#ofc watching her play is cute but going to her practice is wacky lmao

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this is the smallest complaint in the world but people clowning on steven for not wanting to sit and watch taylor's volleyball camp is so funny to me. like unless volleyball camps are different than I remember it would be lowkey weird for me to have a bf come and watch me practice in a gym all day like don't you have other things to do? isn't it like drills and teambuilding, etc?

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5/7/17, 3:33am - update pt3, just random odds and ends

it was so great to see my fam the other weekend.

Me taven and trusten all have the same hair and we’re like all about the same thickness now it’s weird lol. All jamming out to the new Kendrick, I felt Really in sync with the first time like ever. It was nice. Like even though we’re not the closest we still relate really well? maybe? I guess I don’t get to have too many real conversations.

Shit wait well our hair is a Little different, did I ever wrote that I followed through with getting it dyed? It’s like ‘barely blonde’ kinda gold, it’s super fucking sweet. might go a little lighter sometime this month, but yeah when I visited dar it lightened up so I Must’ve mentioned it. Trusten told me he loved it though so I feel super fucking accomplished. And Roxy did too, actually, and said that I was wearing my hair fine, so that’s fucking spectacular. I’ve literally gotten nothing but compliments lately hahah.

I was heckling trusten about him having a harem of girls smooching on him and he says “yeah sucks that they don’t know that I’m gay” and I responded “I mean I’m biflexible, it’s 2017 yknow” and he says “I mean it’s 2017. Of course.” Trusten’s too good at joking like how I do, I can’t get a real good read on what his actual thoughts are a lot of the time. And Taven, though he’s come miles, still doesn’t conversate the best. I have to drive the conversation and he’s all on board, but seems like he doesn’t know where to take it himself kinda. Though, to be fair, I was avoiding a lot of the little drama kid peeps because I don’t know what the fuck to say to them either. Maybe they feel the same? The only moments I kinda bonded with the new drama kids were where we memed a ‘longest yea boi’ and they were happy I joined in, and when I was congratulating people after the play and talking about random shit. Hunter said I made the one girl’s day just saying that she did great. I guess I just say to people what I’d want people to say to me? One of the seniors was bawling his eyes out for a long time after the play was over, I like hugged him for a bit and told him “don’t worry, you never really leave.” I’m not sure if that was even true. I feel like a totally different person from who I was in high school. I’ve practically gone around the moon and come back. But I think maybe that’s what I’d have wanted to hear? Idk maybe I just gave him shitty advice and people should just move on lol. Who knowsssssssssss I’m sure it didn’t hurt him hahaha.

Been jamming out to a bunch of new music. New sylvan esso finally dropped and it’s hot as expected. New Gorrillaz I’m not super into but the song trusten put on in the car for me I bump a lot lately. 

Found out my “a wise poet once said, other days other ways” might have been a rip off from School of Rock because there’s a line in the play that’s similar. I was hoping trusten was paying a personal homage to me, but ofc that wasn’t it lmao. He fucking kicked that play’s ass though. Everyone struggled on the guitar solos at the climax hahaha, but I wouldn’t have done any better for sure I fucking sucked at guitar when I was his age. His acting was so good, Hunter called him a better jack black than jack black. I think it’s the only play I’ve watched twice in a weekend hahah. 

Holy shit Brianna randomly messaged me, we’re gonna go on a date tomorrow. Everything in my life is going so fucking great, man. It’s like almost ominous lol when I first got to gboro I was like “is this even bad? My life seems like it’s going so well right now wtf.” I mean I have to get recertified and this whole work move is an upheaval for sure, but I guess from playing magic back as a kid I should know that an Upheaval isn’t always a bad thing for me.

sweeeet wish me luck on this date tomorrow I have to successfully wake up before 11 lol and also not blow things with her and also get the basket of clothes out of my back seat so she doesn’t make fun of me again lmfao. 

I guess I should get to work.

OH wait I forgot. So the beginning of this not-posting period I finally wrapped up BOTW. Got almost all the gear maxxed out, got all the shrines, smoked nearly a gram to myself and just played out the final boss and the cut scenes in the end game canon armor I felt sooooo fucking good about it. Everything was like perfect. Let Helena borrow the game after so it needed to be hahah.

Also I wanted to write about my first day in gboro because I thought it was lulzy.

Friday I was supposed to go to a work function/party at Frankie’s fun park at 4pm, so after the regular thursday post tournament safety shenanigans I got to bed at like 4, fell asleep by like 6, felt normal. Maybe it was 8 and I’m lying to myself to cover my ass but who knows. Ended up sleeping all the fucking way through friday until 9pm, woke up to a dead phone in a fucking panic that I was late for the first time in an eternity. Did my classic routine of running screaming through the house terrified that my life was over. Fonzi calmed me the fuck down and told me to just text my boss. I immediately went to default “sorry, i’m sick” text mode and he was just like get the fuck in here so I don’t have to stay. Wasn’t even really mad. Turned out just fine lol.  So I texted Ash that I was actually coming into town, reminded her to be up at 6:30 to let me in and she said she would. I texted her on the way home and she didn’t respond so I already figured she was gonna have a hard time getting up at best. So I get there, she doesn’t respond, I just start chilling on the porch, smoke some cigarettes, call every 15 mins or so. I got out of work late so I got there at 7 and she’s still not up at 10 so I run off to do get a prescription filled and am just mellow as fuck about it. She finally woke up when I came back about 11:30 and bless her fucking heart she had my bed set up and eye covers and sour patch kids and a bowl packed all set out just for me with a little handwritten cutesy note. She gave me a key and told me she loved me and that she was hungover and going back to sleep and we went to bed and I couldn’t imagine a better fucking start to this chapter in my life. 

Every day since has at the worst been alright (there was the day after doing coke where I was suuuuper hungover), but I’ve been getting drunk and chilling with people and meeting new people and having fun and I fucking love all of it. My life is awesome. Super glad I got to switch my days this week so I’d have thursday off so I could bro one last time with the Raleigh gang, too. It’s been real.

Alright I’m out of time, it’s 4:04, I’ve gotta actually do my work now. No promises when I update next, who knows. When my life is going well I don’t feel the urge to ponder things as hard so I don’t sit on the porch wanting to type shit out forever so idk forreal. But I anticipate some more wacky girl hijynx to happen and for me to get back into playing magic the gathering with Ash and Aaron, and everyone’s starting to take bets on when we have a threesome. So far the closest was when Ash was sick dying in bed and I rubbed her back and he made tea for us [read: not a sexy moment at all. But was really cute when Ash started telling me feelings about Aaron] so I doubt that 100% lmao. 

Anyway, I don’t really know what’s gonna happen for once, so I guess we’ll just see lol