#of course i dont get into detail about it LMFAOOO

[starmksz]

do u admit to playing yaoi games irl

Yes theres no shame in being my true authentic self ❤

[theyarebothgunshot]

Your tag under this post here so true. Also the post itself. I'm always having a blast when everyone is joined in the craziness, but at the same time I'm always exhausted afterwards 😆

lmao yes so true, it is chaotic in the best way hfdhhsf but i finally have time to freak out some more after being a "responsible adult" all day......

it's been a while since i have done a compilation like this but i dont wanna clog the dash and it's all about the same thing so here we goooo

Jensen did everything in his power to stomp the J*2 narrative into dust this weekend. Love that journey for him!

listen, i am not one to be petty (lol okay sometimes i am, ngl) but.... the difference was SO stark this time, it has to be said

I was obviously hoping for some good cockles content this con, but this has exceeded everything I could have thought of lol. Amazing.

my expectations were pretty managed after we got interrupted so early last time, but this indeed exeeded everything!!

Gonna have a difficult week... And difficult four months until I leave work... But I'm so hyped but today's Cockles nothing's gonna stop me - tea anon

i'm sorry you are gonna face some hard times <3 you know i am here when you want to talk! thankfully jenmish gave us enough seretonin for a life time hdgfhdg

First we get Mish. Dee. Now we have Jensen, Danneel and their boyfriend Misha. Truly could not have predicted them being *that* unhinged but I do love to see it! Going to need about 10 business days to process it all though lmaoooo - Honeymoon Anon

you and me both!!

The thing is, there is absolutely no reason for them to act like that, none. like, can you imagine jensen making that kind of jokes toward jp lmaoooo he'd rather unalive himself💀 but then again, misha is his close friend so , what's the difference hmmm🫠 they are driving me insane Rose

*kermit nodding gif* yeah..... it is a lot lmfaooo

“tell jensen i mentioned him first”

twitter.com/misskittybsdc/status/1630013886844764160?s=46&t=oQYacDuBE2cwV9RJV-7UJg

they wanna score points with the big boss ghdhgh

Rose it's 5 am and I haven't slept yet and I am so not normal about this. I have been around a lot of JIBs so I knew what was coming. Yet, I still am so overwhelmed by everything that happened. I have watched the cockles panel twice by now. Some scenes I have definitely watched more than 20 times. I have perceived more and more details every time I rewind. Jensen Ackles butt wiggling. Him winking at Misha. That weird expression on his face when he made a wish. The movement of chairs, which is, of course - as it always is every JIB - closer together. The weird non-improvisation of the improvisation. Daniela coming in with the CW sniper in the form of a birthday cake to stop Jensen coming out as Misha Collins' boyfriend. Not to mention all the other big things that happened. Canary? Kissing Misha? When in Rome??? The preparation of Misha's 50th birthday party. Misha and Jensen playing an European puppet show with Misha shouting "Dieter I love you! Kiss me Dieter". Rose. Jensen said Misha is Danneel's boyfriend. Jensen said Misha is his boyfriend. The underbear and straddlegate have walked so that this Jibcon panel could run. How am I supposed to sleep? I am not even attending a convetion yet the convention high is keeping me restless. I feel like I need a continuation. Like this was a series finale with a cliffhanger that needs to be resolved. Like there are things that need to come up so this can settle. I have been a cockles perceiver since years yet my patience is limited right now. I mean if I wait a day or two I know it will wear of. It always does. But the boyfriend will stay. Right here with us.

- anon anon (you know who I am)

ahhhhh i totally feel you!! i had to physically make myself go to bed last night because i had to get up early, but it took a LOT to finally go to bed and i slept poorly ngl hfgdhhg i hope you did manage to get some sleep though!! and oof. what a year yesterday was!!!

Also @ all the other anons, I remember you guys, too!!! ♥️ I don't know if you remember me though haha

- anon anon

ahww i'm sure they do!! <3

You Know what i have realised. This weekend have felt like a fan fic of dean and cas but instead of reading it i was watching it.

you're not wrong!!

Ok also at the end of angeles he glances at misha then suddenly stops playing and looks away sooooo bashful. Did you show too much jensen? Did you get nervous when you made eye contact???

👻anon

head in my fucking hands!!!!! jensen.... sweetie....... why sing that song huh????? answer quickly (also hiiii omg love seeing you in my inbox!!)

jensen singing angeles with misha there watching (and at some points singing directly to misha) seems like fanfic AND YET…

and yet..........

