#now that i think of it maybe domt bite him?.???

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..ahaa. :3

nno.thank you that hurts a lot

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oh my gpfuckign god PLEASE bite me ill do anythi

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nice dress u got there :D

hi maaageee >:)

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I never talked at length about how it was like when Gohan was beginning to suspect that Piccolo and MsChichi were dating . This is becasue it would be an insanely long post if I did . But essentially he really did not like it . He really did not like it one bit . There were many factors involved but the biggest ones were

1. It felt too much like Piccolo was replacing Goku, Gohan's actual father. This dug up many wounds about the way that Gohan really looked up to Piccolo when he was younger and the way that it was Piccolo who killed Goku the first time and the way that it was indirectly Gohan who killed Goku the second time . And now Gohan's father is dead and his mother is a loyal widow except for the fact that Gohan is beginning to suspect that she and Mr Piccolo are sort of dating now. Which he really cannot reconcile with right now

2. Gohan is having a hard time understanding that Piccolo is involved in other people's lives in ways that are totally removed from him. This sounds like something you should figure out when you're very young but I'm just going to say that Gohan understand the concept easily of course but the truth is that in his very hectic childhood he didnt have any comfort or security at all, and his developing child brain latched onto Piccolo as a sort of anchor. And now Gohan is like 18 and hes off to public school and is starting his life but until he makes that big leap and moves into his own place and makes a new family, hes still subsiding off of the roots and anchors of his early childhood. Like if he had found out about this after he had a job secured and he and Videl were well-bonded, he would have been pretty much fine. But hes just still barely in that old boat and, like, brains domt wire themselves in a way that is ideal, they just do what they do and what they must. And for Gohan he seems totally secure and well-functioning on the surface, but so does everyone else until you aggravate wounded roots and rock the boat. It just so happened that continuing to believe that Piccolo was his friend and an anchor and an idol was what caused one of the wheels in his brain to turn which kept everything running smoothly, and that was set up a long time ago, and he wasnt cognizant of it . And again it's an issue of security, if he had begun to suspect something AFTER he had placed new roots in a new place and in new people, he would have been more rational about it.

3. He really just does not like the person he becomes during this little psychological excursion. Hes not just distressed bc hes distressed, hes distressed because he's seeing himself act and think in a way that is not in-line with his self-image. Suddenly hes suspicious, distasteful, untrusting, possessive, jealous, afraid, nosy, judgemental, and above all, ANGRY. Ever since the Cell shit he has had a complex about anger. You'll see him snap in shallow ways (like when he heard those kids saying that the Great Saiyaman was stupid on that one episode) or maybe in ways that are much more scared and worried than angry (When he finds out that Goten had been teaching the baby Pan how to bite, and that's why she had been biting lately and making Gohan and Videl believe that something was wrong. Didnt happen on-screen but I know it happened at some point). But he never experiences deep-seated resounding RAGE anymore bc he just cant .. theres a block and if you try to unclog the dam then .. Well just dont do that. He'll have a bit of a spiral for sure . HE HATES ANGER. It's just self-indulgent and harmful. So he tries to avoid it.

But this thing with his mother and Piccolo has got him feeling ... angry! Angry becasue hes disturbed! Upset! Angry becasue hes confused and jealous and obstinate! Angry becasue he hates seeing himself be like this! Angry becasue it feels like his father is being replaced when it was his fault that he was dead to begin with! Angry becasue somebody is trying to encroach onto his mother's honor! After he had done so much to try to keep her happy healthy and safe! (Hes never mad at his mom for her role in this btw all the anger gets directed to hinself and to Piccolo) And obviously just BEING angry causes more badness to follow. So it really just spirals and escalates and stuff

This all goes away however when he listens to "you cant hurry love" by The Supremes on his Ipod that he got from the city and then everything just clicks. He's crying into his hands and realizing that he cant expect his poor sweet mother to be unhappy for forever. And even if Goku is dead and Gohan sort of feels like it's his fault, that doesnt mean that the forest needs to stay dead for forever. Flowers will grow back. And Piccolo is somebody who is very trustworthy actuslly. He forgot that in the madness but then everything clicks and he remembers clear as day that he really trusts Piccolo and he trusts him to take good care of his mother. He pretty much already had been since hes been coming around so much in the past few years or more since Goku died . Like literally everything is fine, actually more than fine, this works out perfectly for everybody. All the madness and distress goes away instantly like it was never there ... it just took his brain time to reconcile with the news and reposition and rebalance itself but now it's fine.

That's pretty much it . If you want songs for all that I'd recommend umm "BUMAYE DUB" by ... umm KMFDM or something like that idr it was a bunch of letters. And also "Back to the Cave" by Colonial Suns. Thanks for reading I love you