#number one ? lifeline uwu

[everhunt]

gonna start slowly composing my apex muses also---

[boizandgurlzinthehouse]

♡ 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐚𝐛𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩 ♡

requested: yes / no ♡ here you go and thanks @radiantcade 💞💞

plot: because if he’s there, everything is safe <3

-you and darry met in the grocery shop, accidentally bumped in each other while you were busy with choosing the best oranges 

-you two were classmates formally, but never talked that much (like you two knew the other’s name but you were good with your own friends)

-helps you to pick up the fallen oranges, your hands accidentally touching - you two look at each other, you realize who helps you 

-”oh my god, i’m so sorry, can i- is it you, y/n?” “yes, it’s me, dar! nice to see you, after all this time. how are you doing?” 

-you two talk literally for an hour while shopping about your current life - he feels that you cling into his words like some lifeline, you thirsting for something unlike. when he wants to ask that you have someone or not, your phone rings. darry notices that your face hardens, but afraid to ask

-you answer the phone, but you only hum and say “yes”, “yes” and “yes” constantly, and when you drop it, the happiness is disappeared in a moment

-”sorry darry, i gotta go. meet somewhere if you want, hm? steven knows my phone number, ask him to give it.” “okay, but why should i ask him while you ar-” “bye, darry!” you hurry with your bags, leaving him there with his own bags and worry about you 

-at the afternoon, he goes to steven’s house for your number, the other boys hollering about it, especially sodapop he’s just a saucy bastard protect him uwu

-”can i ask something, steven?” “you already did it dar, talk to me.” “does y/n have a… relationship or something?” “yeah, i think she does, but that guy… i don’t know what she likes about him.” 

-darry can’t sleep at that night, only thinking about you and your relationship, try to admit it that he don’t jealous - or just rather angry than jealous 

-after two days -he tried to call you but you didn’t answer- he walk down on the street with two-bit

-”hey dar, that girl there isn’t y/n?” he flicks his head and yeah, it’s you “hey, y/n!” “stop screaming, idiot” he mutters and watch as you try to avoid him. when he catches you up, you slow down 

-”oh hi, darry, it’s… it’s nice to see you” you stutters, caring your bag in your hands 

-”it’s nice to see you too, but… why you didn’t answer my phones? i’m not angry, but… you scared me, you know” you laugh nervously at his words, trying to hide your flutter, but he feels that something is wrong 

-you look around, touching his arm - you both shiver when your skins touching

-”can i talk with you about something? but you gotta promise me that you won’t tell it for anyone else” you whisper, darry strokes your shoulder, shepherds you to one calm, quiet place 

-”talk to me, y/n” can you imagine his husky voice ohgosh and with that you tell him everything, from the beginning to the present. at some point you gabble, stutter, cry or whisper, being a chaotic mess - but feeling some relief like just a water in the endless desert

-at the end of your speech, he hugs you, his strong arms holds you like nothing else, and when he looks down at you, darry wipes one lost tear away

-”listen to me, okay? now you grab your keys and go home to pick up your things, and then come at our house.” “but dar, if he gonna be there, i’m…” “then i gonna be there too, i’m going with you. if you want to, i call sodapop and steve, or anybody else.” “okay, that… that would be cool, thank you, thank you so much, darry.” 

-he kisses your forehead, running his fingers through your hair

-”nothing’s gonna hurt you from now on, you deserve so much better than that. and i’m gonna prove that to you, y/n.” 

-darry grab your hand, and now you feel safe, even when you going home the last time

-because if he’s there, everything is safe. 

[transagentstern]

indruck no. 9 uwu

09.  a $20 tip isn’t worth me staying open late, but then you burst into tears and I end up asking you if you want to hang around to talk

Duck was trying to be a normal guy, running a normal coffee shop, with normal hours, and he guessed that part of running a business was dealing with people who had….unexpected reactions to things.

Anger he knew how to deal with. Stay firm, throw them out, ban them for the store if they got too rowdy. Bribes to stay open late were easy enough to turn down, and he was prepared for anger.

He didn’t know how to deal with crying.

The man in front of him looked positively wrecked, holding a 20 dollar bill like a lifeline with lines of tears streaming from underneath his big red glasses.

