say can change the fact I was nothing but a bet.ā€
Lando scooted closer to you and wrapped his arm around your shoulders. You lean against him, your body exhausted from the emotional toll of the last few days. You couldn't ask your brother to stop talking with Carlos. It wouldn't be fair as the two were still rather close despite everything. He kissed your temple as the two of you settled on the couch.
ā€œYou know, Oscar's got a thing for you.ā€
ā€œLando!ā€
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Mexico was warm. Warmer than what you remember from the last time you visited the country, but Mexico City was one of your favourite cities in the world. Mexican culture was something you could fully embrace from the vibrant colours that adorned the city to the rich food and spices. You loved everything about it.
You stood off to the side while Lando was wrapped up in the media circus of the weekend. Your eyes followed his every move while you waited for the perfect moment for the two of you to slip back in the McLaren hospitality suite, safely tucked away from the media for a short while before Lando was needed again.
He had given you the option of staying in his driver's room so you could avoid crossing paths with Carlos. However, it wouldn't do you any good staying locked away on your own. The media had already caught wind of your break up with Carlos, and you being absent in the paddock after seeing you arrive with your brother would only add fuel to their fire.
Lando glanced in your direction and gave you a reassuring smile, which prompted you to shoot one right back at him. But that piece didn't last for much longer.
ā€œy/n?ā€
You breathed sharply as your body tensed. You knew it was possible, running into him, but you didn't expect it so soon.
You turned your head to face him, catching his gaze in the light of the warm Mexican sun. He had barely changed, still looked as irresistible as ever, though the dark circles under his eyes told a story of lack of sleep. Part of you felt a twisted sense of satisfaction that he was losing sleep but the other part was concerned; he couldn't afford to lose sleep driving at over 300 kilometres per hour, it's dangerous for him and the other drivers.
The air was thick between you. You didn't know what you were supposed to do. What does one do or say around the man who had ripped out your heart and trampled all over it?
ā€œCarlos,ā€ you sighed. You brushed some hair back behind your ear as you turned your gaze back to Lando. ā€œWhat do you want?ā€
Carlos winced at your tone, but then again, he didn't expect anything less. Not after how things ended with you packing your bag and walking out without looking back. ā€œHow are you?ā€
ā€œHow do you think I am?ā€ You snapped before whipping around to face him. ā€œHow do you think I'm doing after finding out I was a bet amongst friends?ā€
ā€œI'm sorry, okay, I never meant for things to get that far. I never meant for you to fall in love. Hell, I never meant to care about you as much as I did, as much as I still do.ā€ Carlos ran his fingers through his hair, tugging at the roots in visible distress. ā€œCan we at least talk?ā€
You let out a bitter laugh at the audacity. ā€œWhat is there to talk about? You lied, and you lied, and you lied for months, and even when I brought it to your attention, you still had the nerve to tell me it's just people stirring shit up.ā€ You shook your head at the absurdity of it all, wanting more of your time as if he hadn't wasted enough.
ā€œPlease, y/n, let's just-ā€
ā€œNo, we're not going to ā€˜justā€™ anything.ā€ Your eyes were ablaze as you stared into him as if you were staring into his soul. ā€œI was such a fucking idiot for believing in you, for believing what we had was real.ļæ½ļæ½
ā€œIt was real, and I was an idiot. I never should've taken the bet.ā€ Carlos inched forward, his hand hovering beside your face as if waiting for you to pull back. When you didn't move, he cupped your face, his thumb caressing your skin with the same tenderness he always had. ā€œBut the more time I spent with you, the more I got to know you, it became harder and harder to tell you and I'm so sorry, amour, I never meant for you to get hurt.ā€
For a moment, you allowed yourself to fall back into him. You leaned into his touch, savouring the way his skin felt against yours, adoring the way you felt safe again, even for just a brief moment. You always did feel safe around him, even before you got together. He just had the safety aura about him like nothing could harm you when he was around. Oh, if only you knew how it would all come crashing down on a moment's notice.
You swallowed as you glanced up, your eyes glittering with unshed tears, and it was like a punch to his gut all over again. ā€œDid you ever love me?ā€
ā€œOf course I did, amour,ā€ his tone almost pleading with you as he moved his free hand to cradle the other side of your face and rested his forehead against yours. ā€œI fell in love with how you loved to watch the sunrise every morning, I fell in love with the way your hand fits perfectly in mine; I fell in love with you a little bit more everyday.ā€
You closed your eyes as you lent further into his touch. His words did ease a small amount of pain in your heart, but it wasn't enough. The damage had already been done, and you didn't know if that could be repaired.
ā€œThat's the problem,ā€ you whispered, your eyes opening again and glistening with unshed tears. ā€œYou've lied so many times, I don't even know if you're telling the truth. I've been cheated on in the past, and that hurt, but that's nothing compared to this.ā€
ā€œCariƱo, please, don't do this,ā€ Carlos begged as tears of his own began to build. ā€œI'll do whatever it takes, name it, and I'll do it, but please don't walk away.ā€
ā€œYou can make up for it by not making the same mistake with the next girl.ā€ You gently pulled his hands away from your face and held them tightly in your own. You still loved him, of course you did, but you couldn't allow yourself to make the same mistake again. ā€œIf you're really sorry for what happened, promise me that the next girl you meet that you'll treat her with the respect and dignity she deserves.ā€
Carlos let the tear fall as he drew a shaky breath. You reached up and brushed it away with the pad of your thumb, your heart crushed by the weight of everything. He knew in that very moment he had lost you for good. He had messed up beyond belief, and now he was suffering the consequences of his careless actions.
He held your hand against his cheek and kissed your palm as another tear threatened to fall. ā€œPromise me you'll take care of yourself, okay?ā€
You nodded as you tried to keep in your emotions. ā€œI promise,ā€ you said with a weak smile. You reached up on your tiptoes and pressed your lips to his cheek, lingering for a moment longer than necessary. ā€œGoodbye, Carlos.ā€
You pulled away from him entirely and turned on your heel as you moved on. The heartache had crushed you, a pain you had never thought you'd experience at the hands of Carlos, but sometimes things don't plan out the way people hoped, and this was one of those things.
Lando was stood by the media pen, having wrapped up the interviews not too long ago. He didn't say anything. He didn't need to as he could see the conflicting emotions in your eyes. He just silently pulled you into his arms and tucked your head under his chin.
You'd be okay, you know you would. This was just a hard lesson learnt.
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Can you imagine a fake dating scenario where you hire Lloyd to pretend to be your partner for a family gathering because you canā€™t stand your family and want to spend the night watching him gleefully terrorize them? šŸ¤£
Hehehe I wrote this on the bus...
Do You Trust Me?
No explicit warnings. Comments and reblogs always welcome. Love you all! šŸ˜
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"Look, I need you on your worst behaviour," you say as you face the grey brick manner.
"You don't gotta ask me twice, toots," Lloyd comes around the front of the car to meet you. "I'll be sure to pay extra attention to the oysters."
You want to sigh and smack him in the face. That's a common feeling towards this man, you're sure. Yet you hate to admit, you need him. Just for tonight. You don't think your father could ever tolerate him longer than that.
"Come on," he taps your ass and you yipe.
"Hey!" You sneer.
"Gotta make it believable. Besides, gotta get my shots in where I can."
"Not part of the deal, Hansen." You push his hand away.
"Ah come on--"
"No, you got your money so stop."
"You know, if you want them to buy it, you're gonna have to play along. Spare a few smooches," he hooks his arm around you instead.
"Yep, and I'm dreading it." You charge forward, knowing it's too late to back out now.
You just need him to be himself. He never really has a problem with that. He is shamelessly genuine.
As you approach the door, it opens from the other side. Belinda, the resident maid, lets you in, greeting you with a smile and the offer to take your coat. Lloyd helps you out of your jacket before he removes his own. He's being... too helpful.
You look at his deep blue velvet blazer. He even dressed well. Goddamn, he couldn't find a pair of slides and some socks?
"Cut it out," you whisper as you follow Belinda.
"I'm not doing anything," he hisses back.
"For once," you snip.
He laughs softly and takes your hand as you enter the bright dining room, more of a hall. The chandelier shines over the polished table, gleaming off the cutlery and candelabra. So ostentatious but that's your parents.
"There you are, dear," your mother strides over, "we were afraid you wouldn't make it."
"Got her here in one piece," Lloyd declares, "all to see her beautiful sister."
"Sister?" Your mother gasps and touches her chest. "Nooo, I'm her mother. Oh silly. You must be the fiance?" She preens.
You send Lloyd a piercing look. He's charming when he tries but why is he doing that?
"Could've fooled me," he grins and takes her hand, "honored."
He kisses her knuckles and you almost recoil. She giggles. Your mother. A giggle. Like a school girl.
"Where's dad?" You ask. He's harder to impress.
"He's around. He was just going out to get--"
"Ah, you're here," your father's staunch tone carries across the high ceiling. You turn to meet him. "And this is your... addition."
He nods at Lloyd and offers his hand. The shake, veins bulging in their masculine tango. Your father hums and pulls the cigar from behind his ear.
"Lloyd Hansen, sir," your plus one introduces himself. "Is that a black dragon?"
Your father squints and dips his chin again, "you know your cigars?"
"I'm a casual purveyor, no enthusiast by any means."
"Hansen," you cough and touch your throat. "I mean, honey," you tug on him. "Can I talk to you?"
"Ah, sorry, sir, she's the boss," he says to your dad and turns to you, "yes, dear?"
"Come here," you growl and drag him away.
You take him to the corner and face him, "hullo? What are you doing? You said you would ruin this. Okay? I need out of this bloodline."
"Pfft. You don't know what you got, toots," his eyes scan the walls. "This is spectacular--"
"No, shut up," you whisper sharply. "You promised-- I paid you. Alright? I just need you to get me out of this dumb arrangement. I don't get my trust unless I marry, well, if my fiance is a clown, my parents might just pay me to call the whole thing off--"
"That's a good deal. How much is the trust?"
You tweak your brow and puff out in exasperation, "Hansen..."
"Ah, you know me, baby," he winks, "I'm no good at doing what I'm told. Besides...." he runs his hand down his chest; a designer tie under the velvet and looks around. "Googled this place and well, I like what I see." He turns back to you, "don't look so heartbroken, toots, it's not just the money. I got me a wife with a hot ass to boot."
You gasp and raise your hand. He catches it and cradles it with his other. He kisses it and chuckles.
"Don't worry, you'll get a full refund," he slithers.
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He's Not You | bfd!harry
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Summary: The aftermath of Harry's bright idea has some downfalls and he didn't expect to feel this way.
Word Count: 7.8k
Warning: Angst, emotional cheating, lying, age gap, alcohol consumption, mature themes, 18+ only please!
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Harry didnā€™t know what to do. Or if he should do anything. One thing life taught him was that people needed time to process any kind of upsetting news and pushing was not the answer. Heā€™d give you time. Heā€™d let you think about what he said but he wouldnā€™t give you too much time because he needed you to know he was still there. He was still yours if you wanted him. 24 hours. Then heā€™d reach out to you. Okay. So maybe he wasnā€™t giving you that much time. But he needed to make sure you two were okay. Because he certainly wasnā€™t.
And besides, not knowing if you were okay hurt him more than anything else. And heā€™d totally misjudged the whole thing. He knew you might not like it but it blew up in his face. He hadnā€™t expected you to be that upset about it.
And your reaction had him devasted. He didnā€™t even expect his own response. Eyes full of tears, unable to move from your buildingā€™s parking lot for nearly fifteen minutes while he retraced the whole thing in his mind and cried. Over and over again he thought about how he said it and how you responded and the way your little tears fell over your cheeks and your lip jutted out in upset. He hated himself. Heā€™d really done nothing right at all. For the entire course of your relationship. It started with him pursuing you. And the rest was just the domino effect. But now he was so enamored by you, so crazy for you he couldnā€™t imagine being the one to break it off.
Youā€™d need to break up with him if that were ever to happen. Heā€™d never be able to call it off. He could think of no scenario that had him breaking up with you. None. Not even if you told his wife about the affair. He couldnā€™t.
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You didnā€™t go to work that night. You called off and cried in every room of your apartment. You were feeling absolutely sunken. You didnā€™t even hate Harry. You understood it. Knew what he was trying to do and understood that he was only thinking of you. But that did nothing to make you feel better. Because then it was glaring. Your whole relationship and what it really was, laid out bare for you to see.
