#oh i’m bigly whining in here be warned. i am so tired though.

[speedlimit15]

me being in my room is like. trying to avoid being beholden to others as much as humanly possible and yet i still cannot put down my phone because if i miss an important text or god forbid an important phone call (which i only ever answer from 3 people anyway) i will feel the same guilt as if i killed someone. and also my sister texts me like this when we’re in a talking period

and my phone will go off 50-60 times in the span of ten minutes and she notices and gets sad/mad/lonely to the point of despair if i put it on do not disturb.

so basically i can’t rest or focus on anything else because i am expected to be always Available and all ten animals want my attention all day especially seabass who i am allergic to and who wants to hump me all the time and tears up the carpet and shits in judy’s room if i close the door so he can’t get in. and i don’t have my own car during the day so i can’t go anywhere public transport fucking sucks here it’s too cold and far to walk anywhere and basically i want to throw my phone into the ocean

can’t even make a fucking post it’s constant I NEED TO LIVE IN A CAVE WHERE NOBODY CAN FIND ME