#oc: amantius mahariel

[pestopascal]

Deathroot, your choice!

from here: link

Ah... hm. Okay uh... 

DEATHROOT :: What is the most horrifying thing the Nightmare can cause your character to see?

Garahel: it sounds obvious, but its Orlesians behind their masks. Just sitting in a room, and they all turn to face him at once. Maybe masks bleed from the eyeholes, maybe theres some laughter from somewhere he can’t place, but it’s just. Orlesians. Chevaliers lost their terrifying factor when he killed enough of them, but those masks. He can see them behind his eyelids, late at night, years later, even when he’s safe and so far away. 

Suha: the Qun. Herself mindless. Herself restrained. No sense of herself anymore. A continuous series of images that just play in her mind of the life she may end up being in, one day. Losing Qamar and Amon. Having them hand her over. Her mothers burning, their home being raided. She doesn’t want to know if the Qun would drag all those women back, not wanting to ‘waste resources’, or if they would just kill them all. Maybe make them mindless. She doesn’t want to know. 

Amantius: running from a fire that never seems to end. He can hear voices, and screams and cries and humans. Sometimes halla run beside him, and he doesn’t know how to feel about that, when they disappear into the fires. Maybe it’s a sign of things to come. His sister, Sibylla, would say it was. 

[pestopascal]

i read ur fics and idk who amantius is yet but alistair 1 2 for them

amantius is my mahariel my poor sweet boy who was my first ever complete playthru (like, ever), who i made a lot of decisions with and i put him on the back burner bc i kinda felt like i burned him out? like age wise a lot of the characters are questionable, but mahariel (and tabris) always felt exceedingly young to me, and at the time i first played dao i was like... 14 or smth so close enough to what i first thought mahariel was (between 16 and 18 ok tabris is like a solid 18 at least). 

a lot of those decisions were kinda weighty for me and i felt like they would be for him to. he’s an older oc for da than basilia is. that’s how long i’ve held onto him. but anyway,

questions from here

1. What sort of attachment did your Warden form with Alistair, if any at all? Were they close due to their shared experiences as Grey Wardens?

Aside from a few throwaway comments about the Dalish early on, Amantius was kind of attached? That brotherly feeling he kind of felt with Tamlen, with how easy Alistair talked back to him. Amantius felt something deep and appreciative for meeting Alistair, even if Alistair probably didn’t understand his situation at all. 

Amantius goes north in the hopes of finding the Sabrae clan and ignores everyone, but he keeps in contact with Alistair. Asks him not to divulge his location to anyone else, but he trusts Alistair enough to just respond and tell him about his day and about how a cloud looked like a nug and wonder if Amantius saw it too.

2. Did Alistair’s parentage surprise your Warden? How did your Warden’s feelings on the nobility affect their relationship with Alistair?

That was a surprise and a half, considering from the way Alistair’s eyes kind of shined, he thought the man was going to reveal he was half-elf. Amantius took it in his stride, if only because he had to, but there were some mixed feelings about being a Dalish elf around human nobility. Whilst Alistair clearly wasn’t raised to be a successor, which meant that he was definitely far more personable, Amantius did think that there could be a point where everything in Alistair turned (thankfully, he was wrong, and he put his faith in Basilia for leading them through the Landsmeet and was rewarded).

[pestopascal]

for the companion asks. warden and zevran 5 leliana 1 oghren 1-5 loghain 1-5 and dog 1

idk which warden u r referring to so basilia amell, amantius mahariel and gwion aeducan (questions from here)

Zevran: 

5. How well did your Warden keep in contact with Zevran after the Blight? Did they ever see him again?

Basilia married him and they have two children together. I believe that means she kept in very close contact with him.

Amantius pretty much disappeared off the face of Thedas because he couldn’t contend with still being alive post archdemon. Last anyone saw of him he’d gone North in an attempt to find the Sabrae clan. Zevran keeps out eyes and ears for him, if only for Basilia’s sake, but it’s not looking hopeful.

Gwion welcomes Zevran any time he comes to visit Orzammar. It’s more out of respect for his participation in the war and how they helped him regain his life than for his character, but if Zevran writes, Gwion responds. 

Leliana: 

1. What was your Warden’s position on the Chantry? Were they wary of Leliana due to their religious beliefs or lack thereof?

Leliana met three people of varying power who had been bent under the Chantry, had no idea about it, or detested it in some way. She had a rough time.

Basilia doesn’t respect it at all. Once, when she was younger, she did. But the Chantry took away her life and any children she had in the Circle, and meeting Leliana (who is remarkably younger and reminded Basilia a little too much of herself like that), blindly quoting canticles and whatnot… it didn’t go over well at first.

Amantius is a Dalish elf. He knows, well, the Dalish versions of everything that happened. Leliana did open his eyes a bit more to just how thoroughly erased throughout history elves have been, but it also did make him see the trees from the forest, so to speak. Granted, his entire time away from his clan was just one big eye opener, but this definitely gave him a bit more perspective. Still doesn’t like the Chantry, of course.

Gwion is a traditionalist in a sense of religion, but a modernist in a sense of society (Bhelen, if only you had asked your older brother for support…). He respects ancestors and paragons and the stone, and the Chantry just rubs him the wrong way for some reason. What was that? Blind faith? Never heard of it. Whilst he didn’t have quite the existential crisis nor the faith crisis that Amantius had, he regained the Stone when he was let back into Orzammar. It was kinda rocky there for a while after being taken out of the memories. Chantry could’ve had one more supporter. 

the rest under cut!

