#oh god im so fuckin crazy over thus

[kyotemeru-arts]

[softstraykidsimagines]

Boyfriend!Hyunjin

A/N: SHE PROTECC

SHE ATTACC

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY

SHE BACC

HI GUYS!!! I’m so happy to be posting again i cry :,)  i hope you enjoy!!!! i;ll be updating as much as i can without rushing too much :D

MASTERLIST

Prepare your wigs peeps

This is gonna make me swerve

I mean

cmon it’s Hyunjin

Let’s do this!

Prince Hyunjin

Is actually smooth af with his crush

He'll complement you whenever he gets the chance

Or gives you food

Basically your knight in shining armor

Ye, that’s not what actually happens

He's smiling like an idiot and about collapse when he’s with you because HE'S FREAKING OUT OK

So freaking nervous his heartbeat is always up when he’s with you

You sometimes think he’s about to have a heart attack and you’re not stupid you know why lmao

Same for when he confesses

At first he’s pretty calm about it

Just casually asked if you wanted to see a movie with him some time

“Like... a-as more than friends?”

You'd kinda expected it so you weren't too shocked when he asked you

So you said yes

Duh

And he does a double take

"Wait.... Are you serious? You want to?"

"Well yeah?"

"WHAT WHY"

Was good with flirting but didn't actually think you'd go out with him smh

Now every minute he just contemplates the fact that he has you

And he still can't believe it

Like shit dude

He’s with the y/n

You never feel unloved when you're with him

He loves going for long walks, just to talk and relax

Why does it sound like he's a dog here lmao

Will always take as many pictures of you as his phone storage will allow, his camera roll is stuffed with pics of you

Will insist on going to the park for a picnic, he just loves you and the sunshine

He loves to quietly slide your hand into his

But he always ends up giggling because he’s so giddy about being with you

Has to take a moment to charge up his courage before giving you a quick kiss on the cheek

He then goes an unreal shade of scarlet as he covers his face, muttering that he ‘can’t believe that he actually did it’! 

It takes him a while to finally gather up the courage to properly kiss you

Like.... a very long time

You were starting to get worried that he didn’t actually like you

Maybe he was just too nervous to tell you that it wasn’t working for him

buT NOPE

On one certain date, Hyunjin had prepared a cute little dinner on the practice room floor

He was so apologetic about the poor setting, but finally had stopped saying sorry when you’d told him for the 2376129th time that you were having fun

At some point, he just went uber silent, watching you not in a creepy way

You eventually noticed, and just stared back

“What?”

He didn’t say anything, but his eyes did widen a wee bit

“What are you lookin at, you’re sorta scaring m-”

He cut you off and just kissed you

BOI YOU WERE SO SHOCKED

Afterwards you both just stared at each other

And then Hyunjin goes all red

“I’m sorry I didn’t mean to do that I’m sorry that was stupid you can slap me if you want!!!!”

“Bruh why would I want to slap you?!”

“You don’t hate me?”

facepalms for days

You meet the other boys only a few minutes later

Go figure

You’re talking casually, the embarrassment from the kiss wearing off

They all come stampeding into the practice room making an ungodly racket

And all go quiet when they realize what they’ve done

Changbin, bless him, tries to reduce the awful level of awkwardness: “*cough* uh hey, Hyunjin.... This must be y/n right?” He waves at you. “We’ve heard a lot about you, Hyunjin never stops talking about you”

He misses the death glare Hyunjin shoots him

Then Jisung

Freakin Jisung, man

Waltzes up: “Hyunjin’s cheeks are really pink”. He gives a cheeky smile. “You didn’t kiss did you?”

The room goes as quiet as a tomb

“OH SHIT YOU DIDN’T ACTUALLY KISS DID YOU????”

Of course Hyunjin completely loses his shit at the sight of you turning a deep red. “GODDAMMIT JISUNG STFU”

Ye your first meeting with SKZ wasn’t the best

But you all bonded rather quickly after

And Jisung buys you little snacks sometimes as an apology for your first awkward meeting

OH GOD THE BOYS ADORE YOU

If you’re ever sick, they always get snacks for Hyunjin to give you

And if you’re really under the weather, they’ll cover for Hyunjin so that he can stay with you and take care of you.

He wraps you in blankets

YOU ARE NOW A BURRITO

And tries to make soup for you

We know what cooking!Hyunjin leads to

You’re chilling on the couch and you suddenly hear a high-pitched scream

You’re up and sprinting to the kitchen at the speed of light still wrapped in a burrito

To find him fanning at a smoking pot

“WHAT THE FUCK HYUNJIN YOU JUST NEED TO HEAT IT UP HOW DID YOU START A MINI FIRE?”

You’re home doesn’t burn down thank goodness

And you end up heating some soup for yourself while Hyunjin watches

And it’s! hilarious! when he’s sick!

He becomes a little ten-year-old istg

But in a really cute way

He doesn’t ask for anything: food, to watch TV etc

Nah he just wants cuddles

The whole damn day

So while you’re struggling to keep a mask on and not getting sneezed on, this idiot is smiling like a puppy if puppies could smile, clinging onto you like a love-filled leach did that sound weird? i think that sounded really weird

i want this tattooed on my face thx

Now idk what this dude is afraid of

Something tells me one big fear would be to lose Stray Kids and the people he loves

And so I think he’d get kinda nervous when you both see less of each other and when he gets busier

You can’t talk as much because of his crazy schedule and with lack of sleep, he starts getting more irritated easier during the little intervals of time you get to see each other

At some point he might snap at you, maybe for no reason at all, and you’ll snap back indignantly

Yeah you love him but you’re not taking any attitude

If things get really bad, he just shakes his head, saying he needs some air

You’ll both give yourselves some space, but eventually Hyunjin becomes terrified that you’re too angry with him to talk again

So he goes to find you and talk

You both hug it out and decide to spent the rest of the day together for more quality time

And it’s totally worth Hyunjin getting an earful from Chan the next day

OK back to fluff quickly quickly

On the days Hyunjin goes somewhere, you sometimes join him in the car ride, tho you’re always super careful to never show your face when he gets out

Gotta stay hidden yknow?

You’ll both send cute little texts throughout the day and OOF just couple goals

You: hey check this out, this is me 2 u *sends heart meme*

Jiiniie<3: oh yeah? well this is me @ u! *sends heart meme with more hearts*

You: boi dont start smth u cant win!

And thus begins the heart meme wars

r they even called heart memes idk

i want this tattooed on my face pt2

We’ve already established that Hyunjin can’t cook for love or money

So if he even steps foot in the dorms’ kitchen

You bet that at least two other of his hyungs will follow for pure supervision

And he is not, under any circumstances, allowed to cook something by himself

And you’re grateful that your safety and world peace had been assured by this rule

Although, you’re allowed to cook together as long as you watch what he’s doing

If anything at all goes wrong, the blame is pinned on you

So it’s natural for you to treat these cooking projects as once-in-a-while occasions

Now when you ask about meeting his parents

Holy Hell

Stutters, clammy hands, flitting eyes, you name it

Hyunjin is so frickin nervous about you meeting his parents oof

You don’t understand why, like hey, how bad could it be right?

But pretty soon you get why Jinnie was nervous

His parents aren’t that trusting within the first hour of knowing you

You guess it might be because of poor past experiences?

