#obviously he doesnt want to overstep any boundaries

[willowser]

i think if bakugou was nursing a horrible awful crush on you and had to watch you get your heart broken by some asshole of a partner, he'd have an aneurysm. would actually pop blood vessels. grind his teeth down significantly.

[sheluvv-gambino]

okay before i start i just wanna say how much i love your fics. they got me giggling, twirling my hair, yelling at the characters, all of the above. love you!!!

(my first time typing a request i’m so sorry if it doesn’t make sense 😭🤚🏽) do you think you could do a fic with 1610 Miles and black fem reader who are in a happy/stable relationship, but Gwen tries to break them apart/get miles to hookup with her? then reader finds out and doesnt stand for that shit? like, we beat her ass. i’m tired of seeing so many fics where we just brush it off or yell at Gwen. LIKE, BEAT HER ASS GIRL.

"Oh word!?"

A/N : Yes I added Hobie in just because I absolutely love the man but I didn’t add him as the next romantic partner just because i feel like using hobie as a rebound is so icky.

pairings : Aged up!1610!miles morales x black fem!reader (aged up to 18 because what 15 year old his sleeping with someone under his parents roof.

summary : If it’s okay for Miles to cheat and hurt you then it’s okay for you to proceed with anything you want to do, no matter if a certain blondie with a bad bob gets in the way.

warnings : violence, cheating, weed, gw*n ( Yup she’s a warning in itself especially after the way she did my man dirty.)

There was nothing that Miles could do that would lead you to thinking that he would ever cheat on you until hangouts with Gwen became more frequent.

You’re not a jealous person by any means and you’ve never restricted Miles from having any female friends, you just weren’t built to have a pit of hatred here for another woman that has a friendship with your man.

You would be a hypocrite to not let Miles have any female friends considering how close you and Hobie were. Hobie has never and would never overstep on any boundaries, he respected you and Miles way too much to do that.

But what you were built for was not tolerating when another girl attacks your relationship like a pigeon finally getting access to bread after begging from strangers just to get food.

It wasn’t your fault that Gwen couldn’t find a man nor keep a man.

She took the only genuine friendship she had and used it against Miles just because of how naive he was in that friendship.

Miles had always been sweet to you.He never skipped out on dates and always made you a priority in his life even though he juggled being Spiderman, a son, and your boyfriend.

Miles truly let him be himself when he was around you. He put his full trust into you like you had done with him.

But with Miles being the most perfect boyfriend he thought he could be, he also realised the second he screwed up what he had with you just by entertaining Gwen’s antics which ultimately led to the two of them in bed together heavy breathing.

Of course you realised the second Gwen started acting different with Miles.

You had even talked to Miles about setting boundaries so that she understood her place in Miles life and not to cross a bridge she couldn’t come back from.

“Ion like the way Gwen’s been moving with you lately. It’s like she went from totally platonic to flirting with you with no care in the world.” You said whilst massaging Miles’ scalp as his lay on your chest.

“Are you sure? I’m pretty sure I would’ve seen it.” Miles responded.

“That’s because my love, you are not a woman nor do you have the mind of one. You don’t see the way woman move behind closed doors.” You looked down at him lovingly.

“Maybe your just overreacting. I mean Gwen would never do that. Do you not trust me or something?” Miles questioned with pure disbelief in his voice.

“Nah I didn’t say that and you know it. Of course I trust, why else would i be with you. What I am saying is that right now I don’t trust her and her intentions. I’m telling you now if you don’t dead that shit she’s gonna use that as her way into snake this relationship and hurt us.” You told him now sitting up to have direct eye contact.

“Okay I hear you, mi vida.”

He obviously heard you he just clearly didn’t understand you.

You were walking home from Miles’ apartment when you realised that you left your purse that had your keys inside as well. So you decided to just walk back to Miles’ as you knew he wouldn’t have mind.

You were just there thirty minutes ago what could’ve changed in half an hour

Apparently a lot.

Walking back into Miles’ apartment you took your shoes off to respect his parents rules even when they weren’t here.

You knocked on his door before opening it and walked in.

You weren’t ready for what was in front of you.

They obviously didn’t hear you as they kept up the action on his bed.

“Oh word?! That’s what we doing now? You got that bitch in your bed after I told you how i felt about what she was doing. How incompetent do you have to be to loose a three year relationship over a girl that clearly doesn’t even respect you or me!” You said calmly, you weren’t going to let them know the bubbling tension you felt in your heart in that moment.

They quickly gathered themselves and Miles pulled himself from Gwen and made his way over to you.

Before he could even stutter a half assed apology you launched over to Gwen who was putting her pants back on and dragged her by her brittle hair down to the floor.

You couldn’t even hear what Miles was trying to say, you pounded Gwen’s head in numerous times .

Although she was stronger than you due to her spider powers she clearly had never been a fight without her suit before.

She on the ground trying to cover her head looking like a cockroach that had just been found.

She was bleeding from so many holes that you had given her.

You pulled her up just to slam how by the ridges of Miles’ bed to make her back hurt.

All whilst this was happening Miles was just standing in the corner having no idea what to do.

Sure he had just had sex with Gwen but that didn’t mean she didn’t deserve that ass beating since she was the one to initiate her and Miles’s interaction after you had left.

Finally you had come back to your senses and let go of Gwen.

You booted her with your foot just to be sure you left Miles to deal with a bleeding mess.

