#ok boy i see how you punish yourself by grieving keep at it

[shrimpalbuspotter]

Me defending Snape as if he wouldn't skin himself at the sight of people excusing his actions

[stimmypaw]

Stimmypaw reads Darkest Night! The fourth text post!

Back with these uh live reading comments! Remember those? yeah! I'm on the fourth book of Warrior Cats: A Vision of Shadows :D I read The Apprentice's Quest and Thunder and Shadow and Shattered Sky and now!! I'm here :D and boy did I have a time. Click read more to see it!

NEEDLETAIL?????????

Needletail???????????

What?????

OH???????

Wh THIS GUY IS TALKIN 2 DEAD PEOPLE????

HOW WHO IS THAT

OH MY GOD

These guys are weak and dumb skyclan is epic and sharing the territory with them is good, but of course sparkpelt isn't dealing well with change wink wink nudge wink nudge nudge huh???? (this is a nod to how I project into her and say shes autistic)

I am getting anxious for tinycloud SERIOUSLY how much longer until those kits??? Everyday you show up and its WOW my tummy ssure is HUGE AND BULGING I just Wonder Oh When They'll Be Born, probably pretty soon!!! :) and then they arent!!!! Birth dammit!!!

Cherryfall cut the sick and hurt cats some slack jeez youre Fine, youre not feeding half the forest and you have THREE medicine cats ready to help you if youre not feeling well

Bastard Cherryfall I hate you /lh

Dovewing and Tigerheart have relationship drama again. What is UP with those two I simply do not understand them

Watching Bramblestar trying to control this bizarre situation is actually funny he is so close to screaming "PLEASE dont be mad :c"

SOON WHEN???? JUST KIT THOSE KITTENS DAMMIT

Get her, Alderheart

They LITERALLY said something about sharing the territory, they were like "Stars have five points baby and we need those 5 clans togetherrrr" what else do these cats want??? I know its a big change but its necessary

Wait everyone shut up that cat is named Podlight this is so important to me

Dang these cats are really still struggling :c I wish they didnt blame each other

Harestar is so cool

What the FUCK mistystar????

God what a disaster of a gathering Starclan is gonna be so pissed everyone is doing the opposite of what they should

I was holding my breath oof

I hope thunderclan gives some territory too thats too small a space for Skyclan

Oh boy oh boy oh boy i am Anxious for these Kitties

Violetpaw is me having nightmares every night

Macgyver is a heavily gringue name and I have No Clue how to say it how the hell do you say it

Update its either Mick Guyver or Mac Guyver apparently

Its fun to see how different the sisters are from one another, I love them both

I also love their mom with the name identical to puddleshine wish I got to meet her

IM CRYING BRO........M...MDB.....NFBANN.....VIOLETPAW BELONGS MY DARLING MY DAUGHTER

Sadly Twigpaw is for gender binarism 😔 /j

Twigpaw is often in her thoughts and doesn't pay attention to anything around her and I love her for that

Bad news Finpaw is gonna lose his tail, good news I can draw his tail fin-shaped

Puddleshine surgeon moment!!!

I love Graystripe and Millie

And I love that being flirty is a part of Sparkpelt's personality, I don't know what Alderheart is talking about she's always been dandelion-headed

Ok this is epic, I’m glad we’re breaking gender roles in Warrior Cats my heart dropped when the books called Briarlight cr*ppled, that’s the thing they promised not to do anymore recently right? I’m not sure but, I could use some uh less ableism on my Warrior Cats, the series is old but the newer books should be better, so yeah, good modernize these cats babyyy

OH COOL Skyclan journey!!! Fun I hope they find someone :] also fuck Molewhisker and Cherryfall bastards.

Jayfeather is gonna miss Alderheart too much for him to leave hehehe

ALL of Starclan showed up just to call out Riverclan pahahah

oooo is shadowclan haunted?????

FINALLY TINYCLOUD IS KITTING YES GOD YES GO QUEEN GOOOO!!!!

I wonder why Twigpaw wants to stay behind, there has to be more than just the camp stuff

"I wish I were more positive like Twigpaw, but at least I'm just as scarred by the death of my loved ones as my dad :] I like being like him"

Violetpaw witnesses a car crash 😔 that was a bit messy what happened to those cars also why the hell was one of them smaller was it a bike??? Or ???? Idk what's up with it!!!

Needletail just happens to have slow-down turned on for her on the discord chat so she can only say like a few words each hour :/ why the hell is she here tho Violetpaw needs to get OVER your death!!!!