“Oh, jeez. Oh jeez-” Duck grabbed a fistful of napkins from the shelf, reacting before he could think too much about it, the same way he would have taken care of Jane at home.

“Hey, look, it’s alright. Here, wipe your eyes and- and- Let me get you a cup of coffee, alright? Our secret. Just- it’s gonna be a little bit stale- put the 20 away, please stop crying.”

“I-I apologize, this is undignified.”

The man took the napkins Duck was offering, and very carefully pushed his glasses to the top of his head.

Aw fuck. Duck caught sight of crinkles at the corners of soft brown eyes, as though his face were much more accustomed to smiling then frowning. Fuck, he’s cute.

“We can’t all be dignified all the time.”

He turned around, pouring a cup of coffee and pushing it over the counter along with a the bottle of honey and ignoring the very long squeeze of honey into the cup.

He started the coffee draining and started switching off the machines.

“So is it a ‘wanna talk about it’ kind of shitty day, or a ‘I’d like to think about literally anything else’”

“-kind of day? Ah, the latter.”

Duck wasn’t terribly phased by the man finishing his sentence for him, he supposed it was probably easy to guess where that one was going.

“Well, would you like to hear about my day?”

The man was nodding before Duck got to the end of his sentence, and he grinned, taking back the empty jar of honey (jesus, that had been half full, how much sugar did one man need?)

“So, at five in the fucking morning-”

Duck didn’t much believe at love at first sight, but apparently he believed in love-at-first-bitching-session, because he was a little bit in love with the stranger sitting at the counter by the end of the night. He laughed at all of Duck’s jokes (a few seconds before he made them, which was a little odd, but nothing in Duck’s life was normal, exactly) and whenever he did his eyes and his nose crinkled, and he moved his hands up to keep his glasses on top of his head.

Duck was almost sorry to close the store, but before he could try to think of any more ways to delay going home, the man looked at his watch.

“Ah- I’d better be getting home. I’m sorry for keeping you.”

“Nah, it’s fine, I-…I uh, really enjoyed talking to you. Could I, maybe-”

“Have your number? I thought you’d never ask. Can I type it in your phone?”

Duck grinned, handing over his phone, and the man looked intently at it for a minute, squinting a bit, his glasses still pushed up. After a moment, he smiled.

“I sent myself a text so I have yours.”

“Works for me. And uh- maybe i’ll see you around,” Duck glanced down at the contact in his phone. “…Indrid?”

“Count on it, Duck Newton.”

He pulled his glasses back down, shooting Duck a mock salute and practically skipping out the door, and Duck was so charmed that he didn’t realize till well after he was home and in bed that he’d never actually told Indrid his name.

Somehow, it didn’t bother him.

[bitegore]

dratchet, starprime, simpatico, megarod for the ship meme

hey anon idk how you did it but you did it! you found half of my notps! 

im splitting dratchet into two categories because uhhh

Fanon Dratchet: 

1 = NOTP, Disgusting.

how do you say… it is NOT something i like! at all! i hate it in fic, i hate it in art, i hate it in uhhhhhh everything. uwu baby drift and gwumpy old man ratchet GRATES on me. am i the only one who remembers that ratchet in early idw refused to kill people. am i the only one who remembers. am i the only–

and drift is so obviously clinging to that shell like its a lifeline because he’s well aware hes capable of terrible things and trying to mitigate it

anyway things that make no sense in context annoy me when i like the characters so like. fuck this lol

Canon Dratchet: 

4 = I could see why others like it, kinda cute i suppose

soft fake grump and hard fake softboy. good dynamic. not my favorite but acceptable

Starprime

there isnt a number for “i dont care at all except that someone said they couldnt figure out how to ship it because there was no chemistry so i immediately decided to write fics with starprime in them somehow for reasons of it required brain thoughts and hit my Defiance Button and now i ship it strongly but also couldnt care less about it” lol

Simpatico

3 = I could see why others like it but not at all my taste.

i like LL/MTMTE Brainstorm. I like Wreckers Percy. 

I cannot fucking stand MTMTE/LL Percy. 

Kinda breaks my interest in Simpatico; but I do like the idea of Wreckers Percy meeting LL/MTMTE Brainstorm during the war. 