Maybe Hyunjin had been judged or dated once too many times just for his looks?

The thought is enough to make you swear by all you know to always treat him like a treasure

You also make a mental note to ask him sometime

Eventually, his parents realize you have pure intentions and they become so much kinder and warmer

They let you know how welcome you are to visit whenever you want, they offer to send you off with some homemade cookies...

And Hyunjin gets so emotional at the beautiful site in front of him that he bursts into tears

Which causes you and his parents to tease and hug him

if you’re thick, let’s just be clear that im making a statement on how you should NOT judge Jinnie purely because he’s good looking, appreciate his talent!

Now, Hyunjin is kinda tall compared to the rest of SKZ hah im joking of course so it’s pure instinct to want to steal his shirts

Don’t lie, if you had the chance, you would take something i see right thru u

And at some point in your life, you stop realizing ‘hey, this isn’t my jumper!’ and just walk around in clothes that aren’t yours

And when this happens, three things follow:

You see a wild Hyunjin crashing through the apartment towards you, yelling happily that ‘that’s my favorite hoodie!!’ he tries to act like he’s angry and fails in 0.0000003 sec

He doesn’t slow down and freakin slams into you at full velocity, knocking you over or off anything you might be sitting on

He proceeds to tickle you mercilessly, until you either can’t breath and turn purple or until you commit an extreme act of violence in the name of self defense

Once this chaotic episode ends, most of the time with both of you are completely knackered and just lying on the floor

You both cool off by just cuddling and watching something on TV

Or reading something together!!!

I can totally see Hyunjin shoving one of his fav books in your face and insisting that you both take turns in reading aloud to each other

And you both react at the same time to shockers in the book, like you start crying together when a character dies who hasn’t had that traumatic experience or you both squeal with joy and hug each other tighter when something great happens

Did I just turn into a puddle of happy goo?

Yes I fuckin did.

I think Hyunjin wouldn’t take that long to tell you that he loves you

That doesn’t mean that he planned anything tho

HAH! Course he didn’t

Probs says it when he can barely think straight

Maybe you’re watching him dance late at night

You’d brought snacks to keep him going ‘cause he was working his ass off

And there you sit, marveling at his skill and fluidity while executing his choreo

You have a talent for hyping Hyunjin up while he dances, cheering when he leaps high into the air, gasping when he performs a complicated move, and aw-ing and his graceful poses ok im done now

When he finishes one of his more dramatic dances, you jump up with glee and tackle him in a hug despite him being sweaty, saying how proud you are

He hugs you back happily and says:

“I should be the proud one, having someone I love so much being so supportive of me”.

You both freeze, still hugging each other

And neither of you move or breathe for a moment

“What did you say?”

“UhhhHHHH NOTHING I SAID NOTHING”

“You said that you love me!”

“WAT NO I DIDN’T I-”

“HYUNJIN I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!”

“N- wait what?”

“I love you, dumbass” same tho

Oof that poor practice room has seen a lot of awkwardness

I’m cracking up just by thinking of how hopeless Hyunjin could become when SKZ are away

“Hey do you guys have a signal and/or data? I wanna Skype y/n and show them the beautiful view”.

*all of SKZ facepalms*

Always taking pictures to show you

In the evenings, you get a frickin cascade of notifications of both photos and messages from the poor boy telling you he misses you like crazy

When Skyping, he asks to see Khami, who you have the pleasure of caring for during his absence

You do question (mentally and then verbally) whether he calls to talk to you or his dog

He never answers the question heh

There’s lowkey a competition between you and Khami for Hyunjin’s affection

When the boys make their flight home, Hyunjin keeps you informed about everything that’s happening

I mean everything:

Jiiniie<3: we’re @ the airport :D     -6h ago

Jiiniie<3: waiting to board!     -5h ago

Jiiniie<3: they’re getting ready to go, i can’t wait to see you!! xxx      -5h ago

Jiiniie<3: will text you when we arrive, love!     -5h ago

Jiiniie<3: JUST LANDED! CANT WAIT TO HUG U     -31mins ago

Jiiniie<3: about to get our luggage!     -Just now

You get the point -_-

When you finally see each other, he runs at top speed to pick you up and spins you around

frickin goals man i feel so sad writing this :,)

He goes public in probably the most aesthetic way that’s physically possible

He posts a bunch of gorgeous photos-

Courtesy of Jisung

-of your silhouettes in front of sunsets

-Pics he took of you laughing during a cafe trip

-Bomb-ass selcas where you’re both lookin hella fine

Just

UGGHHH

SO! AESTHETIC!!!

Naturally, the internet freaks the fuck out

Both of you are kinda nervous about the explosive reaction

There are salty bitches who are telling you to piss off because they jelly

But the huge majority of Stay are crying with happiness and wishing you both well

this better happen in the future im watching all of u

And soon Hyunjin is talking about you on vLives, proud af because y/n freakin rules!

OhmyGod I love Hyunjin

Damn my heart be like < HYUNJIN 3 phew

[quackspot]

i started thinking about that gay bastard oc of yours. platano. can u tell me about him

omg u wer thinkgin about platano..... mr banana man... mr 4011. i am obsessed with the banana code srry i just got back from work (it was good :-D)

any way. um. im going below the cut. he kidnaps people and he murders people and i hate him because he’s also a massive weeb so. hm

HISTORY OF PLATANO... yea his name is spanish for banana

his father, pablo, will probably get a name change someday but i literally never think of his father since the only thing he did in platano’s backstory was disappear 

since platano’s world has characters based off like. fruits and vegetables (there aren’t really any limit to what the characters are based off of. it was in my lazy google translate name phase so we have like... a gay character named arcenciel who becomes dadlike through my powerful canon-changing touch. also arcenciel wears the colors of the rainbow as often as he can i haven’t figured out a good design for him since i’m not used to using more than 5 colors. he also owns a hat factory)

i think arcenciel and platano are friends they met when platano was like. 17 probably and arcenciel would be around uhhhhh ummmmmmm 21??? idk man but in canon he’s probably around 30 . yes i m saying “in canon” because i wrote a really dumb and horrible story back in 2018 arcenciel used to have HUGE internalized homophobia and i turned that into a running joke and i dislike that so that’s a reason why i’m not sharing the fun little story i wrote for my friends

(the best part of that story is when arcenciel threw his light-up rainbow heelies at platano, thus starting the boss fight which the main cast LOST.)

ok back to the topic at hand. platano.

i have a whole doc named platano where i just wrote drabbles about him so i’m going to summarize them

the first one was his friend, percisi (my only cishet oc he’s very short and very aggressive while also dressing in a soft-colored turtleneck since he’s based off of peaches) using a misunderstood form of satanism to summon satan. guess what percisi and platano summoned satan for. it was a manga update! wow

i won’t say the mangas name it was an inside joke

so platano was like “hey satan can i have this manga now please please” and satan went “sure just kill people for me” 

that determined platanos job for the next 7 or so years <3 wonderful. 

