#october 10th thats when it was
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it did always kinda feel bad and feel dismissive how there was months of hitting on me but me giving clear signs of "i dont want to be with anyone rn. even if i liked someone, i have too many issues in my head for a relationship" but it was met with "me too haha, so?" like itwas just "i dont care, i want this engagement so im going to do it still."
i even went as far as to say "if you dated me, in less than 7 months we wouldnt be friends anymore." but they still kept at it! and i finally engaged back a little bit. it wasnt for too long and even tho we never really dated, we currently are not friends anymore so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
#like i know how these things go#just trust me and say i know what im talking about#one ttime their friends REALLY pushed me and was ttryinfg to force a confession and it was so obvious what was happening and like :u#i was incredibly uncomforttable and played dumb and just afked from the server for a month or two#october 10th thats when it was#i vented about it on my sideblog
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Me: *needs a reminder of which characters are in Edge of Midnight and googles it*
Ah. It's going on hiatus literally next week
Because of course it is 😂😂 that's just my luck
#tk speaks#ouaw and SR both went on hiatus like a month?? or so before i found these guys#i guess it gives me opportunity to catch up while its on hiatus if thats the one that wins the poll (which it is currently)#there's just so much to watch and my ability to watch episodes is so inconsistent#august/september/and probably October too I'll have a ton of time to watch episodes though#thats when I'll have like 12-18 hour work days 6 days a week and they'll typically all be days where i can pound through episodes#edit: just scrolled back on my main and the first post i made about OUAW was on April 10th and i was on episode 5 already#so it was only a couple weeks after it went on hiatus that i started it lol#i think i started SR really soon after too
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it cannot be october yet its too soon im not ready !!!!
#ANOTHER year of october taking me by surprise can we just wait a second? like. hold on pls one more month or maybe 3 weeks PLS#me all month: this is the 9th month. october is the 10th. okayy ^_^ thats neat#when the 9th month is ending: WDYM ITS GOING TO BE OCTOBER NEXT ???? WHY NOBODY TELL ME??????#i love october its the best month its the worst month. i have to ready myself for the bad but i also have to ready for the good#which is the halloween season in general#ignore me i must be going thru something idk#dummy posts
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SOOO ITS 2 AM AND I JUST NOTICED SOMETHING-
LINK CLICK S2 SPOILERS THEORY
ok so i was scrolling here on tumblr and i see again the new recent image that studio lan posted of Lu Guang, wearing the watch on his left wrist again (og timeline TvT) and when i see the numbers clearly, they were so familiar. And then it hit me.
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Those numbers, were shown on the surprising click mv. (I remember this cuz i was making theories with some moots on a tiktok livestream the last time and i wrote some details or anything from the mv's XD) and then i tried to search for my notes AND the mv and oh. my. god.
10, 8, 5 and 1... Mhhmmmm, you guysssssssssssssss
and thats when i broke the 4th wall, I went CRAZY.
NOW, what does the 10 means? Well, i thought that it was the month 10th, October. Like the month where the Og Cheng Xiaoshi died. Or like something related to it. But my moot Ven, said that it might be the confirmation of the yingdu chapter coming on October!
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Who knows? It can be anything AHHHH But im so excited yet scared. BUT I NOTICED THIS AND HAD TO PACE ON MY ROOM FOR A MOMENT.
What u guys think? You guys have any theories?? :')
#link click#lu guang#shiguang dailiren#cheng xiaoshi#link click season 2#shi guang dai li ren#link click s2#angst#link click spoilers#donghua#angst as always#yingdu chapter#shiguang#link click yingdu chapter#lu guang backstory PLZ!!!#CXS PLZ DONT DIEEEE#link click theory
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as you mentioned, you are an American high school student,
i just wanna ask, are proms real??
yes? proms are 100% real.
heres the basics of prom:
american hs is 4 years and each year when the football season starts they have the homecoming dance. the homecoming (or hoco for short) is open to all 4 grades and people tend to wear more party like dresses and stuff. short tight sparkly stuff.
the prom is only for seniors. you can only go if you get invited as a date by a senior if youre an underclassmen.
oh and app other countries dont have these names so:
freshmen -9th grade (~15yo)
sophmore - 10th grade (~16yo)
junior - 11tg grade (~17yo)
senior - 12tg grade (~18yo)
every prom has a theme and depending on your school itll be decided either by student body vote or the student govt will pick it. most student govt have a section specifically for prom called the prom committee that will plan and fundraise for it throughout the year.
so usually youll have hoco in like september ish, the fall festival (which is usually used to funraise for prom) in october, and prom is usually in like april or may.
you also have to pay for a ticket to prom which depends on your school but most of the time i think its around 20-80 dollars.
dress code is formal. most girls come in full length dresses but party dresses arent unheard of. the day off prom a lot of seniors do senior ditch day to get ready and girls tend to make plans weeks in advance on when/where/who with they are getting ready with.
guys wear suits and are expected to bring a date but girls can go with friends if they dont have a date (un spoken but its considered weird for a guy to be dateless)
my school is very small and a specialty school so we have 5 years instead of 4 so we get to go to prom every year so this year will be my 4th prom and i can tell you its not really that exciting.
food wise is ur classic like strawberries with chocolate and little finger food and they usually have like sweet tea and some sorta carbonated drink. ive never been to a prom were the drinks got spiked but ik it happens a lot.
people will go out to dinner first with their date or their friend group and then hesd to the venue which is usually not on school campus and has been rented out by the committee.
ummmmm what am i forgettinggggg
idk i mean we do a lot of line dances and thats p much it. its not super exciting. ive never been to hoco but they tend to be much more casual ik some other hs near me do like a bonfire or smth
but yeah tbh im thinking ab making a sideblog a yapping about american hs things bc i think that would be fun
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i made a rough timeline for the clone^2 au, just for my own convenience sake when dating things. some things might be out of order from the episode date, and thats also for my convenience.
