#oh i've learned my lesson you won't get me that easy connections

[vonlipvig]

jarring. but i'm not falling for that.

[666writingcafe]

A Question

A Text Conversation Between Solomon and MC That Takes Place As MC Is Recovering At Purgatory Hall

MC: We're going to have to leave soon, aren't we?

Solomon: Why do you ask?

MC: Well, how much time has passed in the human world since our departure?

Solomon: By my calculations, we're approaching the end of day one.

MC: You weren't kidding when you said that time moves the slowest in the human world.

Solomon: You will have time to fully recover and say your goodbyes. You don't need to worry about that. But you are right; sooner rather than later, we will have to make preparations to go home.

MC: Where will you go?

Solomon: I have a house, MC.

MC: But is it a home?

Solomon: Thirteen told you, didn't she?

MC: Yes. I know about your immortality.

Solomon: It was an accident that's turned into a curse. Everyone that I've grown up with has long passed. It's hard to form lasting connections with other humans because I know that I'll outlive them all.

MC: I am truly sorry, Solomon. You must feel completely alone. Isolated, even.

MC: That brings me to my request.

Solomon: Oh?

MC: If you are willing, I would like you to continue tutoring me when we get back to the human world. There's so much that I still don't know, and you have been an excellent teacher thus far.

Solomon: Thank you. You probably surpass me in terms of raw magical power now.

MC: But I lack the skills necessary to fully control it.

Solomon: You'll be able to master those skills soon enough. You can take my word on that.

MC: Solomon.

MC: I want to be YOUR apprentice. Not anyone else's.

MC: Please?

Solomon: I would be honored, MC. Truly. Something tells me it won't be long before the student surpasses the teacher, though...

MC: I don't care about that.

MC: I want to be able to spend more time with you. Is that so wrong?

Solomon: No, MC. It's not. I'm just not used to anyone being so sweet.

MC: *blushing emoji*

Solomon: Our first lesson begins now.

Solomon: You have pacts with seven rather needy demons. They won't let you go easily. While you are far from ready to learn teleportation magic in order to travel between realms at will, I do believe you are skilled enough to summon a demon across worlds.

MC: That way, we can see each other whenever we want.

Solomon: Exactly. It's relatively easy to do as well.

Solomon: Normally a ceremony is performed in the human world to summon a demon. Then the human and demon proceed to forge their pact. Sometimes, the pair makes it so that the human will be able to freely summon the demon in the future.

MC: How does that happen?

Solomon: The demon chooses something that is dear to them at the time and gives it to the human. This gift serves as a permit of sorts, one that allows the demon to be summoned across worlds at any time.

MC: So, that's my first step: obtaining gifts from the brothers.

Solomon: You're a quick learner.

Solomon: But focus on resting first.

[fashionablyenigmatic]

Familiares invenire

"Alright, you three," Cadmus began, his tone tinged with slight irritation, "Dad's busy with a fashion show, so today I'm in charge of your magic lesson." They found themselves in Curl Park, a sprawling forest near the Silver District of Inner City, seemingly stretching endlessly. "But today, I'll teach you something genuinely useful—Familiars and how to summon them. Even Karnus can join in, though he might have to resort to non-magical methods."

"Great, thanks. I guess I'll just head off to the pet store, then?" Karnus retorted sarcastically, turning to walk away.

"No, you won't. Get back here," Cadmus commanded, twirling his finger. Instantly, Karnus's feet swiftly reversed direction.

"Damn it," he mumbled under his breath.

Cadmus then turned to Syliph. "Resident bookworm, would you care to enlighten the class on what exactly a familiar is?"

Syliph, adjusting his glasses with a hint of enthusiasm, stood up. "A familiar is more than just a pet or an animal companion. It's a magical entity, often an animal, that forms a deep bond with a magic user. This bond grants both the familiar and the mage enhanced powers and abilities. They're not just summoned; they're connected to the magician's soul, making the relationship symbiotic."

Cadmus nodded approvingly. "Exactly. And today, we're going to learn how to summon and establish this connection. It's a delicate process, requiring empathic energies and an understanding of oneself. Suffice to say, you'd need that anyway if you are going to care for another creature."

"Okay, so what's with the bells?" Bennie asked.

"You should already know the answer. What are bells used for?"

"Announcing intention, summoning, and banishing," Bennie said simply.