You obsessively raked over the details. His suggestion for you to date someone else. To try and have a normal life outside of him. But yet still see him in private.
That wasnā€™t what you wanted. You wanted to really be with Mr. Styles. Wanted to flaunt it to everyone, shout it from the rooftops, tell the whole world all about your man. But that was just a dream. A fantasy.
And what he wanted for you was his way of offering you something that resembled normalcy. Because what else could he do? Other than breaking it off with you. Which, if you were honest with yourself, breaking up with him would be the best way to go about things. If he broke up with you that would be the kindest thing for everyone involved. Youā€™d be devasted but youā€™d get over him eventually as one does after enough time to heal a broken heart.
But you were thankful he wasnā€™t breaking up with you. He was just offering you an alternative to that. Because you did need something normal. Though you werenā€™t quite convinced dating someone else was the answer.
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Harry had called you the following day to check-in. You were just getting out of the shower before you had to get ready for work. His words comforted you. His tone made you feel like you were still his. Like he still wanted you. You felt yourself smile for the first time in a whole day.
ā€œWhen can I come see you?ā€
ā€œI work this afternoon, and then tomorrow afternoon as well.ā€
ā€œThatā€™s okay. What about Thursday? You usually have Thursdays free right?ā€
You sighed and pulled your towel tighter around your chest as you sat on the edge of your bed, ā€œWellā€¦ I was thinking of going out with Fae on Thursday night. I barely hang out with her anymore.ā€
ā€œI miss you, puppy,ā€ Harry spoke softly into the phone. And you understood that his quiet voice meant someone might have been close enough that they could hear him. And of course he wouldnā€™t want anyone to hear him saying that to someone he was speaking to on the phone. Especially if they knew he wasnā€™t speaking to his wife. Especially if it was his wife who was nearby.
And just that thought alone nettled at you. A dark cloak covered you again and the small smile you had when you answered the phone fell from your face. You were still feeling that jarring shock you felt the day before when he blindsided you with his offer.
But at least he wanted to see you still.
ā€œI miss you too, Harry.ā€ That was all you could say. You wouldnā€™t suggest another day to see him. Wouldnā€™t push for more. Or ask him what worked for him. You wanted to but you were tired. Not only were you emotionally worn thin, youā€™d barely slept the night before and so you were feeling very sensitive. The situation was delicate you didnā€™t know how to proceed.
ā€œAre we okay, baby?ā€ He sounded the way you felt.
ā€œI donā€™t know, Harry.ā€
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Harry gave you space. You only got a text from him while you were getting ready to go out with Fae Thursday night.
Have fun tonight. Please be safe.
Your reply was simple. You wanted to say more. Tell him to come over the next morning and help you with your hangover (you were positive you were going to have one). To kiss your headache away like you knew he could. But you kept it short.
Thank you.
ā€œWhatā€™s wrong? Are you okay?ā€Ā  Fae stood next to you as you sent the text to her dad. Quickly turning the phone as you nodded and smiled at her you lied, ā€œIā€™m fine.ā€
The club was a spot you and Fae frequented in college. It was like walking into a time vault. Nothing looked different. Everyone was dressed to get attention from someone else. The strobing lights flickered and people crowded together in the sunken area of the dance floor. High-top tables lined against the walls filled with people nursing (or chugging) their drinks as servers ran from the bar to the tables and back again.
Fae leaned in to speak, ā€œSoā€¦ I didnā€™t tell you, but Evan is here with a few of his friends.ā€
You stopped in your tracks and looked at your best friend like she had horns, ā€œWhat? Why wouldnā€™t you tell me first?! I really donā€™t want to deal with that tonight, Fae!ā€
She held on to your forearm, ā€œI know. Iā€™m sorry. But I knew if I told you, you wouldnā€™t come and I just want you to have some fun tonight. He promised heā€™d be on his best behavior.ā€
Evan was a super cocky asshole. But he was hot. He was loosely associated with your friend group. Had moved to the state to attend the university you went to and you hooked up with him a time or two. Three times actually. You remembered them vividly.
But after the third time you hooked up you learned he told some of your friends about it. Had bragged that he took your virginity (which was true) and made it clear that heā€™d been doing it just for the challenge of bagging a virgin.
So after that, you stopped talking to him. Blocked his number and every aspect of him on social media. And every time you saw him at a party or in passing you ignored him. Though he never seemed phased by your attitude toward him. He continued to flirt with you, compliment you, and tell you how pretty you were. He did apologize but he did it in a way that felt disingenuous.
It had been about a year since youā€™d seen him at all. And based on what Fae had just told you, he knew youā€™d be there. You just wish sheā€™d told you. But she was probably right. You wouldnā€™t have come had you known.
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ā€œYou okay, babe?ā€ Harryā€™s wife asked him, popping her head into his study as he sat at his desk with a pout.
ā€œOhā€¦ yeah Iā€™m fine. Was just deep in thought.ā€
She stepped in and walked toward him before leaning her hip against his oak desk, ā€œYou seemā€¦ well, just a little sad lately. Kind of like something is weighing heavy on you. For the past few days especially. Just want to make sure everythingā€™s okay.ā€
Harry knew he was affected by you. Knew that what had happened between you two was his fault but he didnā€™t know what to do about it. Didnā€™t know how to make himself feel better. He hated that you were hurt by his suggestion. Hated himself. Hated that you were out at some club with Fae only a few days after he suggested you go out and date someone.
What if you met someone? What if you realized that meeting and dating and being with a man your age who you could go on dates with and hold hands with openly and who you could gush over with your best friend was actually way better than secretly dating a married man twice your age?
He felt his wifeā€™s fingers run through his hair, ā€œSee? Like this. You seem soā€¦ distant, Harry.ā€
ā€œSorry. I donā€™t know. Maybe Iā€™m coming down with something. Iā€™ve been feeling off a little. Kind of tired andā€¦ probably not drinking enough water,ā€ he watched his wife to gauge her reaction. Of course it wasnā€™t lack of water that had his heart crumbling and his gut twisted in knots. But he would never be able to admit the cause to his wife.
After forcing himself to get up and gulp down a glass of water at his wifeā€™s behest, he noted the time, 11:56 pm. He wondered what you were up to. If you were dancing with someone. If you were okay.
ā€œWe should go to bed, Harry. Itā€™s late.ā€
He didnā€™t want to go to bed. He wanted to drive to the club, go inside, and check on you. See with his own eyes what you were doing and who you were doing it with. But that was absolute nonsense. He needed to get a grip on himself.
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Evan was nice. Really nice. And he looked even better than he had the last time you saw him. You could tell heā€™d been working out and his overgrown scruff made him look older (which reminded you a bit of Harry in a way and if you squinted he had the build of Harry too).
So when you and Fae finally decided to call it a night Evan hopped in the taxi with you two and he went back with you to your place. The whole time Fae kept giving you the, ā€œI told you so,ā€ look. Fae was dropped off at her apartment first.
You were right on the edge of drunk. But so was Evan. You couldnā€™t stop your brain from imagining he was Harry. You did try, but you had had just enough alcohol that he kind of looked like Harry. His voice wasnā€™t as sexy and his hands were a little smoother.
And when you tried flirting and teasing with him when you got him on your couch he didnā€™t give you that back-and-forth that you loved with Harry. He just dove right in. His hot mouth slobbered against yours and you allowed yourself to settle into it. Pulling your dress up over your thighs and letting him pull your panties down.
But instead of him placing himself between your legs and eating you out like you assumed he would do (Harry had really spoiled you) he began to pull his own pants down, nearly tripping because he wasnā€™t stable. His balance was off and you laughed at him.
You cupped him, his underwear covering whatever he had going on underneath, and realized he was not hard. Not at all.
He pushed your hand away and sat down next to you on your couch, his pants still at his ankles, and laughed in disbelief, ā€œIā€™m fucking too drunk. Iā€™m sorry, Y/n. Fuck.ā€ He put his hands over his face and settled his head back into your couch.
This was the first time youā€™d ever experienced it. What they called whisky dick. You didnā€™t realize that Evan had had so much to drink that he couldnā€™t get it up.
Pulling your dress back down you looked at your thighs and at the floor where your dry panties were lying and realized, he hadnā€™t even gotten you anywhere near worked up. You werenā€™t climbing up the wall to have him fuck you (not that he could with a limp dick anyway) the way you did with Harry.
You squeezed your eyes closed and shook your head. You didnā€™t know what you were doing. It was too soon to jump into anything with anyone. Maybe a part of you felt like if you fucked someone else youā€™d feel better about it all because then youā€™d be serving a little bit of pain to Harry in the way heā€™d served it to you.
ā€œItā€™s okay, Evan. Seriously. You can sleep here on the couch. I can take you home in the morning.ā€
He reached across the couch to pull at your hand, ā€œIā€™m so sorry. This is so embarrassing. Maybe in the morning when weā€™re both sobered up, I can try again.ā€
You scoffed at the idea and looked at him as if he were joking, ā€œUhā€¦ weā€™ll see.ā€
You climbed into your bed feeling like youā€™d just hit a wall. Not just because you were so tired but because everything you did reminded you of Harry.
You missed him. You knew that even if Harry had had too much to drink to get hard heā€™d have held you and whispered soft words into your ear until you fell asleep. But you couldnā€™t imagine him drinking like that. Getting just drunk enough that he couldnā€™t get it up. That didnā€™t seem like something that would ever happen to him.
You texted him. You were sure it would be a bad idea. Something youā€™d regret in the morning but you just wanted to reach out. To give him something. To give yourself something.
Wish you were here.
You sighed and plugged your phone in and laid flat on your bed. You tried to fall asleep. Tried to push down your disappointment (in yourself, in the situation) but you just kept thinking of how you had really messed up big time. Falling for your best friendā€™s dad? Huge fuck up.
Your phone chimed and you sat up to see a text back from Harry.
Are you safe at home now, pup?
You grinned and felt your heart flutter at the term of endearment he had begun using for you.
I am. I brought someone back with me but heā€™s not you.
You werenā€™t sure why you told him that. You didnā€™t need to. But part of you wanted him to know. Wanted to be honest with him in every way. Felt he was owed the truth. More than likely, though, you told him because you hoped in a tiny tiny way that heā€™d be a little jealous. And of course there was the alcohol doing much of the thinking for you.
He read your message but as the seconds turned into minutes of being left on read you wondered if it was a mistake to tell him that. Wondered if maybe you should have only said that to him in person.
And so you quickly typed out another text at the five minute mark.
Nothing happened, though. I donā€™t want anyone else.
More minutes passed. You werenā€™t sure if heā€™d even see your follow-up text. Hoped heā€™d see it before he decided to turn his phone off and go back to sleep. It was late. Nearly 3 am. He had every right to ignore your texts at that hour.
You were startled awake by the sound of someone closing the bathroom door. You sat up quickly and looked at your phone. It was just past 8 am. Still no response from Harry. In fact, he hadnā€™t even read your last text to him yet. Which had you worried. Had he maybe blocked you?
Your heart sank as you climbed out of your bed. You had a headache and your mouth was dry. You filled up a glass of water for yourself and leaned against your kitchen counter just as Evan came into the kitchen with you.
He was still handsome. You werenā€™t sure if you were seeing things last night but his kind smile had the corners of your mouth turning upward.
ā€œMorning,ā€ he half yawned the word.
ā€œMorning. Water? Coffee?ā€ You lifted your glass upward.
ā€œBoth? If thatā€™s okay?ā€
You and Evan sat at your little kitchen table and sipped hot coffee and he told you about what he was doing these days and you told him that you were waiting tables.
He couldnā€™t stay long. He had to go to work. But he did stay long enough that you got his number and made plans for Saturday night.
As much as you regretted it all the night before, the morningā€™s clarity and Harryā€™s lack of response to you had you feeling like you were making a good choice for yourself by seeing Evan again under different circumstances.
He kissed you goodbye at your door and grinned, ā€œIā€™ll see you tomorrow night.ā€
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Harry nearly lost it when he saw that youā€™d brought someone back with you. He sat his phone down in his office and went into his back yard and found a dark corner to sit and cry. Ā He was pathetic. A pathetic man. A terrible husband. A man who pushed his lover away into the arms of another.
He wanted to rip his hair out and break his phone in half. Wanted to drive to your apartment, beat down your door, and end the life of a man he didnā€™t even know simply because you allowed him into your apartment.