September 3rd: Danny, age 14, has the accident in the lab that turns him liminal
September 10th: Danny is discharged from the hospital and given two weeks leave from school
September 24th: his sick leave ends, and Danny returns to school
October 14th: Danny sneaks into his parents' basement and releases the ghosts they have trapped in cages. Official birth of the vigilante, Phantom
November 27th: Danny fights Pariah Dark, and wins
December 24th: the Ghost Writer torments Danny
February 12th: Danny's 15th birthday
March 3rd: its been six months since Danny's accident
March 7th: Danny fights his evil future self
May 8th: Danny meets Ellie [age 15] and they become twins
December 14th: Danny finds out from his parents that he's a clone
February 12th: Danny's 16th birthday
Early-Mid April: Danny meets Damian [age 6] :)
Mid-Late April: Damian runs off for the first time, damages Danny's hands the first time
May: Damian runs off two more times in the span of three weeks, he damages Danny's hands both times.
Early June: Damian runs off one more time, damages Danny's hands again, resulting in permanent nerve damage.
Mid-Late June: Damian finally gives up on the League coming to get him and joins the Fenton Family.
July: Damian finally coaxes Danny into letting him come along with him on patrol: Wraith is born.
#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc#dpxdc crossover#clone^2#danny fenton is a clone#this only focuses on the earlier parts of the au because those are most important imo. figuring out when danny's accident was. when he#became phantom. when he met damian. etc. is all pretty important stuff and helps me figure out ages beyond '10 year gap'#not super important stuff to much anyone else i think but its nice to have it written down as reference#i usually put danny's accident as happening at the beginning of the school year. tis convenient that way#me: hmmm when do i make danny find out he's a clone. beginning of the school year makes the most sense right???#me:....or.... i could ruin his christmas again :)#thought about increasing the amount of times damian runs off but... thats a LOT of time he's run off and i didnt want to go overboard#same thing with danny's hands. thought about hurting him more frequently but honestly taking a blade to the hand is already damaging enough#on its own. catch a blade with his hands four times would be enough to cause permanent nerve damage and also he would have learned his#lesson if it happened more frequently.#so damian runs off 4 times in the span of essentially 2 months#and four times danny catches his blade. three times he got cut. one time he needed stitches#anyways thats the timeline for now. made totally for convenience sake and no other reason#totally dont look at my google docs there’s nothing there but half forgotten wips and cfau master doc
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Time is an illusion
After trying to calculate an estimate for Emmrich's age, i thought "hey, why not calculate what Dragon Age year would be my birth year?" and next thing i knew i was falling down a black hole.
Unfortunately i don't have the exact source as this was said earily on during the glorious week of reveals and news and we were all so very excited i forgot to take notes then but i remember it was first said the time skip to The Veilguard was of 9 years since Trespasser. Then it was said to be 10 years since Trespasser. And yesterday someone asked Weekes on his socials and he replied he thought they'd said the year was 9:52 but we'll have to wait until someone releases an "official answer".
Well, here is my non-official answer: the year is Harvestmere 9:53 Dragon. But most of the game should occur during 9:54. How did i reach that conclusion? A mix of in-game and IRL time estimates.
First a disclaimer: I believe Dragon Age: The Veilguard will be released in November 2024. I only have my gut feeling and DAI's 10th anniversary, and DAO's 15th anniversary to go by to claim that; this whole thing hangs on a November release.
Ok so I went back to my first point of reference which is The Flame Eternal short story from 2021 which states said story happened "thirty years ago" in 9:22 Dragon. This sets the present of Thedas at that time as 9:52 Dragon.
In Inquisition if you ally with mages, during In Hushed Whispers when asking what year is it in that demon infested future the Inquisitor is told it's "Harvestmere 9:42" and Dorian comments you've missed a whole year. This would mean Inquisition -the game- starts in Harvestmere 9:41 Dragon. Let's say the events of the game take a whole year so it ends in 9:42 Dragon. Then Trespasser makes a jump two years ahead of that, to 9:44 Dragon. This is the year we should center these calculations on. Everything up to that point, DAO, DA2, and even DAI occur asynchronously, meaning they don't happen at the same time we're playing them. That's how a 10 year difference between the Fifth Blight in DAO and Inquisition only took 5 years of ours, and how in the span of a few months of ours 2 whole years passed between DAI the Exalted Council in Trespasser. While we as players experience these events in our present time, they do not correspond to our present time, this is specially clear in DA2 when not even the events of the game happen in the present of Thedas as it's Varric telling Cassandra the story of Hawke. The game begins already letting us know this already happened, more or less as Varric narrates it.
But why should the calendar of a fictional fantasy game match with ours? Well it shouldn't necessarily, but they've set the game roughly 10 years after the previous one, and 10 years have passed IRL as well, and thats enough for me. The short story saying 9:22 was thirty years ago published in late 2021 also matches this. So after establishing that our present and Thedas' seems to be marching at the same rate now, sort of, i took a look at their calendar. Without going into much detail they have 12 months as well and the calendar in use originated in the early Tevinter Imperium, so the months have an original Tevene name used for official records and academia, and a common name used by the people; i'll be using the latter. DAI begins in Harvestmere 9:41, Harvestmere is the 10th month of the thedosian calendar but just because our times kinda match now that doesn't mean Harvestmere is equivalent to our October. It seems it's equivalent to November. The following month, Firstfall, is when thedosians celebrate Satinalia, which obviously sounds awfully much like Saturnalia, a roman festivity that took place during December. Tevinter Empirium is based on Rome, so i think taking this into consideration is enough to say Firstfall is equivalent to December but since we're here the other detail that adds to this is Harvestmere seems to be November also because DAI begins in Harvestmere, and it was released in November 2014.
Following this train of thought i looked at Trespasser's release date, September 2015. If Firstfall is our December, that'd make our September their Matrinalis, so we could estimate then that the Exalted Council takes place around Matrinalis 9:44 Dragon. The All Soul's day is celebrated at the beginning of Matrinalis, so the lack of mention of it during the Exalted Council tells me the day had already passed.
