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we can’t trust the narrative. that’s what I’m going with for now. I’m not sure we’re being told a straight forward story.
side notes:
“i killed my best friend!”
misty...natalie didn’t even like you.
i don’t think any of these women like you.
I do tho, you’re OK hun, now try not to murder anyone important again
she will
my wild prediction is Shauna will be the last bitch standing and everyone else will be dead by the end of this show, lol.
Coach Ben...set fire to the house? probably? why? you really gonna stand there and say you’re better than all of them by burning children in their sleep? bold take...but IDK...I’m not sure what to make of you anymore.
Callie defending her mom: certainly the spawn of Satan. I stan.
Jeff...poor Jeff...you tried...I guess...being an alright dude...
Kevin...poor Kevin...
Mustache cop?bahahaahaahh, fuck you dude
#off the cuff thoughts#still processing#but there's def no in between#unsure whether it was really good or really bad#yellowjackets spoilers
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okay following up though... i understand that you are jewish and Israeli but (not trying to attack you, just trying to understand) how can you stand with the state of Israel after seeing the numbers of atrocities that the IDF has committed - of course the hostages should be released, but palestine will cease to exist if this continues and this is an active genocide. people are being displaced and thousands have died. how can you in good conscience stand with the actions of Israel ?
im still assuming this is in good faith! i do appreciate that you're asking and not attacking, it's really nice change of pace tbh. please understand that my ethnicity and my political opinions are not the same thing and how i feel about the state of israel is divorced from my religious beliefs. i just also believe that my people have a right to live in our indigenous land. i also believe palestinians should be able to live in israel (many already do.) anyway, here's the deal.
first, im not israeli, but my family is. i was born and raised in the u.s. while most of my family is israeli, i am not (yet.) im an american jew with strong roots in israel.
second! israelis have been displaced since october, since the attacks by hamas, the governing body of gaza. they've been attacked and killed for years (the whole reason the iron dome exists is because missiles are such an active threat.) getting displaced or killed has happened to israelis and gazans. its terrible for everyone. i am human, and therefore uncomfortable with war, but i don't think it's a genocide. i am horrified by the deaths in gaza. i hate that innocents are being harmed. i don't want to add a however, but there's a big one- it's that the ratio of killed militants v.s civilians is unfathomably low. if israel wanted to kill everyone in gaza (which is 100% not the goal) they would be dead already. the war is active now only to eradicate hamas, which would be beneficial to gazans and israelis, and to rescue the hostages. israel has offered to end the war multiple times and hamas has refused.. because they refuse to return the people they kidnapped. the war could've been over months ago!!! months ago. israel did not instigate this war, and has repeatedly offered ceasefire deals. hamas is the one shooting these offers down. also, palestine wont just cease to exist.. im not sure what that part means, can you explain it? i want to understand you, too.
also. i have cousins in the idf. one of them was supposed to come over before last days on sukkot and couldn't make it in the end. over the weekend, october seventh happened. the next time we spoke, it was a phone call right after simchat torah ended. he was on his way to the airport, having been called back to israel to meet his unit in kfar aza and start collecting bodies. i only had a few minutes to tell him i love him and to stay alive on behalf of me and my siblings. the memory is so surreal. we turned on our phones for the first time in days to texts from our israeli family saying they were alive, not to watch the videos, not to look at the pictures. im still kind of stuck there on my couch, holding my siblings in a hug and wondering if someone who hadn't texted yet was dead. then we saw people celebrating the massacre. they haven't really stopped. so we knew we couldnt really count on anyone to protect us, and this was way before israel entered gaza. people were just happy jews were dead. don't know if this is a huge sidetrack, but. this is why i stand with israel. their goal is to keep my family alive. their goal is to keep as many gazans as possible alive. that is not the goal of iran and hamas. this goes further than zionism though, tbh. zionism is pretty simple as a principle 😅
#this fairly off the cuff#i dont think its very articulate#sorry about that#i hope i answered in a way that makes sense?#feel free to ask more questions if you want#jumblr#jewblr#i stand with israel#these are personal thoughts and not universal i hope that's clear :)#israel#also like. if youre asking if i support netanyahu?#i do not
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was thinking about Sonic and Shadow having their fucked up forms, and it made me sad that Silver was left out so here!!! he gets to be an angel <3
i was inspired to act on this idea and got some of the design ideas from this post by @kosmic-neptune !!