This short exchange has made me love Dewpaw

Also, I love Twigpaw, I still wonder why she stayed behind tho

Ahh, is it cus she feels too estranged from her family :c ? I wish her mom was around maybe that would help

Jee Twigpaw be a tad more empathic, I can see Twigpaw struggles with that sometimes

You can't cheer him up right now he's grieving, just find him on common ground, talk to him, don't try to make him happy just try to keep him company

Oh wow finpaw that's a dangerous thing to say I hope Twigpaw doesn't crumble under the pressure to never be sad because people like her because she's happy and her being sad would be bad

ALSO I JUST REMMEMBRERD UH TWIGPAW MENTIONED BRIARLIGHT BUT BERRYNOSE IS RIGHT THERE???? HE IS RIGHT HE DIDNT DIE OFF SCREEN IM SURE OF IT WAIY

BERRYNOSS IS RIGHT THERE I CHDCKED!!!! HE LOST HIS TAIL TOO AND HES A GREAT WARRIOR, TWIGPAW!!!! YOU SHOULD HAVE MENTIONED IT ITS MORE RELATABLE

Okay I'm glad they're getting along this is nice

Oh look twigpaw you Are like your father :] this is cute

Skyclan begins to fish competitively I'm glad

I like it when medicine cats bicker about their leader's behaviors ehheheh, Jayfeather talking about how weak Shadowclan is, Alderheart being annoyed at his father for wanting to stay silent, the others worried about the tensions this is all cheff the kisser

Jayfeather spitting the truths about how Starclan doesn't know shit, and he is very much one to speak

Puddleshine: Rowanstar stepped up the patrols :c

Leadstar: He has warriors enough for that?? Damn good for him

Dang poor Skyclan I hope they manage stuff better soon

Oooo the girls are fighting!!!

Alderheart starclan anxiety time dang

Sheep :]

Needletail :[

I'm sad Ravenpaw isn't here, this is a lovely reunion scene but knowing Barley will be alone when they all leave breaks my heart

Oh, maybe not, but if they stay I'll be sad also cus Skyclan needs its warriors

Aw man, Twigpaw is struggling :c

OUCH

I WANT SKYCLAN 2 SWIM THO......

Omg crimes

That sounds kinda possessive twigpaw!

DOVEWING?????

T

WhHAHAGAHAHA WHERE DID THAT COME FROM

omg tigerstar 2 real

Whats he gonna do to rowanstar???

ALRIGHT THATA OVER THEN PAHAHA

Aw, I'm glad they're having fun tho, and that twigpaw sees herself as skyclan

Alderheart, as he meets someone for the first time in a while: ARE YOU OKAY???

Blackstar protagonist moment

The medicine cats: our gods are toying with us again and destiny is uncertain

Leaders: I cannot DO this right now PLEASE leave and let me care for The Real Issues

Alderheart: YOU WILL hang out at my house Willowshine this isn't up for debate

Riverclan suffered enough and it's their turn to throw a tantrum about it, honestly good for them hsghahah

Alderheart asks his father to go on a quest to check people's feet

WHAT THR HELL IS A CANTANKEROUS

Alderheart and Willowpelt sitting there watching Shadowclan fight

This is really funny

HEWWO????

Puddleshine, in his eyes: help help

I love Skyclan

Ok this sounds like it's gonna be very very fun

Mission impossible: Escape From São Paulo

Oh, is Fallowfern deaf? That's so poggers omg I wanna see more of her

Edit: fallowfern is an elder that lost her hearing with age and retired after that happened :/ boring

I love leafstar so much

Juniperclaw: aren't you gonna punish her????

Leafstar: why

Juniperclaw: when I tell rowanstar he's gonna be pissed

Leafstar: don't tell him

Juniperclaw: the fuck is wrong with you and your clan??? Where is everyone???????

Leafstar: busy

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I don't trust abled people specially able-bodied people telling disabled people they just have to train harder and feeling sorry for yourself won't help.

But this is the closest to a positive message to disabled people we have ever had in warriors so I guess I'll take it but I want better

IVYPOOL!!!💖💖💖💖💕

Dang ivypool what a way to show someone you miss them hahaha

Twigpaw: uhhhh how's dovewing?

Ivypool: what do you mean did she do something illegal I'm sure she did

Ivypool is a seriously funny character WHY are you yelling at the young adult about your sisters illegal activities she doesn't know anything about it!!!!

Alderheart goes on an adventure

Feet inspector on the road!!!!

Jasper is so funny I love him

Omg what's he got against clan cats??? What's his sad backstory????

YEESSSS SPARKPELT MY LOVE 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💕💕💕💕💕💕💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💕💕💕

Sparkpelt your opinion sucks but I love you

I'm really really glad they had this moment this is really sweet, they hadn't talked for a while but this is genuine like, we hadn't had this sort of relationship in so long in the books with just, dialogue yknow??? THEYRE TALKING ABOUT THINGS

And the pause Sparkpelt takes between her speaking to fix what she's saying "I'm sorry for saving you :c no wait uhh not exactly but like" this is so good so natural so fun I love you sparkpelt

I get why she has a diferent opinion on Skyclan it's good for someone close to Alderheart to have a different mindset from him and for him to have someone like uh be opposites from him a lil yknow contrats his characteristics makes both siblings fun round and full of kitty do you get what I'm saying???

I love this

I love Sparkpelt, love her lil anxious moments, love her, love that she just wants to fool around with toms and enjoys Larksong but doesn't want to get serious you go girl

They wanted to write smart-ass they wanted to write smart-ass so bad

They're doing this in the rain?????

