#now im hungry for cheese snacks

[scrapimmortal]

all my tattoo artists always marvel at my skin like "omg it doesn't bleed that much at all! 🥰" and "your skin is so calm!"

and i'm like aww thanks like it's an accomplishment

[blorboresidue]

ok i for sure gotta use up the cauliflower and some cheese (i have too much swiss and also chedder)...i could do some kinda casserole situation??? i don't have any milk but i think there's veggie broth and i have lotsa butter and breadcrumbs..

[jakesimfromstatefarm]

──── FIRST KISSES, SECOND CHANCES . ↳ one shot // also part of the no doubt series !

✎ᝰ .ᐟ aka he's this close to passing out because you're way too pretty and he wants to kiss you so bad—but he's an idiot, a loser in love, and totally losing his mind over you.

── sim jaeyun x f!reader ౨ৎ wc. 985 ⌗ fluff, kisskiss, jake is this close to going insane, mentions of jake wanting to die but not literally─poor guy is just losing his mind over y/n

↳ IMPORTANT NOTE .ᐟ ── this is part of my no doubt series ─ a sequel series of short drabbles that take place after the events of my fic no doubt, and show jake & reader's relationship throughout their first year together (& how jake wins her trust & love back hehe) ── THIS CAN BE READ AS A ONE-SHOT, however, there will be some easter eggs if you've read no doubt before!

↳ addie's ✉ .ᐟ ── omg tytyty everyone for the love with this series so far !!! i actually love jakeyn so much im so invested in this in ways that are highkey unhealthy...ANYWAYS! one of jake & yn's many firsts! writing this actually made me cheese so hard god im so single pls. jake is also like borderline unwell HAHA

It’s the kind of day where life feels like it’s straight out of a movie.

Soft sunlight, the perfect temperature, a gentle breeze, birds chirping. 

Perfect.

And yet—Jake wants to shrivel up into a hole and die.

The two of you are just lying there, propped up on your sides across from one another on the plush picnic blanket, an array of snacks and sandwiches (that Jake definitely didn’t wake up at 7AM to buy from the corner bakery you like so much in fear they would sell out before he had the chance to get them) scattered between you two, and you’re laughing at something he said—and god, he doesn’t even remember what he said—when it hits him.

And oh my god, it hits him hard.

He can’t think straight anymore.

Your eyes are sparkling like they always do when you laugh, your face is glowing with that effortless smile that makes him want to explode.

The way your hair blows slightly in the wind—how it catches the light in a way that makes him swear the sun only shines to make you glow. How your laugh just does something to him that makes it feel like the whole world stopped just so he could hear it.

And it’s all too much.

Jake feels his heart rate spike, his chest tighten, and before he knows it, he’s staring at your lips—just your lips—and your words are starting to sound like mush.

God, he wants to kiss you.

Like, really kiss you.

And the thought alone makes him feel like his heart’s about to break through his ribcage and find its way out of his chest.

But then, of course—the voice of reason pops in.

The same, annoying, one that always shows up right when he lets himself want this too much. The same one that fights him in this very, very common battle…almost daily.

Is this even a good idea? What if you’re not ready? What if it’s just too much, too soon for you?

What if he completely ruins everything before he even gets the chance to have it?

“Hey.”

Jake jolts out of his thoughts. You’re staring at him now, an amused smile playing at your lips as you nudge his arm.

“You okay?”

Jake blinks.

Forces his eyes back to your own (not her lips, Jake, not her lips, NOT HER LIPS).

Then, he clears his throat, shifting slightly as he tries his best to act normal.

“Yeah. Yeah, um, just—,” he places his sandwich down, his hands shaking slightly—god, Jake, “Just…still a little hungry.”

A beat of silence.

He immediately mentally smacks himself because, what the hell, Jake?

You raise an eyebrow.

“Jake, you literally just had a sandwich in your hands.”

“…Right, yeah. Right.”

Another beat.

Then—

You giggle.

Soft. Breathless. Perfect.

And Jake?

It ruins him.

He wants to jump off a cliff.

His heart is hammering, his vision is starting to go a little fuzzy, and he’s pretty sure he’s a solid two business seconds away from either a) passing out, or b) spontaneously combusting—whichever comes first.

He can’t focus. He can't think. He just—

He needs to kiss you.

Like, right now. Like, he literally cannot hold it together anymore.

So, without thinking—without giving himself any more time to overthink it—he leans in. Just slightly.

Your eyes widen, his breath catches, because—you’re so close and he swears you can probably hear his heart beating.

He smells your shampoo, his palms are sweating, and he’s definitely about to pass out, but all he can do is stare at your lips, then at your eyes. Then back at your lips again.

