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[geziskryst]

I was born and raised in Lexington. I wish I could say that I love my old Kentucky home, but the truth is that nothing could be further from the truth. My life has been one struggle after another. I had a very hard time growing up. My family had money struggles. My mother, sisters and I even spent time at homeless shelters in wake of a messy divorce and lack of help from extended family. I attended 10 different schools due to constantly moving and shuffling. Everytime I started to make friends, we were sent elsewhere. I have never known true financial stability but not from lack of trying. I have nothing but contempt for Kentucky. The state that has been the foundation of bigotry in my life. Growing up here being both a non-believer and non-heterosexual in a fundamentalist family religion was not easy. I attended counselling that claimed it could make me straight, a boarding school that was basically a cult, and worse. Still I made it out of all of that alive and without developing a drug addiction or other addictions. Thats the one good thing. My past relationships didn't make me like Kentucky anymore either... I dated a closet case bundle of anxiety that had to remain a secret, he later went to jail for GTA. I dated a cheating lying alcoholic who now lives with HIV. I dated a man that I thought I would marry and instead he caused me the most damage. I moved away for him. Leaving behind my job and family because I hate Kentucky remember? When he and I split, I packed everything I had into a UHaul and drove sobbing in a thunderstorm some 900 miles back to a state I hate. Since returning, next to nothing has gone right. My depression has seen spikes. Eventually another failed relationship and now my job! I don't want to be here anymore. The happiest times in my life where the combined 5 years I lived elsewhere. Its times I found my place and built the life that I want and that I feel I deserve. #gofundme #geziskryst #lgbtq #kentucky #lexington #oakdalechristianacademy #help