#ok . my gayass was bored

[inutaffy]

dramatized pining ft. me

[ID: image 1 is a white background with a black square border. there's a door drawn at an angle with a doorknob that is meant to be moving. yellow "light" spills from the door even though it's closed. it reads, "Does he ever wait for me to walk through a door?"

image 2 is the same white background with a black square border. eyes looking to the left are drawn in black as well as eyebrows and the start of a nose slope. it reads, in blue, "like I do? like I wish I could stop doing?" /end ID]

[guitarnacle]

aaaa sometimes you go to a gig and realise everything is excellent and its all fine for like 4 and ahalf hours then you get home and yuor room is messy. and you have to go to work

They were giving out gerards at the door

[burr-ell]

🏳️‍🌈🧡

🏳️‍🌈: Which character who is commonly headcanoned as queer doesn’t seem queer to you?

I'm gonna talk Fire Emblem. YOU DIDN'T SPECIFY SO HA.

I do happen to think more characters in Three Houses are mlm/wlw than a number of people are willing to acknowledge (I don't consider "can be romanced by either gender Byleth" to be the only metric when some of them kids got gayass endings); like, Dimitri is absolutely bisexual. Claude, though...?

So this isn't really "I don't think Claude is queer at all"—I personally headcanon him as aspec—but I think he's exclusively attracted to women. Like, compare his supports and paired endings with Lorenz (where "diplomatic relations" is the furthest thing from a euphemism) and Balthus (where Balthus straight-up just marries an unnamed woman) to Dimitri's endings with Dedue (fellas is it gay to take up vigil at your liege's graveside and then be buried alongside him) or Felix (I'm grieving for him harder than his unnamed wife did because we're PLATONIC FRIENDS obviously). As I just said, a character's relationship to Byleth isn't the only metric for this, but I think it's pretty telling that nothing about Dimitri's interactions with or about Byleth change based on their gender, while some of Claude's dialogue adds in lines specifically about finding female Byleth attractive.

I mean, both Claude and Dimitri have paired endings with female characters that are giving contractually obligated (I can't imagine Dimitri/Ingrid or Claude/Leonie are terribly popular), but I feel like people interpret Claude as bisexual because he's charming and Dimitri as straight because...I guess his route has the most traditional Fire Emblem elements? Meanwhile, the actual situation is the complete opposite in terms of like, raw homoeroticism.

(As far as Critical Role is concerned, while I don't have a preference either way, I do see where @revvethasmythh is coming from that Jester has some ally energy. I do like bi4bi Fjorester too though!)

🧡: What is a popular (serious) theory you disagree with?

For FE3H, I think Teacher Theory is still very stupid and hasn't been ridiculed enough*. Like Edelgard works with a mole man death cult that does human experimentation and kidnapping and she personally has a secret pet serial killer and starts a war, but hiring bandits to kill her political rivals is suddenly beyond the pale and El Would Never**? And the obviously smarter 4d chess play would be to...get the church to hire the aforementioned secret pet serial killer (who already works there) to be the head teacher of her house, thus putting him under increased scrutiny? lmao ok

For Critical Role...okay, this is retroactive, but I gotta admit that the "'did she know' was actually Rashinna!" theory was not good, at all, and would have been incredibly boring if it had been true. (Also, just logically, why would Rashinna have ONLY sent that message to the two Ruidusborn?) If my understanding is correct people didn't want to say anything on the slim chance it was right, but once the episode aired the general consensus was "PHEW we're good c'mon man, seriously? We gave airtime to that?".

*I'd address the fanon coming out of the hardcore "genocide is okay" Edelstans (straight up just "source: I made it up"), but like, the question specifies 'popular' and that portion of the fandom has only gone more insane because they know everyone thinks they're all absolutely corncobs.