But 10 years after Trespasser IRL would be September 2025, so how do i make it make sense?
If September 2015 coincides with Matrinalis 9:44 Dragon, then September 2025 would do so with Matrinalis 9:54 Dragon, there's a 10 month difference between Sept. '25 and Nov.'24, so that'd make Nov'24 match with Harvestmere 9:53, merely 2 months away from 9:54 Dragon. Nobody's saying the time skip is exactly 10 years down to a precise date so i think just the year being 9:54 should suffice.
This little difference made me look back at the trailers and realize hey, that's not where the game begins, right? Can't be. What do you mean we immediatelt get hired by Varric and go after Solas at Level 1??? Where's the tutorials??? Is Rook always Tevinter or that's just in the case of choosing Shadow Dragons as a faction? What if Rook's faction is the Mourn Watch, what's a Watcher of Nevarra doing in a Minrathous bar fighting Venatori? What's a Veil Jumper from Arlathan Forest doing in a Minrathous bar fighting Venatori? What's a Grey Warden doing in a Minrathous bar fighting Venatori?? Who says "yeah sure let's go" when a couple of dwarves approach them at a Minrathous bar after fighting Venatori like "hey we gotta stop an elven god from taking down the Veil and destroying the world, wanna come?"?????? The cinematic trailer was just that, ilustrative, but the gameplay trailer was more intentional in everything it showed, and what it didn't show at all. We are introduced to a Rook who happens to be of the Shadow Dragons so them being in Minrathous needs no explanation, and they start at lv.1 and immediately thrown into combat with nothing resembling a tutorial ( except for some commentary edited in to present different aspects of the new system, as it's a gameplay reveal trailer).
So my guess is, yeah the game starts in Harvestmere 9:53 Dragon, and in the two months left until 9:54 Dragon maybe we're shown Rook at their home, or where their faction is, maybe establishing some relationships within said faction ( friends, family, rivals, etc) and thats' when we get a quick tutorial and some context because remember, technically one doesn't need play the previous games first to play The Veilguard. New players must have some introduction to the world of Thedas, what's what, who's who, where's where and what's at stake. So i think the two months difference is when all that -plus a trip to Minrathous if they're not already there- can be crammed into so the action truly starts in 9:54, more or less 10 years after the events of Trespasser.
Not saying i'm correct in my estimations here, and as i mentioned at the beginning all this hangs on a November release, and the time skip being of more o less 10 years. If in the end any of that turns out to be different everything i presented in this post falls like a house of cards. But hey, it was fun putting it up.
If you've read this far, thank you and congratulations, you're a very patient person.
#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#veilguard#Thedas#thedosian studies#yes i did have too much free time in my hands lately
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Skid and Pump :D
Alrighty. :3Also alot of these I just came up on the spot,and i didn't really know exactly what to talk about so :]
Im gonna start with pump since I have more for him
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👆 What I imagine he looks like and wears when he's not wearing his costume :D
-His real name is Willard.And his full name is Willard Luzbel Wonder
-His favorite animal is rats
-The love of fire is genetic.Ignacio is his uncle from his mothers side(Garcia is too,cause Garcia and Ignacio are brothers to me,so they'd be Pump's mothers brothers),he is unaware of that though
-He likes listening to Lemon Demon and Oingo Boingo
-His favorite movie is Nightmare before christmas and a close second would be Hocus Pocus.He'd also enjoy all the the Halloween based disney channel original movies
-He's 10 nearly 11 years old
-His birthday's October 10th so he has quite the spooky birthday
Now time for Skid :3
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👆what I imagine him to look like without his costume
-His real name is Stallo Kit Degenhardt-Estrella(Lila is German to me or has alot of german ancestry,I mean her name is literally the word for purple in german :].Also yeah Ik Skid's name wouldn't be that but one can dream)
-He's 10 years old
-Lila only calls him son because he's trans and she's just trying to be supportive as he socially transitions before he can medically transition cause he's too young to do so(also before anyone says anything i knew i was trans when i was 10,and alot of other people have then and before that,so it wouldnt be out of the question for that to be a possiblity)
-He has a half brother(from his father's side),which is Kevin,neither Skid or Kevin are aware of that though -His dad used to call him Star or Starling,or a nickname along those lines when he was still alive
-Skid also enjoys lemon demon but he very much perfers any music Danny Elfman has done(so he also likes oingo boingo)
-His favorite animal are Glass frogs or horeshoe crabs
-His favorite movie is Halloween or nightmare in elm street
And some join headcanons! :3
-The reason they both are constantly wearing there costumes is a way to cope with the absence of their respective parents,they last spent october with halloween with them before they werent their anymore ,and thsoe were the last costumes they wore
-They've been close since they were very young,basically since they met.
-Skid was the first one to get obbesed with the spooky season and they he got pump obessed with it soon after,its been that way for years
-They have stuff that remind them of each other around the house,for example skid has pumpkin socks,and pump has skeleton gloves and whatnot
-Pump since he's more likely than not fairly wealthy buys skid gifts constantly(<- i saw this one somewhere before) and skid feels like he needs to give something back in return so he draws stuff for pump :>
Anyway thats it.I really enjoyed doing this :D I hope i get more(also already working on another one of these things)Probably gonne get ready for bed now since its 2 in the morning :3 hope you enjoyed
#sorry this took so long i get distracted#also this was really fun to do i hope i get more#luigifisch#luigisthoughts<3#luigi stuff<3#spooky month#sm#spooky month pump#pump spooky month#skid and pump#skid spooky month#spooky month skid#sm skid#skid
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My solar return chart of 2023 and how it went
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Moon in gemini 1st house: 2023 was a year were I was very emotional, I had a lot of emotional up and downs, a total rollercoaster, since it was in gemini, I really reflected a lot on my emotions a lot and maybe even detached myself from them, but most of the time I was just very accepting of them and I let them flow. Since gemini is a mutable sign, I tried new makeup styles, new clothes styles, tried new hairstyles and got a failed haircut lmao.