I'm quite certain Violetpaw is a young adult by this point its valid for her to go

Wh why did you let your cat out in the rain dude!!! When it comes back it's gonna dirty up the whole place it's wet out there!!!! And the cold is gonna get in the house!!!!!!!

I WAS HOLDING MY BREATH OH LORD

That was SO INTENSE AND SO FUNNY AND SO MUCH, IM SO GLAD SHE MADE IT I GOT SCARED

Oh this is so epic

That moment when your cat nearly dies and then it runs off and you go after it and then a bunch of other cats show up and start running with it

I hope Twigpaw can see the others soon

Glad to see her keeping her medicine cat knowledge ehehehe

???????

Sandynose I hate you you are so abled

Sandynose: I don't want my son to feel distanced from his peers so I'm distancing him from his peers

DOVEWING???

SANDYNOSE SHUT UP IM GOING TO KILL YOU ANS MURDER YOU

I'm so upset with Sandynose WHY isn't leafstar seeing this WHY DOESNG ANYONE SEE THIS SOMSONE PLEASE CONFORT AND LOVE MY CHILD TWIGPAW DOESNT DESERVE THIS

Angry sad upset why

Piscina

Thanks graystripe

Ok who's dying this time

Ok no one just a background cat got hurt he will survive otherwise it would be relevant

This was intense though what will happen now???

YES FINALLY

Oh this is lovely so good they're here!!! The rest of skyclan has arrived and we are all happy together

That dream felt good

NEEDLETAIL??? AGAIN

Where were you at!!!!

What!!!

Check this man's feet how many toes are there this could be good

What

Hegshahwha what the fuck is up with this guy

Okay I like him

Ohhh THATS tree

Change your name if you don't like it you sound trans already

Yeah nothing makes one smarter like dying

This is very fun I'm excited for more of whatever happening

Twigpaw :c

HIS SNIFFLES

Oh no

Hhhhnn I want Twigpaw to be happy so bad, I hate seeing her struggles

Sandynose you are so evil and very detested by me

You can and you SHOULD feel angry at Sandynose he SUCKS and he is being needlessly mean at you!!!!! There are much better ways to bring up the possibility that maybe you'd be happier with thunderclan!!! Fuck off Sandynose

Oh so Snowbush hasn't improved, maybe he will die?

Poor Alderheart

Oh fuck there he goes

Yeah

Aw man, rip to the background cat

That was a heavy death too

Aw, I was hoping the rest of Skyclan would show up before the gathering, maybe just after it???

I wonder what's going on in Shadowclan

TIGERHEARTS MISSING HUH???

The couple was kidnapped

HUH????

Oh my lord oh fuck

Can't anyone step up to lead why do they depend on Tigerheart so much???

Jesus christ

Alderheart kills his gods

This is so chaotic and funny I'm worried as hell for shadowclan but excited a lot is happening

HI TREE AGSGAHAH

Tawnypelt >:(

Puddleshine: WAIT DONT KICK HIM OUT, CHECK OUT HIS FREAKY FEET INSTEAD

Oh dear

Twigpaw :c

TWIGPAW :CCCC Man rememebr when I said I hope Twigpaw doesn't crumble under the pressure of being happy for others? yeah

GET OUT SANDYNOSE I DONT CARE YOURE BEING REASOMABLE FOR ONCE YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN LATER

:C

I'm so heartbroken for them

Uh pdhsgahab okay then

Bye finpaw

Wow that was easy for him

This is fun

I'm still sad as hell

Okay there's a lot going on right now wow

The owl scene was funny as hell to picture, this dramatic prophetic moment and the cats just "uuggh is that a prophecy??? Nooo"

Okay so

There's some shadowclan cats missing, considering the many sleekwhisker maps I'm sure she's up to no good but I have no clue what happened to the others and I hope they're okay

Wow! That was really something

Fantastic ending to a very good book its, definitely a different energy from the third but I'm really enjoying this I'm still excited as hell!!! I got worried things would get kinda bad from here but nope!!!! Very fun stuff for now this is very very good and I am enjoying it

This is definitely one of the most fun arcs I've read so far!!! The drama the stakes the little moments everything is tying together really well into a very fun story I'm enjoying a lot!

I worry for Twigpaw and hope for her happiness, and Violetshine too, hope her and Hawkwing deal well with missing her. Tree is being interesting. Alderheart wasn't much of a focus here but always fun to see him trying to solve the damn prophecy no leaders seem to care about. Mousewhisker was okay??? Lots of very fantastic turns for all events and uh let's see where this all goes next!!!

[bssaz97]

Think you would do another part to the missing for a year ask

Missing For A Year… (II)

What originally was supposed to be a day of remembrance and comfort to those who had mourned the ‘death’ of the two leaders of (R)WBY and (J)NPR, quickly became a revelation of confusion and shock. For after almost a year after their supposed passing, Ruby and Jaune returned to Beacon at the day of their own memorial with more than a few surprises. Many of the friends family felt relief that their friends/children/sibling while others had.....unique reactions.

Glynda: For the love of-I JUST HAD THIS SCHOOL FIXED! (Starts to repair the damages done to the door) Mr. Pine would you be so kind as to bring back Miss Schnee and...the newly announced parents. Preferably before she tears the courtyard apart.

