#now i sort of don't. i think it's funnier if i expose it

[necrotic-nephilim]

-debby ryans at you- how are you feeling about that thunderbolts* trailer, snookums. your old blog is trying to crawl from its grave.

you are an unhinged rat for sending me this ask i hope you know <3 you already knew that but i'm telling you anyway bc you're a rat bc now i have to explain myself-

this is from @eebuckley my partner <3 i've alluded to it in the tags of this blog but i used to be a semi-popular MCU blogger from like 2018 to 2020. (semi-popular for the ship i wrote, anyway) and since like, probably Infinity War/Endgame i have been slowly more and more disillusioned by the MCU ranging from only passively being interested in projects to outright despising them if i saw them. which sort of sucks, given how much i loved the MCU at it's height. i was like. aggressively into it. like a "i had asthma attacks watching trailers bc i got so excited" level of into it. maybe cringey in hindsight, honestly but yk. whatever brings you joy, ig.

and anyway- my partner witnessed my very real and normal reaction to the Thunderbolts* trailer and now i'm *mad* bc i'm actually excited about it. it made me feel about the MCU a way i haven't felt in years, especially after a lot of announcements that rlly pissed me off.

cannot believe it looks like we might actually get a comics-accurate Yelena and a comics-accurate Bucky. i'm such a sucker for Bucky Barnes, he's one of the only Marvel characters i actually read Marve comics for and i'm forever bitter how badly he got screwed over. if that movie is good i'm going to end up writing fanfiction. probably crossover fanfiction bc over my dead body will i write just plain MCU fanfic. and i'm a Jason Todd/Bucky shipper anyway so i could make it work, i think-

anyway TLDR is i'm excited and i'm mad about it and how dare yo expose me for being an MCU fan on THIS blog. you coulda send this ask to my MCU blog that still exists and i have occasionally used. but instead you *exposed* my ass on my refined DC blog as a filthy Marvel fan. i will be divorcing you again. ty gn ily

[kaelio]

Macro/micro for the fetish thing 📏

Ok, I know this ask is because of that entry in Anne Rice's journal where she watched Jack & The Beanstalk (she misremembered, I'm pretty sure this was Jack the Giant Slayer) so she could mack on Ian McShane and was annoyed the giants in it weren't hot enough, but obviously this is relevant to me because I draw micro/macro applicable stuff for a couple fandoms, or I have anyway.

The answer to this is, however, complex! Yes, in a way, but also not really, in a different way.

So first off, I like to write pornography, but it can't really get me off if I was the one who wrote it. Same with fanart. It's a writing challenge with a smack of pay-it-forward, or the sex is inherent to something I am trying to capture, but if I write it myself I'm too close to it; I remember too much of the process or mentally go into editing mode.

But as a result I tend to think of fetishes as both multipliers and ingredients.

As a consumer, I tend to think of fetishes as multipliers. Like, something that you're totally neutral on is a 1x. Something you just can't stand at all, total horny-killer, is a 0x. Hypothetically there's no upper bound but, say, 3x would mean the story is 3x hotter to you because it features that fetish. An example for me would be scat. Hard 0x. The second I see it, I'm out. No matter what else is going on, the multiplier is 0; the story is at a level of 0 hotness. The earlier answer on oviposition is like a .1x. I haven't run into a story with it that was good enough to get me off, but Bloodchild got close, so I'm saying with the deftest of hands, it can work. Micro/macro is maybe like a situational 1.2x. It's a little bump but it's not going to be make or break per se. It could be in a story where it added nothing to me.

Because that's where we get into fetishes as ingredients.

When I'm thinking about an effective piece of erotica, it's got components, right? It's expressing some notion. It'll have different ingredients in it that make up the whole, that make for a cohesive work. I do think that micro/macro can enhance some recipes a bit, but more than that, it's a virtually essential ingredient to others. Let's say you're into werewolf porn. If the werewolf is like, same-entity-size.... I dunno. Like I guess. But isn't the werewolf theme usually leaning on some sort of power dynamic that the savage nature of the werewolf highlights? The werewolf is going to be 140 lbs? Sure you don't want it to be a bit more Big? Or, to make a different point, more Small? That might take you in a funnier direction, more like a comedy premise perhaps, but something's being communicated by the inclusion of some kind of noticeable size difference.

