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#okay i promise i'm going to get off tumblr and actually get something decent done#but i just have to mention that i started reading 'thief liar lady'#the cinderella retelling where she's pulling a con#which i did not have high expectations for because that concept screams 'we're going to prove how dumb the original cinderella story is'#so i have to give it credit that so far it's pleasantly surprising me by pulling back every time it's about to do something stupid#within the first page or two we have 'they say the slippers were glass and the carriage was made of a pumpkin which is so dumb'#which seems like standard cinderella bashing but it's also framed as an explanation of the magic system#as in 'this is a waste of magic based on the rules' not 'this story is stupid and my 'real' one is better' so i can live with it#we have the enemy prince she's trying to con but he's not a dumb strawman royal#he's actually a sweet guy and a shrewd diplomat#all the royals are actually getting credit for talents as well as flaws#no strawmen in sight (i still shudder to remember 'just ella')#it feels like real politics#and there is *so much* politics and i am eating it up#(which makes me realize that one of the reasons i love cinderella retellings is that there's a lot of potential for politics)#we did have a scene where she goes into the throne room and meets a strange disheveled nobleman lounging on the throne#which made me roll my eyes because you could not have had a more obvious 'meeting the ya love interest' scene#but then there's a scene where she's like 'i don't care about embroidery'#and i internally groaned#but then she's like 'but i do like the embroidery circle because it's relaxing to be away from the men for a while'#so to my delight i could cancel the 'not like other girls' alert#the queen is feminine and her social skills are presented as a vital political skill#the swearing is really stupid and out of place and brings the book down#and i know that there'll most likely be something that makes me stop reading it before the 25% mark#but i do want to give the book credit for pleasantly surprising me#i'm liking it more than i otherwise would because of all the ways i was expecting it to disappoint me
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AKDNDKDKJFKSKDF IVE BARELY SENT ANYTHING HERE LATELY IM SO SORRY BECKY!!!!
How is you? :] I is tired, itâs night time, tho I donât feel like sleeping yet-
Your birthday fic is coming along, I will probably have it done by your birthday, if I balance homework and life right⌠Letâs have a snippet!
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The borrower heard an irritated sigh, and, sure enough, when he looked up there was his escort and best friend, âââ.
âŚwho, as he looked closer, seemed ready to murder him. âââ gulped, and tried to play it off casually.
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I hope youâre excited! And I also have actually started, and have a decent idea for my 100 followers fic (THANK YOU 3D)
I maaay have taken some inspiration from your 100 followers fic, even most of its original, if you see somethings that seems like MMTS, then I hope you donât mind :]
Also, randomly, I donât think anyoneâs seen this, but Iâve actually been going around becoming peoples evil, shadow clone counter part (I have way too many side blogs at this point) *cough* anybodywritingao3 *cough* Rose if you see this no you didnât
So⌠On a completely unrelated note, what would your evil shadow self be? What would their pfp and username be? :D
also can I ask why everyoneâs putting their pfp underwater and how do I join the trend I have no idea how to do that qwq
This ask is getting pretty long, uh, I hope you donât mindâŚ.
Iâd like to talk to you more, but I donât want to bother you :]
(and in an earlier ask you said that I can just message hi in the family discord but thatâs basically not possible for me cause I have something called being social anxious around people I find amazing and cool :P)
Okay okay Iâll stop the ask now-
Have a nice day/night if youâd like too!
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HIIIIIIIIII â¨ANONâ¨
All good all good! I was pretty flat out as it was yesterday and on the weekend. Pretty much played power wash simulator irl cleaning lol.
And I'm good! I hope you slept well (because you should def be asleep right now as of posting this) I'm a bit tired just cause of all the work I did but otherwise feeling good. â¤ď¸
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*eats snippet and gets the happy chemicals* oOooOo am so EXCITED FOR THIS FIC!!! BORROWER FIC! BORROWER FIC! LETS GOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! Bu tbut but but as I know everyone is telling you, make sure to not over work yourself and take breaks. You don't have to force yourself to finish any of these fics on time if it means you get some extra sleep or finish the homework you have to do. Sleep being the most important of all things. Not saying you can't do things, just keep a healthy balance <3
and awwwwwww. My MMTS fic has inspired you're own 100 follower special? đĽšđĽšđĽšđĽš I don't mind at all!!! If anything it makes me extra excited cause it gives me a very vague idea of what the special fic could be centering on (putting bets on a monster meets found family times lol)
@nobodywritingao3 can you please drown @munchkin1156 next? They wanna be part of drowned squad :3
And this ask isn't long at all! You're more than welcome to come chat anytime and as long as you like. You're not bothering me at all <3 Also I get the discord feeling a bit daunting, but I promise everyone is really nice and we're all just a bunch of weird anxious beans that vibe lol.
