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Part 1. Where it all started.

Hi, call me Zi. It all started at thirteen, I was in 6th grade. Everything was wrong, I had separated from my friends who had been together since the 1st grade, I had to adapt to the change and made new friends, I met Amanda, Júlia, Jessica and Helen (fictitious names). Amanda was Julia's cousin, Jessica was very skinny but a sweet person and Helen was a soul from another world her tranquility soothed us and I loved it. Well, the days went by and we became friends, I had already visited each other's homes, we created intimacy very quickly. Until one day the teacher changed my seat because our little group was talking a lot, and she put me to sit in front of the popular crowd, Cauê, Yara, Bruna and Júlio (fictitious names). Cauê was considered the most beautiful boy at school, Yara was the most popular, as she did commercials from time to time, Bruna was only popular because she had green eyes, Julio was handsome and the famous Bad boy. I had been sitting in front of them for a week now, I would never have imagined that my life would turn to hell.

On Monday, I was excited that my parents had bought me new gel pens. When I arrived at school, I spent the three classes using my pens and when I came back from break my pens were gone, I knew it had been him, Julio. I told the teacher and she didn't believe me, the other day I arrived late and the classes passed when I ran my hand through my hair there were several bullets stuck together, and my refuge was my friends. I didn't know how wrong I was, I had missed one day and went the other day normally. When the break signal came, I was waiting for them, Amanda and Julia began to whisper and laugh. So, in that they started calling me a whore, nose, ridiculous, nose of us all. Those words finished me off, I even went to take a shower and started crying desperately, I was wondering if I had hurt them to treat me like this.

The next day to my surprise they were treating me very well, but when it came to break they called me names. This was repeated for 4 years, which I started to get used to. I suffered Bullying from "friends" and from the popular, The aggressions from the popular were; Throwing garbage in my hair, sticking bullets in my hair, stealing my things, including my cell phone, lying to the teachers that I was cheating when I got high marks.

The aggressions of friends were the ones that hurt the most; Swearing, hitting me when I got high marks, ridiculing me about my tastes, lyrics, way of speaking or music. The psychological torture was for them to apologize and the next day to do it all over again. My only happy moment at that time was a boy of the candy store owner's son, he was the only one who treated me well all day. In that I fell in love, I was showing little by little that I liked him. One day I left school early and I went to talk to him, I saw him kissing his girlfriend.

I remember like it was yesterday, I was 14 and everything fell apart really fast, it hurt a lot, everything spun and it felt like someone was holding my heart in their hand. I think that's where the borderline caught me and called me hers.

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Contamination OCD- what is it? This is probably the most well known form of OCD. Fear of contamination makes you terrified to touch certain objects, people, or even be in certain settings. If you do have to interact with these triggers, it usually involves a lot of scrubbing. • I personally suffered (and sometimes still have flare ups) with contamination OCD. My hands were red and cracked from ages 10-12. If I even so much as breathed on them I had to go wash my hands with soap and hot water. However, contamination OCD is not just limited to cleaning your hands. Counters, clothes, and even toilets are common things that people obsessively wash. • Today my contamination OCD is triggered when I cook chicken and use public bathrooms. I fear getting salmonella or some sort of blood transmitted disease. I have had to learn to take normal preventive precautions and let nature do the rest. It’s definitely still a work in progress. • • • #contaminationocd #ocd #ocdweek #internationalocdweek #ocdawarenesss #actuallyocd #ocdclean #ocdcleaning #anxiety #anxietyattack #anxietyproblems #ocdbeforeafter #ocdrecovery #ocdmuch #ocdhelp #ocdlife #triggers #trigger (at Bakersfield, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoxyTDbgUHt/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=10nl9qa0nd9la

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Understanding that OCD is a disorder in the DSM5 not just tendencies❣️#obsessivecompulsivedisorder #ocdawareness #ocdrecovery #ocdproblems #obsessivecompulsive #ocdtendencies #ocdtreatment #ocdtherapy #intrusivethoughts #rachaelsroadtorecovery #ocdsubtype #ocdsubtypes #intrusivebehavior #ocdtherapist #dsm5 #brainhealth #brainimaging #brainscan #brainscience #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #neurodiverse #compulsions #compulsion #comorbidities #comorbidity #comorbid #mentalwellnessmatters #mentalwellness #ocdbeforeafter https://www.instagram.com/p/CQM0x5TpvTH/?utm_medium=tumblr

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For all my beautiful #OCD friends! 😫😄 #ocdproblems #ocdrecovery #ocdbeforeafter

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When I entered the advertising college, I looked for a photography course because I liked the production area. In the first class, the teacher questioned the reasons for choosing the course and he didn't interrupt anyone, when it was my turn I was very nervous, and said that I had become interested in photography through cinema. Before I finished my answer, which course would help me in pp, the teacher interrupted me and said "So, do you want to learn how to improve photos by pouting in the mirror in denim shorts and funk lyrics?" And the whole class laughed at me, I got up in the middle of class and called my dad to pick me up.. my mom was questioning why I gave up because I was super excited, I lied and said I didn't like school. I didn't tell her because my mother is white and I know that even if she tries hard it's hard to understand. But I told my dad and had to ask him not to sue the school .

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It's so bad you realize that you don't have any friends to tell and that your family doesn't understand you. Even having conquered the diploma that many aspire to, I'm not happy, for 3 seconds I feel happy,Nothing! I'm a void that misses people and suffers for them, that doesn't see joy in their conquests, and that I don't know about home for anything. Living on automatic made me like this, but hey?! if I gave up

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Responsibility OCD- what is it? Responsibility OCD is all about holding yourself to a higher standard. It means feeling responsible for everyone around you and putting yourself on the back burner. Responsibility OCD may include being afraid of causing a car accident, not washing or preparing food correctly, or even forgetting to lock the door. Everything that could go wrong (or does) is automatically your fault and guilt eats away at you. • While this is not one of the main types of OCD that I struggle with, I have had my run ins with responsibility OCD. It can be very time consuming and requires a lot of meticulous and critical thinking. These types of compulsions usually involve a lot of checking and if you’re not careful, hours can you by. • Have you ever struggled with responsibility OCD? • • #ocdproblems #ocd #ocdawareness #ocdbeforeafter #ocdclean #ocdfinish #ocdclean #ocddiet #dietocd #ocdrecovery #ocdcleaning #ocdsupport #ocdlife #ocdnightmare #ocdweek #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #obsessivecompulsivepersonalitydisorder (at Rexburg, Idaho) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bouyzbbg21C/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=6tz0t0mfqlkt