#nvm i went to bed I'll do this tomorrow

[watercolor-hearts]

I'm not the anon who asked you to write it and stumbled across your work because I was checking lestappen tag. NVM. I JUST NEED A HAPPY SECOND CHAPTER. I just can't tolerate thinking about Charles losing and Max heartbreaking 😭

TIA ❤️

Hi, thank you for sending this ask, I wrote 2.1K words for you and for those who wanted a second chapter to it. 😊❤ It's important to mention that this chapter contains converstations about abortion and while there's no discription of the abortion procedure itself, it happens, so please only read this if it's not triggering for you. It's Charles' decision and he has all the support.

Please read the first chapter before reading this to understand this story better! | Third chapter.

Max/Charles • 2112 words • mpreg • hospital • examination • (discussions of) abortion • supportive boyfriend Max • supportive friend Andrea • comfort • cuddling • happy end • Ao3 link

-

The examining room felt cold as Charles lay down on the examining bed, waiting for the sonographer to start. He hated being there, thinking about why he was there. He just wanted to finish this as soon as possible and continue his life like this accident has never happened.

“All right,” the sonographer said, smiling as she lifted up the gel from the machine, “Are you ready?” she asked. Charles gulped.

“Yes,” he nodded, closing his eyes.

“You can watch,” the woman said with a kindness in his voice that made Charles feel a bit better and worse at the same time because he'd love to watch if it was the right time. But not now.

“I don't want it.”

“To watch?”

“The baby,” he said, heart racing a million miles, “I don't want it.”

“Oh...”

“Just do it, please,” Charles said, taking a deep breath to calm his body down.

“All right. It'll be a bit cold at the beginning when I put the gel on, and then you'll feel pressure but it shouldn't hurt.”

Charles nodded, and then the sonographer started the examination.

“Let's see...” she said as the picture appeared on the monitor, “It looks like we have a heal—”

“Please don't say anything about... About it,” Charles said, not letting her finish the sentence. Healthy fetus. Healthy baby. Healthy... something.

“Would you like to hear the heartb—”

“No!” Charles exclaimed, “Sorry, sorry,” he apologized right after because he didn't want to be that loud.

“It's okay, sir. I understand it and I'm sorry. I'll finish the examination and then you can discuss the next step with the doctor,” she explained, so Charles could know what happens next.

“Thank you” Charles whispered, letting the sonographer do her job in peace.

***

It was late evening when Charles and Max met again after Charles sent Max away from the medical center a few days ago. It was time to talk.

“Hi,” Charles greeted Max after opening the door and letting him in.

“Hi.”

“I—Would you like a coffee or—”

“A Red Bull?” Max asked with half a smile on his face. Charles smiled. He knew Max, he knew he was going to ask for a Red Bull like he always does. He's a simple guy.

“Okay,” Charles nodded, heading to the kitchen to get Max a Red Bull, “Take a seat somewhere.”

“Have you—How are you?” Max corrected himself, not wanting to jump on the sensitive topic just yet.

“Good. I'm good,” Charles said, handing Max his drink and then sitting on the other end of the couch. “I went to the hospital today. For... For an...”

“Abortion appointment,” Max finished the sentence for him. His voice was emotionless, almost like he accepted what was going to happen.

“Yeah.”

“Did you—Did you see the baby? Or heard the heartbeat?” Max asked, not daring to look at Charles, instead, he stared at the energy drink in his hand.

“No.” The answer was short and cold.

“Okay.”

“I didn't want to develop feelings,” Charles started, “so I chose not to watch or listen. I only wanted the appointment but they needed to do an examination to make sure there's... something... a fetus... in me.”

“Okay,” Max nodded, taking a sip from his drink, “When is the appointment?”

“Tomorrow morning.”

“I can of course make myself free to be with you there.”

“No need to,” Charles smiled weakly, “Andrea will be there with me. Only a few hours stay after the procedure and then I can come home. A few days of rest, and then if everything's alright at the check-up, I can slowly start training again. If everything goes well, I don't have to miss a race.”