Jake doesn’t even think. He doesn’t even say anything. He just does it.

His lips press softly against yours—so gently at first that it’s barely there, as if he’s testing the waters, as if he’s expecting you to pull away.

But you don’t.

You don’t pull away.

And his heart explodes.

It’s instant. Everything falls into place in that very moment, every ounce of tension in his body immediately melts away.

Jake can’t help but sigh into the kiss, finally allowing himself to give in completely, his hand coming up to cup your cheek, holding you as if you’re something delicate—something so beautiful he could never dream of ruining.

And then you do something that completely, utterly, wrecks him—

You kiss him back.

Softly, almost shyly at first, like you’re just as overwhelmed as he is. But then—oh god—

Your hand goes up and your fingers curl into his collar, tugging ever so slightly, pulling him in even deeper, and Jake 100% knows he never wants to go back to what life was like before this moment.

He’s dizzy. Weightless. Completely and entirely yours in every possible way.

He also forgets how to breathe.

But that doesn’t matter.

Nothing else in the world matters except this kiss, except you.

Jake feels himself smiling into it—because, oh god, this is actually happening—and hears you giggle slightly as you finally pull away, a little breathless.

He’s starstruck, paralyzed. He’s still staring at your lips in disbelief, then back to your eyes, then back at your lips before blinking himself back to reality.

“That was—” he starts, but you cut him off.

“That was way too long coming, don’t you think?” you tease, your eyes sparkling, lips still tingling from the kiss.

“Yeah, you’re right,” he grins, his hand gently brushing a strand of hair out of your face. “But don’t worry. I’ll make up for lost time.”

You roll your eyes, but—there’s something about the way you look at him that makes him feel like the luckiest guy on the planet.

“I’m holding you to that, Jakey.”

And then—

You tilt your head up and press another soft, fleeting kiss to his lips before pulling back with the softest smile.

Yup.

He’s definitely the luckiest guy on the planet.

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[expelliarmus444]

If texting were a thing in the 1890s pt 12

Ominis: i am going to fight Sebastian Ominis: i can't take it anymore seriously MC i have reached my LIMIT MC: oh god MC: what did he do now Ominis: im in bed its the middle of the night yk nothing crazy happening there Ominis: my shitty eyes are shut im having a snooze Ominis: suddenly out of nowhere i am hit with the smell of a steak cooking Ominis: and cheese too perhaps but im not sure Ominis: turns out the idiot lit a fire IN MY DORM and started cooking a rib-eye then and there Ominis: "midnight snack" Ominis: "i was hungry" MC: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA MC: IN THE DORM MC: omg he's insane Ominis: you're laughing but im contemplating drowning myself MC: how theatrical of you Ominis: no. more. steak. in. my. dorm. you better tell him. he listens to you Ominis: especially not while im sleeping. the smell literally woke me up and now im exhausted and grumpy. i lost a solid fifteen minutes because of him MC: lol okay i'll talk to him MC: i hear you have been cooking steaks in the dorm Sebastian: talk about dramatic Sebastian: Merlin forbid a man wants a snack MC: hahaha MC: he's pissed you woke him up Sebastian: I didn't wake him up, his own bloody snoring did Sebastian: he snores so hard sometimes that he accidentally wakes himself up Sebastian: the steak thing was a coincidence Sebastian: besides i cook a steak in the middle of the night at least once a week Sebastian: this is just the first time i've been caught MC: ????? im scared to ask why Sebastian: so i can bulk up and protect you from evil wizards of course MC: last time we went up against evil wizards i was the one fighting, you literally ran away??????? Sebastian: i wasn't cooking steaks in the middle of the night back then okay??? im on different time now

[lexithevalkyrie]

Fat tip number 15: piggies got to eat

In today's fat tip, we will be looking at some affordable foods to really pack the pounds for your piggies!

Starting with the most important meal of the day, you have many options for a fattening breakfast. But the combo I am focusing on is a favorite combo of mine, a simple egg, cheese, and ham croissant with some orange juice. A simple and relatively small meal can give you a lot of calories to start off the day. To break down the calories using 3 eggs cooked in butter (averages roughly 300 calories), sliced ham (sliced wellshire ham is 110 per slice), shredded Mexican cheese (110 calories per serving), a nice buttery croissant ( averages 250+ calories), and washing it all down with some OJ (averaging 110 calories)bringing you to around 910 calories to start, to put that into perspective the average total calories you would eat for breakfast is 350-450 calories