(dont mind the little guy in the top left, thats my friend he wanted to be in the drawing)
#twip draws#went with the solaris wings because 1: i wasnt sure i could fit three sets of wings on this bad boy and 2: they fuck severely#his cuffs are supposed to look like biblically accurate angels (<ik thats not the correct term for them but im tired and cant be bothered t#look it up) with chains coming off of them#sorta like. symbolically showing how hes chained to the future or whatever#gave his markings a bit of an expansion too#also no gloves or shoes cuz i thought itd look clunky#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#sth#silver the hedgehog#this is so needlessly edgy LOLL but its ok i had fun <3 i like how this came out honestly#also ik its late at night hush i can post whenever i want idc about engagement
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To be honest, a big part of why I dislike the fact that YR doesn’t explicitly address ableism is because I think this fandom in particular would benefit a lot from the sort of discussions a show that takes so much care with these topics could produce.
With the way people talk about Sara’s auDHD, Micke’s addiction, Kristina’s breakdown, and even August’s ED/addiction, it’s clear a lot of you view mental illnesses/disabilities as a choice someone makes or a punishment they can deserve/earn. There’s a difference between one’s disability being used as an excuse and it being a valid reason/explanation for actions the person still has to take responsibility for that few of you seem to recognize or care about, and treating these characters’ disabilities and mental illnesses like something they earned/deserved bc of something they did implies very harmful beliefs about real disabled people.
On top of those implications, the only disabled/mentally ill character people treat with nuance and care is Wille, the main character who gets all the excuses/explanations. To a disabled person (i.e. me), it appears that some of you refuse to care about/empathize with disabled people on your own. Instead, you view us as morally bad and alien at the first sign of symptoms, and you only change your mind when an explanation you deem satisfactory makes us palatable or relatable to you. Since it's currently Disability Awareness/Pride Month, it's a good time for some of you to learn how to see both us as people and our disability without lengthy justification or respectability politics.
#shimmer's thoughts#young royals#sara eriksson#prince wilhelm#august horn#queen kristina#micke eriksson#also these two things are probably related#bc if you view disabilities as things a person earns by being bad in some way#it makes a lot of sense that when you see a disabled person you default to demonizing them#now i'm not very good at talking about this kinda thing off the cuff but i think sara and i have similar styles of autism#or at least i interpret her that way#so maybe i can go into detail about why i think she is the way i think she is to help people broaden their horizons#and consider disabled perspectives and stuff#i already have posts about her and i will also answer asks as long as they're not the shitty ones i get every time i talk about her#edit: when i queued this i thought i would have rewatched the show by now. whoops#gimme like a week
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those people trying to cancel sabrina carpenter for being an adult that sings about adult things while parents continue to bring their kids to her concerts despite her having lyrics that literally say “i’m so fucking horny” are gonna get a real kick out of the twelve year old that thought she was getting picked for the juno bit 🙃
#for context sabrina does a bit before she plays the song juno where she arrests an audience member for being too hot#her ‘clothes fall off’ aka she’s wearing a long skirt and it turns into a mini skirt#and she gives the audience member pink fuzzy hand cuffs and dedicates the song to them and even changes the first baby to their name#all fun and games#but last night she was trying to do this bit with her opener who was in the audience#and there was a twelve year old girl next to her who thought sabrina was talking to her#sabrina was sweet about it obvs and tried to make the girl feel included and like amended the bit and all#but i just knoooow those fucking idiots are gonna have some shit to say#maybe don’t bring your kids to her show where the album she’s touring talks about sex like a lot!!! HELLO!!!#like when i went there were so many little girls and i’m like WHY ARE YOU BRINGING YOUR KIDS HERE!!! SHE HASNT BEEN ON DISNEY IN TEN YEARS!!#sabrina carpenter
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Merline DLC please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please
#cassette beasts#I am SHAKING with excitement this is so big#the pic looks like Kayleigh and the mc in some sort of warmly lit cave or tunnel system (possible an underground maze of some sorts?)#and the green is VERY reminiscent of a station entrance. TWO station entrances#I don't usually care for the caves very much but I will TAKE a plotline about exploring the deeper depths of the station system#maybe following up on the whole Here Comes the Sun debacle or that weird comment about how 'our worlds need us'#what does that mean Bytten. WHAT DOES THAT MEAN#these are all very off-the-cuff thoughts I need to review my notes (screenshots)
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I have my first day at my new job tomorrow, and they have me on a PACKED schedule for the next couple weeks, so there probably won't be much activity here during the week.