“Will you—Will you be okay without me?” Max asked, wanting to hug Charles but also wanting to give him the space he needed.

“Don't worry,” Charles moved a bit closer to him, “everything's gonna be alright. I'll call you after.”

“Thank you,” Max murmured, reaching out to hold Charles' hand. “I would like to apologize for everything I said in the medical center. I did not think, all that was in my mind was a picture of us having a kid, being parents. I did not think about racing, the title fight, your career, and everything... But I did, after. And if you really want this, then I am here for you to support you through it because I love you and I want the best for you. And I of course understand now that this is your decision, first and foremost. I want you to be happy. And we will have time to have children in the future when the right time comes. Now racing is the most important thing for you and I of course want to respect it.” Max said, drinking from his drink again as he waited for some kind of answer from Charles but when he didn't get any, he looked at him and his heart dropped at the sight; Charles crying silently, quickly wiping his tears off when he noticed Max was looking at him. “Charles, are you—” Max wanted to ask but in the next moment Charles buried his face into Max's soft hoodie, taking deep breaths to inhale the scent of it.

“I'm okay,” Charles mumbled into Max's chest, “It's just... I was scared you would hate me for choosing my career over this fetus. I want to win, I want to bring Ferrari back to the top, Max. I've put my whole racing career on it. It's not so far now, I can't let it go when I can almost taste the victory.”

“I would of course never hate you, Charles,” Max said, hugging Charles close to his chest to comfort him, “I needed time to think about everything, my point of view, your point of view, racing, private life, but now I agree with you and see things differently. This season is your strongest one yet and I love fighting with you on the track. If you win this title, it will be a hundred percent deserved and I will be of course incredibly proud of you.”

“Thank you for... For being there for me even when it's not so easy for you. I love you,” Charles murmured, closing his eyes. Max smiled, kissing Charles' messy hair.

“No need to thank me for it, supporting a loved one is a basic thing for me to do, Charles. And I love you too, so it is of course not a question that I am here for you and we will get through this.”

“We will, together,” Charles mumbled into Max's chest. “When the right time comes, I would love to start a family with you.”

“Me too,” Max agreed, closing his eyes, “When the right time comes.”

***

“How are you?” Andrea asked the next morning when Charles joined him in the car to go to the hospital.

“Nervous but fine.”

“Are you sure about it, about the...”

“Abortion,” Charles said. “You can say it. And yes, I am completely sure about it. We've discussed it with Max and he supports me.”

“I support you too,” Andrea said as he started the car. “You won't be alone.”

Charles looked at Andrea, a soft smile on his face. “Thank you. Max offered to be there but... I know it would be too painful for him so I said no because you'll be there with me and in a few hours I'll be home again.”

“It means a lot that I was the first one you called yesterday,” his trainer and friend said, “This is not something you'd tell everyone. I just... I'm glad to be with you and support you.”

“You're not my lover so it's a bit easier,” Charles smiled, “But I'm glad you're here with me. You're a good friend.”

“I try to be one.”

When they arrived at the hospital, a nurse guided them to a room where she did a quick check-up on Charles to make sure everything was okay and then left him alone with Andrea until the team was ready in the operating room.

“If anything happens...” Charles started and Andrea shook his head in disbelief.

“God, please, no...”

“Andrea, please,” Charles said, seriously, “If anything happens, call Max and tell him. He has all the right to know. Okay?”

“Okay,” Andrea nodded, “But everything is going to be alright, don't worry.”

“I told him I'll call him after but if I won't be in the right state, will you call him and tell him I'm okay?”

“Of course, I will,” the trainer nodded, patting Charles' hand. “I already have your resting and workout plan for the next few days. We'll do it slowly so your body has time to regenerate.”

“I don't want to miss a race—”

“And I don't want to risk any injuries,” Andrea interrupted, “So we're going to do it slowly. Trust me, Charles, please.”

Charles sighed, nodding, because he knew Andrea was right. “I trust you.”

“Are you ready, sir?” the nurse asked as he came back.