Now starting off your day with almost 1k calories in your gut it's time for lunch, since you had a big breakfast you should treat lunch as a light snack to digest what you ate in the morning. So we will have a light meal im the form of a hostess danish, now although such a tiny snack could hardly count as lunch, many people overlook its ungodly amount of calories in it. A single pack of danish can add as much as 430 calories. Bring your total to 1.3k calories and because it is such a small snack by the time it is dinner you'll be hungry for more~

A few hours past, and your gut is likely ready for even more tasty food. So, to hit your calories, it is time to eat some pizza and drink some soda! For some cheap and grease filled pizza, we will be having little Ceasars pizza, crazy bread, and some Coca-Cola. To break down the count here, a large extra most bestest pepperoni pizza averages 309 calories per slice (having 4 slices should be enough), 3 sticks of crazy bread will give you 295 calories, and a can of cola is 170 calories. Bringing you to 3,093 calories. And with a big stuffed belly, you can enjoy a late night snack to add just that extra calories 😉

[meme-loving-stuck]

i try to eat 'healthy' but theres definitely no shortage of fat in our diets. lately its been a lot of

bread

cheese

tomato

onion

noodles

a bit more soda than usual but not every day

but my usual is like

whole grains in the morning (oatmeal, granola, apples)

chicken as the main source of meat

white rice & high-fber veg (onions, bell peppers, tomato)

pesto

gnocchi

other noodles

we have salmon about once a month

but ive been feeling this consistently for a few weeks now. i just feel HUNGRY, and it doesnt go away, even when i eat enough to almost feel sick. i also eat chips regularly (not great) so thats a lot of salt, and i drink propel like every other day, so i dont think itd be electrolytes... i feel like our veg content & having salmon should be enough for my iron levels. but maybe not? perplexing

I just realized the weird 'perpetually hungry' feeling ive been having, the shakiness even after a full meal. is a fucking vitamin deficiency. like what else could it be.

but now i have to figure out WHAT im not getting enough of and if its serious enough to schedule a doctors appointment i may have to wait 2 months for anyway...

[naturesapphic]

I need you

Olivia benson x fem!reader

(Warnings): hurt/comfort, mentions of murder, cussing, Olivia being a simp and a softie

“Benson.” Olivia rasped our tiredly and you smiled at the sound of her voice. “Hey liv.” You said and you heard her sigh “what’s wrong y/n?” Olivia questioned you and you knew something was wrong, you just didn’t know what. “Nothing. I’m just really hungry and was hoping on your way home you could get me a cheese burger with extra extra pickles?” You asked her and she sighed once again making you frown.

“Maybe I don’t know. I’m really busy right now hon. I’m having a tough case and we really need to catch this guy.” She said while you were trying to understand why she can’t be home right now. “Please come home liv…please I miss you so much.” You said getting choked up and she felt her heart break at the sound of your voice but she had to catch this guy.

“I’m sorry baby. I’ll check in on you later okay?” She said and you whimpered back in response and hung up causing Olivia to run her hands through her hair angrily and sigh loudly. She feels terrible. All you wanted was a cheese burger and your wife. She understood that but she needed this guy to be caught and out of the streets for everyone’s safety, especially yours.

~ a couple hours later ~

Olivia went by McDonald’s on her way home to get you your cheese burger. It was around 11 o’clock when she finally got off of work. Fin came into her office a few moments after the phone call she had with you and filled her in about how they caught the guy and he’s in the station being processed. She couldn’t be more happy and grateful that he was finally Caught. But it dawned on her how she treated you and she felt awful.

So, Before she went home with your bag of food, she decided to go to the store to get you some of your favorite flowers, chocolates, snacks, and candy. She feels awful and she wanted to make it up to you. She headed back to y’all’s house and opened the door with her keys. The jingling sound made you startled and you jumped up and got a knife from the kitchen. You slowly walked to the door and was about to attack when someone grabbed your arm and turned on the light. “Liv?! What the fuck! You scared the shit out of me!” You said breathlessly and handed her the knife. “Well at least you weren’t almost stabbed by your own wife.” She chuckled and you rolled your eyes at her with a small smile on your face.

“I thought you were supposed to call to check in on me? But seeing you is much better.” You mumbled out and she sighed. She took you into her arms carefully, trying not to hit your bump as she held you in her muscular arms. “Well…we caught the bastard and decided to get you “im sorry for being a jerk of a wife” gift.” You looked at her confused until she held up some bags filled with your favorite things and your cheese burger. You immediately snatched the McDonald’s bag from her and started eating it. “Thk y-u..” you mumbled out with your mouth filled with food. She chuckled and kissed your forehead softly. “Anytime sweetheart. Here, let’s have you sit and I’ll give you a foot massage as I tell you what happened.” She explained and you nodded. She guided you to the couch with your food in hand and she sat you down as she placed your feet in her lap. She started massaging your feet and you moaned loudly which caused her to smirk.

