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SPILL YOUR GUTS MAGAZINE'S DANICA LANE GETS THE EXCLUSIVE FROM SINGER MACIE BEFORE HER 6TH ALBUM RELEASE: - More to follow under the cut.

{ TW for mentions of abuse and an attempted sexual assault. If you feel uncomfortable with these topics, feel free to skip this article and look at one of our beauty guides! }

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At just 20-years-old, Macie formerly known by her legal name, Macie Smittens-Garcia, is the new “pop punk princess” on the scene.

Born in Savannah Georgia, but raised in Wilmington Island, the Georgian native has always been a musician - since she was a baby.

“My first words were me asking my older sister Maeve to put on Bills Bills Bills by Destiny’s Child.” Macie said, laughing as she remembered.

“Only I couldn’t pronounce my B’s yet, so it sounded like I was saying Dills Dills Dills.”

Music has always been a big part of Macie’s life, from her roots in beauty pageants to getting signed by Rocque Records at age 13. Since then, she’s released 5 albums, with another on the way.

“Twinkle Lights, is truly an album about self discovery. About knowing who I am. I mean it’s the first album I sing in Spanish on. Which was a big deal for me. I’m proud to be Boricua. It’s part of my heritage. The same way, being Scottish and German are.”

“Culture is important to me. I’m a punk girl, yes, but before that I am Afro-Latina. And that’s a big deal in this genre.” Macie explained, before elaborating.

“Pierce The Veil were some of the only Latinos in the rock genre that I knew of initially. And so, I’m very conscious that I am playing a similar part for young Latina girls.”

“For the longest time, I was scared to be my authentic self in this industry.” Macie said, as she elaborated. “And that put me into a lot of uncomfortable, unsafe situations. Twinkle Lights, is me getting to be authentic, and talk about some of my struggles, and why I am the way I am.”

Macie talked candidly about the sexual assault attempt that she mentions in the title track of the album.

Twinkle Lights, the title track opens with the lyrics of, At 14 years old I finally had to say No, and at 14 years old I finally had to let go. Prior to this song, and the album as a whole, Macie had never spoken about this incident.

“I didn’t have the words at the time to explain what had happened to me. And I struggled with that for a really long time, because I had the words to explain my mom’s behaviour.” she said, referring to her mother Amber Smittens, who is publically known for being Macie’s abuser from age 3 to age 7.

“I knew what CPTSD or childhood post traumatic stress disorder was. I didn’t know what this was.”

“But I didn’t have those words for the situation I went through at 14, or what I went through as a 19-year-old.”

“But with this album, I get to. And that’s a big accomplishment. In, Innocent Party, track two, I have a lyric that goes, The road to recovery was a long one, in case you wanna know, which was honestly mostly a line I came up with after seeing stuff people were saying online about me.”

“I was in such a bad place mentally, and knowing people were saying such shit about me made me so mad. They kept referring to me as an innocent party, as if they pitied me, and well... I got a song out of it at least!” Macie explained, a laugh forming.

The Puerto Rican-American girl continued on to talk about how fame messed with her self perception.

“It’s hard when everyone has an idea of who you are. Just because they listened to your music, or because they follow you on ScuttleButter. Which I have a very calculated version of myself out there for a reason. So when I’m able to be just Macie, it can be quite jarring.”

The interview which was done in Reseda, at Macie's first LA apartment, showed a different side to the singer than fans have seen. A softer, more vulnerable side. A side, that anyone who listens to Twinkle Lights, which is scheduled to come out on Macie's birthday in a few days, will see.