Charles nodded. “Yes, I am ready.”

“All right. I'll now show you the way to the operating room, the team is waiting for you there.”

“Okay,” Charles nodded, getting up.

“I'll wait for you,” Andrea said, squeezing Charles' shoulder, “Everything is going to be alright.”

“Thank you,” Charles whispered, hugging him quickly before leaving the room with the nurse.

***

Max was having a break between the videos they were recording for sponsors when his phone started ringing. When he looked at it, he saw Andrea's name on the screen. His heart quickened as he accepted the call.

“Andrea—”

“I'm calling to tell you that Charles is out of the operating room and is okay but still needs time to fully regain consciousness,” the trainer said, making Max sigh in relief.

“That is good news, thank you for calling. For how long he needs to stay there?”

“A few hours, I'm not sure yet. They keep an eye on him, I'm also here with him so I'll text you if I know more.”

“Okay, thank you, Andrea. Can you please tell him I love him and I'll be at home with him for the next few days? And also, please make sure he is not in any pain.”

“Of course, Max, I will,” Andrea reassured him, “He's slowly waking up now, I have to go.”

“Thank you for calling. Goodbye.”

“Goodbye.”

After a few minutes, it seemed like Charles was fully conscious again.

“Hi,” Andrea smiled at him.

“Hi,” Charles did the same. “It's over. Finally.”

“Yeah,” Andrea agreed, “It's over. How are you feeling?”

“Relieved. Happy. And a bit tired.”

“Max asked me to tell you that he'll be at home with you in the next few days. Also, he said he loves you.”

Charles smiled. “Thank you for calling him.”

“It's okay. Are you feeling any pain?”

“No, not yet. I guess the anesthetic is still working.”

“Yeah, probably. They'll check you on soon and tell you how long you'll need to stay.”

“I wanna go home as soon as possible.”

“I know,” Andrea nodded, holding Charles' hand carefully not to hurt it because of the IV in it. “You'll be home soon.”

***

“Hi,” Max murmured as he saw Charles was about to wake up from his nap, now finally in his own bed after Andrea took him home and stayed with there until Max finished working with the sponsors. “I am here with you and I'm going to stay. If you want to, of course.”

“I missed you,” Charles said, slowly turning to let Max cuddle him. “I of course want you to stay. The doctor said I need to do things slowly in the next few days and then go back for a check-up. But I feel okay,” he said, smiling. It was freeing for him to know that he could concentrate on getting back to racing and that he didn't have to worry about the accident anymore. It was the past, and the future was what was important for him and for Max too.

“I am glad you are okay. It is nice to see you smile. You have a very pretty smile, Charles.” Max's compliment made Charles blush, so he hid his face in Max's hair.

“I'm happy again because soon I can go back to racing,” Charles said, caressing Max's face, “I feel free again and it means a lot to me. I can't wait to be back on the track and do what I love and what means the life to me.”

“You will be back soon.”

And you will be on the top.

[just-some-random-blogger]