#ghoul speaks#i will be focused on my series instead of off the cuff thoughts#as long as i have the spoons after work#GOD I AM SO NERVOUS#really fun having election and first day nerves
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👀 bifrost incident stage play????
youve opened pandoras box my friend. get ready
okay so i had this idea back in 2019 when i first got into the mechs and specifically first heard tbi. im a theater kid and have chronic amv/animatic brain where i visualize things real easy, so when i first listened to this album i was SLAMMED with the realization that, actually, tbi is PERFECT for a stage adaptation
imagine, if you will:
inspector lyf, at his desk side-stage and in front of the curtains. stalking across the stage, talking direct to the audience as he waves the black box, setting the stage and the story ahead and theorizing as to whats going on
the first chords of odins launch speech are heard, and the curtains open wide on the exterior of the train, odin at a podium, and a crowd listening intently
during each of lyfs speaking parts (cold case/person of interest/etc), he walks across the stage and explains things, as the set changes behind him. new characters arrive, spotlights shining as lyf wonders what theyre doing there, if they were the one that sabotaged the train
in the style of kabuki theater, the stagehands are dressed all in black, silently moving the set around the actors, changing things and completely invisible, the audience accustomed to ignoring them at this point
lokis song comes, and the whole time she sings, she is beset by these stagehands, dragging her around like another set piece, harassing her, interacting with her but still invisible to everyone else. sigyn tries to get her attention during her song, tries to pull her into their wedding dance- but the stagehands keep pulling loki into dances of their own, all while sigyn has no idea why her wife wont so much as look at her
losing track, lyf is losing track and the suspects are lined up onstage, singing, taunting as lyf stalks among them, grabbing their arms and faces and demanding answers. as he loses his mind, falling into despair, they turn to him and grab him back, pull him down, yell the only words they have left at him as he despairs.
the live band is dressed in theme, all steampunk-ed up, on a mini stage off opposite lyf with minimal lighting on them, until- expert testimony comes by, lyf bemoans having to go to the imprisoned bandits that annoy him so, as he crosses the stage, only for the lights to rise on the band and guess who theyve been the whole time!
red signal. lyf stands center stage, frozen in place as he chants, summoning that squamous something from beyond the veil, as those stagehands, all-black, all-invisible, shift and change before the audiences eyes, pulling out rainbow scarves, makeup once hidden shining bright and vivid in sudden black light. they dash off the stage as the rip between worlds widens, run amok the audience, slamming through doors and screeching as lyf voice raises higher, higher, until-
intermission
and when the audience comes back, the stage is... wrong
more black light, the set has warped and twisted. rainbow lights shimmer brighter on the backdrop, splashing in pools on the stage and the actors faces. the stagehands run free now, the monsters from behind the veil, the unholy things now attacking the actors directly, tearing them apart as the train falls into chaos
thor confronts the all-mother, transformed; she stands at the top of a podium now, the top of a platform while her costume has expanded around her, grandiose robes melting into a massive, writhing puppet manned by the stagehands, a bright and staring eye projected behind her head, staring at the audience, watching. thor fights off the hands, loses, and finally throws his hammer at the eye- replaced with a bright, white crack as the stars claim them both
loki and sigyn share a final tender moment in the engine room, they get their dance in before sigyn slips the line into her wifes arm. they share a final kiss as the curtains close on them, leaving...
lyf, standing center-stage. bottle in hand, exhausted, terrified. he bids the audience good luck, laughs wryly about the bandits disappearing - at some point, the live band quietly disappeared from their side-stage - and slips behind the curtain
terminus
the radio static fizzes, and as we hear the panic spread across the galaxy, the curtains part for bows. the bell tolls, flashing that bright, staring eye back as all other lights go off, plummeting everyone into dark and stark relief
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so yeah, ive thought of this a normal amount
#the mechanisms#the bifrost incident#personal#my writing#technically??#anyways i havent actually opened the doc this is all in in years#but ive thougth about this and turned these thoughts and visuals over in my head enough times#that i completely one hundred percent was able to just rattle all this off the cuff#can you tell im autistic. anyways if i had unlimited budget i would one hundred percent make this#but theres so much that i just cant see happening on your average local theaters budget. so
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i bet you guys would all lose your gourds if i did a short animation for this guy i know exactly how he would move and everything in my head and it would be REALLY GOOD its a shame i need to work on my attention span for animation again.
