#ntbennyle

[ntbennyle]

I'm sick of pretending that I'm fine, I'm not okay

[ntbennyle]

They don't understand

you’ll find another

they said

but I don’t want another

I thought 

[notthebestlegend]

Sorry. I just thought i could talk to you when i needed you. I was wrong.

ntbennyle

[ntbennyle]

Heads falling apart

[ntbennyle]

I try so hard, but I know it's never good enough

[ntbennyle]

What if you have no one to communicate it to?

[ntbennyle]

I don't think I've felt okay for the longest time

[ntbennyle]

What's the fking point in all this

[ntbennyle]

I'm fken losing my mind

[ntbennyle]

And like that, I'm spiralling again

[ntbennyle]

Thought I would dread today, but my friends and family made it worthwhile. Happy Birthday to me

[ntbennyle]

I just want to fit in for once

[ntbennyle]

One step at a time

[ntbennyle]

One step at a time

[ntbennyle]

I need to accept the fact that no one will ever understand the pain I've experienced

[ntbennyle]

Today would have been a year. Thank you for the memories and the time we spent together. I will always cherish everything we had. Love you always.