Oscar: I’ll try but I can’t make any guarantees.

Glynda: Understandable. Now hurry!

Oscar starts to sprint after them in order to calm matters before they escalate. Meanwhile, the remaining friends of Ruby and Jaune take in the new situation.

Blake: Are they going to be ok? Weiss seems pretty mad.

Neptune: Yeah she’s fine, the two of them... well not so much.

Sun: By the way, how’re you doing babe? I mean we just did get a major truth bomb dropped on us.

Blake: I’m really not sure what I’m feeling. Shock, elation, grief, betrayal.....it’s a mixed bag at the moment.

Sun: Hey take whatever time you need. In the meantime, want to go see the new babies!

Blake: .....Sure. I think that’ll be nice.

Neptune: Also should we get Ren? He’s been still as a statue for a good minute or two. I think he’s also forgotten how to breathe.

Ren: godchildren...godchildren...I’m a godfather...

Sun: Ok buddy come on let’s go. *Grabs him like a cardboard cutout*

Meanwhile....

Ruby: ‘Huff! Huff! Huff!’ I think we lost her

Jaune: *Kneeled over in exhaustion* Man, here I thought we were gonna be having a nice reunion with everyone. Not to run in our own funeral.

Ruby: Technically it was a memorial.

Jaune: Haha. Oh yeah like that’s way better.

Ruby: Look, let’s just see if we can talk to her. She seems pretty upset about it all. Can’t imagine what she’s going through. I mean we basically were proclaimed dead by everyone then to suddenly just stumble back into their lives unannounced and without warning.

Jaune: Yeah that would put her in a questionable state of grief.

Ruby: I wish we could make it up to her you know.

Weiss: Maybe you can by accepting your punishment... *Peeking over the bush they were hiding in*

Slowly the couple turned their heads backwards to see their assailant right behind them. Nervous expressions written on their faces due to the unnervingly calm the SDC heiress/huntress was being.

Ruby: Weiss...hey, how are you?

Weiss: Good...heard you’re married now...and with children.

Ruby: Y-Yeah. Had a really busy year.

Weiss: Oh I had a busy year too. By busy I meant that I spent most of the past year in grief over the death of two of my dearest friends.

Ruby: Oh...that sounds terrible.

Weiss: It was...but do you want to know what’s worse than grieving over the dead?

Jaune: What’s that?

Weiss: Finding our that all your grief was wasted on two absolute morons who didn’t even know the proper way to send a letter to their grieving friends. But who also managed to start up a new life entirely ignorant of the pain their absence caused others. But you want to know the bright side?

Ruby/Jaune: .....what’s the bright-

From a birds eye view, newly installed cameras recorded the sudden appearance of a massive snowy explosion in Beacon’s courtyard. The sound of the sudden explosion alerted the attention of the deputy assistant to the headmistress, as he saw a large amount of snow built up seemingly out of nowhere.

Oscar: Oh no...Welp! At least I know where they are. *Starts running*

It takes Oscar about five minutes to get to the epicenter of the explosion as he had to walk through all the snow built up from the explosion. There he finds Weiss holding onto a supply bag and a rather large ice cube.

Oscar: Weiss, did you have to do this in the courtyard?

Weiss: Yup.

Oscar: ‘Sigh’ Honestly I don’t blame you. By the way where’s Ruby and Jaune?

Weiss: Close by. *Uses Myrtenaster to spin the ice cube to reveal everything but the faces of the couple encased in the block of ice*

Ruby: *Teeth chattering* H-H-hey Oscar... how’s it...ha-hanging?

Oscar: I’m good.....are they ok?

Weiss: Oh don’t mind them they’re completely fine. This is just the punishment they are going to endure being stuck in one place for the remainder of the day. Right? *Glares at the two leaders*

Jaune: *teeth chattering* Y-y-yeah! To-Totally...no problems here! R-R-Right Ruby?

Ruby: *teeth chattering* Y-Y-Yep! Totally... peachy!

Oscar: Somehow I don’t believe...

Weiss: Oh you worry too much. They’re not going to get hypothermia from being in there. There Aura will protect their body temperature and the worst they can get from this is a cold.

Oscar: How kind of you.

Weiss: Do you want to go in the cube?

Oscar: *puts hands up in surrender* No! I’m good! I’m completely ok with being outside the cube.

Weiss: Good! Now come along you too, a LOT of people probably wish to see you right now. Weiss then uses her summoning glyph to bring out the Arma Gigas, who takes block of ice and carries it for her. With Oscar by her side the two begin to walk back to the main auditorium of Beacon.

Glynda: There you are Miss Schnee, did you manage to reconcile with- Why do you have a giant ice cube?

Weiss: Yes. I did in fact reconcile with my leader and her...husband. And for why I have this ice cube, see for yourself.

The Arma Gigas leaned down so that Goodwitch could see the couple’s faces.

Glynda: .....So I see. Well in any case, a lot of the Xiao-Long and Arc Families are eager to see these two. So would you mind if you could-?

Weiss: Of course.