Cadmus gave the universal sign for 'right on the nose.' "But before you do that, you need to have a meditative moment and think deeply on what you want, need, and are willing to give to your magical companion. It took me a long while to figure all that out the first time I did this spell."

"Do you even have a familiar? I've never seen you with a pet aside from Cujo and Alter on occasion," Karnus chided.

"Alter isn't... Karnus, shut up," Cadmus retorted. "As for my familiar, you've already met on multiple occasions." He snapped his fingers, and two bodyguards appeared, one in a white suit and the other in black. They hardly spoke a word, but Cadmus turned and gave them a nod. In response, they turned to mist, taking the form of wolves, one black and one white.

"Holy!" Bennie exclaimed, taking a step back, while Syliph did the same in response to the appearance of the bodyguard wolves.

"Oh, relax," Cadmus snapped, and the wolves disappeared. "Now, after your meditations, ring the bell once and say 'Familiares invenire.' Make your intentions known to the universe. Who you are and what you're looking for, about as easy as making a Tinder profile. If you did it right, you'll have a familiar by the end of the week. If not, you can try again."

@passimtemere

[mymarifae]

ok so deltarune is game and probably won’t ever get to summer but like imagine just for a moment- like what would they do, that would be like there first time leaving ralsei and the others for like a quite a bit amount of time like how would ralsei handle that

and like yeah kris and susie could probably just like ‘break‘ in with toriels keys but still just the thought of it

oh, like. what will happen to castle town once summer vacation hits?

hm. okay so first we have to assume that castle town will like, remain. once the story is all said and done.

which! is exactly what i've been doing because the other possibilities make me sad <333333 blah blah blah the rest of deltarune happens literally who cares about any of that. and castle town stays intact in that random school closet and it's still like. just the kids' secret no one else in hometown knows about it. somehow. whatever magic amirite?

i think there's a discussion to be had, because as far as i can tell, kris and their classmates are either juniors or seniors. i'm leaning towards juniors. college is very close. everyone's going to start moving away, into distant city dorms - they're going to start working; they're going to start laying the foundations for the rest of their lives.

ralsei has just gained these friends, but... they've got their own lives to pursue now, you know? hometown is much too small for their big souls. i do think the main 4 - kris, susie, noelle, and berdly - will all eventually return to and choose to stay in hometown, or very nearby if nothing else, but like.... they've gotta get out there! they need to experience the larger aspects of the real world; they can't stay tethered to the fantasy realm in the old supply closet at their old high school

this is going to be one of their biggest lessons in canon as well, not just my made-up version that i'm writing to keep myself sane while i wait for the rest of the game, i'm sure. it's not going to be an easy one.

but i think it's a challenge that they'll be ready to face at the end of it all. it's a little more difficult because it's not really like they can do discord calls with ralsei and lancer in the dark world, but they all have a very special kind of connection, and it won't fade with time. there won't be frequent visits, but there will be visits. susie and noelle, who have been married for half a year btw, announce that they're going on vacation to idk, oregon, but really they're just spending 2 weeks in castle town. they have rooms there after all~

(and as far as getting inside goes, yeah just steal toriel's keys. or susie and kris are just like really excited at the prospect of physically breaking in somewhere so they go that route. and when they're even older, i've settled on susie becoming a teacher at hometown high so they Still have keys. and they don't have to steal them! [that's not as fun, though, is it...])

i think it's important for ralsei to learn that he has value on his own and he doesn't need his lightner friends to be like. a person. he's already a person. he's going to be just fine, whether it's summer vacation or it's everyone's first semester away at college.

[the-punslinger]

Critical Role Quotes and Memorable Moments - Campaign 2 (116/?)

Essek: "Maybe I should return to Eiselcross again, just keep to my station up there. There are people that rely on me, and if they do eventually come for me, who would I be to deny them? I... I am so, so greatly thankful that you've all shown compassion for me for what I've done, and for all the things you don't know I've done. I'm scared to think of what more I could have wrought had we not crossed paths. I convinced myself I'd be alone for so much of my life. It's hard to say goodbye when I don't feel alone anymore, but... I understand. I understand and accept... accept what I've done. Maybe I just need some time to think. And I do hope we cross paths again. Sincerely, it will be hard to keep you far from my mind." Jester: "Oh, you won't be able to. I'm going to send you a message every day." Essek: "I would..." Jester: "Don't worry, Essek." Essek: "No. I would honestly probably welcome it, even when I'm pooping." Caleb: "We might be busy for a while, but if we don't end up dead, you'll hear from us again soon." Essek: "I've literally seen you survive worse. What have you done? This world was so much easier when it was black and white." Beau: "But it's so much more beautiful in all the shades of colors."