[m1ckeyb3rry]

NO IT MAKES SOOOO MUCH SENSE IM LOWKEY MAD I NEVER CONSIDERED IT polar actually just revived me from the October/November wtf season

The nagi psyche exploration was peak I REALLLY enjoyed it!!!!! The details of nagi being really lanky and malnourished because no one takes care of him and he just eats jellies was also perfect because that’s actually likely the case despite the animators still liking to draw him buff off the bat but the teacher performing a wellness check really hitting the nail on the head and drilling in the whole abandonment neglect stuff we’ve talked about before but ok going back to Aiku too I really love how his like…captain-like features really show up in the way he deals with the team and the little nuances nagi picks up on and his I guess tact in convincing nagi to play soccer? Also pause nagi asking Aiku if he made the right choice and Aiku saying NO but I’d never blame you GOODBYEEEEEE almost cried that was so good also the emphasis of Aiku being a gambler was so funny to me for some reason like yeah Aiku fr a go big or go home dude

YESSS THE DEVELOPMENT PACING WAS PERFECT!!! As always you know exactly how to show the growth over the course of the piece and YEAHHH nagi purposefully saying alls good when it’s not #savemeimfine to not bring the mood down RAGHHHRGHDHD but LMFAOOO the niou slander was hilarious

REALLLLLL as I read it I was like wow this is giving epinagi in the last few chapters LMAOAOA I loved it I’m so glad you chose to kept the sae line in there though because that was the greatest insult I’ve ever seen

SHIDHSSJS NAGI UNINTENTIONAL RIZZ LMFOAAOAOAOAOA Aiku wingmanning except nagi doesnt want a wingman but YOOO SAE NAGI INTERACTION PLUS BM HINTS???? I like the way you think

Your prediction/prophetic skills are insane even when it comes to your own productivity pattern LMAOAOA this is an insane comeback but REAL DONT SHY AWAY FROM THESE!!!!

- Karasu anon

polar truly reviving us all except lowkey i went back into hibernation after posting it LKSJDFH it’s fine i’ll be back soon it’s more a lack of time than it is writer’s block now!! which is infinitely easier to deal with than the later…anyways YESSS THEY REALLY ARE THE DUO NO ONE REALIZED THEY NEEDED (including me tbf)

YAYYYY I’M GLAD YOU LIKED IT!!! and yeah everyone likes to harp on him having abs and shit but i’m always like nah abs are at least kinda realistic just due to him having insanely low body fat…i need more people to complain about his SHOULDERS AND ARMS??? because i literally go to the gym and you do NOT see that kind of definition without a lotttt of work LSKDFJH but yeah i do think realistically he would be very skinny and spindly and kinda weak because he just does not get proper nutrients whatsoever 😔 and yeah i thought it was kinda unrealistic that none of his teachers ever worried about him?? maybe it’s a cultural disconnect thing idk but yeah that scene was meant to be the teacher being all cheery and “let’s let every kid work hard and try their best!!” at first and then she was lowkey going to yell at him but then she literally felt BONE through his sweatshirt and had to change gears 😭 when i first wrote that scene i was like “wait i hope it’s obvious that she’s being all sweet and gentle now because she’s WORRIED ABOUT HIM BEING SKINNY” and then i went back and made sure to emphasize aiku calling nagi super super skinny in the scene where they first meet because that’s not actually a canon thing and i didn’t want someone dumb being like “erm why is his teacher rizzing him up after she felt his muscular shoulder isn’t he a minor 🤓☝🏻”

OMG CAPTAIN AIKU YEAHHH especially with the egoist bible they really emphasize how he’s a good leader and whatnot but it’s not shown a ton outside of a few interactions during the u20 game?? so i wanted to throw in more of him really taking the reins and handling a team as well as someone as admittedly difficult as nagi is SKDHF like the way he picks up relatively quickly on how to get nagi to agree to doing things with him and all that 👆🏻 but then he’s also not perfect either and he’s prone to teasing people and dramatic pauses and gambling and thinking only about himself HAHA i didn’t want it to be like “perfect manic pixie girl aiku (that is NOT a sentence i thought i would ever write tbh) is perfect and amazing and rehabilitates nagi and makes him normal !1!1!!” because that would a) be super stereotypical and b) not feel accurate to me?? so i went with it being kind of like…aiku is using nagi in a different way than reo was, and you could argue that it was a better way in the sense that he prepared nagi for the role better, but at the end of the day he’s still using him?? but also they ARE friends and they DO care about each other it’s not strictly one-sided or like an exchange or anything like that!!