(it was basically me writing a backstory for a scene to happen in the main writing i wrote for my friends. he killed someone because someone else in the building was trying to summon satan. very confusing but okay i guess.)

i think right after that i wrote about platano meeting his boyfriend, sage, for the first time. i have horribly mixed feelings about their relationship since it’s very. Hm.

so platano kidnaps people to watch anime with him because all his friends left him and his best friend, mangue, is too busy being a dictator over the Land of the Fruits. i shit you not fruits oppressed the vegetables. i wrote that dynamic between the two because i was learning about the revolutionary war in US History. something like that at least

(the Land of the Fruits is not the official name)

on the topic of kidnapping people. guess who his favorite person was. sage. it was sage. so he tried to take sage often but they probably discussed Proper boundaries since everyone else tried to run away. hmm i am now going to write a bit right now 

“Platano,” Sage started. “Why do you keep kidnapping me? It’s rude and I hate it.”

“What else am I supposed to do?” The yellow-haired fool leaned on his sword, digging the tip deeper into the ground. 

“ASK ME IF I WANT TO HANG OUT??” 

“I can do that?”

“You keep making my dads worried.” Sage looked around the area, fidgeting with his hands. 

“Oh. Okay. Want to hang out? Watch some anime?” Platano paused for a moment, but managed to say “Maybe kiss?” before Sage got to answer.

“I- KISS??? We can watch anime together. We can go now.” 

Sage ushered Platano through a portal as fast as he could. 

His dads were never worried.

hmmm maybe that’s alright idk i’m a little tired so it’s probably a little out of character. sage probably isn’t that loud but i think it was trying to be the dynamic of “oh, we’re not dating” when they kiss every sunday at 5 pm by a romantic river scene 

he’s a character who is, at his very core, horrible and bad. he is portrayed in a way i DESPISE but i’m too lazy to correct it. his interest in sage actually started with me going “hmm i think platano would draw sage like this” then sauce giving me fun facts about his oc, sage, yea sage is sauce’s oc <3 epic win . so sauce gave me fun facts about sage and i was like “time to doodle these in platanos ‘art style’” when in reality it’s just the mockery of people just getting into an anime art style, with the chin so pointy it could cut a cake 

i might reread my old writing from 2018. i gotta agree with the judges for that year i did not write very well

it mightve actually been made in 2017 which would be FUCKIN CRAZY im gonna check rn 

yea it was started in 2018. february 14th... huh . finished it completely in june of that year it was 41 pages total and it’s not even double spaced how did i write something without double spacing it

OH MY GOD BOB IS GOING TO HIJACK THIS RANT JUST FOR A LITTLE

so bob is a fluffy little anthro cloud with a grey top hat and bowtie. he is amazing. i love bob. bob is another one of sauce’s character and mangue (mentioned earlier) was made by my friend jamie 

(you can always ask for their tumblrs but i’d ask them if its okay to share their tumblrs. i might just look at them and reblog their stuff cuz i like their art!!! maybe jamie posted a drawing she made recently on her blog but tbh i don’t think she would she’s more of a twitter user)

ok so im skimming thru UMG which is the story it stands for “Universe of Magic Gardens” and it was originally made for a prank on ponytown so people would go “what’s UMG” and my friends and i would be like “ur mom gay xDDDDDD” or something like that . horrible but i’m glad i’ve changed from . that.

here’s a bit i actually like AKLJFISJFIO

“What the actual FUCK, Ilkie?!” Arcenciel cringed in fear. “Put it back- it’s too ugly.” He pointed at Platano, whose arms were crossed. 

why is it bolded. anyway.

i just saw a part where eau used y’all... water cowboy moments <333 i really need to make refs for all of those old characters. all of my umg-related characters have to be my oldest-living ocs. 

i cant believe this is making me genuinely reread my old writing just to go “WJHFSIDAJKSFIOJ WTF????” 

some of the lines on it sound like something you would hear on like. a school bus or somethin 

looking at umg like “wtf how did i add so much Meat to this writing” bc most of my writing now is mostly quotations to progress the story (like the quickie i wrote earlier. i could add meat to it but im  tired lol)

OK THIS IS MORE GENERAL BUT MY FAVORITE THING ABOUT THIS WAS WRITING HAIKUS FOR PORTALS. after you visit a place enough times it’s kind of just an instinct to open a portal there so you don’t have to recite a haiku 

uhh ok here’s another bit becuase im feeling like living la vida loca.  ur biggest regret should be “can you tell me about him” by this point bc i’ve written too much to go back now

He landed on his face once he was outside of the hat. Meko quickly walked over to the guest room, opened the Portals for Dummies book, and flipped to a page. It looked devious.

“Banana, mango,

Each tasting amazingly.

A taste of evil.” 

Meko did the dance on the page, it consisted of something that looks like it’s from an anime. A portal opened, the familiar scent of bananas and mangoes coming from it. With some hesitation, Meko stepped in. He quickly made it so only his head peeked in.

it wasnt bolded this time but i like it bolded. ok i understand how i added meat it was just shitty expired meat ALKFSJSHDAIUJKFEIODSJAK . it wasnt even that much meat DAMN. it just looked like more.

actually that’s all i will write. i could  do more w platano but yea at his base he is a blonde twink who kills people because he wanted a manga but now he’s friends with a dictator. woo! wow. amazing character writing. i cant wait to get motivation to rewrite everything and make platano a good villain (he will still be very interested in anime sadly. idk why around that time i liked making characters who were obsessed with anime i didn’t even watch it much myself. i think it was because i wanted to put capes on them)

[2k18leo]

Portal Jacked notes:

- noice, I love boneman. Love seeing more of him

- AN ARTISTÉ

- Omfg his name is Hueso?? That literally means Bone in Spanish 😂 I love it

- Finally a Leo-Centered episode

- Leo’s “Haaaaachi Machi!” Whenever he attempts to “portal” is the funniest thing

- HAHAHAHA whenever Hueso is showing the demonstration of Portal Jacking, all the boys are different shapes as to how their heads are portrayed. I.e: Leo is a triangle, Donnie is a rectangle, Raph is a square, and Mikey is a circle. I love it

- I am a strong believer that Leo has started using so much Spanish because he’s been hanging around Hueso so much

- Leo: *shoves entire ship replica that probably took endless hours to create inside a briefcase that obviously can’t contain it, thus breaking the entire ship model* HELPING✔️

- It’s canon that Todd likes Pizza as he is the favorite customer of the restaurant. What an angel

- Also, Hueso working on his ship replica is a total foreshadow that he used to be a pirate

- OH MY GOD LOOK AT HUESO JR. HUESO IS SUCH A HAPPY BONE POP. LOOK AT THAT FATHER AND SON BOND. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

- I love the chemistry that Leo and Hueso have on screen. They’re so funny

- I also really enjoy learning about Hueso’s backstory

- Awww Leo said “Hard as Nails!”

