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piplupod · 5 months

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i keep thinking idk what the point is anymore but the point is that i want to make art. not even share it necessarily, i just rly want to make things bc i love doing it and its kind of one of the only things im good at. but the world is so impossibly fucked and i am so terrified and trapped and i feel guilty all the time because my brain thinks i am at fault for everything wrong in the world no matter how much i do to combat it and no matter how much risk i put myself in during the combatting.

and I'm not even having a breakdown because I'm hungry so I can't fix these feelings, this is just... what I am experiencing I guess. fuck!

#wah wah poor privileged idiot crying as they lay safely in their house and bed with money in the bank #i am a fucking joke #im tired idk i am going to go find something to do that isn't self pitying suicidal bullshit #ohhh good now Chase wants to front christ let me OUT OF HEREEE #i hate this brain im gonna be honest i rly do hate it. like a lot. it doesnt work and its so broken and bad #im tired of putting on a brave face fhfkdl I'm tired of trying to be okay and pleasant and happy shdjfkl #okay no more posting sorry i will go deal w my bullshit elsewhere #suicide tw

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