“Oh get that smirk off your face you horn dog.” You grumbled out and she laughed which made you smile. You continued eating as Olivia told you a brief summary about the case since she can’t share all of the details to you. She told you that this guy was killing pregnant women and how she wanted to catch this son of a bitch in case he went after you. Olivia wouldn’t ever let anything happen to you, she will protect you with her life. You finished your meal as she finished her story and you gave her a soft smile. “I wish you would have told me…I honestly thought you were being distant with me…” you confessed to her and she gave you a sad look. “No sweetheart…im so sorry that I made you feel like that…I just really wanted to catch this bastard and I wanted him off the streets as soon as possible.” She explained to you and you leaned up to her and kissed her softly on her lips.

She kissed you back gently and held your face in her hands. The both of you pulled back and gave each other big smiles. “So…what else did you get me to eat.” You smirked and she laughed. “I got you your favorite chocolates, snacks, and candy.” She replied and you gasped excitedly making grabby hands at the bags on the floor near Olivia. She chuckled as she handed you the bags and you stared munching on them while Olivia watched you with a adoring look on her face. “Do you forgive me babygirl?” She asked you and you smiled at her. “Of course I do silly. I couldn’t stay mad at you. You were just doing your job I know that. I was just a little insecure I guess.” You said and she gave your forehead another kiss “I understand baby…but just know that I don’t distance myself from you on purpose. I just get so caught up in my work that sometimes Im distant. But just know that I love you so much darling.” She explained to you and you gave her a loving smile.

“I love you most liv.” “And I love you too little bean-son.” She joked and you giggled at the nickname she kept calling y’all’s unborn child. You felt the baby kick in response and you quickly laid Olivia’s hand on your bump and the baby kicked again which made Olivia break out a huge smile. She leaned down and gave your bump a gentle kiss. Olivia started talking to the baby as you ran your fingers through her short hair and she kept giving your stomach loving kisses.

A/n: my first Olivia benson imagine! I hope y’all enjoy and know that winter/Christmas requests are open for all the people that I write! Remember to stay hydrated and rest! I love y’all! :)

[devilsparda]

thought process while writing: dante walking on cobblestone would make really good asmr …. also pizza with dante | asmr big bites | crunchy sounds (doesn’t even like pizza/hasn’t ever talked about it much when writing dante) can u imagine dante doing the “worlds best cheese pull” and nothing comes out like yea that was great guys! 10/10 and then me getting hungry to go get a snack [guy who doesn’t like cheese] and by the time i get back i don’t remember what i was gonna write next. BTWWW i love watching food asmr videos when it’s ramadan, specifically in the last hour bc it’s kind of like self-flagellation if u really think about it (no it isn’t, it just helps me so i don’t “lose my hunger”) i actually forgot the point of this post bc i started typing the tags out half way thru… kind of like me oversharing but im distracting you with this post instead (wasn’t even the intention of the post). also i don’t like cheese but i’ve been fuckin w this pastry our local bakery but i havent had time to go bc the open/close while i’m at work AHHHHH okay time 2 go answer some messages now [gets distracted] [is tired] [is constantly working] [gets distracted] [is out with friends/family etc.] [gets distracted]

[soupis4ever]

im gonna be honest i've cried twice today but at least the first day is over and i have a better idea of what's happening now. my lunch was really good though so at least my win streak is being kept up

my first day of collage is tomorrow. borderline hysterical

[mystoryfortheaudienceoftheworld]

Hello....hello - i intended to post this yesterday, but last evening i got a bit of bad news and it sent me into a stress spiral.

Yesterday, was the first day back at work since being on vacation and back to me working on being healthier.

In my original post about getting back to being healthier I talked about not wanting to go on Weight Watchers again. However my lovely husband has decided to start again including going to meetings for weigh-ins. So, I am currently on the fence about joining so we can be a team. He is going to a meeting this weekend and going to scope out what kind of scale they have. Since WW closed most of their locations the only locations in our area are self run at some churches. If the scale doesn't go up high enough to accommodate my weight then I don't want to pay for the meetings - but could do the online one. So this is a pending decision right now...

As for food yesterday -

Breakfast: Everything bagel, whipped cream cheese, and a sad avocado (it was almost an avoca-don't - haha im so funny). Oh, and coffee - peep my new cup my mom got me -there's a little cow in my cup

Lunch - Olive Garden salad/dressing & spaghetti with meatballs - this was work provided. So I decided to eat the salad first to fill me up, and have the pasta second. My thought process was I would be full and not want a second plate. Seemed to work. Total win was avoiding the box of breadsticks and having none.