- Okay when Leo has glossy eyes as he has Hueso pinned down, is that showing that Leo was almost in tears? Did he almost start crying out of fear that his only hope to find his brothers after a mistake he caused just ditched him ? Poor bby lemme give you a hug

- I mean, Leo is pretty correct when he admits that he’s the faceman of the group. Leo is on a LOT of ROTTMNT merch. Because I mean, he’s the pretty one (dont @ me, you know he’s beautiful) even if he isn’t the leader anymore. But he is well aware that he needs the rest of his team to actually be a team

- HAHAHA HUESO SAVING LEO WITH HIS OWN FUCKIN LEG AND THEN FALLING OVER HAS ME IN TEARS

- He’s so sure about getting Raph and Mikey back but with Donnie he’s like “🤷🏽‍♀️I guess” 😂😂

- This dumb bitch with two eye patches I LOVE HIM

- “i tHiNk I KnOW wHaT i’M dOInG” *slams into pole*

- This whole ventriloquist act had me WHEEZING

- Leo saying “but remember, you’re the straight man” is definitely going to get people more on board with saying Leo is gay 😂 I can see the posts now

- Pffft and of course Piel means Skin

- Ew. He’s literally JUST skin. That’s actually so disgusting 😂

- He’s the captain AND the flag

- Hueso is definitely the little brother

- These animators have WAY too much fun with this show

- HUESO JUST WENT ALL IRON SPIDER ON PIEL BUT WITH HIS RIB CAGE. THATS CRAZY AS HELL

- Can someone please make edits of Leo with blacked out eyes now? I’m a bitch for dark Leo 😂

- I love how determined Leo is to get his brothers back

- Donnie’s goggles going through his hat is the best thing

- Fuckin Donnie and his sarcasm 😂😂😂 I cant

- HAHAHAHA I JUST REALIZED THAT HUESO HAS BEEN CALLING LEO PEPINO AND THAT MEANS CUCUMBER. IM DECEASED

- Okay overall, I loved this Leo-centered episode. I’m so glad Hueso was with him because I adore that character, and their chemistry is just the best 😂 So please, more Leo-centered episodes, Nick. I love them

[transpeterman]

Marvel Team Red tho

long post woo

-peter, wade, and matt first met up at an abandoned apartment building-a large operation that was stealing and manufacturing old stark industries weapons were operating in the basement-peter had heard Tony mention it to Happy and had decided to get on it, wade had been hired to kill the big boss, and it was based in Hell’s Kitchen-thus all three got involved-it was entirely unplanned; they all just kinda showed up-well Spider-man and Daredevil just kinda showed up-Deadpool insisted on having a soundtrack-they ended up succeeding in stopping the operation and Daredevil stopped Deadpool from killing anyone-deadpool compensated by calling him anything but Daredevil the rest of the night-after the fight, matt absently told peter to “get some sleep, kid” and gave deadpool a whole new ballpark of nicknames-”Dad-devil”-”No.”-”Devil-dad?”-”Deadpool.”-”Dee-dad? WAIT-”-”do not fini-”-”DAD-D”-”im going to throttle you.”-”choke me dad-d”-peter’s on the verge of tears he’s laughing so hard-the next time they teamed up was during the summertime-it was a long fight and peter got a few serious gashes so they decided to go back to Matt’s apartment since it was nearest-matt called claire to stitch him up and while they waited for her to arrive the had some Quality Bonding Time™-Deadpool has an existential crisis when peter eventually gives up that he’s 15 (after 30 minutes of nonstop asking)-”i made a daddy kink joke in front of a middle-schooler”-”i’m in high school”-”oh thank god you’ve heard worse”-”even if he was in middle school the daddy thing was not the worst thing you’ve said in front of him”-Peter decides its only fair that since he gave up something about him that they do it too-matt tells them that he’s blind and peter just??????? stops working-like his suit is red, his glasses are red, a good portion of his things are red and he can’t even appreciate how good of a color red is-Deadpool’s just like “so whats with the bible over here is it in braille or,,”-and peter’s losing his shit because this man who dresses up as the devil and pushes people off buildings is catholic-deadpool decides to tell them that his name is Wade Wilson-”thats crazy your initials are WW, mine are PP, and- what about you dude?”-”…MM.”-”oh my god”-”My initials are actually WWW”-”mine are MMM”-”You’re fu-freaking kidding me”-”I really wish I was and you’re not slick spider-kid i heard what you were going to say”-”the writers must really have a thing for alliteration”-”????”-”spidey how did you say that out loud”-after their bonding time they go their separate ways-they do team ups a lot more frequently and eventually they begin to trust each other a lot more-they all know each other’s secret identities and tend to hang out after fights when there’s no real need to-wade keeps hitting on matt, stating his lack of sight as nothing but an advantage here-matt is always done with wade and peter keeps encouraging him its such a problem-once matt let wade mess with his hair because the alternative was having wade shoot bullets into his wall and he was not dealing with that-10 minutes later peter was cackling because wade gave him the hairstyle of an “edgy preteen boy” (his own words)-peter refused to call him anything other than ‘MattyBRaps’ for the next week-matt got them both back by handcuffing with (hella reinforced handcuffs) them together and “Misplacing” the key (wade refused to let peter witness him sawing off his own appendage)-basically they’re a bunch of children who should never be left alone-they wreak serious havoc-also Matthew Michael Murdock is such a fuckin dad its ridiculous he’s constantly giving peter food and making sure he’s getting enough sleep-one time peter had been binding too long and matt could hear the rattling in his chest and this boy was treated to a hardcore lawyer style lecture-wade wasn’t present for that thankfully-peter doesn’t think wade would be a dick about the trans thing he is just hesitant to share such personal information-maybe one day he’ll tell him-more like wade will find out somehow but ya know-(wade does find out- he’s chill about it obvi)-but seriously these three should never be alone together they could accidentally level new york

[survivor-kuwait]

Episode 8 - “These bitches really do be getting on my nerves” - Chloe

rip stevie :( in the aftermath of that tribal that legit just felt like one massive personal attack i decided to go do some homework bc something felt off to me!! madison was out there whining about OMG BEING IN THE WARZONE THE WHOLE TIME BOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO and yet lmao she's either been "excused" or gotten a strike for deadass just not doing the challenges. the jig is uP! i think it's fairly obvious people are just using the warzone as a way to build relationships and i mean who can blame them, but her whole pity party at these tribals needs to stop. my mood towards her has definitely soured in the last hour lol i'm over it  fam. also i've been talking to ian since the tribal to get some tea since tommy is legitimately useless. i'll like ask him what happened at tribal and he literally just goes "oh i just heard his name from everyone" shrug emoi LIKE!! WOULD IT KILL YOU TO FIND SOME MORE TEA OUT... anyways i find out from ian that cullan apparently brought up that they should target timmy for challenge prowess, to which ian said he shot down due to that being a slippery slope which soon leads to him. if that's true i'm v glad that that got shot down bc that's, in my mind, a shot fired at me. GIRRRRRL, like just leave me alone i shouldn't be fucking persecuted bc half of you guys are throwing challenges and i've actually been doing them. that doesn't mean shit. 

I was able to get 217 seconds on the slide puzzle. Would I get any better? 🤷‍♂️ I dont think so. I have my graduation today so hopefully this score is enough.

not gonna lie I compleeeeetely COMPLETELY forgot about the chall until this morning when I was walking to class and my dumbass is at class and work and class again until 10 pm today so I don���t rlly have a MOUSE on me..... cut to me desperately and embarrassingly texting my classmates asking them to bring a mouse to class for me nnnn this is not gonna go well. maybe it’ll be good for me to go to war zone anyways I guess 

Hi sisters! Last vote was super easy. It was like “Stevie k?” “K.” But also even though I feel like I’m a big part of the decision making process for every vote, I never get less nervous that everyone is lying to me! Strategic playing, or crippling trust issues? You decide.

