#obviously i knew mc mom left but i dont really think about it bc she doesnt come up often and i have no issues about my birth father leaving
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i have GOT to replay beck valentine
#obviously i knew mc mom left but i dont really think about it bc she doesnt come up often and i have no issues about my birth father leaving#me apart from thinking the guy is a major asshole and wanting nothing to do w him#but fuck ! that last ask is so good made me realize i need to Consider this#thinking about beck keeping his crush a secret on sam bc he doesnt want him to leave first#finally making a move moving day bc theyre leaving anyway. just to be devestated anway when sam wont take the chance on a ldr and rejects#rejects him#thinking about his Determination with tennis and how he Has to be the best. he has to be good enough (to prove that he was good enough for#for his mom. she shouldnt have left him he was good enough)#thinking about his rivalry with rayyan and rayyan is like. The person he wants to do better than and *impress* bc he sees rayyan as the best#hes cocky and sure of himself and wants rayyan to look at him wants to show off for him. see ? im good too. i can be the best to#and he wants THEM to be the best. hes proved that hes good to the coaches he won against almost everyone he played against#and he and rayyan did so good in the doubles match ! and theyve been paired as partners ! he gets to work w the best and show him that hes#just as good and this is perfect- and rayyan is demanding that it be changed. rejecting him. bc hes not good enough#agh.#beck valentine#beck x rayyan#beck x sam#ct os#op
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ok sorry for droppin rambly shit in the yooran tag again but! ok. headcanon:
while happy supportive yooran where theyāre instantly bffs is so Good and Pure, i feel like another possible way they could start out is.... they Dont like each other at all. theyāre almost enemies. they have beef.Ā
putting this under a readmore because its Long sorry. also a link to the beginnings of a fic for this.
(i feel i should mention that i wanted to include the inevitable Rika Conversationā¢ where saeran is having a relapse/regression moment and slipping into āUnknownā territory bbbbut that seems a bit too heavy and doesnāt really fit in anywhere here. that could be a separate post or ficlet idk)
OK SO. How does this dumb thing start?? letās set this scene
so... while itās unlikely that saeyoung would let saeran interact all that much with the rfa until he feels heās ready (maybe around time of the little rfa get-together in secret ending 2) iām imagining a scenario where... yoosung is briefly at the bunker.
i wrote this interaction in a lilā drabble bbbut idk if iāll write everything as an actual fanfic.
Ā itās HERE if you want to read itĀ tho!!!!
ok. after this exchange yoosung is just suuuuuper taken aback. he tells himself to brush this off because, again, saeran has been through some shit. heās probably just not used to people yet. deep down though, he feels kind of hurt and offended.
saeyoung probably just. interrupts to diffuse the situation or smth and tell yoosung that maybe he should leave. apologizes for his brotherās behavior blah blah blahĀ āhe just needs time to adjust to everything.ā
but. it keeps happening. and the weird tension from their first meeting kind of just.. carries over into their next interaction. and the next. and the one after that
itās at a point where saeran is less aggressive, less abrasive... heās just very shy and withdrawn like we see in secret ending 2. he talks in the messenger sometimes, but not often... but when he comes to the chatroom and yoosung is online, he logs out. at rfa meetings / get-togethers, he avoids yoosung
because yoosung is exhausting to be around and he Cant deal with it...(saeyoung is too but he has to deal with that 24/7 anyways)
gradually, saeran opens up to the rfa a little more. he talks a bit more in the chat. sometimes tries making a few jokes. he comes to most if not all the rfa events with his brother. and obviously heās way more comfortable around his brother and mc, but also heās on decent terms with the other members.
except. for. yoosung!
now heās not actively avoiding yoosung, but not making any attempt to talk to him either. if they have to talk at all, interactions are very brief and stiff and uncomfortable. they tolerate each other, but barely.Ā
eventually saeran starts making little comments now and then? like. theyāre probably stuck together working on an rfa thing, or yoosung is over hanging out with saeyoung and saeran passes by to the kitchen or to say smth to saeyoung IDK. they have moments where theyāre forced to spend time together, and itās just very very tense.
and at this point Yoosung is Annoyed!!! because saeran is so rude and wonāt even try to be friends with him. what an asshole. god.