He saw that youā€™d texted again but he couldnā€™t bear to look at it. He shut his phone down and tried to sleep on the leather couch in his study but his thoughts wouldnā€™t stop. He kept imagining you getting wet for someone else. Begging someone else to fuck you in your bed. Touching someone else with your soft fingers and kissing them with those lips he loved. He imagined your sweet moans and gasps as you called out the name of another.
Needless to say, he did not get any sleep.
He went to work, his phone was still powered off, and tried to push you out of his mind. Tried not to torture himself with all the images of you naked with another man. To no avail.
And then he made the mistake of checking on Faeā€™s Instagram stories from the night before from his work computer. You were there with Fae wearing something that would have any man on his knees. It would certainly have him on his knees for you.
Your big smile and shining eyes in the photo indicated you were having fun. But then a blurry photo of you dancing with a man had Harry pausing the reel and trying to scroll in. He wanted a look at this guy. No one was tagged in the post so he didnā€™t even get a name but now he was officially in the pits. His stomach felt like curdled milk was boiling and sloshing inside and his heart was pounding so hard in his chest that he had to place his palm over it to make sure he was still alive and that he wasnā€™t having some kind of heart attack or something.
He ran to the bathroom and unloaded whatever it was he ate that morning. He couldnā€™t even remember what heā€™d eaten heā€™d been so distraught by the idea of you being with anyone else.
ā€œThis was your idea you fucking idiot,ā€ he scolded himself in a whisper as he wiped his mouth and then his tears.
It was his idea. And it was a terrible one. He thought he could handle it. But he was weak. How were you able to deal with the fact that he was married and yet he couldnā€™t even bear to look at a blurry photo of you dancing with someone else? You were far stronger than he was.
Back in his office, he decided to put himself out of his misery and power his phone back up. Read the text you sent and then insist on going to see you. He wouldnā€™t take no for an answer. He needed to see you.
But what he read was not what he expected at all. In fact, had he just read it when you first sent it, it would have saved him the amount of anguish heā€™d gone through. Heā€™d tortured himself for no reason at all. But he figured he deserved it.
Nothing happened. You didnā€™t want anyone else.
He let out a deep breath and closed his eyes. You didnā€™t want anyone else. The relief that covered him was vast. Like the painkiller his doctor gave him when he tore his ACL. He had been in such pain after the surgery and the prescription painkillers were just there on his bedside as he recovered. He didnā€™t want to take them. Figured he could tough it out because he was tough. But then when he lost sleep and began to sweat and feel immense nausea from the severe pain he felt he was urged him to take the painkiller. And oh boy was that the right move. Heā€™d wasted so much time trying to be tough and get through it without the aid. All he had to do was swallow the pill and wait twenty minutes and heā€™d feel better.
And now he felt better just reading your text. Why had he waited? Why had he allowed himself to get to the point of throwing up? Still, he knew he needed to see you. Needed to kiss you and hold you and apologize for suggesting such a thing to you. He hoped youā€™d forgive him and that youā€™d want things to go back to how theyā€™d been before. To how theyā€™d been before heā€™d been such a dumbass with what he thought was a bright idea.
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I need to see you. Can I come over tomorrow night?
The text from Harry had you buzzing and spinning. He finally texted you back. You wanted so badly for him to come over. Instead of seeing Evan. In fact, you were panicking over your decision that morning to accept a date with him. You kept going back and forth. Was it a good idea? Should you call him and tell him that youā€™d changed your mind?
Staring down at your phone in the employee breakroom you didnā€™t know what to say to Harry. You were still feeling upset and anger over the situation. Maybe a date would be exactly what you needed somehow. Maybe it would also give perspective to Harry. Not that you were using Evan as a social experiment or to make Harry jealous. Were you? You didnā€™t know anymore.
Rather than text him back right away you got back to work and turned your phone off. You werenā€™t sure how you would respond to him quite yet. You needed time to decide if you were even going to go on the date with Evan after all.
And just like every time you finished a shift, your feet were sore and your brain was tired. But unlike every time you finished a shift, this time you were overthinking about every little detail with Harry and Evan. You pushed it down while you waited tables and finished up your night, but once you got home the floodgates of doubt, regret, anger, and hurt all came pouring out.
You had to text Harry back. Give him something. But you didnā€™t know what.
Hi. Iā€™m not sure. I have plans. I do want to see you, though.
That was as much as you could give him. You didnā€™t know what you were doing. Nothing made any sense to you anymore.
Plans? Can I call you right now?
You sighed and sat down on your bed. The thing about hearing his voice was that it often had you all melty for him. You were worried that somehow just listening to him would make you want to immediately cancel your date with Evan. Which you still hadnā€™t decided what you were going to do.
But, despite all that, you dialed Harryā€™s number and put him on speaker. You didnā€™t want to have a video call with him this time. You werenā€™t feeling cute.
The phone rang a few times before you suddenly heard his voice break through the speaker, ā€œHello?ā€
ā€œHi, Harry.ā€
ā€œSweetheart, hi. How are you?ā€
You closed your eyes to compose yourself. Of course, just him calling you sweetheart in that deep tone was doing things to your resolve. ā€œIā€™m okay. Just got off work a bit ago.ā€
ā€œYeah? And how was it? Did you keep yourself hydrated?ā€
He was always concerned about your state of hydration at work after one time you didnā€™t have a single sip of water all day and admitted it to him (youā€™d been too busy!).
You laughed, ā€œI stayed hydrated. And it was okay. Got some pretty good tips tonight.ā€
You could hear Harry hum in acknowledgment, ā€œGood. And what plans do you have tomorrow night, then?ā€
Gulping down your uncertainty you sat up straight on your bed for confidence, ā€œUhā€¦ a date. The guy I saw last night. But like I said, nothing happened withā€“ā€œ
ā€œYeah. I know. So you like the guy?ā€
You blinked your eyes and paused. Did you like Evan? You used to not. Not after the shithead move of spilling the details about what had happened to everyone. But that was years ago and yesterday when you saw him, it was like meeting a new person. He was kinder and gentler. More mature.
ā€œYeah. I think so. Heā€™s someone that Iā€™ve known. Went to college together.ā€
ā€œOh yeah? Itā€™s not your ex is it?ā€
ā€œNo! No, of course not. His name is Evan. Havenā€™t seen him in a long time. He was at the club last night.ā€
The line was silent. You were sure Harry was considering your words. Part of you wanted him to tell you to cut the shit. That you werenā€™t allowed to see anyone else.
ā€œWell, I guess I did suggest this didnā€™t I?ā€ You heard him let out an incredulous laugh.
You faltered as you tucked your legs under your bum and looked down at the screen of your phone, ā€œI mean. I donā€™t know still. I feel confused about everything. But maybe itā€™s good to just see. Like you said.ā€
In your mind, you were begging him to stop you. Wanted him to come over to your apartment and tell you that under no circumstances were you allowed to let anyone else touch you.
ā€œSure. Whereā€“ if you wanted to tell me, what are the plans for your date?ā€
You hummed and looked up at your ceiling, ā€œDinner somewhere. Iā€™m not sure yet. Then we were thinking of taking a walk downtown. Just to see where the night takes us.ā€ You didnā€™t like how that came out. How it might sound to him. But that was the truth. You hadnā€™t been against more happening with Evan that morning when you were making plans.
ā€œJust be safe. Iā€™ll have my phone on if you need me or anything. Okay?ā€
He sounded sad. You figured he was. Kind of like how you were feeling. It felt dirty and regretful. Telling your lover about plans youā€™d made with another man. Disgusting really.
When you ended the call you realized you did need to go on the date. Harryā€™s response to the news only made it clear that you should try and see what else was out there. He wasnā€™t budging on his end. He was a married man. He could have told you that heā€™d changed his mind and that he didnā€™t want you to see anyone else. That alone would have given you hope for something youā€™d been wishing for. But he didnā€™t try and stop you. He didnā€™t dare give you any false hope. Because he knew he couldnā€™t.
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Harry locked the door to his study when he finished the call with you. He didnā€™t need his wife seeing him like that. Tears in his eyes and that sick nausea came back to cause him to feel broken all over again. Heā€™d done this to himself. Itā€™s what was fair. But so soon? He hadnā€™t expected you to plan a date so quickly.
He was going to absolutely be losing his mind while you were on your date. He needed to figure out a way to get out of the house so his wife didnā€™t question his sudden low mood.
ā€œFuckā€¦ā€ he whispered to himself as he sat down on the hardwood floor next to his desk. What was he doing? Why had his life come to this? It was his fault. He recognized it. Heā€™d been weak and lusting after you long before he made any moves.
It was the night of Faeā€™s 22nd birthday. About two years ago. They threw a big party with all of Faeā€™s friends. You showed up early to their house, which wasnā€™t out of the norm for you, being Faeā€™s best friend. But Fae hadnā€™t arrived yet and Mrs. Styles was just on her way back with the cake. Harry was in the backyard setting the chairs and cups and fixing up loose ends. It was just the two of you.
ā€œMr. Styles!ā€ You snuck up behind, startling him.
He turned quickly and was caught off guard by your outfit. You were dressed for a party. A pretty thin yellow dress with small white polka dots. The top part was well fitted around your breasts and tapered at your waist where the skirt was a little more flowy and knee length. It wasnā€™t inappropriate and didnā€™t show too much skin but there was something about the way you looked in it that had him taken aback. You looked so grown. Stunning.
ā€œHi, Y/n. How are you, dear?ā€ He pulled you in for a hug and he didnā€™t know what it was about the hug either. You were warm and had pressed your body into his and it riled something inside of him.
When he pulled away from you he kept his eyes on yours and he noticed your lips and how soft your skin was on your cheeks. Your big round eyes took him in and it felt like you were both looking at one another in a different light for the first time.
ā€œUhā€¦ can I help you with anything?ā€ You quickly spoke. Suddenly appearing nervous.
ā€œOhā€¦ no. Thatā€™s okay. Weā€™re pretty much done here,ā€ he looked around the backyard and back toward you.
You turned and looked toward the house and then to him, ā€œIs anyone else here?ā€
ā€œNo. Just us.ā€
You smiled and looked down at the grass and then backed up slightly, planting your gaze back on his, ā€œWell, I can go back inside. Donā€™t want to bother you orā€“ā€œ
And in some moment of clarity or insanity, he couldnā€™t be sure, he stepped forward and wrapped his hand around your wrist, ā€œItā€™s okay. Youā€™re never a bother, Y/n.ā€
You looked down at where he was touching you and back into his eyes. The moment felt so intimate. So real. He watched your lips part the slightest.
ā€œOh. Okay.ā€ Was all you could muster to say.
You were clearly affected by his touch. But so was Harry. His hands on your wrist felt sizzling. He couldnā€™t explain it. Sure heā€™d always seen a pretty girl when he looked at you but there was something different about you on that day.
During the party, Harry noticed that his eyes kept meeting yours. It was unspoken but the continuous search for one another didnā€™t stop all night. He hoped no one else saw it. He was sure no one did. And it wasnā€™t as if anything had really happened anyway. It was innocent. Just frequent gazes from opposite sides of the yard.
Before you left for the night you helped clean up. You found Mr. Styles boxing up the string lights and he stood up when he saw you approach him. He wasnā€™t sure if you were seeking him out at that very moment on purpose or not, but no one else was around to witness what you did next.
You gently reached for his hand and then stepped in to give him a hug, ā€œThis was fun, Mr. Styles.ā€
Your words were innocent enough but the hug was even more intimate than the first one you shared when you originally arrived. You put your arms over his shoulders and he wrapped his around your back. You both stood pressed together for longer than would have been seen as appropriate. It was definitely a signal. A shift of something deeper.
Harry turned to put his face into your hair and responded, ā€œIā€™m glad you were here tonight.ā€
It might have been two years ago, but it was what had begun everything. From then on, he noted your longing gazes, just as he was sure you saw his too. But you both had never acted on it. Not until that day at your apartment.
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Good morning, puppy. I miss you.
You woke up to see Harryā€™s text. It made you smile. You really were head over heels for him. You couldnā€™t imagine that Evan could rival Harry in any way. Couldnā€™t imagine that youā€™d be gushing over anyone else the way you did over Harry.
Morning, Harry. I miss you too.
It was funny reallyā€¦ here you were, about to go on a date with someone while texting another. While longing for and imagining another. Was it fair to Evan? You couldnā€™t think clearly enough to figure that part out yet.
Evan showed up at 7 pm. On the dot. Which you found nice. He took you to a semi-fancy restaurant. Perfectly pleasant and you were happy it wasnā€™t too over-the-top nice.