Megarod

1 = NOTP, Disgusting.

this may surprise you! aesthetically i like them. they’re pleasing in arts. But no matter how you write their dynamic, Megatron is dismissive and Rodimus is kinda nasty and I just am reminded way too hard of various friendshps and familial relationships that have just eroded away at my own self enough that i cant fucking read them for anything but porn

i actually really wish i could get into it out of spite

but alas

its really hard to enjoy a story while you’re having nasty flashbacks to all the times you dropped a thing you enjoyed because you were better at it than one of your friends and they lost their shits about it. 

[choric]

( park jimin - demimale, he/they ) — did you see noeul han walking down the street? the twenty-three year old has lived here for three weeks. i heard they’re an aspiring painter & a part-time barista now, time sure flies. gooey by glass animals always did remind of them, maybe it’s because they’re so audacious & charitable. though i did hear they can also be commanding & capricious if you catch them on a bad day.

hey babes drum-roll it’s admin fany here to welcome yall~ with some random info about me I guess uh so I’m 26, living in northern europe, most of the time dying bc I’m not made for these hot ass summers, other times just being distracted twelve times outta ten jsyk I’m not ignoring anyone my attention span is just in the negatives. or I’m playing overwatch. or subnautica when I’m feeling particularly masochistic.  would drop dead without tea. ye. that’s all for today folks

anyway here’s Noeul’s profile if you wanna peep also a very messy plot page aaaand I’m gonna ramble about him now uwu

tw: emotional abuse, tw: assault ( kinda brief mentions, esp the assault, I tried keeping it safe )

born in Seoul but his family moved to USA when he was barely 6. they moved around a l o t since then but stayed within the borders. save for one weird year in France back in 2010

he haTED it. all the constant moving around and starting at new schools with new people trying to get new friends and find new hobbies and leaving pretty much everything behind so often just stressed the hell out of his young self and he was in a perpetual state of over-emotional about the whole ordeal and angry and bitter and yeah. not having a good time

over the years he managed to find ways to cope with it, drawing and painting being a major thing as it was one of very few things he could just continue without any special arrangements made or it feeling different. putting all that bent up negativity on paper was helpful in itself so he stuck with it without much thought then, clinging into a lifeline of one constant in a sea of variables

later on it morphed from being less of a therapeutic activity and more one of him being able just flow with creativity, paint with a less personal agenda and enjoy it way more too ( not to say he doesn't still use it as a form of escapism too )

reading was another thing he found enjoyment in, especially during his early teenage years. that is something he doesn't engage that often in anymore however

his parents didn’t really care about what hobbies he took on ( even with painting carrying throughout the years he ended up trying a whole slew of other things too ) until it became apparent he was actually considering art as a legit career path. neither agreed it being a good idea but they didn’t flat out deny him either.. just were very patronising about it for months and by that time he had come to actual decision of going through with it out of pettiness alone lmao. which of course served nothing but to legit piss them off and led to a number of arguments they still have to this day yikes

his parents entire view on life seemed to be there was no point getting attached to anything, sentimentality was a flaw and you could just buy everything you needed again without much care for what was left behind. especially his mom had a lot of emotionally abusive ways to steer his life in the direction she wanted, but giving just enough freedom for him to think he had a say in anything. not to say she wasn’t supportive and encouraging too but he honest to god can’t tell now how much of it was genuine. she was especially fond of using subtle blackmail in form of referring to her own feelings and how his actions will upset her, occasionally bursting into a loud tirade which was then quickly pushed to the side without any apologies for making him in turn upset so boy was always just on edge. this still happens but he pretty much only communicates with her through calls anymore so, Noeul just hangs up when she starts acting up. his dad was more the type to not involve himself into his hobbies and likes or anything at all he only cared about academic plans.

