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Survey #459

“i wanted you to know that i love the way you laugh  /  i wanna hold you high and steal your pain away”

Does the person you like have any flaws? He's never seemed very expressive of what he feels. Has anyone ever given you a ring? Why? Yes. Because it was our anniversary and he wanted to, ig. If you ruled your own country, what type of government would it have? I'm not educated enough to answer this. Creation theory, Evolution or the Big Bang theory? I really don't know what I believe about the origins of the universe, but I do believe in evolution. Describe one of your most emotional farewells. The last time I saw Jason and we talked for a long time, and I finally got my closure. It was all so heavy. It started so stiffly, but it ended with us just chatting and smiling and, to my absolute shock, a hug from him. I'm getting emotional so NEXT QUESTION. What was your last serious conversation about? I was reassuring and comforting Sara about some stuff. Is there a city that you have a particular fondness for? If so, what city is it and why? No. Are there any gnomes in your yard? No. When was the last time you were stung by a bee? What kind was it? Years ago. A bumblebee. Are you gonna buy lottery tickets when you’re old enough? I am old enough, and no. The odds are way, way too small, and I don't really dabble in addictive behavior. Have you ever been into a real cave? No. :( That's a life goal, though. Have you ever posted mean comments on YouTube? I know I did once as a kid. It was regarding Meerkat Manor and I thought it was really disrespectful to Flower just because of the music chosen lmao. The drama. What color is your digital camera, if you have one? Black. If you had to spend one day in any movie storyline, which one would it be? Alice in Wonderland, I suppose? Name the strangest game you’ve ever played (video game or real game): Oh man, I've played waaaaay too many video games. I suppose Silent Hill with how confused it left me at first. Its concept is definitely wild. Parasite Eve is high on the list, too. In your opinion, what is the saddest movie you’ve ever seen? Boy in the Striped Pajamas destroys me. What is the best song to make out to? I could answer this but I'm not gonna lmfao Is there anyone right now that you are simply/overly infatuated with? story of my life ayyyyeeeee Who was the last person to play with your hair? Are they cute? Not a clue. Who was the last person close to you that died? Did you cry? Jason's mom. I sobbed on-and-off for days. Do you consider yourself a healthy person? Physically and mentally? No, in either way. Do you know anyone who owns a boat? My dad does. I'm sure others, too, with how popular fishing out on a boat is here. Do you know anyone who uses medical marijuana? I don't know. Even for medicinal purposes, it's not legal here. Do you know anyone who’s died in childbirth? No. What did you do for your 21st birthday? I was in the psych hospital, so... lmao. Therapy, reading, and coloring. Lots of reading and coloring. Because they did NOT fill your schedule enough there. We only had two group therapy sessions a day, and the rest was just... blankness. If dinosaurs could be tamed, would you want one as a pet? I know I'd be one of the dumb ones that absolutely wanted a tiny raptor, lol. Do you own more than one copy or edition of a book? No. If you could see any musical on Broadway right now, what would it be? Not interested. Do you eat soup when you’re sick? I don't like soup. If you read, which book or series did you enjoy most as a child? My first real series that I read religiously was Hank the Cowdog. Then it was Warriors. Do you buy Halloween candy when it’s on sale after the holiday? No. I really don't need candy available to me. Do you agree with the “they’re just being kids” excuse? It depends on what they're doing. In a lot of cases, no. Do you ever watch talk shows? No. Do you have a/any hero(s)? Mark Fischbach, Steve Irwin, my mom... Have you told your parents all of your secrets from when you were a teen? No. Though Mom has playfully once told me that she knows a lot of things I don't think she does, and that's terrifying lmao. You’re getting married. Who’s your maid of honor and best man? M.o.H.: Mom or Sara. Best man isn't my choice. Would you rather get highlights or dye your whole head? DYE IT ALLLLLLL. Are you wearing anything of any sentimental value? Describe? My friendship ring w/ Sara. It has a heart carved on the outside and "bitch" engraved inside so no one can see when you have it on, lol. She has one that says "jerk." It's a Supernatural reference. Who challenges you the most? In what way? My therapist and psychiatrist. They just help ensure I pursue my goals and give me little nudges forward to reassure me. Who