Mars in cancer 2nd house: my self esteem was flunctuating a lot throughout the whole year, I gotta say that at the beginning of the year it was pretty stable, in the middle of the year was pretty bad and I regained back my confidence in October, I also started trying to find jobs but none called me back🥹Finances were also not stable at all.
Lilith in leo 3rd house: i was very active on social media this year which maybe without me knowing attracted some level of jealousy? I got into some arguments with friends online but we resolved it by talking it out. I also wanted attention on social media and followers and likes were kind of important for me, just because of comparison tbh, but we are good now, numbers mean nothing.
Vertex & SN in scorpio 6th house: My daily routine changed a lot in 2023, I began to add things into my daily routine that could help me have a more stable start of the morning, they will definetly will be kept doing in 2024, in terms of jobs, I didn't work throughout the year but I did try to find some.
Pluto in capricorn 8th house: I started to feel comfortable with my emotions and I also started to write a lot more, journaling more, I learned a lot about psychology, followed people who added value into my healing journey and people who talked about the stuff i was learning about.
Neptune & saturn in pisces 10th house: I feel like these placements were the ones at fault for me not getting any job in 2023 despite me trying to work 🥹😭Saturn when I catch you Saturn...Saturn when I catch you Saturn....I also wanted to work at jobs which I could've regretted working at if I actually got them thanks to neptune...lol. The thing I wanted was maybe not good for me and neptune just blurred a lot of my decisions when it came to work terms.
Sun, chiron, jupiter & mercury in Aries 11th house: like I said before, a very active year for me in social media, I posted a lot on my ig but at the same time a year were I compared myself to people online. I also spent more time with my friends and went out more, tried new things that I'd never did in my life, learned new things, my dreams and optimism this year were big. 2023 might have been the year where I went out the most with my friends. I also got to try new foods all very yum! I started to take morning walks with my friend every Monday and Friday at almost the end of the year and I gave her a lot of advice on how to stop procrastinating and actually committing to the stuff you put your mind into. I also have to say that I kind of stopped talking with some friends which I used to talk to and call with almost every day which made me think of cutting them off, I didn't let my impulses take over because I know I would've regretted it, I also cut contact with an ex friend of mine of 2021 due to disagreements of the genocide going in Palestine, funny because the original ruler of the 11th house is aquarius and aquarius is all about humanitarian causes so it all makes sense now.
Uranus, venus & NN in taurus 12th house: a very stable year mentally for me but due to uranus also being there it kinda shook it so thats why there were some ups and downs but I always got better. My dreams were also very weird and very vivid, almost prophetic too, I had a lot of prophetic dreams in 2023, I remember a dream I had back in February were I saw some snow on the mountains and 3 or 4 days later it snowed after like 5 years without snow!!! I also began to write them down too, wether in the notes app or on paper, it really helped a lot.
#astrology#astro observations#aries#taurus#gemini#cancer#leo#virgo#libra#scorpio#sagittarius#capricorn#aquarius#pisces#2023#solar return#solar return chart
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Sorry to hear about the hate you received in your school days 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏
But damn, f it, gonna make this public (without using the actual legal names lol maybe just the initial) cuz i swear this was a wild ride
So a little context on me : i was bullied my entire time in middle school. And no my situation at home wasnt that much better.
A little context on the highschool too : for many years it was a vocational school before sort of expanding to have philology as well. My class was the third generation of philology.
As i said, it happened in my freshman year, it was some time in late october or early november. We were few in class, and we had math that day (obligatory for 9th and 10th grade. cant remember if i had 2 of em back to back that day), and so the teacher asked us if we minded if she brought a senior class (constructions, mostly guys) in to work on some math for their finals, and we didnt.I just minded my own business, reading from a book and eating a lollipop.
At some point i got up to throw the lollipop stick in the trash can at the back of the classroom (i was sitting that day somewhere in the middle) and thats when i hear one of the guys say loud "thats your wife!"I turn my head and one guy (not the one crushing on me, probably the one who shouted) was staring at me, and i was veeery confused. I just returned to my seat and after that, once the seniors left our classroom, my girl classmate told me one of the senior guys (B) is crushing on me. I looked at her like "girl, you pulling my leg or what?" because :
1. I am NOT conventionally attractive, i am at best average when it comes to my face. In rest, ya got an awkward trash panda, couch potato situation going on.
2. I wasnt going to believe for a second, even a small millisecond that it was real. I mean, it hadnt been long since i graduated middle school for crying outloud. That bullying put me more on the survival mode than ever
And so, for the following few months, once in a while I'd pass by those seniors (small high school ><) in the halls and they'd call out "B's wife" every time. Allegedly, the guy who was crushing on me was shy, thats why he wasnt around to talk with me or ask me out, so his friends decided to be the support gallery 😬😬😬😬
I didnt care that he had a car (as if that would woo me), that he was a soccer player, if he's a nice person, he was....i think id sound like a hypocrite if i say average looking, but wasnt a out of a teen's magazine with the face either. But he wasnt my type. And oh, smoker, which big no-no for me since im unfortunately a second hand smoker.
ONE OF HIS BUDDIES EVEN GAVE ME HIS NUMBER (allegedly). Course i didnt call it wtf.
All came to an end in May. Until 11th grade, we had a small shop within the high school from where we bought snacks, coffee, water. And that day we also had fruits, bananas and oranges. B happened to be there when i went over and he asked me for some change, i refused. And when he asked if i wanted a banana (at the time i wasnt big fan of em) i dunno why i slightly raised my voice when i refused. Maybe it was my defensiveness on high still, and he got upset. Maybe it was my tone too, dunno if he thought i thought of the mature connotation for the banana, but all i know is that after that it ended anyway.
Was i a little douchey? Maybe, but i cant blame myself much when i had to just....accept the bullying in middle school and be on high alert for the following years. Luckly i wasnt bullied in high school at all.Havent seen the guy since.