#long odd limbs with white cuffs and gloves with maybe a couple strings tied around the fingers hes got long pants on with a rip in one of t#the legs#the shadow of Batman with his own complimentar design take to go with this joker. coming closer#this joker in a dramatic mock show of yeilding puts his hands up and back away slowly with a few drips of sweat off his brow and grey#shadows deapen in the creases of his outfit and his face#and i havent thought the rest but the joker gets away somehow
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If you had to name the Mar Katoto Top 5 Media that changed your life, what do you think you’d list?
kirby (games + anime + basically any media involving my favourite video game character)
sonic (same as above)
ai the somnium files
studio ghibli movies (castle in the sky, in particular)
adventure time
#the questions#these are all very off-the-cuff so i bet if i REALLY thought about it it might change#but these are good too i think
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relistening to bitb and god kian is SUCH a liar
#'took those with led zeppelin'#'partied with the guys from guns and roses'#and he planned to tell them more stories#how many of these huge fucking lies did he prepare in advance#or does lying off the cuff just come naturally to him after years of practice#god......#he's just like me frfr#jrwi bitb#kian stone#jrwi spoilers#bitb spoilers#buggy thoughts#silver screen
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I think it's interesting the way children's autonomy and adult autonomy go hand in hand, and the way the ongoing attack on trans people makes this relationship more obvious than ever (at least to me). republicans were recorded discussing their "endgame" of banning transgender care for everyone regardless of age, and in it they rationalize these previous years' focus on banning transgender care for minors by claiming it's just because they need to "take small bites" in the campaign towards their end goal. they blatantly state that they do not think anyone, regardless of age, can consent to gender transition, but only with minors is it so socially acceptable to claim they aren't capable of consent.
because of this widespread idea that children are not capable of consenting to anything, or capable of expressing any form of autonomy, and because of the idea that they are a second class of citizens beneath adults (and often more specifically: beneath their parents, who they are the "property" of), children become the ideal target for this kind of political action. these republicans knew people were less likely to question it if they infringed the rights of children, so that's why they started their ongoing attack on transgender people with an attack on trans children.
the revelations of this audio recording should not be surprising to anyone who's been paying attention, but personally this drives home the idea to me that in order to protect both children and adults we as a society need to reframe the way we view the autonomy of children. I don't know the perfect solution here, but the way children are currently viewed is clearly dangerous, and as LGBT people we need to be more proactive allies to children because our struggles go hand in hand and always have.
#is that a solid analysis? I'm tired and this is just off-the-cuff but these are my thoughts and feelings#and regardless: autonomy for everyone by any means necessary
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Personality development headcanons
#ragbros#I think diluc as a kid was one of those extroverted introverts with a heck ton of energy but none of it went to socializing#whereas kaeya was extremely closed off and reserved#who tried his hardest to make himself invisible or useful to someone to justify his existence#also kid kaeya can and will psychoanalyze every person he comes across#to a scarily accurate degree#meanwhile diluc is like social skills what’s that#(he was always off in his own world studying exploring#or causing havoc when he really wanted attention lol)#then as they get older diluc becomes more grounded in reality thanks to knightly and older sibling responsibilities#kaeya becomes less crushed by the weight of his reality and lets himself lighten up and enjoy the company of the people he loves#idk just some off the cuff thoughts#I am trying to capture their Vibes#I would love to read other people’s thoughts on this topic!!
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Some more Killer Klowns headcanons
These goofy silly guys have me in a choke hold send help Might Delete Later~
Tw: Discussion of sickness (serious sickness - rabies), Klown weaponry / death, and NSFW at the very end.
- Klowns CAN get sick. Regular flu and cold symptoms can easily be taken care of (like the day they get sick), but they have a version of Rabies, and it's spread just like how human rabies is spread (being bitten by an infected animal). It's incurable, and it makes them Supreme Frantic ™️. They sweat a lot, getting extremely warm within a few minutes of getting bitten. They vomit a lot, and their eyes water really badly/ they'll have a deep purple hue to their eyes (basically bleeding from the eyes). The final form of this is cannibalism, where they go completely nuts and try to bite every living thing that comes near them (including other Klowns) with the intention to kill them and eat them. This is not a common occurrence, and it's always noticed far before it gets too wild. But just like with humans, it's terrifying for Klowns, too. This is the ONE sickness that brings Klown doctors to tears. The Klown that gets infected, depending on when they're caught, is either mercy killed (bc this illness is also super painful for the subject) or they're studied. Klowns are desperate for a cure for this, even if it's not too common.