Essek [takes a deep breath]: "Thank you, Mighty Nein. I could never return the favor for what you've done for me. Probably by ship. It's safer. Maybe spend some time in Uthodurn. I hear the cupcakes are quite good there." Jester: "Black moss cupcakes." Essek: "You had a friend there, right?" Beau: "Reani." Essek: "Reani." Beau: "She's a handful, but I think she'd do you good." Essek: "I think I learned how to handle handfuls." Beau: "Yeah." Jester: "Oh my gosh, you're going to look so good with a flower crown." Essek: "What?" Jester: "She makes great flower crowns." Yasha: "Well, hey, as someone who's been on a penance journey, don't take too long, because connection is what saves us." Essek: "Too long for what?" Yasha: "Beating yourself up over your sins." Essek: "I've a long life ahead of me if I'm clever enough. I hope the time comes."

Caleb: "I'll take you anywhere you want to go, Veth Brenatto. Where is home for you now?" Veth: "I think we're going to go back to Nicodranas." Caleb: "Can we visit you when we like?" Veth: "Always, yes." Caleb: "Because it's pretty easy for me now." Veth: "I know, you're very powerful, very smart." Caleb: "Wouldn't have been if it weren't for you." Veth: "Well. That's not true." Caleb: "We'll have to get that kid into some books soon, you and me, okay?" Veth: "Mm-hmm, yeah, he's got a lot of training to do. I'll try to teach him as much as I can, but he'll need magic lessons, too, so please come and teach." Caleb: "I hope that's not a joke." Veth: " No, it's not at all." Caleb: "I would like that very much." Beau: "You'd make a good teacher." Veth: "A what?" Beau: "Caleb would make a good teacher." Veth: "Well, yes. As his godfather, yes?" Caleb: "Let's just see if the Empire doesn't implode on us first, then we can see about that." Fjord: "Plus, there's an excellent fish market across the street." Yasha: "It's true." Yeza: "I've been there, it's quite good." Caleb: "Yeah, strong smell." Beau: "Great tacos."

[strayen-fx]

Doubtless

》 Lee Minho x Reader

》 Angst, Fluffy end

》 Pangs of jealousy could still hit an established relationship, or where Minho is a choreographer and Y/N can't help but feel jealous because of a certain idol Minho is teaching.

》 Wordcount: 2.5k

》 Warnings: mention of overwork, insecurity

》 a/n: I'm back, hi! hihi

°°°

Being in a relationship with Minho hasn't been the easiest thing, but for you, it has been the bestest decision you have ever made.

You were college sweethearts, both of you meeting at an audition for the school's official dance group. After graduating, Minho decided to join a famous dance studio as one of its choreographers while you chose to focus on your professional field.

Adulting didn't come easy, as the two of you were bombarded with busy schedules for almost every week on end. It hasn't been the easiest thing, but after some time, the both of you have learned to adjust and manage your time. You have also decided to move in together, because 1.) you wanted to spend as much of your free time with each other as possible, and 2.) let's be honest, rent is expensive af.

Despite that, it was still difficult for you to spend quality time together because of Minho's hectic and jam-packed sched. Even in weekends, he would be busy coming up with dance moves for the kpop groups assigned to him. Hence, you usually make up to this by visiting him in the studio and bringing him your homecooked meals. You would bring a portion for you as well so you could eat with him. This is something that he adored so much, it eventually became a regular routine for weekends.

That Saturday was no exception. Wearing your favorite casual clothes plus Minho's purple hoodie, you drove to the dance studio with packed lunch for the both of you. You greeted the other dancers you met in the building, and there you met Momo, another buddy in your college dance group.

"Y/nnieeee!!!" Momo said, approaching you into a tight hug. "I've missed you!"

You returned the hug and giggled. "We only met like last week though?"

"That is forever ago. You should just work with us here so I could always hang out with you," Momo complained.

"Once I get fired in my current job, I'll be sure to send you my resume."

"Should I use my connections to get you fired, then?"

You talked with Momo for a while, until she remembered that she left her students unsupervised and she was only supposed to get some water.

"Minho is in Studio E," Momo said. "He's assigned to teach a rookie girl group, my forte, while I'm assigned to a dorky and loud boy group. Where's justice in that?" She sighed deeply. "Anyway. I'll get going. Let's grab coffee some time!"

