#oh GOD and here I am going another Carly vs nina rant sorry…

[saintlesbian]

that moment as Willow went into the elevator and Carly got to talk to her all excited before she went in, and then that longing look Willow and Nina gave each other before the doors closed… yea I’m in my Nina apologist era again sorry. like Carly has willow’s forgiveness and affection already, while nina has to stand aside and watch the woman who kept both of her daughters from her acting as a mother figure to willow.

and Carly has loving family to spare in all directions! she’s got her mother Bobbie who loves her now, her daughter joss who is essentially a carbon copy of her, her little girl Donna, her grown son Michael who has already forgiven her, her grandson Wiley (who nina doesn’t even get to visit) and soon this new baby granddaughter… hell, even Avery calls her “mama Carly” and they’re not even related!

meanwhile Nina’s got her unhinged mother Madeline who put her in a coma and cost her 20 years of her life (which I can imagine would be Very difficult to adapt to) who is Dead now, her dead daughter nelle that she didn’t even know was hers until after she was gone, her dead cousin Britt, her other dead cousin Nathan, her nephew James, and her aunt liesl who is. not exactly the warmest or most sane person.

and I think we don’t give enough credit to Nina’s 20 year coma for her being the way that she is… like she was young and expecting a child and happily married before her mother put her in that coma, then she wakes up 20 years later to find her youth is gone, her child is gone, her husband is gone, and she’s reeling over how much her life has changed and how much time she’s lost… of course she’s still gonna want kids, still gonna want that second chance at motherhood, since she’s still trapped in that mindset of that expectant young woman from 20 years ago, but she physically can’t have any since her life has fallen apart in that time.

so to be nina, a broken woman longing for her that daughter she lost and in the middle of dealing with her small family getting even smaller, witnessing Carly, a woman with such a large loving family taking Nina’s daughter into the fold and about to celebrate her family getting even larger… idk. I think if I was nina at that moment I would’ve snapped from seeing that. like that would really drive me to the brink. Carly and Nina are bizarro mirror versions of each other but carly is the one that at least has the undying love and support from her family in the end… I can understand nina feeling resentful of that.

ok nina apologist rant over 😅