These bitches really do be getting on my nerves

Its almost graduation time and im sooo nervous and excited. It would be nice to not be in warzone tonight. Please survivor gods help me.

Well this is a crucial immunity. After being out of the war zone for 2 in a row I feel at this point I am a little outside the people who have been there so many times. I think I have some strong bonds with some players but I do not that a couple have it out for me. Namely Madison and Jacob, which at this point I fed they should be over the whole Renee vote but that’s their prerogative. 

Sooooo Final 15 baby! Honestly Im so proud of this time around on my TS journey cause Im actually liking the individual competition portion of this game. Its like the merge part of any Survivor game but with a "tribal competition" aspect. Meaning that I only have to worry about me, myself, and I and I love that. I just need to show that Im the bad bitch that is in control and take this game by the fucking reins and show it who's boss. Aint no way Im gonna get 15th, 14th or 12th again madam. No way. 

Reinke

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I survived, yeet. Kait survived, yeet. Ian went in, f*ck. Maynor went in, f*ck. Chloe went in, f*ck. Adrian went in...yeet.

Hello! I am safe again, 2nd time in a row? Idk. I do like Kait but I don't entirely trust her. I think I can use her for a bit as she'll believe she's using me. If I have the chance to get her out before or early merge, I will. Thomas is the most boring person in this game. I have yet to meet Timmy but I doubt anyone can beat Thomas in this feat. Talking to him is like talking to a wall. A white wall too. Also, he has no manners, demands favours and doesn't say please or thank you... The second I have the chance, he's gone. Nehe should've stayed, not him. Otherwise, Ian and I are working on some kind of power together for battleship. I really do like Ian. I hope we can make it far together, he's my number 2 after Owen. Together, we have the Topaz Idol and a potential save vote and a potential new power. Maynor and I have been socializing and friendly, I want him gone sooner than later but he's not a priority. He isn't great in comps generally. Still love Trace and I do trust him to an extent. I dislike Stephen, would like to see him leave relatively soon. I don't trust him at all. On the other side, Matt is going to tribal and him and I have built quite a bit of trust previously, I hope he makes it. I'm happy Cullan and Owen and Adrian are safe as I trust all 3 to certain extents. I would like Timmy to go due to his comp prowess and due to the fact we have yet to interact, but he's immune, again. I hope Chloe makes it out okay. I also hope Devon makes it out alive. I love that guy. I think Devon, Chloe, Trace and Ian can work together though! Matt could join with them as him and Devon were big parts of the Renee vote. Madison and Maynor, who were both left out of that vote, could see their way out which is A-okay by me. Jacob was also left out of this vote but I think Ian won't target him, just my two cents. I see Jacob as a better ally for me down the road compared to Madison or Maynor. That being said, I like many people in this game. I think my social game is strong. I do need to be careful with my words as some may catch on. And I may find myself at tribal with 7 ppl I like. I have my hierarchy of allies in my mind and I know who's at the bottom of my totem poll, I just hope I can get those who aren't even on it out first. I'm also a comp threat. Usually, I can lurk in the shadows more easily but with the dynamic and my low level of comfort with risk, competition prowess combined with my social game, though flashy, is what I'm betting on to keep myself safe. Owen and Kait and Timmy's competition prowess outshines mine and people peg Madison as the socialite who throws/does not complete comps to be in warzone. As long as there are some who play flashier than me, I'll be okay. Until next time!

I found a Rock Saver with the help of Corey, chill but I'm more than happy to send that over to him the second I'm back from warzone.  That is such a situational power and there aren't really alliances yet to risk rocks for, but when there are it will be within Corey and I's power to use.  Again, I'll play the idol to survive if I need to, but I'll do everything I can to prevent having to play it at f16, the jury doesn't care about what happens in the premerge portion of the game.

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It's going to be Jacob or Madison this round. Idol or bust, Cancer will take a hit, because fuck cancer.  I'm done with the waiting for someone to take out players who have been just chilling in the Warzone, I'm done with the throwing challenges, I'm done with the deceit.  The Warzone is not redemption island, you can't feed me a fish and send me on my way to build your jury presence.  Madison is sans her warzone buddies, she's vulnerable besides Jacob.  Let's go!

I may be in the war zone rn but Ian is here and I have fuckin missed that boi so yanno pros and cons 

I so so so do not want to be here at Warzone again. This vote is probably the most complicated thus far because at this point I need a lot of things to go a very specific way in order for people to not realize I’m in the middle. Devon trusts me and wants to go with Ian’s plan to vote our Madison or Jacob and Madison and Maynor want to vote Ian which I would also like. However at this point I need to make everyone happy and the odds of doing that are so slim. I just have to convince Maynor wnd Madison to vote Jacob or Devon to vote Ian and neither one is the path of least resistance. I’m on the path of MOST resistance and by path I mean 1 inch wide tightrope suspended over hungry sharks.

I was not that surprised when I got voted out. I did not expect it because voting out Stephen did in fact seem like a plausible option and i felt that between him and myself it was kinda similar. It was believable that he would be voted off, but I totally understand why I was voted off. The interesting part about it to me is I think I was the least connected person in the game and I can see how that can get dangerous in merge because those people can flip a lot, but right now I thought it might've been a good opportunity to gain me as a number. I think this tribal was my first interaction with Trace and Ian. I did like them and I liked talking to them and I think I had potential to work with them if the plan of voting me out wasn't already in place. There were a few people I did not talk to that round because i didn't think I should've had to reach out to EVERYONE in order to talk to them. I just think there are alliances that have formed that i am not a part of because the decision-making for these votes is kinda weird and I don't always understand the motives. So to me an alliance i am not a part of makes the most sense. I was very excited about the lagoon though. I am hoping I get a chance to come back because that would be lit. I just need to stick it out through these votes and I am hoping Renee is connected to at least one of the other three so we can stay. Kinda glad Nehe is gone. I think he was bad for my game

Devon has been a godsend so far today, I talked to him last night about wanting Jacob or Madison out and he has up and ran with it.  Devon being the face on this vote? Yes please, I don't want to blow back on me if it flips.

I actually have people working with me and talking to me this round? 😮😮😮 crazy that maybe these people have finally stopped trying to get me fucking out 

Trying to talk to cullan rn and I can’t decide if it’s more or less difficult than talking to Thomas. He’s sent like three one word answers now.... Me: you doing anything exciting this weekend!? Cullan: Graduating. Ummmm ok hoe sounds real exciting hskshdjd like elaborate? Oh well I’m not answering. I tried to reach out bc my social game is ass rn but I’m not putting myself thru that today!!!! I miss Kait :( and I want to talk to corey :(((( grrrr they the real ones. And matt. Have yet to have a stimulating conversation with literally anyone else in this game. Wait ok actually I do like Timmy and madison SJSU’s je but madison busy too and Timmy sends LONG messages. Why can’t I have an in BETWEEN!!

I'm definitely going to see at least one vote tonight, I'm nervous about it because if people flip on me instead of voting Jacob I'll be dead to rights because I will not play my idol unless another idol is played. My thought process is that if I need my idol to save myself from a majority vote tonight then I wasn't bound to go far in this game anyway. I'll take my ball(advantages) and go home. 5 people told me they are voting Jacob, Matt told me Jacob is voting for me, if I'm being fed bullshit by everyone then that's just how the cookie crumbles.