that all messed him up big time in his younger years bc he was inherently just very attached to everything and everyone but now.. it’s almost the complete opposite, enough repetition and shit will stick I guess cause he has next to no sentimental feelings towards anything, in turn actually loves travelling and meeting new people now. partially also cause he doesn’t feel obligated to uphold anything or allow himself being chained down, he treats everything like it’s fleeting, but not without care– don’t assume he doesn’t care when that’s something he does in abundance actually. he just.. accepts nothing lasts forever. ironic enough he’s adopted far too many of his parent’s habits to count now but has grown more tender with the experiences rather than cold. probably a miracle in itself. hella guarded about his feelings tho

so yeah he moved to LA ( parents were at the time both living in NYC ) for art school and got that bachelor of fine arts degree, graduating just spring last year and has no desire to further those studies cause screw school he’s done with institutions for a decade

also his parents filed for divorce while he was at it. before he was even done with freshman year. wasn’t all too surprising nor did he have anything to really say about it, except the times mom called him whilst drunk and essentially blamed it on him being a bad son :/// his dad’s fucked off somewhere he hasn’t heard whole lot from him in last three years beside birthday texts and money transfers to his bank account. and subtle messages through mom about how he expects him to clean up one of these days. meanwhile mom mostly contacts just to check he’s alive & doing well financially while slipping in vague ‘if you would have just listened to me‘s and ‘when will you come to your senses’s >_>

forgot to mention his dad’s a CEO of a small airline company. don’t ask me what his mom does idk prob some manager of a huge ass successful online shop?? something along those lines

will not speak about them if asked tbh don't expect anything other than "they're alive."

does not like announcing his ( their ) wealth to the world either and tries not to make decisions that could reflect that but something always has to give in the end. like he’s just way too happy to blow money on other people no matter how subtle he tries to be about it and often like his parents buys new stuff instead of finding ways to bring his old along, some of his clothes are also a dead giveaway it’s not so much that he specifically purchases anything cause it’s designer but if it looks nice he doesn’t see it as any different buying from any other store around. smells awfully lot like privilege but he’s unapologetic in getting exactly what he wants, it’s not his problem if someone takes offence to that

kind of also hates that he’s so dependant on parent’s money still but has made peace with it by giving away and works twice as hard for his own stuff, regardless if it yields anything cause he’s not doing this whole painting thing as a means to gain money ( would like to, but alas, it’s a tricky career path ) more from pure passion for the art

and noeul def is not gonna tell them to stop sending him cash he'll just have fun spending it in all the shit they'd hate-- even if they've basically set conditions but weird enough haven't cut him off yet.  guess that really is the only thing they can give him and they know it too :)) 

so. doesn’t actually like sitting idle even tho he all but could, yet cannot happily place himself in an establishment with very strict 9 to 5 shifts and such, so if and when he takes on extra work occasionally it’s always part-time, and for own personal gratification

in the case of him recently taking on a spot as a part-time barista here in acarike ( started like, two days ago or something ) was also bc of keeping up appearances ( surely he would run out of money eventually? no, but no one needs to know that ) and getting to know some of the people around since his group of road-tripping friends have seriously decided to settle in

if anyone was wondering yes he has experience working in cafes, among other places. his parents abhorred him taking on such jobs at all cause “what was the point? are we not providing enough?” first of all did he ask?

I guess he is currently residing in the stardust motel?? but is looking for a place

for him travelling in the past few years has been sorta cathartic, inspiring if I dare say both in personal growth and in his work since he can decide on everything by himself, where he wants to go, for how long, for why etc

sometimes likes when he has company for that, other times he just needs to make a trip in solitary. altogether prefers meeting random people along the way

is a kind of odd friend, loyal, compassionate and all that but puts himself before anyone else. or rather puts his emotional and other needs before everything else. if he feels you’re the one getting more out of it than he is it’s not worth it sorry. very generous tho and sees it as his duty to help others in any way if it doesn’t inconvenience him. not unreliable but available only when it suits him. so unless it’s life threatening or emotional distress he will not drop everything for even a friend’s sake you can wait an hour or two. can make friends as quick as he drops them

might get a little inappropriately affectionate with friends. especially so when intoxicated

is an even weirder lover. he loves the idea and feeling of being in love and the emotional thrill of it. relationships are fun yeah but commitment?? not in his. vocabulary. to elaborate he lives for the push and pull and the suspense of it all and needs things to stay stimulating on all levels across the board when deepening relationships further while also being able to maintain a sense of own freedom. he craves the sort of emotional security and gratification it all brings but refuses to become dependant on it ( he knows how that will go ), furthermore does not like all the limitations it brings nor everything being perfect to the point of feeling fake??