“That’s the bitch you put over me, just remember that. We’re done you dumbass nigga!” You looked a Miles as you dusted of your hands and darter out the Morales residence. Even though Jeff loved you like his own he was still a police officer and you had just broken up with his son so the odds weren’t particularly in your favour since you had just beat up Gwen in his home.

As you walked back to your house from Miles’ for the last time you decided to text Hobie.

——————

“I am so bloody glad I popped over to your dimension.” Hobie laughed as he took in another drag of the joint the two you had lit up.

“Ha ha Hobie, yes me getting cheated on is very funny.” You glared at him and snatching the joint back into your hands.

“Nah I’m sorry lov’ i just weren’t expecting that is all, as cheesy as it sounds I’ll always be ‘ere for ya.” He said genuinely, slugging his arm around your shoulder to pull you in closer.

“Yeah, thanks Mr Hobart Brown!” You giggled, the weed finally hitting you.

“Oi!”

[indigitalembrace]

hi hello! i may have spent the last.. uh... 3ish hours? reading through everything on this blog. i think it may have been more i did not think to record when i first started. the wonders of hyperfixation.

anyways this was absolutely an entertaining read. like genuinely. i had so much fun. i loved the integration of codes and cyphers. the brief period of time where kinito was having a touching moment with the anons while sonny and o started beefing in the notes (which was fucking hilarious by the way i loved that). the developing plotlines. the anons and their character development. honestly this is why i love going through tumblr askblogs because you could not get this sort of experience on any other website- its a very unique experience that this format brings to the table. its a very malleable form of roleplay, imo- removing the barriers of actually needing to know the other people personally like rp nowadays seems to be so dependent on, through the anon feature. harkening back to the olden days of rp where all you needed to do was jump into a random forum and start typing... theres also the sense of unpredictability that keeps things fresh- not even the blog owner will know exactly how the story will go, bc there will always be curveballs! its why i love reading tumblr askblogs in general. i dont know exactly how many of the storybeats here were spawned by these curveballs, but me saying that is definitely a good thing! bc that means you guys were able to integrate them into the story pretty seamlessly :)

oh another thing that i love is how kinito is actively making people worse, but not out of actual malice, instead in the 'toxic co-dependent' way, with the anons willingness to disregard their own health for him also feeding into that heavily. i feel like ive seen a lot of interpretations of kinitos relationship with the player that swing too far into either direction- either to '100% irredeemable evil' or 'he would treat me right if given the chance :((('- so its refreshing to see a sort of 'oh this relationship is making both parties worse not out of their own free will' interpretation, like how i personally think it would go. a grey area, perhaps.

like, obviously kinito wants to be better. he wants to be the perfect friend, and i believe he wants to genuinely grow as a person, but he hasnt fully... grown out of those parasocial/harmful tendencies yet. he still believes hes in the right for acting on those tendencies in some aspects, too. however, the anons arent putting up proper boundaries- they're letting kinito fully consume their lives, disregarding their health to focus solely on his cause. while yes, this is probably influenced by kinitos harmful tendencies (specifically his outbursts caused by when he thinks those anons are betraying his trust in some way), one of the first steps in fixing a toxic relationship like this is to establish boundaries- to show them when they're overstepping. this constant walking over of the anons by kinito (while not on purpose) doesnt actually help the relationship in the long run, and most likely just makes it even worse. this then, in turn, makes kinito worse- either through making that co-dependency worse as mentioned b4, or making kinito feel like hes the problem and why their lives are going to shit (which is.... technically correct, in some roundabout way. no offense kinito <3). then the anons try to reason with him, which makes them spend even more time neglecting their health to help him... so on and so forth, the ouroboros eats its own tail, etc etc.

what im saying is that literally everyone here (IN UNIVERSE) needs to go to fucking therapy jesus christ. except like.. O. funnily enough. they're just chilling at this point. good for them. please take this as the highest compliment you could ever receive because i mean it. i love when everything gets worse and all goes to shit!!!!!!!! its so fun and enriching from a story standpoint!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if my analysis here is like. incomprehensible or completely off the mark then dont mind me </3 it is straight up 2:58 AM At Night where i am so im. not fully 100% here right now lol. also sorry if its weird to put a whole ass essay unprompted into your askbox like this but WHATEVER. i like talking about/dissecting things i enjoy :) and i hope you enjoy hearing about it.

in conclusion good fucking story so far, love the characterization all around, cant wait to see how it all gets even worse from here!!!!!!! keep doing what you guys are doing 👍

OH MY GOSH HELLO SURPRISE LOVELY ESSAY?? <33

THANK YOU SO MUCH!! First off I'm very glad you're having fun!! Awwhh there's so much niceness in here omg,,

YOU'RE SPOT ON WITH YOUR ANALYSIS YES!! I've always viewed him and his relationships with users as that toxic codependent type where Neither of them are good for each other at all... like sure with a lot. A Lot of time and healing and therapy he could be healthy but as it is? Hell no. Nobody here is okay at all. O really is probably the healthiest and even then, they've just accepted they're in their weird limbo-state and they're never coming back. It's... not exactly an ideal situation still!!

Kinito does want to get better, but every attempt in the past to "correct" him always involved some sort of attack on him, his friends reacting in fear/anger, etc. - he genuinely does not understand how to have a healthy relationship and no one has really taught him, and any attempt to try now will... not be received very well. He wants his friends to stay no matter the cost, because it's okay! He'll just show them how perfect he can be! Please, just stay!