Conversation was good. Evan was fine. He had a lot to say about things that sort of interested you. He told you about what he did at work the day before and talked about his mother, who was ill. He mentioned traveling to Italy next month, something heā€™d been planning on doing for over a year.
But then apologized to you about how things had ended with him all those years before.
ā€œIā€™m really sorry for telling anyone about that. At the time I was justā€¦ dumb I guess. Itā€™s one of those things in life Iā€™ve come to regret a lot. I was glad I had the chance to see you again. And do thisā€¦ā€ he reached for your hand across the table just before the desserts were placed down by the waiter, who luckily interrupted the cheesy moment. It gave you the ick. You didnā€™t like that gesture. The hand holding across the table. Maybe you just didnā€™t like it because it wasnā€™t Harry.
The restaurant was located downtown so you didnā€™t have to go back to his car to drive anywhere else. You left the spot with full bellies and strolled along the sidewalks and went toward the river walk area as the night sky began to take over any leftover sunlight.
It wasā€¦ romantic. Truly. And Evan had been nothing but a gentleman the whole time. And he was handsome. Ā If you werenā€™t so hung up on a married man youā€™d surely invite him into your apartment at the end of the night.
But instead, he walked you to your door and you had to let him down. You did let him kiss you, though, but you could tell he wanted more. Wanted to have a do-over from the night before. You just werenā€™t there yet. Werenā€™t sure if youā€™d ever be.
ā€œI had fun,ā€ you placed your hand on his chest and pushed at him slightly for a bit of distance.
He grinned and tried to lean down again for another kiss but you ducked from him, turning your head as your eye caught glimpse of movement to your right. It was Harry stomping toward you with a scowl on his face.
You quickly looked back up at Evan, ā€œSorry. I think thatā€“ā€œ
ā€œY/n. You should go inside,ā€ Harryā€™s deep rasp caught Evanā€™s attention and he immediately let you go.
You could barely understand what was happening as you looked from Harry to Evan. Harry spoke something short and abrupt to Evan who looked at you in confusion, ā€œWhatā€™s going on, Y/n?ā€
You shook your head and dug your keys out from your purse, ā€œItā€™s okay. Iā€™ll call you. I had fun and uhā€¦ā€ you trailed off as you turned to unlock your door, looking over your shoulder at Harry.
ā€œYeah, butā€¦ Are we done right nowā€“ā€œ
ā€œSheā€™s done right now. Iā€™m sure she had fun but she told you sheā€™d call you,ā€ Harry put himself between Evan and you as you turned back toward both men.
ā€œButā€¦ I meanā€¦ Who are you?ā€ Evan looked at Harry and then at you as if seeking an explanation.
ā€œA friend. And I need to talk to her right now,ā€ he raised his brows and stepped toward Evan in an intimidating stance.
You placed your hand on Harryā€™s arm, ā€œItā€™s fine. Heā€™s just leaving. Go inside.ā€ You gestured toward your now-opened door.
Harry hesitated before finally backing off and entering your apartment.
You frowned at Evan, ā€œIā€™m sorry. I had a good time with you. I will call you, okay?ā€ You reached up and gave him another hug quickly before backing away.
The poor guy nodded and looked past you into your apartment, where Harry stood only a few feet behind you possessively before backing away and giving you a weak wave.
You let out the breath youā€™d been holding and quickly shut the door behind you the moment you walked into your apartment.
Harry looked distraught. He began to pace as you put your purse down. It was nearly 10:30 pm. Quite early really. For a date especially.
ā€œSo you like him?ā€ Harry stopped pacing and put his eyes on you.
You shrugged, ā€œIā€¦ yeah I guess. Why are you here?ā€
Harry clenched his jaw and you watched his throat bob as he swallowed and he looked away from you again.
ā€œI donā€™t know why Iā€™m here. I wasnā€™t supposed to come here.ā€
You stepped in closer to him and tried to get him to look at you but his eyes were anywhere but on you, ā€œHarry. Can we sit down and talk?ā€
He nodded and immediately walked toward your couch, plopping down with a heavy thud and leaned forward to put his face into his hands.
You sat next to him and kept your eyes on him. He was very obviously upset. You figured you knew why.
Putting your hand on his back you spoke softly, ā€œI had fun with him. But it wasnā€™t what I wanted.ā€
You heard him sniff and felt the sharp inhale in his back where your hand was placed, ā€œAre you okay, Harry?ā€
Harry scoffed and finally turned to look at you. His eyes were red. He appeared to have been crying, ā€œIā€™m sorry, Y/n. Iā€™m acting like a child. I donā€™t know what Iā€™m doing. I swear I was just going to take a drive to get my mind off of you being out with someone else but then I wound up in your parking lot and I couldnā€™t make myself leave before I had the chance to see you. Iā€™m sorry.ā€
You moved your hand from his back and placed it in your lap. You werenā€™t sure how to proceed. Or if you should try to soothe him at all. Part of you felt like he should be soothing you. You were happy he was apologetic but maybe he owed you more than just a couple of apologies.
You stood up from the couch and forced yourself to feel the anger and hurt youā€™d felt when he suggested you seeing someone else. Forced yourself to go back to that place in your mind.
ā€œThis is what you wanted. Isnā€™t it? How do you think I feel?ā€ Now it was your turn to pace.
Harry watched you as your body language changed and your face was set in a frown.
ā€œI fucked up. Everything. Iā€™m an idiot is what I am, Y/n,ā€ he stood up and you watched as he neared you in the room, standing a foot in front of you, ā€œI canā€™tā€“ I donā€™t want to lose you but I donā€™t know how to deal with you seeing anyone else. Letting anyone else touch you. Kiss you like thatā€¦ā€
You shook your head and laughed, ā€œThen why did you suggest it?!ā€
Harry closed his eyes and brought his hands up into his hair, pulling at his roots, ā€œI donā€™t fucking know. Because I wanted to be good to you. Because this relationship isā€¦ Itā€™s damaged from the beginning. Because of what this is. I thoughtā€“ā€œ he shook his head and lowered his hands, looking at you directly, ā€œI donā€™t know. It was never supposed to be like this.ā€
You crossed your arms over your chest, ā€œWhat was never supposed to be like this? What does that mean Harry?ā€
Harry sighed heavily and moved forward an inch, bringing himself closer to you and causing you to tilt your neck back to look up at him, ā€œMe and you. I never intended to feel this way. I thought it would just be some fun. But you know thatā€™s not what happened. This has turned into somethingā€“ā€œ he shook his head, keeping his eyes on yours, ā€œI lost control. Iā€™m not in control, Y/n.ā€
You dropped your arms to your sides. You knew what he meant. Understood him completely. But you wanted to hear him say it, ā€œI know.ā€
Harry gently took your fingers into his, only slotting his into yours, but not grasping at them, ā€œYou do?ā€
Nodding your head you spoke, ā€œYes. I do.ā€
His soft eyes were making you weak. He always made you weak. ā€œTell me what to do. I donā€™t even know anymore.ā€
You shook your head, ā€œI donā€™tā€“ how can I tell you what to do? I donā€™t even know, Harry.ā€
He sniffled and nodded, ā€œIā€™m sorry. I canā€™t help it. Iā€™m changed. Something in me has changed since youā€“ and I never thought that anything like this would ever happen but I canā€™t stop it.ā€
You squeezed his fingers between yours and pulled at him gently, ā€œYou canā€™t stop what, Harry? Tell me. Please.ā€
He knew you must already be on to him. Knew how he felt for you. Because he knew you felt the same way. Could see it in your eyes and feel it the way you touched him. You showed him how you felt every time he was with you. But to say it? Well, that felt final. That would be it. There was no turning back and he never wanted you to feel like that. Like you couldnā€™t seek a real relationship with someone who deserved you. Because he certainly didnā€™t deserve you. And saying it? What would that mean? It wasnā€™t as if saying it would cause any more damage than there already was.
He pulled your hands up and pressed your palms to his chest, keeping his eyes on you, ā€œIā€™ve fallen in love with you.ā€
Even though you knew that was what he was feeling, to hear him say felt different. It made you feel like there was no one else in the world, just like your fantasy of being on an island with him while everything else was burned to ash. Nothing else mattered. No one else could ever mean more to you than he did. And that was scary. Because love, even if real and pure and with good intent, doesnā€™t fix everything. Love wonā€™t make him yours. Love wonā€™t have him forsaking his family for you. Love canā€™t make your affair okay.
But to hear it. To know it. You allowed his words to melt over you. To cover you in warmth and comfort. The idea that this man could find space for you in his big heart.
ā€œHarry,ā€ you felt your silly tears begin to break from your eyes. Felt his warm hands pressing yours into his chest. ā€œI love you too.ā€
You heard him inhale sharply as he let go of your hands and pulled your body flush to his. He was practically crushing you and squeezing the air from your lungs but you couldnā€™t care. You held onto him tightly as he rocked you back and forth. He nudged his nose against your ear and you felt his warm mouth kiss the spot on your neck just under your earlobe.
You felt delirious. Maybe it was all a dream. Perhaps youā€™d ended your date with Evan and this was you dreaming of the only thing your mind felt comforted by.
He brought his hands up to cup your face, ā€œIā€™m going to do everything I can to make it worth it for you. For as long as you can tolerate me.ā€
You smiled through your tears and laughed, ā€œWill you say it again? I wasnā€™t dreaming?ā€
Harry closed the space between you and his mouth covered yours with heat and affection. Soft but carnal with tongue and a moan into your mouth. You couldnā€™t find your bearings in his arms with his mouth against yours and his heart in your hands.
But then he pulled his mouth away and rested his forehead against yours, ā€œY/n, I love you so much.ā€
Ā A/N: I know thereā€™s no smut in this one but if you guys know anything about me, you know I love writing smut. I promise Iā€™ll deliver the goods with the next update.
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imagine-shenanigans Ā· 10 months ago
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Okay but the ghost distribution system as we call it is hysterical but can we tlak about how None Of The 141 are built to date.
Like, sure, Gaz is great at flirting, and he's charming, but DATES? He's the type who asks you on a date because he thinks youre pretty/handsome/adorable/etc but by the time the two of you actually go on a date he's ready figured out like. the whole rest of your lives together. He's already imagined up 20 different scenarios of different dates, stalked your front-facing social media and found your secret or hidden accounts that theoretically don't link back to you. Sure, he's scrounged through your discord servers and your private messages and texts and a thousand other things while he was bored on leave. He knows enough to know that he's happy with what comes next. All dates are simply... ritual at this point? Something obligational, other than the fact he gets to spend time with you.
You're not going anywhere, he's just the least heavy handed of them, the one who'll let you think its your choice to keep him around until he's got his ring officially on your finger. Life won't go according to plan but he's prepared for that too. In his head, you're already married anyway, he's just working his way up to that part. He'll manufacture any scenario to keep you with him, because he wants you to be. And he'll make sure you want to be too.
Soap on the other hand is WAY less tactful about it. He's charming, and he'll take you on dates, sure, but the moment he spots you it's incredibly easy to get obsessed. He immediately drops an arm around you, purring in your ear and talking to you. Doesn't ask you on a date so much as demands it, puts his number in your phone and presses a kiss to your temple, his fingertips squeezing your chin before you leave. God forbid you let him into your home - he'll never leave if you do. Johnny's SUCH a physical guy that while, yes, personality matters, it seals the deal for him the moment he's got his tongue down your throat and his fingers in your pants. Something about the way you settle in against him makes him feel like he's home, and you will never get rid of him.
He's willing to take you on dates if you need more proof, but he won't even pretend like he doesnt already have a copy of your key. Like he's not telling the guys about the bonnie little thing he's going home to - he slips into your apartment/house/etc and into your bed without changing, barely finding time to slip his boots off. Presses one hand to your mouth and just... holds you. He'll fuck you within an inch of your life later when you're less panicked, sure, but he just wants to press his nose to your neck and breathe you in. If his hips rut against your ass, ignore it for now. (Haha... unless? No? okay in a minute then)
Price is just as manipulative as Gaz can be, just as charming as Soap and Gaz too. But he just... doesn't care, just like Simon. There's a reason so many people have Price with like... mail order bride or a "one day you look up and hes your husband" scenario and thats because he's good at what he does. And by that I mean being a husband and pumping you full of kids whether or not its physically possible. (Btw check out Ceil's mail order bride western au its good shit, or Bo's Kingpin Price drabbles, makes me lose it every time.)