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twinkle lights, is macie's 6th album, and her final album with rocque records. released on december 8th, 2016, her 20th birthday, the album is a pop punk/rock classic. in the album, macie talks explicitly about her struggles in the industry, including an attempted sexual assault that had occurred when she was 14, as well as continuing to talk about her complicated relationship with her mother. the album is also the first time that macie sings in spanish - something that she was incredibly nervous about. in an interview with spill your guts magazine, macie spoke about the importance of culture to her. “culture is important to me. i’m a punk girl, yes, but before that i am afro-latina. and that’s a big deal in this genre.” and it's no secret that macie is making waves for latina girls in pop punk, as well as other women of colour. her headlining twinkle lights tour will feature special guests meet me at the altar and the mason quads, formerly known as wild embers. "this album is really just about my love for pop punk. the genre. the people. and how it saved me during one of the darkest years of my life. i'm always going to be grateful for that." macie said in her instagram post announcing the album.

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it’s my period and i’ll cry if i want to:

a/n: i am on my period and suffering so unfortunately poor macie has to as well. i got my first one at age 10, so a few years before she got hers, and my experience with it was nowhere near as heartwarming lol. but hey, they say the best way to deal with your trauma is to push it onto the fictional blorbos in your head! or something like that.

trigger warning: menstruation. that’s the biggest one. this drabble explicitly talks about it, and macie being scared of the blood, and cramps. there’s also some unintentional sexism from macie about your period making you a woman. she’s repeating stuff she’s read before, it’s not really what she actually believes. if any of this is too much for you to read at the moment, feel free to skip this drabble!

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Macie stared down at her bedsheets with wide eyes. There was blood. She knew what this meant, that she had gotten her period, but still.

She had woken up and now there was blood on her sheets, and as she shifted around slightly in her bed, she realized there was blood also in her shorts and oh God, she was dying.

She wasn’t actually, not really but damn did it sure feel like it. Her stomach churned and she felt herself getting lightheaded.

“Macie?” Her older sister Miranda called. Macie looked at the doorframe, grateful that the door was closed. How the hell was she going to explain this to her sisters?

“You okay? Breakfast is ready.”

“Okay.” She called back, her eyes shut so she didn’t have to look at the blood anymore. “I’ll be down in a minute.” Her voice wavered as she spoke, and she cursed herself internally.

Her sister’s footsteps paused. She could hear the door handle opening as Miranda turned it. Even with her eyes shut, she could her sister’s eyes on her.

“Kiddo?”

“There’s blood.” Macie said. She could hear the babyish tears in her voice. She couldn’t be crying. She was a woman now. Right? That’s what all the books said.

“Mace.” Miranda walked into her room, and Macie opened her eyes, looking up at her big sister. “Here.” She grabbed Macie’s pink Bratz doll towel off the ground, handing it to her.

“Wrap yourself up in this, go take a shower. I can wash the sheets. It’s not a problem.”

Macie looked at her sister, and God, now the tears were really coming full force. Miranda leaned over, her hands gently cupping Macie’s face. “I’m sorry we didn’t prepare you for this better. But it’s going to be okay. I promise.”

Macie nodded, wiping her face with the back of her hand. “Okay. Thank you.” She moved to get out of bed, wincing at how much it hurt. Miranda quickly moved to help her, her hands gently rubbing her sore back as she helped Macie off her bed. Macie felt that lightheaded feeling again as her feet reached solid ground.

“You good to walk to the bathroom by yourself or do you want help?” Miranda asked, and Macie felt her cheeks heating up as she nodded. “I got you. C’mon kid.”

Her sister led her out of her room. Macie squeezed her eyes shut as another cramp hit, and she realized, holding onto Miranda’s hand, it didn’t hurt as much. It still sucked, but she didn’t feel as terrified.

And that, was what she wanted the most. To not feel fear. To feel fearless.

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for the autumn ask game:

1-3 for macie (ghosts...)

7-10 for olive

15-18 for elisa

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MACIE:

Do they believe in ghosts? Have they ever experienced anything unexplained?

yes. her family is puerto rican catholic and they are incredibly superstitious. she's seen stuff around her abuela's house that makes her believe that ghosts exist. like shadows in places where shadows shouldn't be.

Do they have any unusual collections or items in their home?

she collects rocks! she gets rocks from every state and country that she's ever been to.