You're more than welcome to just chat in private dms tho too. Whether it's on discord or tumblr dms, if you'd like to just chat rather than through asks, you're more than welcome to message me. I respond as quick as I can but life and lifing sometimes and can make response time slow lol.
Thank you for the kind wishes, I'm having a lovely morning so far and I hope you have a lovely day too.
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Back at it again. A year since I posted Beneath Her Mask. Same thing as last time. Fun facts or just looking back at something I done did write once upon a time exactly a year ago.
This is going to be very "stream of consciousness" and probably hard to read, but here goes.
First off, wow that title sucks. I came up with it like right before posting and then rolled with it. Nowadays I would put off uploading something for MONTHS if I couldn't figure out an original and interesting title. Oops.
Anyway, this one is a lot better than the last one. Promise. The whole thing is a little bit iffy still, but I was very new. The formatting is the main issue I have with. The concept is...fine, although I think I could have gone a little bit further with and then lead into where this one starts. Ya know, inform the reader as to the situation that lead to Makoto's desire to keep everything to herself? But I kinda made it ambiguous on purpose. Good thing I didn't have to follow up on this a few months later... Oh wait. The stakes were just: awkward. No gay panic (like the tags say, oops), no internalized anything, no worries over team cohesion with members of the PTs dating, none of that. If I would ever go back and rewrite this (don't fucking tempt me) I would definitely expand on things a lot more. But hey, I probably shouldn't try and go back and fix all my old stuff. I'd never get anything done otherwise.
Oh yeah, Makoto's "113 decibel alarm clock" is a real thing. I actually have one. I sleep through every other alarm clock out there. The thing is so good, it will actually scare you awake. Pretty nice. (If probably a little too loud for apartment living in Japan where the walls are very thin.)
Oh yeah, and the tense a few times. Annoying.
I dunno why I made it three chapters. It's just over 3.5k words. That would have been fine to keep as a single chapter one-shot, but I think I just had a hard time with having scenes switch mid-chapter. Chapters are a good way to signal a scene switch, but nowadays I'll just use a line break and go with it. I've just improved as a writer, I think, and so now my old mistakes bug the shit out of me.
If I named all the issues I had, I'd be here all day. So, what did I get right with this? I think the concept is alright. The dialogue is good at points. The scene in Leblanc is pretty good. Good guy Sojiro being cool with lesbians (very cool of him). And the text convos at the end are also pretty okay. The "out of your league" comment still gets me for some reason. It's kinda funny.
Also I made a custom dialogue option for Akira, referencing the very first thing he says at the beginning of the story. I think it turned out okay. (I'd like to do more art/edits relevant to my writing. I've thought about making cover/chapter art for my current project. I guess we'll see how I'm feeling. A little wattpad-y of me, but it'd be interesting.)
I'm just now realizing that I should've made the "third option" a little cheeky. Maybe something like "Come here often?" or whatever. Ah well. Next time.
So, overall? It's an improvement. It's not perfect, but it was the second thing I'd ever written. (Once again, I don't count the RE one. I should probably anon it tbh.)
Anyway, that was something. The next "retrospective" (I guess that's what these are now) will be on Beneath Their Masks.
That one is a doozy, and I think I'm going to have a decent amount to say about it. It's also really long, so that's also a thing I'm gonna have to worry about. I'll probably do that on 10/1 because that's when I posted the first chapter. Maybe I'll have enough time to write up mini retrospectives for each chapter? And then post those throughout October? That could be interesting. And tiring. But still, interesting. I could pull the original upload dates since I made a tumblr in between ACIFT and BHM. Although those are going to be VERY spaced out, especially near the end. So much for doing a month's worth of prompts WITHIN the month. But I'll save all my whining for when those go up.
Also, shoutouts again to my beta at the time, @makomaki5. I hope you're doing well.
Anyway, I think that's about it. See ya.