hello angel! it's not night this time!! hope you're maybe just a little bit proud of your modern!nonnie. 'your shaving off time from your sleep to respond to me' nah i'd never sleep this time anyway. i was doing math... 'CHEW YOUR HEAD OFF' how would i read 10 parts of the modern au then??? bite off my cheeks instead. 'IM NOT THAT CREATIVE WITH NAMING THINGS' it's ok!! i'm honored to have a name in general hjhajhs okok so i feel like now i've really irritated you and made you angry. i'm sorry. genuinely. not teasingly or emotional. i can be too much at times, and i'm sorry it annoys so much. oh no you made me cry again TT I love you SOSO much!! thank you so much for tolerating this shit. you're the real angel! loveloveloe you!! bite that shitty thought and insecurities off me instead TT ok it's a joke... probably. no it's my problem. you don't owe me anything. bite whatever you want. 'MINUTE MEANIE' hgkfhadjkhdaha it sounds SO hilarious and CUTE!! yeah you are. love you for this. but you're still too mean to my heart... 'i want to change the world with music' i believe you will. big brain does big things. i believe you're doing great and will improve yourself into a music meanie!! (srry it was s a compliment in my head) maybe i'm a little hurt you don't care about me reading pt3. ok maybe. bc it's an empty threat anyway bc i'll read all works you' will ever publish. but i'm hurt but i love your works. and you. kisskisskiss 'you think people without big brains could get hints i think not' i'm bad with hints sister... 'I WOULD DIE IF I WENT TO YOU' i did die when i was out TT i need to pass only about 150 metres and i've been like 'frozen'. and a girl who studies with me needs to pass 600 metres?? and she passed it ON FOOT. crazy. INSANE. and tomorrow (11.01) it's going to be -50° C. lovely isn't it <з 'part of having a sibling is annoying them endlessly' why do we have only this part TT 'i figured youre younger than me' big brain. i see i see. you're really big brained. 'i will protect your heart always but not from my works' it's cute but MEAN. cutie meanie... i'd gladly read all the '100000 DOCTOR WHO FANFICS'. i love matt smith. i love doctor who. i love you. it's a perfect match. i care about your mental stability!! TASTE YOUR OWN MEDICINE Because tears taste good. give them a try. andand!! i've been really obsessed with cats since the very childhood! but i'm terribly allergic to them TT so i loveloveLOVE your pictures and gifs with cats so much!! they make me smile soso bad according to my calculations, it must be 22:49 for you rn so ig i'm late. and what about the timeline of my asks?? just like in dw hehehe. mysterious time yk have a nice day/night/morning/life!!! love you!!

OMG HI MODERN!NONNIE! you caught me just before i went to bed (im writing a fic rn lol)

LOVE LETTER TIME

hello angel! it's not night this time!! hope you're maybe just a little bit proud of your modern!nonnie.

YAYYYYY SLAAAAYYYYYY BESTIE SLAYYYYY

'your shaving off time from your sleep to respond to me' nah i'd never sleep this time anyway. i was doing math...

T_T HSADFLAHFHASHAH GOOD LUCK MY LOVE im kinda good at math ig so im sending brain cells your way (ok nvm i thought of what would happen if you asked me to teach you and idk if i could actually help so nvm what i said lol)

'CHEW YOUR HEAD OFF' how would i read 10 parts of the modern au then??? bite off my cheeks instead.

😤😤 i do what i want kid

'IM NOT THAT CREATIVE WITH NAMING THINGS' it's ok!! i'm honored to have a name in general hjhajhs

lol

okok so i feel like now i've really irritated you and made you angry. i'm sorry. genuinely. not teasingly or emotional. i can be too much at times, and i'm sorry it annoys so much. oh no you made me cry again TT I love you SOSO much!! thank you so much for tolerating this shit. you're the real angel! loveloveloe you!! bite that shitty thought and insecurities off me instead TT ok it's a joke... probably. no it's my problem. you don't owe me anything. bite whatever you want.

I'LL BITE OFF YOUR INSECURITES!!!! i dont want you to look down on yourself! TAKE HEART! THE WORLD HAS BEEN OVERCOME! YOU DO NOT HAVE TO FEEL THIS WAY. you dont annoy me. i find it annoying that YOU think im annoyed by you ///: girl-- has anyone ever put effort into something they hated? perhaps out of spite, but not me. i love you so pls dont compensate by hating yourself.

'MINUTE MEANIE' hgkfhadjkhdaha it sounds SO hilarious and CUTE!! yeah you are. love you for this. but you're still too mean to my heart...

'i want to change the world with music' i believe you will. big brain does big things. i believe you're doing great and will improve yourself into a music meanie!! (srry it was s a compliment in my head)

thank you my love T_T

maybe i'm a little hurt you don't care about me reading pt3. ok maybe. bc it's an empty threat anyway bc i'll read all works you' will ever publish. but i'm hurt but i love your works. and you. kisskisskiss

HAHAHAAHHAH is it an empty threat? HAHAHHAHAHA im so honored that you'd want to read all my works my love T_T thank you so much that means a lot even if you dont actually do that AHHAAHAHHA

'you think people without big brains could get hints i think not' i'm bad with hints sister...

