#now i dont really experience dysphoia

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My little pony is the sanity check. However, as someone who suffers from it, I was wondering if you suffer from some form of dysphoria.

If you don't want to talk about it, you can avoid answering

I dont mind answering

Hmmm. My dysphoria journey was an interesting one. I actually didn't feel much of any (or so i thought) for years. I liked my boobs. My long thick hair. I liked being a woman.

But I knew it wasn't quite right. Cutting off my hair was the first step and so euphoric. Then starting a low dose of hormones and seeing some changes. I needed more. It felt correct. I felt happy. Happier than I ever had.

Top surgery nearly made me cry it was the best thing I ever experienced. Id do it again if I had to. Every change my body went through began to put pieces into my puzzle that I didnt realize was missing.

The only time I felt (or feel) dysphoric is when someone saw me as a woman. When I was misgendered. When I was made to feel a burden for transitioning. Dead named. Received gifts I knew were meant for a girl doesn't exist anymore. Earrings. Skirts. Et cetera.

My actions made me feel alive and free and correct. The way the world treated me for it made me feel ill.