Snack - (at work) Cherry candy cane & baked chips - I was struggling staying awake so took a sugar rush via leftover candy cane. Lol

(at home) two pinwheel cream cheese rollups & 1/2 a bag of kettle chips - to be honest the chips was a bad call because I was hungry but running low on time to make dinner before having to go pick Hayden up from work. I should have made a better choice. Lesson to consider for next time.

Dinner - This is where is really went downhill - I got bad news from my mom and instead of sticking to a nice dinner I did Uber Eats because I was stressing. I got a vegetarian mexican plate and had the chips it came with.

If you look at it overall - not a tremendously bad day for a start - but could have made some better choices.

Thanks sticking around with me as I try and get this all together for myself. :)

[throes-of-warm-tornadoes]

i just snacked like ive NEVER snacked before. lets discuss

i started out my day by making a cinnamon toast crunch sandwich. my mom's man LOVES the cinnamon toast crunch spread so i thought that would be a perfect little short cut. unfortunately that freak gobbled it all up, so i just put some butter + cinnamon sugar on some toast and dare i say that it was even better than the spread. absolutely no sticking to the roof of your mouth or making ur teeth hurt from the sweetness. i actually got a little crazy and drizzled some syrup on top to serve some french toast realness. 10/10 was craving it later today too

after that, i went on a food hiatus, but then i got HUNGRY, so i figured i would make an after-school sweet treat for me and my sister to share. this is where strawberries and fluff come in. if you don't know what fluff is (because i didn't) it's basically just marshmallow spread. it's super easy to make, all you need is some marshmallows, water, and a stove. (tip: spray the pan before u do ANYTHING else.) i also melted some chocolate chips bc im a chocolate FIEND and it was a really solid combo. 10/10 as well, at a certain point i was eating the diy fluff straight out of the bowl fuck the strawberries

then, i went straight into making a peanut butter and nutella sandwich. kinda. we only had one more piece of bread left, so i did everyone the absolute service of eating the last piece. i don't know if ive shared this before but as a kid i ate so much nutella i made myself sick so now i can only have it in small amounts, so i liked how the hazelnut and peanut butter balanced each other out. 10/10, it was like eating a reeses cup

at this point, i went a little off script. i was gonna do the nacho cheese next, but my brother was gathering up the supplies to make fondue, so i figured i'd leave that up to him. in the meantime, i ate chips and (homemade) salsa. 10/10, can never go wrong with that & will forever be my go-to snack

i forgot to mention this, but i also had apples and peanut butter yesterday, which was really solid. for me, apples kinda make me feel sick bc they're so sugary but i liked how the peanut butter helped cover that up. 10/10, very filling as well

for the grand finale, we have the fondue. there was a very harrowing couple moments where we couldn't find the can opener for the chicken bone broth, but don't worry. we did find it and the cheese followed quickly after. since i was a bit chip-ed out from the salsa, i opted to douse the bread and carrots into the cheese. the gouda carried this entire snack on its BACK, i love a smoky undertone.

at that moment in time, i could not eat another bite. currently nursing a glass of root beer. life is good

[talon-dragonbeast]

been trying out a new meal distribution method that works with my fast metabolism (basically i cant eat a lot in one sitting, but i also get hungry faster). it basically consists on eating something every 2-3 hours, even if its something small, like a snack. of course, i still have the three big meals of the day (breakfast, lunch, dinner), but in between them ill also have stuff like cereal bars, yogurt, fruit, juice, chocolate, cheese, and so on.

so far, its working great! i have way more energy throughout the day, even if i didnt drink coffee or tea (i still do, though. caffeine is important for a healthy college student's diet, after all! /j). and something ive noticed that actually surprised me a lot, is that im still hungry for the big meals! even if i have eaten two hours before. i was worried that it would made me less eager to eat (which would be counterintuitive to the whole "eating more" thing), but no! its awesome, i actually feel so much better now :]

[lexithevalkyrie]

Wieght gain tip number 2: what should i eat 🤷‍♀️

Now that we talked about the best nutritional intakes to gain weight, both healthy and unhealthy, next next question to ask yourself is: what do I eat?

Now, let's start with you unhealthy piggies first. Good news for yall! You get to have all the fatty and delicious food you want 😋. Now, what is a good meal plan that will last you a week and won't hurt your wallet 🤔

Well any American knows the magnificent super store called Walmart 😌. Now what if I told you this bad boy can get you so fucking fat with only 40-50$ a week?