THAT’S ONE OF MY FAVORITE SCENES like we have nagi about to crash out and when he’s asking aiku if aiku thought he picked the right person to focus on he doesn’t just mean in soccer he means in general?? and aiku’s like NO but it’s NOT YOUR FAULT UGHHH idk writing that whole game and the interactions between nagi and aiku during the second half was so AHHHH because it’s not even some weird miscommunication thing like nagi and a certain someone have going on in canon?? it’s genuinely just them coming to terms with the fact that their friendship as it is cannot continue now that they’ve encountered sae and bllk etc (hence why aiku finally admits he should’ve chosen someone else — someone who likes soccer — and nagi finally starts playing and enjoying soccer the way aiku wanted him to) also wait fun fact actually not so fun fact aiku’s last line in the story is “no, i probably wouldn’t have” in response to nagi asking him if he would’ve come back and talked to him again if he couldn’t play soccer well 😭😓 SICKENING TO ME I FEAR!! IT STARTED WITH AIKU CHASING NAGI AND ENDED WITH NAGI CHASING AIKU!! except really it was nagi chasing aiku from the start!! he didn’t even know it but he was always chasing him!!

another random fun fact that’s ACTUALLY fun the high school that nagi and aiku go to is deadass an actual school in kanagawa LMAOOO almost every other character BUT aiku has the team they play for outside of bllk/u20s listed but aiku’s hometown is in sweden and he has no other club listed so i had to make it up and i didn’t feel like looking japanese high school naming conventions (?) so i looked up high schools in kanagawa and followed the wikipedia link to the diff school pages and checked their alumni and EVERY SINGLE famous alumni from sagamihara-yaei high school is a soccer player so i was like “yup okay this is perfect” HAHAHA

AIKU THE GAMBLER if you think about it betting on someone like nagi kinda shows a propensity for gambling but also he mentions gambling in his egoist bible profile at least once and lowkey maybe more than once so i had to bring it up somehow…just be lucky that aiku’s cheating didn’t get aired out (mostly because nagi does NOT pay attention to that)

HOORAY pacing is smth i’m sensitive about so it’s good to know you think it went well 🫡 nagi was actually lowkey a cutie pie in his interactions with like everyone in polar…like his awkward conversation with sae on the bus…him asking dopamine-rush-shidou for advice while he’s literally laying on the field soaking in the…dopamine…him trying not to worry his teammates…also i think it’s important to note that most of the u20s are like 19 and shidou/sae are 18 so nagi being 17 is lowkey like a kid to them KLSDJHF like he’s def the freaky talented introverted little brother of the team 🥹 HELP NIOU STAYED CATCHING STRAYS bro was just trying to support his captain ngl sendou was done kinda dirty too but that was like for plot reasons niou truly did nothing to be gettin roasted as often as he was

karasu had to make his feature HAHA and yeah epinagi is kinda the only place they interact so that’s what i based it on!! plus karasu’s general trash talk compared to nagi’s typical uninvolved self being turned up to the max just felt like they would collide like that…idek where i got that sae insult from but truly that alone carries the fic like it would be 10x weaker without it /hj

LMAOOOO NAGI UNINTENTIONAL RIZZ FR according to his light novel he’s cute/conventionally attractive just really weird/creepy so girls don’t go near him?? BUT i figured if he’s around aiku/is aiku’s bff then his “creepy” vibes just become “#mysterious #nonchalant #aura” like he gets secondhand rizz from aiku…aiku truly tries to wingman in every verse it’s like base aiku characterization atp 😭 but YEAH SAE NAGI INTERACTIONS another random duo that i like arising from this not as much as nagi + aiku or nagi + shidou but they’re up there!! and ofc yk i had to hint at bm that would’ve been like polar’s version of the michael kaiser jawline panel 😩 if we go with the theory that sae and kaiser know each other at least somewhat because of being ng11s that line would be even funnier because it’s basically sae knowing what nagi is like and what kaiser is like and tossing them together just to see what happens/who survives (spoiler alert: nagi because his idgaf warrior energy is too much for michael “crashout” kaiser to handle)

it’s just like a yearly thing now i think i need to block it into my schedule or something KSDHFL but yess if i ever get any ideas for canon aus like this again i’ll def give it a go!! nothing floating around in my mind at present but you never know when inspiration will strike

[startwithbrooklyn]

THE GREAT ND REWATCH OF 2021 / SEPTEMBER 27, 2019 // the poisoner

hi yall its been two full weeks since the last ep which means carson's been in jail for two weeks so on with the rewatch 🥳

-"it's all my fault" love how shes still making other peoples traumas about her

-"tell him yourself" of course the best advice comes from a woman here (yay adults!!)