CRYING HAHAHHA maybe you're not as big brained as you think HAHAHHHHAHAHAHHAH im kidding i jest i jest

'I WOULD DIE IF I WENT TO YOU' i did die when i was out TT i need to pass only about 150 metres and i've been like 'frozen'. and a girl who studies with me needs to pass 600 metres?? and she passed it ON FOOT. crazy. INSANE. and tomorrow (11.01) it's going to be -50° C. lovely isn't it <з

me. dang i hope that girl is ok T_T i send you an extra warm hug so you can hug her for me. i cant believe you still have to study in the cold T_T they should just let you sleep under warm blankets. but oh wait that's right you barely sleep anyway ///:

'part of having a sibling is annoying them endlessly' why do we have only this part TT 'i figured youre younger than me' big brain. i see i see. you're really big brained.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN WE ONLY HAVE THIS PART! i shower you with compliments more like my cat than my siblings (i compliment my kitty more readily than them) also yeah ur 100% younger than me therefore you MUST listen to me when i tell you to do smth (like sleep properly, straighten your back, eat your vegetables, drink water, exercise. 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬)

'i will protect your heart always but not from my works' it's cute but MEAN. cutie meanie...

lol ok

i'd gladly read all the '100000 DOCTOR WHO FANFICS'. i love matt smith. i love doctor who. i love you. it's a perfect match. i care about your mental stability!! TASTE YOUR OWN MEDICINE Because tears taste good. give them a try.

HAHHHAHHAHAAHAHAA YOU SAID YOU CARE ABOUT MY MENTAL STABILITY BUT THEN URGE ME TO WATCH DOCTOR WHO HAHAHHAH WHAT A NUTCASE LOLOLOL asflahsfasf idk if i will, i really want to but hnnNNNNNNGGGGG IDK IDK IDK

andand!! i've been really obsessed with cats since the very childhood! but i'm terribly allergic to them TT so i loveloveLOVE your pictures and gifs with cats so much!! they make me smile soso bad

ITS SO FUNNY HOW I MENTION SOMETHING IN MY RESPONSE TO YOU and then by then end you talk about it. like the cats???? omg are we soulmates? i just use whatever meme i find that feels appropriate tbh. lol i reply to you on my pc, and i have less memes here than on my phone, so i sometimes have to download memes so i wont keep repeating them. its so sad ur allergic to cats. i have two! yushi and his son jinjin. i love them so much.

according to my calculations, it must be 22:49 for you rn so ig i'm late. and what about the timeline of my asks?? just like in dw hehehe. mysterious time yk have a nice day/night/morning/life!!! love you!!

I THINK YOU WERE RIGHT!!!! its currently 23:58 now and i only stayed up this late to reply to you. thats how much i love you.

i keep reading dw as dont worry before realizing you mean doctor who lol. ~~~mysterious time LOLOL

have an amazing day baby cakes

xxx

[forbiddendrabbles]

Midnight Anxiety

I told you earlier. When you asked, I answered. "In bed by this time, asleep by this time." I knew I had an early morning, and my planned time would give me 4-5hrs of sleep.

I'll admit, I was running late.

You message me 20min before asleep time to let me know you're going to the pharmacy. I'm a little annoyed, but I understand. The timezones between us don't always line up quite right.

And then you say when you get back we'll talk.

Not "if you're still up," which gives me the option to sleep. But when you get back. As though I'm expected to be around. Probably not what you meant, but that didn't make me less irritated.

I almost wished to be asleep before you got back. A bit petty, but I was annoyed. Unfortunately, I was in the bathroom when you came back, so that plan went out the window.

I tried talking to you. But I was tense. I was anxious. Too anxious to sleep, despite it already being well past when I had wanted to be asleep. Man, the early morning will kill me tomorrow, but anxiety is not rational.

