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rearranging-deck-chairs · 6 months ago

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okay i Will get a life bc if a pretty woman on the internet tells me to get a life (and make zines), i will get a life (and make zines), but seeing as i dont have one yet, here are my top 3 "damn i wish someone read that one" fics:

wondering about the perspective of the person who confuses interbellum with no man’s land (thasmin smut but make it a 2000 word long poem. only thing ive written of which the title was exactly as good as the fic i think)

playing doctor (vault arc but make it 13/yaz/missy, has great chapter titles, and my mother liked it, even the octopussy parts) it's very pretty printed too:

sunset provision (14/yaz shared theological/ontological crisis. i call the doctor a psychologically disturbed rhesus monkey and co-piloting a religiously charged cockfight. And theres footnotes <3)

watching a video on youtube abt making zines and shes like "i have a full exciting life that i create for myself every single day that has nothing to do with zines. and i think that when you have more things going on in your life youre less likely to become hyperfocused on the reaction you get to your work" and im like damn outgecalled, no wonder we get neurotic abt it here on the hyperfocus no life website

#disclaimer people Have read these and people Have commented #and know that if you have i Havent forgotten i think abt your comment regularly #but also. i want. another comint.#i want someone to hold my hand through the words for a bit you feel me?#i try not to beg for attention most of the time bc. i dont think it works & puts people off #but im sad and lonely and tired and sick and the more i try to be healthy the sicker i feel which just doesnt seem fair tbh #and this suicidal episode has been lasting for 5 fucking months which is long for me #and my boss sucks so bad at communicating maybe i just gotta quit like 'oh we dont have the people so you gotta work even tho youre sick #sorry' well what if i just quit? then its not my problem anymore is it #and i havent even been keeping up with everyones posts im sorry. ive been writing Emails. which is hard #so im gonna go against my principles and beg for a little attention #and then i should probably log off go to sleep make a zine and get a life #and quit my job maybe #i quite like the money tho #but my mother says they dont pay enough and its true they dont really but they also dont UNDERpay significantly #just. would be better if they could find some more people so i dont get fucking strongarmed every time i get covid bc 'we dont have people'#well pay them more and maybe youd have more people!#hashtag capitalism #forgive me for being offputting for a moment #offputting on purpose im probably offputting in all sorts of ways im not aware of to all sorts of people all the time #but thats by accident so i cant really help it #okay im going to sleep now thanks for coming to my depression ted talk

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