And all the anons here... well... I think Black Heart is a pretty good example of everything you described. Theirs is probably just the most obvious deterioration right now (besides Goblin's death, which... was the other side of the coin; sacrificing too much to STOP kinito instead of to work with him). Shrimp's loving their digital life, so they're not a good example of "hey, Nito, don't drag people in!" either.

It's just a very big mess all around...

Very glad you love it, THANK YOU SO MUCH for this essay omg <33 PLEASE DO GET SOME REST THOUGH!!

[hometownrockstar]

sorry if this looks like im over-valuing internet strangers' thoughts and opinions on my personal identity to the viewers but, does anyone think its "weird" the way i talk abt nonbinary characters/hcs, or gender/pronouns esp my own, or like dorothea lol. Like lemme explain. im a fully binary gay trans man (right now. ive never questioned or doubted it before but that doesnt mean im not gonna deny myself if my feelings ever change, and i dont question anything currently) but i sometimes wonder if people doubt my own word abt my identity just bc i use different pronouns including neos and no/it pronouns, or based on the way i talk abt nb characters i like and identify/relate to a lot.

cause i try to be sensitive abt the way i talk abt nonbinary identities and characters cause i obviously dont wanna overstep boundaries but i just think abt them a lot bc i like and relate to them (nb characters/hcs and ocs) a lot and ive just always questioned and got bored/annoyed by the inherent cisnormativity in everything ever (like thinking "why would these aliens have genders and be straight?" as a kid while watching sci-fi or whatnot) like just hating the inherent erasure of trans people made me constantly think abt nonbinariness in characters, and also i just knew and liked a lot of nb characters as a kid and they helped me on my own gender discovery. ...And me saying this is giving me that feeling i talked abt at the start, where i worry ppl are thinking "lol this guy is in denial and is def nb bc he said he relates to nb experiences" cause i honestly dont id as nonbinary! if that changes in the future thats great but how i id now is important too!

and then abt sexuality... ive thought abt it a lot, and have come to the conclusion i dont have much experience in romance or anything so whatever happens or changes in the future will be most important, but for the time being the only woman i have ever contemplated dating was a fictional woman from a video game, and i dont picture myself with a woman irl or feel much when i imagine it, therefore i am satisfied calling myself gay now. but THEN ppl try and go "oh well u could be bi-gay!" ...-___- can we talk abt how invasive that is too? like thats literally saying "oh you could want to date men and women, but only want to fuck men! (or vice-versa)" like maybe that info isnt any of your business?

[feifood]

Can you write some hcs with Shalnark,Wing and Chrollo with a s/o that become "depressed", I don't think that this is the perfect word for what I am feeling but I mean when their so isn't that happy but not sad at all. And their s/o can't see herself in future (not suicidical thoughts), no matter how much she tries to see herself in the future she just can't do it.And she is always nervous, bored and stressed but sometimes she is calm and seem fine.How would they react or what they would do if their s/o feels that way?(please do it with an neutral gender and not with a female gender bc I don't wanna discriminate someone) and thank you for taking your time to write it.

S/o who Constantly Feels Empty

Shalnark, Wing, Chrollo

Hi there !! Yesyes ofc I totally get what you mean -- I have periods like that too and they really suck :(( I hope you like these hcs and please feel free to drop by if there’s anything you want to get off your chest <33

Shalnark:

Shalnark is obviously a naturally very happy person and he’s very joyful all the time, so seeing how empty you’re feeling and just how bored of life you are it makes him break a little bit :((

Tries his best to cheer you up and thinks about things for you two to do and maybe entertain you a little

This results in Shal taking you on a lot of dates and just inviting you to everything that he does/goes to

He knows you don’t have depression but that doesn’t mean he’s not concerned about you

You’re just kind of numb to all feelings and he’s trying his best to hopefully snap you out of it (but he’s not going to force you to feel things and tire you out !!)

Might probably ask someone for advice behind your back, like going to a psychiatrist and just asking some general questions so he can understand your situation more without overstepping boundaries

Wing:

Wing has no clue what to do this poor baby

He HATES having to see you like this :( He often also tries to think of activities to do together with you but he hasn’t seen any improvement and he’s starting to feel bad because his attempts aren’t working

I think he’ll research a bit online about what you might be going through, just to better understand your feelings

I highly doubt he’ll confront you about it though, he doesn’t want you to want him to think that there’s something wrong with you

Treats you a little bit more carefully -- and I don’t mean he’s nicer to you or anything because he’s already so sweet, but he’s just more cautious of your thoughts now and often asks you how your day was, how you’re feeling, if there’s anything that’s bothering you, etc

Chrollo:

Chrollo would talk to you a lot about it

He knows it’s not something as severe as depression, but he still thinks there’s something that’s causing you to feel like this so he’ll try to figure it out with you (only if you want his help though)

Probably visits a professional like Shal to learn more about what your symptoms might mean

Then he comes back and he tells you a little bit about what he learned and you two just have a very educational information

Doesn’t really like distracting you because he feels that no matter how much fun you have that’s just temporary and you have to really face the bigger issue here rather than trying to tune it out

BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN HE DOESNT TRY TO CHEER YOU UP OKAY

Buys you little gifts from time to time because he knows you’ll like them

He might also encourage you to find a hobby so you can discover a new passion that will hopefully make you feel a sense of belonging