Weiss’ summoning places the ice cube down and pushes it inside, causing the block to slide against the floor until it’s in the middle of the room.

Ruby: H-H-Hey everyone!

Taiyang: Ruby! *Runs over everyone in his path to get to her* My precious little bud! I-I can’t believe you’re here and alive! .....I...I thought I lost you too. *Hugs the cube*

Ruby: O-Oh Dad....I’m s-so s-s-sorry! I would h-hug you if-f-f my arms we-weren’t f-frozen.

Taiyang: It’s ok sweetie...you’re being here is all I need.

????: JAUNE MILES ARC!

Jaune: O-oh Crud...

A middle aged blonde woman marches over to the ice cube, with a frying pan in hand. Her eyes seemed to project fire despite having no magic.

Jaune: M-M-Mom! H-H-Hold on a s-s-second! I c-can exp-plain!

Mrs. Arc: Young man.....you...*drops the pan*

Jaune: Huh? *Face gets cradled*

Mrs. Arc: My baby...my baby boy.....*sobbing*

Jaune: M-M-Mom..... *Gets tarry eyed* I-I’m sorry for making you g-g-go through that.

Mrs. Arc: Oh Jaune...you have nothing to be sorry about my little blessing. You’re here now.

Nora: Awww! What a wonderful family reunion!

The others began to gather around the cube to ask their questions about where the two leaders have been this entire time, and the couple did their best to answer the many asked questions. Weiss even lessened the temperature of the ices o that they could say complete sentences without the cold stuttering.

Blake: Where happened to you two when you two defeated Salem?

Ruby: Well do you remember how she used her magic to bring the temple up to the atmosphere? Well when it was descending we saw that it was heading straight to the face of a mountain so luckily, both of us clung to a straying falling fragment in time while Jaune amplified our auras to withstand the impact of landing.

Jaune: Still has a bit to spare to heal us enough so that I could carry us to a nearby village. It was a fairly new settlement that probably was uncharted on most maps at the time.

Ren: Which means we wouldn’t have been able to find the village...

Jaune: Bingo!

Yang: *Holding Summer in her arms still, while the baby was contently playing with her hair* What happened to you afterwards?

Ruby: Well after Salem’s defeat, Jaune and I decided that we both wanted to take a little bit of a break from huntsmen work, so we decided to do some traveling. We already confessed to each other after the first month and got our marriage license in the second month at a court house. By that time we had gone from Mistral to Vacuo. But at the time of the third month.....I started to get sick, a lot. Didn’t take us long to go to a doctor to see why and to both our surprise I was a couple weeks along in my pregnancy.

Jaune: So we put exploring the world on hold and settled down in a local down in Southern Vale.

Weiss: How did you keep you’re presence under the radar for so long?

Ruby: Honestly we didn’t even know people were looking for us since Salem’s defeat so we just dressed like normal citizens and kept our hunting gear in our briefcases.

Weiss: Of course you did. *Face palm*

Nora: Welp looks like everything worked out in the end! All’s well that ends well!

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Jaune: Um...Nora. Where’s Rowan?

Nora: Huh?

Jaune: The baby you were holding before we ran off you were holding onto him and now you’re not.

Nora: I’m not! *Looks all around herself, but finds nothing* .....Uh oh.

Jaune: .....Nora, you were watching him did you give him to somebody else?

Nora: I don’t think so!

Ruby: What! Nora did you lose my baby!

Nora: Ren did I give him to you?!

Ren: No I haven’t even gotten to hold him. *slightly disappointed*

Nora: Uuuuuhhh no, oh gods. *starts to hyperventilate* I don’t know what I did with him! I LOST THE BABY!

????: Ahem!

Nora and the others look to the source of the voice and there they see Whitley looking upwards.

Whitley: I think I found your missing baby. *Points Up*

Everyone looks up and to the parents surprise/horror, Rowan had somehow climbed up to the ceiling and was crawling on one of the ceiling beams.

Rowan: *Cute Baby Noises and waves at them*

Ruby/Nora: AAAAAAAAAAHHH!!

Nora: Don’t worry baby I’ll save you!

Weiss: Whitley! Why didn’t you tell us this sooner?!

Whitley: *Still looking up* He was doing fine climbing up there by himself so I wanted to wait and see if he could climb down.

Nora: *Up on the beams, slow to approach the infant* Hey there baby Rowan! Hi sweetie~ Listen why don’t you come over here to Auntie Nora. Come on~

Rowan: *Baby noises and crawls the opposite way*

Nora: Wait. No Rowan! You’re going the wrong way! Over HERE! Towards ME!

Rowan: *Baby noises but looks down to see the giant ice cube.* Aaaaaah! Ma! Ba!

Nora: Yes you want to go see mommy and daddy right? So just come over to me and I’ll take you to them. Ok sweetie!

Rowan: Hehehehe! *Falls over the edge*

Nora: NO! *Trues to catch him but fails*

Ruby/Jaune: ROWAN!!

Rowan falls down from the ceiling and just before he gets close to the ground his descent is slowed down before it stops completely leaving him completely suspended in midair. Then he is levitated over to his savior, Miss Goodwitch.