Let's now take it over to tentacle porn. God, I tried. I have on an occasional whim thrown my lot in with Kurt Eichenwald and it just does not take. I can't get off to it. I'd love it if I could. But anyway, let's say someone's being pointedly caressed by an octopus. You can't have that be just a regular-size octopus. Kind of pathetic. Obviously, that octopus has to be bigger than an octopus should be. "Well, what if you add more octopuses, like an octopus gangbang?" Sure, that might work for some people. But for me it comes off as lacking in confidence. Oh, you had to bring all your little octopus friends to nail this twink? Sad.

Now, I am a scaley straight-up. The only limiting aspect to this, for me, is that most scalies seem to have gotten into it from like... Spyro the Dragon? And they're really cartoony. Doesn't hit. As a kid, I had books on ancient Egypt, and I was intrigued by Sobek. Also we had a caiman. And my mother would find people in the classified ads who were trying to sell giant snakes and pay for her kids to go pet (but not buy) the giant snakes so we wouldn't be afraid of snakes, like she was, so as a child I was just overwhelmingly exposed to giant (16'+) snakes. My mother would go dump us off at places where big snakes were so we could observe big snakes, like reptile shows and the reptile house at the zoo. The result of this was super funny but suffice to say I am not afraid of snakes. (Not into vore though! Does nothing for me! Responsible owners don't live-feed.) I want to be super clear: I do not want to fuck animals, never have, but I did want to nail Bleu in Breath of Fire more than you can possibly imagine. However, if I'm doing scaley stuff in particular, one simply has to admit that micro/macro is the baking soda in that quickbread. It's not the part that makes that fetish work, but it's certainly more likely to turn out the way you intended if you put a little bit of it in there. When I made Cardassians huge in my DS9 redesigns, however, that was mostly in service of it being funny since I was a major bottom-Garak advocate, the bigger they are the funnier that is. Also like, whiny old queen giant lizardman is just fun and has room to spitball where like, I don't know, a more straightforward big hot lizard man would utterly bore me. It can't all be baking soda.

[rohirric-hunter]

Tagged by @a-lonely-dunedain to plug OC names into this heacanon generator and see if it fits.

Léonys:

Léonys doesn't own a single pair of matching socks.

Okay, so in actuality no, Léonys has lots of pairs of matching socks and is actually pretty neat about her clothes and stuff when she's at home. BUT I can see this becoming one of those annoying widely-accepted fanon headcanons in direct contradiction to canon because 95% of the time the reader is exposed to her in a, "Has been living in the woods for 3-8 business days, has not spoken to another human being in almost a week, ate bark that was still attached to the tree, laid flat on her back with her mouth open while it was raining to get a drink (for fun)," kind of state, or the many stages of breakdown I dragged her through in Léonys of Rohan. I think if my stuff had a bigger following a lot of people would have trouble reconciling that Léonys with the way she acts when she's, like, in a house.

Léonys does not know what sleep is.

She really does not LMAO. Take a nap, girl

Léonys is smart but also very stupid.

I mean this one's vague enough that it could apply to basically anyone I think. Which means it's a winner! Léonys figured out, on her own, within a few days of properly meeting him, that Aragorn was the heir of the old kings. She also got involved in all that because she saw brigands with hostages and was like, "Go and get help? Tell the town guard? Involve the other hunters? Nah! I'll just follow them! :) and take care of it myself :)."

Léonys crashed a riding lawn mower into their fence.

Absolutely not the ride-on lawnmower goes nowhere except where she told it to go. The ✨🌟🤗🐎💖bond ✨🌟🤗🐎💖 that exists between the Rohirrim and their horses ride-on lawnmowers

Hathellang:

Hathellang is a cry baby.

I mean I guess it depends on what about. This also sort of sounds like a headcanon made up by someone who doesn't actually like the character, so, you know. Subjective. I don't think so. But there's not a lot I would label crybaby anyway.

Hathellang has a roblox account.

Disclaimer: I've never played Roblox. But yeah, I feel like he has one. He used to play a lot more than he does now. But that was years ago. These days no one knows he has it except for Léonys. But sometimes when one of the other kids complains that someone was too mean to them on Roblox he logs on and, well, see,,, if the offender didn't have bannable offenses to work with already then suddenly,,,,, mysteriously,,,,,,,,, they start committing bannable offenses. For literally no reason whatsoever, they must have just felt like it, suddenly. Who knows! Anyway, reported.