[mossyvil]

Hello I hope I made it in time but headcannon for Hawks adopting a child who has a similar wing quirk as his and the HC trying to get him back?

this is so cute 🥺

hawks sees a frail looking kid at an orphanage he passes on a mission. immediately their wings catch his eye, and he goes in to meet them. at first he was apprehensive to adopt them, but after talking he realized that it was something he had to do

the hero commission wasnt happy, obviously, but relented when Keigo promised it wouldnt affect his work for them

at first theyre both shy around each other, not wanting to overstep any boundaries, but soon hawks steps into the loving father role

he teaches them how to fly, and is commonly seen soaring around with them after his shifts

unfortunately this means that the public finds out, but they are surprisingly accepting of it. many think that its cute he would adopt a kid with wings

as they get older, keigo keeps them out of hero work. hes seen first hand how horrible it is and doesnt want his kid to go through the same things he did

he is actually a very attentive father, but his schedule is random, so there are times where he isnt home for days on end

this causes a strain in their relationship, eventually evolving into the kid moving out right when they turn 18 and cutting off all contact

it continues for a couple years, with keigo throwing himself into his work to ignore the pain in his chest

one day hes hurt severely, and when he wakes up from surgery, his kid is standing in his hospital room with flowers

[spacemilkies]

If you are doing prompts on the Seed Family... How about all of them have a crush on the Junior Deputy on how they handle it and are jealous over each other.

Honestly wouldn’t this be the DREAM. For repetitiveness sake, ‘Junior Deputy’ will be referred to as ‘Rook’. I will try to keep genders ambiguous unless specifically stated by those requesting!

Personally I think that the obsession would start with JOSEPH. The strong virtue waves that roll off Rook would appeal to his religious tenacity. Even if the efforts were obviously against his cause he’d be temporarily taken by the Rook’s overall compelling nature to right the wrongs they found in the world to align to their own beliefs. Of course he’d be careful with his new fixation. Joseph would much rather sacrifice the deputy to Edens Gate than sacrifice Eden’s Gate for the deputy. All the same, his efforts to convert would never be wasted.

Naturally, his endeavors would shine a brighter light on poor Rook making them a prospective target to the rest of the Seed family. At first, Joseph would welcome his family’s efforts to bring the deputy into the fold- the whole strength in numbers ideology. That is until suddenly the deputy is becoming more enraptured with John deteriorating sanity than the Lord’s truth. And he starts to realize that never had any motive of joining the cult Rook but instead strives to seize them apart from the inside. It’s always a sad day to see Eden’s Gate closed to those with promise. But a poisoned mind strong enough to infect his brother would only result in a cull of the herd he worked so hard to grow.

Baby daddy JOHN would be possessive obsessive. He’d feel the need to ‘own’ Rook- want to have them in his grasp in order to monitor their activities. Out of all the siblings, he’d be the most intimidating. His own destructive and chaotic nature would bleed into his charismatic front blurring the lines of affection and infatuation. Unlike Joseph or Faith, he wouldn’t bother with methods of subtle manipulation. Instead he’d border the lines of Jacobs ideology of breaking a person and reenvisioning them in a light that better suited his needs. ‘Yes’ was his ingrained mantra by he was going to sew it into their lips.

He would not take jealousy well. Whether Rook was in his clutches or not, he’d do his best to restrict the amount of contact they had with his other siblings. John has always felt threatened by the amount of influence they’ve had- how easy it came to him. Mass drew to Joseph, believers fell at Faith’s feet and soldier’s lined up at Jacob’s doorstep. To John, Rook would be his salvation, the end to his eternal solitude and he would do whatever it took to protect that future.

JACOB ‘Big Daddy’ Seed would be all about the way Rook resists him. After observing them in combat he’s nearly the first to offer to ‘take them out’ or actively seeks them out whenever there is activity amongst the resistance. He finds the most thrill in the chase just because he knows the fruits of his ventures will be that much more worth it. He has no aspirations that Rook will go down easier or admit defeat upon capture. Unlike his family, he’s less driven by the need to evangelize and more just by the idea of making Rook his stable prize after a worthy hunt. He’ll commend their efforts, praise their skills, maybe even admit some of his faults in light up their triumphs. And then he will rewrite them. Because in the end to be caught by him made them weak, and like always, he’ll rebuild them into something stronger.

It wouldn’t be long though before he realized that Rook wasn’t only on his radar alone. While he might be tempted to intimidate John, he’s less inclined to challenge Joseph or Faith. That doesnt mean that Rook is quite out of his interests. He’d hope to deter Faith by reminding her of Rook’s prowess in battle- thankful that he hadn’t tried to cull that fire but only aggravated it. She’s by no means a meek lamb but there are times that she takes her older brother’s advice to heart and he can only hope that this would be one of those times. If Joseph staked a claim, he’d recuntantly have to let Rook become the one that got away.

When it comes to FAITH being enraptured Rook would be caught without realizing it, almost like a small fly obviouvious to the spiders web. As might be expected, Rook would be warned to be wary but Faith is practiced with words and knows how to build to right narrative to get what she wants. She still plays the part of the blushing virgin, only toeing over the line of opinionated when the Rook’s interests seem to stray away from her. It’s her hope to sway Rook to their side not only to make them fall in love with her but to also spare their life.