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I've been depressed for as long as I can remember. I have a diagnosis for persistent depressive disorder. I don't remember much before middle school, but from my journals from back then I can tell that I've been depressed since I was at least 10. I'm 23 now and in college and I feel like my depression has only gotten worse as the years progress. I actually did things in high schoolâI read books, I studied languages, I played video games. (1/2)
(2/2) I've slowly stopped doing all those things and more and most days I barely have enough energy or will to scroll through tumblr. I just don't comprehend how I can exist without my depression. Without hating myself. That's all I've done for over half of my life. I feel like I would be a completely different person without it. Like I wouldn't be me. And that feels messed up... but it's how I feel. I just don't feel like I deserve to be happy or to like myself.
this is a really, really common way for people with depression to feel. and when you think about it, it makes sense to fear the unknown, to fear change, to fear becoming a person you donât even recognize. that feeling makes sense.
but the important thing to remember is that depression lies. constantly. just because you feel this way doesnât mean that itâs true.
who would you be without the depression? you would be not fucking miserable every day. you would be a version of yourself who does things, like you used to. you would be someone with hobbies, someone with the energy to accomplish things, someone who goes out with their friends and laughs without thinking about you secretly wish you were dead, or at least didnât exist.Â
without depression, youâre not automatically happy, but youâre capable of happiness. youâre able to pursue things that make you happy instead of lying motionless in bed feeling like everyone would be better off without you. without depression, you can get up and take a shower, do some laundry, tidy up your room, read a good book and feel content with yourself.
without depression, you can know that the people in your life love you and value you, that you arenât a horrible person and it really is okay for you to have good things and experience happiness.Â
i know it sounds unbelievable to someone whoâs been depressed their whole life, but it literally isnât normal to feel the way you feel right now. itâs not normal to feel hopeless, itâs not normal to want to die or not exist, itâs not normal to think others would be better off without you, itâs not normal to believe that you donât deserve a decent existence. these are more of the lies that depression feeds you 24/7.
let me tell you something, hon. you donât notice it leaving. you donât suddenly feel empty, like youâve lost yourself; you notice a glimmer of light through a cracked door, coming into the pitch-black room youâve been sitting in for years. you donât notice an absence, you notice a sudden presence of things you hadnât even fully realized youâd lost over time.Â
when the lights turn on, you donât think âoh my god the dark is gone, where did all my dark go.â you think, âoh, thatâs what iâve been missing in the dark all this time. there it is again.â
yes, it might be scary to be a whole new person that youâve never been before, but you know what? it might be exciting too. you probably canât even imagine that in the state of mind youâre in today, but you can actually experience excitement again. you can look forward to being someone new, to creating yourself into someone you enjoy being. you can look forward to just being capable of being someone new.
i promise you, darling, you deserve to have a life worth living. your quality of life fucking matters. and there is no reason that you wouldnât deserve it when youâre just a normal person with an illness that isnât your fault. none of this is your fault. your brain is sick, and thereâs nothing shameful about that. it just is, and you deserve treatment for this illness exactly as much as a cancer patient deserves chemotherapy. there is no difference.
iâm glad that youâve gotten a diagnosis, but have you received treatment for your diagnosis? i know that taking antidepressants can be scary (i go over some of it here), but they can be absolutely fucking lifesaving. it might not be easy, but itâs important. if you havenât tried a prescription, please talk to your doctor about getting started on one, and if youâve tried one that didnât help, please talk to your doctor about trying a different one. antidepressants arenât one-size-fits-all, it often takes some shopping around to find the one that fits for your brain.
you deserve more than this, sweetheart, i promise. please donât be afraid of losing this misery when you have so much to gain.