seems to hold you back? In what way? PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT ME. I listen to my anxiety WAY too much. What was the last opportunity that you passed up, and why? Going up to Lake Gaston w/ Mom to visit Ash and her fam. They go there all the time, and it's a real nice place. I just didn't want to go because of the heat. Should there be an application process for having children? Hunny, that would not stop people from fuckin lmfao Name one thing that you think defines you as a person? m e e r k a t s What is a fear you have about living on your own? That depression would get the better of me and I'd neglect taking good care of my house. One of the many reasons I'll never live alone. Not at all saying I'd leave the responsibilities to my partner, but they'd be motivation for me to get stuff done. What’s the worst name your mom has ever called you? I don't know. Nothing that bad. What’s your stance on spooning? It helps me feel safe and loved and alsdkfjalwe I just love cuddling in all sorts lmao What’s your most recent obsession? Violet Orlandi & Melodicka Bros' cover of "Somebody That I Used to Know." Have you ever been scammed? Ha ha, yes. I once wanted to get Jason a Joker and Harley Quinn pillow from deviantART; talked to the artist, paid 'em, never got it. :^) Have you ever fostered an animal? No. I would get WAY too attached to foster. I wouldn't be able to give them up without breaking down, probs. Do you know anyone who acts way younger than what they are? I'm sure I do, but no one is coming to mind atm. Would you say you’re a pretty independent person? God no. Does the last song you listened to, remind you of someone? JASON. Do you currently want a new computer? Yes, actually. I want a desktop PC for better gaming quality, honestly. Also, the "escape" key doesn't work on this laptop, one key is missing so I have to hit the sensor JUST right, and it restarts randomly sometimes. I want a PC mainly because I want to get out of the habit of being on my laptop in bed all damn day. How would your parents react if you got a tattoo? I already have like six or seven, so they wouldn't be surprised. Is there anyone you can picture yourself being with forever right now? Maybe. Who is your truest friend? Sara. What is the strangest thing you’ve ever seen outside of your house? THIS house? Idk. Nothing that I'd consider odd. What bug frightens you most? STAG BEETLES lkadjslkfja;lwekjawl;kejrlawer Who is your oldest friend? That would be Sam, and he's in his mid-30s. How long have you known them? Many years. We met via WoW, which I've been playing since '14. I don't really remember how far into it we met, though. Where are they right now? lol I wouldn't know, he's all the way in Jersey. Plus we haven't talked in a while. Have you ever dated a friend of one of your siblings? God no, that would be so weird. What is the best gift someone can give you? An ear to listen without it feeling like a chore to them. Have you ever dated someone who had a child? No. I don't think I could do it. What is the last movie that made you cry? The The Lion King remake made me tear up. Have you ever played in a waterfall? No. Ugh, that sounds like a blast. In your life who has meant the most to you? Let's not get into this. What has been your biggest failure in life? Letting depression and my other conditions take away my identity, becoming my new identity. Do you trust yourself? No. I second-guess EVERYTHING and never know what I should listen to: my heart, my head, my gut... or which voice is what. Would you ever consider getting an abortion, under any circumstances? Yes. What was the last bug you killed? Some kind in the bathroom. Idk what it was. Just a little thing that sort of resembled an earwig, but not completely. Do you prefer profile pictures by yourself of with someone else? By myself, since it's my page. Do you know anyone who has written a book? I don't think so? Do you drink milk/juice from the carton if no one is around? Ew, no. I live with another person, and even if I didn't, what if I had guests? Has anyone ever told you they liked you in a realllly sweet way? Maybe? Has a member of the opposite sex ever given you jewlery? Jason has. Do you find sleeping in cars easy? NOOOOOOOOOO. I'm too scared to let my eyes close and not see what's going on on the road. Has a boyfriend’s/girlfriend’s parents ever gotten mad at you? Why? I don't believe so, no. What is the funniest thing a child has ever said to you. Definitely something my niece has said, but idr what it was. What’s been on your mind lately? Y'all know, lol. Do you feel like you need to get something off your chest? No. Sara was recently there for that. ♥ How would you react if someone told you they had feelings for you? Be very very excited if it was from a certain person.