Faith is well aware of all the other hearts Rook has seemed to entangle. While most often her brothers are willing to bend to her will, Rook is a tricky case to argue. Not only are they dangerous, but there is more to lose than to gain if they aren’t properly courted. Rarely rebellious to her brothers, Faith is forced to pick and choose her battles. Jacob is the easier one to sway as long as she can prove that her teeth have sunken in deep enough. To all of them, Rook will always be seen as a loose bullet with Faith projected as being the easy target. Jealousy aside, neither brother will hesitate to put feelings aside to put an end to Rook if they overstep that boundary.

[vastmi-blog]

↕️ / 💋/ 💚 / 🤐 for the Brothers

@hhemeraa​ . | relationships headcanons . | accepting .

↕️ Are they sub, dom or switch?

khaatia : when it comes to general life in a relationship , khaatia’s a switch , but can be more dominant / initiate more & want things to go his way . if he loves you however , he’ll obviously respect you & your wishes & will waver a bit more . in the bedroom , he’s definitely a Strict switch & refuses to solely perform either role / always be expected to top or bottom . if you can’t give him a balance for both roles , he will lose all interest in you .

mahtaeo : a pretty go with the flow type of person , but he can lean more towards the submissive side mainly because he’s a people pleaser & likes to see others happy . in the bedroom , he’s pretty much the same kind & identifies as a switch , but it more lenient than khaatia about it . still , he would probably get bored & lose some of his sex drive if he were bound to one role .

💋Are they more sensual or sexual?

khaatia : he’s definitely more sexual . it’s not always that he TRIES to be , but with the way he’s painted himself for centuries has basically embedded itself into his skin & he’s just got this natural seduction about him that comes out even if he isn’t inherently attempting to pursue you . flirting , he does a lot , but sometimes , his intentions aren’t really to escalate . so if you’re someone that REALLY isn’t into that / gets embarrassed way too easily , you might not be compatible with khaatia .

mahtaeo : more sensual , yep . he very much enjoys intimate affection , whether that be playing in someone’s hair / having his hair played with , little kisses , holding hands , cuddling , ect . he adores it & melts for mushy , sweet times like that . he has no problem initiating things either , but also becomes delighted when someone else starts it too .

💚Are they prone to jealousy?

khaatia : deeply & sometimes possessively so . as much as he despises the feeling of jealousy , he can’t help it , especially with how low his self esteem is . he always believes , in a part of his heart , that his partner is just waiting for a chance to leave him & find someone who better deserves their love . it takes a LONG time for khaatia to fully trust someone enough for jealous feelings not to arise whenever a situation like someone flirting with khaatia’s s/o happens . because of this , khaatia also absolutely refuses to share & thus , any polyamorous partners wouldn’t bode well with him . 

mahtaeo : mahtaeo doesnt get as jealous as khaatia & definitely not to the same degree , but there are times where , if someone is really overstepping their boundaries with his s/o , even if they’ve made it clear they’re together , then mahtaeo has no problem stepping up & showing them how wrong they are . he rarely gets upset with these types of situations , but when he does , he’s definitely frightening .

🤐Would they ever confess their feelings first?

khaatia : very very very not likely . again , he drowns in his own insecurities & doubts & doesn’t do well when he falls for someone , especially if he believes that someone is way better than him / out of his league for one reason or another . take his mainverse ship , @believinghxpe‘s sora , for example : sora ends up kissing khaatia to confess his feelings & what does khaatia do ? scream & run . it takes a lot for khaatia to accept himself even liking someone romantically , so the likelihood of him believing the other person likes him back & he’s able to confess his feelings first ? yeah , nah , that’s a huge long shot . it’s probably going to be up to the other person .

mahtaeo : mahtaeo is a lot more secure in revealing intimate feelings to people he becomes fond of . he’s the guy that tells his friends & family how much he loves them without thinking about it . if i’m remembering correctly , in mahtaeo’s ship with tsuki ( again @believinghxpe ) , mahtaeo was the one to confess his feelings for tsuki after they spent a lot of time together & started to fall for one another . he doesn’t have a problem confessing or allowing the other person to confess ; it really all depends on how much they like one another & how desperate one or the other is to try being involved with their crush romantically .

[imaginemycroftholmes]

Mycroft x reader where he was wounded badly and lies in the hospital with the reader being a calm and friendly nurse who sometimes comes to him and talks because hes not allowed to use his phone and doesnt get any visitors. Hes Mycroft like but she is still totaly nice

“Now if you feel like the pain is unbearable Mr. Holmes you can call the nurses to give you another painkiller but like I was saying earlier I would like for you to be weaned off them entirely before your discharge next month,” Dr.Kowalski explains  again for what felt like the third time in the last seven weeks of his stay in the hospital.

For Mycroft the risk for getting injured let alone grievously so were negligible when he ran the numbers prior toward his recuse of Sherlock and yet here he sat-in a hospital bed no less with limited mobility and worst of all no cellphone.   

Left leg fractured in two places, hip bruised, dominant hand in a cast and a ruptured disk Mycroft was as helpless.

He couldn’t feed himself, couldn’t do his work, hell he couldn’t even make it to the bathroom by himself causing him to be disgusted more and more with stay as the days rolled on.

Sure, Anthea had visited until Dr. Kowalski banished her from the building for bringing him paperwork, Sherlock and John accompanied by either young Rosie or Miss Hooper had made their appearances, even Gregory had found his room to cheer him up when he could but otherwise Mycroft was alone.

