#ofc i had to get sick on my fave holiday

[yelenadelova]

spending all of my christmas eve sleeping because i have a cold :’)

[starchild--27]

85 questions

I was tagged by @kafkascupcake .  This will be fun, so thanks ^^

rules: answer 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

last

1. drink – water with lemon flavour

2. phone call - my hair dresser (if i ignore the fact that i accidently called my dad a few momnets ago when i wanted to look up my last phone call - ofc this had to happen xD)

3. text message - i told some kid from my spanish class tht we didn’t have spanish class last week

4. song you listened to – Californiacation by Red Hot Chili Peppers

5. time you cried - three days ago i think, but i waas at the verge of crying yesterday evening  

6. dated someone twice? – nope. i never dated anyone 

7. kissed someone and regretted it – nope

8. been cheated on – no

9. lost someone special – i’m so grateful to say that i never lost anyone in my life and i am so afraid of the day this will happen to me

10. been depressed - kind of. i have my depressed moments but everyone has at some point

11. gotten drunk and thrown up – never, i’m not drinking much 

fave colours

12. navy blue

13. black

14. metallic shades of basically every colour

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends – i’m always careful with the word friend when it comes to my real life, but let’s say i got to know some people better that have been around for a longer time but i never really interacted with. on the internet things are a little different, so i can say i’ve interacted with a lot of people here and i can’t help but treat them as friends 

16. fallen out of love – not in the last year

17. laughed until you cried - multiple times xD

18. found out someone was talking about you – i really don’t know and i hate that i can’t say this wouldn’t bother me because i really want to know what people think of me - just to be able to understand why they treat me how they do. 

19. met someone who changed you - oh, i really don’t know. i think i didn’t change that much in the last 365 days

20. found out who your friends are – it was a little more than a year ago, but yes i did.

21. kissed someone on your Facebook friends list – i don’t even have facebook

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl – since i don’t have facebook i’ll do this for instagram and there it is probably a minority since i follow countless art pages, celebrities, fanpages, animal pages, political pages, people i don’t know in real life, …

23. do you have any pets - yes - a black cat with the name Black Pearl, which we gave him before i even knew about the song by EXO ^^ his name referred to the ship from Pirates of the Carribbean first xD

24. do you want to change your name – i did in the past, because my name is very rare where i live. but i started to like it after some time. the great thing is that it’s meaning differs since no one really knows it’s true origin. 

25. what did you do for your last birthday - i invited my two best friends but one happened to be sick at that day (ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ) so we were only two but it was great anyway. since i was born the day after walpurgis night we went to the bonfire and spent some time there

26. what time did you wake up today – 7 am but i slept in again and got at 11:20 

27. what were you doing at midnight last night – reading or sleeping, i don’t know for sure

28. what is something you can’t wait for – vacation with my family and the summer holidays in general (school was … much in the last weeks.)

30. what are you listening to right now – the sound of me slamming my fingers on my laptop’s keyboard while writing this lol

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom – i did, in fact to more than one

32. something that gets on your nerves – that i have to go to school for one more year (i hate this place wholeheartedly) but i don’t know what to do with my life after graduating 

33. most visited website - tumblr and youtube

34. hair color – my natural hair colour is brown but i dye it ginger red and i love it

35. long or short hair – pretty long actually, but i have curls so it’s pretty hard to notice how long 

36. do you have a crush on someone -  if we ignore my celebrity crushes then … i don’t know…probably no. i’m not sure about this one boy though but…yeah, i don’t really know him that well and i probably only like the idea i have of how he could be. (this is btw so typical for me xD)

37. what do you like about yourself – don’t get me wrong, i know it sounds tragical and sad, but i don’t have something i like 100% about myself. i am used to it though because i’ve been this way since forever, having high standards for me (and for others probably too, which is very unfair from me) but the closest to 100% is my talent for music.     