At 35-50$ a week: you can get around 3k calories per day for 1 whole week

Let's get the fun stuff out of the way. For your morning snack should be light compared to your afternoon snack, I recommend getting fritters. You can scarf down 720 calories with 2 fritters. A whole box of 6 fritters is merely 4 dollars, sooooo you should pick up 1-2 boxes. Your breakfast should be your lightest of your meals. If you want to go the extra mile and be lazy, I highly recommend Jimmy Dean Sausage, Egg & Cheese Croissant Sandwiches, each sandwich is 400 calories and one box has 4 sandwiches in it, so once more get 1-2 boxes for the week at this point you've spent between $10-$20 and eaten around 700-1.2k calories so far. It's not bad for a start, but im sure that tummy is still very hungry 😋. So let's move on to some lunch, and I know just the meal that will fill that gut! Starting off with your sides, you should pick up some Great Value Seasoned French Fries. 11 servings per bag with 140 calories per serving and only $3.75. As always, I recommend getting 1-2 bags like usual, of course, the more the merrier 😁. For your main meal, I recommend eating some nice and healthy American made burgers 😋, so grab some patties (recommend 20% fat 80% lean). The All Natural brand sells 12 patties per pack at $10! And if course you can eat a burger without buns, sooooo let's grab some big carb filled buns 😌. Great Value Jumbo Hamburger Buns should be the cheapest and most carb heavy buns you can get at only $2 (although you have to pick up 2 for all 12 patties). So let's have the final snack before bedtime, I think something light like walmart's famous Freshness Guaranteed Frosted Sugar Cookies should do, hehe 😉

In total, this should set you around 2.7-3k calories worth of food, which is more than enough to fatten up anyone under 200lbs

(The second part of this post will be about healthy gain, which I will post later today)

[xoxoxoz]

Lee Youngseo x F!reader

📝: You and Youngseo have been keeping your relationship on the down low since R U Next began. But the moment one contestant found out the truth, there was no point of hiding anymore

⚠️: fluffy YoungY/n type of fic, Youngseo tops in the relationship but not in a nsfw way (does that make sense😭), reader is in the Bad Boy group with Jiwoo, Jeongeun and Chanelle, English speaker reader, reader is an 05

For: @strawbseo

“Yesss Y/n, your vocals are vocallingggg” Chanelle praised with a dramatic click of her fingers.

You had to cover your mouth to laugh. “You’re making me shy”

“What does vocalling mean?” Jiwoo asked as she scratched her head.

“It’s just a silly expression to say that Y/n’s vocals are super good” the half American explained.

Jiwoo slowly nodded her head. “So if I said her singing is singinging…”

“Mmm doesn’t work like that”

The two walked off as Chanelle tried explaining the phrase in a better way and Jeongeun followed them. You mentally patted yourself on the back just before an arm rested around your shoulder.

“Hey, beautiful” your girlfriend whispered closely in your ear.

You hid your face in her chest. An advantage for Youngseo because she was taller than you. “Hi, Youngie”

“Your vocals never fail to blow me away. I kept messing up in my group practice because I was focusing on you more” She giggled.

“Is that why I heard Moa Unnie scolding you?”

“Yep. It was hard finding an excuse”

“It better have been a good one” You playfully warned.

“Yah, what’s happening over here? Are you two a couple now or something?” Yunah teased while wrapping her long arms around you and Youngseo.

“We’re actually married. We made that official with our cheese rings last night” Youngseo replied smoothly.

“Last night? I would’ve wifed up Y/n the moment we met” Yunah winked at you, causing you to blush and hide in Youngseo’s chest again.

“Hey back off, she’s mine” You heard your girlfriend say in a tone that you couldn’t decipher.

Yunah laughed it off and ran away to annoy Minju who was eating Jihyun’s snacks. You pinched your girlfriend’s cheek as hard as you could.

“OW!”

Going on your tippy toes, your lips matched height with her ear. “You need to learn to control your emotions or else we’re gonna get caught”

“Ow ow ow im sorry! I didn’t like what she said” Youngseo whined before you released her now reddening cheek.

“Just don’t be too obvious, babe”

“Can I kiss you?”

“Youngseo…”

“It’ll be a quick one!”

You looked around the room and thankfully no one was paying attention to you or your whiny girlfriend. “Fine. But let’s go and get snacks. I’m kinda hungry”

Youngseo grabbed your hand and started walking towards the doors but Jiwoo stepped right in front to block your path.

“And where are you two going?”

“Just getting snacks” Youngseo replied happily.

“And you’re taking Y/n?”

“She was the one who asked me to go with her. Don’t worry Jiwoo Unnie, we’ll be back before you know it!”