(I.E. Hathellang would be a holy terror on the internet, somehow able to talk the trolls into getting themselves banned while only barely toeing the line himself. A power that could be used for good or evil. He uses it to back up his kid siblings on disagreements over the Walmartland makeup obby.)

Hathellang believes in Santa.

He does not! But he's really dedicated to keeping the Santa Experience alive for the younger kids. Also I feel like in a modern AU he'd be super into the Santa Clause movies.

Belharen:

Belharen is afraid of doing anything without their parent's permission.

Belharen is involved in the plot because she ran away from home. Without her parents' permission. That doesn't mean she's not afraid of doing things without her parents' permission. But she still does them.

Ferelin:

Ferelin is tumblr famous.

Oh my god yes. Spot on. IDK what I can add. His shitposts are legendary. Made a new friend. Have informed him that I do not know what a roof is. Think he has little enough knowledge of the Shire that this should fly with him. Eager to see how this plays out. Update: Friend in question visiting my house right now as we speak. Made comment about the roof. Think he remembers what I told him when we first met. Except funnier, probably, IDK. I wonder what his URL would be. He casually refers to his improbable and near-miraculous ability to heal basically anything by singing to it very stubbornly and people think it's some kind of extended bit. He lets them think so because they started to come up with theories about it and it's kind of funny.

Dahlia:

Dahlia knows fnaf lore.

Probably, lol. I feel like she wouldn't play the games, though. I've never played them, this is vibes-based. She just knows the lore. For some reason. Maybe she watches hour-long YouTube videos breaking it down to relax.

And because I've been thinking about her recently some Pegweneth:

Pegweneth instinctively cleans messes in their own house as well as other peoples.

Pegweneth judges people for having messes in their houses TBH. Privately. In her head. She does not clean them. Her house is not clean.

Pegweneth knocks people over by hugging them.

If she knows them very well and is confident they're okay with it.

Pegweneth is not good with social cues.

She knows what they are. She just thinks they're stupid she's above them she responded to them appropriately when she really didn't.

Hmmm, seems like a lot of people I would normally tag in these things have been tagged already. I know many people with OCs and I know that many of them dislike this sort of fandom/headcanon stuff. Open invitation to do it if you want to?

[snobbyeli]

Hate me more than I hate you - Prologue

I can hear moaning.

It's a woman with a voice so sweet, you couldn't imagine it hurling all sorts of profanities at me.

I prop myself on my hands to take a better look. There she is. Her cheeks flushed and her hair discheveled, she's moaning sweetly between my thighs while thrusting her dick in and out.

I look down on my body. I'm half-naked, with my shirt half unbuttoned to slightly reveal my breasts and my skirt fully raised to provide better access. I can see the remains of my panties next to me. Yeah, this went better than I expected. I still feel like I'm floating and the heaviness in my lower abdomen doesn't let me forget that things might go haywire at any point.

I lean towards the woman and whisper in the woman's ear.

"How do I smell now? This is the real "bitch in heat" scent you were always talking about, but you sure seem to love it now."

I can feel her flinch as I trace her back with my finger and the knot at the base of her penis grows bigger.

"....shut...up..."

"Hng...ha..ha, you... really knotted me...a slutty omega... that you hate..."

I didn't think she'd actually knot me. But now that it happened, you know what would be even funnier?

I squeeze down from the sheer enjoyment of the anguish I see on her lustful face.

"Ahh..."

"It must be hard, right? To hold back so much. Just look at those sharp fangs. You sure you don't want to put them to good use?"

I playfully touch her fangs, that are surely itching to mark me.

I turn my head to the side to expose my nape.

I can hear her audibly swallow and in the next second, I can feel a bite.

With this, my revenge has only just begun.

[midwinterwings]

One day, I hope to move to Sweden or Iceland, because it feels like home. For a long time I've felt guilt for 'leaving my own country behind' - I'm raised in Europe and ethnically from China - but, I think I'm beginning to sort of see things in a bigger picture now.

Sure, I love Chinese culture and history. I've grown up with a mix of myths and stories as I read a lot of myths by myself (growing up with predominantly Greek mythology) and I have a special place for all of them. Being ethnically Chinese, I think, changes one's perspective of culture. If I were ethnically European, I don't think I'd have people assuming my 'true' culture wherever I hang out in as it would be less certain. I think that's what I dislike.