What’s their favorite dessert or candy?

florecitas! they are these cookies that are iced.

OLIVE:

Do they like corn mazes, hay rides, or apple picking, or any other autumn activities?

yes! she doesn't really get corn mazes, since she's a southwestern girl at heart, but but everything else she totally vibes with.

What’s their favorite way to keep warm (coats, a fireplace, a hug, etc.)?

coats!!! she lives in her sage green bomber jacket, as well as her fancy the north face jacket that logan got her for her first christmas trip to minnesota back in 2015. she LIVES in those jackets. she also enjoys a good cuddle by the fireplace with logan as well.

Have they ever played a spooky game, like Bloody Mary or used a Ouija board?

yes. her and wren played bloody mary when she was younger all the time. it never worked tho.

If they had to become a supernatural creature (a werewolf, a vampire, etc.), what would they pick?

definitely a werewolf. if we go based on the bthalloween episode, she's trying to help kendall keep the secret from jo.

ELISA:

Have they ever dressed up for Halloween? What’s their favorite costume?

nope. brazil is a catholic country, and her avó (grandma) would rather drop dead than do anything associated with monsters lol. once she's in america tho, her halloween costumes are pretty great. her fave one that she's done so far with james is the joker and harley quin.

What makes them nostalgic?

the smell of corn, and when the air gets a slight chill!

What do they think about pranks?

oh she's a pranking queen i fear. give elisa the chance and she's putting whoopee cushions everywhere, covering the palm woods in silly string.

Would they ever visit an allegedly haunted building?

GOD NO. she's a, too catholic in nature for that, and b, too much of a wimp LMAOOOO

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make me choose: Macie or Olive requested by @myloveforhergoeson

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running to your heart

a/n: first time writing a macie drabble since fifth grade. hopefully her voice is still there and reads lol. i’ve always had many thoughts about her dynamic w the different btr boys, and in particular kendall being a sort of pseudo brother to her. this fic sort of shows that. one of the things i hc they bond over is their love for the keyboard and guitar respectively, and they have jam sessions when they can! this is set during big time decision

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“So this new song, who’s it about?” Macie asked, and Kendall sighed.

“I don’t know.”

The brunette girl raised an eyebrow. “What do you mean you don’t know?” She stared at the older boy. “I wrote part of it about Lucy. But…”

“But?”

“Some of it feels like it’s about Jo.”

Macie rolled her eyes. “This again?”

Kendall frowned, stopping the slow strum on his guitar that he had been doing for the last half hour. “You asked.”

“I did. I just didn’t realize that you were still being the same idiot you always were.” Macie replied, lifting her fingers off the keyboard she had been playing at. “Look Kindle,” she said, using the nickname she knew he disliked to get his attention, “You can’t keep leading either girl on. Make a choice buddy, before you lose the chance to.”

“But how do I do that?” He asked, placing his guitar on the couch.

“You be honest. You tell them both how you feel, and you decide which girl you like more. If she can’t handle being rejected, that’s her problem not yours.”

Kendall sat there in silence before his eyes met Macie’s. He smiled at the 14 year old. “Thanks Mace. You’re pretty good at the whole relationship thing huh?”

She laughed, her curls flipping off her shoulder and onto her back. “Only when it comes to other people’s.”

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Can you tell me more about Macie? 🩵

oh hell yeah. tagging @selangkir bc they asked to know more about macie as well!

she is my baby girl. first ever oc i ever came up with. used to write drabbles w her in my gr 5 english class. this girl is the start of it all for fandom for me guys

her storyline has changed a bit over the years but the general gist is, she’s a former beauty pageant kid who decides she wants to be a musician and moves to la!

she’s signed to rocque records and she is friends with btr! they’re like her older brothers. she’s closer to kendall and james of the four boys

her and katie are mischief partners for life.

she has cptsd (complex post traumatic stress disorder) and autism. she gets diagnosed with cptsd at age 9 and autism at age 17.

