#oi peoples be proud of me 💓💓

[dobaara]

I never acknowledged all my efforts on moving forward after all the stuff that happened to me and I realised everything today (literally typing this with tears in my eyes) so thank you anon for this, you made me realise that even after everything, I do have the ability to love myself and move forward 💓💓

hello! feel free to ignore this, but i've been seeing your poems on my dash and i was wondering if you'd like to share a bit about the thought process behind them, your inspirations/influences and how you got started. did you start writing and then study form, or the opposite? or did you not study form at all? also, how long have you been writing? i'd really like to get started with poetry as well but i feel like everything i write is forced and stilted. if you have any advice, i'd love to hear it! if not, that's totally fine of course. have a great day.

hii hello how are you?! thank you for asking me this, I'd love to tell you more! <3

okay so I started writing mainly to try and cope with my trauma and try to heal from it, it still does hurt but I'm glad I decided to write about it, it made the pain a little easier to digest. And I mainly wrote stuff in the genre of heartbreak and sadness (let me tell you, this one poem I wrote that was a mix of the first seven minutes of one of my favorite movies and my own experiences that I wrote three years ago is still one of my favorites to this date) and I found that I quite enjoy writing in that genre, I think it was my way of coping with stuff, which seems ironic but at that time I feel I was truly in my element. My friends all started calling me "Tragedy Queen" like the actress Meena Kumari because I was the most cheerful person who wrote about gut-wrenching stuff. And I started writing at the start of 2020 maybe in Jan (I used to joke around with my friends saying my writing was so bad it bought a virus to my country, god I should have shut up) and at that point of time writing was an escape for me, I did not learn any form, I just wanted to write what I felt and honestly did not think of anything else. I still remember the first poem I wrote (I cringe so hard while reading it now)

And now if you'll see, I write a lot about love, both romantic and platonic because it's what I've been yearning about all these years. If you do check my poems out you'll see that there's always an undertone of longing in some of my poems. For me this shows a lot of healing because after everything I faced where I genuinely hated myself to a place where I couldn't write about love (again both platonic and romantic), happiness and contentment without breaking down at least thrice and havjng my hands shake, this shows a lot of moving forward for me (holy shit I have never acknowledged this before now oh mu god) I still do write a lot of heartbreak because I feel heartbreak has become like a bubble, a comfort space for me. My friends still call me Tragedy queen from time to time, but now I think I kinda like that title now. And it's not like I've completely changed, I'm still insecure of my writings and hate them on the occasional day but I've slowly learned to love it and myself too.

I don't think so I'm in any place to give you advice because I'm still a learner but my advice would be to read poems often. I'm not saying that you have to read one poem per day but that's a nice habit that I'm glad I have. And along with that some time before, I used to write four-five lines everyday as a warmup! (I lost that habit because of uni but thank you for reminding me of it) and also when you do write stuff, realise it's for yourself, I forgot to keep that in mind and tried writing for maybe posting it on here or anywhere else and I genuinely hated what I wrote so do keep that in mind!

happy writing!! <33

— ghazal ♡