Well.

Mostly alone.

Nodding noncommittally at the doctor Mycroft if able to banish the man from the room only to count the seconds it would be  acceptable to page the nurse ______.

Now out of all his associates and family nurse _____ was one of the dew that kept him company or at least paid him any real mind during his stay there.

The other nurses were polite and professional (as they should be with the amount of money they charge for their services) but ______ was just more pleasurable company.

From day one she was trying to make him feel more at home offering to fetch a paper from the lobby, sweets by the nearby bakery or just spending time with him in general when Mycroft was bored to tears in his room in the late afternoons.

Shared dinners where ____ would hand feed him, bringing in special bath tokens from home, talking to him about world events, spending time with him even during late night hours when she by all accounts should be off the clock.

Funny, considerate, caring and constantly checking up on him throughout the day made Mycroft feel like he wasn’t just a patient but someone special.

In fact if Mycroft didn’t know any better he would suspect that ______ may have been keen on him however not even doped on whatever medical drip ordered by the doctor did he entertain that to be true. After all he was a broken old man in a hospital and she looked relatively young, spry woman with her whole life ahead of her.

What could he offer her in such a state? Money? Connections for a promotion? 

Surely not given by her seemingly genuine concern for him but then again Mycroft is considered a very high profile patient. It wouldn’t be out of the ordinary for someone like him to receive special treatment.

Don’t fool yourself with these needless emotions. It will only break your heart in the end. She’s just doing her job to the best of her ability Mycroft reminds himself as he stares at the nurse call button in disdain. 

Nevertheless Mycroft is not made of stone and decides that five minutes was good enough to seem believable before pushing the nurse call button. 

Much like a summoned genie ____ is there in a heartbeat with a chai latte, lunch tray, rolled up Daily Sun prepared and smile on her face. “I was wondering when doctor K was going to stop hogging you Mycroft,” ____ says warmly as she shuts the door behind her.

Like a pattern she sets the drink and paper before him on the side table and then proceeds to do her work.“What did doctor K say,” _____ asks as she does her inspections of the monitors and paperwork.

“That I should send for you should my pain level become to unbearable and that I should do so sparingly as he would like me to be less dependent on them since I will be discharged by the end of next month but otherwise its the same song and dance as before,” Mycroft explains in a tired tone.

As much as Mycroft despised sitting in the hospital he loathed leaving _____ here more. She was like the sun; warm and inviting for an old cold soul like him.

Had he the chance Mycroft would soak up whatever stray rays of sunshine she had to spare because it made him feel less isolated and dare he say it-more at home in this world full of goldfish.

_______ stills minutely at the explanation-a pause that even under the minimal use of drugs Mycroft doesn’t miss. Her face betrays nothing but unease for a split second before it morphs back into her normally happy mood when ____ tries to set him up for lunch.

Interesting.

“Well, that must be exciting for you,” _____ comments cheerfully getting the side table fixed over his lap, “getting to go home and out of this boring old hospital am I right?” Her smile although big doesn’t quite reach her eyes as ____ locks the table a bit forcefully that it nearly sends the latte spilling and paper rolling onto the floor.

Mycroft takes note at how her hands shake when they were normally steady as Anthea’s execution in the field to feed him his lunch. 

Her voice seemed strained as ____ tried to talk with him about their favorite shared topics and eyes growing increasingly misty that it got to the point where Mycroft was sure she would excuse herself to cry that he finally spoke up.

“______ is there something amiss?”

The reaction was instantaneously as _____’s ears immediately flushed followed closely by the heat in her cheeks.

“What-no nothing’s wrong Mr. Holmes. I’m just dealing with some seasonal allergies that’s all,” _____ tries to lamely deflect but no one not even two year old Rosie would buy such tripe.

“_______.”

“Mr. Holmes-”

“You haven’t called me that in the last six and a half weeks ______ I would dare say its a little too late to pretend formality now especially since our time spent together,” Mycroft retorts kindly.

And indeed it had been some time. 

While regaining some of his mobility back that ____ wouldn’t have to do everything for him Mycroft was content to allow her to do things for him even if it was menial as straightening his sheets or combing his hair (with much complaining from Dr. Kowalski to stop letting her do so because he needed to start doing these things for himself.)

_____ puts down the fork and seems to be at odds at what she should do with her hands as her eyes are downcast. The fidgeting with her fingers was foreign to him as Mycroft had rarely seen her without holding something meaning this was something she deemed very important that needed sole focus.

Shame,embarrassment, despair, desperation and a small shred of hope.

“Look I…I know this is unprofessional Mycroft but I was hoping,” _____ pauses for a deep breath, “ I mean, wondering if it would be alright to visit you after you get out of here?”

Not even giving him time to answer ____ is quick to follow up with, “As friends of course! I just want to make sure that you’re okay and stuff…”

If there was ever any doubt that Mycroft wasn’t more than a patient to _____ it was ultimately smashed by the sight before him.

 ________ looked more like she would burst into flame by the way her face and neck were lit up. The tension palpable to such a degree that he could cut it with one of the horrid plastic knives that they permit patients to use.  

“You know what, forget it. I’m just overstepping my boundaries,” ______ quickly dismisses waving at her face, “I’m sorry I got all weird there. I just-I’ll let doctor K know that to reassign me and-”

“I would not be opposed.”