Glynda: Young man. I should let you know that playing in the ceiling is no place for a child to play.

Rowan: ..... *blows raspberries then laughs*

Glynda: *Smiles* You’re very lucky you’re not one of my students. Not yet anyway. Miss Rose, I believe this is belongs to you. *Levitates the baby over to Taiyang, who was standing right by her*

Ruby: Oh! My sweet baby boy, I’m so glad you’re safe!

Rowan: *cute baby noises* Ma!

Everyone: Awww.

Nora: AAAH! *Falls to the ground* .....I’m ok! Ow!

-End of Part 2-

Hope you guys like this second addition to the Missing for a Year post I made a month ago. Stay safe and I’ll talk to you all later!

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Hypocrites and Friends | Duck | Trial 2.3 | RE: Everything | ATTN: Everyone

Much to Duck’s surprise, people actually considered to go near him… Let alone comfort him. Even after everything he had caused, they were still willing to go up to him and comfort him… After a bit of time passed, Duck finally had enough control over himself to reciprocate the hugs he received from Tadashi and Jin, sobbing into their shoulders. As expected, Duck had received the scowls and berating from the majority of people in the trial room. Duck didn’t retaliate against any of it, he knew for a fact he deserved this. He forced himself to listen to every single word they had to say.. …However. Others began to berate the people he cared for… They were trying to harm them, too… And hearing what Ran had to say about his mother cut him deep. As if she was trying to make him out to kill Ambrose just to harm his own mother.… Then… There was mother fucking Akiyuki. Duck wouldn’t have even uttered a word if he had just kept the people trying to comfort him out of this… Slowly, Duck pulled himself away from both Tadashi’s and Jin’s embrace, giving them a nod of gratitude before he looked towards Ran of all people with his blood shot eyes. “…D-Do you really…FUCKING think I did all of this to harm my mom? Do you… r-really fucking think… Th-that I wanted to kill my own fucking brother? HUH?! Do you!? DO YOU REALLY FUCKING THINK TH-THAT I WANTED ANY OF THIS!? HUH?!” Duck snarled a bit towards the mermaid, before turning his attention to everyone else, wiping a bit of snot away with his sleeve. “I-I… I just wanted my mom to b-be safe, and that’s it. I know… I-I know what I did is unforgivable… And i’m never going to forgive myself for what I did to my own fucking b-brother. A-And you know what, Akiyuki? Y-You were right…. I was p-planning on escaping so I-I could see my mom and dad again. I-I’ll be truthful there. But don’t you e-ever fucking doubt I would k-kill my own brother on purpose, you fucking hypocrites.” Did… Did Duck just call you all a bunch of hypocrites? Holy shit, yes he did! The audacity of this fucking guy! “Y-Yeah… I said it. Hypocrites. I-I know I have no room to talk in the slightest. H-Hell, I was j-just going to take it… But you know what? F-Fuck it, I’m dying anyways a-and i’m going to say what I have to say. I’m not going to add another regret to the numerous I-I have and let you berate my friends l-like that, you bitch.” Duck was shooting daggers towards Akiyuki, staring into the piercing eyes of none other than the king of ice himself. Not even sure how he’s doing it, I could barely bare the thought of having to be caught in that icy stare. Stuff of nightmares, man! But anyways…. “F-First of all… C-Can I take the t-time to point out that you let your own mother die during the motive. I-I know you have "mommy-issues” and all that, but you didn’t e-even put in a fucking effort to save her. And what do you do when sh-she dies? You fucking laughed.“ Duck looked away from Akiyuki to stare into everyone else’s gazing eyes of disapproval. "And what d-did any of you do about it? Did you chastise or yell at him for doing so? P-Punishing him for doing it? You all did nothing… Huh, f-funny how they berate and criticize the person who a-accidentally k-killed his… O-Own brother and ended up saving their loved ones f-from danger, and yet…. you all d-do nothing when it come to Akiyuki willingly letting his own mother to die.Oh, was sh-she a bad person? I’m sorry, so w-was Haruto, and yet you all still criticize me for that.” Duck took a moment to breath, rubbing his wet blood-shot eyes before he stared back at the epitome of ice itself. Akiyuki.

