#okay im gonna go cc shopping now ❤️ im upset LOL

[zebrafiz]

i cannot stop thinking about this game and all of the subtle nods pointing towards anyas assault that fly under the radar until all of the pieces are put together ☹️like it’s so genuinely disturbing

like since the entire post-crash storyline is in jimmys pov all of the anya-related commentary is so negative and rude as he treats her like an incompetent idiot who can’t do even basic nurse duties which is objectively false, seeing as she was able to keep curly alive for months with limited medical supplies regardless of his severe wounds. and it’s especially egregious when u realize he bases all of these assumptions off of her inability to give curly his meds - probably because it’s a trigger for her whether it be the sounds he makes or the act in and of itself of forcing someone to ingest something without getting verbal consent first. jimmy doesn’t have a single problem doing this though. first point!

then u get to the other stuff like her asking why the sleeping quarters don’t have locks on them while the med quarters do, her knowing curly wouldn’t ever tell her where the gun is so she goes out of her way to hide the case so at least jimmy can’t get his hands on it and come after her, her telling curly she’s scared of jimmy and curly just being like “i know him i can fix this” and not doing shit about anything. when jimmys being haunted by that rape baby he still never considers anya. He never even thinks about her let alone in regards to what he did to her. he’s only concerned with the baby and what it would do to his reputation when he gets back on earth, not that he ruined someone’s life. and i think the very first sign is his insistence on making sexual comments to her during the psych evals so much that anya is uncomfortable performing them on him anymore and asks curly to do it for her. that point is particularly poignant to me because it’s a real life sign that is swept under the rug so often because in lots of circles it’s just seen as “locker room talk” or Natural Boy Things, not harassment that can and does lead into physical assault very often when it’s not taken seriously.

it’s a rly good game with a huge gut punch of a storyline. when u first go in ur expecting typical Space Horror stuff, maybe some alien monsters, maybe cannibalism since they have limited food. but u don’t get a big bad monster - what u get is this haunting deeply realistic narrative about rape and misogyny and how deeply ingrained it is in society. Like it reallyyyy excels at showing the dehumanization of rape victims by their assaulters on an uncomfortable level. and how bystanders/men who stay friends with their rapist friends even after knowing what they’ve done play a significant role in that dehumanization as well. till the very end he only shows remorse towards curly and what they could’ve done together. Misogyny is one hell of a drug. They need to be killed with fire

watched a mouthwashing playthrough…. Anya… MY SHAYLAAAAA 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