38. want any piercings? – only at my ears

39. blood type – A positive

40. nicknames – the most common nickname for my name is Selmi but hardly anyone except for my mom and my sister calls me like that anymore. other than that i have the feeling my friends and i don’t have nicknames but more like pet names for each other. like, i was called “Flauschebausch” (in english “Fluffpuff”) not that long ago (it referred to my hair). i would also count “squirrel”, “the stars” and all that stuff as nicknames but we don’t really call each other often like that in person xD     

41. relationship status - single 

42. zodiac - Taurus (but most of the stuff people say about tauruses are not 100% true for me)

43. pronouns - she/her

44. fave tv shows – lately i finished Game Of Thrones and i liked it so damn much, especially the ending (i really don’t get why it was so hated, but i’ll not explain further - i don’t want to write an essay here xD). i also enjoy watching Gilmore Girls from time to time, but hardly anyone in my generation knows it. and since i read it at @kafkascupcake ‘s post for this tag i just remembered how much i liked Memories of the Alhambra too (gosh, how i waited for every episode to air … i still remember this impatient feeling so well)

45. tattoos – i’m not allowed to have any yet but i’m thinking about getting smaller ones later since i think tattoos are pretty. buuuuut i’m also afraid because i can’t really imagine the pain

46. right or left handed - right

47. ever had surgery – yeah. unspectecular story tho.

48. piercings - only earrings but one of my friends and i plan on getting helix piercings soon (originally this was planned to be done before last christmas but we never found time)

49. sport – no no no no no. i hate it. i always did. i did some horse riding in my childhood but that’s it. i’m just not able to coordinate my body so a fail at basically every kind of sport. and i am easily frustrated when i fail at something so i never really tried to ace sports.  

50. vacation – my last vacation was when i visited Berlin with my two best friends and m next vacation will be in Denmark with my family

51. trainers – Converse Chucks, always and forever

more general

52. eating – i used to be a very picky eater but it gets better with every year. lately i really like spicy food. but i also have a terrible sweet tooth. i am surprised how i am still like super slim …

53. drinking – a trait i inherited from my dad: i love milk. but i also like juices, tea, coffee (with milk ofc xD) and plain water too

54. i’m about to watch – Avengers Endgame. like today. in 2 hrs.

55. waiting for – my train ride to the next bigger city for seeing endgame. and for me getting an idea what i want to do with my life

56. want – to travel and to make music. my two passions

57. get married – i don’t think it’s necessary for a happy relationship but it depends on the person. to be honest, i like the thought of getting married but i totally understand if someone doesn’t like it.

58. career – the biggest question mark in my life rn

which is better

59. hugs or kisses - hugs. i can’t even explain why. but hugs.

60. lips or eyes - i thinj i look at the eyes first. but i am damned if a person has beautiful lips too

61. shorter or taller – taller

62. older or younger - not important

63. nice arms or stomach – yeah ofc stomachs are great. but let’s be real here: i’m a swooning bitch for nice arms.

64. hookup or relationship – relationship. i am a hopeless romantic

65. troublemaker or hesitant - i am an overthinker, which makes me the epitome of hesitant.

have you ever

66. kissed a stranger – never kissed anyone lol

67. drank hard liquor – only mixed with juice

68. lost glasses - yeah. wasn’t cool.bc without glasses i am literally blind

69. turned someone down - kind of.

70. sex on first date - no

71. broken someone’s heart – i hope not.

72. had your heart broken – yip. my first heavy crush was not that happy. but i am over it since the guy was and still is a jerk and i don’t even know why i fell for him anymore

73. been arrested - no

74. cried when someone died - yes

75. fallen for a friend – never

do you believe in

76. yourself – depends on the situation.

77. miracles - there are moments in which i do

78. love at first sight - yes

79. santa claus -  no

80. kiss on a first date – yeah.. i think itmight happen xD

81. angels - who knows? it would be great though.

other

82. best friend’s name - deer of the sun @swiftfeatherscorner and cat of the moon @fille-de-janvier xD i don’t know if they’d like to have their real names published here but here you ahve their tumblrs

83. eye color - i looked it up someday and it’s called glasz - a strange mix between green, blue and grey with some golden dots and marks. depends on the lightning which colour is stronger.

84. fave movie – impossible to tell.

85. fave actor – also impossible to tell. there are so many good actors in this world

i’m not even sure if 20 people will read this so i’ll just tag everyone who has time to answer 85 questions xD

[her-mv]

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

I was tagged by my loml @chan-yule and i dont know 20 people so,,,

@ironicbuttsex @makiferraro @hoodmist @cactusgurl101 & @ any mutual that sees this i would love to read ur answers

Last

Drink: coke

Phone call: friend

Txt message: gc(milkshook)

Song you listened to: somebody to love

Time you cried: idk yesterday

Dated someone twice: nope

Kissed someone and regretted it: nope

Been cheated on: nope

Lost someone special: yeah

Been depressed: 🤙

Gotten drunk & thrown up: yeah lmao i was already sick and throwing up before that so that was just great for me

Fave colours

Yellow

Light blue

Black

In the last year have you...