Jiwoo sighed and stepped aside. “Alright. Bring me something back while you’re at it. Wonhee ate everything in my bag”

“No worries, Unnie. Bye~”

Your girlfriend continued to drag you down the halls where the vending machines were located. Your sparkling eyes scanned over the delicious chips and drinks provided.

Youngseo’s sparkling eyes, however, were all on you. Her arm went around your waist and her smile seemed to grow impossibly bigger than before. “You’re so pretty, Baby. Do you know that?”

Thank God for the air conditioner inside the building otherwise you would’ve melted to the ground by now. You covered your face and started squealing. “Stop it!”

“But I’m telling the truth. You’re beautiful and I’m so lucky to call you mine” she continued to say while she kissed your head. “Now which snacks would you like?”

You peeked through your fingers. “The spicy chips please”

“Alright…but give me kiss first” Youngseo quickly said and puckered her lips.

You held her cheeks and kneaded them like dough. “You’re so frustrating but so cute”

“Kiss kiss kiss~” she chanted a bit too loud that you jumped into kissing her on the lips.

It was strong enough to almost knock her down but she managed to keep her balance by squeezing your waist. You finished the kiss with 3 more pecks before you pulled away.

“There, can I get my chips now?”

“Mmm, there’s an extra kissing fee”

“For what?!”

“Because I’m your girlfriend and I need more kisses or else I’ll die”

“Stop being dramatic! We’re always together 24/7”

Youngseo pouted. “Just a few more and I won’t ask again”

Rolling your eyes, you kissed her gently this time. It let Youngseo savour the taste and warmth of your soft lips and the feeling of your small hands caress her nape.

Neither of you wanted the moment to end.

But a loud gasp caused you two to separate.

Chanelle stood there with her jaw slacked. “I-I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to interrupt—whatever is going on”

“Chanelle Unnie! I-I uh…Let us explain” you panicked in English.

“Hey woah there sister, you don’t need to explain anything. I’m not a snitch” she chuckled. “Sorry for my reaction, I was just not expecting for this to happen”

“I’m sorry, I’m a bit worried about what the others would say—“

“The others? Honey, we all know you two are practically married. We just like to tease you to see if the truth would come out sooner. Took longer than expected” Chanelle spoke with a smile.

“Wait, everyone knows?” Youngseo asked while holding your hand.

“We talk about your chemistry a lot so you can call us your biggest YoungY/n fans. But the only thing we have to say is that you two should be careful especially since we have cameras everywhere. Last thing we want is for your debut spot to disappear when Korea finds out. You know how they are”

“Yes Unnie we’ll be super careful” Your girlfriend said.

“You two are cute together. Don’t lose that spark. I’ll go back now and you should too. Can’t keep them waiting” Chanelle winked before running off.

Youngseo pulled you into a back hug and took a whiff of your floral scented hair. “You feel better now?”

You leaned back into her long arms and sighed with content. “Absolutely. At least we can act normal around each other when the cameras are off”

“Oh for sure. Will be giving you all the kisses we’ve missed these past days”

“Come on, let’s buy the snacks now. I’m gonna pass out from starvation soon”

Youngseo pulled out her credit card. “Yes ma’am. We need to get Jiwoo Unnie’s chips too”

While the taller girl was inserting the card and buying the snacks, you leaned up to kiss her cheek. “Thanks again, Youngie. I love you”

“I love you more” She giggled and quickly kissed your lips before grabbing the packets of chips.

[stargazer6969]

!Trigger Warnings!:

Fluff, Cussing, and SH

Chapter 3 of Halloween Night

Chapter 3

That same night, I was in bed, sobbing into my pillow. God, this shouldn’t hurt so much but it dose! It’s just a stupid high school crush but for some reason it hurts like hell. I feel stupid for even liking him, I feel stupid for even thinking he liked me, I feel stupid for even going to that party! The more I think about it, the worse I feel. I feel as if there someone suffocating me, because suddenly I can’t breath. My room is filled with my sharp gasps as I hyperventilate, and I quickly stand up from my bed and move to my closet. I pull out a lego box that I still have from when I was younger and desperately dig through it until I finally find it- a sharp piece of broken glass. My hands are shaking, making it hard for me to hold onto it so I tighten my grip until my knuckles turn white and my fingers begin to bleed. I roll up my sleeve and slice the glass through my skin.

Blood seeps from the cuts like raindrops rolling down a window as I slice three more cuts through my skin. Then another. Then another. Then another. I dont stop until my arm is more blood then skin, and until I’m numb- numbness, a feeling I know all to well. I dont crave it, I dont yearn for it, but its better than sadness. And what better way to numb myself than slicing through my own skin? The next day I wore long sleeves.