she’s been homeschooled her entire life (pageants made it hard for regular school bc of the hours she was putting in, and now it’s just her norm)

her mom and her have a…. complicated relationship which i touched on in this post. all macie wants is her mom’s love, but she’s also trying to reconcile with the fact that her mom is her abuser, and that a relationship with her mom is unsafe.

her and her dad are extremely close and he definitely spoils her (partly bc of his guilt over what happened with her mom)

she speaks three languages! english, spanish and cajun french! spanish is her first language and english is her second. she typically thinks in spanish then has to translate it to english

she releases 12 albums over her music career! aristotle is her debut album.

her favourite colour is seafoam green

her full name is maciella (a combination of macie and gabriella since those were the names her parents liked) evangeline smittens-garcia. most people just call her macie or mace. her dad calls her mac (pronounced mack) for short as well

she has two older sisters miranda and maeve who are identical twins and 10 years older than her

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take two: begging to know everything about macie and her relationship w her parents!!

ahh thank you!! okay,, massive trigger warning for crossing boundaries, abuse and mentions of divorce

macie is the baby of the family, and she was an accident. her mom went behind her dad’s back and basically sabotaged the birth control they were using bc she wanted another kid after the twins and she knew he wasn’t going to agree to it otherwise. so from the start, she’s starting off on the wrong foot (though it’s obviously not her fault)

her mom is like every stereotype of a southern pageant mom you’ve ever seen. mean as hell, willing to throw others under the bus to get what she wants. and unfortunately amber has always been enabled in her shitty behaviour. macie’s memaw (her maternal grandmother) has a similar personality type and it’s just a thing for women in their family to be like that.

meanwhile, her dad comes from a very strong puerto rican background. her abuela is strong headed but she’s one of the kindest and most loving women ever. macie takes a lot after her abuela compared to her mom’s side of the family.

anyway, macie’s older sisters (the twins) decide that when they are in middle school (when macie is around 3) that they no longer want anything to do with pageants, or dance bc of the immense pressure their mom was putting on them for it.

and amber sets her sights on macie instead. she signs her up for dance classes, singing, acting. in every way she can, she’s trying to make her daughter a star. think melissa ziegler from dance moms

even if it’s to macie’s detriment. she ignores when macie is sick and should be resting. ignores it when shes clearly showing signs of stress.

and that’s when the physical abuse begins. macie doesn’t place well in a dance competition? she’s getting hit. macie forgets her song at a singing competition? there’s cigarette burns that need to be covered up on her back.

this goes on for about three years, so from the ages of 4-7, her mom is not only emotionally abusive, she’s now becoming physically abusive as well.

and her sisters start to realize this as well, but they are still teenagers. they’ve just turned 16, they can’t afford to move out and take their sister with them. not yet at least.

and eric is oblivious to this. at least for a while. as the primary breadwinner and a truck driver, he’s out of town for most of the month, and the days that he is around, amber and the girls act like they’re all just one big happy family.

but eventually he finds out. the specifics of this i haven’t figured out yet, but he sees some of the scars on macie’s back and he’s like what the fuck

he confronts amber about it, she plays innocent but he knows his kid. he knows she isn’t able to reach around her back like that. he knows that she’s not playing with cigarettes and lighting them. he knows damn well that macie doesn’t flinch when he’s around.

and that’s the final nail in the coffin for eric. him and amber’s relationship has been disintegrating for years (honestly, macie’s birth was a shitty dollar tree bandaid over an already failing marriage) and he’s done. he doesn’t care how much money it’s going to cost him, he wants a divorce and he wants full custody.

after two hard years of fighting in court, eventually he gets given full custody of all three of his daughters. technically the twins are already 19, so they can choose who they want to live with anyway, but they make the choice to live with him while they’re not at uni. and eric quits his job as a truck driver and goes back to being a mechanic.

there’s a lot of guilt on his part for not being there with the kids, and for letting the abuse go on for so long though macie and her sisters don’t blame him at all.

macie makes the choice at 12 that she wants to move to los angeles to pursue music, and initially eric is extremely against it. partially bc he knows that amber moved to california after the divorce and partially bc he in no way wants his kid wrapped up in the hollywood lifestyle. but macie’s incredibly persuasive, and with her sisters going to university at the university of arizona, he figures the west coast can’t be that bad

so he leaves the shop, and goes after her as a sort of dadager (dad manager. he’s workshopping the title okay?)

and that brings us to our current btr canon!