Made new friends: yes

Fallen out of love: yeah

Laughed until you cried: ofc

Found out someone was talking about you: yes

Met someone who changed you: no

Found out who your real friends are: sure

Kissed someone on your facebook list: who tf uses fb

General

How many of your fb friends do you know irl: most of them

Do you have any pets: my one and only love of my life, my dog

Do you want to change your name: nah i like it

What did you do for your last bday: cried bc i was surprised with nice gifts, went out and later celebrated it two more times dhjsja

What time did you wake up today: 7 am

What were you doing at midnight last night: having a good night's rest

What is something you cant wait for: to live with my friends

What are you listening to right now: the sweet sound of silence

When was the last time you saw your mom: rn

Have you talked to a person named tom: sure

Name something that gets on your nerves: chewing loudly

Most visited website: twt/ tumblr

Hair colour: dark brown

Long or short hair: shoulder length

Do you have a crush on someone: sadly

What do you like about yourself: my humor that everyone shits on dhshsj

Want any piercings: sure

Blood type: idk lmao

Nicknames: ari mostly but there are many more

Relationship status: single

Zodiac sign: taurus

Pronouns: she/her

Fave tv shows: b99

Tattoos: wanna get some

Right or left handed: right

Ever had surgery: nope

Piercings: nope

Sport: not really

Vacation: well im on holiday rn but i was in italy for a week three months ago

More general

Eating: ate some cheese a minute ago

Drinking: water

Im about to watch: netflix

Waiting for: some time alone doing nothing

Want: for my friends and close ones to be happy

Get married: no thanks

Career: yeah djdjd

Which is better

Hugs or kisses: hugs

Lips or eyes: eyes

Shorter or taller: either

Older or younger: either is fine

Nice arms or stomach: whatever lmao

Hookup or relationship: no thanks

Troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

Have you ever

Kissed a stranger: nope

Drank hard liqour: yeah

Lost glasses: don't have any

Turned someone down: no

Sex on first date: no

Broken someone's heart: nope

Had your heart broken: yeah lmaoo

Been arrested: no

Cried when someone died: yes

Fallen for a friend: :/

Do you believe in

Yourself: sometimes

Miracles: sure

Love at first sight: no

Santa Claus: come get yalls cookies

Kiss on a frist date: uhh

Angels: yes im the only angel here

Other

Best friends name: 🤡

Eye colour: dark brown

Fave movie: uhhhh well i did cry six times while watching bohemian rhapsody

Fave actor: don't have one

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Survey says...

Ok, time for a little (jk, intensely long) debrief on the survey results.

I’m glad you guys like the writing-to-art balance I have going right now.  I’m gonna keep it up.

I’m glad you’re cool with the life updates too.  I’ll keep up the surface level/important stuff kind of posts I’m doing now.  If you want more detailed mouthing off/journal-style meditations on my life (mainly my transition), you can follow my sideblog @my-wayward-son.

I had a feeling most of you were here for the fanfic, but there’s a solid number here for the OCs as well.  That’s awesome.

Your favorite OC group is Casa Deangles-Carson.  They come out way on top, and everyone else is pretty equal in terms of popularity.  I’m loosely organizing an arc for them, but I don’t have a ton of ideas.  I plan on rotating groups and churning out about 1 OC fic per week.  I have longer arcs planned for H and P (ofc, they’re still pregnant) and Jax Beach.

I’m pleasantly surprised you guys like the slice of life fics so much, and that helps a lot with moving the characters forward.  Sickfics are my fave too, but there’s a different kind of character development that can happen without whump as a factor.

You guys are split pretty equally about whether you’d enjoy a Troy backstory novel.  A lot of you are undecided, and I’ll poll you again when it gets closer to November.  I’m tentatively thinking I’ll split the difference and go ahead and take the time off to work on the book, but maybe open short drabble requests on weekends to keep up my content presence (I’ll still be around for headcanons and random chatter throughout the month).  I’d probably post the finished book on AO3 once it’s done and edited, so you’ll get to enjoy the completed project for free and within a few months of completion, if that sways your thoughts at all.