You waved and watched as Momo begrudgingly trudged towards Studio A. You laughed a bit to yourself before heading to the opposite direction.

When you peered through the door of Studio E, you noticed at least six ladies sitting on the floor, talking and fanning themselves. You knocked twice before opening the door. Few of the girls looked up and bowed awkwardly. They probably thought you were just a staff bringing Minho some food.

The man in question, however, failed to notice you. He was busy giving a one-on-one lesson to another girl, them being the only ones standing. It probably shouldn't have irked you so much, seeing that Minho is a choreographer and it is, indeed, his job to teach idols their choreography. However, being a dancer yourself and watching them there for a solid minute, you know that the girl was just goofing around and pretending not to understand the moves. She even laughed and slapped Minho's chest jokingly as if they were close friends. You couldn't see your boyfriend's reaction from where you stood, but what you witnessed was enough to dampen your mood.

You fake-coughed, causing Minho to finally notice you. His eyes lit up, and that was almost enough to rebrighten your mood. Almost, for you could still see the girl he was teaching earlier, with her eyebrows shot up like she was annoyed for the interference.

Minho jogged to where you stood and you gave him a quick peck on the lips. This took him by surprise--you weren't usually the type of person to show skinship when there are strangers around. This made Minho smile, though, thinking that you just missed him too much.

"Lunch break, everyone," Minho told the girls. He then took your hand and led you out of the room towards the staff's pantry.

When you got there, Minho excitedly opened the lunch you prepared, asking you about your day as he did so. You tried to act normal--afterall, you have no reason to be jealous, right? Plus, this is Minho you're talking about. You've known each other for years, he's not gonna dump you for an idol he just met.

Right?

"Baby?"

Your head shot up, realizing that Minho was talking to you. "Yeah?"

He chuckled. "What's wrong? Stunned by my visuals yet again?"

You rolled your eyes, used to his teasing antics. "Just tired, I guess. Eat your meal before it gets cold."

His gaze softened. He reached for your hand, squeezing it a bit. "I told you, you could take some rest during weekends. You don't have to force yourself to drive all the way here to bring me lunch. You took overtime last night, I'm sure you've been busy in the office."

You smiled at him, reaching out to squish his cheeks. "And I told you, bringing you lunch would never be tiring for me if it means that I could spend time with this lovely face."

Minho grinned. "I'm irresistible, I know."

You playfully pinched his cheek. "Just eat, you handsome creature."

You watch Minho as he ate, admiring how he looked food-deprived by the way he gobbled his meal. For the nth time in your long relationship, you wondered how you got so lucky to have someone like him. At the same time, you wondered how long you would be this lucky--wondered how long you would be able to watch him up close like this. You wondered: did you really deserve him? And what will happen if he realizes that, no, he doesn't want you after all?

"Uhh.. Min?"

"Ggnnmm?" he grumbled in a mouthful of food.

You stifled your laughter, finding the moment too cute to be destroyed by your depressing thoughts. "Have I ever told you that you look like a cat when you eat like that?"

°°°

It has been days since you visited Minho's studio. He was still teaching the girls you saw last weekend, due to the fact that "the choreo was too complicated" and a certain someone named Ahra was "finding certain parts difficult and needed to be trained personally by a professional choreographer." So of course, Minho can't say no. You visited once during the week, dropping off a change of clothes Minho forgot to bring, and you saw the girl again laughing and talking with Minho comfortably. Minho didn't seem annoyed. If anything, you felt like he was enjoying her company.

It was Friday when Minho came home and told you that he had to come with the girls to Gwangju where they would hold the music fest the following week.

"But why, though?" you asked Minho, genuinely confused. "You are a choreographer, not a manager."

"I know," Minho said. He looked tired, and part of you was feeling bad for questioning him like this. But you just can't help yourself--not after seeing that Ahra's body language towards your boyfriend. "But baby, their company pleaded for me to come with them to guide the group. They're rookies. They need as much help as they can."

A part of you understood. You wanted this relationship to be rational and matured. You promised to understand each other's line of work. So you just nodded, trying your best not to show your sadness... disappointment? Jealousy? All of the above?

°°°

Weekend came. You told Minho you were going to hangout with Momo for lunch. It was one reason, but the other main reason was that you didn't want to see Ahra flirting with your man right in front of you.