I see Chinese culture and history as a place I spent a lot of time in - and no, I don't identify with being English either (tho idk who would LMAO have you seen the UK 💀) but I can't help but feel a pull towards Iceland and the places Norse myths came from. When I learn Icelandic it feels like I'm relearning an old language, like rereading a book I'd read when I was a child, and feeling a sense of familiarity- "Oh! I've seen that before!"

And I don't exactly wish I was born in Iceland. No, I value my past and the mixed cultures I was exposed to. Nah, I wouldn't change my past at all.

I think I just feel (like a lot of other people who came from immigrant families) that my 'chinese ethnicity' is something on my back I can't shake off, like that's 'what I really am'. Disregard how I was raised, etc. I don't blame anyone for thinking these things at all, but I think that's why I feel so much discomfort when the first thing people ask me is 'where I'm really from'.

In this day and age ethnically means less now. Maybe in the past it would be valuable to know because people didn't move around that much? But I doubt people ask for benevolent reasons and to gain a unique perspective from their view, influenced by their culture. Its just to know 'what your deal is', I suppose. To make themselves feel more sure when speaking to you, like asking an androdgenous person what their gender is. Irrelevant but makes the person feel sure of themselves, so they don't have to change their world view.

I am of the opinion there is a reason my background is so mixed. It does mirror Loki's in the myths in that way, though that isn't surprising. It's funny because before I was more comfortable in my identity as a deity I never really felt a connection towards one particular culture. Raised in England, grew up with Greek culture and Greek myths, English myths, ethnically Chinese with a weird mixed dynamic at home, my friends generally being of vastly different backgrounds and cultures too, I never really felt any of it was 'mine', till uh .. Iceland I guess. I used to feel bad for 'betraying my culture' till I realized its...uh...kind of a dumb thing to think. LMAO.

For one the idea of being 'from one place' is...uh...not as important as its made to be, if its not something YOU in particular are vocal and proud about. Aside from getting different perspectives because ye diff cultures=different perspectives, its not really...ehem...a Thing.

Also, on a funnier note, I kind of got disowned by China, my 'supposed' place of origin, because they vocally said they don't want people like me. In terms of British Chinese people. They don't want us lmao. We're not real Chinese people apparently.

So uh. Guess I'm disowned anyways.

And its not because I think Iceland is 'better', like their language and myths etc etc is Better than England's or China's or Japan's or Greece's etc. I don't see it as better or worse, its just home. I think honestly Chinese and Japanese culture to me is the most 'beauriful' and has the wackiest stories LMAO, it's not a matter of liking one or the other. It's just...that one, ye. That's the one. And I don't plan to not partake in stuff from the cultures I'm from, I just view it as a place I was raised and grew up in and its stuff is neat its just not home.

Context: A Loki who kinda vibed a lot of places and only feels at home with a place he's never been to YAYYYY

Yeah anyway fam, I'm joining the asexual storming of Denmark, is it over btw idc because I'll do another one

Hold my garlic bread

[vonbergerpants]

I like your post about Caspar father and now I'm curious what's your opinion on Linhardt's father I like Linhardt's father honestly

I'm going to preface this by saying that this is just my opinion and I don't hold that against anyone who likes him. So I hope people won't be too bothered by this because I think I'm in the minority here. 😭 I'm not here to convince anyone, I'm just here to show my own takeaway on this. If you like him, that's fine!

So, my opinion on Wally: As his own character, he's fine. In fact, I think he's a pretty funny character on his own, and even funnier when Leopold is involved due to their dynamic.

But I don't like him in relation to Linhardt and what he means to him.

So I've already mentioned that my opinion of Waldemar is not a positive one. And my reason for this is simple: A lot of Linhardt's problems and personality "quirks" have always felt like a result of his upbringing, just like Caspar's. Except Caspar's problems stem from his view of himself, and Linhardt's stems from he deals with his responsibilities.

What's Linhardt's biggest problem? Other than his outwardly apathetic nature, it's the fact that he runs away from his problems.

So the question is, what sort of painful memories is he running from? Why is that his go-to solution to anything that heavily inconveniences him? He mentions never having been able to deal with his past but not once does he elaborate on what that is, and I attribute that to how private of a person he is.