-something about nancy not eating d/t stress + george's mom making food for her after being possessed (bc moms cook and nancy doesnt have one? idk)(carson makes meals but they always get interrupted thats a future ep bullet point lmaooo)

-that is a HUGE fucking cake lmfaooooo

-"she talks to my mom" think i mentioned this previously but something about george --> george's mom + bess & nancy /like victoria has this relationship with these girls who dont have moms, which is ironic bc victoria can barely be a mom to her own kids (& wondering if george is taking her mom for granted or jealous that she helps these other momless girls but not her own girls)

-"i'm the worst" again with the melodrama like can u stop 🙄

-"Hi." - this moment really made me ship nace honestly

-look at nick swooping in to take the heat for nance

-lmfaoooo w/ her fighting w/ herself like this to look it up or not (+ace stalking in the bg lmaoo)

-living for this side part of hers honestly

-"where you punched a bookcase near my head?" okay you were acting crazy too bitch

-BESS in the office 😂 the unsubtle queen

-"you okay?" 😔

-switching to the actual video footage of her recording was the perfect opportunity to have the killer close a laptop screen or something to make it look like they were watching 🤦🏼‍♀️

-okay real talk. someone PLEASE explain to me what owen, nick, and bess were trying to bargain/bribe ryan with during this whole conversation

-"you're not your father, are you?" oh foreshadowing my good and loyal friend

-so in all honesty when owen broke that ghost trap i thought it was connected to how tiffany had possesed george (bc she was a freshly dead new ghost looking for a body to inhabit) and that owen had been nearby when sebastians ghost popped up and just possessed owens lil body until he took over owen's chi and became "owen" just to make up for having died on the bonny scot combined with how everyone thought he was sus and thats why owen broke the ghost trap bc he was actually a ghost. but it turns out it was just foreshadowing his death and the agleaca 🙄

-love how intuitive owen is w/ bringing nancy food here like he just knows shes been neglecting it and wants to see her eat in front of him so he knows shes eaten lately

-ACE with the sneak over nancy on the obits drawing her to the claw 0/1 high card rules

-"i'm the reason another person gets killed" damn sis how many fucking times can u blame urself for someone elses trouble

-bess's little smirks with these obits are so inappropriate but so funny lmfaooo

-absolutely loving ryans manipulations against mom here

-i knew that couple who walked past her in the car were super weird but i would never have thought they were ghosts

-"hero of horseshoe bays friends" vs "theyre not my friends" 🥺

-LOVE how she takes her beanie off when shes not alone anymore 😂😂

-i get being-dragged marks but how on earth do u know peoples shoe sizes from eyeballing prints??? (i mean i know my shoe size but if theyre limited stock then i get what i can get u know)

-i ship george/her crowbar

-"i failed my drivers test the first time i took it" okay bitch so did i lmaooo i didnt get ice cream tho i just got screamed at

-yes dr. nick show me that chemistry Phd

-wish claire would have gone into more detail about what fascinates her about heroes (false pretenses maybe? exaggerations made by press? wishing to strip heroes of their power by taunting them with perfect crimes? she probs did get off on getting away w it lmaooo not funny tho)

-okay. i can safely say claire would be me in this scenario with modified rare ass poison, a short list, and somehow getting away with it for years

-how does claire not notice her ring being taken??

-PRO FRIEND GRABBING THE PURSE GEORGE

-so actually george had the chem degree here, nice

-george + that hand on nancy's leg 😌👌🏻

-as a mom lucy must be so pissed here, "WHAT are u doing dying right now?? after all i went through to keep u alive?? unbelievable"

-love claire's instant fake limp at seeing ace lmfaoooo

-you did a good job. 💙

-i like how bess fusses at the end to make up for missing the drama

-"i'll sit this one out" nick says that in ep 2 bc he misses the morgue caper, then george misses the lilac inn sneak, (#saltcircleprobs) then ace misses the seance and now bess misses the poisoner 🤷🏼‍♀️ #justnoticingthings

-"why do you always show up?" what a fucking bitch slap lmfaooooo nancy is literally the worst sometimes 😂 like first the constant pity party of "all ills in the world ever are all my fault" and now literally sassing the people who helped u when u didnt deserve it by asking this rude ass question in the RUDEST WAY POSSIBLE?? nah sis lmaooo

-loving her hair here tho (her half up half downs are the best)

-"she found me though. when i was dying." 💙

and lastly

-"what are friends for?" LMFAOOOOOOO NICK U FUCKING SAVAGE good on u for reinforcing ur boundaries and not falling back in with the toxic ex 😌🙏🏻