- Klowns are super buoyant in water. Water rolls right off of them, so it's near impossible for them to drown. If they're put in water, their skin releases an oily substance that keeps water away from them. They still can't swim for shit. They just flail and float. They love the beach, though, because they take little dust baths like chinchillas. If, for some reason, they're put in water and they get wet (oil deficiency), water can be super harmful to their skin.
- Some Klowns, for research purposes (Rudy would probably do something like this), will sneak over to Earth during the fall and pretend to be a scare clown at a haunted house. They go in small groups to take notes on what scares humans and how they react to being scared. They learned very quickly: Fall is for scares, Winter is for jollier clowns dressed in reds and white, and any other time, regular circus clowns are more common. They could go during any time to research humans, but they find it easier to fit in when everything is centered around scary. It's more of a safe than sorry thing.
- Klowns make their own weapons and can make weapons out of. Literally anything. There are specific Klowns who specialize in rerouting weaponry and teaching others how to use it. One way to know it's a Klown weapon is how colorful it is ☺️ they also really like being creative with their weapons. *Klowns using a weapon against another Klown is a death sentence, UNLESS it can be proven it was an accident* if it was an accident, however, said Klown gets banned from using weaponry permanently. They also can't go out in the field if they choose to go on another invasion. They'll be in charge of looking after the popkorn on the ship, probably forced to stay close to either another Klown or the big boss.
- Klowns do have holidays. They have a holiday that celebrates when the invaders come back to their planet (like a one day event, but it celebrates the invaders). They have one kind of like Halloween, except it's a half year long celebration. They have one that is about the older Klowns, and they have one celebrating new/ younger Klowns. These are all separate days (sometimes months long), and sometimes their holidays are random. Just a huge party on their planet for the most mundane things.
- Klowns have movies and televisions. They're more advanced than human tvs, being incredibly thin, lightweight, and can adjust to light. Their version of entertainment mostly comes from Klown drama, Klown circus acts, and Klown made horror films.
- All Klowns like having their nails painted. Whether they're male or female, it's a form of bonding to them. Their nails are so tiny, though, so ya gotta be careful. They take dust baths, though, so a full-on spa day might not be ideal. I like to think Klowns take dust baths to clean them from other planet parasites and to help them not get sunburned during the day.
‼️ Another NSFW Section ;; 18+ ONLY‼️
- Klowns hide their penises in a pouch under their lower belly area when not in use, so it looks like they don't have genitals on a regular basis. They can inflate and deflate like the female Klown breasts to impress mates. When they're erect, Klown penises look thicker than human penises, and a tad bit bigger than human penises (because Klowns compared to humans are bigger anyways, being 7+ ft tall). Their penis are covered in light (non-harmful) barbs to help them stimulate their mates, helping in reproduction. Males can control their erections and the females can control when their breasts inflate.
- Male Klown cum sticks inside the female. It still has a watery slime texture, but the way the females are built, it hardens and sticks when ejected. Also helping in reproduction. Human mates are a bit harder for this to happen, and it's the reason it's a bit harder for them to mate. If a Klown stays inside for a bit afterwards, the cum will eventually harden after a few minutes, whereas female Klowns - it's immediate. If a male Klowns cum is exposed to air, it keeps the watery appearance and they cum a good amount each time. It looks and feels just like watery slime.
- Until Klowns have mates, they don't really engage in sexual activities (with other Klowns or themselves).
- Because of the last point, when Klowns do mate, they drool uncontrollably. Part of the reason is to use their saliva as a lubricant, and the other reason is because they can't handle their pleasure levels. Expect lots of drooling, guttural throat noises (growling, hissing, grunting, exct.), and aggressive behavior. They can't help it. They're gonna scratch and bite, and they're gonna be a fountain of saliva. Klowns in general are pretty drooly, but during..the ✨️ act ✨️ it's excessive.
- If a Klown male successfully reproduces with a human female and they make a child, Klown males and females are equally involved in their mate and child's life. Klowns insist their pregnant mate stay in the home the majority of the pregnancy, and they bring things to them. Things that would make them more comfortable (like soft blankets and fun games or puzzles to keep them busy) and TONS of food. Female Klowns might bring their pregnant lover toys for the baby and flowers or balloons for their mate.
