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amihungryorbored · 5 months ago

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ig not everyone was a bored gifted kid perfectionist with a hypercritical unstable mother and a questioning mind completely dependent on external validation for any semblance of self esteem

#no wonder i ended up in therapy so young #like i thought it was only bc of the poem i wrote when i was 9 #but apparently the teachers had been trying to convince my parents for a year #bc 8 y/o me called 7 of them *mom*#ami.txt #i internalized my mothers externalized perfectionism to a point where every task became exhausting and not worthy of the imperfect result #which of course could only mean the problem was me not the impossible standards and demands i was giving myself to try and avoid the pain #of being constantly degraded and assaulted with disproportional explosive emotional reactions to things i my nd brain couldnt help #oh dear diary

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