You’re also split pretty evenly about introducing Kris and Khalil.  I think what I’m going to do is let them pop out a little bit more in H and P’s arc, and maybe bring them out with a solo fic and character information around December after you’ve had a chance to see them in action as side characters.

As for fanfic, Spider-Man is predictably the favorite.  You also seem to really like Stucky, Iron Man, and Daredevil (that one’s really surprising; those fics get low notes and I get very few DD prompts).

Criminal Minds has a slightly smaller but extremely loyal and vocal following, which I’m well aware of (and I’m sorry I put Spencer on the back burner so much).

Black Panther is also pretty up there, which is super awesome, and the ladies (Nat and Jess) have small yet solid popularity as well.  There’s some interest in Loki, but ngl, I have a hard time writing him, so I’m not sure how often he’ll pop up.  But if you have short drabble prompts for him, send them my way because you never know when something’s going to light a spark.

I don’t think anyone knows what Titan A.E. is, and that’s ok.  I’d flip my shit if I ever got a Cale prompt (but I’d looove it).

I’m going to keep up mostly the status quo in terms of content and themes (it’s what you guys seem to like, and it’s what I like).  So that means a lot of emeto, some fevers and other illness, migraines, motion sickness, and angst/depression take center stage with some injury and other mental health/ED stuff on the side.

RE: writing eating disorders, I figured there were a good number of you who don’t prefer that content.  I totally respect that, and I realize I’m taking a risk when writing it.  It’s a pretty big part of the canon for some of my OCs and fandom characters in the ‘verses I’ve created, so I’m going to keep writing it.  I’m hoping that as it becomes less of a pressing issue for me personally it will kind of fall off the list of things at the forefront of my mind and therefore maybe show up a little less in my fics?  That’s one we’ll have to feel out.

RE: writing depression, I got several responses saying you like it, and a couple saying you don’t like it.  I personally like writing it (but it’s also a big issue for me, so it may be on or off my radar depending on how I’m feeling).  I’ll always be sure to tag it and/or put a warning at the top so you can avoid it if you want to.

As for other content you don’t like so much, if you ever really want me to avoid a topic, don’t be afraid to call it out in a prompt (such as specifying you want to see illness without emeto, or you want the person to be sick at home only).  That said, though, I write whatever comes into my head, and it's primarily either angst, emeto, or both.  As far as hurt/comfort goes, I prefer way more hurt than comfort, and I’m a little picky about which characters I like to use as whumpee and caretaker.  I realize I fall into ruts, but that’s also just how I roll.

If I filled a prompt for you and you weren’t satisfied, I’d love to take the (private, non-confrontational) constructive criticism.  You’re not going to change how I write, but I’d still like to know.  If you’d like to provide input to a requested fic during the writing/editing process, I do take commissions ($1 per 100 words), so if you’re looking for me to write something extremely comfort-heavy or otherwise different from the norm, this would be the route to take.

You guys are very interested in Starbucks Sundays, so that’ll be a go for sure.  I’ll let you know my schedule as it rolls, but I’m looking at something like 1 or 2 in the afternoon to about 5ish (US Mountain Time [-7]) on most Sundays, starting TODAY (in like an hour).  That would make it afternoon in most of North America and late evening in most of Europe, so I think I could hit availability with a lot of time zones.  There will be a few weeks here and there that I’m busy with other things, but this is looking like a solid addition to my schedule.

For the holiday mailing, that’s another pretty even split.  I’ll poll you again when it gets closer, but here are a few clarifications: you would not be required to use a real name, though cards would have to be sent to a real physical address or PO Box.  It would be open internationally, though the post might be slow.  I would not keep your address on file.  It would be deleted as soon as it’s written on the envelope.  Custom cards have to be purchased with a minimum of 15, so if I knew I had at least 15 interested people, I’d do it.

To the few of you who have said you’re too shy to reach out to me, I 100% understand the anxiety (I still feel it sometimes, and when I was a Tumblr noob I was way too scared to talk to a lot of people).  I admit I’m kind of awkward on chat during the getting-to-know-you phase, but I love hearing from you through asks, submissions, chat, whatever (and as long as there’s no hate, I will always respect a desire to remain anonymous).  I know there are times when I’ve been a little frustrated, but please don’t be scared to reach out if you have something to say.

Thank you a million times over for your kind comments and compliments on my writing.  I do a lot of my writing for my own health and happiness, but your feedback really means the world.  I appreciate each and every one of you so much.