#oh and “I should watch casshern because I’ve put it off for too long and it’s arguably the biggest mega man influence”

[no1ryomafan]

This is so stupid for me to rant about especially because I had a really good day for once-but it seems after it becomes night and the day is over the bad thoughts really hit-but I hate how I keep getting eaten with this imposter syndrome of me being not the most knowledgeable person on older anime even if I KNOW significant details there’s still so much anime generally I haven’t watched and only seen bits of-not even just like a ep, literal clips-that I should get too but forcing myself to wanna watch something yet watching things has become something I have to commit too instead of just something to do to unwind too like it should be because my brain makes ALL my hobbies be the opposite of what they are. I feel like I’m left behind from so many friends because I haven’t watched certain shows when some I don’t feel like doing right now or ever and I wonder if people are constantly disappointed in me for not doing it as if I don’t have a life and wanting to get through even a 20+ ep show is a struggle even though there’s shows longer then that I’m gonna have to watch.

I feel I ranted about this before or maybe from the mecha angle specifically but man I feel just for how much old anime I have tried is enough to make people look lowly of me.