He sees you walking about and the MOMENT you do anything remotely domestic - pick up a neice/nephew/babysitting kid/etc and put em on your hip? Rock hard. play peekaboo with a baby across from you at a cafe? pick up after yourself just to be polite to the waitress? he's already stalking you on multiple platforms theres no goddamn way youre getting away from him. He'll figure out where you go in your free time and insert himself there as naturally as possible. He's not particularly hiding what he's doing either - he likes to test you, to see if you notice things missing or moved. If you do, he'll be a little more cautious, use it as reason to drive you into hsi arms. If you don't he jsut views it as all the more reason to take you away - poor thing, you just can't help yourself can you? You're lucky nobody else has got their claws around you, hm?
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mylifestylearedilfs Ā· 6 months ago
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ā‡¢ Ė—ĖĖ‹ joost klein x tinder date!reader ąæą¾‚
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ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš OCEAN EYES : mention of sex (but no smut) fluff ; use of alcohol ; imagine ; all is fictional ; english is not my first language
(part two)
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_________ ׂׂą«¢ą¼‹ą¼˜ąæ CREATING AN ACCOUNT on tinder wasnā€™t on your to do list, but after another failed attempt on meet your future ā€˜husbandā€™ in real life, you decided to seek luck at this app. after choosing your best pictures, you set your profile with hope that you wouldnā€™t have to text with all of those weirdos that probably were on this site, asking themselves why i donā€™t have girlfriend?
you honestly couldnā€™t understand people (mostly the whole alfa men) on this kind of platforms, where they acted like theyā€™re better than everyone else, but in reality they wouldnā€™t even say ā€˜hiā€™ to you. also whatā€™s the point of having a dating app, if you canā€™t even properly ask the other person to date. you personally hated texting, it was the worst way to communicate, because you werenā€™t able to show your emotions clearly and it was easier to misunderstand the intentions.
you tried to ignore all suspicious looking people, but you lose hope, when even people your type were weird or impolite towards you. you were close to just delete app and forget about everything that happened. but then you received some kind of ā€˜super likeā€™ from very good looking blonde man, the first thing that caught your attention was his bright blue eyes. how ironic, you thought. blonde hair and blue eyes, if he were a girl, he definitely would be miss universe. but god knew that he would be too powerful if he was a woman.
before you even checked his profile, you saw that he already messaged you. he already had big plus, because it was usually you who needed to start a conversation.
ā€˜you & me, beer in an hour?ā€™ okay, he definitely was really straightforward but you couldnā€™t tell that you didnā€™t liked it.
ā€˜okayā€™
it was an irresponsible decision, but you couldnā€™t care less right now. you were truly tried of the endless conversations about nothing, you needed some adrenaline in your life. and even if it turn out that heā€™s a murderer, you will have an interesting story to tell your future kids ā€” of course if you will survive in that scenario.
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it was almost twenty minutes after the set time, but you still waited like a fool, because you were curious if you were just scammed at this point. when your second cigarette started to slowly gutter out, you checked your phone to see if he tried to inform you about his lateness, but as you thought ā€” nothing. you were honestly irritated that you couldnā€™t met a proper guy, not even for a relationship but just good sex, apparently you just missed to have someone close, in physical and mental way.
fuck it. you said to yourself and deleted this stupid dating app, right after you did that, you heard someoneā€™s calling your name. before you turned around, you throw out a cigarette.
ā€œi get it that iā€™m late, but you donā€™t have to ignore meā€ you saw the blonde guy in front of you, with two bottles of wine in his hands and two beer cans in his jeans pockets.
ā€œso your real miss universe, nice to meet youā€ you said with a bit of irony in your voice, and he just laughed, giving you bootle of alcohol.
ā€œor maybe iā€™m just in your imagination, guess we will never knowā€ he said with smile, and you realised that he loved to laugh a lot, but honestly that was exactly what you needed now. some positive energy. ā€œbut now letā€™s go, shall we?ā€
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at first it was supposed to be quick meeting to get each other better and then probably forget about the existence of each other. but to your surprise it turned out that you were sitting in some sketchy looking place with joost for almost four hours already, and the fun only began.
you couldnā€™t believe that your perfect type of person was right in front of you and he was interested in you, which was the most unbelievable part. he was the first person that could make you laugh only by saying something random, or maybe it was because you were under the influence of weed, that you just smoked. either way his ability to turn every little thing into a joke was hilarious and you simply loved it.
suddenly you both became silent, but it wasnā€™t uncomfortable for you, which was also something new. all you could hear was the sound of wind and some other birds but you decided to interrupt the silence.
ā€œyou want to come to my place?ā€ you said without thinking twice, well. . . letā€™s be honest your brain wasnā€™t working at all at the moment.
ā€œto do what?ā€ he looked at you with his typical smirk, sipping his beer.
ā€œobviously to play monopolyā€ you said sarcastically, but underneath you had a little smile. ā€œi want you to fuck meā€ you added and he seemed to be taken aback with your directness, as he watched you getting up.
ā€œso youā€™re coming or i will need to please myself on my own?ā€ you said, walking slowly in the direction of your house.
ā€œyou donā€™t need to tell me twiceā€ he quickly said and you just chuckled as you felt his hands on your waist.
that was a great match, for sure.
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ā‡¢ Ė—ĖĖ‹ thank you for attention! hope you liked it!
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imagine--if Ā· 1 year ago
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hey! i hope your doing well, i would love to see anything fluffy for mike (headcanons, blurbs, whatever you feel like suits it most!) - he deserves the whole world and sm more to me šŸ˜­
A/N: I get youuuu, hope you enjoy šŸ˜ started off with the relationship hcs but let me know if you wanna see anything more specific!!
Warnings: FNAF movie spoilers, mentions of violence
ā‹†āœ® Dating Mike Schmidt Includes: āœ®ā‹†
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āž³ Mike's been through a hell of a lot ever since his little brother got kidnapped, so I'm seeing major protectiveness and sometimes even clinginess involved from him when you end up dating because šŸ˜­ guy's been through stuff and he's not letting anyone else he's close to get hurt
āž³ To be honest, at first he's pretty closed-off with people, vulnerable with a tough exterior, so if you meet him in some scenario where you're tied up with the Freddy's murders and job, he'll try to be distant and professional and all... ending up failing šŸ™ƒ
āž³ Eventually you start. talking more about personal things, hobbies your lives, and he'll mention his sister Abby and having to take the job because he needs the money and is in the middle of the custody situation with his sister. He's got a lot going on and the trauma of what happened all those years ago still wringing at his guilt, so being able to talk with someone who doesn't judge in a relaxed place is a nice change for him having to be on guard all the time.
āž³ When Mike befriends you, which is what happens first, he's got your back. If you need someone to vent to or hang out with or whatever, he'll do whatever he can to help, and when it comes to you being in a sticky situation or someone trying to hurt you or play you, he always seems to realise and is in no way afraid of confrontation to get them to back off.
āž³ Like if William tries sizing you up a bit... and Mike gets annoyed with that cool, defensive glare as he asks if he needs anything (I've got to make an imagine of this nowwww). I think Mike would only realise that he's actually jealous if you teased about it, or if he really loses his temper with someone that's not leaving you alone or something. Then it really nags at him and makes him think about actually liking you as more than a friend, and then that initial reluctance because everyone he gets close to seems to have something bad happen to them, like it's a curse. At the end of the day, he just wants you to be safe.
āž³ It would take something big for Mike to confess to you, unless you take the first step (aka Abby begging you to tell him you like him too because she's getting bored of him not concentrating on what she's talking to him about or the conversation somehow curving to you and the stuff you're into). Maybe you're attacked at Freddy's and you're all in on the crisis together when Mike stands firmly in front of you when William reveals himself, or he shoves you out the way so you won't get hurt, ultimately jumping in front of the threat without a worry of him getting hit instead. It's then that he realises how much he needs you in his life, how he needs you alive because you add some joy to it that he hasn't felt in all these years, a change from the darkness that his head's stuck in.
āž³ It all comes out of him in a rush as he looks you up and down with wild eyes and a firm grip, asking if you're alright and saying in a rush that "you're one of the most important people in the world to me, and I don't know what I'd do if you got hurt... I- I couldn't live with myself, okay?!"
āž³ Okayyy Mike, just kiss them šŸ˜
āž³ After you fight Afton together and get Vanessa looked after, you can finally breathe and properly start dating, which includes that familiar protectiveness and slight clinginess... and also being best friends with his little sister, which you 100% would be. You'd spend time drawing or chatting or playing random games while Mike was out working, eliminating the need for a babysitter because you're the perfect fit and get along with her great. And when he is home, you do a lot of stuff together, like a mini family, and there's finally that security and stability in that life she needed.
āž³ I feel like Abby would find it hilarious to tell you all the sappy things Mike says about you on the rare occasions where you're not around, ending in Mike's cheeks flushing beet red and him picking her up and whirling her around playfully until she's in fits of laughter. "I heard Mike say that he found another reason to keep going when he realised he was in love wi- hey!!"
āž³ Mike would be a bit clingy, again because of what happened with Garret; Mike being distracted for one moment and then blaming himself for the rest of his life because it was that moment where his brother was taken and killed. So if you are out, on a date or just around, this guy will not leave your side. He's the kind of person to text you again and again if you don't respond to the first message, and it's kind of cute how much he worries, but then he doesn't need to, and every now and then he'll need your reassurance that you guys are safe and that you won't leave him, which stills ends with him burying his face in your neck for a long tight hug for a while.
āž³ MIKE'S A BIG HUGGER. CHANGE MY MIND.
āž³ Whether you're watching a movie with him and Abby, or you're out on a date or sleeping or whatever, Mike will always have some contact with you if you've told him you're okay with it: fingers linked under the table, pressed into his side while you're watching TV (with an affectionate forehead kiss every five minutes šŸ„ŗ) or being half crushed to death while you're trying to sleep when he rolls onto you and traps you under his leg... good luck if you need to go to the bathroom. Chances are he'll end up trailing after you with mumbled protests.
āž³ That protectiveness always kicks in when someone looks at you for too long, or in a way that he doesn't like the look of, or if you're obviously uncomfortable with. If you're quick, you can just convince him to walk away and you two go somewhere else, because Mike will end up getting annoyed and giving the guy a line to get him to make them go away. If he's not careful, he might end up getting in a fight again, but he'll really try not to when you tell him off for it and promise him that things are okay and you're not going anywhere.
āž³ You and Abby are basically Mike's world, after all that's happened, there are only really two people left that he truly cares for and would do anything for. Once you're in a relationship with him, he'll do everything he can to make sure you're safe and won't have to go through anything he had to. If ever you're upset, he'll listen for hours with no judgement and major support, whatever mood you're in somehow rubbing off on him. Mike will admit his feelings in a rush, and when he does, he's not afraid to tell you that he loves you whenever you need to hear it, or whenever he wants to say it and wants you to be reminded. It's something that you can never doubt.
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stayteezdreams Ā· 27 days ago
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Scenarios: Halloween Couples Costumes {Ateez}
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Scenarios: How Bf!Ateez reacts to you wanting to do a couples costume for Halloween + What you dress up as
Pairings: Hongjoong x Reader; Seonghwa x Reader; Yunho x Reader; Yeosang x Reader; San x Reader; Mingi x Reader; Wooyoung x Reader; Jongho x Reader - All are intended to be Gn!Readers.
A/N: I tried to go with mostly gender neutral costumes or gave an some open ended or mixed options for you to choose your preference from.
Requested by @otakutrash669
Warnings: N/A
Words: 1.2k; short because this is a bonus content post.
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Hongjoong: Tim Burton Inspired
Hongjoong was all for wearing a couples costume.
BUT, it ended up being really hard for the two of you to find something you both liked.
The ones you suggested were too goofy for him, the ones he suggested were too hard to find everything for.
Then some were too sexy, or revealing, or wouldn't look they way you wanted.
You were afraid you'd have to scrap the whole idea, but then as you were scrolling through Pinterest, you saw a really cool Tim Burton inspired couples outfit.
The outfits were fairly close to stuff both of you had in your closets.
You showed it to Hongjoong and after thinking on it, he agreed.
So you chose your favorite Tim Burton movie and characters and dressed up together.
You even ended up getting help from a makeup artist friend and the costumes came out 1000x better than you originally imagined.
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Seonghwa: Super Hero and Villain
Seonghwa never expected the two of you to NOT do a couples costume. It was one of the go-to thing's he got excited about the second you started dating.