- It's possible for Klowns to change their sex. They can easily go from male to female and vice versa. Some Klowns even opted to have both genitals (not as common, but it's possible)
#kkfos#killer klowns#killer klowns from outer space#killer klowns headcanons#headcanons#off the cuff headcanons#i thought of these on the spot#all in good fun ✨️
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Fallout show spoilers below. A mostly exhausted rant, of sorts.
Bethesda’s fetish for keeping the world of Fallout perpetually quantum locked into nothing more than a post-apocalyptic wasteland just makes everything feel so…purposeless.
First the Commonwealth, and now the NCR. Why should even bother getting invested in these factions when they’re just going to be destroyed/reset later on. Worse actually. They’re always destroyed off screen. We don’t even get to experience their decline. Just a second hand, expository explanation after the fact.
And if a faction as ingrained into the series as the NCR isn’t safe from being just offed off screen, then what is even the point anymore. The series reduced to nothing more than an endless wasteland of raiders and baby faced vault dwellers forever, until the end of time.
Unless of course you’re the Brotherhood of Steel. A faction Bethesda are more then happy to bend over backwards to break canon for. Or the Enclave, who will seemingly always persist no matter how many times their leaders are killed, or bases blown up.
Just…what’s the point anymore. Why should we care? The world will never be allowed to recover. Any interesting stories it could provide atomised in the single minded drive to keep everything in ruins, and to forever keep this world trapped in the state in which it began.
As the eternal aftermath of the Great War…
…and never allowed to be able to move on from it. Never again allowed to move forward. To just move on.
#fallout#fallout show#fallout show spoilers#musings#my musings#for complete transparency I’ve only seen up to episode 2 so far#but the internet fully spoiled it for me#the show is still enjoyable as a piece of media#but I strongly disagree with the direction the lore is taking#this was an off the cuff series of thoughts cobbled together#but I’m so annoyed I felt the need to verbal vomit about it
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as someone who used to be a (mostly) one direction blog (and a liam girlie back in the day) i am understandably not doing well.
i haven’t been posting anything related to it because frankly, i have been grieving. seeing him and all the beautiful tributes make me cry, the awful realities of what happened make me cry, seeing his dad and paul in argentina makes me cry, having old friends reach out to me and check on me. seeing the boys’ posts, their families, etc. and then…i opened twitter to the leaked photos of, well, his d*** body (don’t even get me started on my absolute anger and disgust over that entire situation, i am very genuinely traumatized and will be talking through it in therapy this week). i cannot express in words how much and how many feelings i’ve felt the last handful of days. my hope is to reblog posts related to the statements from folks, some of my old posts, and just in general the wave of positivity that i’ve been seeing on here since it happened.
if you scroll back enough in my blog, i was defending liam way back during the 1d days, because there were always times liam wasn’t treated fairly. i’d like to mention, it should go without saying that certain situations with liam in the last few years were not situations i was okay with defending, and instead welcomed the apologies he’d give and NEVER ever took part in the dogpiling and bullying. criticism, concern, and respectful discourse, sure. the apologies weren’t mine to accept though, and i genuinely just welcomed them in hopes he could conquer the struggles he faced so publicly. i was rooting for him to get the help and support in his personal life that he needed and deserved. addiction and mental health are not issues so easily helped. it is heartbreaking. none of us can ever know the worst or in fact the best of him…we weren’t in his life and we didn’t know him.
that being said, i have absolutely no interest in discussing those matters here. i respect everyone’s opinions on those fronts and how they feel. it truly is complicated. all i would like to say is that here on this blog, i want to at least have a moment to briefly remember the parts of my life that one direction greatly improved: giving me friends for life, memories i hold dear, strength and solace during dark times, unbridled joy, community, and etc. etc.
anyone who needs someone to talk to, i am here. this community has been nothing short of chaotic over the years, but the love and care has always shone through, and those who were there just get it. we always wanted to protect the boys and i know they know that we have always wanted the very best for them. liam loved one direction the way all of us did, and he flat out showed up for and supported his brothers in their solo endeavors. he loved the music, the joy, the shows, the fun, US, and all the good parts of one direction. and that’s what i will keep reminding myself as i continue figuring out how to grieve.
long live one direction.
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#i want to make sure this is here#i don’t want it to seem like i’m ignoring#it’s just#fucking awful#this is literally off the cuff thoughts#please don’t judge#idk what to say#liam#liam payne#one direction#rip liam payne
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