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do you have any tips for getting over the feeling of "everyone else in the community is a better or more popular writer than me and the themes and characterization that i'm exploring have already been handled so much better by other writers"
maybe!okay, hereâs the thing. youâre always going to end up finding people who are better writers than you. the few people iâve ever met that didnât feel that way are usually (a) not very nice people and (b) not actually very good writers. there are times when iâm reading and iâm blown away by how good something is. depending on my mood, this either surfaces as just pure enjoyment or outright jealousy. i know! itâs ugly! itâs not pretty! iâm ready to punt my laptop out the window from sheer âi canât believe they wrote that and i didnâtâ spite.and when youâre in fandom, youâre surrounded. itâs free to publish, so people who wouldnât finish original stuff or shop themselves to editors or only like writing shortsâ theyâre all there. and theyâre generating a ton of content in bigger fandoms. you canât throw a rock without hitting the same idea or premise five times before it lands on the floor.so, accept these things, first of all, as facts: 1. you are going to be surrounded by other genuinely good artists.2. most ideas arenât new.theyâre not criticisms of you as an artist. theyâre just not. now, what to do about it.1. Find friends who love the same things you do and then write for them.This might sound like cliche advice, but write for yourself and your friends. Honestly. Other people might love what you write, they might hate it, they might be indifferent. But write what you want to write and read, without focusing on hit count or comment numbers. Those things are great if they happen, but write what you want first. Write for friends who will yell excitedly and accuse you of personally killing them. You need that support.2. Embrace fanon or deconstruct it. Pick one. Pick both at the same time!Listen, there are only so many plot structures. There are only so many tropes, and emotional pay-offs. If we all said that the one writer who did a flu hurt/comfort story was the only one who was allowed, and we had to all write original ideas after that, flu whump would have died in the 1970s with Star Trek fanfiction people mailed each other. But no. I will read any decently-written flu whump with my favorites becauseâŚ.I love that trope, I fricking love it. I will read a dozen stories about Bruce Wayne showing up for his kids in one day. So focus on writing well, include details that interest you, and donât worry about what other people are writing. Maybe youâll manage to say it in a way that sticks with one particular person and thatâs awesome.3. Read.This is the advice I am bad at following. I get sucked into fandom. I do! Iâm an obsessive person. But if youâre feeling like youâve seen the same thing a hundred times, everything feels worn out and youâll never write anything that causes a splash in the churning waters, then stop refreshing tumblr, stop reading about the same favorite characters, and read. Go find a comic from fifteen years ago youâve never tried, go pick up a novel or some poetry or an essay. The best way to keep perspective that isnât self-consuming and too repetitive is to introduce new thoughts and angles, then come back to your own writing with that lens. 4. Believe what you say matters, then believe it doesnât matter.Okay. You want to write. SO WRITE. Just do it! It doesnât have to be perfect, you have something to say or talk about or explore: GO DO IT. You matter as a person and an artist and you arenât actually just writing the same thing everyone else has done unless youâre plagiarizing. If it feels that way, then maybe find a different idea to write. But something is holding you back. If itâs fear of looking like a copycat, ignore it. If itâs disinterest because you just started a story hoping for hit counts, then move on. And now? Believe it doesnât matter if you say the same thing someone else has written, a hundred someone elses have written. So what? This is your story. It doesnât matter what other people think as long as youâre writing something that has meaning and importance to you. Yeah, it helps to get good feedback, but thatâs what friends are for. 5. Encourage others.Donât let your bitterness or struggle make you compare yourself so much that you end up completely self-focused. When you find beauty, appreciate it. Praise it. Some of the best relationships Iâve found with other writers started with me loving their work and telling them so. Even if they seem more popular than you, I can almost promise most fanfic authors do not think of themselves that way. Theyâre still people who share the same struggles and fears about their craft, usually have somehow stumbled into the attention their work receives, and donât know how to generate it or replicate it. And when youâre in the habit of building others up and encouraging them, you often foster an environment where they are willing to return the favor.I hope this helps!
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good to know i'm not the only one who needs the cute! well then, how about #32 for shunk instead?
(Wondering what this is? Â This is the 800 Followers Special! Â Find out more here. Â Donât wanna see these because thereâs a lot of them coming over the next couple of weeks? Â Blacklist â800 Followers Specialâ. Â Hate reading on Tumblr? Â These will be going on AO3 as âThis Paradox Placeâ a couple of days after posting.)
I think you are beautiful and I would like to kiss you. Â I can think up some clever lines, if youâd prefer. Â But I wanted to say that, first. (None of those lines seemed to be about you or me.)
âLance,â Hunk muttered, eyes wide. Â He was reading down the list that Lance had shoved into his hands, growing more alarmed with each one. Â âI canât use these.â
Crossing his arms, Lance leaned back in his chair. Â âWhy not? Â These are gold, dude, I promise.â
Hunk stared over at him, mouth open. Â âAre you serious? Â Who says these?â Â He looked down, picking one at random. Â ââDo you want to be my boyfrien? Â I left off the d because youâll get that later.â Â Lance, I can barely read these without wincing, much less say them out loud.â
Snickering, Lance waggled his brows. Â âYou canât say you donât want to give him the D, dude.â
âThatâs not the point! Â And thatâs not all of it, either.â Â Hunk huffed, reading further. Â ââThat shirt has to go, but you can stay.â Â Ugh.â
âActually, I insist you do that one. Â Preferably at training, so I can see too.â Â At Hunkâs bland look, Lance shrugged and grinned.