Probably moved after he graduated. But if i do, and he asks me what the hell was up with me at the time, ill just be honest on that.
-Smooch Anon 💋
Don't worry, I had those going since kindergarten because of looks and later because I was a teacher's child 😭 (never had actual friends growing up so I never knew what actual friendship was like without being taken advantage of lol)
Okay, anyways!
Wow, that's a rollercoaster of emotions and experiences, and I’m glad you felt comfortable sharing it. First off, you’re so valid for feeling the way you did during all of that. 😔 Being bullied in middle school really does a number on your self-esteem and how you approach situations, and it sounds like you were just in survival mode for a long time. Nobody should have to go through that, and it's perfectly understandable that you would be defensive and skeptical when someone showed interest in you, especially after all the crap you’d been through. 💖
It sounds like B was shy, and his friends kind of pushed him to act on the crush, but it also seems like he wasn’t super upfront or clear with you. I can understand why that would be super confusing, especially if you weren’t feeling the vibe and weren’t into the whole situation. And that banana incident? Honestly, it’s just a little awkward, and I don’t think it makes you a “douche” at all. You were protecting yourself, and that's totally understandable. 🫂 Sometimes, our past experiences make us react in ways we don’t even realize.
It also sounds like you’ve done a lot of growing since then. You’re aware of how your past shaped your reactions, and that’s a huge step. If you ever do run into him again and he asks about it, being honest about your past makes sense. People don’t always understand what others have gone through, so giving him the real story could lead to some clarity and maybe even a chance for closure.
You’re not obligated to explain yourself, but being real is always powerful, especially when it comes to situations like this. You’re not a "bad person" for your reactions—just someone who’s had to cope with some tough situations. If you ever find yourself questioning anything in the future, trust your instincts. You’ve got this! 🙌💖
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tucked away, away from the fans
original upload: october 10th 2024 on ao3
summary: "MORE MORE JUMP! has an appearance on a show with their growing success. Vivid BAD SQUAD has an interview following their recent success. When one member from both groups suddenly disappears during their breaks, both groups immediately break into a panic to find them."
tags: Aoyagi Touya/Kiritani Haruka | Fluff, Tooth-Rotting Fluff, Sleepy Aoyagi Touya, Sleepy Kiritani Haruka, Interviews, I Wrote This Instead Of Sleeping
warnings: none
author's note: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIRITANI HARUKA TOTALLY DIDNT FORGET i wrote this at 1am last night lol this is a continuation of "mmj chat: where is drink boy" but all you need to know is that haruka and toya are dating and everyone (including the fans) knows. on honorifics: YES kohane refers to akty by first name. that worked up until ors but im not taking that anymore lol. everyone does refer to eo by firstname as i figured well their teammates are dating so they probably got to know eo pretty well. airi, akito, and an don't use honorifics, kohane, minori, and shizuku do. kohane's much more formal with szai in terms of honorifics. okay thats it!! enjoy!!"
“Thank you for joining us! We’ll be right back after this commercial break.” The program host smiled brightly right at the camera, holding it for a few seconds before the video was cut. Then she turned to the four of them with a tired yet genuine smile.
“Alright, we’ll take a break for about 15 minutes, then return for the second half, yeah?” She told them. The four idols nodded as the staff began to mill around.
Shizuku hit it up well with some of the staff that came to talk to her, subtly pulling her away from them. Airi couldn’t help but shake her head fondly. Next to her, Haruka let out a yawn, large and long. Minori gave her idol a concerned look.
“Haruka-chan, are you sure you’re okay?” Minori murmured, obviously trying not to worry the staff around them. Airi gave Haruka a similar concerned look but said nothing. The blue idol waved them off with a smile.
“Aha, don’t worry about it, I just didn’t get good sleep last night. I’ll go to bed a little earlier today.”
Airi hummed but said nothing. The bags under her eyes were covered up pretty thickly by concealer, and she’d bit back a yawn multiple times throughout the show. Her movements were just a split-second delayed, and Airi had noticed multiple times that when the camera wasn’t on her, she unfocused—almost powered napped. Honestly, Airi was surprised the staff hadn’t picked up on it yet.
“I’m going to get some tea; I think there was a small concession stand nearby.” Haruka’s words broke Airi out of her musings.
“Do you want me to come with you?” Airi asked. Haruka smiled and shook her head, then turned and exited the studio.
Akito was not having it.
Here he was, scouring a large building he’d never been in before, looking for his partner who was supposed to be on set… right about now, actually. At least they were recording and not doing it live.
The only reason he was in this building in the first place was because Vivid BAD SQUAD had been asked to do an interview with a well-known music magazine, and with their newfound success after surpassing RAD WEEKEND, they felt like now was a better time than ever.
Except Toya, very clearly sleep deprived, had wandered off during their break to get most likely a canned coffee and did not return. There was only a mild panic. Very mild as the other three members split up to run, run , around the large building full of studios in search of their missing composer.
They knew he didn’t leave the floor; two different staff members were nearby the elevator and the stairs for the time period of Toya vanishing, and he hadn’t come through. So that just left an entire floor’s worth of studios, offices, and bathrooms and such to check.
Akito slid to a stop at the start of a connecting hallway and sprinted full force down it to make it to the hallway on the other side. At the last second, however, he side-stepped the pink blur barreling towards and past him. They both stopped at the same thing, locked eyes with each other at the same time, and said at the same time:
“Airi?!” “Akito-kun?!”
“What are you doing here?” Akito regained his composure more swiftly, feeling antsy not looking for Toya. But his curiosity won out—for this moment.
“MORE MORE JUMP! has an appearance on a show hosted here, but Haruka’s gone missing,�� Airi explained. “Why are you here?”
“Vivid BAD SQUAD has an interview, but Toya’s also gone missing.” A beat. “…Was anything off about Haruka?”