Today has been quiet but people have brought up that Jacob and Madison are a strong duo. Matt was able to put the target on Jacob. It could be a 4-4 tie but Matt Madison n I might just go with majority and vote Jacob.

As per usual, I have no idea if I made a confessional about this or not. I can’t believe I won immunity, like I didn’t even have computer access. And i got 3rd so i had some margin to be safe (granted Adrian got 4th with one second more than me but still). That was the first time I did the puzzle because my other times were worse. If I was doing it on a computer my time would’ve been so much better so idk what happened with everyone else. And today Owen messaged me saying he feels kind of fucked because he hasn’t been to tribal in ages, which might be true but also he can probably win a lot of immunities come merge and people like him. I’m happy to work with him right now because we both have a lot of challenge wins but honestly I want him to go earlier on in merge because he is good at getting quick social connections.

oof mama, what a round this is panning out to be. First of all, I felt personally victimized by that challenge. The Ard tribe is full of some SERIOUS competitors, and that's the reason that I will most likely continue to show up at these stupid war zones until we merge. Fucking Kait has made it this far without going to the war zone at all, which is putting SUCH A LARGE target on her back. bUt whatever, it's just frustrating being on a tribe of people that probably do online puzzles for fun. So this round is interesting. After last round's unanimous vote, I feel a lot more comfortable working with certain people in the game. Ian has kind of solidified his spot as my number one in this game (more to come about that too). He came to me and was like we NEED to make a move against Madison/Jacob. He said he knows that Madison is a challenge threat, but is purposely trying to lose the challenges so that she can make connections with people in the war zone. Though he had made some points, I really don't think Madison is that smart to figure out how to do that. I really just think she is busy/not prioritizing and keeps showing up here. She seems pretty innocuous. That being said, she has become a bit of a social threat, slipping by all of these rounds without having to really do much. BUT, I do trust her and don't want her to be sent packing quite yet. Jacob, her star sign partner, on the other hand, can go. He doesn't talk at all, and when he doesn't they're boring one word answers. So I had pretty much set my heart on Jacob even though he is on our tribe, making my chances higher of showing up here if we keep doing the war zone format. To make matters more interesting, I talked a bit more to Matt this round and he told me that Madison and Jacob were gunning for Ian this round. Madison claims she is good with voting for Jacob, but everyone else says they seem to be a strong pair. I went straight to Ian with this and then he TOLD ME HE HAD AN IDOL. Honestly I am so happy to know he has it and not someone against me, because that's going to be some great information to have later on down the road. I think he is really paranoid, but at this point I just really cannot tell who is lying and telling the truth. I am hoping that people are being truthful and going to actually vote for Jacob, but I am trying to figure out who exactly has been saying Ian's name. It's ultimately going to be up to him whether he wants to play the idol this round but oof, if I were him, I'd be sweating. SO we shall see, but lord knows I'm shaking in my loafers!

[bloojayoolie]

Being Alone, Animals, and Apparently: >Hey guys, I wanna run a game Sure, guy, that sounds good. Let's go for that. Youve played in a few games, I'm sure you can handle running something >It's going to be my own custom setting, based on d20 modern Oh god, how is this going to turn out? >It's based on a book I've been writing since I was a teenager Oh boy, this is gonna be amazing >Post-apocalyptic future of the area we live in A standard take, but a classic one >Players are all equipped with Pipboys which operate as radios, inventories, and watches Oh boy! >Characters have energy bars that fill and deplete as they use their powers Oh boy! >Monster Energy drink is a energy-replacing item so important it serves as a major feature of the setting Oh boy! >Players pick an animal, a weapon, and an "element" and can transform into an anthropomorphic elemental animal form that gains extra powers and uses their weapon for super-damage Oh boy! >DM doesnt know how many core features of d20 in general work Oh boy >DM doesn't know the geography of the area we live in Oh boy! >DM doesn't know particular facts of reality Oh boy! >DM has a DMPC who the story is about who is the most powerful of the animal/elemental/weapon people Oh boy! >Much of the DMPC's plot revolves around a romance with the stand-in for the DM's dead ex fiancee Oh boy! >The DMPC's love interest dies tragically Oh boy One player dropped out within an hour of showing up the first day. The rest of us held on for a shocking number of weeks just so we'd have something to fill time with, and some place to go have pizza and hang out for a bit, and to have stories And oh. I have stories. The "elements" alone were... staggering. "Legends d20 Fallout: Mighty Morphin' That Guy Rangers >That Guy ran a game based on his post-apocalyptic tragic romantic autobiographical work in progress novel about people in the future using magic fallout watches to turn into animals Quoted By: *46403659 46403704 >4640397846404111 >>46404256 I've told this story a few times, but basically, this guy sets out to make a game based on the epic sci fi novel called Legends" he's been writing, based on his life, only set in the distant future. He uses d20 modern to do so. He had none of the books, never played the system, and didn't know how anything worked In addition to our regular hit points we had rolled, he saddled us with 150 extra HP. Why? Because he didn't know how damage worked. So, for example his main character (based on him, of course) had a sword that did 1d100 damage per hit. No strength bonus, no multiple attacks, just 1d100 d have characters who had d100s as their damage die. In fact, There's other fun stuff about the "combat system" I can go into later, but I wanna touch on the core concept of the game for a moment. It's ye olde post-apocalypse, after what is basically the Second Impact, a meteor made out of monsters and evil crashes into earth and reformats it into crazy world. The game takes place in the region we live in, which was kinda a neat concept to start with, but then it got out of hand because of none of us much geography Every player picks an animal, an "element", and a weapon, and those become our spirit animal/element/weapon. I was an ice wolf with katars, my friend was a darkness panther with a sword, and our other friend was an electromagnetic pteradactyl with a pair of berettas, at which point you might begin to see why I put "element" in quotation marks, because the magic system and cosmology were all over the map Quoted By >>46403692 46403978 >46404111 >>46430662 46403615 Here's some of the elements we were informed of or encountered: Ice Fire, Wind, Water 티ectricity. Plants. Poison. Darkness but not shadow Sunlight, Electromagnetism Nuclear Power, Acid Mental Healing, and I believe Drugs was one as well. I bring up darkness/shadow because, as I said, one of the party members was a darkness character, who could control shadows and use them to freeze people in place and so on and suchlike. However, the enemies were living shadows.. and he had no control or effect on them. Because darkness is different from shadow Anyways, we spent about two and a half, maybe three months of sundays playing games with this guy, halfway because the concept was so gonzo and he was such a pushover as a DM that we could basically justify doing any completely retarded thing we wanted, partly we had nothing better to do and felt bad for him, and partly it was fun to hang out and eat pizza and (as time went by) watch movies rather than play the game. I haven't really touched on the plot yet. We're locals in this post-apocalptic future, me a farmer and the other guy a raider (the third player, the pteradactyl guy, bailed out half an hour into the first session quite gracefully and never ever returned), and we go t this magical academy where, it is implied, we will somehow learn how to use our powers This is in fact a vicious lie The "magical academy is in fact a lawless hell-hive run by loosely disguised versions of the DM and his former fiancee (I say Versions because there were two characters with the same name as him) that was instantly and irrevocably termed "the mexican prison every time we mentioned it. "Lessons" consisted of us agreeing that our characters did nothing rational or interesting for 6 months at a time and we'd gain random stat bonuses or special powers that were either more or less game breaking than our current powers Quoted By 46403719 46403978 46404111 46403659 Between these wastes of time, we'd go do other time wasting things like chase a dragon only to have Version A of him come slay it, or scavenge for pristine cans of Monster Energy Drink around the remains of the cities. Which brings me, in a round-a-bout way, to the matter of the "combat system" You see, as I mentioned, he's never played d20 modern, played what seems to be very little D&D, and had apparently decided to hijack what Im told is some JRPG's combat system for his "homebrew. We're given energy bars, and every time we use one of our special moves the bar gets depleted. And our special moves are quite special. We can still use normal attacks, or we can use his totally awesome "combo attack", where if we get a 15-20 on the d20 roll, we deal an additional 1d4 damage! Or, we can use a "power attack" and, if we get a 19 or 20, automatically deal double damage, amazing! He actually wrote the word "power attack" down in his notes, then told us to it, and didn't understand when we seemed taken aback. In addition to these wonderful options, we also get some magic super abilities, like beam attacks or choking people with their darkness, or other things like that, which range between useless, already covered by abilities in the game, or completely broken. I had an ability where l'd shoot a super ice beam at someone with my katars, and get +d12 to damage for every chunk of my energy bar I depleted in the process, and that's where the Monster Energy Drink comes in because a single can of Monster Energy can be drunk as a free action and completely refill your energy bar And thus I became an ice drill Quoted By: *46403799 *46403978 »>46404111 46403692 I've sadly forgotten some of our funnier moments in the game, but others will never leave me. Like when our "ally", a poison T-Rex with a sniper rifle, kept shooting us in combat because the DM didn't understand what a "miss" means. Eventually we collapsed the Tacoma dome on him, us, and the enemy and that seemed to work out Oh, and all rope was referred to as "fuckin' rope" for no clear reason. All our items resided in our pip boys, by the way. Which was his exact description of them, no less You know how you can cause an explosion by filling a room with flour and then igniting it? It's a bit exotic of a trap, but it's something you can do. I told him about that once and from then on it became a valid combat tactic. In open-air areas. As a standard action Man, my mind's just boiling as I remember some of the other things. Eventually he decided +150 hit points was too many and brought it down to +89. We met a few people who he told us did 1d1000 as damage, but we never saw this in action Quoted By: >46403978 46404111 46404725 >>46406650 46403719 There was a fighting tournament that used DBZ rules, which the panther exploited by winning 4 fights via ringout. For you see, because all these people do 1d20 or 1d30 (he had a d30) damage, with maybe some extra dice for flavor, as damage, none of them had strength scores. So the easiest way to beat them, without having to carve through their 500 hit points using a sword? Bullrush. And the DM didnt know what it was or that it sted The panther dude took Agile Riposte and used the 25 dex granted to him by the DM being a moron and fighting defensively to take Attacks of Opportunity mpletely carve up enemies by exploiting the fact the DM doesn't know how often you can s the fast hero and I ended up with less dexterity due to the DM's incompetence. In return, I mocked the concept relentlessly. Whenever my character transformed from human to furry mode, I would do a power rangers henshin sequence "Blue Wolf POWER!" I also promised my next character would be a water crab with a sledgehammer for his weapon, so l could call myself "MC Hammer" and do the hammer dance, on account of being a crab. But it wasn't to be Two sessions in a row, we showed up and played nothing. We sat with the DM and watched then early-days Netflix for a bit, maybe had some pizza, discussed what we might do in the game next week, left after a half hour or so, came back next week, did it again, left again, and the week after that the DM simply didn't invite us over. The Legend of Legends ended as it began: With unbearable disappointment and confusion And that's the story of the worst game I ever played

