#okay extremely gushy sentimental ramble over

[courtney-deserved-better]

SPOILERS FOR TDI 2023 SEASON 2 EPISODE 1 (not really but im being cautious)

no bc if they make mkulia canon i will weep. i started watching total drama when i was a kid who was slowly figuring out i was a lesbian and i latched onto gwen and courtney HARD before i even knew what lesbians were. i was fantasizing about them living together and raising a kid and other stuff while going "i ship them so hard but as friends! platonically!" like i was in denial and gwourtney was there for me every step of the way. honestly i think part of my attachment for them now is how they were an outlet for my child self coming to terms with my sexuality. and now being an adult who's comfortable and proud of my lesbian identity after all that time and still having so much passion for this show, still watching this show because this show is still going... i know it's total drama and it's silly, we all know it's silly, but this show means so much to me and has for most of my life. and to think i could see a canon lesbian relationship on it... man. i don't want to get my hopes up, but after all the love i've poured into this show, canon mkulia would feel like some kind of reward from the universe. maybe i'm reaching but i really think they have a shot. the reboot has pleasantly shocked me in so many ways with the writing/characters that i really think they could do it again like this.