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“You’re gonna get us in trouble...again.”

Speedpaint here 

and here is this week’s short story: 

Glory was beginning to wish that he’d stayed home after all. When Papa had offered to take him with her he’d thought they’d be doing something exciting. Instead, they’re standing around talking.  If he’d wanted to stand around and listen to grown-ups talk he could go anywhere.

Instead, he’s in the healing ward which is even worse than the normal places grown-ups stand around and talk in because he has to be quiet in the healing ward. He tugs on Papa’s hand, hoping that he’ll take the hint and quit talking. He doesn’t, he just lets go of Glory’s hand and pats him on the head.

Glory scowls at her and sighs. Papa keeps talking. He sighs louder. The healer he’s talking to notices and smiles at him. “Why don’t you go see if Clemency is done with Honor’s lesson for today?”

Glory doesn’t know who Honor’s supposed to be but anything would be better than standing here. The healer points him down the hall and to an open doorway. The room is filled with strings of drying herbs and jars of medicine. Glory wrinkles his nose at the smell.

To his surprise, there’s another boy in the room around his age. He’s following another healer around as she shows him the difference between two leaves that look pretty much the same to Glory. The healer looks up when Glory steps into the room, “hello,” she says, sounding a little bit confused. “Can I help you?”

Glory hesitates for a second, “one of the healers told me to see if Honor was done with his lesson for today?”

The healer’s face clears. “You must be Unity’s boy, is your father still talking to Peace isn’t he?”

Glory nods, scowling a little.

The healer smiles softly, “well if Honor would like to go play then he’s welcome to.” She looks down at the boy and he smiles brightly up at her.

“Can I?” he asks, voice eager.

“Run along,” the healer says, “but quietly.”

“We will,” Honor and Glory reply in unison, grinning eagerly at each other.

They dart out of the herb room and down the hall. Glory sneezes as the smell leaves his nose. “I don’t know how you can stand that stuff.”

“You get used to it,” Honor replies with a shrug. “What are you doing in the healing ward?” He takes a step back, “you’re not sick are you?”

Glory shakes his head. “No, my Papa is talking to someone.”

“Oh,” Honor says, a little quieter. “My Papa is sick.” He brightens quickly, “I’m learning to be a healer though and so I’ll be able to make him better. I’ve read a ton of books.” He puffs his chest out proudly, wings flaring a bit.

“Being a healer is boring.” Glory tells him. “My Papa is a soldier and I’m gonna be one too. He protects the queen. And before her, he protected the king.”

Honor scowls at him. “My Papa is a soldier too, but he says that Healers are the ones who fight the real battles. Soldiers only fight White-Wings but Healers fight tons of different stuff.”

Glory frowns at him but he can’t really think of an argument and he doesn’t want to fight with Honor because if he does then he’ll have to go stand with Papa while he talks and he’ll be bored all over again. “Do you want to play something?” He asks instead.

Honor thinks for a moment, eyeing Glory suspiciously. “Are you a tattletale?”

Glory’s wings bristle. “No, I’m not.”

Honor looks at him for a minute more, eyes squinted. “Are you sure?”

“I haven’t tattled once.” Glory insists.

That convinces Honor and he nods. “Then let’s go on an adventure.”

“An adventure?”

“I know a way out of the city,” Honor says proudly, “My mama took me once. We can go out there and find herbs like a real healer.”

“But I want to be a soldier.”

“You can guard me,” Honor says, “like a real soldier.”

“Alright.”

Honor smiles and takes his hand and they dart out of the healing ward. No one takes notice of them as they race through the city. Glory loses track of where they are at some point, but Honor seems to know where he’s going so Glory just holds his hand tighter.

Then they’re in the forest. Its louder than Glory thought it would be. Leaves rustle and animals and bugs make noises to each other. It's darker too, the sun is blocked by all the plants and only makes it to the ground in little patches.

“Come on,” Honor says, tugging his hand. “I see some stuff over here.”

Glory follows after him, but he’s suddenly feeling a tiny little bit less brave. “Maybe we should stay close to here,” he says, “so we can find our way back.”

“It’ll be okay,” Honor says, “If we need to go back we can just retrace our steps! I know lots of stuff about the forest, I’ve read three books on it.”

“Three?” Glory asks, impressed.

“Yeah, and they didn’t even have that many pictures.” Honor brags.

“Wow,” Glory whispers to himself.