he gets even angrier when saeran starts making little quips at him. little tiny comments every now and then and theyāre not always outright rude or mean but.... his tone is very Deadpan and kind of sarcastic... sometimes he will be rude and mumble a complaint abt yoosung to himself or mock him under his breath, which yoosung hears and gets mad and huffy about
the Last Fucking Straw is at an rfa event of some kind. maybe a party?? yeah. yoosung walks in, ready to have a fun time with his rfa family. he is So prepared for the party and in a great mood. heās greeting them, everyone is showing up and greeting each other. and then he turns his headĀ
and sees saeran standing there, blank faced. and before yoosung can force himself to be polite and say hello, saeran just says, deadpan
āyour roots are showingā
YOOSUNG IS DONE!! Heās so pissed off!!!!! he fucking knows his roots are showing! heās been so busy with school that he hasnāt had a chance to touch up his hair in a while. he canāt even bring himself to ignore the comment and try to be nice, he is d-o-n-e.Ā
his face gets so red, and his fists ball up, and his shoulders tense and he explodesĀ
āSaeran, what the HELL did I ever do to you??? Why are you like this? Iāve been nothing but nice since we met, but youāre always so damn rude!! Whatās with you? Why canāt we just get along and be friends?ā
heās embarrassed at himself but more pissed off that saeran isnāt saying anything. his expressed has barely changed, but heās blinking at him and looking maybe just a little confused, tilting his head a bit
nd heās like.
āwe are friendsā
yoosung is. So confused. SO FUCKING Confused.Ā
āwhat? but you hate me!ā
āum. no.ā
ābut youāre always mumbling under your breath that iām annoying! you say rude things and mock me!ā
saeran just. shrugs. avoids eye contact and shove his hands in his pockets. Ā he says āyou are annoyingā like itās a fact and kinda. walks away to go do other things
yoosung is left there confused and frustrated but not as mad as he thinks he should be
OK and like? insight into saeranās side..... saeranās annoyance w/ yoosung just gradually fades away as he gets better and opens up to people, but he feels weird at first doing a complete 180 and treating yoosung super friendly. part of him also isnāt ready for yoosungās dramatically cheerful āgosh i KNEW we could be friendsā and big hugs and all that
also because.......... he likes seeing yoosung huffy and frustrated. itās really funny to him. he likes it? a lot more than he probably should to be honest. and at this point he just automatically considers them friends. at least in his mind? idk. his thought process is likeĀ āi donāt totally hate them and i think theyāre okay to be around so... friend.āĀ
as for the roots comment he made?? it goes a bit deeper than all this fluffy silly stuff. like... for saeran, itās really easy to trigger flashbacks or panic attacks for him? so many little things remind him of his mom or mint eye, rika, etc. itās hard... i feel like thereās some vague discomfort he feels around yoosung when heās reminded about how strongly yoosung cares/cared for rika.Ā
and itās easy enough to keep it under control because yoosung doesnāt talk about her that much anymore, bbbbbut like. sometimes... saeran remembers someone mentioning that yoosung dyed his hair to be closer to rika. they donāt really look alike (bc she was adopted if i remember correctly?) but the blond hair and the significance behind it can get to him sometimes.Ā
so when yoosungs natural roots start showing he is... really relieved? really happy too tbh. bc he kind of maybe sort of genuinely likes hangin around w yoosung! and now he can see that little sign that he really is his own person, not just some kid who idolizes (idolized?) the person who abused him. ye.
anyways from here on saeyoung probably teases yoosung when yoosung asks him what the Fuck is going on w his brother. heās likeĀ
ālol how did you not notice that he likes being around you? itās so obvious. he wouldnāt do things like stay in the room while weāre playing games to stare at the back of your head for 3 more seconds if he didnāt like you!! come on, dude.ā
(yoosung didnt notice that tho whoops)
andĀ āthe teasing or whatever? pissing you off? holy shit dude that makes it even MORE obvious that heās chill with youā
yoosung stays confused until he decides to talk to saeran about it and they start like. actually having proper conversations. and hanging out. and they both feel pretty awkward at first but their relationship gradually develops until theyāre really good friends.
and then eventually, really good boyfriends. whooops.
thatās itās own post altogether tho so iāll leave it at that
if ur reading this, thank u for bearing with me thru my rambling. god.
#under a cut but SO FUCKING LOOONG#im? so sorry. holy shit.#yooran#. gh0st blabs#mysme spoilers ?? thats a given
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