Oghren:

1. What did your Warden think of Orzammer? Were they impressed or did they become disillusioned with the city, like Oghren did?

It reminded Basilia of the Circle in some way, all inclosed and not much else. 

Amantius didn’t like the feel of it, how he couldn’t feel life under his feet, save for magma. It was a different sort of darkening feeling. 

Gwion was definitely disillusioned up until that point where he was slapped in chains and thrown in the Deep Roads. That was kind of a deal breaker for him.

2. What were your Warden’s feelings on berserkers? Were they frightened of them? Were they a berserker themselves?

None of them honestly care. Sure, Basilia and Amantius kind of side eye how it’s done and how it’s probably not a healthy solution to a pressing issue but don’t say anything out of respect for Gwion.

3. What was the fate of Branka? If she was killed, was your Warden regretful? How did they act around Oghren afterwards?

Branka died (and every time I’ve done that fight Oghren has always had the last blow lol). Amantius and Gwion, definitely, were regretful. 

Amantius because of the amount of bloodshed that had happened so far anyway (and would likely continue to happen) but Gwion because he knew Branka. Like he had actually lived and met and been around her in some capacity. It was a personal regret.

Basilia was a little more mournful in a sense that she hadn’t thought much of a woman who trapped and attempted to kill them. She felt angry for Oghren to had lived through such a thing.

As far as how they all acted... well there was a lot of tender walking around Oghren for a while, until he took down an ogre by himself.

4. What was the relationship between your Warden and Oghren? Were they friendly or merely reluctant companions?

Amantius surprisingly got on well with Oghren. Like, they were very good friends and Amantius seemed to just bond with him. Over what, he never said, but they were close.

Basilia was friendly, and was the one who openly welcomed him to join them anyway. Although she didn’t think Oghren should’ve joined the Amaranthine wardens, she didn’t say no to help.

Gwion maintained the respect for Oghren he had since he was younger, and that didn’t stop him from trying to get a conversation out of Oghren. Considering that he was no longer Aeducan, and disgraced too, they had something to bond over. Not as close as Amantius or Basilia, but close enough.

5. Did your Warden stay on good terms with Oghren after the Blight? If Oghren got back together with Felsi, did your Warden ever go to meet Oghren’s child, who was named after the Warden?

They all did. Oghren named his child after Amantius, who was the one who encouraged him to reunite with Felsi during the Blight. Basilia visits Orzammar frequently anyway, as with the Circle, so she runs into Oghren either there or at Kinloch Hold. As for Gwion, there is a place amongst his family (not just his guard) for Oghren should he ever want to return.

Loghain.

1. Did your Warden respect Loghain’s experience as a warrior, if not as a ruler?

Basilia respected the stories. Sure, his experience was invaluable, as they did map the art of war and how he had come up with some odd strategies, but a ruler leads with support. Being on the other side didn’t help.

Amantius had only heard whispers of Loghain whenever clans would convene and tell stories. Apparently he had met Dalish. But a lot of people claimed that. As far as a ruler went, well, he wasn’t impressed.

Gwion didn’t care. Just plain and simple. Humans are weird with their fixations on a past achievement as if that excused a current mistake. He was happy to take Loghain down a notch.

2. How did your Warden react to Loghain’s fierce love for his daughter? Did they share a strong sense of loyalty to their own family?

It did kind of hit Basilia a little too close to home, considering she had lost three children by the time the Blight rolls around (one only six years prior), but she had also found out what family had done to her and her siblings, so… there was a momentary pull of heart strings. 

Amantius just felt… sadder than usual. Why didn’t his parents love him so fiercely they would give up everything for him, short of dying? That revelation before becoming a warden was not the best thing, and it still weighs heavily on him.

Gwion… well his child just got welcomed back into the Aeducan household. He’s nervous as anything considering that. Not sure if he will have any interaction with his own son. And well, his family all died within the space of a week soooo…

3. What did your Warden think of Loghain’s suspicion and dislike of Orlesians? Did they consider it to be ill-founded or accurate? 

Basilia didn’t blame him, considering that he was raised in a war, but it’s 9:30 dragon. There’s a Blight! Worry about invasion once the giant dragon was killed, please!

Amantius thought it was futile to be so hung up on what could be support. So many of them nearly died at Ostagar for nothing, and people keep telling them they need wardens. Why not just let them in?

Gwion: what’s an Orlesian?

4. What was your Warden’s opinion on Loghain’s decision to abandon King Cailan and the Grey Wardens at Ostagar? What did they think of Loghain afterwards?

They were all unimpressed but especially Basilia and Amantius as she was in the Tower of Ishal and he fled with the crowd bound of Lothering. Kind of cemented some sort of negativity in all of them that they were much safer inside their own homes at one point in their life, their point of origins. Gwion especially was not impressed with the killing of a King, and voiced such a thing loudly.

5. Did Loghain survive the Landsmeet? If he did, why did your Warden choose to let him live?

No. He had nothing more to offer. His execution was a private one. 

Dog

1. Who’s a good boy?!

Lusacan is!!!