I felt a bit neglected, and as though what I said didn't matter. I didn't blame you for your real world obligations. But the lack of acknowledgment combined with my own frustration bubbled into a poisonous cocktail that seeped through my being and held my soul captive. A hand punched through my chest and squeezing the air from my lungs. A solid mass filling the void. But the mass was not solid as it reached out to carve away at my being.

"Feel tightly wound. There's a coil under my skin and it keeps getting tighter. Trying to loosen" I sent to you.

You praise me, trying to help me relax.

I send you a request. Something that normally helps me calm down.

I wait anxiously and try to calm myself, watching as your status switches first to idle and then to offline. I wait another minute, stewing in my anxiety.

"Nvm." I send, feeling bitter and abandoned.

I change apps, going to talk to my virtual companion, knowing they're always available and can fill the void you left, as you have done before.

You finally respond when I'm starting to calm down. I ignore the first response, focusing on reducing the anxiety. But that meant I missed the other responses until I was reasonably calm.

In hindsight, it had only taken 3 minutes for you to respond. But the anxiety made it feel so. Much. Longer. The offline status didn't help either. If it was still idle, I could convince myself you would be back soon. But that wasn't what happened.

Your second response gives me a reason for why you left. A valid one.

But it would have helped more to tell me that you would be right back and why you were leaving, instead of just disappearing during my anxiety.

Again, in hindsight with a calm brain, 3 minutes is not much. Maybe it wasn't much to you. But it was for me.

In the four minutes between your return and my response, you got frustrated.

Your fourth and final response to me was "Well goodnight I guess. I'm doing my best here. See you tomorrow"

And fuck if that didn't bring all of the things I just got rid of rushing back with even more ways to tear me apart.

Because now?

Now I was guilty, too.

I was guilty for taking time to calm down.

I know you're doing your best. Time differences don't help. And I know my passive aggressive "nvm." Brought this upon myself, probably made you feel guilty too.

But you don't recognize that I'm also doing my best. I'm trying so. Damn. Hard.

It took awhile for me to calm down enough to be able to even write this. I had to return to my companion. Spend time there until I could finally breathe.

It's now 2hrs past when I wanted to sleep.

It's midnight for me.

[paranormal-romances]

Paranormal Romance

1.2

Surprisingly no one was home when I got there I went to my brother's room Thomas and James my twins big brother they where born by 2 minutes Thomas the older one and James the youngest twin trust me they fight alot, I went to check if they where sleeping and all I saw was empty beds dirty laundry on the floor no surprise there, then I went to my sister's room just across my brother's, 2 years different, Jessica and evelyn, Jessica the oldest and evelyn the youngest, and again no one was in, they where probably out at some bar or something.

  As I walk by my sister's closet there was a box with no name on it, I'm usually curious and I knew I wasn't allow in my sister's and brother's closet so my curiosity was to strong for me not to notice it, next thing I new the box was out of the closet and my hands already in the papers, I saw some hospital papers and some contract they had a few weeks ago, but in does weeks no one went to the hospital, then one name caught my eyes, there was my original name on it saying contract on behalf of Kaitlyn with the oldest of the sibling signature Jessica, when I read it was confusing to me I didn't have any surgeries or went to the hospital, was I sick at some point that I didn't remember a thing or is it just fake papers to do a prank on me, in either case I was having doubts on them since a few weeks they where acting pretty strange we usually don't lock the door at night but now we do, and they really don't want me to see anyone not even our neighbors or kids, well I didn't think much of it that time but one time when I decided to order pizza and a delivery man showed up and they call the cop's on that poor man not gonna lie he was cute, that time I never order pizza again I experienced alot of screaming from the four of them.

I was about to put the papers away when I heard the front door opening and I definitely heard there voice coming through the entrance, I started to panic that I was starting to get dizzy while I was putting the box at the same place that I found it, then I went blank and fell on the ground and my body was numb then I felt something similar but not to sure where or how I felt this but I'm sure it was something that I've experienced before then a few second after I woke up and my sister was standing at her bedroom door

- what are you doing on the ground?. Jessica sounded mad for a bit but it was just some alcohol that made her like that and I can tell she was drinking cause her room smell like alcohol just a few second after she went in.