—————–T.W. Mention of suicide. —————————

“And how fucking dare you t-try and belittle what th-that Haruto bastard did to me all those years. He made m-me feel like I was n-nothing but a waste of space. H-Hell… You know? It even got to the point where I tried to t-take my own f-fucking life because of it… So yeah, I-I did that to him… And do I-I regret making him blind? Maybe. But do I regret choosing Jin’s dad over h-him? No…” ————————————————————– Ha… And to think? He took all those years of bull shit just so Ambrose didn’t leave him… That thought still agitated Duck to the core. But fuck it, Duck still loved him regardless…. And he would never get over killing his brother, even when he was dead and gone.  “Y-You know Akiyuki. I-I don’t know… If y-you’re philosophy of there being no grey areas when it comes to these things is correct o-or not… But… If we do say yes t-to that, then…. That makes you j-just as bad as me in your mind, you disgusting piece of shit.” Oh boy, you’d think Duck would be finally done with his rant, right? Well… For Akiyuki, yes. Now he was turning his attention to mermaid Ran. “I-I sincerely hope you d-don’t think you’re perfect, either. Remember, You also voted for someone to die. And h-hell, you were advocating for your sister, kn-knowing damn well you were going to send Sandwich’s sister to her death. But hey, w-wasn’t by your hands, so i-it’s not your fault… R-Right?” Next stop, it’s to none other than Sandwich! Our favorite Massage Therapist! Though, Duck’s face wasn’t as harsh as it was towards Akiyuki’s or Ran’s. “I… I-I want to… Th-thank you for.. N-Not yelling at my friends. H-However. J-Just… Please remember that it was g-going to be either you being convicted a-as a murder or w-watching your sister die thanks to R-Ran’s influence over everyone if it weren’t f-for me being… An i-idiot…"  Duck turned his attention towards Kouki, his face souring once his eyes landed on the beef cake. "Y-You… I.. I don’t really h-have to many problems with you. P-Please… Just feel free to b-berate me and me alone after i’m done if you wish, I-I do deserve th-that much… However. You w-want to know what is also d-disgusting? Complaining that someone’s f-fucking execution wasn’t ‘intriguing’ enough.’ N-Now what type of f-fucked up person do you have to b-be to say that?! Th-that’s just… Wrong.” Yet again, Duck knew he was the least qualified person to say this, but since no one else was and how he was about to die… He might as well die saying his thoughts. Duck gave a look towards Shizuka, sighing a bit. There was no beating around the bush, Shizuka was an absolute bitch. But.. He already got his point across when he nearly killed her. “I-I’m… I know it sounds l-like i’m lying now…. But… I’m sorry I-I did that to y-you. But… I wish A-Ambrose didn’t stop me… A-At least he’d still… B-Be alive…"  Well, almost there! He just… Had one more negative thing to say towards a certain group of people…. "L-Liya… Nanami… Just… Go f-fuck yourself. Y-You’re both n-not necessarily hypocrites, which th-thank you for n-not being one, but you both are just a-assholes. Also L-Liya, how d-dumb do you have to be to preach for e-everyone to keep it p-peaceful last trial then proceed to call them i-idiots? That d-doesn’t in th-the slightest…” Well, that was exhausting to say the least. But… Duck didn’t care, he was going to let others know what his thoughts before he’d perish. He knew he didn’t deserve the right to speak his mind, but once he started, he just couldn’t stop himself. What was meant for only a few people turned out to be an inclusive experience for the majority. He didn’t care if he was yet again criticized for lashing out at them, or met with expected denial from a few of them. Shouldn’t he be crying over his killing his own brother and at the thought of leaving his mom and dad miserable? Yeah, he should’ve… But… This fire in him had sparked after they went after his friends. Speaking of friends…. “L-Lance…” Duck gazed at his grieving friend… His expression from earlier disappearing entirely. “I-I’m… I know m-my words are meaningless t-to you, but… I’m sorry. I… I-I never wanted to hurt you l-like this… B-But my mom came first in this… I’m S-sorry. J-Just… Just please m-make it out of th-this ok… Please? I… I-I don’t want you to e-end up like m-me or… A-A victim…” Duck scratched the back of his neck before turning his attention towards Madoka. “M-Madoka… I-I’m… I’m so sorry I…. D-Did this to you… And same goes for everyone I care about here…” He gazed towards a certain few. “I… I w-wish things… C-Could’ve been… Different… B-But… I guess th-this is how it is. J-Just… Thank y-you….But pl-please stop trying to defend f-for me. I… I did s-something terrible… And I-I shouldn’t be excused b-because of it…. So K-Kenji… Lance… Or whoever… If you have a-anything else to say t-towards me and m-me alone…D-Do it… I do deserve th-this…” Duck glanced down at the floor again wondering how the hell he didn’t even break down when he went off. But…He was done… He said what he had needed to say. He was dying with so much pain and regret… But… At least he could live with this for the little bit of time he has left…  

[the-wellbeing-warrior]

Letting Go- For our own wellbeing

Elsa sang it proud!! Go on now your singing it aren’t you. Let it Go!! Letting go of my past was a necessary step that I needed to take for my wellbeing and recovery and if anything it has allowed me to see my mental health in an entirely new way.

We address recovery, illness, and wellness as a direction ,a process but we do not often talk about, or see it talked about,as an actual status of being recovered. And yes, people can and do recover from mental illness but it is also important to note, recovery looks different for everyone. For me I would say presently I am “recovered” but I am also aware that deep depression has always the potential to rear it’s ugly head, I feel now though I am equipped to slay the bastard!!

But one difficult part of when i reached that point of recovery, of well-being, is how the hell do I let go of the past? That was where I found myself. I think depression is, and will always be a part of my life but I wasn’t always depressed. It was a long and difficult journey, but I’m here in a place I would call mental peace. However this might sound, It isn’t the bed of roses you might think

It was a few months ago that I found myself a bit lost. I was like what do I do, now that I’m well? I’d done my course, I had this shiny certificate but I felt stuck, still linked to the past. In all years talking about and practicing recovery and wellness, it was the past that I never really addressed. How to be well, and how to let go of the past.