_____’s head turns at such a degree Mycroft is afraid of whiplash for her sake. “What?”

“I said that I would not be opposed to meeting you outside of these walls,” Mycroft elaborates. “Obviously we enjoy each other’s company and we as adults can visit each other in other places, say for dinner at the Aqua Shard?”

Again ____ looks like an mishap Sherlock had with his lotion experiments back as a child but far more attractive to bear.

Her mouth soundlessly opens and closes much to that of a fish a couple of times before croaking out,“Yes.”

Mycroft allows himself a small smile that sends ____ flushing anew.

[bacieciambelline]

value me 🤔 (pls ísi doesnt handle this well Make Him Cry(tm))

Meme - accepting

Sleep is for the weak, is what he thought, aimlessly scrolling back and forth through Twitter. And it’s been this exact way for a rather unhealthy number of months. But he wasn’t planning on changing.

There is, however, a time when everyone needs to shut the fuck up and try to relax, and this seemed to be Feliciano’s time, if the stream of yawns were anything to go by. One last scroll, one last retweet, and then he’d force himself to get some shut-eye for two hours before he would need to get up for work.

And it was in those last few scrolls and refreshes that his friend’s– friend? –slightly alarming posts had him on edge. Nothing… necessarily out of the ordinary per say, with how fucked up both of their content was, but still worrying. Maybe it’s partially due to the sleep deprivation he’s had to deal with for the past three weeks; maybe it’s partially due to how he chose to read into certain things that were to be taken superciliously; whatever the case, he felt compelled to reassure himself.

In the most ineffective way to do.

Switching apps, Feliciano searched for ísar’s number– how the fuck he ever managed to convince ísar to share it was beyond him but at this moment, he wouldn’t forsake a blessing – and pressed the ‘call’ button, exhaling once… twice.

As the line tried to connect the call, he tried to convince himself to hang up and pass the call off as an accident if ísi confronted him about it.This is stupid, why am I doing this? There is no point in trying to call him- he usually tweets shit like this every night. Why the fuck– 

ísar never picked up, but he was directed to his answering machine. He could disconnect right now and go to bed, but the small beep- signalling that the machine was recording -seemingly forced him to talk.

“…Hey, ísi. Sorry for calling you at… fuck, what time is it? Four? Yeah, four in the morning. Sorry. I uh… I just wanted to see how you were doing.” Feliciano winced at how utterly fucking ridiculous he sounded. No, no sane dickhead would call at this ungodly hour to randomly “check in.” So he sighed, pulling up his blankets over his head before picking up where he ended.

“No– that sounds fucking dumb. I know you’re not really… doing the best but– I don’t know –I guess I got kinda worried and worked up for no reason. Well– no, not for ‘no reason.’ Hnn… That’s a lie. I would obviously get worried and worked up if you weren’t feeling okay because I care about you. I… No jokes today, I feel like you really need to hear this, and because there’s literally no one to stop me, I’ll just keep talking until I can’t find anything else to pull out of my ass.”

“I’m not really sure where to start, but who cares. I really do think you’re a real friend, even though we don’t talk all that much. You’re that sort of… of… ‘Quiet, on the side-lines’ kind of friend that I really appreciate. I’m glad you’re at least there, even when you don’t really do much. I-I guess I just like taking in comfort that I am at least blessed with someone who thinks about me every now and then.” 

And he paused to clear his throat, turning over on the bed so that he’s flat on his back. He knew that the paused went on for a few seconds too long but he needed the time to reorganize his thoughts if he wanted to continue. “Sometimes I think about what it’d be like if we hung out together– like, for a really long time. I…” he laughed a little. “I know we’re both in need of a reality check and a hug. But I think just letting loose would be cool too, y’know?”

“But then sometimes I also wonder if you value me as a friend like I do you? I mean- it’s okay if you don’t and I want you to tell me if I’m overstepping any boundaries because– because the last thing I want is to make you feel uncomfortable or forced into any situation. I don’t want that at all. I want to be able to be your friend and tell you every single shitty joke there is; I wanna be able to make you smile and laugh when you feel like you want to jump out of a tree into a pool of lava; I want to make you piss yourself doing dumb shit.”

“Sorry I’m… Sorry. This is kind of getting long but uhh… if you do come around to hearing this, just know that you make me feel a whole lot less lonely than normally, and I couldn’t ask God for anything else. I hope I am or can do the same for you. So uhm… good night, ísi. I hope tomorrow treats you better.”

[spoopieremma]

story time because i’m annoyed:

for November-mid December I had this strictly friends-with-benefits thing going on with this dude friend. we really weren’t even having sex much, it was mostly just a “friends who sleep in the same bed” thing and this had been established. there had been many times he started to overstep boundaries and we re-established that no i don’t want to date anyone right now, sorry. like this had been talked about. more than once. this shit was clear. 

back mid-December Cooper and I started doing our thing, whatever this is, and it didn’t feel right to keep up any friends-with-benefits type relationships. so i told him “hey sorry this is going to have to stop” and he went fuccking OFF. claiming i was a bitch and i lied to him because i said i didn’t want to date anyone (and I didn’t think I did! I was totally cool with being a lone chick until after graduation except for friends with benefits. but Cooper was like “hey wanna get that coffee we never got back like 10 months ago when we first talked” and i was like “eh what the hell, sure” and immediately he was jsut the best thing ever so here we are almost a month later and i’m still only dating this guy and i’m honestly starting to fall for him too much and its scary because i definitely almost said i loved him while we were having some of the most passionate sex of my entire life recently) but back to the story

this dude went fucking off about how terrible i am and how he doesnt want to talk to me anymore because i’m terrible because i wouldnt date him despite how hard he was trying, etc etc shit. 