“She seems pretty tired. Heavy eyebags, big yawns, all that stuff. I don’t think she’s slept in a long while.”
“…Toya is the same.”
“You think they found each other?”
“I wouldn’t put it past Toya.” Akito glanced around. “Let’s all meet up and see what we’ve uncovered. I think it’s safe to assume we find one, we find the other.”
Airi nodded and led him to where Shizuku and Minori were waiting, Akito staring down at his phone with an intensity that Airi thought he was going to burn a hole through it.
…His partner was missing, after all. If it had been her little brother missing, Airi might be a little more panicked too.
Minori was surprised when Airi-chan returned with Akito-kun in tow, both of them looking grim; moments after, An-chan and Kohane-chan came sliding through the double doors, the latter significantly more out of breath.
“Is Vivid BAD SQUAD here too…?” Shizuku-chan asked, staring at the other three to join them.
“Yes, and Toya’s gone missing as well.” Airi-chan’s face was grim, yet Minori could see a spark of hope in her eyes. “It’s safe to say that if we find one we can find the other, so we’ve decided to team up.”
“It’s a good idea,” An-chan nodded. Then she looked at the staff, all huddled on one side of the room. They’d wanted to help, but the idols insisted that it be them to find Haruka-chan, lest she be overwhelmed. Extremely uncommon, but Minori didn’t want to take any chances with her state.
“Do one of you have a layout of the floor that we can use?” The singer asked.
“Y-yes!” One of the staff rushed off somewhere then returned moments later with a map, putting it on the table backstage.
The six of them covered where they’d already scouted but determined that a second run-through was needed. They would split the building into thirds, with Akito-kun and Airi-chan as one pair, An-chan and Shizuku-chan as another, and Kohane-chan and Minori as the last one.
“Everyone! Please keep your eyes and ears open for them!” Kohane-chan told the staff, who all agreed. Minori couldn’t help but smile at the staff’s wanting to help—because it was Haruka-chan, not because of their schedule.
“Alright! Everyone, let’s go!” Akito-kun shouted. Everyone responded in kind and then they were off.
Despite practicing and training for weeks, even months, Kohane’s physical stamina was no better than it had been prior to Ken-san’s training.
Oh sure, her vocal stamina was through the roof, but running at high speeds for long? Not so much. She was grateful to be paired with Minori-chan, who could keep pace with her easily and was always ready to stop and take a few breaths before resuming their search.
Kohane looked at the time on her phone. Despite everything, only 15 minutes had passed since they were supposed to be back on set, and 30 since the break was called.
The two of them ran down one of the hallways, checking each room as quietly and inconspicuously as they could. Akito-kun and Airi-san had taken the few remaining studios, while An-chan and Shizuku-san had half of the building. That left the last two with the last half.
“Maybe they’re not on this floor at all,” Minori-chan muttered once as Kohane gathered herself. The singer straightened her back and shook her head.
“They’re here. They’re just hidden.”
Minori-chan stared at her for a moment then smiled and nodded. “Okay! Let’s keep going!”
They kept running. And running. And running. And running back because they’d check it all but might as well check it again on the way back as well because there’s no telling where they could be.
And then, out of the corner of her eye, through the small crack of a door, she saw two flashes of blue.
She grabbed the back of Minori-chan’s outfit, causing her to yelp and stumble backwards but Kohane lifted a “quiet” sign to her lips and tiptoed closer to the door. On the side it read a name, and then “Manager.” Quietly, the two of them poked their heads in and were met with an adorable sight that almost had Kohane cooing and actually had Minori-chan whisper-cooing.
On a brown loveseat, with its leg rest popped open and surrounded by shelves, papers, books, and awards, with a navy fuzzy blanket thrown over them, were their missing teammates, fully captured by slumber. Haruka-chan was tucked into Toya-kun’s side, using his shoulder and chest as a pillow and her legs tucked in. Toya-kun had one arm wrapped around her and the other sitting on his chest, where it interlocked softly with one of her own hands. His feet almost dangled off the leg rest but didn’t, and his head was leaned towards Haruka-chan. Both of them had peaceful expressions on their faces, the hints of a smile smudged away by sleep on their lips.
Kohane glanced across the small office to see the director himself sitting behind his desk; he caught both of them a moment later and smiled, making the same gesture Kohane had to her friend moments earlier, because standing up and leaving the office, shutting the door quietly behind them. Kohane handed her phone to Minori-chan, wordlessly asking her to inform the others; the idol smiled and stepped away.
“I apologize for not telling you sooner,” he said with a sheepish smile, “but I overheard both of them meeting on their simultaneous breaks. Neither of them have slept in the last two days, it appears, and so I offered to hide them so they could sleep peacefully.”
“I’m surprised they took your offer,” Kohane said somewhat sheepishly. The manager smiled.
“Oh, they tried to get out of it, but they both seemed ready to collapse within minutes, so I figured it was for the best. I would deal with the repercussions, I told them. Only then did Aoyagi-kun agree, and Kiritani-chan soon followed after him. I must say, they’re quite the pair.”
Kohane smiled. “They’re happy together.”
“Ah, that is plain as day to anyone, Azusawa-chan. I’m glad they found someone to be with.”
“The others will come by soon,” Minori-chan smiled as she handed Kohane back her phone. “Mostly Akito-kun; he wants to make sure his partner is okay.”
“As long as he does so without disturbing them, that’s alright with me. They need their sleep.”
Akito-kun appeared not even two seconds later despite being on the other side of the building. Kohane’s eyes bulged as he charged them with a breakneck speed, slamming to a halt in front of them. Far behind him, Airi-san, An-chan, and Shizuku-san were wheezing to catch up.
“Is he alright?” Akito-kun asked, his voice quieter than normal. The manager nodded and gestured for Akito-kun to see himself. The singer opened up the door to see the pair, and Kohane could see the stress visibly drain from his form. He shut the door with barely a sound and smiled at the manager.
“Thank you. And sorry about all this.”