“Yeah, so I know what I’m doing.” Honor takes his hand again and tugs him deeper into the trees. As they walk, Honor points out plants to him, “that one’s a burrower root, you can eat them. And that’s one’s...uh...that one’s just a plant I think.”

“What’s this one?” Glory asks, pointing to a plant with red flowers about as tall as his knee.

“That’s a flower.”

“But what kind of flower?”

Honor takes a step closer and perks up once he sees the leaves. “That’s fever-balm, you chew it up and it makes your fever go away.”

“We should get some for your Papa,” Glory says, reaching out for a stem.

Honor smacks his hand away. “You gotta be careful when you pick herbs,” he says, “if you’re too rough with them then you can mess them up.”

“That sounds dumb.” Glory frowns.

“Its what Clemency told me,” Honor says with a scowl. “And I’m the one who’s gonna be a healer so you’ve gotta listen to me.”

“No, I don’t.” Glory argues. “Soldiers don’t have to listen to anyone but the queen.”

“Do to! Papa says that Healers get to tell soldiers what to do all the time and they have to do it. He always listens when healers tell him what to do.”

Glory glares at him, but Honor isn’t paying attention.

He’s already bending down next to the flower and gently plucking individual leaves off of the plant. “See?” he says, “you just gotta take the leaves off so the plant can grow more.” he gives Glory the first handful and goes back for more.

“They make my skin tickle,” Glory says after a moment.

“They’re supposed to.” Honor says, “that’s probably the medicine.”

Glory rubs one of the leaves up and down his arm, laughing at the trail of tingles that follow it. “I wanna be a healer.” He decides. “This is fun. “

Honor wrinkles his nose, “no you don’t. It's mostly boring. This is the fun part.”

“Well, I just want to do this part then.”

“That’s not fair.” Honor tells him, standing up. He has a handful of leaves too and the plant looks a little bare. “We should leave the rest so the plant can recover.”

Glory nods. “Should we head back then?”

“Yeah.”

Glory turns and looks for the clearing they came from. All of the plants look the same. Beside him, Honor is very quiet. Glory glances at him and sees that Honor is looking at him. “Do you know the way back?” Glory asks in a whisper.

“Yes!” Honor says, sounding insulted. “Its just...this...way?” he looks at Glory.

“Is it?” Glory asks.

“Well, maybe its this way,” Honor points in the opposite direction. Glory drifts a step closer to him so that their wings brush. Suddenly the forest seems impossibly big.

“We should just pick a direction and go.” Honor says. “We’ll find it eventually.”

“No, we should stay here.” Glory argues. “Someone’s gonna come looking for us and it’ll be easier if we stay in one spot.”  

“But if someone finds us we’re gonna get in trouble,” Honor whines.

“Being in trouble is better than being lost.”

Honor doesn’t look all that convinced, but before he can argue there’s a familiar shout. “Glory! Honor!”

“Mama!” Glory calls back, “we got lost!”

A second later both of his parents come through the wall of leaves along with a woman that must be Honor’s mother. Glory’s parents sweep him up into their arms and crush him. “Never scare me like that again,” Mama whispers to his hair.

Glory feels tears burning in his eyes and he buries his face in her neck. “I’m sorry,” He sobs. “We were just getting herbs for Honor’s papa.”  He holds up his handful of leaves to show her. They’re a little bit crushed now but they’re mostly okay.

“Its Fever-Balm,” Honor says, sounding a little tearful himself.

His mother gingerly takes a leaf from him, “Oh darling no, it's not,” she sighs. “Let’s get the both of you back to the healing ward.”

***

“I think I’m gonna be a soldier again.” Glory says as Clemency wraps his hands with bandages and ointment. The tingles have faded and now his hands are red and itchy and there are spots on his arms where he rubbed the leaves.

“Don’t scratch,” Clemency reminds him, putting balm on the spots.

Honor is quiet until all the grown-ups have stepped away to talk and then he leans over and promises in a whisper. “Next time I’ll bring my plant book.”

“Next time?”

“My mama says the only way to learn is to keep going after you make a mistake,” Honor says.

Glory thinks about it for a minute. “Next time I’ll bring some yarn too, so we can leave a better trail.”

“You’re a good friend.” Honor says, leaning his forehead against Glory’s. “We’re gonna be best friends.”

“Forever?” Glory asks.

“Forever.” Honor agrees.

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