I see Matt walk up to me, a small smile on his face as if nothing had even fucking happened. “Hey!” He says, his white teeth showing as he greets me with a smile. “Hey,” I respond, burning a fake smile on my face. “So, me, Chris, Nick, and Anna are planning on going to this carnival! You wanna come? Chris is inviting anna right now”

”Sure, what time?”

”This Saturday around noon, so probably 12. You in?”

”Mmmmm, yeah, why not!”

”Great! Ill pick you up at 12!” He says before walking off.

IM PACKING UP EVERYTHING I might need in a small bag when I hear Matt honk his horn right outside my house. I walk down the stairs and out the door as Matt steps out of the car, opening his arms to greet me with a hug. “Hey!” He says, his tone exited. I wrap my arms over his shoulders and I feel my face heat up as his arms wrap around my waist. He lets go and thank god he doesn’t see the pink on my cheeks as we start walking to the car. Chris is sitting in the passenger seat, while Nick, Anna, and I sit in the back. I was anxious at first to go, but we all started talking and things seemed…normal. It hurts but I like it at the same time. Eventually, we get to the carnival, and as I step out of the car I'm hit in the face with the strong aroma of deep fried food. A wide grin creeps across my face at the smell so familiar to me. Carnivals were always nostalgic to me since my dad and I always used to go to them when I was younger.

The first few hours are a blast. We ride rides, we eat tasty snacks and small treats, and the day is filled with laughter. It almost makes me forget about the party, until we're all sitting down on a small picnic table to take a break to eat a real meal instead of snacks. Nick got a hotdog, Chris got a meatball sub with Pepsi, and Matt got a chili dog while me and Anna shared a bucket of cheese-fries since neither of us were that hungry. “Guys, I cannot get over that Halloween party!” Nick says. Me and Anna look at each other and back at Nick as he keeps talking. “God I had, like, the best time! And the host, Samantha, was so nice! I got wasted and she stayed with me while I threw up. She even drove me home! God I love her, she’s such a queen.” He says, not knowing what happened at the party between me and Matt.

Anna, like the amazing friend she is, tries to change the subject. “So guys, I was thinking that after this we could all go back to my house and-” Matt cuts her off “I guess so, but that party was kinda mid if i'm being honest” He says as if Anna wasn’t even talking. “I mean, I got kinda tipsy and made, like, the WORST decision of my life!” He says through laughter as I feel hot tears begin to form in my eyes.

“Yeah? What’d you do?” Nick asks, amusement and curiosity clear in his tone.

“Get this, I kissed Amber!” He says through laughs.

“No fucking way!” Chris exclames

“I know right! When I woke up the next morning and I realized what I did I couldn’t stop cringing! I mean, could you imagine? Me and amber” He says through obnoxious laughs. While he was laughing, I was blinking back tears as my sadness slowly turned into anger.

Without any warning I stand up, my hands balled into fists as I shout “Oh, was it really that bad?!” My knuckles begin to turn white, but I keep my eyes focused on Matt’s icy blue eyes that I once loved, but now despised. “God, Matt, I throw hint after hint after hint in your face in your still oblivious! I like you, matt! Is that so hard to understand?! Or at least I used to before I learned what a piece of shit you really are! I mean, even if I didn’t have feelings for you, who just keeps going on about regretting that they kissed someone! You know what? I’m done, matt. I’m done with you, I'm done with your stupid jokes, I'm done. I’m just done. Do you know how exhausting it is to find someone that you really like, only to watch them degrade you and embarrass you? I’m leaving, and I don't think I ever wanna see you again.” I say as hot tears begin to stream down my face like lava seeping out of a volcano. I turn around and walk away, not even looking back.

[freebooter4ever]

my old san francisco pants that used to be skin tight. i dunno man all of this is causing very strange body image issues, i worked so hard for my very strong but bigger sized (for me) body ;_;

i tthink another thing doctors assume is that at my last weight i was eating...healthy. or watching what i ate. i was not. my meals consisted of a lot of peanut butter sandwiches and pasta and cheese and cashews. i used to eat cashews all the time to maintain weight: whenever i felt hungry just snack on cashews. and that was what it took just to maintain that weight. now i feel like eating more protein than ever (i had TWO large sausages for breakfast this morning plus sweet potato), and veggies just isnt going to make me gain weight fast enough :( if anyone has any tips on how to do this healthy on an extremely limited diet let me know. even peanut butter is off the diet it sucks. im adding rice into everything but there's only so much damn rice i can eat