#oc: rae'n

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"I'm Sorry"

"Starling" snippet ( 406 words)

A now edited/rewritten snippet of a scene that tickled my brain a while back. Dedicated to @rogue-kenobi who kindly said they'd go through my posts about Rae'n and made me be like wait fuck I've posted barely anything about Rae'n 😅 and then I remembered I had a snippet with her and Astraea that I updated so here is the updated version haha (sorry this is all from Astraea's POV I'll have to write something just for Rae'n soon!) ***

Astraea froze as Rae'n lifted her hand to her face, fingers barely inches from brushing Astraea’s cheek. Astraea itched to lean those few inches, that felt more like miles now, to close the space between them.

But it would do nothing to close the emotional distance that had been growing between the two of them since their knighting and the beginning of this accursed war.

So close but not close enough she thought as Rae'n said two words to her, one off from the phrase she had been hoping for. Then the other woman retracted her hand and swept out the door behind her, leaving Astraea more alone than ever.

“I'm sorry.”

The only explanation Astraea got after years of friendship deeper than the Jedi Council would've liked. As Astraea stared at the door from which her friend escaped she couldn't help but think of the words left unsaid between them.

The three words she had been hoping to hear but never had the courage to say. Maybe if she hadn't been a coward, maybe if she had managed to speak up, maybe if things were different they would've never ended up here. Or maybe this was where things were always destined to end.

Destiny, the force, there were endless names for it. When Astraea was freed as a child she had believed wholeheartedly that it must've been destiny. How else would Anakin have stumbled across her on that forsaken planet before deciding to save her life.

"Trust in the force it will guide you," the Council had always said. But destiny had done nothing but laugh in her face since the moment Astraea was born. And this seemed to be its coup de grace.

The moment seemed to play over and over again in her mind on repeat when she lost one of the most important people in her life. Her brain picking apart details of the moment as if she had not suffered enough. Rae'n’s eyes purposefully lowered as if too ashamed to meet Astraea’s gaze head on.

As if something as small as the change in color could change how much Astraea loved her—loves her.

I love you.

The three words she had been holding onto since the first time Rae'n smiled at her unguarded. And all she received in return was a useless apology. As if Astraea wouldn't have much rather kept the other woman instead, dull golden eyes and all.

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Sol: *acting like a kicked puppy dog after seeing Rae’n laughing with Wolffe*

Rae’n: *thinking that he's worried about being replaced as one of her best friends* Oh don't be jealous you know you'll always be my favorite trooper

Sol: 😳😳😳

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Jedi Council: I have made the perfect Jedi

Astraea: You fucked up a perfectly good Rae'n is what you did. Look at her. She's got anxiety

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"I'm sorry"

"Starling" Snippet (148 words)

An unedited snippet of a scene that's been tickling my brain recently and containing povs from my star wars ocs Astraea and Rae'n

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Rae'n lifted her hand to Astraea's face, fingers barely inches from brushing her cheek. So close but not close enough to close the increasing distance she had felt between them for far too long as she said two words.

“I'm sorry.”

A useless apology, the only thing Rae'n had left to give she thought as she retracted her hand and swept out the door, out of sight.

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I'm sorry. The only explanation Astraea got after years of friendship. As Astraea stared at the door from which her friend escaped she couldn't help but think of the words left unsaid between them. The words she never had the courage to say. Maybe if she hadn't been a coward, maybe if she had managed to speak up, maybe if things were different they would've never ended up here. Or maybe this was always where they were destined to end up.

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Rae'n finding freedom from the Jedi by becoming a sith:

(also instead of mother imagine she's saying Astraea)

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Rae’n: Force I wished I had the freedom of leading my own battalion and going where I wanted instead of being dragged around with Plo like a child!

Astraea: *flashbacks to all the men she lost and all the deaths that are on her shoulders because she wasn't good enough and the responsibility she carries with her every day* …Yeah.

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Starling OCs

(under construction)

Astraea

Rae'n

Sol/Found (CT-2101)

Rival (name pending)

(picture also pending)

Yuis Ikuss

KX (Body Guard Droid Prototype)

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Made Sol my beloved clone oc who's best friends to Astraea and Rae'n on picrew!!! 😍😍😍 Will prolly get more into his character in another post but I just wanted to share my beloved boy with you guys ☺️