“If anyone is apologizing, it should be me. I should have informed you all about them, but I also felt like if I did so, you would want to cancel your performances outright. …They both very much wanted to make their appearances, you know, even despite their massive sleep debt.”
Minori-chan put her thinking face on. “Well… with both Haruka-chan and Toya-kun out of commission, we can’t really go through with our original interviews.”
“Right, it’ll be weird if one member each suddenly disappeared from our appearances,” Airi-san nodded. An-chan slammed her fist into her open palm—and by slammed, she more lightly tapped it.
“I know! Why don’t we finish up both our appearances together? We can simply explain what happened to Haruka and Toya, everyone already knows they’re together and all that. Plus, it’ll be a special thing—a once-in-a-lifetime joint interview with MORE MORE JUMP! and Vivid BAD SQUAD!”
“That sounds like a lovely idea!” Shizuku-san smiled, immediately in favor of it. Kohane agreed, smiling at her partner. They were soon followed by Minori-chan, Akito-kun, and finally, Airi-san herself.
“Thank you, all of you.” The manager bowed deeply to them. Akito-kun shook his head.
“No, thank you for taking care of them. It makes me happy to know there are people out there who care for them just as much as we do.”
“That there are people who love Haruka-chan like we do and want to see her and Toya-kun happy… that makes me happier than anything!” Minori-chan chimed in. The manager straightened and smiled.
“I’ll send word to the staff about the changes. We’ll host it in the studio MORE MORE JUMP! was originally in, since that’s a little larger space. Once again, thank you.”
The six of them smiled, and all turned and strolled down the hallways back to where they started. The manager smiled at them as their backs grew smaller, before turning and moving back into his office to keep an eye on the slumbering lovebirds.
They weren’t sure where they were. Sometimes it was one of their rooms, or one of their classrooms, or a rooftop or the streets or a shop or a cafe—sometimes it was even a bedroom neither of them recognized but with their flairs, or a little world that belonged to one but not the other, with flowers or paints. Sometimes other voices would join them—no forms, and slightly muffled.
But they always had each other. And, with one hand gripping the other’s tight, that was enough for the two of them.
#zero words#project sekai#proseka#pjsk#prsk#writing#fanfic#kiritani haruka#haruka kiritani#toya aoyagi#aoyagi toya#shinonome akito#akito shinonome#an shiraishi#shiraishi an#kohane azusawa#azusawa kohane#momoi airi#airi momoi#hanasato minori#minori hanasato#shizuku hinomori#hinomori shizuku#harutoya#toyaharu
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Ultra Smart
Evening
I was with everyone today as well!
Everyone was feeling the afterglow from yesterday today, We danced to Pyoko Pyoko Ultra 🐣🐣lol
While saying, yesterday was fun--! 🐣🐣fufu
I'm always kinda happy
I also sent the video of us singing, to Pyoko Pyoko Ultra to the 10th generation💛💙💚🧡
Everyone was like kyaakyaa🐣
Actually, Even the 17th generation had chicks🐣🐣 It was cute~~~
The little chick Ako-chan was wearing, is a well known kid,
The staff asked me, if I wanted to put it on?
And I made an uproar like, youuuuu!!!🤣 lol
Ultra Sumao! Thats right! Thats right!
When it was the 10th generations first tour (Ultra Smart), Its kinda, this mysterious, character? lol
Eh, wait,
Now!!!!!!!
Suddenly at home, Huh? The other day when I was cleaning… I opened a treasure box and,
Its here🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 lol
Waa! Thats right! I'm glad I took him!
I put him to sleep this whole time🤣💛
Amazzzingg!
Those who knew at the time, Can get excited like, how nostalgic!
For those that don't know, Can't you enjoy it like, There is something kind new here!
Its nice🐣🤍ྀི
I'm happy about it all🐣🤍ྀི
It seems it was the last of the hall performances but,
I felt like, Eeh? it was mysterious
I met with Kawamuu🤍ྀི
And we huggeedddd🤍ྀི
And so Kamiko came and we hugggeedddd🤍ྀི
I'm to have met with them, I'm looking forward to it💎🪽 I can't believe it but its already soon, A girl who has been shining until now, Ho will she shine even more on the day of, I'm really looking forward to it💎🪽
I'm continuously updating
Da-nce Practice
Definitely watch it ok
Well everyone, thank you for watching, After a year, I'm on a gaming stream🎮
I'll be doing it
With Oda, Ishida and Ako-chan, I said, I want to do it!!! and I was brought "Wario Ware: Move It!"
Wario.. I reallyyyy liked the spinning and touching
With, Move it! its like, was I called on for that? For me, Also Morning Musume doing WE CAN DANCE!
It fit perfectly😎🫶🏻
Its funny
I'm looking forward to it
🎥 November 30th 4:00PM~ Premier Stream
Also on November 30th, Sendai Broadcast "Ara Ara Kashiko" Live Show
As Morning Musume's Ishida Ayumi, I'll be visiting the studio for the last time!
🎥 10:25AM~
Please definitely watch it!
Photobook On Sale🤍
Play▶️List
On Sale November 22nd "Up To Boy" Ishida x Oda x Makino
→Everyone is wearing a blue outfit, There was dancing, emotions, and fun🎈
Preorders Ongoing Please Definitely Check It Out
On non-no-san, The first in my commemorative graduation series released
🌙"Tohoku and "Connection"" Love for my hometown, becoming a beloved idol
🕺 ""Connection" With Dance" Whether its within Hello Pro or away at Fests. The Groups First Dance Machine
🐣"Connection" With History and Memories" Memories of Growing Up While Nurturing My Love For Morning Musume
Please definitely read it
📺Morning Musume Happy Daisakusen
Show titled as such on Hulu-san👑 Streaming starts on October 19th
fufufu watch this
📺Sendai Broadcast "Ara Ara Kashiko"
I appear once a month as part of the AraKashi Family
The previous shows, and makings, are on OX VIDEO STORE!