**If in an attempt at media analysis you call fictional characters by nicknames, cutesy or otherwise, you have waived the right to be taken seriously.

unpopular opinions asks

[apothecarywormcrud]

��� 🥂 and 🛏️ for your fiance whom you love? :3c

i dont love him this marriage is for tax purposes >:[

💕 - “I miss you” Text

mod-soul [1:35] im bored 

mod-soul [1:35] join my minecraft server 

szayelaporro [1:48] no

mod-soul [1:49] not very poggers of u :(

🥂 - Date Invite Text

masato [13:54] going 2 taco bell u want anything 

masato [13:54] dont say new test subject 

szhhhfhhjdgksdfsg [13:55] only the pleasure of your company~

masato [13:56] ok gayass 

masato [13:56] crunchwrap supreme w/ extra meats it is  👌 👌 unless u wanna bribe me w/ sushi again 

szhhhfhhjdgksdfsg [13:57] I’m considering it. stop putting that swill in your body. 

masato [13:58] bro u eat people 

🛏️ - “I’m very sick, please come take care of me/bring me something” Text

mod-soul [12:23] GRANZ THE MODSOULS ARM 

mod-soul [12:23] HAS BEEN SEPARATED FROM THEIR BODY

mod-soul [12:23] U SHOUL;D

mod-soul [12:24] COME DO SOMETHING ABT THAT5

mod-soul [12:24] SHOULD HAVE GIVEN THEM A STRONGER HIERRO LOL  

szayelaporro granz [12:26] you did WHAT

[hadleymeetsworld]

The Text To My Ex I Will Never Send (maybe)

Hi Sam, how are things with you? I’ve been following you on spotify since we’ve been dating, and I see you’ve finally started using the app. Just FYI the hip hop music you’ve been listening to is several years old so it seems like you’ve been living under a rock. Ru OK? I see you’ve received absolutely zero culture since I left DC a few years ago. How’s your 90 pound gf? I hear she has awful taste in music as well. How’s your BMW? Your dad still covering those car payments? How’s applying to medical school? It must be boring being such a square. Well it looks like your life is basic as fuck and I no longer want to be involved, but you’re still pissing me off so great for you! omg hashtag washingtondc hashtag corporate bitch hashtag your girlfriends gayass michael kors watch

[formulatemotif]

dauphin island week; day 2-3 2/24/2020

ahhh

ok so wow i totally forgot to do this yesterday! it’s been like one day and i already forgot. so stupid. yesterday i saw a crab and that was essentially the highlight of the whole day. i’m now kinda obsessed with them. but not really. mostly i’ve been concerned about my friends. i feel like they don’t really like me anymore. like ruby. i already kinda know adam doesn’t like me but it doesn’t feel good all the same! i wish i wasn’t such a bitch. all i know how to do is talk about myself and bore people. god im so fucking boring!!! mercy was right. im literally so awful. i’ve been in and out of depressive episodes these last couple days, which, you know, prolly does not really help with my perception of other people. i just.. i mean. i don’t know. they don’t like me. they must not, right? from what i can tell.. i don’t know. it’s ok if they don’t like me. cause i like them. and i’ll just keep liking them and supporting them anyway. of course, no one is coming to me to talk anything out or for advice, because, you know, i am a bitch and no one likes me, but i’ll be here regardless! i’m so mean. just mean and annoying and i talk too much. it must be so awful having to deal with me. i can’t imagine being my friend. i just wanna say i’m sorry to them without sounding like i’m being attention seeking. i just want people to like me! it’s so basic and teenage girly but i wish my friends would like me. or maybe they do? i think aiden likes me. i think mia might as well. but i don’t know. i feel like i’m somehow pushing them away. maybe they’re starting to grow out of me. like i’m mr. peanutbutter or some shit, like i make friends that haven’t grown up yet because i’m so immature. but i’m 16! i don’t know if i act 16 but i’m 16. i’m supposed to be immature. everyone said i was mature for my age but i’m really starting to regress. i can hardly talk to family friends or whatever. i guess mostly because i don’t *want* to talk to them. i just hate myself. i wish i wasn’t so sad. it’s a lot because i’m here with my dad’s family. it’s kinda like.. everything’s getting progressively worse? like it was fine the first couple days, sans a fight that i think happened a little later into the night. but today was worse. i think zach got upset or something and charlotte didn’t really do a whole lot to stop it. she’s dying too. you can see it when you look at her. she wears a sort of wrap thing on her head and her face looks old. it’s depressing. i can’t imagine how her kids must feel. i feel so guilty feeling sad. they have it so much worse than me. they’re losing both their parents to cancer. she probably won’t even live long enough to see jon graduate highschool. it makes me so sad. everything makes me so sad. i am sad! just.. constantly perpetually sad. i hope someday i can look back on this and not be sad. but i don’t know. i’ve noticed this kind of weird thing i do where stuff i make or post or whatever will have some sort of like.. undertone. whether obvious or not, it’s there. for instance, this recent post:

like it’s? funny haha post. but then:

like? what the fuck is this ? what is this doing here? ??? i think i seriously annoy my friends with all the sad shit though. god i wish i wasn’t so sad!!! and i know you always accuse people of doing shit that you do yourself, which is why i think they’re annoyed when i kinda hint that i’m sad. i think maybe aiden is less annoyed with it though. i more think adam is. and maybe ruby too. god, ruby does not like me. like at all. she really doesn’t like me. all of our conversations are dry and she does not seem at all like she wants to talk to me. today, i was trying to organize my gayass little harem thing with the mudae bot (moon runes, i know, but roll with me) i was trying to do this in like, a separate channel, so that adam and ruby’s messages wouldn’t get in the way and so i wouldn’t be like, flooding their conversation with mudae shit. they keep going into the channel im in in between short/medium intervals of time. i really was not articul8 at all with this shit and id just be like “please” and move to a different channel, which they’d eventually go to. i guess it really was my fault, just for not communicating. but i said “plz leave me in peace so i can organize” or some such yaddle. adam was like “leave jul in pece!” which was grate!! yay i communicated clearly and nicely to adam!! yes!!! then i went into another channel, which ruby entered after a while, and started using the bot in. i was like “PLZ I JUST WANT TO ORGANIZE PLEASE GOD” or smth. hopefully in a jokey way? ?? then she said “this is a virgo moment” and while that is funny haha joke it kinda makes me think? cause earlier in a half assed fight thing i said “wow this is such a libra moment!” to her cause she was bein manipulative in a way. and now im wondering.. if she was mad.. and im just.. god i hate myself. just intensely and completely i hate myself with every fiber of my being im so awful and just terrible to be around and talk to and im jsut so so so fucking annoying and on my god damn high horse and boring and ill take talking out of you and im so ugly and just plain stupid and weird and i hide things for no reason or the sake of a joke and it’s just. . so weird and stupid. and i hate myself. just. intensely. i hate myself so much. it’s so hard to express in words. this is kinda graphic but imagine you have like, a kitchen knife, and you’re like, committing harakiri. like when u cut ur stomach open. or maybe more like, stabbing yourself over and over again. i need to go into detail if i want this to be clear. like this deeprooted intense burning in the back of my mind. searing, hot, burning flesh ripping apart layer after layer of my scalp. nails dug so deep into my arm they draw blood. ripping apart your skin on concrete, so deep you feel faint, so much blood conglomerating together in the wound the red becomes black. just a horrible gnawing feeling all the time, like a dog and a bone, forever just creeping in the back of my head. that was very graphic and dark but it’s the only way i can explain it! it fucking *hurts* dude!!! i hate myself so much it’s painful. just awful. a lot of the time, i cut because i hate myself so much. i feel like i deserve it. and i prolly do! and this is so off topic but that reminds me of this funny hehe haha tiktok i found that i’ll link that’s about cutting. i was like .. Holy shit. My fyp is getting a little too specific! but it made me laugh and all the comments were funny. like the “my wrist look like a barcode” i just fhgjdfjkghk  CAUSE IT DOES.. DGFMFNAM .. .. ngjdfgnuregheruskghg. so awful