[survivorsolomonislands]

Final Episode “Im pretty exhausted from this game anyways” (Aromal)

So I've now officially reached my past best placement - 5th in Malaysia!! And with my Hidden Immunity Idol, I'm set to beat it, and make it to F4 where the Rites of Passage are. Making Rites of Passage is honestly always one of my BIG goals every time I play so FINALLY getting to reach that mark is absolutely HUGE. In other news, RTP called me out on his way out the door, but nobody really paid it any heed - maybe bc he pissed everybody off so much?? Anyways, I'm really set to make the end of this game even WITHOUT my HII. So now the real determinant is whether or not I win Individual Immunity again. If I do, I'll go with Aro and Luca's plan to ice Allie, convince Willow... but then give Allie the Idol, vote for Luca, and get his ass outta here, forcing Aro to need my vote at F4 and forcing a tie. Hopefully. Now that I'm thinking about it, there's nothing stopping Allie/Aro/Willow from icing ME at that point, but... if they did... nvm. I don't think that they would. If I'm not immune, the Idol is all mine, but who gets voted out I'm still undecided on. Is the pair of Allie and Willow really a threat when they want to get to the end with me, or when Willow's intended F3 is with myself and Aro? If that's the case, why lose Allie now and risk underdog Luca making the end and picking up easy votes like Jacob, Johnny, and RTP. Looking at FTC, I've got Dana and Matt on lock, and I really do think I could get Zak even against Aro. I might have a shot at Johnny, I think RTP will vote for me, Jacob and LA are question marks that I lean against me, and I'd say Lexi doesn't vote for me like... ever. This is gonna get so spicy and I can fucking taste the victory. It's SO DAMN CLOSE and I've worked SO DAMN HARD and I don't wanna get iced when it's right around the corner. Fuck. I need this. I fucking need this.

With Ryan gone, the game is nearing the end. Right now it's me and Aromal trying to flip Willow onto Mitchell. Otherwise, we've lost this game.

Maaaan Im so nervous for this tribal. Me and Luca are definitely voting for Mitchell but we have to be careful in trying to swing Allie or Willow otherwise this is going to blow up in our faces.

It's been five or so days since our last tribal so everybody was getting stir crazy, but now it's all come to a head!! Willow won immunity, which was fine, bc the two targets were Allie and Luca. Now I'd harbored thoughts about making a #bigmove by making everyone vote for Allie and then Idoling her but... that's a reckless and unnecessary big move that paints me as an even bigger target than I know myself to be while also causing distrust among my peers. So Luca's gonna go home 4-1, I'm gonna use my Idol to guarantee myself F4 even though I won't receive a single vote, and then I'm one challenge win away from the FTC, where I'd like to think that I will win. At the F4, I'm set - I have a F3 with Aro and Willow that I intend to stick to, but I ALSO have a F3 with Allie and Willow, so should Allie win immunity I'll be DANCIN. I've worked to get to the point where everyone in the game likes me and trusts me, and zooweemama I can't believe I'm actually gonna win. I've come this close and convinced myself that it's my time, so if it's not, I'm gonna be heartbroken. I've put so much into this game and it's gonna all pay off, I just KNOW that it will. I wanna follow in the footsteps of Jenn and Jimmy who made FTC post-Malaysia, and I wanna join Kait and Jenn as Malaysia winners. It's gonna be my time. KNOW that - it's gonna be my time.