📺Hello Pro Dance Every other Thursday at 11:30PM~
Season 12 will start airing, On October 17th (Thurs)🕺
Thank you for following.. Instagram💙🩵
💿November 27th New album✨
Professionals-17th
This is the last CD release for Ishida "Yuukan na Dance" is being performed at autumn tour It Includes 8 new songs, with a total of 13 songs
Look forward🕺
🪩"Morning Musume '24 Concert Tour Autumn WE CAN DANCE!"
December 6th at Yokohama Arena
🎗️Live Viewing 🎗️Hulu Live Stream
Please watch the last of the 13 of us
📻Morning Musume '24 Morning Jogakuin ~Houkago Meeting~
Airs Every Saturday, On Radio Nihon at 12:00AM~
Past Broadcast Episodes Are Available →Program Details
see you ayumin <3 https://ameblo.jp/morningmusume-10ki/entry-12876480985.html
#Ishida Ayumi#Morning Musume '24#Morning Musume#Inoue Haruka#Yumigeta Ako#Hello! Project#Translation#Blog
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wait since dream tweeted that at like 4am when he said tomorrow did he mean october the 9th or 10th
yea i feel like everyones asking themselves this too lmao hes very technical so he very well couldve meant the 10th since thats tecnically tmr. but maybe he meant tmr as in "when i wake up" assuming he tweeted that as he was going to sleep. i quiet frankly have no idea
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𝐄𝐘 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐄, 𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐃𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐆! For me, I'm doing well. I just wanted to take this time to give a quick update about activity on my blog just so everyone is aware of what's going on and perhaps then are more understanding on why my activity has been rather spotty // low.
Starting on October 10th, I've been doing an absurd amount of mandatory overtime for my job STRAIGHT. Typically, I work a full time 40 hours a week schedule; Wednesdays -- Saturdays 10 hour long shifts, so then I get Sundays -- Tuesdays off. This WOULD give me more time where I can get to replies faster, to all in all, being more lively here in a general aspect. Though once mandatory overtime hit for me, I been working 11 hour long shifts Wednesdays -- Saturdays, and my Monday that I would otherwise typically have had off. This puts me at 55 hours a week of hours worked every week starting from that date in October. I strive to give my A-game here; I truly value my work here--- I never want to produce anything I am not pleased with or thats sloppy, as for that, I cannot have a exhausted and foggy mind when writing; writing takes a lot of brain power for me. Sometimes I get one reply done, one starter- if lucky I got two done in a day. I just want people to know this isn't the norm and it wont be like this forever but that its simply due to a very unfortunate predicament I'm in. Usually, cause of Christmas- mandatory over time starts RIGHT after Thanksgiving and ends once December is over, ands the new year. Its different this year though, as someone in my facility screwed up backlog making it so now it started. IN OCTOBER. Im sure that sounds like a bunch of mumbo jumbo stuff some wont understand; like jibberish, but BASICALLY this means we have work that stacked up so much because someone forgot to count the work we had on the lot so its just been. sitting there. unnoticed. 'wonderful'--I know.
I will get to replies, I have not dropped any threads--I have every intention to continue the threads I've began but just know it will take time but that I really appreciate your patience. So far my time here has been truly wonderful to the core and I am very glad for all the amazing, and talented writers // people in general I have met here ands talk with or am actively writing with, and just getting the chance to meet. I value each and every one of you guys and the interactions I've gotten--- cannot wait for more to come. Thank you and I will keep you all posted on if anything changes! FINGERS CROSSED that this will be over soon and no more mandatory overtime is called WHWUAHAHAH!!!
#。*゚+.*。🧄— $𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐒𝐇;; ooc#// I may reblog a art meme thing as art takes less energy and brain power for me to do#// so yes this isnt like a 'im going away' type post its just that activity will remain low until this mandatory overtime is called off#// THEN I WILL BE KICKING IT--INTO HIGH GEAR! WOO! HWWUHAHAAH
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I HAVE A SIMILAR STORY. i was in 10th grade and i was sleeping on the couch. it was october and i remember bc i was standing at the bus stop later that morning like "wow its rly cold today... its only October". anyways i was sleeping on the couch and i remember waking up and opening my eyes and getting up and then suddenly feeling hands grabbing me and pinning me back down to the couch. i was screaming and kicking and struggling and i fell to the floor and thats when my dad ran into the living room bc he heard me screaming "No!!! No!!!!". i have legitimately no clue what happened bc its never happened again
Sounds like... maybe a night terror?
Mine was weird because I was 100% awake... for sure! I didn't say anything, I could see my arm do it. I could feel myself hold my arm back in the one I lost control of...
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💯🎶🎂 -- the king!
💯 HUNDRED POINTS SYMBOL — share three random facts about your oc that others may not know.
re ends up in yaoi with TC post-canon
re wanted to have a sibling when re was younger
re acts very in control and all that but under the surface re's extremely suicidal
�� MUSICAL NOTES — what type of music does your oc like? do they listen to music very often?
preferential to instrumental music--classical but also other instrumental, depends on the vibes. listens to music a less than average amount because re's a loser
🎂 BIRTHDAY CAKE — when is your oc's birthday? how old are they? what are their sun, moon, & rising signs (if known)? what about their tarot card, ruling planet, & ruling number (if known)? do they fit the typical traits of these sun, moon, & rising signs?
we're actually crafting birthdays/charts so that they are fitted well to the character!! for the king, rheir birthday is october 10th. re's in the second decan of libra; rheir moon sign is scorpio and rheir rising sign is leo. can't speak to the tarot card because none of these guys have birth years LMAO. libra is ruled by venus (teehee) but the second decan is ruled by uranus and/or saturn (sources conflict); personally i prefer the uranus take for the king! ruling number is 1 but i dont know a lot abt numerology so idk if thats anything relevant. and re's in rheir late 30s-early 40s?
#the joyous wisdom#tvc tag#imagine the 'i dont deserve a bedframe' post but its. 'i dont deserve comforts like music'
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