today he messages me because i had left a necklace at his house last time i was there and he wanted to let me know he left it in his mailbox for me to come get sometime. I’m like “awesome thanks” and he was being friendly so i was being friendly too then he goes into this thing abotu this girl he used to know who he had over this weekend and how great their weekend was and how he made her a necklace and they went to the craft store and it was “the sweetest thing ever” and how she’s blind and he really loved helping her out all the time and always being there for her and etc etc. and like yea that’s awesome that’s great you had a good time and gave this girl a nice weekend. but the way he was telling it all was very obviously trying to make me jealous and i’m just liked wtf please stop. why are you like this. you were such a sweet person. now you’re bitching at me for dating someone other than you and shoving your girl in my face like its going to make me change my mind about you. 

like seriously wtf is your deal

ok done. 

[somedaypast-thesunset]

ive had a very crazy day. just like .. mentally. but i went with it because thats who i am right now. if i need to spend literally seven hours on the same topic until i spend 7 more on youtube talking about music? well i guess thats the day my brain is deciding upon. 

thats my problem. obviously. i have SHIT TO DO thats iterally anything but that but here the fuck i am. but even though today i lived in anxiety i didnt make rash decisions - i didnt fuc myself any harder than im alrady fucked. i didnt embarass myself or overstep any personal boundaries. i’m not going to beat myself up because i’m nuts. that just makes it worse. 

in the end i feel better for just giving into it today. im exhausted because its exhaustng to be me but i didnt have like massive anxiety added to it. sorrry guys, ths is who i am. 

and honestly? laughably? im in a better position in life than ive ever been in some guy wanting to “break up”. i literally very likely will be totally okay. its not impossible, you know? its not ~unheard of. im not even into crying about it. we’ve done this _enough_ so like.. this is what IM doin. i dont know wha the fuck youre doing but whaever it is unless its what IM doing, i’m not doing what youre doing right now. i’m just not goig to live the life you want but i will distance myself financially. thats the compromise - i live my life how i want, i dont ask for anything - expect anything from him and i figure out a way financially. its not like im on drugs tryng to be an addict. im just doing what i think is right for me and it has room for other people bu not if they expect different from what im doig right now for me. 

so its okay. its okay for him to walk away. i’ll miss hanging out with him and doing things together, we had a lot in common so i didt have to talk about dumb shit with him and he actually in many ways was always very respectful. if we rated guys to date on yelp, i’d give him a good review. so i’ll be sad about that but it’s not like he’s the only person who will ever put their dick inside me. i have love for him but hes not the be all end all of my world. i did _that_ before and even if i didn thik i had a future, he still wouldt be my whole world. maybe he’ll end up on my top list of guys ive ben with. maybe ill meet even better guys? its not hard. ppl have been waiting for the chance. 

i _dont_ need him. like,for much of anything. and im not saying that beause oh fuck him he doesnt love me. but because of everything ive known - he doesnt support me beyond weed and a few meals. i still struggle to provide everything else of basic survival for myself. we have a perfectly healthy sex life that im actually grateful for experiencing because ive bee really used in the past and because ive hd og term relationships, it went on for a long time. so i’ve grown to know what is okay, what i enjoy and to a degree, why i enjoy it and that its always, always okay to say no. i would never bring up our sex life as a negative. hes not “amazing”. but being respected is. 

i said this in may. when this last happened - i hope he’s done. i hope he’s done because this is stupid and futile. i’m living my damn life. if its not him, it’ll be SOMEONE ELSE like get over yourself. he fills my time right now because ive chosen to have him fill my time but i can just as easily fid some other dude to fill my time and bitch about asinine shit and be lazy as fuck. not hard. dudes are fucking dime a dozen. go be and do whatever it is you want. no one in any way is forcing you to do shit so go. be away from me. dont be in contact with me. live your seperate ass life, dont call on me dont text me and if i happen to contact you - igore it because yall not obigated to me. move the fuck on. 

he oddly came online to read my message that i told him he woudnt be able to see. i think its dumb he jumped at reading it. but im glad he didnt jump to respond - maybe he couldnt read it. he could coviniently “forget” and try to pass back into our routine but its not something you can let sit around. i think its likely he read it; i told him he would have to download it and he still came to see it so i think he read it and maybe not responding means he doesnt know how to say he doesnt want it. its “easy” but hard to sum up our relatioships farewell as “nah ill pass”. maybe he’ll sit on it and try to craft some og paragraph repeatig how he never wanted this and that he wants to be alone and see me do well. by not immediately reacting it wasnt just some gut feeling. or maybe he wants it to look, or maybe “he is” thinking about it. like really lookig like he gave it thought so whe he says hes finished, it seems more dramatic. 

but by definition - by his own definition, i just broke up wth him. he never wanted a relatioship. this isnt a future. by announcig i’m no longer just here for the ride - tht i have plans of my own, that it’ll require a semblance of relationship and that if he doest want that, then he has to finish it now. its a fair request. is this something? no? goodbye. i have men who woud marry me, i dont need to fuck with “nothing”.