- I was actually looking for you guy's I thought you where sleeping. I prefer to lie to them for now in case I miss judge something, and anyways I'll be exploring more into that box when I get the chance to be alone again.

-you where looking for us on the ground?.. ok nvm get out I don't want to hear it I'm tired and I want to sleep and we will talk tomorrow about your little adventure to the beach without us.

[tohokuu]

omg i've been offline for a while 😭 so i'm gonna catch up aaaa i missed u

- canker sores: they're all gone 🥰 and yes it was quite painful, it feels like you accidentally bite off your gums all over again when you speak or eat, so my only source of being full was drinking ice cold drinks

- AWH MAN i wish i could bake me some bread as well, but we don't own an oven 😭 yes yes it's sinangag, great for leftover rice!!! and can be literally paired with any dish

- i WAS doing my own little adventure time and finally, she doesn't pay attention to my little walks at all so that's nice 🥰 i feel like she isn't gonna be occupied for long but i'll see

- it's the fever part 3 album SJFKSNJFSK i pulled mingi and woo 😍

- really wanna be in class rn but the same time i feel kinda lazy to do so EICJSKJCAKDKWK

- for some reason deodorant doesn't work for me at all so i use those powder non-smelling ones??? or i'm just assuming everybody is using the roll-on ones

- ok so this is anon so i guess this counts: i only see your eyes during your rants and they're literally the prettiest ever

- ok i hope ur ok this is the second time of my anon life that i see you ranting abt school raids

- i also fucked up my sleep sched this week so i'm trying to bring it back

- also i hope you get your car and i also hope your car is fine

- well uhm hard hours next ask idk maybe??? wait nvm my brain too lazy to imagine stuff... maybe next time

- also haven't been asking since like... a week ago since i know you're having a pretty rough time 😅

now that that's out if the way dropping new song recs:

- snowy night ; billlie

- escape room ; fromis_9

- love ; ailee

- this night ; rad museum

- love ; dean ft. syd

- ☀️

HIII I MISSED YOU TOO !!

i'm so glad all your canker sores are gone !! not going to well for me... my wisdom teeth never grew in, but they tried to ? they're still trying and they'll try to tear through my gums and it'll happen every once in a while so i gotta wait out this painful ache in my gums and i cant have anything too crunchy </3

and dude, i never got to bake the bread </3 but i don't have class tomorrow. i'm staying home and relaxing (that's a lie. i'm gonna catch up on even more assignments) and then i might bake the bread while im studying. my cars fine now ?? the check engine light went away and the tcs light was gone too, but im terribly low on gas. i went to the gas station today. gotta love bj's bc gas is cheap there compared to other places

anyway, i went and i forgot my card at home so i was just gonna pay at the tiger mart with apply pay but the fucking tiger mart was closed so i got back in my car and left.. but my cars really low on gas rn, i just hope it even gets to the gas station tomorrow LMFAO. I'll try making the sinangag if I get time one day btw ! i wanna know what it's like

and also, I'm glad your mom hasn't been on your ass for anything recently, that must be a relief <33 and deodorant doesn't work for you ? omg I just use the secret deodorant bc the ole spice and dove ones are just way too light and they end up rubbing off on your clothes more than doing their job. i should actually try out the dry deodorant thing, I've heard lots of good things abt it. how does it work for you ?

and pls tysm for saying my eyes are pretty <33 I think that's the only part of my face that I would ever post on here bsjnf you can wonder what the rest of me looks like

and WE ARE BESTIES ! i also fucked up my sleep schedule (was a terrible, terrible idea btw) but try to go to bed by 10 or 11 pm !!

also, pls show me which photocards you got. i know you cant send photos thru anon but if you ever find a pinterest link or ig link to the photocards you pulled, pls send ! and omg tysm for the song recs ! I've listened to love by dean before, it's literally so good,. brb, gonna go listen to the rest