[anyhao-archived]

(1/2) it's a p long story so i'd rather not send 74285 asks so maybe one day once i've finally revealed myself ! and yeah i know like it's obviously better to talk with someone extroverted than to be painfully awkward with someone as introverted as me trying to make conversation. it depends for me because sometimes some extroverted people have a vibe that i like and i feel comfortable so i end up going with the flow and talking a lot too but if i don't feel like that i need some time to open up

AND to be honest i'm horrible at making gifts since I don't have a lot of money of my own and I have to ask my parents when I wanna buy something so I usually settle for lil details and handmade gifts! if i do not make something handmade i try to get them something practical that they'd enjoy or can make use of! i don't have a bias right now but i saw this gift idea once and i think i'd get them a big box with candy that they like, (who said 1/2 said 1/3... sJKFJSF)

of course a letter because i love writing letters sJFGJKS, and maybe tickets to idk go see an artist they like or to go to an amusement park together! i think it could be fun ! what about you?? what would you gift your bias? 👀 —secret fuse❣

oh no worries!! i figured id offer in case you needed to rant or something lol. also you’re right some extroverts immediately just click with me and some of them im just like... (eye emoji)

i like to think im great at gifts!! i used to be way better when i was younger and had more creativity, but now that im an adult w a job i can afford gifts rather than making them. though they have to still be thoughtful otherwise then thats the point?

im a HUGE advocate of the basket of little memorabilia and trinkets/candy like with meaning and stuff. i give that stuff to my friends a lot. and i loooove amusement parks!! thats my #1 date destination always!

and idk what i would get/do for yuto.. hes kind of an enigma to me, i suppose bc hes often quiet and also hes one of my newer biases (technically). i dont know maybe something with dancing like learning to tango or something together lmfaooo thatd be fun

[birthday2birthday]

Day 34: Tuesday, May 23, 2017

holy shit guys lmfaooo some real shit happened today

so let me start with the fact that we hella planned to have a party on friday after graduation during 4th period algebra lmao its gonna be hella lit im excited... blue better have his party on saturday or next week bc friday is gonna be hella good.

but anyways umm q didnt go to school today but he went to football so he came up to see me after school. and we basically just talked for a lil bit and then he got up and i thought he was finna leave but he was like “get in” so i did, and i sat in the passenger seat and idk how byut i ended laying my head down in his lap and we were talking that for a lil bit but then he lifted me up so that i was sitting up and i’ll spare you the details.. eh actually i’ll go a little bit into detail lmfao.we started off with just peck kisses, as per usual, and i dk how but next thing i knew, we were doing like open mouth kissing.. ??!?!?!?!? i was shook... literally. i pulled away slightly and i was like “can you feel my lips shaking? bc i can” and he said “no. why is your lip shaking?” and he laughed. and i was literally just nervous. bc in my head i was psyching myself out. 

i was just like “damn daisey... what if youre not doing this right? lmaooo you thought lol” so yeah... i just told him it was because i was nervous and left it at that. he laughed and said i shouldnt be. so yeah ummm... we made out for a good while. and his phone kept vibrating while we were making out and he finally chekced it and it was kaylalmfao. she was so worried about where i was. i told him to just tell him that my phone died bc .. idek why. my phone wasnt dead. it was just in my car so idek why i told him to lie lol but anyways, after that we made out just for a little bit longer. and i honestly dont know how biut i remember being on my back and he was on top of me and we were making out that way. it was p crazy lmfao but yeah lmao... he was late to work today lmao and well i still had to oick kayla up...

so i picked her up and bruh she caught me in my lie lmfao. it wasnt that big of a deal but yeah lol idek why i lied but she caught me. she wasnt mad, but i did feel kinda bad for making her wait for so long and making her worry for no reason :// still no regrets tho lmao

but tonight was also the honors banquet.. it was cool ig. nothing crazy. i sat next to hayden baugus. and when i sat down he was like “whats up, daisey” and i was s h o o k  bc i didnt think he knew who i was so yeah that was pretty cool. and he said he was going to school to get a degree in like teaching or something to becaome a special ed teacher and i was so proud like wow the world does not deserve him lmfao im just kidding of course. but also, when the seniors were taking their pictures, he had to walk past me, and i moved a little, but he put his hand on my lower back as he walked by and i was so  ofvhdfivh like !!!1??!!?!?!?? ugh man... hayden is cute too, but idk.. lol i wouldnt date him, i dont think? idk he seems p cool tho.. sad to think he’s graduating on friday tho so there is no time to become friends lol