It’s not as simple as just getting on with your life. When you have a lived experience of mental illness, it’s at the forefront of your mind, in everything you do. It’s like a bucket of paint that’s been tossed over your life. The rest of the stuff’s still there, but it’s been covered, coated, with something else. And often, it’s that something else that’s all you can see. So when you begin to feel kind of normal again, reality kind of becomes a bit clearer. Which can be… confusing. Happy to be well? Of course! A bit confused about what to do? Yes to that as well.

It has taken a few years and a bit of soul searching. I’d not been well for a long time so when I had this moment of clarity it was kind of disconcerting. Like instead of being ingrained in me, London was starting to feel like a distant memory, and I began to feel disconnected from it. A good thing you might say, but It was mentally draining. I had 16 years in London, 13 of them in the same relationship, despite the associated heartbreak, it was still hard to move the page but I did begin to properly embrace my future, focusing on surrounding myself with people who despite being bit parts in my life (I was a closed book then) up until then. These were the people who have gone on to be pivotal in getting me to where I was. London was my past, and once I had been well for a while, my focus firmly shifted away from my past, and those that chose to leave me, to my now.

But alas it wasn’t all hunky dory, oh no my arse of a brain had other ideas. I started noticing a few things I’d not done before. I kind of felt that life had left me behind. Compared to my peers, they were married, had 2.4 children, nice cars and a big house they could call their own, now I did not begrudge them that, but me I was like here I am in my childhood bedroom, and I often thought to myself boy you have clearly missed the starting gun and I wondered would I ever catch up.

The domino effect comes in to play them with these feelings filling me with a fresh wave of fear, anxiety, and stress. I started feeling inadequate. Like a failure of sorts, not only had mental illness cost me a lot already, had it seen me fall too far behind to catch up? But I needed to feel that, it was a release of sorts, I found myself in a moment of crystal clear clarity when I started to doubt my journey. I had started to question the person I had become, because of fear of the person I had been. It was then that I had accepted it was 100% the time to let go of my past for good, live in the present and shape my future

Letting go of the past can be emotionally taxing. It’s brutally hard, and it hurts. But to move on, to recover, it has to happen.

Here are some tips in letting go of the past:

1. Stop comparing yourself to others. You don’t know their story, and they don’t know yours. It’s impossible to objectively measure other people’s lives. What we see is usually not the best metric – houses, clothes, travel, career. Your self worth is not defined by how you rank in material items against a randomly selected peer group.

2. Don’t let your age be your metric for where you are supposed to be in life.

We are not actually ‘supposed’ to be anywhere. We can’t take the years back, and we can’t make up for lost time. Live your life now, that’s what matters. The past is over.

3. Let go of regret.

Yes, if given the change no one would choose to be unwell. But it happened. We can’t change the past. But – we always have the opportunity to change how we respond to our past. We can always change our reaction. That’s what dictates our present. Not past actions but how we continue to respond to them.

4. The best in others does not reflect the worst in us.

What we see in others is not a true representation of their lives. Yet, somehow seeing the best in others can make us focus on our own worst moments. Comparison is rarely helpful, and in this case it’s downright damaging. As I tell my five-year-old son ‘you do you’.

5. Excuses are best left in the past.

Sometimes, finding wellness after mental illness can involve blaming the illness. There’s a lot to unpack there, but the advice I am giving is this. Well-being is reaching a point where we take accountability for our actions and move on with our lives. Let the excuses go, well-being is not about well assigned blame.

6. If it’s toxic, let it go.

People, places, careers, and even family. If it does not support the life you are living now. If it does not support the person you have become. Let. It. Go.

7. Grieve the losses and then let them go.

The loss of time, relationships, career advancement, youth, happiness. Of what you think you could have had but didn’t. Of what your life might have looked like. Grieve it. Then let it go.

8. Reframe your past to focus on what you learned and the strength you now have.

Allow your past to be of value to others on their journey to wellness. This might be the most empowering aspect of letting go.

9. Let go of shame. Full stop.

The Habit of Forgiveness

Letting go of the past also involves a habit that must be broken. The habit that might be holding you back is a lack of forgiveness.

· Forgive the people who love you, for not understanding what you went through. They probably never will and that’s OK. Let it go.

· Forgive the people who were part of keeping the dark place dark. It was likely more about them then it was you. They hurt you, and they might have made your journey longer and harder. But you can’t change what happened. Holding onto what they did to you keeps the door open to that part of your life. Let it go.

· Forgive the people who had to leave you behind. The ones that needed to prioritize their own wellness and had to let you go. You understand now. Let it go.

· Forgive the people who judge you for your past. They don’t know the battles you fought, the scars you carry, and the warrior that you are. If they’re judging you based on an impossible metric of money, position, or appearance their opinion isn’t worth having anyway. Let it go.

· Forgive yourself. You’ve struggled enough. There is no need to keep punishing yourself. It’s time to love yourself and your journey. Let it go.