tries to make it clear that he’s NOT looking for anything long term but even then people haven’t taken it well when he out of the blue announces they should stop whatever it is they’re doing. he always feels bad about it and tries to part in good terms but yeah :// many hearts have been broken. it’s probably even worse for the other person cause Noeul himself seems to have absolutely no problem continuing his life like nothing happened. all this has made him into a bit of a serial dater??

in whole he takes everything as they are, nothing is everlasting and he doesn’t try to make it so, doesn’t necessarily want to. values experiences but doesn’t get too hung up on letting go of them. including relationships. this is something a lot of people in his life wont understand and it’s frustrating for everyone involved sometimes but you gotta do what you gotta do. might be scared of opening up to people. of that attachment. maybe he’s actually just picky and is waiting for something out of the world magical who knows

repels all negativity as if his life depended on it like. add begone thot meme here

but can also be very confrontational so???

is actually in constant war with himself over positive and negative emotions but filters that out pretty handily. most of the time. cause uh absolutely will turn vicious and loud when angry. sensitive to criticism and personal attacks but gets over it quick enough. does hold grudges but mainly towards people whose opinion he cares about. strangers rarely phase him. has random emotion™ bursts but tbh only cries when being shouted at and/or being target of someone’s wrath-- OR when noeul's angry himself?? also lowkey dramatic but most of the time he’s just sorta chill and cheery, occasionally sarcastic but in a good-natured way he doesn’t mean ill with it. has very strong opinions on some things but doesn’t care if someone else sees it differently. as long as they’re not saying their way is the only right way. or if their reasoning is utter bullshit which he will call out then :))

negative people just make him laugh. will not take your ass seriously at all if you’re being a douche. used to take offence to these kinds of people all the time but he’s grown out of it and learned to simply ignore people who don’t deserve the time of his day. at least outwardly.

similarly used to be very.. well. lets say prone to letting people control and push him around cause that’s what he had learned to accept but whoo boy when he finally figured it out and took the reigns into own hands no one could stop him try it bitch

likes doing things in own terms in general, need for control has kinda taken off so will not take kindly to being ordered around in any manner. tries not to impose on other people or be pushy himself but cannot stand indecisiveness so. it happens. for better or for worse

in tune with his surroundings and current community of people if something’s off he can sense it and it will bug him to no end before it’s fixed. this could be anything from his room being in disarray to something going on in the city in whole

I ain’t saying he’s a psychic but actually stupid intuitive most cases WILL see through your bullshit don’t even try

…ok but lowkey into supernatural stuff and spirituality all that jazz he’s gone through it all while trying to find himself– which is a whole another can of worms we ain’t opening here

did I forget to mention noeul and co ( minho & jae ) rolled into town in this shiny big rv. he's def looking to buy a smaller car to drive around

not too keen on giving rides to strangers since this one time two summers ago that went south real fast when a guy pulled a knife on him. has a pretty big scar to show for it on his right side? tummy?? there’s a pic in the profile page if you’re curious. he jokes about it now "it adds character" but is actually terrified of that happening again so perpetually jumpy minho blames himself for it cause he's dumb

you can prob hear him coming 5 miles away with the amount of jewellery he adorns

don’t get me started on his wardrobe it’s a mixed bag and then some. gender norms belong into the fiery pits of a volcano

is equal parts a tea & coffee enthusiast basically lives off that stuff. i'm probably not even exaggerating here boy forgets to eat when he gets focused on something and just wolfs down a pot of coffee.

obsessed with watermelon flavoured lollipops probably has one on him at all times somehow magically pulls them outta thin air??

you can prob find him painting outside in the randomest places when the weather's nice

likes painting on people probably as much as painting them

it’s not an intimacy thing I swear. but. can be?? probably accidentally turns that way that’s just how he is

prefers either to focus on faces ( eyes specifically ) or nude models in general fcking @ him

this. is so long already I’m sorry omg

and that’s all I got my brains’ fried over this all but yo come plot with me pls also check my plots maybe orrr if you want me to check your plots ( I’d love to!! ) come poke me ay ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)