Sighing, Hunk put the list aside and grabbed Lanceâs pillow, hiding his face in it. Â This was the worst idea. Â He had no idea what heâd been thinking, when heâd asked for help.
It was just...
Hunk was nervous. Â Because the guy he wanted to approach was Shiro. Â Who was gorgeous and smart and determined, and intimidating in a way that wasnât purposeful. Â So Hunk wanted this to go well. Â He wanted to prep, to have the words ready that would tell Shiro how he felt and, maybe, if he was lucky, convince him to say he felt the same way.
So Hunk had gone to Lance, which is what he always did when he needed help being talked into something.
This time it may have been a mistake.
Hunk wasnât sure if Lance wasnât taking this very seriously - a possibility, considering heâd insisted several times already that Shiro was interested and this was a ton of effort for a surefire success - or if this was just his version of helping.
Maybe he should have gone to Keith. Â At least he would tell Hunk flat out if this was doomed to failure.
âYou wanna practice?â Lance offered, not bothering to hide his grin. Â âYou be you and Iâll be Shiro.â Â He stood up, shoulders back and chest pushed out, and he brought up a hand to place a finger over the bridge of his nose. Â âHunk,â Lance half-barked out, voice much lower. Â âI think youâre swell. Â Letâs form love.â
Unable to help it, Hunk cracked up and threw the pillow at Lance. Â It bounced off his head with enough force to make Lance drop the pose. Â âDonât! Â I need to keep up a straight face when Iâm doing this.â
âYou sure? I feel like straight isnât what youâre going for here.â
Covering his eyes with one hand, Hunk tried and failed to stop his chuckles. Â âOkay, maybe not.â
Lance waited until Hunk had gotten control of himself. Â âFine, if thatâs not gunna work, Iâll show you how itâs done. Â You be Shiro and Iâll be you.â
âOh, this is gunna end well.â
Fluttering his lashes, Lance brought up both his hands to his chest, the way Hunk always did when he was nervous. Â âShiro, do you like raisins? Â How do you feel about a date?â
As Hunk burst into a new set of snickers, he decided he was wrong.
Lance had been the right call after all.
Okay, maybe not. Â Because when Hunk actually had Shiro alone, all those lines theyâd practiced suddenly ran away from his head.
âEverything okay?â Shiro asked, going from relaxed to worried. Â No doubt he was reacting to Hunkâs increasing nerves. Â Which didnât help, because Shiro getting tense just made Hunk feel like he was screwing this up and hello, feedback loop.
Clearing his throat, Hunk nodded. Â âYeah. Â I just wanted to say that, uh...â Â He mentally scrambled, trying to think of at least one decent line, but totally blanked. Â But Shiro was still staring, confused, so Hunk just blurted out what he wanted to say anyway. Â âI just- youâre really beautiful and I want to kiss you.â
It came out louder than heâd meant, and the words echoed in the hall, making Hunk squirm. Â Across from him, Shiro stared. Â At least heâd lost that worried edge, but now he looked like Hunk had smacked him.
Which wasnât making Hunk feel very good about this plan, right now.
Before he could backtrack though, Shiroâs shoulders slumped, and with that change of posture he didnât look startled so much as awed. Â âYou think- me?â Â He reached up, the movement looking completely instinctive, and touched the tips of his fingers to the scar across his face.
That was when it all finally clicked. Â Hunk was still nervous, but this was more important now that just telling Shiro he liked him. Â This was about making sure Shiro saw himself the way Hunk did.
âYeah, I do,â Hunk replied, finally stepping closer. Â âI really do. Â I was going to try and come up with a cool line, but none of them worked. Â And I forgot them anyway.â Â Reaching up, he gently took the hand Shiro had raised in his own, threading their fingers together. Â âI just wanted you to know that.â
Shiro swallowed hard. Â âThank you,â he replied softly. Â âThat means a lot, considering who itâs coming from.â
Pausing, Hunkâs brow furrowed. Â âConsidering what, exactly?â
Lips curling up, Shiro pressed their foreheads together, and Hunkâs heart sped up, thudding in hopeful pattern. Â âWell, you are a Hunk.â
âShiro, câmon, thatâs terrible-â
And then Shiro leaned in and kissed him, and Hunk forgot all about bad jokes.
Going to Lance for help had been a good call, but maybe Hunk should have just trusted himself to get it right.
Hunk would try to remember that. Â But it was hard to remember anything right now, when Shiroâs fingers were grabbing onto Hunkâs shirt, and his lips were opening against his own.
Heâd make a memo later.
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