He would be devastated if you said you didn't want to match in some way.
Originally, as Seonghwa was going through another Animal Crossing phase, he suggested you dress up as characters from the game.
But it proved to be a bit difficult. If you went too casual, it would look lazy, if you went realistic, you'd be mistaken as furries.
So, you scraped the idea.
You considered doing Star Wars again, just like the previous year, but you wanted to keep it as a back up just in case you thought of nothing else.
After scouring the internet, you landed on Heroes and Villains.
Something you would enjoy and that could be easily recognized.
Seongwha would play his favorite hero (Spiderman) and you went as your favorite Spiderman Villain (your choice but some options: Venom, Green Goblin, Electro, Black Cat, Silver Sable, Shriek)
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Yunho: Disney Characters
"We're gonna do a couples costume right?" You asked and Yunho's eyes lit up as his smile grew.
He nodded in excitement, immediately listing things he had already thought about (he was really excited about this okay?).
You both eventually landed on wanting to do something Disney inspired.
But which characters needed to be rounded down majorly.
You could be a prince/princess (Yunho was willing to be the Princess if you didn't want to), Main character x villain, two side characters, etc.
The options were endless and it almost made it harder to choose.
After various ideas and opinions from others you narrowed it down to a list, before deciding on your favorite.
The narrowed down options were: Prince Phillip and Sleeping Beauty, Kristoff and Anna, Alice and the Mad Hatter /or/ Mad Hatter and Cheshire Cat, Peter Pan and Tinkerbell /or/ Peter Pan and Hook (your choice).
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Yeosang: Mystery Inc
When you asked Yeosang to do a couples costume with you, he appeared unaffected by the question as he agreed.
But inside his heart was racing as he was fighting back a bright smile, he loved the idea.
Eventually he started to act noticeably more excited about it as you discussed what to wear.
Neither of you wanted to do something that had a lot of effort, but you didn't want it to appear too lazy.
You also wanted something that would be easily recognizable so you wouldn't have to deal with being asked what you were all the time.
After a few thrown out ideas, you finally decided on being Scooby Doo characters
Your choice of character, but I can definitely see Yeosang being Shaggy, or even Fred if his hair was blonde at the time.
(Plus Yeosang in an ascot would be adorable)
Some of the others also considered joining in as well for it to be a group costume.
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San: Fairy Tale Inspired
"San?" "Hmm?" "Can we wear a couples costume to the party?"
San looked over at you bright eyed and nodded happily. He had been dying to ask you to match with him, but he thought you might want to wear something else.
He had also been afraid that you would feel forced to say yes if he asked. So the fact that you asked made him very happy.
It ended up being hard to choose something, and you were running out of time before the party.
Finally, after seeing a cool photo of werewolf makeup, the two of you decided to do Red Riding Hood and The Big Bad Wolf.
As straight forward as you thought it might be, San had a hard time decided which one to be.
San wanted to be both, a bad-ass altered Red Riding Hood Hunter
AND he wanted to be a cool yet sexy (were)wolf.
You played Rock Paper Scissors, and you won so you were able to choose who you wanted to be. Either way San was happy.
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Mingi: Till Death Do Us Part
Mingi was the one who first brought up doing a couples costume.
You were all for it, but figured he brought it up because he saw something he wanted to do.
Which made you suspicious.
He admitted that you were right, and pulled up this photo that he wanted to recreate, as well as a bunch more just like it.
You laughed, and agreed. It was nothing over the top, and it was funny and cute.
You figured might get hot wandering around like this, so you decided to have other costumes on underneath to match that you could reveal if you wanted to remove the sheets.
Underneath you decided to dress as a couple who had died on your wedding day.
So even if you took the sheets off, you would still be matching underneath.
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Wooyoung: Pokemon
"Should we do a couples costume?" "Can we do a couples costume?"
You ended up asking about it at the same time after you saw an ad for a Halloween movie.
You laughed and agreed readily.
Wooyoung immediately got excited and started throwing out various suggestions but there were so many ideas to choose from,
On a day out, you ended up going to a costume store to get ideas.
When you pointed out the Pokemon section Wooyoung gasped and ran over.
Wooyoung immediately claimed Ash as his costume, but you were more open minded.
Whether you wanted to be Misty (or Brock?), Pikachu, or another fave Pokemon, you had many choices to choose from.
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Jongho: Serial Killer and his Victim
When you first asked Jongho to wear a matching costume with you he was a bit reserved.
As much as he loved you, he wasn't sure how he felt about couples costumes.
He wanted to make you happy though, so he agreed.
Wanting him to enjoy it as well, you decided to surprise him with a more fun costume that he might like.
So, one day you plopped down a pile of costumes and fake blood in front of him and he looked at you confused.
Pulling out the Scream mask you tossed it to him before holding up an already bloody and altered shirt and held it up to yourself.
He stared at you for a second before laughing, understanding what you were suggesting.
He nodded in approval as he started to get the costume together.
It was a matching costume, though a bit morbid, but it made him laugh and that was enough for you.
xx
not super detailed or long as this ended up as a Bonus Post for the day!
Taglists:
General Taglist: @otsilliak, @brattybunfornct, @bahng-chrizz, @otakutrash669, @tinyelfperson,
@pinievsev, @teenyfinds, @everythingboutkpop, @shymexican, @stillwjk-channie-lixie,
@alexxavicry
@luckypaintertyphoon, < tag does not work
Ateez Taglists: Everything: @soso59love-blog, @hongjoongsprincess, @thedistractedwriter, @dear-dreamie, @thunderous-wolf,
@briqnne, @hyukssunflower, @dinossaurz, @skz1-4-3, @staytiny2000,
@demonlineslut, @vnessalau, @dancinglikebutterflywings, @tunafishyfishylike
Jongho: @lieutenantn
Seonghwa & Mingi: @ye0nvibezzn
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glowinggator Ā· 8 months ago
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Hello :3 Could you do either headcannons or oneshot for sleeping with Mordecai Heller?? No smut, just like literally sharing a bed lol. Love your writing!!
Thank you so much!! I ended up combining this with a few other requests on some cuddling headcanons, so do let me know if you'd like any follow-ups to this! I like to imagine he's got a whole unbreakable routine.
Pairing: Mordecai Heller/Reader
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How do you cuddle with Mordecai Heller? Simple. You donā€™t.
Well, that isnā€™t entirely true. But itā€™s what you tell everyone ā€” he has a reputation to uphold, after all. And itā€™s much easier than defining what ā€œcuddlingā€ means for the two of you.
Like with many aspects of your relationship with Mordecai, cuddling came little by little. Heā€™s not keen on touch, even in the best of scenarios. Most days, being touched just feels like a million concentrated pinpricks. Itā€™s almost painful sometimes, the way unwanted hands sear into his skin and imprint themselves on his nerves. Not to mention all the germs people have. Eugh.
You knew he was touch averse long before you ever started dating ā€” youā€™ve seen the way he leans away from others when they go in for hugs, or the way he grimaces during pat-downs on jobs. Itā€™s such an intrinsic part of him that you never expected it to change, and youā€™re okay with that.
But sometimes, he surprises you.
Thereā€™s little gestures that he does (after a considerable amount of self-talk, not that heā€™d ever tell you that) that truly make your heart melt.
Working up to sleeping in the same bed was an adventure all on its own. Itā€™s quite the milestone of trust for him, with a weight thatā€™s just a stoneā€™s throw away from an outright proposal. This man has spent most of his life in the center of dangerā€™s crosshairs, so to trust you enough to let down his wallsā€¦ well, you get the idea.
He always falls asleep after you do. He sleeps on his side, facing the door, with a foot of space between you ā€” no more, no less. He counts your breaths as you drift into sleep, and memorizes the way your body heat seeps through into his own. He commits your very presence to memory, and it quickly becomes difficultā€” no, impossible ā€” to sleep when youā€™re not by his side. He likes to say itā€™s because his routine is broken, but you both know thatā€™s a lie.
His fur is soft ā€” thatā€™s the first thing you think to yourself when Mordecai brushes his tail against your own one night. You hold your breath, waiting for him to pull back, like it was some sort of mistakeā€¦ but he doesnā€™t. Thereā€™s no hiss, no flinch or startleā€¦ just peace. Calm. Your lips pull back in a soft smile as you bask in the moment, enjoying every second that youā€™re connected. You dare not say anything, afraid that if you did heā€™d overthink the moment, or shrink back from the intensity of his emotions. But he never pulls away, not until the sun is shining through your curtains and begging the two of you to rise.
From then on, that too becomes part of your shared routine.
And little by little, it grows.
It starts as a brushā€¦ and then intertwining. Then he does it while you read together in bedā€¦ and then on the couch.
When itā€™s you, touch can beā€¦ pleasant. Itā€™s an unusual feeling, foreign, but not a bad one.
Little incidences like that slowly become more and more frequent. More openly devout in their meaning, their intensity. He never thought heā€™d feel this safe with anyone ever again, and itā€™s almost scary how deep his love runs for you.
Some days are better than others, of course. Itā€™s never your fault, never. Sometimes he truly just cannot handle the sensation of it all. You like to joke with him a little when he puts his hands up as a ward.
Canā€™t have you getting too soft on me, you jest, I know, Iā€™m addictive.
And of course he sputters, because he is not getting soft (yet another lie) but at the end of the day, he knows you wonā€™t push him. He trusts you.
But you can always count on that last step of your routine. Every night at 10:30pm his tail wraps around yours, like clockwork. Stress melts into weightless peace in an instant, with the world as little more than a memory outside of the walls of your shared apartment. Some lovers parade their joy around in the streets under the light of day, thriving in the attention that their unity provides. But you and Mordecai belong to the night, wrapped up in quiet, intimate eternity. And you wouldnā€™t change a thing.
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woundedoves Ā· 4 months ago
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B, I, O, V, W for Blade? If it's not too much of a bother darling <33 I just love him so muchhh
(ā ļ½”ā ćƒ»ā /ā /ā Īµā /ā /ā ćƒ»ā ļ½”ā )
Congrats on 100+ followers sweetheartā™”
NSFW Alphabet: B, I, O, V, W + Blade x Bottom GN!Reader
a/n: its no a bother! thank you love!!! <3 you can see the Alphabet List Here!
CW: Blade has self degrading thoughts about himself, not proofread
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B: Body Part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partnerā€™s)
For Blade, he doesnā€™t like any part of himself, he despises his whole body. Though if you were to ask Yingxing, or watch Blade for a little while, youā€™d see him gazing at his hands a lot, so Iā€™d say his hands. His favourite body part on you would be your arms, the place he feels secure in at least for a little while.
I: Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect of itā€¦)
Oh boy. He is not great at intimacy or being romantic in the conventional sense, during sex he shows intimacy through making sure youā€™re comfortable and not in pain, he does not ask, his eyes search your body with a cold gaze to see any discomfort, heā€™s your boyfriend after all, he understands your body language very well.
Outside of sex, itā€™s the little things. Little things like your favourite drink being stocked the day after you almost ran out, like plugging your phone into its charger when you fall asleep forgetting to, checks your medicine drawer every day making sure youā€™re up to date with them, carries you to the bed when you fall asleep on the couch, just sitting by you silently as he puts his shoulder on yours while you game. Blade may never love again like he used to, but goddamn heā€™s trying his best.
O: Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
Depending on the kind of day heā€™s had and what you want he doesnā€™t mind. He used to be slightly clumsy while giving head but after a few times he got really good at itā€¦ like real good, he loves the taste of you in his mouth more than anything. Prefers to sit when you give him head, trying to hide his slightly flushed face as he watches you with half lidded eyes, cock throbbing inside your mouth.
V: Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make.)
Quiet. Very quiet that sometimes you had to ask him if heā€™s okay when you first started dating but youā€™ve gotten used to it, his breathing gets heavier, hisses a bit when he bottoms out inside you, grunts when heā€™s about to cum and youā€™ve caught a quiet whimper of your name when he cums inside you a few times, it's pretty cute.
W: Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice.)
Doesnā€™t have many kinks but one thing he loves is when heā€™s fully clothed and youā€™re stark naked, he hates how he looks so Iā€™d imagine that would be the best case scenario where you either ride that dick or he bends your body into the mating position, depending on the location of course.
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winterwhisperz-blog Ā· 8 months ago
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Hey i just read your touchstarved headcanons and I LOVE IT!!!