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lay on the horn (to prove that it haunts me)

a/n: i just finished heartstopper s3, so here’s some angst. tw for mentions of previous child abuse. macie mentions an old incident with her mom, and james mentions witnessing injuries on kendall. song title is from i love you, i’m sorry by gracie abrams.

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“My mom wants visitation.” Macie whispers into the dark. James looks over at her. They are the only two people still awake.

The sleepover at Rocque Records was a failure. They all ended up fighting and storming off before the night had truly begun.

Now, it’s almost two in the morning, and James is awake and his friend, it’s still weird calling her his friend because she’s so young, is telling him something that sounds like it means a lot to her.

“Is that good?” He asks, rolling onto his stomach so he can look at Macie more clearly. Macie hiccups, and James realizes with a stunning oh, that she’s crying.

“The last time I saw her, she dislocated my shoulder. for dropping a cup.”

His heart stops for a moment. That’s the only way to describe how he feels. Macie is so young. The same age as Katie. She’s only 12.

He thinks of when Mr. Knight was still around.

Thinks of the bruises that Kendall would show up to hockey practice with. Thinks of the time his best friend had a dislocated shoulder that he claimed he got from running into a wall.

He thinks for two seconds about Katie. About her being hurt like that. It makes his blood boil. It makes his anger towards Macie’s mom even worse.

“Can you say something?” Macie asks, and she sounds her age. She sounds like a scared little kid.

“You don’t have to see her if you don’t want to. I…I don’t see my mom anymore. My agreement got adjusted. I only see my mom when I want to.”

Macie doesn’t say anything. She just stares at the ceiling. James shifts closer until he’s able to pull her into a one armed hug.

Macie sinks into his arms with ease, and now she’s crying more freely. James holds her as tight as he can and he kisses her forehead.

“It’ll be okay.” He mumbles, and he’s not sure whether it’s to convince her or himself. Macie nods through her tears.

Things have to be okay. Right?

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a/n: thought about katie and macie’s friendship. this is the result. bon appetite.

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“Your brother is an idiot.” Macie said, sitting down beside Katie. The taller brunette girl simply raised an eyebrow. “Which one?”

“The ringleader.” Macie replied, pushing a thick curl behind her ear.

Katie snorted. “What did Kendall do now?”

“Kissed Lucy. In front of Jo.” Macie replied. Katie’s eyes went wide like saucers. Her face was exactly what Macie thought it would be.

“No way.”

“Yes way. He’s trying and failing to do damage control right now.”

Neither girl spoke for a long moment before Katie finally did. “Is it bad that I hope he chooses Lucy?”

Macie looked at her friend, confusion written on her face as she shrugged. “I mean I don’t think so. You’re allowed to have your own opinion. But I don’t think he would want to hear what everyone else thinks about his relationship. Relationships. Whatever the hell he has going on right now.”

Katie sighed. “Jo’s nice. She is. But when she’s around, it’s like Kendall forgets I exist until he needs me to help him with some scheme involving her. At least with Lucy, it’s like he remembers he has a sister.”

Macie nodded, wrapping her arm around Katie’s shoulder. “Yeah. I get what you mean.”

Silence for a moment. “But at least you have me.”

Katie smiled at her. “Yeah. I do.”

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“I don’t want to be defined by my past. By the things that hurt me. I want to be defined by the things I love. Music. My heritage. Me.”

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