And what we know about Linhardt is that he's been constantly exposed to the nobility, so I can only assume that these unpleasant memories have to do with his own upbringing.

We all know what the biggest thing he runs away from is: he doesn't want to inherit his title and house and all of the responsibilities that come with it. And yet he's resigned himself to the fact that it's an inevitability of his future. He's even using the Officer's Academy itself as an escape - a time to relax and not have to think about his noble responsibility. Essentially delaying the inevitable as much as he can.

His lack of motivation is pretty clear to everyone, even to his father - I don't have the screenshot, but in Scarlet Blaze (Three Hopes), Waldemar makes a comment about Linhardt's lack of work ethic. And yet Linhardt's still expected to take on the position of heir, even when the thought of doing so clearly makes him unhappy.

In Dorothea's support, he talks about Waldemar's pride, of which he states he has too much of it. And this is not talked about in a positive light, because in his mind, pride serves no purpose. And recall that he calls nobles who are full of pride fools.

The biggest red flag that Linhardt is not happy with his family situation is his utter lack of care for what happens if his house falls in Silver Snow. He expressed worry for what his father thinks of him not wanting to inherit the house exactly once (during his pre-timeskip advice box), and that worry completely goes out the window once he's given the option to not have to deal with it anymore.

And keep in mind that this is someone who can't stand war and bloodshed. Yet he prefers to deal with his utter disdain for violence rather than stay at home and "indulge in laziness" (as his profile states - I'd say it's more like he was forced to deal with house matters in between all of that)? Reasons involving Byleth aside (and in my mind, Caspar's the real reason, but I'm biased), you can't tell me Linhardt was perfectly fine living at home if he was willing to desert to fight in a war of all things.

He stole money from his parents to get away from there, even!!

And of course, this is also why the Casphardt ending is my favorite paired ending for Linhardt - he drops his noble title along with Caspar and truly does what he wants, which is to have freedom. Freedom from his responsibilities. Freedom from his nobility. Freedom from his father's expectations.

The only conclusion I can draw from all of this is that Waldemar doesn't give him that freedom. He may have let Linhardt indulge in laziness, but all that mattered in the end is that he has his one and only heir to take over House Hevring, regardless of whether Linhardt wants it or not.

This is a bit of a side-note, but something else that actually really rubs me the wrong way about Waldemar is the fact that he was one of the nobles who took part of the Insurrection of the Seven, and yet also decided to aid Edelgard in her reforms. So on the one hand, he took part in the event that kept the other nobles in power, and on the other he's helping with the reforms that keep nobles in check. So what gives there?

This is pure speculation, but a theory that my girlfriend (resident Linhardt expert) came up with was that it was all done to ensure his own position stayed intact, and subsequently, that of his only heir. Either way, the whole contradiction bothers me a lot.

There's also this from Three Hopes - really wish I had this screenshot, but in Azure Gleam, if Linhardt fights Waldemar, they have this exchange:

Waldemar: "At least the Hevring name will survive in some form."

Linhardt: "That's always been your concern, hasn't it?"

That's always sounded like such a biting response to me that shows that Linhardt saw Waldemar as someone who was only concerned with having the family name live on. Even if Waldemar meant it in a way that meant Linhardt himself would survive, the way it was phrased does not do him any favors for how Linhardt views him.

Linhardt is not happy with the relationship he has with his father, and because he's such a private person, he never talks or think about it. All we have are context clues to draw from and his total aversion to the idea of inheriting his house against his father's wishes doesn't feel like ungratefulness, it feels like someone who knows they would be unhappy doing that for the rest of their life but feels like they don't even have a choice, even when on the side of the war.

Having a parent who places high expectations of your future is exhausting. This is no exception and I saw no change in that in Three Hopes.

[saintheartwing]

Anyone Remember "Envy" from 2004?

Anyone remember this film?

Yes. That IS a dead horse on top of the car. See, the film is based around Ben Stiller, who's friend and neighbor, Jack Black, is always coming up with get rich quick schemes. One day Jack's character has this great idea, a way to get rid of doggy do by spraying on it and POOF! It dissolves away. "Vapoorize" he calls it. Now, he asks his friend to invest but Ben naturally thinks it's a silly idea.