And Hereā€™s my request is that can you do a scenario of TS boys with MC who can speak different languages??? (like Italian or French)
Donā€™t worry i am a patient person and I wonā€™t rush you. And i hope youā€™ll make more scenarios of the TS boys in be future.
YES HI HELLO !! I am, SO SO SORRY for taking two thousand centuries to respond to thisā€”Iā€™ve been pretty stressed over work so I havenā€™t been able to write headcanons as muchā€” BUT TYSM FOR THE ASK !! IM SO HAPPY YOUVE ENJOYED MY HEADCANONS !
I do want to apologize in advance that these are going to be shorter and less one-shot like, than my others. These will be more like my Kuras Headcanons I made awhile agoā€”(Life has been kicking my butt lately so my motivation has been LOW)
But I hope you still enjoy them !!
Also huuuuge thanks to @danyvhell-writes
For helping me with these ideas !! Youā€™re a saint šŸ™
ALR LES GO
Note: gn reader! Fluff
Warnings: PROBABLY OOC PLS DONT HATE ME
Ais
ALR ALR AHAHAHAHA
So, one of my besties would do this A LOT where she would just switch into Spanish and Iā€™d just be there like ???
So I thought it would be funny if you did that with Ais here
Imagine youā€™re in some kind of argument, a stupid, light one you knowā€” and to annoy him
YOU JUST SWITCH INTO A WHOLE DIFFERENT LANGUAGE
Heā€™s completely stunned, red eyes wide as you just start rambling, (very passionately) in a language he doesnā€™t understand
As you go on though, he just becomes utterly impressed, watching your mouth as he studies the words coming out of it (and just because heā€™s flirty LMAOOOO)
After youā€™ve had your fun, he comments something like ā€œImpressive, Sparrow.ā€ And then asks you, ofc, if you can teach him what you said
To tease him a bit more, you donā€™t tell him for a bit until he BRINGS OUT THESE GIANT PUPPY EYES
So you do start teaching him, just long evenings hunched over books or a paper as you teach him different phrases and words, the candle light dancing on his focused gaze.
And one day, out of the blue, he starts calling you Sparrow in the language you were speaking(and you also hear him practice words while talking with Princessā€”AND ITS SO ADORABLE)
After heā€™s becoming pretty good at it, you then proceed to tease other people(Leander) by randomly switching mid-conversation into a different language <33
Leander
NOW WITH THIS ONE, it reminded me of this really cool video of a guy switching between loads of languages in one song
IMAGINE showing this off to Leander one rowdy night at the Wet Wick
Maybe itā€™s even one of his favorite songs ??? And hearing you sing it in so many languages would absolutely knock him off his feet.
Another thing I think heā€™d go CRAZY FOR
Pet names, in whatever language.
Like ?? You call him something like ā€œMi amorā€¦ā€ for Spanish, or ā€œTesoruccio.ā€ For Italian ??
Heā€™s done for. Doomed. Dead. Will beg you to repeat it over and over while he showers your hands or arms with kisses.
Heā€™s also one that would definitely be okay with you calling these pet names in publicā€”he wants to be all smug that HES the one called yours.
He probably also learns whatever language you speak as well, might already know it because bro probably had tutors that taught him so many languages man.
In return for the pet names, he probably calls you something like ā€œĪ»Ī±Ļ„ĻĪµĪÆĪ± Ī¼ĪæĻ…ā€ or ā€œlatria muā€ (My adored !!! šŸ„¹ in greek)
Kuras
NOW, THIS IS INTERESTING
Iā€™m guessing since Kuras is an Angel, he knows like ??? Every language?
So when he finds out you speak others, heā€™s instantly curious, impressed, and now itā€™s quiz time.
You pass by a certain object, plant, anything, and he asks you how to say it in your language(s). Even if he may already know, he likes to hear it coming from you, enjoying the glint in your eyes as you explain things.
Another thing heā€™ll do, is when youā€™re having a library date, heā€™ll hand you a book and request you translate it. Either from your language toā€”whatever language people speak in Eridia ?? Or from that language to yours.
These will turn into nightly strolls with you translating a poem or book as he strides beside you, golden eyes locked on every word.
In return, heā€™ll translate whatever text into a language you donā€™t know. (I wonder if angels have a specific language??)
A name for him, I think itā€™d be cute if you called him ģ•„ė¦„ė‹¤ģš“ ģ²œģ‚¬ (Beautiful Angel in Korean !!)
Whether this is after or before you know heā€™s an Angel, he finds it both amusing and endearing. (Or painfully ironic if his life as an Angel is a tough subject)
Mhin
OKAY SOSOSOSOSO !! Mhin evidently thirsts for knowledge, theyā€™re a lil nerd and theyā€™re rlly bad at hiding it (A mood really. one of the reasons I love them <3) and my friend mentioned theyā€™re more of a listener? So like I can see them justā€”paying very close attention to every word you say
At times they may not seem to be listening to you as you ramble, or catch a few words of slang from your language(s). But theyā€™re actually secretly a sponge and soak up every little detail.
And now this may be just me but Mhin gives off such I must impress you with all my random facts vibes.
They ask questions about the languages you speak, the slang, the meanings, how to pronounce things correctly, everything
And then they do their own research, soaking up all they can before appearing to you one day and just starting the conversation in your language(s)
When you show any sign of being impressed, they will look away blushing and try to act cool but nahhh buddy you arenā€™t fooling anyone we know you spent forever working on that
Similar to Ais, lots of late night lessons where you get to teach Mhin about your language(s)! Just you two looming over an open book, Mhin scribbling down notes, looking so concentrated and you even spot a smile starting to form as they start getting better and better. (I love themmmmm šŸ˜­)
Mhin asks you to quiz them a lot, and looks so !! !! Just proud of themself when they pass. (Before realizing it and their self loathing kicks in and they revert back to >:( ) You want to tell them that they donā€™t need to be quizzed but look at their face !! Let them impress you okay !! Theyā€™re top 1 student !!
If you want you can joke about them having to call you Professor(Mc) or something but ur just gonna get a deep frown and glare like šŸ˜’ nuh uh AHAHSHS
Vere
Ohhh vere my nemesis. (Heā€™s the toughest for me to write i have to like mentally and physically ambush him in a fast food parking lot before I can get anything outta him)
(I love him so much though so here we go !! Thanks to my friend for giving me a lot of help in this one because otherwise Iā€™d be a doomed woman)
My friend brought up since heā€™s a fox, heā€™s very sensitive to sound !! So when youā€™re speaking in your mother language, he notices how your tone might change, watches as your tongue moves against your teeth or the top of your mouth, idk but he makes it a sensual thing somehow šŸ˜­
Definitely flirts with you in your language(s), says the most outrageous thing and watches as you get stunned or flustered by it, absolutely delighted that no one but you (or anyone whoā€™s unfortunately being nosy and can understand) knows what heā€™s saying.
Okay this may be dumb but itā€™s so funny to me imagine Vere like putting on his most smooth, seductive tone, convincing the people around that heā€™s gonna say like the most erotic thing but he ends up just saying something like šŸ’€ ā€œAvocadosā€ in your language(s) or like ā€œLeander looks like a chicken breastā€ he does it to see you laugh but also because Leander overhears and could tell his name was said and thinks Vere is likeā€” finally coming around but only you two rlly know Vere is just sexily roasting him.
Due to recent lore being dropped, and in his lil character sheet, it says Vere has a huge love for the arts. I think itā€™d be really neat if you introduced him to things specifically written in your language(s) !! Like books that originated from your country, plays that are only acted in that language(s), just a tour of the language! And if he doesnā€™t know your languages(s) then teaching him is gonna be like šŸ’€ somehow so flirty
Will definitely call you Professor(Mc) but he makes it sound absolutely horrendous and cringey and you will regret it you probably should turn back
Jokingly will ask if youā€™ll give him a golden sticker if he behavesā€”do it, just to humble him.
OKAY WEā€™VE REACHED THE END WOOOT WOOT !!!! I DIDNT THINK Iā€™D MAKE IT !!! Been stuck in this endless void for ages !!
Hem hem, thanks so much for the ask !!! Iā€™m so so sorry it took forever šŸ˜­ writerā€™s block nearly had my head this time uh oh
Thank you again to my bestie for helping me out !!
Now I hope you see the most beautiful sunset, eat your favorite dessert, learn something new, and have a happy spring !! šŸ«¶šŸ©·āœØ
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cat3ch1sm Ā· 1 year ago
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šŸ‡~ HI EVERYONE! welcome back to my account :) im excited for todayā€™s post because this is my first across the spiderverse writing! i hope you guys like it lol i couldnā€™t stop thinking about it (spiderman is my entire life now)
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~ miles g really does not like admitting he likes someone/ or even the idea of liking anyone at all. he obviously has things that are higher priority and he thinks itā€™s really a waste of time for the most part.
~ but then you come along,and heā€™s immediately enamored. like, imagine youā€™re just casually walking by miles while heā€™s sitting on his phone or whatever, and you accidentally bump into his leg. he looks up immediately to tell you to watch it, but instead is met with the most beautiful face he has literally ever seen. he legit double takes and completely forgets to even talk. you look down abruptly and are like ā€œoh, iā€™m so sorry, i wasnā€™t paying attention!ā€ you wait for him to say ā€œitā€™s okayā€ or something like that, but when you look at him his expression is just blank. you kinda wave awkwardly and leave after that, and he watches you leave until youā€™re out of sight.
~ after youā€™re gone, he just sits there for a second before frowning and cursing at himself for being so caught up.
~ā€¦. ā€œshit.ā€
~ miles g isnā€™t really the type to watch from afar, at least not for long. but for a short time, he does just watch you, admiring the way you do every little thing- smiling at your phone, the way you walk, how nice your voice sounds- things like that. itā€™s not long before he decides to make his move.
~the next time he sees you, he makes his move, cornering you when youā€™re alone and putting one arm beside your head so you canā€™t leave. needless to say, youā€™re definitely caught off guard when you turn around and are met with milesā€™ face- expression nonchalant and that unreadable glint in his eyes as usual.
~ yeah, donā€™t be fooled. miles is nervous as all hell and praying to every god imaginable that you donā€™t notice him shaking. but he isnā€™t the type to let fear or apprehension get in the way of something he wants.
~ ā€œhey, youā€™re that guy i ran into the other dayā€¦ umā€¦ hi!ā€
~ your smile almost makes him keel over. Jesus Christ
~ ā€œhey, ma- glad you remember me. was wondering if you was tryna let me take you out sometime? i thought you were pretty.ā€
~ (yes, the whole atsv fandom has collectively agreed that prowler miles would call you ā€œma.ā€ argue with the wall)
~ miles is crazy nervous for your response as he watches your expression furrow thoughtfully- but when you smile that smile again and say yes, he feels like a million weights have been lifted off his shoulder. sure, heā€™s the prowler, but heā€™s still a 15-year-old boy who probably hasnā€™t had a lot of experience in the dating arena.
~anyway, that was a fun little scenario- now letā€™s talk about miles actually going out with you, like how he is during the time where youā€™re going out but not quite exclusive.
~ the second he gets your socials, heā€™s all over them. heā€™s spending an amount of time he isnā€™t willing to disclose just stating at your pictures and admiring your beauty. he watches your TikToks religiously, liking them all, but literally immediately scrolls past the ones where youā€™re with any guy. heā€™s not jealous because he isnā€™t insecure, but he just does not care to see you with anyone else.
~ whenever you text him, unless heā€™s busy with prowler stuff, heā€™ll respond within like ten minutes at most. miles doesnā€™t want you to think for a second that heā€™s ignoring you or forgot about you. he has caught himself smiling slightly at his phone while heā€™s texting you every now and then, which he is so embarrassed about for no reasonšŸ˜­
~ yes, uncle aaron notices.
~ ā€œaye, g, whatā€™s got you cheesinā€™ at yo phone like that?ā€
~ ā€œā€¦nothinā€™, unc.ā€
~ ā€œyou know i can tell when you lyinā€™, right?ā€
~ ā€œaw, cā€™mon-ā€œ
~ā€donā€™t even bother.ā€
- and rio notices, too.
~ ā€œay, miles, why are you on your phone so much lately? you know i donā€™t like- miles? whatā€™s so funny on your phone?ā€
~ ā€œnothing, mama.ā€
~ ā€œnothingā€™s funny? then why are you smiling at your phone?ā€
~ ā€œā€¦uhā€¦ā€
~ ā€œwaaaaitā€¦ā€ *pause, hands on hips* ā€œmiles, are you talking to a girl?ā€
~ ā€œmami!ā€
~ ā€œso it is a girl! is it the same girl whose pictures youā€™ve been looking at lately?!ā€
~yes, she noticed that too.
