#oc: sichen

[halfbit]

Mmmmmmmmmm i dunno why I haven't asked this sooner. Who's your own current favorite OC?

currently that would probably be sichen because i love angsty guys with blood on their hands. i don't have much art for him yet tho because he's fairly new and i'm still figuring him out, so its just this so far i think.

some physical notes: one of his ears is gone, you can still see the remnants a bit from the side view, but not much from the front. he does not have an eye color and he does not show his eyes. if he flips his hair back? no he didn't. but if he does, a bird will fly by to cover them. or an avalanche will occur, or everyone will sneeze. his eyes do not get revealed, even if physics must be broken to keep them hidden.

he is. Up To Things. and a menace. and he won't stop betraying people, but i love him dearly. and he would probably not even care about that at all.

in terms of all-time though (which i know you didn't ask but. i take any opportunity to talk about him), that would be beltran. i think he's my prettiest guy ever and i'm noticing a trend between him and sichen and that's the fact that they are both consumed by an obsession that has taken over their entire life and become their reason to live.

for sichen, that obsession is originally around resurrecting someone he loves, but then it turns into revenge :)

for beltran, he is consumed by a need to find out about the past, and his ancestors place in it. his family swore themselves to serve someone, but then that person disappeared. it's been hundreds of years, but he wants to find that person no matter what.

a rough illustration that i probably won't finish of beltran

not super happy with the rest of the face so a close up crop but slightly more recent beltran art

people also often misunderstand beltran as evil i guess from vibes but he is not! he has been consumed by the ancient texts, yes, that is true, but he is really sweet. he is kind of a dick though when it matters. but in terms of overall morality he is a good guy.

beltran also can turn into a wolf but it makes him very sick and his girlfriend gets extremely worried so he doesn't do it unless its a life or death situation. if he does it too much he will die (not joking)

beltran i attempted to make in a picrew!! he is probably one of my worst picrew characters just because of the blue-black + two-tone hair and purple eyes. it's so hard to get a picrew that actually has stuff with the right shades

he is very heavily associated with the night, and the stars, he's someone you find in the hallways of the manor after dark, and you see him as a strange figure in the moonlight being cast through a stained glass window. when he's feeling well, he's in the library or the study, pouring over a stack of tattered scrolls, his wispy sleeves pulled up to keep them out of the ink which he scrawls his notes in, translating language after language. he is someone who keeps trying to work even when his body is falling apart, and the eyes of his loved ones fill with worry, but he is chained to the things he must know, and they drag him deeper into the abyss. "i'm so close to finding it." he'll mumble, the dark circles under his eyes taking more of the light from his face every day, as karina tries to get him to rest, reassuring him that there will be time tomorrow, and that it will all be easier once he's been able to sleep. watch him, he is a ghost already, he will not answer when someone says goodbye. "this is what i've been looking for." he whispers, reaching out. his fingers will run against rocks that haven't been seen in a thousand years, tracing the inscriptions that say he was right all along. and he'll see the person he's been searching for. it's finally his turn to live.

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[halfbit]

some thoughts about sichen before i scurry off again because he's trying to become my favorite side character in project revive rn (a tough battle between him and bhisun)

i think he's a character who has been defined by unfulfillment. everything about him is unfinished, unresolved, and he knows it more than anyone. he is the half-empty glass.

he keeps having his futures cut short by forces outside of his control, first it was his family, they discarded him for no reason other than proving loyalty. if they hadn't, he might have had an ordinary life, in a moderately successful household, and his greatest worries would be fulfilling his obligations to the house and having an uneventful military career.

but hey, in a weird way it works out. he meets tretch and gets to be a part of a community, even if it's made up of everyone who has been ignored by the rest of the world. he has a place here, he scrounges up enough to eat, gets to laugh over weird shit on occasion, and people trust him.

and then he loses that too when tretch dies, tretch was holding everyone together, including sichen. and sichen tries, he really does try, to take tretch's place after, but he's just not the same as him. his strengths are different, and they aren't good enough to keep people together.

and isn't the worst part the fact that even tretch's death is unfinished?

he's gone, he really is, but his body is still here, and sichen has to see it walking, living, thriving, while the person he loved is no longer in it.

and because i'm mean he even ends up having to see its new inhabitant developing a relationship with another guy. so sichen is just, stuck, left behind, watching a ghost, and knowing he's pursuing something that has such a tiny chance of coming true, but still trying anyway.

he's bitter now, just going through the motions out of desperation to have something matter, seeking some fictitious result that will make it all worth it, some petty reward for all the suffering the world has given him.

maybe i'll give him a happy ending one day