#official aziraphale cry party post come join the pile

[howmanyholesinswisscheese]

Okay so this rant is brought to you by this gorgeous art by @builtintripping what the fuck dude you hit me right in the heart.

Because it’s just. We spend all this time thinking about how affected and hurt Crowley would be after the final fifteen, and yes, of course he would be -- one look at his face tells you he doesn't think he'll ever come back from this, but fucking-

Aziraphale. What about Aziraphale?

Imagine how hard it would be to tell your best friend in the entire universe that you have to go. You have to, you have no choice, coffee or death — leave or death — and you both know it.

He tells you he loves you, asks you to run away with him again, and he has no idea how much you want to. No idea. You want him so badly it hurts, and on some level he knows that much, but he also knows you have to leave.

He knows, but he’s still desperate.

He looks at you with broken eyes and pleads at you with a broken voice. You put that pain in his face.

He kisses you, and it changes nothing except how much it will hurt you when he leaves the bookshop.

How hard would that be? To keep yourself from melting into his touch. To shoulder his confession and harden your heart, because it’s coffee or death - leave or death. How hard would that be, to keep a brave face against your abuser when the one person who has ever managed to convince you that you are more than what they say you are, is gone.

How much would that hurt?

Anyways love the art @builtintripping thanks for facilitating my rambling-