But the thing is...it works. Like a charm. The spray is a big success. EVERYONE loves it. They go wild over it. It's flying off the shelves. Jack's character is rich. He's practically rebuilt the White House next door to Ben, his kids eat flan for dessert every night, he has his own HORSE. And Jack's stuck making sandpaper in a lousy job with a wife who's like "Why didn't you invest in that idea, we coulda been rich!"

He gets drunk at a bar, and meets Christopher Walken. He's lost his job, he feels like a pathetic excuse of a man, and Walken's like "you gotta shake things up". So...REALLY drunk...Ben gets a bow and arrow set and is firing it off and...well, it looks like he's killed his neighbor's horse, Corky. Woopsy!

So they have to hide the horse. Leading to the ludicrous scene I showed you above. But Ben's still filled up with envy. Even when he says he wants to be a partner with Jack, suggesting travel-size vapoorize since, after all, it'd be a pain to bring a gigantic spray can with you on, say, a plane or train or a car, and he's finally getting some nice money of his own he's still feeling envious...and this is on TOP of Walken blackmailing him cuz now Ben is rich and he ain't got crap even though he helped Ben get rid of the horse.

Eventually Ben and Jack talk things out and things seemed to be worked out. Untiiiiiil...well, there's a big press conference Jack holds to finally address the continued question that pops up in the movie. "Where does the shit go". People keep asking "okay, but where does the poop go when you spray that vapoorize on it"? And he's about to admit it when...

Well, uh...see...the conference is by this beach if I remember right, and guess who floats by juuuuust as people notice? Corky. His horse. Which leads into Corky being examined by a veterinarian because of obvious health reasons. The vet tells them that the horse wasn't killed by Ben firing an arrow...no. It was POISONED. It died because of slow, steady ingestion of a chemical in the air. By itself, the chemical's harmless. BUT when combined with fecal bacteria, it becomes a lethal poison. And that chemical...is the third ingredient in Vapoorize! Meaning that...yes. Vapoorize is actually a ticking time bomb. The more you use it...the more you're exposed to it ALONG with that aforementioned fecal bacteria...eventually it'll kill you. So now it looks like they're all broke. They have to sell their stuff off. And as the two families are watching all their nice stuff be auctioned off, Ben gets an idea when the auctioneer talks about selling some FLAN. The idea being...

Pocket Flan. No spray! No mess! And if you're lactose intolerant, don't worry! They got a soy-based version. Now, who knows if it's gonna be a success but it can't end up going TOO bad for them if they can afford an informercial with a big studio audience at the end of the film bragging about it.

The thing is, this movie has some VERY funny moments in it. And the Vapoorize is sort of actually a good metaphor. He's created something that makes your problems go away. It literally makes shit disappear. It's easy. It's cheap. It's simple.

But it's actually slowly killing you. It's sort of a good metaphor for unchecked capitalism. This film could have been far smarter and funnier than it is. But it's just sort of...teetering on the edge. If anyone else remembers the film, lemme know in the replies.

[redandblackpoetry]

and onto my favorite part of ur answers: eldritch ghost crumbs (⁠つ⁠✧⁠ω⁠✧⁠)⁠つ

i'm v interested in ghost's past with roach, like the entirety of their relationship? hows and whys and whens!!! but i shall keep my silence for the sake of the sequel...... but!! ghost's issues keep increasing (well i keep learning there's even more baggage than i expected) with each of my asks/comments that u answer and i am Enjoying It. like yes. make him Suffer. hurt/comfort is a very superior trope and he is my sacrificial lamb to the angst gods

so idk much abt lovecraftian eldritch monsters (i know of the lore pretty vaguely) bc i am a Fool so idk how much u based ur plot on it but basically any eldritch lore dump is appreciated either way bc of that.

also ghost crumbling at peer pressure? now i feel that. well i think u meant more like a threatening sort of pressure rather than friendly jabbing but it's a lot more funnier when u consider ghost being exposed to peer pressuring and going. uh, ok. LMAO anyway it's also a v beautiful irony that a being that feeds off of fear doesn't welcome it in the parts of his life that he is the most vulnerable in so chefs kiss for that

his true form!!!! i was already guessing this bc it's pretty much implied i feel like but!!! does this mean, when ghost got captured by zaragoza he was in his true form? what are the dimensions even? and!!!! simon saw him like that? could 141 ever get a chance to see him like that, like can he leave simon's body and then come back? (i won't accept the answer of they will but he'll have to completely leave simons body, no sir. simon is along for the ride alive or dead, whether he wants to or not) (talk abt ride or die but die is optional while ride is mandatory)

more importantly, i'm like v v v obsessed with thinking abt simon's pov on first seeing ghost and how his opinion would've changed had the situation been more normal when they first met? like... is he also inherently a monsterfucker? (that's such an iconic question out of context btw, pls acknowledge my brilliance) but like soap sees the tongue and goes. hm. would simon also. ok no my brain is overheating at this point i'll shut up.

