#of course this is a silly anecdote a mere drop in the huge ocean but !! there you have it !

[todayesterday]

@m1ssunderstanding asked if i could share more of the story so here it is!! it got long but it’s kind of a once-in-a-lifetime story to tell haha

i don’t really feel comfortable sharing too many details of how it happened because i don’t wanna doxx myself lmao but it happened in a hotel during his recent tour. i was in the lobby when he came down to leave for his concert that day. it was very brief. i first saw him right after he got off the elevator. in person, he looked exactly like i imagined him, and it caught me by surprise?? it was so surreal seeing him from so close after 10 years of being a fan. it felt like i was looking at a life-size video of him or something. after he waved at the hotel staff, i said “hey paul! hi!” and he turned to me with these exact expressions 😮🥰 - he seemed delighted that i said hi to him, which was so cute. it felt as though he was as excited to see me as i was to see him, which is obviously not the case, but he smiled so wide it made me feel like it was. then he walked straight towards me (i couldn’t move because of security and i think i physically wasn’t able to, even if i could). when he looked into my eyes, my brain short-circuited and i extended my arms to him, kind of like i was surrendering, and all i could think to say was “i love you so much”. then he got even closer and stood right in front of me. i had pulled my arms back because i wasn’t about to touch him without his permission, but then he went 😁🖐️ so i went to high-five him and he grabbed my hand. then i said “i love you so much” again like an idiot, and he held on to my hand and squeezed it. i can’t tell you how it felt to feel the warmth of his skin on mine - this was paul mccartney and he was there, squeezing my hand. actual paul mccartney. and his hand was so very soft. it felt out-of-this world. it lasted like, 3 seconds, but it felt like ages. then he let go and continued on walking, of course, because he had places to be. as soon as he turned his back to me i started ugly sobbing (pretty sure he heard it) and wasn’t able to stop for like 30 min afterwards and i felt so embarrassed about it - people were kinda worried about me and all but everyone was really nice and found it endearing that i got so emotional lol. my strongest memory is him coming towards me, but i don’t really recall what he looked like when he touched me - it’s just too much for my brain to process. i didn’t record a video or anything because i didn’t want to stick a phone to his face, but people around me recorded it and i can tell by the videos that he said “thank you” to me, although i didn’t hear it at the time. i think i was too overwhelmed to hear. anyway, it was lovely. he didn’t have to do any of this, he could’ve walked straight past me and moved on with his day, but he didn’t. he stopped and looked at me and held my hand for a few seconds. and i’ll cherish this moment forever & forever. lovely lil paul looking right into my eyes and smiling. he’s just a cool dude sometimes, y’know. apart from everything, apart from it all. he’s just a cool cool dude.

paul mccartney just held my hand and squeezed it tight as i told him repeatedly that i loved him so much. i’m much too shaken to even process it but i just thought it’d share it. his hand is so soft and his eyes so sweet