I'm shitting myself. I'm terrified of what Mitchell's reaction is gonna be, Im terrified about him having a potential idol, I'm terrified of Willow(our swing vote)  snitching to him, FUCK Willow just messaged me saying she was really hesitant about voting Mitchell. I don't wanna push too hard but it has to be done otherwise I am going to get absolutely blasted at final tribal. I'm fairly confident about making it to final tribal, but I'm debating who I have a better chance with. I'm leaning towards taking Willow and Allie right now because Luca has the underdog thing going for him but ahh its so difficult. I just wanna get this season over withhh

OH MY GOD THAT CHALLENGE WAS WILD! Half of the things didn't make sense, and I didn't know what I was doing 90% of the time, but I still somehow won immunity which is crazy! This literally means I'm guaranteed f4 which is crazy, like I never actually thought I would make it this far in my first org ever. Tonight I think pretty much everyone is gonna vote for Mitchell, which I guess is what I wanted, since he's my biggest threat. But I'm still sorta sad about it bc I love Mitchell, he's been one of my closest allies since the beginning of this game on nuMakira. I mean I need to do it to better myself in this game, bc I might actually have a shot at winning but idk I'm still kinda sad about it. I hope he can understand though and that we can be friends, but I have a feeling he might be sorta mad. I also think he might have an idol, bc he didn't really give me a direct answer and he lied about it last time, so I guess at this point I just need to hope he doesn't have an idol, or that he doesn't play it, bc if he does then I guess I'm screwed.  

Why do I have a funny feeling I'm getting Bret Labelle'd out tonight? Mitchell is the biggest threat, Willow! Don't pull a Hannah

i told them all after last tribal, "I hope y'all ready for shit to get messy bc my ass is winning final immunity challenge." and my ass DID. my ass did THAT. i have fucking made it to day 39. i'm not one to get emotional, but i've been playing ORGs for a few years now. not like other people, who always jump into them - i've done like one ORG every school year for a few years. this is my seventh total. and i made it to the end my very first one, back when I still played entirely over email, and lost to an inactive at the final tribal. and it's eaten away at me since. how could i work so hard and come so close just to fall short to that? but that was a different time and a different me, and i finally fucking did it again. 2nd, 11th, 9th, 5th, 12th, 5th... and now at least 3rd. I fucking made it here again and I can't believe it. Shout-out to Allie - I didn't think I had a shot once we got to the last stage. I was in so much pain and didn't know how much fight I had left in me but goddamn I pulled it off like i said i was gonna and now my ass can't be grassed and my ass in the final three i can't describe what this is like. i'm sure the org community can relate as a whole to wanting something so bad, and working so hard to make it happen, and now to have your chance, your shot, be actualized... it's incredible. it's a phenomenal feeling and i really hope i can now seal the deal and pull this shit off. it's not a guarantee. and hell, i still don't even know who i'm voting for. but i did it. i fucking DID THAT. mitchell kalabang fucking did that and all these fake killas don't know who the fuck they made the mistake of trying to ice. you can't ice fire and that's exactly why you don't dance with fire, bc ur ass is gonna get BURNED and mitchell kalabang is a fucking GOLDEN GOD

(later)

So after last tribal when they tried to ICE MY ASS i went around very boldly telling everyone that i was gonna win FIC and they better get their shit straightened out for when that happens. allie and i make a deal to vote out willow, i focus all my plans on winning, and then BAM surprise it fuckin HAPPENS and now i am left with a choice to make - do i vote out willow or do i vote out allie? and while i'm weighing this choice, willow for a stronger story should she be able to articulate it and allie for having what i perceive to be more friends and a stronger perception among the jurors, aro asks me to vote him off i say "...what" and he says that he doesn't want to be a FTC loser, and that he'll support me on the jury. he knows he's gonna lose and doesn't want to waste time on all the proceedings, so he'd rather help me win. and that sounds GREAT. that puts like 4 votes i expect on the jury - dana, matt, zak, and aro. if i can grab 1 more, i doubt willow/allie can grab all the other 5 - i win. and i'm like "...aro if u want this u got it bud" And then comes the hard part of convincing willow/allie to do it. have they really been #secretpairbewaring their way through this game? that's a possibility, but i think both of them rightfully perceive each other to be their biggest threat that they can vote for. we all know aro is going to lose. so with allie, it's easier - she says she didn't want to have to vote out willow anyways and is ok with voting out aro. and then miss willow tries hard to convince me to grass allie's ass anyways, so i strong-arm her a lil bit. say if i vote aro, and she and allie vote each other, she's playing russian roulette - aro either votes for her or allie, and if her gambit to ice allie works, that's fine and dandy... but there's a 50% chance she gets iced herself. thus, the only way to save herself is in doing what i want by voting out aro. and willow is understandably not fully in love with this plan, and she just asked me if i'm doing this to split jurors' votes between allie and herself. that's partially true - it's certainly a benefit. but willow is in no position to fight with me here, and she's particularly in no position to actually DO anything about it. sure, i know that aro is throwing his vote to allie, but SHE doesn't. as far as she knows, doing what i want guarantees herself a worst-case tie and a best-case F3 spot. if she does something else, she might vote herself out. she doesn't have a choice. winning FIC gives you so much fucking power and i genuinely believe that i can take any of these fools in the F3 so if they wanna be stupid and gamble with their lives then they can go right ahead and grass they own asses but y'all can't ice a golden fuckin god

So I feel like Im pretty much done. Id rather get 4th than go through FTC and get like one vote. I tried my hardest to stop Mitchell but unfortunately it didnt work out. Oh well, Im pretty exhausted from this game anyways.

Ahh so Mitchell winning the FIC wasn't the greatest scenario that could have happened but whatever. I'm a little dissapointed in myself that I accidentally talked but I can't go back now. Anyway I don't really have any shot at winning this game anymore So I guess I'm just gonna go with everyone else and vote out Aro tonight, even though Aro is the one with the least amount of chance of winning (imo). Mitchell is saying that he wants to vote out Aro this round bc he thinks he's some secret threat, and like yeah Aro has played an alright strategic game but I don't think he's made enough social connections. Anyway I think the real reason Mitchell wants Aro out this round is bc at FTC the people who are mad at Mitchell might split the votes between me and Allie. Anyway if Mitchell weren't here then I might have an okay shot at winning this game but now I don't. So congrats Mitchell Kalabang on winning Solomon Islands! Also since this is probably going to be my last confessional I just wanted to say that I had an amazing time playing this game! I've met a bunch of wonderful people and it was my first org ever and I plan on continuing to play more orgs!

can't BELIEVE we're starting the FINAL TRIBAL COUNCIL FJWRIUHDsnfiucrehdsnuifvhrenfsfchrd I worked so fuckin hard and so fuckin long and we're here. I I expect to get Dana, Matt, Zak, and Aro... that's 4/10. I just need to pull one more, which can prob come from RTP or Luca... and I don't think Willow/Allie are getting 5 votes so ! LA maybe, but Lex and Jacob are pretty much gone, and Johnny... who knows. But it's been a wild fuckin ride from food poisoning to 2 idol plays to 2 individual immunities to the final fuckin three. Hosts, miss willow, miss allie... it's been a wild ride. Good luck and good RIDDANCE

FINAL 3!! I never thought I would make it this far, I know Im not gonna win but I had a blast thank you!