(i'm just thinking another au of an au yet again. thanks for the brainrot. it's branching and GROWING how do i stop it????? but like i'm imagining like timeline being different and ghost being captured by the opportunistic fuck shepherd and they try to use ghost in usual military fashion and simon maybe meets him like that and. wow now that i'm getting into it this has the vibes of those merfics of mer being caltured and the scientist seeing them and slowly getting to know them and it's then an epic save-the-mer adventure but mer is an eldritch monster and the pretty scientist is actually a built like a shit brickhouse, gruff military man simon who is Ver Reluctantly starting to get fond of ghost and is not happy abt it)

(i'm dying. why is my brain doing this to me. whyyyyyy)

anyway i have yet again wrote walls of text abt this fic so. i'll wander off and touch some grass before my brain explodes. i'm just. obsessed with all this. a tad too much perhaps so this ask is now ur problem. have fun

The hows and the whys and the whens of Roach and Ghost's relationship have pretty similar answers actually, it'll make sense when I get there hopefully. And I hope that it's as good as you're imagining!

Hurt/comfort ngl is one of my favorite tropes, and I love giving characters trauma and breaking them down and mending them back together and seeing how I can mend them

And don't worry about knowing the lore, as with most fanfiction I'm taking Lovecraft and his genre's works and kinda ripping it apart for juicy bits, though I'm trying to keep the overall impressions. The feeding on different emotions/things is entirely my own idea because I honestly needed some way to nerf Ghost since Lovecraft never elaborates on how his eldritch beings function, so I gave them a food source. The whole possession aspect is actually based on one of Lovecraft's characters though I filled in my own blanks (LC loves being vague for The Horror) and Ghost's parents are also eldritch horrors that are mentioned in his and others' works. Cthulhu also exists in this fic and is actually Ghost's nephew geneology wise! Thats gonna become important in the next chapter ;)

And yesss the fact that Ghost feeds on fear doesnt make him immune to it

And yes! Ghost was in his true form when he was captured by the cartel, though since he was weak he was smaller than normal (he stretches like silly putty). I put a lot of lore and background into each chapter so I'm never sure how much readers remember/understand especially if its spread out. Size wise during the cartel he was probably at least the size of a car, normally he's maybe the size of a six story building? He's actually pretty small compared to some of his kind

And yes, Simon saw him like that and was like "neat, I'm gonna make a deal with this thing because I was the cartel to Burn" and Ghost immediately vibed with that

Would you believe that I'm toying with the idea of the 141 seeing his true form in the main fic? Its gonna be very near the end, and there's a lot of angsty implications regarding it because remember, Simon's dead. Without Ghost to keep his body, well, alive and functioning what happens to a dead body?

Absolutely iconic question and I'd very much believe that Simon is definitely a monsterfucker. He's seen so many human monsters that it imagine its somewhat of a relief and very attractive for him to see a monster not trying to hide what they are. You're also giving me very naughty threesome Ghost/Simon/Soap ideas

And friend, dear mutual, I have absolutely no clue how to fix the brainrot as its infected me as well! And again with giving me ideas!! I was soo close to starting a new 141 fic focusing on Roach for mermay you have no idea, might come to your ask box and ramble at you about it

You know Venom, yes? This idea is giving very Venom movie vibes. Because Ghost is a hardass and he'd cave eventually and end up possessing the people that Shepherd brought in as cannon fodder but he wouldn't gel with them and since he's very prideful he's end up ripping them to shreds over and over. Until Simon. Until Shepherd captured Simon and they gel and Simon and Ghost bond and the 141 come to save them. The team finds out about Ghost and they just slowly introduce him to the world and help him heal and take him on missions

Welp this has been my wall of text, hope you enjoyed! I also need to touch grass but sadly its a beautiful day and I'm stuck at work