Momo chose a Japanese restaurant for your weekend hangout, saying she missed the dishes she had back home. Right after you've placed your order, your friend made a show of placing her elbows on the table with her chin on her fingers, looking straight into your eyes. "Now spill the tea."

You chuckled. "What?"

"While I know that you value our friendship more than most of everything else, I know that you won't ditch Minho for a simple lunch opportunity. Now spill."

"Uhh... maybe I'm making time with you because you're gonna be away for three days in Gwangju?"

"Oh, that music fest? I'm not coming with them though," she said, casually sipping water. "I have whipped my group into magnificent perfection, they don't need me to tag along. Plus, what would I do there? Chaperone their asses on the bus? Teach them the choreo while they're sightseeing? Please."

You sighed. Yeah, it doesn't make sense for an outsourced choreographer to tag along an idol group. They have their own trainors. And the trip was for three days to allow the idols some time for broadcasted sightseeing. They won't have time for heavy dance practices.

"But Minho is coming with the group assigned to him," you mentioned.

Momo almost choked on her mineral water. "What? Why? And why haven't I heard of this?"

Oh.

You shrugged. "Maybe my boyfriend is onto something--someone--else."

Momo's gaze softened. "Y/n..."

"I mean, the way that Ahra flirted with him? I wouldn't be surprised."

"C'mon y/nnie, do you really think Min would cheat on you? After, what, your five-year relationship?"

"When faced with a beautiful idol, why not?" Your eyes were starting to get watery. You weren't much of an emotional person, but right at that moment, you just wanted to bawl your eyes out. "I mean, Ahra is beautiful, right? You've seen her. Tall, flawless, gorgeous. And talented, too. I've searched about her group, and turns out she's the main vocal." You pointed at yourself. "And what do we have here?"

"YA! Don't you ever look down on yourself like that!" Momo said, slapping the table. "Have you forgotten that you're the main dancer of our dance group? That you were scouted by the leading agencies and you turned them all down? That if you decided not to focus on your academics, you would have been one of the leading dancers in the whole country? Y/N!"

"But--"

"I'M NOT YET DONE. And even without considering those, do you really think Minho is only looking at a person's outward appearance? Do you really think that, y/n?"

"No..." you whispered. "Momo, I understand now, please tone your voice down a little."

Momo discreetly looked around and noticed a few people staring. She sighed, composed herself, and spoke in a calmer voice, "Do you remember when Minho courted you? He was so shy, he can't even look you in the eyes without turning beet red. Literally the entire dance group had to help him express his feelings for you."

You smiled at the memory, remembering a slightly younger Minho flushing red while holding out a bunch of flowers.

"And even months prior to that. He was so dense, his hyungs in the group literally had to smack his head for him to realize that he likes you, even when the entire campus could already notice his heart-shaped eyes whenever he's with you." Momo sighed. "My point is, do you really think a guy like Minho could cheat on you?"

You reminisced about all those years you have been together. Minho is a sweet, understanding person. He sees beauty in everything around him. He sees beauty in you even when you yourself couldn't see it. He was there through the happy and ugly times, and he never once let go of your hand. He has been patient with you through everything. He is the best man you have ever met.

Momo sighed again for the umpteenth time that day. "The biggest flaw on him though is that he's way, waaaay too dense. Remember that one time before you got together, a girl was obviously making a move on him and he didn't even know until the girl walked out calling him a jerk."

You laughed at that. "He's flirty at times but he's too numb when he's on the receiving end."

The two of you laughed at that.

°°°

Later that day, Momo texted you. She checked in with the studio staff and apparently, Minho tagging along to the music fest was a special request by the higher ups of the girls' agencies, and it was a sort of rushed request. You thanked her for the information, mentally punching yourself for ever doubting Minho like that.

The following day was Minho's trip to Gwangju. You couldn't drive him to the station due to an urgent meeting, so you just gave him a hasty farewell kiss on the lips while he was preparing his breakfast. He just smiled up at you without saying a word. That small gesture made your heart clench, feeling guilty for doubting him and not spending time with him the day prior. You made a mental note to welcome him properly upon his return.

But for now, you have to survive those three incoming days alone in your apartment.

The whole day, you couldn't concentrate at work. You kept on worrying if Minho had arrived safely in his destination, if he had eaten enough, if he was warm and hydrated enough. When you asked him all these through text, he only replied with a short "don't worry too much 💝" You didn't know what to feel about it. He certainly felt that something was off, you thought. He was probably mad at me.