~ ā€œā€¦mami!!ā€
~ ā€œlet me see!ā€
~ the next two minutes are miles and rio madly wrestling for his phone. (spoiler alert, rio wins.)
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I wrote a follow-up to my previous microfic to turn the break-up fic into a Break-Up, and Make-Up?, fic!
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Remus and Sirius went from being close friends, to dating, to being friends again. Difficult as that may be, outwardly, they seem to be doing great...
Regrets & Mistakes
ā€œBecause she's my best friend!ā€
ā€œThat's all the more reason to tell her!ā€ Lily argues, as she stands in front of the couch Marlene is curled up on. ā€œYou know what a good fit you are, you know how well you get on, you know Dorcas is not the kind of person to ever mock you for it, even if she doesn't feel the same,ā€ Lily starts listing off as she paces up and down. ā€œAnd if she does feel the same, you'll have this great foundation of friendship to build a relationship upon, and you'll have-ā€
ā€œSo much to lose!ā€ Marlene interjects. ā€œLily,ā€ she sighs, letting herself fall on her back on the couch. ā€œDorcas is my best friend, one of the most important people in my life. If she doesn't feel the sameā€¦ Hell, even if she does feel the same, but we somehow muck it up, there's no coming back from that. We'll be forever changed, never the way we were.ā€ Marlene shakes her head. ā€œI don't think I'm willing to risk that.ā€
ā€œMarls, do you know how many assumptions you are making?ā€ Lily asks. ā€œThat it's bound to go up in smoke, for starters. But even if that happens, that doesn't have to permanently damage your friendship.ā€
Marlene gives her a skeptical look. ā€œHow on earth could that not affect a friendship?ā€
ā€œRemus!ā€ Lily suddenly exclaims, and Remus gives a start, almost dropping the piece of chocolate he was about to eat from the pile they had brought to cheer up Marlene (and if she's not eating it, someone's gotta).
ā€œWhat?ā€ he asks.
ā€œYou and Sirius were best friends,ā€ Lily states. ā€œThen you got together, dated for a while, broke up, and now you're still close friends.ā€
Remus nods.
ā€œSo it's possible!ā€ Lily exclaims. ā€œIt's possible to go through a breakup and still be best friends after! Tell Marlene it's possible! Tell her that even the worst-case-scenario doesn't have to be so bad!ā€
Remus turns to Marlene. ā€œIt's not so bad,ā€ he says dutifully.
Lily smiles triumphantly, but Remus continues. ā€œAt least, if you don't mind being constantly reminded of the worst mistake you ever made and seeing every single day how you let the best thing that ever happened to you get away, that is.ā€
"Okay," Lily says slowly. ā€œLet's unpack that-ā€ she gestures towards Remus as a whole ā€œ-later. We're now focusing on Marlene's issues.ā€
ā€œNope,ā€ Marlene says, picking up a pillow and hiding her face underneath. ā€œAbsolutely not. I'm never ever telling her about my feelings now.ā€
ā€œHere you are.ā€
Remus slides into the seat across from Sirius, who's drinking his coffee in a coffeeshop different from where they normally go.
ā€œOh,ā€ Sirius looks startled. ā€œEhm, I was actually just going toā€¦ā€
ā€œAvoid me,ā€ Remus states, crossing his arms over his chest.
An angry look passes over Siriusā€™ face. ā€œWell, I thought you might want some time apart from me.ā€
ā€œWant time apart from you?ā€ Remus repeats, non-understanding . He's never wanted time apart from Sirius. Even when Sirius had been so intense that Remus had doubted he would ever be able to give Sirius what he needed, and in his anxiety decided to just end things before he would inevitably disappoint him, even when the wound was still so fresh and seeing Sirius made it bleed all over again, even then, Remus had not wanted time apart from Sirius. The pain of seeing Sirius simply wasn't as bad as having to miss Sirius. ā€œWhy would I want time apart from you?ā€
Sirius shrugs, trying to look casual, but Remus can see the tension set in his shoulders. ā€œI dunno. Can't imagine it's very fun to be constantly reminded of ā€˜the worst mistake you ever madeā€™.ā€
ā€œAh,ā€ Remus says, finally understanding what all this is about. ā€œYou heard about that.ā€ He still wonders what exactly Sirius is so miffed about. That he talked about their previous relationship behind his back? That he hasn't been honest to him about how hung up he still is on him? Or just the fact alone that he is still hung up on him?
Sirius averts his eyes. ā€œI heard Lily and Marlene talk about how that's what you said.ā€
ā€œI'm sorry,ā€ Remus says. ā€œI shouldn't have talked about our relationship behind your back.ā€
Siriusā€™ eyes snap up to Remusā€™ face. ā€œIt's not that you talked, Remus, it's how you talked! A mistake? Like it's something you regret?ā€
So it is the fact that he regrets the breakup itself that Sirius is angry about. Honestly, Remus can sort of understand. After all, salvaging their friendship afterwards had been hard, even seemed impossible at times, but they managed. And now, when they have finally established some sort of normalcy between them again, Remus suddenly goes and brings up these lingering feelings.
But even though it took Remus a while to admit to himself that breaking up with Sirius had been a mistake, he's never been particularly happy about the breakup, so it really shouldn't affect how things are between them that much.
ā€œIt doesn't have to change anything.ā€
ā€œHow can you say that?ā€ Sirius replies. ā€œHow can the knowledge that you consider something that still means so much to me a mistake not change anything?ā€ He shakes his head. ā€œYou broke my heart, Remus, you know that.ā€ He's simply stating a fact, which supposedly it is. ā€œAnd yes, sometimes when I look at you, I still feel so much that I wish I could rip my heart out just to stop it from hurting. But when I recall our time together, I recall falling asleep in your sweater with my head in your lap, dancing to our favourite songs in the living room, wrapping my arms around you from behind as you're making your morning tea. Despite the pain, I would not, I could not, call it a mistake.ā€
Oh.
With Sirius overhearing Lily and Marlene talk about what Remus said, something clearly got lost in translation. Sirius does not know Remus was referring to the breakup being the worst mistake he ever made, not the relationship itself, not Sirius himself.
ā€œSo yeah,ā€ Sirius says eventually, his cheeks slightly colouring, as Remus, still processing this new knowledge, stays quiet. ā€œI figured some space would be good.ā€
There are so many things Remus wants to say all at once, he doesn't know where to start. ā€œI don't want space,ā€ he begins.
ā€œWell, maybe I do!ā€ Sirius snaps. ā€œDamn you, Remus. How much hurt do you think I can take?ā€ He pushes his chair back and gets to his feet. ā€œI care so bloody much about you, you could basically stab me and I would still love you, but I do have a limit, and after being blindsided with the breakup and now you telling people us dating was a mistake, I think I've reached that limit.ā€
Before Remus can say anything, Sirius turns on his heels and leaves the coffeeshop.
Emotions are swirling through Remusā€™ body. Sadness and guilt for how much he has hurt Sirius, of course, but also, perhaps misplaced, hope.
ā€˜I still feel so muchā€™
ā€˜I care so bloody much about youā€™
ā€˜I would still love youā€™
Maybe the chapter isn't fully closed yet for Sirius either?
Remus jumps to his feet to follow Sirius, but then he realizes they haven't paid for the coffee yet, and he frantically starts patting his pockets for some cash.
ā€œOh, just leave it!ā€ A voice says from behind, and Remus turns to find the waitress standing there, with her hands on her hips. ā€œJust go! Go after your man! Go!ā€
Mumbling a quick ā€˜thank youā€™ Remus rushes out of the coffeeshop.
ā€œSirius, wait!ā€
Remus grabs Siriusā€™ elbow, and Sirius stops, sighs, and turns around to face him.
ā€œI don't think of you as a mistake,ā€ Remus says. ā€œIt's not dating you that I see as the worst mistake of my life, it's breaking up with you.ā€
Siriusā€™ eyes widen and his mouth opens in a silent ā€˜ohā€™, and, slightly encouraged, Remus takes a step closer to him.
ā€œSirius,ā€ Remus says softly. ā€œI regret being a cowardly idiot and giving into my fears by breaking up with you before I could somehow mess it up, but I do not, and will never, regret having been with you.ā€ Without thinking, he places a hand on Siriusā€™ cheek. ā€œI do not regret falling in love with you, and I do not even regret loving you still.ā€
Sirius blinks at him. ā€œYouā€¦ You stillā€¦ā€
ā€œYes.ā€ Remus leans in just a bit and briefly presses his lips to Siriusā€™.
Like coming home.
Sirius opens and closes his mouth a couple of times before saying ā€œIā€¦ I can't get my hopes up if you'll just run the moment things get too real.ā€
ā€œI won't,ā€ Remus immediately says. ā€œI've learned my lesson, and I will not hurt you again. I hate that I hurt you in the first place, and I will spend the rest of my life trying to make up for that, if you let me. No, scratch that,ā€ he shakes his head. ā€œI'll do that anyway. How I'll do that, that is up to you.ā€
Sirius hesitates for a moment. ā€œI guess you can make it up to meā€¦ā€ He says, slowly reaching out and placing his hand over Remusā€™. ā€œBy being the best boyfriend I could possibly wish for.ā€
A smile breaks out on Remusā€™ face. ā€œYou got it, love.ā€
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i just had a thought. imagine something like when you and normal dazai were best friends (maybe apart of the buraiha trio too, or squad in that case) but what i mean is close-close kinda best friends. but if thats too basic i think we can add mutual pining with no confession in it. and then take that scenario into the beast au, where you two are still close, but work in very different fields and still have that mutual pining, and can never be together no matter how close you two become - whether it be forbidden because of work fields or just.. the whole phase 5 ordeal. or something else! do you think he'd try to get away or get closer? please i need more thoughts on this scenario i love angsty things
+ can i be šŸ¦“ anon? tysm! :)
My thoughts on smitten beast!Dazai | Bungo Stray Dogs | Dazai x reader
wehehehehe i loveee beast!zai gm šŸ¦“anon!!!! i would like to apologize in advance bc my thoughts are jumbled and incoherent on my best days LMAO
okay hereā€™s what iā€™m thinking. either youā€™re a part of his plan or you arenā€™t - either he has something he wants to change for you like heā€™s doing with oda, or youā€™re merely another piece of the puzzle. depending on which you fall under, how heā€™ll act will be different. being a part of his scheme, falling under the subject of someone whose life he wants to change, will lead to him alienating himself from you like how he did to oda - knowing that he has to isolate himself away from you so you can live a longer or better life. dazai understood the only way oda would live in the light and write his novel was if he pushed him to and killed himself, so heā€™d do the same for you, dying happily knowing itā€™s better for you.
butā€¦. if you arenā€™t part of his plan, i don't think he'd mind still finding you and courting you :) had it merely been mutual pining in other lives, maybe he wants to see what it'd be like to actually date you! he already knows everything you like, so from the very second you two meet, he's showing up with your favorite flowers ("they just reminded me of you") and chocolates or whatever sweets you adore ("i bought too much and couldn't finish"). he'd take you on cute little dates he doesn't label dates until you get frustrated and ask him if he's just leading you on, wondering why he never holds your hand or heaven forbid kisses you! and dazai will just laugh and confess, telling you he wanted to take it slow or some other bogus excuse you don't have the time to pry into as he kisses you šŸ™‚ā€ā†•ļø
dazai will 100% enjoy every moment he can with you!!!! he knows it's rapidly approaching his end so he makes sure you're allll set up (he sets aside a disgusting amount of money in some share for you to take from at your leisure post mortem). he understands he's a busy guy, but always makes sure to shower you in love when you're around, knowing he won't be able to much longer :/
of course, he could also try pushing you away as he nears his end, but i still think he'd try and hold you close before that. say toward the end he starts more fights and distances himself. you're confused wondering why he has started to pull back, and he just tells you work is rough. i think dazai would try to subtly let you know what's coming, mentioning his line of work breeds resentment and leads to many a death, like how the previous boss died (....kind of) and the one before. he'd want you prepared, and preferably happy, but understands that he selfishly didn't let you to pass by his final phase without some sort of grieving. dazai would have regrets in that sense, but understand there's not much he can do about it now except try and prepare you for the inevitable.
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