When you got home, a plastic of takeout on one hand and a heavy burden on your chest, you were prepared to be welcomed by the saddening darkness and silence of the night. But instead, what welcomed you was a candle-lit dining table filled with all your favorite food, complete with wine plus smooth music.

Minho stepped out from your shared room, a bouquet of roses in hand, smiling shyly while scratching his neck.

"This isn't really my thing..." he whispered.

Meanwhile you stood there, frozen in place, your jaw slack. "W-why... Min... but you're supposed to be...?"

Minho laughed. "I asked Felix to take my place. He gladly accepted." He walked closer to you, handing you the roses. "Did you really think I wouldn't notice if my one and only jealous baby has been acting weirdly?"

Your eyes widened. You dropped your gaze to the floor, embarrassed. "I'm sorry."

"Why are you sorry?" Minho stepped closer, caging you in a hug. "I'm the one who should be sorry for making you feel like that. I should never allow you to feel like you're lacking in any way. I should never give you a reason to doubt my love for you."

"But there was no reason. I was just reaching when I assumed you--"

"Sshh." Minho tightened the hug and kissed the top of your head. The two of you stayed like that for a while, swaying gently with the soft music.

"I love you, y/n. Longer than forever, I'm yours."

"I love you, too, Minho. I will love you longer than forever."

°°°

[marshmallowprotection]

Hi, I'm very sorry for rambling here, but I don't have anyone else who I can share this with, and I don't know what do. So, I'm demisexual and because of that I'm always the odd one out. Everyone around me are in relationships and it didn't really bother me before, but... Today, my best friend confessed to me, that she's in love with this guy. I thought I was in such a shock since I didn't expect this. But... I just now realized that I love her. I questioned myself about that for a long time, but I always brushed that off, since I knew she wasn't interested in a relationship, and she probably wouldn't accept me in that way anyways. And now... I'm just crushed. It's not the first time I got my heart broken, but it never hurt like that. I smiled and supported her the best I could, cause I don't want to make her feel bad because of me and my feelings, but... She told me how she fell for him ever since they first talked, and that... I had to smile and lie that I needed to get home quickly, because I was about to break and cry. Just hearing her say that... It hurt. A lot. She fell for him so quickly, while I was always by her side for so many years. That means she never even considered me in that way. I thought-

God. Everyone thought that we were dating. We never tried to actively deny it, since we didn't really mind. I loved it. It's like... I never thought that something like that would happen. I stupidly believed that we were always going to be together and one day, maybe, she will see something in me.

Again, I am so very sorry for bothering you like this. I hate being this weak and whiney, but I've been crying for a few hours now and I don't know what to do. I need some advice.

But now... I don't want to tell her this. But it hurts. We never lied to each other. I hate doing this to her. But I don't know what to do. We both are bi, and my family is... I don't live with them anymore, and that's how I like it.

I told her that I'm happy for her, and that I will always support her, but... It feels like such a huge lie. I'm selfish. I hate feeling like this. I should be happy for her, I really should. He's a great guy and she needs more caring people in her life. But I just... Can't. I feel miserable and selfish. I want her to somehow read my mind and tell me that she loves me too. But... That won't happen.

Oh god, I've been rambling here way too much. I'm sorry.

I just... I don't know what to do. I really need some advice.

I think it's important to cut yourself some slack. Romance isn't easy and it takes time to build. You need to find a connection that feels right to you, and I have to say that no matter how much it hurts, you'll be doing the right thing by supporting your friend and telling her to try to follow her heart.

Loving someone means letting them go if it means that they'll be happier without you at the end of the day. It's a truth that hurts a lot, and I don't know how to soften that blow, but it's just like that. If you love somebody, let them go to be happy if it means they can't be with you.

I know that it really hurts. I'm sorry that it does, but I hope you know that this isn't the last time you'll love someone. It just feels so fresh right now because you realized how you felt a little too late, and that's okay. You never know how things would've worked out before, take this as a lesson in your feelings and think about how you felt going into this and being in it, and it will help you learn more about how you feel the romance with others.

It can help you in the future.

But, for now, it's okay to be sad and to grieve, but remember, you love her, and you want to see her smile. It's not selfish to feel your heart breaking but... you want to see her sparkle and shine, even if it's not by your side. It's not whiny. It's not childish. Heartbreak hurts like a mother fucker, so cry, grieve, and relax. You're entitled to the pain.

Just remember that you will love again and you'll feel happy with someone that loves you the way you love them.